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thinking a lot abt how each of the hargreeves’ powers is a stand-in for attributes one might take on when growing up in an abusive home.

luther’s superstrength: the unintentional capacity to harm. being used to a different standard of behavior, to the extent that you have to guard your movements because you might unintentionally harm someone, because you’re used to being swung at hard, and you’ve learned to emulate that behavior, to have such a tolerance to it that you don’t realize it can really hurt someone who doesn’t. you know it’s something you can’t just do, but you can’t not do it, because you can’t turn it off. it’s the only thing your body knows how to do.

see: luther’s body language, for most of the season. he doesn’t mean to destroy things, or hurt people, he just keeps stumbling into it, and has to guard himself against it. and… well. he gives into them. for a good reason, he tells himself, but he gives into them.

diego’s super-precision: an intended capacity to harm, one that you’re so comfortable with, that’s become so easy and natural, that you’re so used to using to guard against someone taking advantage of your vulnerability (which you’ve spent a lot of your childhood having done to you, or being told that it will be done to you), that it keeps slipping out of you when you feel slightly threatened. 

see: his verbal berating of luther and vanya and allison and, to an extent, eudora. he knows exactly where to hit them to make them feel humiliated or alone or angry or disrespected and he can’t help but keep digging and digging at them.

allison’s rumoring: manipulation of others into doing what you want, being who you want, and giving you what you want. something you learn to do because you learn that nothing good ever comes for free, and that if you want love, or success or safety, you’d better claw your way in and make people give it to you, because they won’t let you have it in any other way. or, if they would, the way to get to it is totally alien to you. you have no idea what it is, let alone how to engage with it. so you fall back on the manipulation, because it’s familiar, because at least you can do that.

see: all the shit she canonically does that the show doesn’t want us to think too hard about. rumoring herself a career, a husband (and potentially other lovers, but noticeably not luther), a child. 

klaus’s seeing ghosts: being haunted. literally, being haunted by what happened, or by the people that hurt you, to such an extent that those memories follow you everywhere, that they surround you, that you can’t escape them and find yourself unable to function in everyday life.

see: … i mean. the literal ghosts.

five’s time-traveling: trauma fucks with your relationship with time and space. you become hyper-aware of where you are, and where you have to go to get away from a situation the second it goes a way you don’t like. it happened fifty years ago or a day ago, it’s happening right now, it’ll happen tomorrow and the day after that and the day after that, and you have trouble telling the difference. and you can get as far away from trauma as you want physically or chronologically, but at any second, you can be sucked back into it mentally, or find yourself unable to get yourself out of a location when you need it the most.

see: five getting trapped in the future and the department store. five, having flashbacks to being trapped in the apocalypse. 

and of course the more obvious: because of this strange relationship with time, you feel like you’ve grown up so fast, when you haven’t at all. or you grow up, yet you’re still acting like a child.

see: five’s a physically-13-year-old who’s legally 29 and has a 29-year-old peer group, with a 58-year-old mind.

ben’s tentacles: trauma is ugly. trauma is scary. trauma is nausea-inducing. it’s going to burst out and leave a big mess whether you ignore it or indulge it. and you cannot control it as much as you want to be able to, and as much as everyone around you wants you to be able to, and it feels like it’s going to literally eat you from the inside out.

see: the siblings’ reaction to ben’s powers in the bank robbery. big dead-dove-don’t-eat vibes. 

vanya’s initial lack of power: having your agency stripped from you. being isolated, being made helpless and being taught to suppress. being overlooked and neglected.

and her power itself: an unstoppable storm of emotion that’ll consume everything in your life, because all those feelings you’ve been hiding for so long, that you’ve been taught to hide for your entire life, are on their way out, and you can’t stop it. 

yeah. so. it’s not a coincidence that their powers go on to fuck up their lives beyond traditional repair.

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If you're gonna say that Klaus is a narcissist, just fucking block me at this point

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What will you be tonight? That’s the question

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Jason: When I die again, my tombstone won’t say RIP, it will say VIP.

Tim: That’s because they reserved a special place in hell for you.

Jason: Yeah, the throne.

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Ok dug the finale of Agatha All Along but ghost!Agatha really being giving Ghost of Christmas Past from A Muppet Christmas Carol vibes

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bro is that fucking jason todd

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Thinking about Jason and Bruce and some other Batfam people (Dick would kind of be needed too, and Cass and Damian would fit here as well) and only one of Tim, Steph and Duke (it's important that only one of these three are present here).

Anyway, for convoluted plot reasons, they all get trapped in some magic realm place by some random villain. The villain says that only a person without blood on their hands can "open the door" to return them to reality.

Intense discussion starts, and from the get go, Jason, Damian and Cass are not in the list of options. Now, this is from Jason's POV, so he's thinking like "well, idk the technicalities but it seems reasonable that Dick would be the one to do it."

Cue Bruce and Dick (and Tim if he's there) eyeing each other awkwardly when Jason suggests Dick.

Something something Dick says that the person he killed was brought back to life, but he doesn't want to risk the wording of the spell trapping them to consider that he did kill someone.

(no they don't say who he killed, and obligatory "no, it wouldn't be good for Jason to find it out, because it wasn't done for him 👍").

Anyway, more discussions happen and then Bruce decides he's going to try to free them and Jason is just "???????? Excuse me????"

Everyone is "???????" at Jason.

And Jason is like "well, if it still counts if the person came back to life, then Bruce obviously can't do it. It has to be Tim/Steph/Duke".

And Bruce is also "???????"

And the worst thing is to notice that Bruce didn't even notice that he killed Jason with the batarang :/ he thought there was something there, that Bruce's choice revealed something, but the bastard doesn't even know what he did.

Jason is conflicted about revealing the truth, because admitting that Bruce chose to kill him instead of letting him kill the Joker is his most shameful secret.

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dungeon meshi ah dungeon meshi

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looks like october is…. octover

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Jason would absolute do shitty youtube interviews. like some lame dude would find him at 5:45pm on the streets and run up with his phone and interview him and Jason with 30 inutes to spare would be like Sure why tf not, and then you have a 20 min unedited raw footage of red hood doing a crazy ass interview where he pulls shit out of his ass 60% of the time. and the video gets 200k views in 4 hours. trending the next day.

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★ "But I knew him" ★

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People are talking about how reading Dungeon Meshi gives them an internal monologue Senshi for eating properly I think we all need to adopt an internal monologue Chilchuck at work. Like the boat is literally sinking and he's just watching it happen because he's on his lunch break.

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Marcille relearning her native language takes a turn

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has anyone done this yet

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Senshi was busy so they sent me a grim omen instead

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Sometimes I’m reminded that in universe Chilchuck is an actually influential figure who like. Made huge advancements for his people and community. Like as in gave them rights and protections. And who is widely known by half-foots because of that. Like. He’s not just some guy.

Idk For some reason that just makes his role in canon really funny to me. Like this older, extremely important and accomplished figure is just willingly putting himself thru it for the sake of this random autistic 26 year old.