#dbh vent?

[notfernintheslighest]

love playing Detroit Become Human because you can tell exactly who made it. it’s as though he had an oppression bingo card he was trying to fill: the holocaust, segregation, slavery, immigration, etc. yet, he still manages to make the only female character still have motherly urges when she breaks free. why does Kara still feel the need to take of Alice when Markus is also a care taker robot 🤨 OH AND HE CLEARLY HAS THE MALCOLM X WAS BAD MINDSET BECAUSE HE PUNISHES YOU FOR LETTING MARKUS USE VIOLENCE?! EVEN THO HIS GIRLFRIEND CONSTANTLY WANTS HIM TOO!? DBH would be so much better if characters other than Conner (white male cop 🤨) were actually thought out. i don’t think david cage had met a women or someone out side of his own racial group when he came up with dbh.

[clopinasworld]

DBH Themed Prompt Month | Day 17 | Snowstorm

1h30 speedpaint

[nocturnalagency]

I feel.. upset with myself. I just got into DBH only to find out that the fandom is.. semi dead. That makes me so upset cause there’s literally nobody I could share this with anymore. I mean, it’s still not gonna stop me from making a story au typa thing based in the DBH world. I hope that one day in the future it gets reignited but I don’t think so. There’s no DBH 2 so it won’t rake in any new fans nor is it trending anymore.

[meddlingwithchaos]

The anti obsession is actually crazy. No one had mentioned hankcon, yet here they are voicing how gross they find it. Even a vague death threat. How cute.

[ask-rk900]

After months on end, possibly years of minimal or no social interaction, he decided it was about time to admit his flaws, shortcomings and overall failures that led to this.

"I loved him, and I don't think he never once told me he felt the same.. I did everything I could to show him how much I cared, how much he meant to me.. I had finally started to let my guard down around a person, because I thought I could trust him. I stupidly thought that he felt the same.. but he suddenly decided to abandon me.. and he didn't even give me a reason. Just that I wasn't good enough for him.. I was never enough... even if I trusted him, loved him and was willing to put myself aside just to be with him...."

Nothing he did was good enough. It never would be. He was NEVER enough for him.

"I was just stupid enough to think that I might mean something to another person... even when I know I am unworthy..."

[harmonytre]

For anyone who followed me for DBH content, or sent in requests, I'm sorry but it's unlikely you'll see any more. I'll still take commissions, but the fandom kinda pushed me out and I'll give only a few of the many reasons below.

I thought it was a welcoming community, but I quickly learned otherwise. I was neutral about a lot of ships, and it turns out that's not okay? I got hit from both sides with hate for this one.

Calling it "straightwashing" to not ship two guys of undetermined sexuality is ridiculous. Especially since I shipped those guys with OTHER guys, just not each other.

There was constant toxic shippers in my inbox. I never went out of my way to go into ship tags to harass people. I never told people to "get off the internet" or "stop making art" because I didn't like it. And yet people kept doing it to me. For every 1 person I blocked, 5 more would follow. It's messed up man.

On a similar note, I got harassed the same way for? Having? A favorite character??? Seriously? Connor was a fan favorite, and yet people would be like "ugh, another Connor fan, seriously?" Bro, let people have fun.

A final thing I guess, is I hated how often people would be shocked I liked DBH. I hated wanting to animate or request art and it'd be labeled as a "banned fandom". But I guess I understand now with how awful the community is. (Not all of it, of course. There are some gems. But with how often this stuff happened on both tumblr and discord? Yeah . . .)

[chubbybarbie]

Hank's line in the Cyberlife tower, about his son and the human surgeon who was too high to do the surgery...

"Him and this world where the only way people can find comfort is in a fistfull of of powder..."

Really kinda hits home for me. That's why I relate to Hank so much. As someone who has lost many loved ones, struggles with connecting to people, anxious attachment and a fear of intimacy, and substance use. I'm always on the brink of tears when I hear that line.

It makes me think I should do better, but I can't help myself.

[e-kamski-cyberlifeceo]

Dying sounds fun!

[jerichosinsideman]

I've been at a meeting this weekend, as you may know, and there were some comments made that got me thinking again.

It's hard to admit to this, but I really feel like I live in markus' shadow. Nobody seems to respect me for me. They just see markus' boyfriend. I love markus more than I can put into words, but people treat me like a cheep replacement for him, and it hurts.

[lotusthewriter]

I feel I'm knockin' on heaven's door

Fandom: Detroit: Become Human

Rating: T

Relationships: Platonic Hank & Connor

Characters: Connor, Hank Anderson; MENTIONED - Markus, Amanda

Summary: Connor has a personal question to ask Hank, but not the kind of question Hank is expecting.

Word count: 1.381

AO3 / Fanfiction

TRIGGER WARNING - suicidal thoughts

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“Hank?”

“Hm?”

“Can I ask you a personal question?”

Hank rolls his eyes and sighs.

“Alright,” he says.

Connor takes a long time to ask it.

“... what do you do to cope with your suicidal thoughts?”

Hank watches him for a very long time, trying to read the android, who avoids his stare.

“Well, you know me, Connor. But I guess they just… got less louder nowadays,” he answers regardless. “They’re still there sometimes, and… I dunno, I still want to die, but I remember some things are worth living for.”

Hank expects Connor to say something, but is only met with tense silence. The latter regrets asking the question in the first place.

STRESS LEVELS: 60%

“Why?” Hank urges, seeing that he won’t get anything. “Do you… think about dying?”

STRESS LEVELS: 68%

“Do you want to die, Connor?”

The android wishes he had a coin right now.

Hank has scooted closer to him.

“Connor,” he says, softer, “you can talk to me, bud.”

If you told the former lieutenant he’d ever sound like this towards Connor, he’d give you the middle finger and tell you to fuck yourself.

Connor realizes he’s hugging his own knees, curling into a ball to protect himself. Hank has apparently muted the TV given there’s no sound other than Sumo whining and sniffing the android’s foot.

Connor quickly glances at Hank, only to avert the gaze again.

“I just keep thinking…” he lets out without planning to.

Hank waits.

Connor gulps.

“... it’s my fault.”

“What is your fault?”

“I… hurt people.”

Past Connor would’ve called them “deviants” like they’re not living beings.

“And CyberLife almost took control over me.”

He can instantly feel Hank frowning at him.

“Wait, what?”

Connor never told anyone about… her. Not even Hank knows.

“During Markus’ speech,” he explains, “when I thought I was finally free… she- they tried to control me. I would’ve killed Markus right where he stood.”

STRESS LEVELS: 75%

Connor’s vision… blurs, for some reason.

“Ever since that day, I keep wondering if I’m free at all. I wonder if anything I feel or do is real. If they’re the ones behind it the entire time. After all… they planned my deviancy. Who knows if they’re coming back again? Who knows if I actually end up killing Markus one day?”

STRESS LEVELS: 80%

“That’s why I…” Connor sniffs. Something is coming out of his eye. Something that aches and burns. “I feel like I do just ruin everyone’s lives, and it would be better if I didn’t exist.”

STRESS LEVELS: 87%

WARNING! STRESS LEVELS RISING CRITICALLY

Suddenly, like it’s reading Connor’s computerized mind, an arm is wrapped around him, and a warm body is next to him.

“... but you didn’t kill Markus, did you?”

Connor shakes his head. “No, but if I did–”

“You didn’t kill him, Connor. You fought CyberLife with your own free will. You liberated all those androids, you fought your evil clone and you saved my life, more than once. You saved so many lives. Do you think CyberLife would care about saving anyone? Would they care about me? Or Markus?”

He shakes his head again. “Still–”

“Connor,” Hank’s other hand touches his arm. “You are alive.”

“Still, Hank, what if they try again?”

“Then you won’t let it. You’re strong, Connor. Maybe the most stubborn motherfucker I know.”

He admits he lets out a little snort, so naturally…

STRESS LEVELS: 75%

Still, the… tears won’t stop.

If anything, there are more of them.

“It just hurts, Hank,” he admits.

Hank sighs. “Yeah.”

He speaks from his heart.

There’s something in Connor’s mind that feels even more of a secret than Amanda.

“Hank?”

“Yeah?”

“... when I was in that stage,” Connor prefaces, “with the gun in my hand… I considered shooting myself instead of Markus. For a moment, I thought it was the right thing to do. The only way to be free.”

The silence becomes heavier.

Sumo is licking his feet now, probably as a way to comfort him.

Connor is waiting for a reply. Anything. Even if it’s nothing at all.

So, he’s surprised when two arms are tightening around him, tighter than he’s ever been hugged.

Hank is hiding his face in Connor’s shoulder.

“You found another way,” he mumbles. “And I’m really proud of you.”

His voice breaks at the last sentence.

The android doesn’t think he’s ever seen the ex-lieutenant… cry.

Connor feels guilty.

He gets it now.

If Hank lost someone else…

“I’m sorry.”

Hank is suddenly pulling back with the most serious expression.

“Connor, it’s not your fault. You don’t have to apologize for wanting to die.”

“But I would’ve hurt you–”

“You’re hurting, that matters, too. You matter, too.”

STRESS LEVELS: 65%

Connor is the one lying on the older man’s shoulder now, as if out of exhaustion. Hank is squeezing him again, rocking the two of them side to side.

STRESS LEVELS: 55%

Connor is sobbing even if quietly. Hank is soothing his back, making sure he’s there for him every single minute. In the meantime, Connor can sense Sumo lying his head on the RK800’s lap, which is surprising given the dog would’ve probably jumped on the men to be part of the hug.

The android eventually quiets down, and even so, Hank doesn’t let go just yet. And the former is grateful for it.

STRESS LEVELS: 48%

“Connor,” Hank calls him, “If you ever feel like dying again, please tell me. If you want to hurt yourself, tell me right away. Try not to suffer in silence, alright? I know how much it hurts being alone, and I know that talking to people helps. It’s not easy, but it does.” He pats Connor’s back. “I’m sure Markus and the others would be willing to help you, too. They’re your people, and you’re theirs.”

The RK800 tenses again.

STRESS LEVELS: 56%

“What if they hate me if they found out?”

“If it helps… Markus would never hate you. He’d do anything to help. If the others hate you, then they’re a bunch of hypocrites. So many androids have done things they’re not proud of. Maybe Markus has his own baggage, too. That’s probably why he welcomes everyone.”

Connor thinks about it, and indeed, Markus might be the most receptive person he knows. He would probably drop everything to help Connor if he were in any sort of trouble.

STRESS LEVELS: 40%

“You’re not alone, Connor,” the former lieutenant reassures him. “We’ll make sure of that. You just gotta allow yourself to be vulnerable, like you did right now. It’s hard, I know. That’s why it’s one step at a time.”

Connor looks at him with admiration. Hank is very wise and honest, even if he developed a hard shell throughout the years. Connor admires him for opening up like this, for hugging the android, for never hesitating to protect him and be there for him in dire times.

The RK800 smiles.

STRESS LEVELS: 30%

Finally, Hank lets go. They’re both smiling at each other, with teary faces and everything. Connor gives Sumo the attention the latter is dying for, judging by his wagging tail. Meanwhile, Hank stands up to grab something from the kitchen… as it turns out, it’s a cup of thirium that they customized. Connor thanks him and drinks it, which feels so relieving.

STRESS LEVELS: 25%

Hank and Connor, along with Sumo, watch TV until bedtime comes. Connor doesn’t need to ask to sleep in Hank’s room tonight. If anything, the older man doesn’t want him to be alone, either.

Since the stage, Connor has been afraid of going into sleep mode. He’s always scared that CyberLife, Amanda might return.

You accomplished your mission.

STRESS LEVELS: 40%

Connor is staring at the ceiling, clutching the blanket tightly. He looks to the side, seeing Hank’s back.

The android reaches him, wrapping his arm around him.

For a moment, Hank doesn’t do anything. Connor might sense him tensing a little. Maybe due to… familiarity.

Still, eventually, Hank is turning around and hugging Connor back.

“You’re alright, I got you,” he whispers, running his fingers through the other’s brown hair.

Connor allows it.

STRESS LEVELS: 30%

“I got you, Connor.”

Connor breathes in.

And out.

STRESS LEVELS: 15%

He’s alive.

[circusclownsam]

I’m going to cry.

I had my cute lil dbh oc all organised.

I didn’t have it tagged or listed as “dbh oc” because yk, I was gonna do that when I post it🤷‍♀️

Thought it was an oc for a fandom I’m no longer apart of.

I fucking deleted it😭

I spent an hour making that oc, only for it to be deleted.

[ordinarybxtch]

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[meddlingwithchaos]

The anti obsession is actually crazy. No one had mentioned hankcon, yet here they are voicing how gross they find it. Even a vague death threat. How cute.

[lovelesslittleloser]

All my fucking tabs committed seppuku and now I’ve got to manually search for the coolest fucking fics I’ve ever read, like the fnaf/dbh crossover, the dbh fic where conner is just a psychopath, all of the new fics that I opened in new tabs because they sounded cool as shit but never got to read and know nothing about because it’s been WEEKS,

[laz3otakugirl]

Elijah Kamski can break me

Idk why but I've been going back to DBH lately, and omg Elijah has my heart all over again. Like holy fuck, I just wanna know what he thinks...