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😭 this is so sweet
A garden shop sometimes gifts mysterious tree sapplings to customers, but they always wither away. You receive one and plant it…and it ends up flourishing.
#writing prompt#short story#tw: mention of death#a lot of death#no graphic description#just a lot#might be a tear jerker#definitely made me cry a little#and i wrote it!#writers
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hi evie !! how have you been ? :33 i hope you dont mind me borrowing you and moze for something ehehe <3
#🐦⬛🐕 .#彡 nick!#彡 inbox.#evie.ss#omg good morning nick! my stomach literally twisted and flipped seeing this /pos /POS /the most positive gut wrenching feeling in existence#NICK AND THE REASON WAS ? WHY DO U NOT HAVE A KOFI LINK WHERE IS IT …. THIS ISNT OK I NEED TO FIND IT???? U CANNOT BE … BE …. BE UM … YOU K#I NEED TO 😭😭😭 I NEED ….. IS IT OBVIOUSLY IM CRYING WRITING THINSSJSJSN /pos /ULTRA POS THIS IS SO CUTE UR ART IS SOOOO AWESME IM SO IN AWE😭#typos: obvious* <- & barrier* -> amazing work evie#i broke the sound banner with the screech i made seeing this …. YOU … YOU DREW ME … THE EXACT WAY ….. I .. ITS SO SPOT ON I ????? I … IM#FLABBERGASTED . SHELL SHOCKED . GOBSMACKED IM SO OBSESSED WITH HOW U DID MY HAIR …. THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I DO MY HAID … AND THE CURLS ARE LI#LIKE THAT… IM SO OBSESSED WITH UR STYLE JSJSJJD HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I SAID IT???? UR STYLE IS MMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!! 1000/1000!!!!!! in specif#the colors … the colors are gorgeous and sooo nice to gaze at … the little wings … HOW DID YOU KNOW I LIKE- IM SO . (hugs knees and cries#YOU DREW THAT DRESS AWESOME-LY …. IM GENUINELY LOSING MY MIND AND I HAVENG EVEN .. looked at *him* ….. nick …. im complimenting it and i#can’t even see rn HEJSJCKCNITS BLURRY 😭😭 my head hurts so bad from sobbing but ive never been happier /pos IM SO ???? I LOVE HOW U DREW ME#i went to go triple check for the kofilink and found myself browsing through puppetgear tag once again u^u JENDNDKXJ oh my god . PLEASEEEEE#ok…. moze … he’s … so tiny .. he’s so cute … he looks so grumpy :’) /pos AND YOU .. u captured his squishable look omg….. he’s so teeny he’#literally as big as a fingernail on my phone im :’) HES POCKET SIZED I CANT BELIEVE U DID THIS /pos /ETERNALLY GRATEFUL#WHY 😭😭😭😭😭 YOURE SO KIND IM SO . IM SITTING ON THE FLOOR OF MY ROOM SNIFFLING AND HICCUPING AHENDNJXKC AND STARING AT THIS OF COUESE#i just saw the ask 😭 i definitely don’t mind im literally on my hands and knees to thank you and it’s still not enough JSNSNDNMC i have to#dig a dent in the hole and bow inside the hole …… it’s not enough … i genuinely love every square inch of this JSNDNXN i just adore … how u#did me … how u did moze (so— everything) even the circle in the background is a color that i adore 😞😞 sniffle …..#what a treat to see moze in ur style 😭😭 what a HUGE . Nice . AMAZING. TREAT . he looks so good in ur style UGH I WANNA FLOAT AWAY#the physical reaction i had in my stomach & head is unmatched /pos …. it’s vaguely similar to when u get called on in class while nervous .#and ur stomach flips .. but in a positive / EVSTATIC / insanely happy way … thank you so much omfg (link?) (please?) you are so kind ….#i don’t even know how to convey my gratefulness so im resorting to crying-staring-crying-staring-crying#(cries)#oh i never answered ur question haha :’) yea im great! :’) and you? :’)#im gonna put this in queue >/////< URK IM SO …. THANK U NICK ))))))):::: (link perhap?)#edit: OHHHH I SEE HOW U DID MY HAIR COLOR!!!!! that is so cool hello? it’s black- but not? and it fits so perfectly!!!! THAT IS SOO COOL WJ#NO WONDER I WAS ADMIRING THE COLORS EARLIER THIS IS SUCH A COOL THING (nonartist tries to explain how neat something is) NSNDNXKK
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i went into dungeon meshi thinking it was about sapphic monsters and elves but came out of it obsessed with Senshi.
also i love Laois and i think if he could eat his freinds without harming them he probably would and that cool, we could always use more cannibals
#digital art#illustration#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#laios touden#soup#freinds are not food#thistle is innocent#why cant people let mages have any fun#justice for crazy elves#hes just a little guy your honor#senshi#senshi fan service#senshi is my bbg#hyperpop#or my best attempt at hyperpop illustration#also inspired by hanako kun toilet bound style cuz its super colorful and pretty#dungeon meshi fanart#fanart#i can make bread with it!!!#delicious in dungeon fanart#tiktok edits fooled me into believing marcille and falin were a couple#mabey the sapphic monster couple are the freinds we made along the way#pattions for more lesbians in cool stories plz and thankyou#chilchuck is also cool for a divorced dad#i best he dose cool dad activities like.. idk mabey horse shoe throwing or sheshell collecting#this illustration took me 10hrs but ive improved so it ok and im definitely not gonna cry in the corner about me being so slow#i think laios would be a cool freind to have cuz its nice to just sit and listen to yappers sometimes#plz for the love of the gods do NOT use my art for AI.!!.!#laois is a big hefty guy and i appreciate that
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I was road down memory lane today so I drew the Protector's guild symbol on my hand using eyeliner. :DDD I think it looks good for a first attempt... Even though the quality of the picture sucks :'))) I wanna do all the other guilds as well even tho Grimshade is kinda complicated to draw on my body with one hand... Since my hands are shaky af.. I will draw them on paper next time and use them as a way to make the outlines better :3
#minecraft#mctv#minecraft rp#artists on tumblr#fanart#artistsupport#art#origins crew#fairy tail origins#Protectors guild#I don't think anyone from the crew is even on Tumblr so it's fineee nobody will see this...#My coping mechanism goes hard sometimes#sjshshs my friend asked me the lore and I told them a little :DDDD#they actually might start watching FTO I will literally cry#I promise I didn't spoil anything#I could but won't#I'm not a monster I swear#time to bring back my fanon oc because I actually recently redesigned him and he's just ✨✨✨✨#let me be childish ok#plus that oc is for both Fairy tail and FTO so hush it's not weird#definitely not#this made me so happy#happy happy happy#insert happy noises#looking at my hand aggressively#I don't want this to wash off but it will ahhhhh ToT#sob sob
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Adding to my ever growing pile. A fic about Darryl getting Grant to eat and them just. Existing and figure stuff out. N talking.
( muffled scream sobbing from behind my bedroom door)
#Matt and Anthony made two characters that make me wanna rip out my own guts. just hold my liver in my hands#i can imagine Grant losing his appetite/avoiding food bc it makes him sick while he's Going Through It and it worries Darryl a lot#so he'd try to get him to eat a little.#ALSO. DARRYL HAS BEEN SHOWN!!!!!! TO LIKE MAKING FOOD FOR OTHERS. LIKE A GENUINE ACT OF LOVE#this definitely parallels how him and his family was poor/had little resources like....#idk im projecting but he definitely cooks and gives so much bc now He Can and GRANT REFUSING/NOT BEING ABLE TO ACCEPT IT....#guys. guyssas#I will cry over the Wilson's. its so easy
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When the academically challenging course I chose and prayed and cried for academically challenges me: 😧😧
#remember when I switched from business to stem....#the only thing motivating me is this tiktok I saw saying how our complaints are privileges because so little women are in stem and so many#could never pursue it and that opened my eyes honestly#like yeah I'm fucking exhausted and it has definitely made me cry but oh wow I get to do this#I'm not doing this just for me but for all the women who couldn't#and I've said more in my tags than the posts gotta get back to chem#evie's random shit
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i have this silly little undeveloped au in my brain that's just like. tedependent but it's the sarah jane adventures. sort of. not literally in the doctor who universe necessarily but like. local intrepid reporter trent crimm investigating weird shit except the local neighborhood kids will not leave him alone.
i have so many thoughts about this but none of them are coherent enough for a proper fic i think:
i just think trent being good with kids, generally. go mentor figure trent! (what this has nothing to do with my thesis what do you mean)
trent, like sarah jane pre-series, having a sort of reputation in the neighborhood (or in general, since i'm also incorporating his actual canon vibes/story) as to being standoffish, aloof, cold, etc., and generally anti-social, keeping to himself. and as the kids keep dragging him into things kicking and screaming he might also be dragged kicking and screaming into a community <3
if his daughter is essentially luke does that mean he adopted her under Strange Alien-Related Circumstances? absolutely it does, yes.
see i've got two great ideas for ted/tedependent. on one hand, although in the context of SJA/nuwho i'm not so much one for sarah jane and the doctor as a Thing, ted playing the role of like. someone from trent's Mysterious Past who he won't talk about who set him on this path? someone who was kind and wonderful and changed his life but then--at least it feels like to him--abandoned him? someone who made him a better person--from doing whatever journalism he used to do to this--someone who he's still kinda in love with... but trent can no longer even really talk to......until he shows up again? that's some good shit, not gonna lie. although i'm jimmying that into a happy ending somehow, goddamn it.
ALTERNATIVELY. henry being one of the Neighborhood Kids (as if we're using "canon" kids, we've got limited options) and ted being an oblivious parent. trent is trying to get these kids to STOP POKING INTO DANGEROUS ALIEN NONSENSE PLEASE THIS IS HIS JOB PLEASE STOP BREAKING INTO HIS HOUSE but they're stubborn and smart and they may or may not have saved his life once or twice and oh GOD THIS IS SO IRRESPONSIBLE but he can't just TELL THESE RANDOM NEIGHBORS about ALIENS. but like anyway this just painful secret identity-esque nonsense where ted knows henry's taken a shine to that nice journalist down the street and his daughter but does NOT know that henry is getting into Shenanigans(TM). this could lead into all sorts of drama about, you know, his kid being in danger... or, alternatively, ted has worked with some unit/torchwood-esque place before and is like OHH you know what? this explains that time i thought i heard you speaking an alien language. cool, cool. and trents like. .....WHAT
etc. i'm not wording this well but i think you get the idea.
if you really really wanted to make it complicated you could do both, considering the doctor's whole thing--either a fob watch or a regeneration--but honestly, i don't want to do that, so i won't
some of the adults do definitely get involved though. keeley either clocks that shit right away or thinks she's clocked it but she's actually clocked something entirely different. she's like i know you're mi6 babe ;) and he. is not. meanwhile roy having ten freakouts in a row and then being like nvm i'm fine with this. (is not fine with this, but will be eventually). jamies like yeah aliens. everyone knows about those. and they're like what?? no they dont?? and so on.
is beard an alien? genuinely no one's sure. he's not telling.
HOLD ON can i give trent k-9???? can trent crimm get a robot dog?????? yes please i think he deserves a robot dog
also see the trickster episodes? bet you could do something real fucked up with those.
i feel like i had more when i started this post but i don't remember
this not well thought out at all and i have no idea where everyone would fit in
anyway my point is. trent crimm, intrepid journalist, running around trying to stop alien shenanigans while Those Meddling Kids keep following him around. trent crimm doin a little Breaking And Entering. scooby doo shit. and he has such an interesting mix of seeming suave and badass and then immediately doing something embarrassing. trent crimm--via shenanigans and also Those Meddling Kids dragging him into their lives (aka he tries to keep his distance SO badly and only is involved when dangerous shit is going down but like then it's all. child knocking on his door like IT'S AN EMERGENCY OPEN UP and hes like WHAT WHAT IS IT and theyre like can you help me with my homework :( and hes like. fuck. yeah fine what do you want help with. (some subjects he's very helpful on others he's VERY not) until they're like okay but you're coming to this bbq right. and he's like? no? and they're like you're coming to this bbq right. and so on) ANYWAY the point is they keep dragging him into their lives and now oops! trent actually knows his neighbors and has to go through the mortifying ordeal of being known. but that also means that when he gets badly hurt or sick he's used to the empty hospital room but now he actually gets people showing up and forcing baked goods on him and shit and i'm just feeling a lot of things about this extremely hypothetical au based on my already existing feelings about trent gaining a community in s3/post-canon,
wait does this mean trent gets sonic lipstick? HELL YEAH IT DOES
#well actually i have a LOT of silly little underdeveloped aus in my brain but#anyway. crack edition: the football players are still football players.#trent crimm wondering why he's trying to stop an alien spaceship from blowing up the block#with the help of a team of famous football players. roy kent just punched a raxicoricofallapatorian.#trent on the couch with a black eye bc they had a run in with a sontaron or some shit: [holding up peas to his face] okay.#so jamie tartt is here for some reason. and also the neighbor i have a crush on. and also his son. and also colin. this is fine#that's all a joke obviously but the imagery has me cackling#anyway this also made me think of trent as river song which doesnt work at first glance but then when i think about some PARTICULAR things#makes me cry. like. just. meeting him in reverse.#it's s3 trent--dorky and open and softer but sadder--that he meets first#and by the time he reaches the end he sees how far he's come out of his shell and how unhappy he was#but then they have their moment...#sorry that's also barely coherent and definitely wouldn't make a cohesive au without a lot more work im just spinning thoughts in my brain#trent crimm#tedependent#tedtrent#ted x trent#sja au#tvtcau#the first one before i even had that lol
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My roommate and I had a conversation last night and I keep rotating it in my brain and I Don’t Like It
#blue chatter#they called me a resilient person. and no the fuck I am not. I break down so easily over everything and my body is falling apart on me.#I scream in terror when someone knocks on the door too hard the fuck you mean I’m good at handling adversity#I pointed out that I freak out whenever my grade gets low even a little bit#and they were just sitting there like ‘yeah. and then you pick yourself up again and you do the work.’#and no? not always? oftentimes I give up and don’t try hard enough to fix it and let points go that I could have earned#I barely ever go for extra credit opportunities and I’ve never gone to office hours of my own free will#I can’t even think about talking to a professor about a bad grade without wanting to cry? hello?#but they were insistent that even with those things I am still managing Incredibly Well in class given the circumstances. which made me#uncomfortable. like. I don’t think of myself as resilient At All and I feel a bit like I’m lying or tricking them.#I start shaking like a chihuahua when people are upset and I’m In The Vicinity. even when they’re clearly not upset with me.#I really struggle to advocate for myself ever and even when I do I usually feel guilty and walk it back partway so I don’t cause a fight#and I always get way too emotional for the situation when someone has anything they’re upset with me for. which isn’t fair to them bc I need#to be able to take constructive criticism without taking it as a personal attack on me.#like what the fuck do you mean *resilient*. I can’t even handle seeing a bug flying near my face or getting a B in a class. or being told#that I did something wrong. I’m actually significantly worse at handling adversity than I used to be. high school me was a resilientish kid.#and it’s not like I was ever *good* at handling my emotions. even when it was essential for my safety. I’ve always cried way too easily#even when it actively made the situation I was in Much Worse. even when I knew better.#I would get angry and scared and sad and start shaking and crying and even screaming at my parents when they were mad at me even though#I knew that it would always make my life much worse. and extend an already beleaguered argument.#I brought this up with my therapist and she was like ‘well. anybody would have done that if they were treated like you were’.#which. okay. maybe so. I still feel like I should have been able to handle it and just shut up and move on and not make it worse.#but I am aware that this is probably a cognitive distortion. even so. that definitely doesn’t make me resilient.#I just. I feel gross being called resilient. I’m not. I’m weak and easily scared and unable to handle even small amounts of adversity.#the fuck is my roommate even *seeing*.#the annoying part is that they’re generally an insightful person about other people and I know logically that they’re probably right#which is why I’m not going to complain any more about this to their face bc I should just drop it and not make it a Thing#I talk too much about myself and my problems anyway. not every conversation has to be about my brain worms.#but the discomfort is Distinct and Unpleasant. and now I’m just having to sit with it. and Feel Uncomfortable. and try to accept what was#definitely intended as a compliment. I know it’s draining to talk to someone who doesn’t accept any of the kind things you say about them.
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I made a thing
Also @billiamdoor I referenced/linked to your WIP comic, I ran with the idea a little
#rolling with difficulty#rwd#vr la rwd#fanfic#fanfic by me#fun fact: i went through about 2hrs and 20min of a long focus music youtube video while making this (plus a bit of some actual rwd episodes#fun fact 2: i definitely made myself cry a little writing the latter half of this (and i regret none of it)#jess says stuff
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JUST RECEIVED SOME OF THE NICEST AND MOST THOUGHTFUL AND DEEPLY IMPACTFUL FEEDBACK ON MY WRITING I’VE EVER GOTTEN I’M SO EMOTIONAL OH MY FUCKING GOD
#pointy objects#HAVE NEVER MEANT ‘CRYING AND THROWING UP INTO MY HANDS’ MORE THAN I DO IN THIS MOMENT#pointy objects has amassed so many kind lovely readers and like i say ‘pointy objects nation’ as a joke but genuinely . so so so so so#thabkful and grateful and awed constantly by the little community that’s developed around jt. ive gotten very lucky that this happened#first with jump and now with pointy objects and it just Makes me so emotional and sappy and just really makes me feel good#i love writing its what i want to do forever and ever whether it be fanfic or original fiction and like. i recognize i am a talented writer#despite my own hashtag Insecurities but when people are like Can i commission you or Can i buy a physical copy or Can i financially support#you for yohr writing because it deserves it alongside the feedback im much more used to even if im still left speechless by#idk. it makes my heart feel warm. makes it hard not to smile.#there will definitely be (at least privately made and distributed) pointy objects hard copies and ill post commission info One day and#maybe even make a k0fi even though that sounds crazy like WHAT ⁉️⁉️⁉️ but for now i am just very thankful. sobs into my hands forever and ev
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feeling despair i don’t know how to put into words. im trying to figure out why im like this and how i got to be this way but i can’t even do it bc of the way i am and what im like. if that makes sense. like the problem prevents me from fixing the problem bc i can’t get to the root of it. despair despair despair
#purrs#delete later#basically i can’t internalize anything about myself. i can’t internalize that i am talented smart strong whatever and i can’t internalize#evidence that i matter and belong and am loved. i take in this evidence constsntly and it just evaporates. and then it’s like i have none of#it at all and im starving and shaking and dying and howling like a wretched little animal. and i live in this constant defaulstate of like..#feeling worthless and alone and utterly empty and like everything in my life is a dream or something. and in feeling that way and being#quite literally incapable of having emotional object permanence.. i actually make that situation real for myself. i make myself alone and#wretched. i isolate myself and shut down and don’t let myself take up the space i can. and it’s just awful. it’s unfixabke.#i just suck it all dry. i deny myself to myself and to everyone else. and idk what made me like this bc i don’t think i always used to be#this way w depression and depersonalization or whatever the fuck dsm 6 type shit i have going on. but i can’t internalize anything about#myself and my life and have no desire / willpower to look back beyond a certain point and really analyze and probe to figure out what#happened to me to make me like this so i can heal the core wound. soim just constantly in wretched tortured panicking creature mode. awesome#this cry for help brought to you by: my sister guilt tripping me into doing her laundry + my brother showing me his beautiful music +#realizing that unlike redacted i have not documented every part of my life and have no access to early childhood artifacts that would reveal#anything about me and that it does n’t even matter / isn’t special anyway. i love being normal 😎🫶🏻‼️#at least i haven’t been dissociating as badly about work stuff lately but. that’s definitely still a thing too so. what if my whole life is#just the wrong timeline i wasn’t supposed to be in and nothing is actually real. lawl 😳#this is a really awesome time for my therapist to be going on a monthlong honeymoon btw 😍 she deserves it so much but omg im dying already
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if each 5sos album was some sort of food, be it a singular item like a vegetable or a loaf of bread, or a wholeass dish, or anything in between, what do you think it would it be?
#tw food mention#tell me? pls? do all of them or just one! you can explain your choice or not. it can have a reason or just be based on vibes#this is not me opening a conversation to rag on one or more albums to be clear#s/t is mac n cheese except it contains at least two ingredients that can't be explained and the bottom of the pan is also burned#but it's tasty and satisfying and reminds you of simpler times so you love and appreciate it for what it is#sgfg is some sort of five course meal made out of the finest ingredients#and you consume it and everything's great#but then you run into the chef in the bathroom and he's crying his eyes out cos he's been on the clock for 15 hours---#---and he's tired and sore and kinda just wishes someone would validate his efforts and maybe find him a chair to sit on#youngblood is lasagna. except instead of ground beef there's nothing but veg and instead of bechamel there's cottage cheese and---#--instead of regular store bought cheese there's exclusive local cheese produced with love from milk from a cow named betsy#and it's fucking delicious but it's not at all what you expected so it leaves you feeling a little dumbstruck and confused#but then you keep eating and before you know it you're addicted and have to have this exact meal on a regular basis#CALM is...olives#and to be clear i fucking love olives#but i know not everyone does. cos it's definitely something of an acquired taste. which is kinda my point#it's not everyone's cup of tea and those who dislike it LOVE to let you know at every turn#but those who love it. be it cos they learned to love it or cos it was love at first sight. they REALLY love it#5sos5 is like...the most amazing fucking salad#a dish that could've easily become boring or unsatisfying or just generally lacking#EXCEPT the chef knew what he was doing. he knew how to perfectly bring out every single subtle flavour of his chosen ingredients#cos he put his heart and soul into that salad that at first glance could easily come off as just another salad
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regressing less comes with a certain feeling of grief for me... I miss the little kid I could be, while at the same time recognising that this is a wonderful step in my healing journey. I know it probably doesn't mean I will never regress again (at least at this point in my life) but it definitely feels a little heavy..
#i remember one time crying to my bf while regressed#about how child me was scared of having to leave forever#and she just wanted to keep being allowed to be herself#i definitely made my peace with it a little more now#but yeah... i miss her a little#agere#actual ptsd#ace writes#age regression
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I'm fatigued, my back hurts, I accidentally spent like 3 hours sat downstairs in a chair that made our back feel worse because our executive dysfunction prevented me getting up and going back upstairs even though I only went down there to get one thing, and now I really need to lay down but if I accidentally fall asleep again I feel like I'll wake up, realise I fell asleep and also that I feel like I wasted a big chunk of the day, and I'll end up feeling even worse again
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#vent post#posts made on pain meds#I went downstairs to get food but ended up having to wait longer than anticipated which is whatever#but then that meant I ended up sitting down and once we sit down it's like our brain stops being able to process that we can leave#I'll sit there the whole time going ''I need to get up and go back upstairs. I don't want to be sat here'' and just can't get up#I hate that this happens because while I know our executive dysfunction isn't our fault#and it's the exact same issue that stops us eating or drinking or going to the toilet or whatever when we need to#I still feel like I should be able to just get up and do the thing and just leave if I'm in a situation that I don't want to be in#and it's so hard to get other people to understand that I can't ''just leave'' because my brain just won't let that happen#like I want to but my brain won't register it as an actual thing I can do and it feels more like a weird abstract concept#than a thing I could actually do. it's like my brain can't connect the concept of the action to the act of doing it#and then I get frustrated because why can't I just do the thing that I know I should be able to do#and then I've spent hours not doing anything I meant to and mostly just feel like shit because of it and it keeps happening#and now I need to lay down and I know what's likely to happen if I do that#but I do need to listen to my body especially after getting stuck in a situation that makes our pain and fatigue worse#also we had to take pain meds earlier and that's definitely not helping with us feeling shit emotionally about all this#I hate having to navigate our brain and body just not functioning properly#I feel like we've had so little energy lately and it's reminding me too much of this time last year when we had that blood infection#I'm terrified of that happening again because we almost didn't get treatment because we started to assume it was just our new baseline#hmm apparently within like 5 minutes we've gone from ''ugh I wasted 3 hours'' to almost crying over medical trauma#I probably need to try and do something to calm us down but also I'm too tired to really do anything#which brings me right back to the issue that triggered this whole rant and me getting upset in the first place
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if you're still taking these: 15 & 20? 👀👀
15. 3 quotes that have a special place in your life
gosh okay i’m going to exclude song lyrics (“endings are also beginnings you see” from Evacuation is a top one for me though)—
“Maybe it's not black and white. […] Maybe the other option is that the world is fucking colorful and we get to decide what what colors we paint it with.” - Emily Axford (as Moonshine)
“you are happiest on the road, when you're not here or there, but in-between, that yellow line running down the center of it all like a goddamn sunbeam.” - Andrea Gibson (Your Life) (the context of this poem is being about gender/identity, and there’s a bunch of other parts of it i could quote here too)
“Work is an act of love.” - Brennan Lee Mulligan (that whole speech Pok gives to Riz tbh, but especially that line)
20. 3 adjectives that you’d use to describe yourself
my one weakness……. describing myself. yknow “yellow” is technically an adjective, which is The Color i use so i’m going to say yellow. queer. and then probably like, compassionate or diligent.
Send me a number!
#thank you!!!!#i am definitely still taking these i was just asleep <3#this was fun i love quotes#i feel like there are more quotes i could put in here but my memory is cheese#so we get double nerd fandoms and the gender poem#also i did make a concerted effort to pick positive adjectives#thank you to my friends who helped me with that one#and also made me cry a little#ask meme#hanbles
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What was your favorite part about writing A Funeral Prye?
I think my favorite part was when Atreus becomes Loki completely even if just for a few minutes. He's suffered already and there is no undoing what happened to him and yet he attacks with what misery and fury he has and is upset about the little things and not the bigger picture. He suffered something that I consider a type of torture and here he is thinking about how Svadilfari "saw him" and how Svadilfari is "taking his funeral pyre" since Atreus was creating that fire so he could die and go to his mother because Atreus didn't want to be trapped cold and alone forever. He's so irrational in this scene. There's so much happening and so much that he's feeling and he can't undo what happened. No one saved him. Not Heimdall. Not his father. Not even himself. It's just a tragedy that is only barely mitigated because he beats the everloving shit out of Svadilfari and then Heimdall finally kills Svadilfari.
It's also a fantasy. Hear me out. It's a dark "fantasy" and I use that word broadly. So the terrible evil happened and it was awful, yes, but Atreus gets his revenge and in the most brutal way possible. It doesn't fix anything. Maybe it doesn't even make Atreus feel better, but it's this fantasy that the Evil Abuser immediately pays for his crime in the most painful way possible. The audience routes for this go on and for Svadilfari to suffer because of the injustice because it's the little ray of light in the tunnel that we can get. Atreus gets his revenge. It's better than not getting it... but... does it change anything?
I don't know. It's a dark fic that can be just that or maybe it can make you think or maybe it's just the filler chapter to show what happened in Chapter 2 of "Mischief and Foresight"
I also really like the scene in the beginning where Atreus and Svadifari are getting along and it's all special and soft! And how Atreus even thinks to himself how he's having a great time until he suddenly just feels uneasy and uncomfortable and then it's just too late. It was always too late.
#His Funeral Pyre fic#This was longer than I meant to make it - oops#I just have so much to say about this fic#It was so brutal and while it was so intense for me at the time to write it I remember enjoying the process of making it#It was so painful and I think I made myself cry over it but that could also just be because I'm a big crybaby#This could also just be a long answer because I wanna sound like I really thought this all through#maybe I did and I just don't remember my whole thought process#Idk shit was DARK no matter what#Also idk if I'm allowed to use certain language like how anyone that's read this fic knows it's about a r a - anyways#idk if i'm allowed to say those words here despite how they would make this make more sense#Svadilfari being a little cold in the beginning and reminding Atreus of his father was definitely one of my favorite scenes#but nothing beats the whole inner fight Atreus had when he was “Loki” and he was bare and beating Svadilfari while his mind was jumbled#heimtreus#sunny's answers
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