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Steddie Week Day 2: Angst
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apparently, I can never leave things as a one-shot so today's submission is a continuation of yesterday's. tomorrow's will also be a continuation of this idea so I will properly link it all once it is done.
part 1, part 3
Steve walks up to Eddieâs trailer, muttering small encouragements under his breath. Itâs no big deal, just him and Eddie alone. No one to take his focus away or distract him before he says something stupid. No, just him and Eddie in an empty trailer, alone.Â
He knows exactly whatâs going to happen. Eddieâs going to say something nice like he always does, and Steve is going to flush. Struggle to find something to say in return and instead, just make a total fool of himself and say something too far. Eddie will laugh it off like he does and it returns back to the comfortable silence between two good friends.Â
Because it totally wasnât awkward to just sit in silence with someone while skirting off touches and trying too hard not to stare that you just end up doing it anyway. Totally not awkward.Â
All Steve hopes is that he can get through one night without spiraling. Being around Eddie was enough, he canât let his mind wander to places he knows heâll never come back from. If he leans into the touch that Eddie loves to give or the smile that seems to form whenever Steve is around, there will be no coming back from that. Heâll tell Eddie how he feels and how he wants this to be more. But it canât.Â
Eddie didnât like Steve like that. Hell, Steve didnât even know if he liked guys. Under the assumption that he did, Steve couldnât help but think that he was so not what Eddieâs type would be. He couldnât imagine a metalhead dating a preppy ex-jock like him. No, heâd go for someone a bit more rough around the edges. Someone who liked the same music and movies, who didnât have to stop and ask a million questions every time he talked about something Steve didnât understand. Someone who didnât have bad days where his head just couldnât stop spinning and any small noise made him want to throw up.Â
Someone who wasnât Steve. Because Steve seemed to mess up every relationship heâs ever been in, and he didnât want to mess up whatever he had with Eddie.Â
He knocks on the trailer door, taking a deep breath before putting on a smile he knows is fake. There is stumbling around coming from inside the trailer before the door whips open, Eddie greeting Steve with his big smile. âStevie, glad to see you actually showed up.â
âI said I would, didnât I,â he says, trying to be playful but just coming off annoyed.Â
Eddie rolls his eyes. âWith the way youâve been avoiding me the past few weeks, I was waiting for a phone call with an excuse.â He leads Steve into the house, shutting the door behind them. âBut here you are, and as promised. The late tapes.â
He holds out a stack of two tapes. âThereâs supposed to be three,â Steve comments as he takes the tapes out of Eddieâs hands.Â
âI am well aware of that. I thought we could watch that one since I know youâre not a fan of horror. Donât want to have to hold youâre hand when you get too scared.â
The lump returns in Steveâs throat. âThanks,â he squeaks out, unable to find a response that would make him look better. He really does hate horror movies.Â
Eddie brushes him off. âWhat are friends for, right? Go on, settle in. Iâm getting a beer, want one?â
Steve gives him a small nod and focuses on the couch, sitting in his normal spot. Eddie wanders off to the kitchen, muttering something Steve canât make out under his breath.Â
Friends. Steve and Eddie were friends, nothing more. He knew that, forced himself to recognize it on a daily basis. It used to bring him some happiness, knowing that he at least had Eddie in his life. But as they got close, the affection he had for the other man only grew. Now being around him hurt.Â
Because Eddie would throw around words not knowing how they would affect Steve. Calling him nicknames that bordered on the line of romantic. Calling him sweetheart or princess just to crawl under his skin, but them having the opposite effect, only making Steve flush instead of getting annoyed. Saying âItâs a dateâ when they both knew it wasnât. It was just a regular hangout, but Eddie would call it that just to tease him.Â
And Steve couldnât stop his reactions. His face would betray him as blood rushed to it, painting his face red. His throat would close up with a lump so big that he could barely get a word out. Insides tying up in a knot only to remind him that he was so out of his comfort zone.Â
He doesnât really know why he acts like this, usually acting so smooth and confident around the people he likes. Maybe because there was always the knowledge in the back of his head that if he struck out with the next girl, there would probably be one that wanted him. Even when he was constantly striking out, he never was short on finding words, instead, they just flew out of his mouth in the most awkward way possible. But he was Steve Harrington then, that at least got him something.Â
That something didnât work with Eddie. His âHarrington Charmâ was put on the sidelines when the other man was around. Because when Steve was around Eddie, he wasnât âSteve Harrington the old king of Hawkins Highâ. He was just Steve, plain old Steve who was traumatized and hurt beyond what any other person his age has been. Steve who was fragile and gentle in all the right ways. Steve who was insecure about his appearance and wondered who could see through the cracks of his mask enough to see that heâs not who he claims to be.Â
Eddie never saw that though, even though the mask tends to slip whenever Steve was around him. Because out of all the things Eddie did, he never pitied Steve for his pain, never made him feel less than for having a bad day. Never expected anything more from Steve that he couldnât give, only wanted what he could. He just wanted to be around Steve for Steve.Â
It was so easy to fall for Eddie because of that. How could he not? It sometimes felt that there were only two people in the world who knew who Steve really was, Robin and Eddie. The two people he could be himself around and would never get any judgment from. And Robin was his platonic soulmate, it only made sense that the other person would take the other side of his heart.Â
âAlright, Stevie,â Eddie plops down on the couch and hands Steve a beer, clanking their bottle together. âLetâs watch this thing.â
Eddie tosses his arm across the back of the couch, hand ghosting over Steveâs shoulder. He shifts, pulling away from the touch he so wants to sink into. âYeah,â he mumbles. âLetâs watch it.â
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âWhen Chronos stormed your fatherâs House, I fled with but three things: Hypnos, because he was there; that family portrait, which pulled at my heart, and you.â
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title: minted: part three (m) pairing: street king!yoongi x street vendor!reader series: masterlist | one | two rating/genre: m (18+) ; angst , smut ; haegeum au , gang au summary: at this point, you would do anything to forget. including the unthinkable with a gangster. note: sooo this series basically saved my writing slump haha. i am still having the time of my life and iâm so excited to show yâall more of this minted universe. and to also show you just how spicy things can getâ€ïžâđ„ note 2: this is ofc a present for hali @sailoryooons that spiraled into a whole universe. still always gonna thank nary @joonary for letting me use the vendor reader idea, as well! also happy birthday to @remmykinsff @awbells @keylime4eva @aaclariww and @noshit-cantfindagoodone!! to everyone else having a bday around this time, this is my gift to you hehehe. warnings: language, drugs, alcohol, slow burn, murder mentions, gang activity, mint!yoongi, haegeum!yoongi, tatted!yoongi, his eyebrow is pierced, chains bc of course :)), world-building, reader is still sassy, yoongi is still infuriating, tension explicit warnings: under the cut! drop date: december 9th, 2024, 9:03pm est word count: 12.3k đđ
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âBut,â you exhale with a shake. âJust for tonightâŠâ Â
This is it.
The brink of no return.
Your soul dips into the dark.
âPlease make me fucking forget.â
Did you go too far?Â
Is there a limit to his accommodation? Did you actually think this was gonna be easy?Â
When silence swirls between your robes, you start to second guess your demand.Â
But Yoongi simply stares before stepping aside, allowing you to enter his room with jellied legs.Â
This is madness, but youâre gonna go through with it. Whatever the hell this will be. Because you may not know much, but you figure all men sit up the same when sex is on the table.Â
This man, though...Â
Quite frankly, you arenât sure about anything when it comes to him. Unless itâs about him doing something questionable. Then thereâs no question about it.
The enigma himself makes no conversation as you step inside, even as your eyes roam around a cleaner, more put-together room than when you left the first time. Did Yoongi clean this much while you made a mess of your dreams?Â
The only answer you get is a door shutting, followed by a massive presence at your back. Before you can so much as turn around, the first words on your shoulders burn like embers,
âWas he your first.âÂ
Fuck.Â
This isnât what you approached him for. Heâs supposed to make you forget, not remember. Remember?
You donât turn around; you donât respond right away. Instead, you swallow before focusing very hard on the fact that Yoongi sleeps on the bedside nearest the window. At least, judging by the way the covers are flipped. You happen to prefer the side opposite.
The heat from his body proves soft but intense, and you canât help but close your eyes when you finally answer with a question,Â
âDo you remember yours?âÂ
âYes.âÂ
âDo you ever regret it?âÂ
âNo.â
Your vision lowers to the rug lying still under the bed. A splash of light grey amongst a darkened, moonlit sea.Â
No matter how quick Yoongi answers. No matter how even his tone.Â
He still remembers it, too.Â
But this isnât what you expected when you walked in here. You assumed this man was going to get right to it, save no room for you to second guess yourself. Clearly he gave zero shits about kissing you in that taxi, and he damn near undressed you in the living room.Â
So whatâs the holdup here? Does he want this for real? Or not?Â
Head at a slight angle, you admit with a hint of finality, âI donât wanna talk about that.âÂ
âMm.â A warm, rough hand subtly tugs at your belt, and prominent knuckles nudge through the smooth material of your robe. âSo what are you really here for.âÂ
Your eyes blink thrice.Â
Yoongi cannot be serious. Does he really not know?Â
No. He knows. With a shift of your jaw, you realize heâs just fucking with you, purposefully not in the way you want. âYouâre being difficult.âÂ
âYou woke me up.â
Ah. Thatâs fair.Â
âSo tell me.âÂ
Well. If youâre gonna have to spell things out for him, heâs gonna be waiting for awhile. Because the more you stand here not doing anything, the harder it is to gather a little thing called courage. Courage to meet the beast in his den, and madness to let him devour you whole. Now you have neither. Neither, neither, neither.
Awkwardness sticks to your throat until itâs jammed, and you can barely mush your lips together to form sounds. The courage you speak of flees before you can wrangle it, and whatâs left of your answer tumbles out like boulders, âThis is.. I donât.. I canât.âÂ
âYou can.âÂ
âItâs,â you huff, noting that you donât like this horrible mix of hesitation and anger, âItâs⊠IâmââÂ
Your vision jolts as you feel a quick tug shit youâre spinning fuck your back just hit a wallâ
âOf all things today,â Yoongi murmurs with slits for eyes, âThis is what gets you to shut up?âÂ
Damn it.Â
You donât even have a rebuttal. Because heâs right. Yoongiâs sharp discernment is millimeters from your face and you have no intention to move nor speak. Only quick breaths. Only shaky exhales.Â
But you do swallow.
Which brings out a sound you will never admit you like: a breathy, condescending laugh, as coarse and as soft as his touch.Â
âYou mean to tell me,â he observes, tilting your chin while his irises blaze dark, âYou came all the way in here for nothing?â
âNo, Iââ
âAll that talk, and for what.âÂ
Defend yourself. Say something. Say just one word two words any wordsâ
Did Yoongi just pat your cheek? ..Twice?Â
Why did you kinda like thatâ
âMakes no sense,â he ponders aloud, lolling his head and staring down your crumpled lips. âWho even are you..âÂ
Now that's an easy one. You always have the answer to that question.Â
âNo one,â you whisper. âSorry to disappoint you.âÂ
Seems like the people back home arenât the only ones youâll let down. If Yoongi keeps that question loaded in the chamber, heâs gonna keep shooting the same target. Over, and over, and over.Â
But you donât have to worry. Because he drops it, caging you in with a hand near your stiff, risen shoulder, âSo what are you here for.âÂ
This is a mistake. Either Yoongi doesnât want this, or heâs being frustrating on purpose and your fire is both stoked and quelled. âNow I donât know for sure.âÂ
âThe more you stall the harder it gets,â he goads with a lick of teasing. And for a split, minuscule second, you wonder if that meant more than one thing.
Goddamn, heâs annoying. Heâs outright savoring this.Â
Maybe you shouldnât be surprised. You woke him up for godâs sake. If someone did this same thing to you after the day youâve had, you wouldnât have even let them in.Â
Unfortunately for you, Yoongiâs version of dealing with a midnight inconvenience is whittling them down until they leaveâÂ
âSo you can tell my bellhop off but I get nothing, huh.âÂ
Oh, shit.Â
Oh, shit.Â
Youâre so taken aback that you can only ask, âWhat?âÂ
Mercifully, the dragon gives you air, straightening before leaving your personal space.Â
Your focus should be on his words. You know this. But he uses this moment to rake his hair, and words are no match for the sleeve cascading down his inked forearm.Â
Even as his hair flows in waves, you still cling to his tattoos as he looks downward in thought. âYou think I wouldnât check who the fuck was coming up here?âÂ
It takes you a second to process.Â
But you realize what this means and you fall silent again.
Yoongi saw that? All of that? You acted without much thought, and if he really did see and hear everything that went down, thereâs a chance he thinks a lot differently about you now. No wonder heâs so thrown by this switch in behavior.Â
But on the other hand.. The way he touched you in the living room. Was all that because of what he saw? Is that side of you the one that pulled him close?Â
You thought his parting would allow you room to breathe. How very wrong you were.Â
Shoving all contemplation aside, you decide to coat the room with concern, your assertion making a brief comeback, âHe said a lot of shit, Yoongi. What was that about?âÂ
He languidly approaches the long table at your sideâone you faintly noticed while leaving the room the first time. Unbothered, he slides unhurried fingers over a gun, stopping on the barrel before reaching for something less lethal.Â
A decanter, it seems. Liquid flows from the container into a smaller glass, and you assume itâs whisky from the deep amber tones and luscious pour.
When you wonder where else Yoongi litters his weapons, he cuts through your surveying,Â
âYou really wanna know?âÂ
Looking up, you nod.Â
He sets the bottle down with a dull clink. âHe took his chances.âÂ
âHis.. What?âÂ
Now what the hell could this man mean by that? You were clearly being coaxed into leaving the premises, vaguely feeling like something seemed off. How is he being so dismissive about all this?Â
Slowly, Yoongi shakes his head, looking out into the night while taking his initial sip. âI donât come here often. But when I do, I come alone.â Long fingers nestle his cup perfectly as he explains further, âItâs been awhile, so. Had to feel out the staff.âÂ
The staff. Is that why Yoongi held your hand? To weasel someone out? You really thought he meant it when he said he just wanted toâŠÂ
How naive.Â
âHis plan couldâve been solid.âÂ
âBut what?â You ask, newfound frustration clipping your tone.Â
Yoongi slides you a look over the rim of his glass. âHe didnât know who heâd be dealing with.âÂ
Your eyes roll so far they strain.
But this begs a question. Does he mean dealing with you? Or him? Surely he meant your little show at the elevator but he could very well mean himself.Â
Facts are facts. Would Yoongi really trade il-don for you? Absolutely not. So you have to assume heâs mostly talking about the latter.Â
Your scoff is pitched to the side, âOf course. You wouldnât trade il-don for anything.âÂ
Yoongi pauses, not acknowledging your comment in the slightest as he strolls back your way. âSomething I am curious about..â As he leans in, musk and whisky invade both your space and senses. And you hate, hate, hate that you need more of it. âWho was he talking to?âÂ
âSomeone he royally pissed off.âÂ
âMm.âÂ
âYouâre not gonna punish him?âÂ
âMe? Nah.â Leaning on the sideboard, he stares out the windows across the room. Your vision follows suit. âNot until I have to.â
If what happened wasnât enough to warrant a punishment, youâre morbidly curious about what ticks the box. âI figured heâd be dead by now. At least for trespassing.â
Yoongi only shrugs. âGrey zones arenât just amnesty for the clans. Anything goes here, too, so a ransom attempt isnât surprising.âÂ
This man really doesnât stand on black or white. Here you are with eggs for brains discovering you were almost taken instead of saved, and heâs chalking it up to, what, just another Tuesday? Or is it still Monday? You donât even know anymore.Â
Your question leaves you a little scuffed. Because you feel exactly like leftover goods. The fruit at the back. âAre you always this heartless?â
âSo Iâve been told.âÂ
Great.Â
So much for being⊠Safe up⊠hereâŠÂ
You glance at the touch on your hip, and your eyes traverse up his arm as he toys with your belt again.Â
Shouldnât you feel disgusted? Shouldnât you be walking away? Itâs crystal clear how little this man thinks of you, or anyone for that matter. He probably brought you along just to be a shield for his precious il-don. So why canât you bring yourself to leave?Â
Your knot starts to loosen.
His voice begins to flow.
âBut if youâre gonna go for whatâs mine, donât be an idiot.âÂ
Wait.
No. Nope. Stop thinking about what that could mean. Because if you think too hard, it will only leave you disappointed.Â
But thereâs something you wonât stop doing. And Yoongi knows you wonât. So as he keeps playing at your waist, your words come out in shudders,Â
âCanât believe you used me.âÂ
Yoongi hums, and it makes you shiver when his touch leaves you to rest against wood counters. âYouâre about to use me, too.âÂ
Fucking hell, heâs right.Â
âGotta say I didnât expect it, but..â Damn him and his head tilts. âIâm impressed.âÂ
Youâre too empty-headed that you canât even process his words as genuine praise. His touches already feel like pops of lights in the night sky.
Itâs a given. You arenât prepared for him in the slightest.
âCome here.âÂ
Lightly pulling your hand, Yoongi brings you to stand in front of him. And from this point of view, you become even more ensnared.Â
His robe flows down his taut build so beautifully, painting him like dark water over rolling hills. At his peak, the hair youâve come to miss frames his face like artwork. Mesmerizing. Your downfall.Â
âYou get one more chance. Tell me why Iâm awake.âÂ
Your brow lift is only a front. The rest of you is shaking, trembling, howling. âYou clearly know.â
âTell me anyway.âÂ
Relentless. Will you shame yourself for wanting to see him use this same strategy on other people? Most likely. But will that stop you from thinking about it anyway? Absolutely, positively not.Â
But thereâs another side of you thatâs being comforted. And itâs the side that realizes how much heâs spoken, how much time youâve spent without needing to watch behind your back.Â
Yoongi talking this much? Itâs making things easier. And itâs strangely making you feel a little better, even if the subject matter isnât the greatest topic in the universe.Â
After you steal a glance at the other whisky glass, you look into his eyes. Determined and decisive. Knowing exactly what you want at this very moment, because you just need a little more time.Â
âTell me more. About grey zones.âÂ
Something in the air freezes. And Yoongiâs brows crease so comically you almost laugh. âThatâs it?âÂ
âYes.âÂ
His nod is slow as he sets down his glass.
And youâre quickly hauled back so fast that you donât have time to react.Â
A rush of air. The world topples. Soft sheets.Â
Dangerously, a thin chain sways above as Yoongi shrouds your body in silk and lingering smoke. A gasp escapes you as he peers into your eyes, and your senses fire as a commanding hand slides up your thigh.Â
âFinal answer?â
Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck you know you want him and you still do but also talking to him isnât half bad and maybe youâre just tired of being lonelyâÂ
Musk. Alcohol. Breathing hard, you take it all in. Slowly nodding because you canât function otherwise, which makes a dragon flash teeth.Â
But he obliges without moving a muscle, so youâre left underneath a demonârobe dangerously close to opening and exposing everything once again.
A man of conviction, Yoongi does exactly as you ask. Eyes drooped, he continues his explanations, as if he didnât just shove you into his enormous bed and tangle you under his legs,Â
âThey started awhile ago, back when all the high-powers got locked in a grudge match. Took half the city with them.âÂ
Immediately, your shoulders start to sink into his tale. âHalf is a lot.âÂ
âEverything went to shit,â he agrees. âNot even the Politicol could stop it all.âÂ
âBullshit.â
His level expression is enough to refute. Â
Now thatâs a shock to learn. For as long as you can remember, the Politicol have always held more power than any force should ever have. If they werenât able to keep this under control, the high-powers used to be ungodly.Â
Staring at the slippage on Yoongiâs shoulder, you wonder if those ink lines are to immortalize the ones that came before him. The history he mustâve grown up memorizing.Â
Still.. Why does he have them all? Thereâs no way he doesnât know how disrespectful that is to all three clans.Â
But then again. He said he didnât choose them himself. Which leads you nowhere in this unending maze.Â
Head disheveled; robe coming undone. To outsiders, youâd be at Yoongiâs mercy.Â
But in reality, youâre laser focused on him and his explanations. Especially when his voice scratches every itch just right. âSoâŠâ You watch his gaze slowly slide down your face. âWhat happened?â
Even now, Yoongiâs hands stay exactly where they are. The only thing that moves is the tinkling swing of his silver above your warming neck. âDeals were made, stripping power from all of them in certain sectors so that none could completely take over.âÂ
âWhy only in certain ones?âÂ
A corner of his mouth quirks up. âLetâs just say the negotiations went how you think they did.âÂ
Your eyes roll yet again. But another question pings into your mind as quick as the first one, knitting your brows. âWait⊠Deals with the Politicol? Or each other? No way they wouldâve let cowards put them all on a leash.âÂ
At this, something interesting passes over Yoongiâs face.
But it flits away before you can snatch it for further inspection, and the shift of his leg against your thighs resets your brain.Â
âAny of the clans couldâve monopolized if they had the right resource, but. They werenât ever gonna let outsiders get a piece. Called a truce and kept their mouths shut.âÂ
Makes sense. You know exactly what resource heâs referring to. âThe il-don.âÂ
âThatâs part of it.â He shifts again, but this time, your legs have more room to move. âBut grey zones have priority infrastructure. The ones that keep the lights on. If you had the money, you had the people. And people are the best resource there is.âÂ
Itâs at this moment that a lot of things click into place.Â
And one of those is figuring out that you may have been a little wrong about the man above you.Â
Is he heartless? To a high degree. But that comes with being calculating. Patient. Smart. Everything that Yoongi has been this entire time youâve tagged along.Â
Heâs not keeping the il-don safe because he treasures it. Itâs because the money is a tool. A tool to help him get what he wants whenever he needs. And leverage it for value instead of frivolous decisions and material things.Â
Yoongi must have really, really enjoyed your tangerines.
A stray touch finally makes its way inside your thigh. And you flare between your legs. Shivering. Aching. Youâre sparkling inside but wonât allow yourself to fully explode. Not when heâs revealing so much without telling. Not when youâre starting to see things from his angle.Â
âKeep talking,â you rush out, gripping his robe and squeezing his pelvis.Â
Though his fingers still light flares on your skin, Yoongi stops in his daring quest, observing your face without judgment.Â
âI like it,â you shakily admit. Because screw it, since youâll never see him again. âLearning about all this.âÂ
You sigh at his weight. His beautiful, strangely calming weight. âAbout you, too.âÂ
Stopping all movements, Yoongi coats your skin with gravel. âWhat good will knowing all this do.âÂ
Heâs got a point. And it hammers home exactly what you were just thinking. âNothing, maybe,â you answer, squeezing his robe a little longer.Â
Fuck, you really are this deprived. This lonely. Is bedding a dangerous manâthis dangerous manâreally better than being alone right now? A mental reset is outstandingly in order throughout the coming abysmal months.
You finish your weak explanation, hoping itâs enough to convince him,Â
âBut itâs helping.âÂ
Yoongi lifts his head to watch your eyes. And you observe how dark his are in return. How cold.Â
But yet.. Why do you also see�
With a slight huff, you tack on, âAnd you arenât so annoying to talk to right now.âÂ
There it is. That spark youâve seen before in dusty, tinkering streets. âDonât push your luck.âÂ
âI might.âÂ
He exhales, shifting himself into a sitting position and facing the door. âThe thing about grey zones.. No affiliation, no rules. You can be anyone here.âÂ
When you lift your upper body to sit, you watch his side profile as you repeat, âAnyone?âÂ
Yoongi turns to look at your lips.Â
You know thereâs a question you want to ask. But for some reason, itâs difficult to say.Â
But eventually, you canât help it. Because youâre intrigued. Youâre haunted. And you really, really need this.Â
âThen who do you want me to be.â
He lets out a cross between a scoff and a laugh. Looking into your eyes, he asks in disbelief, âYou?â
âIâm pretty good at pretending.âÂ
âSure you are.â He gives you another small grin before resting forearms on his knees. âBut you donât want my answer to that.âÂ
Swallowing is proving too difficult. What the hell does he mean by that? Is it one big bluff or a real opinion? âYouâre just being a pussy.âÂ
All you get is the side of his cheek rising high.
Yeah. Heâs not gonna tell you a damn thing.Â
âForget about me then. Who are you right now?â You wait as his expression falls back to earth. âAgust? Or Yoongi?âÂ
When you end with silence, youâre met with an approaching shadowed visage. And even in this moment, you sense static in the air, both of you poised and locked in a dangerous, thrilling dance.Â
âYou tell me.âÂ
Your breath cuts as he slips a finger inside your robe, and you dare not breathe when he pullsâslow, unhurried, intoxicating.Â
Youâve never felt quite like this.Â
Are you supposed to do something, too? Is there something that usually happens here? Your experience isnât zero but it is clearly leagues below where it should be.Â
Before you can blink a third time, your garment is ever, ever so slightly off your shoulder.
And you havenât uttered a damn thing.
So he keeps going, sliding it lower, and lower, until he reveals a part of you that you didnât mean to reveal so suddenly before.Â
This time, itâs deliberate. And that makes it terrifying.Â
This is the point of no return. The slope of your chest barely keeps your robe from dipping any farther. Itâs happening, and life between you will never be the same when itâs over.Â
And yet.Â
Your nerves speak up at the worst time.
âGet me a drink,â you whisper, âThen maybe I will.â
Yoongi flicks up an eyebrow before obliging, and you silently mourn the loss of his heated touch.Â
He walks over to pour you something neat, taking his time bringing both glasses to the bed. When you sit up properly, you habitually adjust your robe, scoffing at his hum.Â
âThanks,â you whisper, taking the glass and smelling the piercing aroma. âMaybe this is what I needed all along.â
âYou ever had sex before?â
The question is so sudden and blunt that you cough up a burning sip. âOw, fuck..â Wincing, you wipe your mouth before breathing in scratchy inhales. âIf you must know, I have.â
âMaybe you are good at pretending then,â Yoongi drawls. âCouldâve fooled me.â
âDonât get me wrong. This situation is new to me.â
His brow raises are definitely talking a lot for him.Â
âIâve just never.. I dunno. Never had just one night.â Taking a more cautious sip, you continue. âMuch less with someone like you.â
âLike me?â
âWith a.. You know.â You fiddle with your glass. âA customer.âÂ
When you hear his reaction, you stare at his raised cheek, stomach fluttering when he sighs downward,
âYou canât just say shit like that.âÂ
âI can say whatever I want,â you counter. âEspecially since IâŠâ
You donât wanna finish that. It helps that Yoongi doesnât look your way still, taking a sip of his whisky instead. His locks swing forward as he leans, and you almost reach out to feel them. Maybe youâll get to very soon. When you finally get over this final hurdle of outright shyness.Â
Why are you so timid right now? Why canât you just tell him what you very obviously came in here for and get on with it? Youâve been decisive as fuck the rest of today, so whatâs got your tongue pressed this time? Is it really your abysmal level of experience?
Or is it because youâre gravitating to more sides of him with each passing second?Â
âSince you what.âÂ
âSince I donât like you,â you snip.Â
Yoongi flashes teeth in amusement. âKeep telling yourself that.âÂ
âOh, shut up.â You take another drink, feeling the burn down your throat. âI donât have to if itâs true.âÂ
Both of you keep drinking in silence after that. Which makes things a weird mix of calm and awkward, considering what your original mission was.Â
Going over the events of today, itâs a wonder why you arenât crashing into a dreamless sleep. Youâve been up and having the most exhausting day ever, and yet, you canât imagine shutting your eyes.Â
Think of something else to talk about. Anything. Any topic you could possibly hold a conversation with Yoongi over.Â
What did he respond to before? No small talk, since the plantains thing from months ago was a bust. And when you conversed over ramyeon it was more of him angering you on purposeïżœïżœwait a minute.Â
There was something you never circled back to.Â
And as soon as you ask him about it, he appears impressed you remembered,Â
âWere you bluffing when you said you knew what I was shopping for?âÂ
âNo,â he responds immediately. âAnd I know Iâm right.âÂ
âProve it.âÂ
Mouth curved at an annoying angle, Yoongi shoots you a look before placing his drink down, getting up to walk to a tall armoire.Â
Your eyes follow his every movement, even the way his ass moves under that damned robe. But soon, your jaw goes slack not because of his assets.Â
But because the motherfucker was right on the money.Â
How the⊠How the fuck did Yoongi know?Â
In front of your face lies exactly what you were searching for. Sleek. Minimal. Lightweight and visibly balanced. You donât even want to keep shopping around because this is the only one you want.Â
How did he know you were shopping for daggers based on one single line of questioning?Â
âI wasnât gonna show you until you asked,â he divulges. âHonestly, I was hoping youâd forget. This one was hard as fuck to track down.âÂ
Eyes flicking up to his, you ask in wonder, âCan IâŠ?âÂ
He lifts it slightly, signaling that you can indeed hold it yourself.Â
And itâs perfect.Â
âWow,â you breathe out, feeling along its edges and hilt. Itâs all one continuous line, with metal so black and matted that you almost moan. âI donât have much on me, but.. Iâll give you whatever you want for this.âÂ
âKeep it.âÂ
What?Â
âItâs yours.âÂ
Thereâs no way heâs just gonna gift this to you. Itâs perfectly crafted in material you canât even find in Crane. And they have almost every class of ore in existence.Â
Who even is this man?Â
âYoongi, this isâŠâ You shake your head while extending it back. âI canât just take this.âÂ
âYou can.â He fiddles with the bracelet on his wrist. âI did.â
Oh. Charming. The weapon youâre being gifted is stolen goods. âWell, in that case, I really canât accept it.âÂ
But goddamn, this is more than perfect. You canât even pluck one finger off the handle. And you canât change the fact that it was already taken, right? Right?
âAt leastâŠâ Scowling at your own crumbling morals, you mumble, âNot without good reason.â Â
He looks at you over his shoulder. âDo I need a reason?âÂ
âNo,â you reply. âBut Iâd like one.âÂ
Yoongi sighs long before moving his fingers. âI lied to you back there in the lobby.â Looking up at a clock instead of you, he works his jaw. âBut this time, it really is just that.âÂ
âYou expect me to believe you?âÂ
Fuck, the veins in his hands are so prominent when he laces them together. âNo. But itâs better than those chopsticks youâre saving in the bathroom.â
Oh. So he saw those, too.
âThank you,â is what you wave in white. Because thatâs exactly how you feel and this one gesture does excuse some of his faults. Maybe. Or your standards have plummeted to the gutters. âI, umm. I usually keep one for self-defence. Just in case.âÂ
Turning it over and back again, you marvel at its light but solid weight. âBut I lost mine in the last rough raid before they suddenly stopped.â
âDonât sweat it.âÂ
ïżœïżœK.â Placing it on the closest nightstand, you go back to holding your glass between your hands. âOne day Iâll pay you back somehow.âÂ
Yoongi shoots that down on sight. âNo need.âÂ
âBut I want to.âÂ
He glares before picking up his alcohol. âAnyone that owes me shit gets treated a lot different.â The drink rests in his hand like a liquid gem. âSo just accept it as a gift, doll.âÂ
Youâd laugh if you knew he was kidding. But you know heâs dead serious, so you only nod.Â
Itâs quiet again as you both retreat into your minds.Â
Yoongi has the mental fortitude of a fortress it seems. Because he really is set on waiting until you tell him what you woke him up for, and itâs been awhile since this all started.Â
But being in his presence while the night is quiet is somewhat comforting. Youâre finding it easy to think about other things now, especially after he gave you so much to mull over.Â
Like grey zones and how they came to be. Itâs fascinating how you had no clue even though you should. Even though this whole conflict affected half the city.Â
Wanting to gain more insight, you blurt your curiosity, âHow long ago were the grey zones fought over? Before everything was decided?âÂ
âYears. Decades, at this point,â Yoongi answers, his gaze locked as you think about this timeline. âMost people donât even bother knowing, though.â
âWhy? This sounds like a big part of our history.âÂ
âNo one cares if a Crane kills a Dragon.â His tone shifts slightly. And you wouldnât have caught it if not for his subtle sulk. âThey only resent the blood they have to wipe from the street.âÂ
Your lids lower all the same. Because that resonates deep within your chest, so much so that you feel your heart bend in its aching. âNo one cares about us, either.âÂ
When Yoongi catches your look, you give a sad excuse of a smile. âBeing a vendor? Especially where I am? You quickly figure out how little you matter. You as a person, I mean.âÂ
You slide fingers along the tiny rim of your glass, lost in the fibers of his rug more than anything else.Â
Maybe youâre just a loose fiber in the rug of this city. One that will pretend to run only to be swept back into the folds. âThe only things that people remember are what you offer. Anything other than that isnât worth their time.âÂ
Lifting your chin, you save face. âCanât say I wonât miss you.â May as well admit it all if you arenât ever gonna see him again. âYou were the only one that ever let me bother them.âÂ
âYou never bothered me.âÂ
You look up to see him staring. Lip curled upward, you huff. âWith all the looks you gave me? I find that hard to believe.âÂ
Yoongi doesnât laugh in return. âWhat would I gain from lying?âÂ
Mm. Thatâs an interesting question. But the alcohol starts to talk for you as you have the balls to flirt. âPeople lie to get laid, for one.âÂ
âMm.â He takes a measured sip of his glass, the last dredges of it swaying at the bottom. âCanât say Iâve ever needed to.âÂ
âShocker,â you drawl, sipping to match his pace. And itâs after this drink that you loosely admit, âThis is really good, by the way.âÂ
âYeah?â
âMmhmm.â Lifting the glass to peer inside, you swirl it around before divulging a past you donât talk aboutâever. But what are rules of conversation when you want to stall? âMy uncle got me into whisky a long time ago. But fruit stands donât pay for top shelf alcohol.âÂ
âWhereâs he at now?âÂ
âUhh.â You look away. âGone.âÂ
âSorry to hear that.âÂ
He gets up, and you watch in silence as he makes his way to the sideboard. Stuff shifts around before he appears to pour another glass. And he stays there for a bit, black robe blending into all the dark decor.Â
âYoongi?âÂ
He turns.Â
âCan you keep talking?â You keep your drink steady between your robed legs. Buzzed and vulnerable, you offer an explanation, âTurns out thereâs a lot I wanna forget right now.â
Like endings. And future endless days without your most frustrating, most dangerous, most favorite customer.Â
Yoongi pauses before walking back to the bed. When his thighs settle next to yours, he asks without much heart, âWhat do you wanna know.â
âYou.â
His jaw shifts, and you feel a slight tug in your chest.Â
Was that too forward? Probably. But youâll take what you can get, like a last meal chosen to hit every one of your desires. âAnything you wanna tell me, of course.â
Yoongi remains quiet. Which isnât unexpected but still a little letdown.Â
âNot much to tell.âÂ
Ah. Just more lies then. Maybe you should stick to the original plan. âNothing at all?â
He looks at you, planting a hand on the bed to lean a little closer. âNothing youâd wanna hear.â
You shift between his eyes. Wondering if itâs better not knowing or if you really do wanna give in.Â
Perhaps his eyes will speak for him instead. Glowing dark. Hints of ember and smoke. Years and years squeezed into those irises.Â
âWhat if I do,â you quietly question, catching the light on his alcohol-tainted lips.Â
Reaching out, you boldly place a thumb over one side, slowly brushing off excess liquid and marveling at how soft he is there. Tender, just like his name. âWhat if I donât care.â
Yoongi waits for a moment before holding your wrist, the atmosphere trembling and buzzing around your shoulders. Oxygen depletes as he leans in close, his beautiful features almost touching yours.Â
You feel something locking into place. Something beautiful and terrifying. And it holds you down as you feel his hair, his warmth, hisâ
A noise blares into the room before you can feel yourself rushing upward, your body reacting on survival instinct alone. Glasses spill onto the rug and you donât know whatâs happening but lack of sleep lack of comfort lack of everything has you ready forâ
Time stops.Â
Sounds muffle.Â
And your eyes flash wide as you see the tip of your blade pointed straight at Yoongiâs side.Â
Just as heâs poised with a gun pointed towards the door.Â
Itâs a phone ringing.Â
A fucking. Telephone.Â
What have you done?
As Yoongi slowly shifts his gaze to your outstretched hand, you tremble in severe regret. Regret that you pulled this on him with the very weapon he gave you. Regret that he knows all there is to know about how you still feel about him.Â
But you didnât mean to⊠You didnât even think. And you abhor how you directed your fear at the one person that kept you alive. The one person you fucking saved.Â
When Yoongi lowers his gun, he doesnât acknowledge the guilt on your face. But as he walks away to grab his device, his gaze flicks back to you before he answers across the room.Â
Shit.Â
You fucked up you fucked up you fucked up.Â
You werenât lying when you said you wouldnât care. You really werenât. But who knows what Yoongi will think of you after that shock of a face off.Â
Coming into his room was most definitely a mistake. Now you canât wrangle your emotions for shit, head pounding with feelings and outcomes and adrenaline to the brim.Â
Yoongiâs close to the wide bathroom stairs, so you canât hear whatâs being said. He does keep looking at you, though, which keeps your fingers pressed against a hilt.Â
Are you in danger? Will Yoongi not want anything to do with you anymore? Is it alarming that you canât decide which one is worse?Â
The call doesnât last long.
And as soon as he hangs up, youâre sputtering like a broken fountain, dagger still wielded as he stalks forwardâphone clunking to the ground. âWho was that.âÂ
âNo one.â
âWhatâs gonna happen to me.âÂ
âNothing.âÂ
Fuck. You really did fuck everything up. Your brain is so battered that youâre gonna be skittish and paranoid for a long, long time. âYoongi, Iâm soâI didnât mean toâIt just happenedââ
Forget it. Itâs over. Your last interaction will haunt you forever and the only way youâll experience what couldâve happened between you will be in your wildest darkest sweetest illestâ
Burns flare at your eyes when Yoongiâs chest meets the quivering tip of your blade.Â
âStop,â you wince out, a damning tear pinging to your feet. âJust stop.âÂ
He starts to walk forward, which alarms you enough to step back because what the fuck is he doing! Why canât your arms move? Why canât you lower the fucking dagger?Â
âI canât,â you croak. âI canât move.â
Youâve been firing on all fronts the whole day. Even in your dreams, youâre in survival mode. You canât unlock your arms because they fight for the rest of you. Your legs propel you when the rest of you wants to give up.Â
But that still doesnât stop your heart from aching. It burns, it burns, it burns.Â
When Yoongi grips your wrist, you choke on a sob. When he calls you smart, you squeeze your eyes shut in shame. And when he whispers to drop the fucking blade or heâll do it for you, you do so after a maddening pause.Â
It clunks to the ground when a gun does, and youâre suddenly spun until the backs of your knees hit something solid.Â
Immediately, youâre thrust back onto dark sheets again, tears now rolling into your ears as you instinctively let Yoongi smother you whole.Â
His hand slides to your inner thigh, and your mind reels when you start feeling a hardness on your stomach. Breath whooshes out of your mouth before you're covered in silk and muscle, and pleasure bursts from where he quickly devours your neck fuck.
Hands are quick to untie your robe as fire stokes your throat.Â
âI wonât ask again,â he vows with a voice that rumbles. âTell me what you fuckinâ want.âÂ
âYoongiââÂ
âSay it and itâs yours.âÂ
âMake me forget,â you shove through your teeth. âJust make me fucking forget.âÂ
âHow.âÂ
Fuck lack of experience. Fuck being shy. You arenât wasting another damn second and your emotions need all the release they can get. Loose lips, loose tongue, looser inhibitions.
The monster inside of you yanks at its chain, claws and claws at its confines screaming at you to give in. You need this. You want this, especially if Yoongi himself is gonna give it so willingly.
Just say it. Just say it.
âIf this really is the last time Iâll see youâŠâÂ
Yoongi stills as your eyes lock unblinking.Â
Tell him. Four words.Â
âFuck me like it.â
A proverbial chain snaps as Yoongi dives into your neck, ravishing you and sucking hard on your vein. When you yelp, your clenched legs seem to encourage, and he thrusts forward to launch you up the bed with a purpose. With intention.
All to let you know what you just got yourself into.
His fingers light little fires along your skin, burning everything in their paths up your arms, your sides, squeezing into your imperfections and latching down. His lips set your being ablaze as he keeps feasting, causing your breaths to get shorter, and shorter, and shorter.Â
âSo sensitive..âÂ
When you feel the warm swipe of a tongue, your eyes scrunch shut as you shudder. Which makes the whole thing worse for you when Yoongi chuckles dark in return.Â
âI donât think youâre ready for this.âÂ
âShut up,â you huff out, grasping for his robe and raking at his sleeves. âOf course I amâFuck.â
His thumb rolls across your exposed nipple, pinching it to make you arch right up into his chest. âYou sure?âÂ
When the hell did he even open your robe? How did he do that so quick without you knowing?Â
You bite down on your lip to keep from screaming, nodding in determination while your brows almost kiss.Â
Watching your expression, Yoongi pinches again, biting his own lip while slowly spreading that shit grin. Your moan comes out more like a muted hum, which seems to displease.Â
âUh uh,â he orders. âYouâre gonna be loud for me.â Â
âBut what if someoneââÂ
âThey wonât.âÂ
He continues in his control, sliding a hand under your thigh to hitch it up before shoving it to the side.Â
And you know where heâs going. But it still shocks you all the same when his fingers make contact with your slick.Â
Your very, very wet slick.Â
Many, many things will haunt you for life. Your experiences. Your choices.Â
But right now? The only thing that will follow you to your grave is this distinct, biting, staccato batch of laughter. âYou shouldnâtâve ever come in here.âÂ
Breath ragged, you watch as Yoongi concentrates, exploring your cunt with his long digits and hitting every nerve with perfection. When you rub against him, he growls, lifting shiny fingers to insert right into his mouth.Â
Sucking.Â
Licking.Â
And your eyes mirror his at onceâas black and pulsing as fallen stars.Â
He swoops down at the same moment you tug on his clothing, his mouth latching onto the side of your neck he hasnât ravaged. Impatient, his hand yanks the bottom of your robe to the side, fully exposing your legs and leaking folds while you grapple with your own obstacles.Â
Itâs messy. Itâs jilted. Itâs exactly what you want.Â
As soon as you find the slit in his robe, you take a brave leap and reach for his cock, not knowing what youâre gonna find but having a vague idea based on hisâ
Oh. What.
Fuck, heâs gonna split you in two.Â
Youâve held one before. You know what they feel like. But this cannot be possible and youâre already mentally preparing yourself for your breaking point.Â
âYou good?âÂ
You snap your head right up, realizing how stunned you must be if heâs asking. âI⊠Youâre fucking huge.âÂ
Yoongi doesnât react, but that somehow makes it more attractive. Like he knows. And he doesnât deny a thing. âThat a problem?âÂ
âI mean⊠I think Iâve lived a good enough life.âÂ
To your surprise, the man above breaks completely as you keep blabbering, shoulders shaking alongside those stupid dimples. Those beautiful, elusive dimples. Too bad this is the last time youâll ever see them. âDid what I wanted.. Not everything, but most of my list.âÂ
Yoongiâs still chuckling. And for a brief moment, youâre brought back to the days he was just a patron. Back to when you would think about him before bed, delighted to see him stop by.Â
This is him. This is Yoongi with you now.Â
Where was he this whole time? Was he really waiting until you answered him for real?Â
You went so far into your head that you missed the change in position. So it makes you jump like hell when you realize where his teal mop of hair resides. âWait, wait, wait. What are you doing?âÂ
Between your thighs, Yoongi lifts a brow, locking your legs with tough arms before you can even move.Â
âYoongi, you donât have toâoh, fuck!âÂ
The first contact of his tongue on your folds makes your eyes burst, your legs effectively being pinned down in their tensing. Jolts of lust spiral from your core as he licks, sucks, twirls around your clit like itâs second nature, and you feel yourself welcoming his every thrust.
This is happening. This is happening? Youâve never done this before, not that youâll admit it. Whatever Yoongiâs doing is completely new territory for you and you donât ever think youâll leave. Permanent residence. No other land to discover.Â
Whines echoes throughout the room before you slap a hand over your mouth. Because the whole world will hear his name if you donât. Especially when he adds fingers and curls them just right what the fuck!Â
He makes you forget. And forget. And forget. You even forget your own name. Only his. Saying it into your palm over and over and clawing his sheets with the other.Â
A low growl rumbles between your legs before you hear him purr, âJust like I fucking thought.âÂ
Whatâd he say? He didnât say that. Youâre hearing things, youâre sure of it. Thereâs absolutely no way Yoongiâs imagined anything about you, much less what you taste like.Â
And the words keep coming as he whispers how tight you feel. How hot. How perfect youâre gonna fit him.Â
While all you can utter in return is gibberish mixed with the syllables of his name.Â
Pleasure rolls in waves as he learns every inch of your cunt, fingers drenched in your slick and the curves of his cheeks lathered in your scent. When he reaches beneath you to grope your ass, he gives a rough squeeze.Â
âMove your fucking hand.âÂ
Your eyes fling wide.Â
âI wanna hear you.âÂ
âNo, Iâmâthere could be peopleââ
He clambers over you, robe wide open and revealing a body that rips your soul clean out. When he seizes your palm to shove it to the side, another monster starts to wake within your chest.Â
And this one takes treacherous pleasure in those slitted eyes.Â
âYouâre gonna scream for me.âÂ
âOr else what.âÂ
The dark rumble. The rolling thunder.Â
Your other monster is starting to match his glint. âYou donât wanna do that with me, doll.âÂ
âDo what?â you ask with flitting eyes.Â
When all you get is a sharp smirk in return, your stomach flips in desire and excitement. So when he slaps the side of your breast, you hum high with a delighted flinch.
âDonât say that I didnât warn you.âÂ
Yes. This is what you came in here for. Your shyness will have to be comfortable with the unknown, but itâs also helping seeing Yoongi much more relaxed.Â
Like a normal person.Â
Especially when he leans over to open his bedside drawer, hair swaying as he grabs for what you think are condoms.Â
Your hunch is right when he rights himself again, teeth nicking a wrapper before tearing it in one sweep. When you start to clench your legs together in response, he shoves them back open with a thigh, robe parting to show exactly whatâs going to splice you in half.Â
Youâll gladly take his amusement at your jaw unhinging. Because what you see is heaven sent.Â
Yoongi says nothing as he wraps himself fully, and he continues to be silent as you whisper,Â
âI wanna see you.âÂ
It doesnât take long for him to understand. As his length presses against your core, he slips off his dark robe, letting it slide down equally dark sheets before pouring onto the floor.Â
Youâre just as quiet as he situates himself above your beating heart. Which is for the best. Your thoughts are better left unsaid.Â
All you can do is grip his arm, sliding your hand up until you can finally, finally brush his hair with your own fingers. Exhaling when you discover how soft it feels. How comfort can be found in something as trivial as tendrils.
âThis is helping, too,â you murmur to his lips, inhaling what you realize is your own scent.Â
When he cradles your chin, your breath cuts. âThings happen when you say what you want.âÂ
âIf only it was always that easy.â
âIt is with me.âÂ
Your heart skips twice before tripping on itself, and you instinctively curl your palm against his head. âEveryone around you must be so lucky.âÂ
An eyebrow lifts before he huffs. âNot talking about just anyone, love.âÂ
âŠHuh?Â
What does he mean by that because shit youâre getting tugged forward heâs so strongâ
âNow, if youâre gonna be difficult,â Yoongi warns. âLetâs give you enough time to reconsider.âÂ
Your thighs widen as he positions himself at your entrance, cockhead rubbing along your folds as you tense.Â
âUh uh.â He hums. âThis is what you want, yeah?â
âItâs been awhile,â you spat, rolling your eyes when he shoots you a knowing look. âJust⊠give me a second.âÂ
Obliging, Yoongi starts slow, making your head roll into the pillow as you accommodate his girth. Holy fuck, heâs big. But heâs sliding in easy after his little feast down there, which you piece together as one big prep for the main course.Â
âFuck,â he groans, resisting every urge to plow straight into you. At least, from what you can decipher in his pinched features. If this feels amazing for you, you canât even imagine what he must be feeling now. It only gives you butterflies knowing heâs following through with his word. âSo fucking tight.âÂ
âNot my fault you take up⊠so much space,â you grit through your teeth, neck straining as you blow air to the ceiling.Â
Fully sheathed, Yoongi rests inside until your muscles relax. And you only peel your eyes open when you start to slip into more pleasure than anything else.Â
Okay. You can do this. You can fit him surprisingly wellâmaybe too wellâand youâre okay to keep going without restraint.Â
When you peer down your body, you expect him to look bored or indifferent. Like heâs wasting time dealing with you.Â
So it makes you shiver when Yoongi looks ready to ruin.Â
Toned arms flex at his sides, hands keeping your thighs held in their place. When a strand of vibrant hair falls, his chains spark in the moonlight streaming in from the windows. A dragon that waits. And waits.
Youâre ready. Your demise will be your reward.Â
âIâm good,â you assure him. âYou can move nowââ
A second invisible chain snaps with a clink, and Yoongi launches into a thrust that has you seeing stars. You tumble through the dark as he thrusts again, mouth open with silent yells before you gnaw right into your lip.Â
âRelax for me,â he commands. âJust like that.âÂ
Your cunt hugs him tight as you bounce even harder, his little grunts of praise making you mewl and whimper in bursts.Â
Fucking hell, this feels good.Â
You cannot wait to find out how itâll feel when you piss him off.Â
His hands grip your hips, hosting you up onto his thighs as he thrusts hard into your cunt. Your body rocks in an arch, limp and at his mercyâwhich there is very little of. Enchanted, your lip tightens with the pull of your teeth, eyes squeezing shut as he feels so fucking good and hitting. Just. Right.Â
It all carries you so far gone that as soon as you feel a rush of air, the sting on your ass makes you reactâpiercing moan making both of you freeze.
And Yoongiâs eyes deepen a shade as he slowly grins. âThere you go.âÂ
âDonât act like youâfuck!â His second swat has you grunting through your teeth, and his thrust forward at the same time he does it again has you whining. Monosyllabic, his name shoves out of your lungs, with each part more chipped than the next.Â
âWhatâs that, love?â
âYoongi, pleaseââ
âThatâs right.â He clutches your sides so damn rough. âSay my fuckinâ name.âÂ
And his pace pitches you into the sun, rocking so hard you wonât be surprised if the bed frame snaps in half. In thirds. In sevenths. Your legs go completely limp as he drives in, filling you and hitting a spot that pierces your eyes with stars and light and lust. Down down down you spiral, up up up you go. Itâs only you and him now, with Yoongi plowing into you like his life ends come morning.Â
Thereâs nothing in the world that feels like this. Burdened by the dangerous weight of a manâthis manâwhile feeling so light you could float? Absolutely nothing can compare.Â
Your body finally rests as he stops, but you get no breather as he flips you over with strong arms. Disoriented, you squeak as he tugs you backward, your ass rising in the air as your head is shoved into luxury cotton.Â
Sweet pain sears your ass again, and you gasp with wide eyes as you feel his cock at your entrance. âWhat are youââ
âLift up. Higher.â He slides his dick up your folds. âYouâre gonna like this.âÂ
âYou donât speak for meââ
He thrusts into you as soon as you get accustomed to his length and size. And the place his thumb presses makes you scream into your pillow. His pillow. A hotel suite pillow that youâre biting to stay afloat.Â
How the fuck does that feel so good? How does all of this feel so good? His thumb on your asshole already has you melting, but the smacking of his sack against your clit makes you want to repent.
âSo fuckingâfuck.â
Drool strings from your mouth as your arms are tugged at the elbows, your whole upper body coming up for air. Precious precious air thatâs cut off when Yoongi chokes you from behind.
âYooâ!â
His strength slams your chest into the headboard, right at the edge of the bed before you feel the force of his palm hit the wall.Â
âWhat did I fucking say.â
âA lot.â
âIâm gonna hear you.â
âButââ
He shoves you flush against dark wood, your cheek smushing hard and your lips curling. âLet them hear you, too.âÂ
You keep your moans muted until fingers are shoved down your throat. And you gargle until he yanks them out.Â
âThatâs it. I know you can take it.â
âYouâre easierâŠâ Gritting your teeth in a smug grin, you taunt in a bold-faced lie, âEasier to take than I thought.â Â
His laughter is not lighthearted. âYouâre still gonna go there, huh.âÂ
âI donât know what you mean,â you pout, eyes drooping from the euphoric shocks his thrusts provide. Sweat rolls down your arms as you slip on the wall, but it gives your chest a cool surface to rest. âGo where?âÂ
Suddenly, the grinding stops. And your cunt feels abandoned as he pulls out so fast. When you think to spin around, he spanks your ass with a harsh, âDonât move.âÂ
Do you want to disobey? Yes. But youâre more curious than anything, so do as he says.
And your eyes light up when you realize what he comes back with.Â
âNow⊠I could use this,,â he warns, pressing a silky smooth robe tie along your neck. âSince you donât wanna behave.â
âDo it,â you taunt, wishing like hell that he does. Yes, yes, yes. Youâre drunk on lust and volcanic want and you will fight for nothing more. âYou wonât.âÂ
Your neck is rocked back before you feel him slap your ass. âThen stay still.âÂ
And you obey as you feel your beltâor his, either oneâwrap loosely around your column before itâs tied.Â
Gently, your chin is turned, and youâre surprised when youâre met with stern eyes. âCan you breathe.âÂ
Blinking, you nod. âYeah, I can.âÂ
âTwo taps if youâre out, understand?âÂ
âYes.âÂ
A swift pat to your cheek. âWhatâd I say.âÂ
âTwo taps,â you repeat, figuring out fast that youâre liking this development a little too much. âIf Iâm out.âÂ
Holy fuck the yank you feel is exhilarating, your body bending back as shock overcomes your senses.Â
Lidded eyes staring down at yours, he vows, âYou better make them count or we never do this again.âÂ
âI will, I will,â you rasp out, breath still coming to you fine albeit a little more harshly. âI promise.âÂ
âGood girl.â Â
Wait, did he say again?Â
As he slips right back inside, you lose all passing trains of thought. Cunt filled while his fingers clog your mouth makes you traverse to another plane. Every part of you, at his mercyâ
Then he yanks you backward and all that mercy burns in the flames of heaven. Flocks to the clouds of hell.
The belt is completely taut as you succumb to his thrusts. Hard. Fast. Rough thrusts make you cry out as he toys with you, gravelly hums tumbling down your back as you arch for him. All the sounds you make echo throughout the room, a symphony of mewls and moans as Yoongi controls your every move.Â
âTake it.â
âHmm?â
âYou want it,â he repeats. âSo take it.â
Oh. Oh, he wants you toâOh.
You start moving back and forth, doing exactly as he says. Taking whatâs yours for the night and shamefully not forever.
But it turns out itâs not enough because he tugs.Â
âLike you fucking mean it.â
Fuck.
Groaning, you move with more intention, sliding up and down his cock and feeling full every time. It feels good having control, you muse, and imagining him watching your debauchery turns you on that much more.
Your thrusts turn to rough slams, friction running fast while you chase it with all your strength. The groans you hear sound primal, hissed taunts egging you on.
âGuess you can listen after all.âÂ
âFuck you.â
Another hard yank.Â
Your laugh only spurns him on.Â
Slaps to your ass, grabs to your breasts. Yoongi is worshipping every inch of you and you wonât even notice this until nights later when youâre alone. Youâll remember the way he squeezes just right, the way he fits so well, the places he hits with no hesitation nor guesswork. Itâs pure experience strangling you with passion and you donât even know how to embrace it all.
But then you start to feel it. Your breath tapering. Itâs getting harder and harder to suck in air and youâre starting to see stars across your eyes.Â
When you reach an alarming point, you quickly slap his leg twice, oxygen gushing into your lungs right as he lets go.Â
You almost come on that exhilaration alone. Adrenaline pumps pumps pumps into your veins, eyes blowing black as he spins you around.
Hot, open mouth kisses pepper your burning throat, and you have the nerve to catapult him all the way back onto the bed.Â
Yoongi lets you top him with a laugh, and you immediately use this opportunity to pin him down with a chokehold. Wanting him to feel the same way you just did. Knowing deep in your soul that he wants it, too.
âCute.â
âYou asshole.âÂ
Holy fuck, you canât even recognize your own voice. Itâs hoarse. Itâs rugged.Â
Itâs salacious.
He cocks a brow while peering down his nose. âYou done?â
âWhat?â You blink. Slowly releasing his neck, you admit with a rasp, âNo, thatâs not what I.. Iâm not done with you.âÂ
Yoongi slides into a smirk, and you attempt to scoff with a burning throat.Â
You wanna tell him how good he is. How stupidly attentive he is. But all you settle for is something neutral. Safe. And maybe a little forward.Â
âJust felt like calling you that.âÂ
Yoongiâs smile mellows into a line, and if you werenât in such an evocative position, you would have thought it was genuine contemplation. But he slides hands up your thighs before slapping the side of your ass. âGet on.âÂ
Fuck. You donât really know how. At least, you donât know how to do it without showing him you arenât used to it.Â
So the confidence will keep getting faked. With a little help of your quick wit and tongue as you grab his length. âDidnât hear a please.âÂ
Yoongi huffs out amusement. âI donât say that.âÂ
His tip goes in fine. Fuck. Okay. You can do this you can do this. âWhy am I not surprisedâ!âÂ
He shoves you down as soon as you give him enough leeway, and you groan out as you catch yourself with hands on his chest.Â
âThis is where youâre gonna live,â he says with confidence, laughing in condescension when you scowl. âFuckinâ love it.âÂ
He canât say stuff like that.Â
You ride until you find a rhythm, rolling your body and finding the friction you want. Itâs there for the taking. And heâs encouraging you with gravelly words and hums, with hands up your stomach and grasping your chest.Â
After a single swirl of your hips, he throws his bed back until his neck strains. âFuck.â
So you take that cue, rotating between rides and swirls. When he tweaks and rolls thumbs around your nipples, you clench hard around him, and he does it until you moan to the ceiling.Â
A slap to your breast makes you whine, and you keep going before leaning forward, placing hands against his shoulders and bouncing your hips on his cock.Â
ââa fucking natural,â Yoongi praises, chuckling to himself as he toys with the silk streaming down your neck.Â
âMaybe Iâve just practiced.âÂ
âShow me more then.âÂ
Quickly, he tugs you down flush against him before grabbing your ass, slamming you down and pistoning up until you scream.
You start biting his shoulder to quell your shouts, which makes him moan loud enough to make you possessive. Wildly possessive. Before long, you feel yourself going limp on him, only for him, solely for his pleasure and yours.Â
âJust like that. There you go.âÂ
You mewl into his skin as he grabs you, holding you down as he slams into you again and again and again. Drunk with power, you begin to mark his throat, devouring and feasting with reckless abandon.
Growling ragged, Yoongi flips your position and pins you face down, shoving up hard into your cunt before plowing. You fully lean into the yells now, saying his name and inching over the goddamn edge of the bed.
Itâs there. Your release. Itâs potent and itâs visceral and itâs everything you need need needâ
âYoongi, Iâm closeââ
He penetrates so far that you can taste him, and you come so harshly that you convulse. Squeezing like hell and quivering in a full body fold.
Holy shit, the screams. Is that you?Â
The sinister laughs of pride prove you right. âThatâs my girl. Fucking scream.â
You canât stop. All you know is extreme pleasure coursing through your veins, pulsing beautiful colors and making you arch like mad.Â
But you have more to handle. Yoongi prolongs your euphoria by yanking you back only to sink into you again, hands rubbing both nipples and tongue speaking deadly sins in your ear.
âYou arenât done,â he growls. âLemme hear you again.âÂ
âI canâtââ
âLiar.â
His name rips from your mouth as you surprise yourself, gushing around his length and squeezing in powerful pulses. Nothing exists. Nothing at all. Everything you know is a feeling, as vibrant and shimmering as the sun above your street back home.Â
All the heat youâve ever felt coalesces along your skin, and the words whispered in your ear slide right down with your sweat. You arenât quite sure what you hear. But judging by your preening, it has to be praise. Dirty, dirty, sinful praise.Â
When your limp weight is flipped, you allow your legs to be hoisted up with no resistance. Looking upward, you peel open lids to the equivalent of a king. A god. And your outright awe blocks your ears from catching what your dragon swears.Â
ââperfect,â he grits, inserting himself into your squelching folds. âAgain.âÂ
No fucking way you have more left in you. Youâre already floating in the ether, buzzing in pleasure and sweat and ecstasy. If you come one more time youâll be an empty shell.Â
âEarn it,â you boldly rasp out, grappling a bit of your spirit and reining it back one last time. âTake it, you biââ
Your heart leaps up your throat as youâre pitched upward, groan serrated and high as you grin in triumph because it feels so fucking rewarding when he gives gives gives.Â
Letting everything go relaxes your folds, causing Yoongi to rock into you with pride and without resistance. His chain smacks against his pecs at the same pace as your bouncing chest, and youâre more than sure youâre gonna feel bruises on your legs where he sinks his claws.
Skin slapping skin. Mewls and gritted curses. Heady scent covers them all in a thick layer and you feel the light grow closer and closer, stronger this time than all the others before it. Why? Why do you know this one will pitch you over the edge for good?Â
Both of you may feel the same.Â
Because Yoongi suddenly shoves himself so far into you and presses his body flush against your shuddering shaking screaming form.
You pulse frantically around him, throat sore and ragged from your final cry as tears stream down your face. It feels so fucking gorgeous that it hurts, and you enter a plane so mystical itâs completely separate from your earthly vessel. The two of you become closer than one, and you feel Yoongi stutter in his groan before yanking out and ripping the condom off.
Hot spurts paint your skinâa sweaty, spent canvas that dips slow with your labored breaths. His own breathing is rough but not exhausted, and you chalk that up to the mountain of stamina and experience he has on you.Â
Itâs done.Â
Thoroughly spent.
All the pent up emotions dissipate in a slow descent. The chaos of today finally lowers its head, your monsters making their ways back into their cages. Moonlight shines brighter. Fuller.Â
Illuminating a man in silver as he slowly heads into the bathroom.Â
Holy fuck. You just slept with a gangster. With a Dragon.
With Yoongi.
Thereâs no way you can forget this. No way you can see yourself moving past this moment, even years and lifetimes from now. It doesnât matter if Yoongi never thinks about you again, because something transpired in this room that youâll keep locked away in your soul forever.Â
As he brings back a towel to wipe his essence from your skin, you wonder.Â
Was it all worth it?Â
Or will this torture you in every dream youâll ever have?Â
A palm digs into the mattress before you feel weight and jewelry. The silk around your throat is carefully undone, and lazy, heated lips descend on your neck once more.
Bliss.
Sighing, you utter his name much softer now, telling him please without knowing what for.Â
âWhat do you want,â he whispers.
âI donât know,â you admit in a wisp.Â
Yoongi keeps worshipping your throat, and you mewl when he reaches to rub your breast in a slow squeeze. When you drag your hand down to grip his cock, he tenses with a gritty hum.Â
âCareful, love,â he rumbles. âThereâs a lot more I can do with you.âÂ
âTell me.â Your breath starts shorting in anticipation. âTell me everything.âÂ
âNah.â When he slides forward, the bare tip of him meets your cunt, causing you to flinch with a bitten lip. âYouâre just gonna have to wonder. Day, after day, after day.â
Fuck this guy with the spite of a thousand lives. Youâre the one holding his cock, so how the fuck is he still being this sure of himself?Â
âPut it in,â you blurt, earning his gaze of utter confusion.Â
âWhat?âÂ
âJust for a second.â You stroke him, feeling slick velvet and wetness coating your fingers. âThatâs the last thing I want.âÂ
His eyes search yours, and for the first time tonight, heâs the one that looks hesitant. âYou sureâŠ?âÂ
âWeâll never do this again,â you whisper. âAnd I know you want it, too.âÂ
His gaze holds yours for a moment, searching your eyes for any sense of doubt.Â
When he finds none, Yoongi positions himself at your entrance, and you feel his knuckles brush your folds before he sinks in. Slowly, cautiously, extraordinarily.Â
And both of you groan so full.Â
âFuck,â Yoongi glowers, teeth sharp as he grounds them hard. His arm veins strain, shifting all his ink in pretty ebbs and flows. All his stomach snaps taut, and you canât look away from his sheer look of concentration and lust. âFuck.âÂ
âFeels so good,â you gasp, enjoying the way heâs slowly grinding against your walls. All the slick from your releases allows smooth strokes, and you already feel close for yet another time. An unbelievable amount of orgasm in such a short span. Youâll never reach this peak. Not with anyone else. âWhat the fuck, Iâm close againââ
âShitââ
It happens in a snap. But more of a mellowed, drawn-out river flow than a full waterfall. Your eyes slowly roll before closing, and your chest arches slow as you rock back and forth on his cock. The squeezes are harder. The pulses are fuller. Youâre milking him for all heâs worth, like your cunt wonât let go until itâs pumped him dry.Â
Which makes Yoongi lose his absolute mind, hissing as he pulls out quick before spilling onto you all over again. Again?Â
Holy fuck, again?Â
As he groans up above, his eyes are wiped dark completely. Which makes you wonder how you can still see stars embedded inside.Â
Was it all worth it?Â
Youâve never been more achingly sure.
Itâs a long shot to know if he feels the same. And an even longer one for that to truly be the case.Â
But itâs okay.Â
This is the first, the last, the only time you have. And it was more than you couldâve ever asked for.Â
As he falls into the sheets next to you, both of you exhale harsh, hearts pounding and pounding into the bed and to the ceiling.Â
You canât even move. Every single limb is sore from base to tip, and the door looks so, so far away.Â
When you whisper his name, you get a little acknowledgement at your side. Gathering all the strength you have left, you whisper,Â
âI know this is when Iâd be kicked out, but.. I canât move.âÂ
The small puff of air you get in return sounds like a yes. But you arenât sure until Yoongi verbally gives you a real answer,Â
âSâok.âÂ
All you can do is hum, noticing with a sharp pang that you feel soft towel wipes before the smooth slide of sheets up your bare skin.Â
âJust stay on your side.âÂ
Ah.Â
Well. At least you arenât alone for a night.Â
âAnd you.. Stay on yours,â you murmur, darkness seeping into your peripherals.Â
âMm.â
Yoongi can be as cold and heartless and calculating as he wants. But you know heâs more than what he shows.Â
Because with a second sharp hit to the chest, you also realize the side youâre on is the side he was on before. Heâs not gonna make you move just to keep his preference.Â
Donât think too much about it. Do not.Â
âI wish everything was different,â you whisper, drifting into a dreamless sea. âI donât want to hate you...âÂ
Your forehead is swept by a warm hand. You cannot lift your lids any longer, but your ears still hang onto their efforts.Â
And the last thing you hear before succumbing to the dark is a lighter flick and a fact. A cold, expected, damning fact.Â
âYouâll always hate me.âÂ
When you wake, youâre greeted by the same room you fell asleep in.Â
Sunlight cuts through grey skies to shine every surface, and you breathe in a musky, comforting scent as you stretch your limbs.Â
Did last night really happen?Â
The soreness between your bare legs is more than enough to prove so.Â
Slowly turning, you whisper to Yoongi that youâre ready to go when he is.Â
Only to find out that youâre talking to no one.Â
Shit.
Shooting up, you start to panic. Maybe heâs in the living room already? Getting ready to call someone to bring you back home?Â
Glancing at the nightstand on his side, you donât spot the dagger he gifted you, brain grappling with what that could possibly mean.Â
Your ribs crackle when you bite back emotion. Itâs all over.Â
Shifting back to swing your feet onto cold fibers, you pause with swimming eyes.Â
Because the blade rests ready on your nightstand, propped on a set of plain clothes in the perfect position you would need it to be.
Teeth clenched and eyes burning, you swipe it before rushing out of bed, head pulsing and a dull ache between your legs. âFuck..âÂ
The shirt and pants youâre given donât exactly fit, but youâll take what you can get as you punch limbs through long sleeves and high pants.Â
Yoongi isnât here.Â
You feel it in your whole being, and you have no fucking clue why it hurts.Â
But if heâs not hereâŠ
Who do you start to hear outside the door?Â
You freeze, lungs expanding as you hold multiple breaths.Â
It sounds like talking. But also a myriad of sounds?Â
Heading into the bathroom, you silently glide across the floor before swiping up the chopsticks. Because yes, youâre still gonna save them. For defence. For keepsakes. For a grave reminder.Â
Tucking them in a pocket, you ready your dagger under your garment, pressing it flat against your skin like you were trained to do.Â
Slipping out into the hallway, you hear the sounds clearer. Movement. Slides of furniture.Â
What the hell is going on?Â
Youâre about to retreat back into the room when a man crosses in front of the hall.Â
And his hair is strikinglyâŠÂ
Orange?
As he catches you in his vision, he stops on a dime, hand outstretched in greeting. âHello!âÂ
Your step back makes him laugh. But youâre not laughing in the slightest as you question,Â
âWhereâs.. Whereâs Agust?âÂ
âGone.â The smile spreading makes you squint. âNeed to see him?âÂ
Your answer is immediate.
âIâd rather die.â
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a/n: alright before i say anything else: use the bathroom after sex, and especially after doing it unprotected!! i normally include it so this is a rare exception. but yes. please use the bathroom after, and practice safe sex always! a/n 2: WHO COULD THAT BE AT THE END THERE... ahahah but seriously, i for one am still swirly eyed just thinking about what's coming for these two.. they have no idea what's in store and i'm itching to get the next part done! a/n 3: if there's something you liked about this or a line/scene/whatever thing you enjoyed, feel free to let me know! feedback is never expected, but always appreciated. if the interest level is high, that adds motivation like no other. thank you all for reading! ++ feedback box: â„ of course, any reblogs/comments/messages are appreciated! â„ for the ones that are too shy to reblog with a review, comment on this, or send a message, i went ahead and made another anonymous form where you can send in what you think! â„ no emails collected, no need to put in a username. itâs literally just a comment dropbox :D feedback can be as short/sweet or as long as youâd like! â„ here! ++ more links: â„ masterlist â„ minted masterlist
#FINALLY FINALLY#5000 words in two days just wanted to say i love y'all#bts fic#bts imagines#bts reactions#yoongi fic#yoongi angst#yoongi x reader#yoongi x you#yoongi smut#bts fanfic#bts smut#ryenwrites#minted#minted3#*ryenfictalk#*latest
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This is part 1 of a continuation for my other post where LL Megatron gets trapped in the G1 universe, I was thinking about how someone would go insane in this cartoon world and thought "what if Megatron had someone else to accompany him" so, I gave Starscream an existential crisis
Edit: pt 2 here
#guys i cant continue this comic I'll get too attached to the âoh its g1 animation errors excuseâ#âthis has great potential to be hilariousâ makes angst instead#starscream i love you but your shoulder spike thingies are annoying to draw#theres only two parts but i wanted to keep my streak of posting art daily#DO NOT BE FOOLED BY HIS CUTE FACE HES STILL EVIL hes just having alot of thoughts right now#sorry if my handwriting is hard to read at the end#i print when i can but i... unironicly write in cursive#transformers#megastar#megascream#megatron#starscream#megatron x starscream#transformers fanart#transformers g1#tf idw#transformers au#ok looking at this a day later i realize how bad the flow is#note to self draw just make comics on the same canvas in the future#i will say though Ive never made comics before its pretty good for character angle practice! I need to do more of these#also use a character ref sheet!!! I gotta look at refs if im gonna do this cause its kinda obvious most of my drawings are from memory#G1 x LL AU
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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#itafushi#fushiita#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#fanart#jjk fanart#megumi#yuuji#finally...some not angst.....#im worried out of my mind fr these two right abt now but we cope we cope :)#i woke up early n rushed to render this bc im leaving 2 catsit today n wont b able to spend every waking hour drawing like i have been#almost uploaded it without rendering megumi's ear and frgetting the sukuna scars so im sure ill find something i missed once i hit post smh#this pose fought me also >:( sighs why when i try to do not angst they do not want to cooperate . do they prefer being hurt#anyway !!!#i dont think any1 Listens when ppl put song links in the caption but if anyone is curious ! colours/shikisai galileo galilei#SO themcore im unwell i say that a lot but i mean it every time#speaking of colours i Love how these turned out but they ended up being a lot more cohesive than i intended GKHSDFK#wanted to have yuuji in warm and megumi in cold but that appears to have blended everywhere but their uniforms Oops#sighs these 2 and their sun/moon imagery r my cause of death. i die thinking abt it#resisted the urge 2 have a lmhs caption but let it b known. i amn Thinking it.#anyway i say ill b away from my drawing tablet but i fully plan 2 uber home one of the days so i can draw#i cant b slacking now the itfs reunion is nigh and i feel nauseous abt it i need to channel the nervous energy#have sketches.......just in case....but we dont Talk abt just in case >:(#itfs nation hold strong <3
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they're filming season two, but i'm thinking about the potential adaption of the mount tam scene in season three. you know, the one where annabeth could apologize for pushing percy out of the way and falling off the cliff in his place, and how she knows that sounds terrible but they didn't have time for another plan and she didn't want to lose him that way. but percy just engulfs her in a hug because he's so relieved that she's safe now and everything else be damned. and annabeth doesn't understand why he's snickering to himself after that last statement, but she melts into the hug anyway because she missed him. and thalia and grover stand in the background happy for their friends on the outside but internally mortified, because their friends are definitely falling for each other but fate may not allow them to see it through.
#i know this isnt how the scene goes in the books#but just think about it#percy swapping places with annabeth to keep her safe in season and annabeth returning the favor in season three#thalia not getting along with percy for the entire season because they're too much alike#and if she doesn't deserve annabeth then how could he?#until she sees how they bring out the best in each other like grover tried to tell her from the beginning#and she mourns the relationship with annabeth she could have had#and she fears for annabeth's well-being all over again because the upcoming prophecy could change everything#and she fears for percy's well-being too because two years from now will the hardest day of his life and he has no idea#percy jackon and the olympians#pjo text post#pjo#pjo headcanon#percy jackson#annabeth chase#percabeth#percabeth headcanon#grover underwood#thalia grace#pjo angst#also frederick is standing there and clearly sees this poseidon boy has strong feelings for his daughter#and the feeling is obviously mutual#and now he's seen his daughter in love for the first time#so there's that
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Iâm stuck in the 2ha and SVSSS hellhole,,, đ
#the husky and his white cat shizun#scum villian self saving system#2ha#svsss#mushyrt#Iâm so obsessed with these two series right now HELP LMFAO#I LIKE MY ANGST FAR TOO MUCH#AND SQQ IS A CLOWN DRAMA QUEEN AND I LOVE HIM đđ#XI SINI CAN RIP OUT MY HEART ANY DAY#IâLL POST SOME SH*TPOSTS LATER
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Abby and reader getting into an argument where they both know r is right but Abby is just being so goddamn stubborn ohmygod. So r just ups and flashes Abby with their tits to shut her up. Abby stutters and slowly loses her resolve until she finally shortcircuits
â THE PRETTY GIRL BEHIND THE BAR. â
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â â warnings y disclaimers â eighteen+, dom!reader, sub!abby, poc!friendly, jealous!abby, soft nsfw, stubborn!abby.
Abby never should have been flirting with the bartender. She knows it just as well as you do. You had every right to be upset. Abby was your girl, not anyone else's, and she just let it happen. Right in front of you.
It made you sick and God, her dismal of it was even more infuriating. Her stubbornness shining through as you tried to make her see where you were coming from, but it seemed the attention was going right to her head.
"So, what if she was flirting? Why does it matter?" Abby was trying to worm her way out, but you wouldn't let her. Not this time.
"It's one thing to entertain it Abby but c'mon, look with your eyes. You let her feel you up right in front of me. Do you seriously not see how disrespectful that is?â
"She was not all over me and she did not feel me up." Abby defended.
"Really? You're going to play dumb right now? That's the side you want to take. You've got to be kidding me." Clearly, you were frustrated but your words only angered Abby.
"You're calling me dumb right now? For the love of god, she didn't touch me."
"Maybe you didn't notice because you were too caught up in the pretty girl behind the bar but anyone with eyes could see she was all over you." You walked away from her as the two of you walked into your shared apartment as Abby slammed the door behind her.
"She kept touching your arm and you did nothing. She tugged at the end of your braid; you did nothing. Anderson, she was looking at you like you were a piece of meat and you just let her! It was like I was fucking invisible." You were beyond pissed and the smirk on her lips wasn't helping.
Abby was too damn confident for her own good, always putting her foot in her mouth before she even spoke.
"Anderson? Wow. You're really angry, baby." She took a step closer, but you took two steps back.
"Don't 'baby' me. Are you being serious right now?"
You couldnât believe her. She had the nerve to stand there, beautiful as can be, with a smile you would kill for but right now? You wanted nothing more than to deck her in the face. Abby always did this, and it pissed you off to no fucking end. Abby always had to let you know how wanted she is and how lucky you were to have her. It truly was nauseating.
âJust admit it, Anderson. She fucking touched you and you let her.â You threw it back at her, tired of this back and forth.
âIf you call me Anderson one more time, I swear to god.â
âYouâll what? Flirt with someone else in front of me?â You stepped forward, cocking your head to the side. âI have to say, the more you do it, it might just lose itâs impact.â
âAre you sure? Youâre pretty wound up right now, baby. Just canât stand when my attention is elsewhere, can you?âÂ
You wanted to scream at her, but you couldnât. Even if the chances of those baby blues welling up into tears were slim, you couldnât let your anger get the best of you. All of this was intentional. Her pressing, her flirting, her acting like she oblivious to it. Abby wanted a reaction out of you. Boy, was she getting one. Still, you didnât want to do anything to upset her, even if it seemed she was trying to do the opposite for you.
If she wanted to play with fire, so be it. Youâd just have to cool her off enough so you could have a conversation about this without her cocky persona jumping in at any given moment.
The smirk dropped from her Abbyâs face as soon as her brain registered what you were doing. Carefully, nimble fingers were unbuttoning the vest top you had on. Youâd worn it just for her too. Abby loves the way it makes your breasts look, cleavage busting at the top. It usually would make her insatiable, but no. Tonight, she decided to keep her attention elsewhere.
You would make her pay for it.
âWhat are you doing?â Her breath hitches, and you try to smirk but youâre failing just as she was before.
âWhat does it look like Iâm doing?â
âW-Weâre fighting now, right?â Abby was so unsure of herself. Part of her believed she was imagining this. You slowly taking off your top, and God you werenât wearing a bra either.
You really were trying to kill her, Abby thought.
âYep, youâre really pissing me off, Anderson.â
âT-them, uh, why- oh fuck.â Abby tried to speak but it trailed off to a curse as you tossed your top onto the back of couch and made your way right to her.
âWhy donât you tell me exactly why your attention was elsewhere?â Your perky tits on display for her was torture, because she knew if she tried to touch you, her hand would be smacked immediately.
âCâmon, donât be shy Anderson. Tell how much of a crazy fucking girlfriend I am. Go on. Fucking speak.â You demanded from her, but the blonde still found herself tripping over her words, unable to complete one sentence.
âI-I, um, y-y-you know, fuck, what do you want me to say baby? Please, Iâll do anything. Jusâ want to make it up to you.â Her eyes maintain eye contact with flesh exposed for her enjoyment, or rather yours. You liked doing this to her. Flipping the dominate switch to submissive and watching her crumble.
Abby knew it would be more than worth it once you had the harness and strap on, fucking her so dumb. Her pussy fluttered at the thought of it. She wanted you to stretch her out â turn her into your little fuck toy. You liked it, loved it even. Tearing apart someone so strong, until she was putty in your hands and begging for it.
Itâs what she deserved after pulling the little stunt today.
She needed to be put in her place and you were more than happy to oblige.
âFor starters, stop looking at my tits and look in my eyes.â Abby obeyed you, anticipating your next move.
âNow, be a good girl. Go upstairs, strip for me. I want you naked on the bed, and Mommy will be up there to remind you exactly who you belong to.â You slapped her ass as she moved hastily up the steps leading into your bedroom.
Letâs just say, Abby was in the for a long night.
#âă»ÛȘ âč Ö rayâs works#omg me posting two days in a row? who am i#this was so fun to write honestly#lesbian#wlw sapphic#abby anderson#abby anderson x reader#abby anderson x female reader#abby anderson x fem reader#abby anderson x masc reader#abby anderson tlou#abby anderson x you#abby x you#abby anderson fanfiction#abby anderson smut#abby anderson fluff#sub!abby anderson#sub abby#abby anderson angst#abby anderson the last of us#tlou#tlou2
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đż I LOVE YOU SO MATCHA! â gojo satoru sfw!
prologue. â green was the color of life, and gojo satoru, in all his contradictions, carried life in the way he loved recklessly, laughed shamelessly, and held you like the universe began and ended with you. đż đ€ part of the cookbook (@antizenin)
pairing. gojo satoru x afab!reader
but green is the colour of earth. of living things, of life. and of rot. â unknown.
warnings+. sweetness and established relationship, there's angst in this i genuinely couldn't help it, reader wears a dress in a scene, mentions of injury!
word count. 4k! song inspiration. luther â kendrick lamar, sza
a/n. i'm doing the sukuna shibuya bow from making another predictable twist and ending. but i actually rlly loved writing this, this fic is gonna stay with me i fear <3 gif made by me!
mp3. if it was up to me, i wouldn't give these nobodies no sympathy. i'd take away the pain, i'd give you everything
most people think of gojo satoru in shades of blue.
not the soft and wistful kind that paints summer skies, or the quiet ripple of a lake at dawn. no, they think of an unearthly blue. sharp and electrifying, the kind that stings your eyes and lingers even after you look away.
the shocking azure of his cursed technique, like lightning bottled and ready to shatter the earth. or maybe it's the endless stretch of his eyes, the kind of blue that is so bright, you may burn yourself if you look too long.
to everyone else, gojo is blue. bold, and unrelenting and impossible to ignore.
but to you, gojo satoru is green.
it took time for you to notice it. green doesn't always shout or demand attention. it waits quietly in the background, sometimes content to let others take the stage.
but once you saw it, it was everywhere. it bloomed and took over your life.
the café smells like freshly brewed coffee, warm bread, and the faint sweetness of jasmine blooms sitting in a vase by the window. it's a quiet day, the kind that only seems to exist when gojo has finally managed to wrangle some rare time off.
your boyfriend sits across from you, sunglasses pushed up into his hair, grinning like he's thought of something utterly brilliant.
"okay, hear me out," he says, holding up a hand like he's about to make a groundbreaking declaration that will shatter the earth and bring world peace, "you're the oolong one for me."
you pause and scrunch your face, mid-sip in your tea, "please don't."
gojo leans forward, his grin growing wider ever still, "no? how about this? you're simply tea-rrific."
you bury your face in your hands, as an elderly couple looks at the two of you oddly, "you're unbearable."
"tea-rrific. like terrific," gojo laughs, wagging a finger like a professor lecturing his class, "get it? because -"
"oh, i get it," you cut in, shaking your head but still smiling at your entire world of a boyfriend, "i just refuse to reward bad behaviour."
but you should know better than to think you've tampered down on the relentless force that is gojo satoru. he is relentless in all things, especially when he decides to make you laugh. he's launched into an entire string of tea-related puns, each one worse than the last.
chai think you're amazing! we're a matcha made in heaven! leaf me alone, i'm on a roll!
and somehow, somewhere between the chai and matcha, you start to notice the green.
the delicate stems and leaves of the jasmine says slightly as the café door opens and closes, catching your eye. their soft green isn't loud nor is it attention-seeking. just quietly present, a backdrop to the white blooms that adorn their head.
it is the kind of colour you don't realise you've been missing until it's suddenly there.
you glance at the window, and the trees lining the street are the same, their leaves dappling the sunlight as they sway in the breeze. even the café walls, painted in a muted, sage-like shade, seem to glow just a little in the sunlight. a backdrop to gojo's charming antics.
he's still in front of you, his hair gleaming the same dewy shade as the jasmine blossoms. so animated as he explains why leaf me alone was an under appreciated pun.
there's green in him too, you think.
not in the obvious sense for gojo satoru is far too outwardly vivid to be defined by something as soft as the green akin to your matcha. but it's still there, beneath the flash of his grin and the sharpness of his humour. in the way that he leans closer to make sure you're still smiling.
in the way he somehow turns the whole world into a quiet garden on days like this.
"okay," gojo says, leaning back to cross his arms over his crisp white tee, "i'll stop. but admit it, i brewed up some great ones."
you roll your eyes, but the corners of your mouth betray you, "fine. one of them was acceptable."
gojo gasps, clutching his chest like you've delivered a fatal, cleaving wound, "one? one? i give you comedy gold, and the love of my life repays me like this!"
the jasmine leaves quiver again as your knee knocks up, shaking the table, "you're impossible."
gojo smiles softer this time, tipping his head as though you've delivered the greatest compliment in the world, "yeah. but love me so matcha!"
the strongest sorcerer in modern history is cracking himself up again, and you can feel the warmth of the colour green around you. in the leaves, in the dappled light, and the man across from you who somehow makes the world softer, and sweeter. and full of life.
there's a matcha-green hoodie in gojo's closest. it's oversized, cozy and worn just enough at the cuffs to feel like a bit of a secret. something loved so well that it holds pieces of him in the quilted fabric.
it's nothing like the sharp navy and indigo of his uniform that he wears on duty, where every line is a untouchable warning. no, these clothes are the opposite for you. it's familar. it's gojo's off-duty self, the one that the rest of the world doesn't get to see.
gojo only really wears it at home, when he's padding around barefoot with tousled, snowy hair brushing over his forehead as he pretends to tiptoe (and fails spectacularly) to let you sleep in. it's the kind of green that somehow makes the mornings softer, as if the day dances quietly around you too.
it's also the green of the evenings when he drapes himself over the couch in your apartment, long legs dangling over the armrest while he beckons you with a lazy smile.
the fabric is impossibly soft against your cheek as you settle into his broad chest, and his arms loop around you like they were always meant to belong there. it smells like him too, a little like cedar and a little like pine. and you think it might be your favourite place in the world.
one time, you stole it.
you hadn't planned it. you had been cold, and it had been right there. before you knew it, you had been walking around the house in its oversized embrace.
when gojo had caught you for the first, his grin stretched wide, playful and wicked.
"hey, well," gojo had drawled, leaning against a doorframe like a cartoon cat that had finally cornered the mouse, "look who's going through other people's closets."
you tugged the sleeves further over your hands, "it's comfortable. you take my shit all the time."
"it's cute on you," gojo says, sauntering closer and placing his large hands on either side of your face, "but you know...no one looks cuter than me."
you snort and turn your back on him, which only encourages for the six-foot-three man to chase after you. and even though he claimed he needed it back, he didn't get it for a week.
maybe because you refused to give it up, or maybe because every time he saw you in it, he just shook his head, grinning as if heâd been caught in the middle of something he didnât mind losing.
when gojo invited you back to the family estate, you had braced yourself for grandeur. looming gates, and endless halls. the suffocating weight of tradition.
and yes, the grandeur had been there. but what lingered most in your memory wasn't the vastness or the architecture. it was how beautiful it was.
there were several shrines that lay nestled among the estate, hidden away on plots of land. this one had been worn soft by time, covered in moss and nestled among the larger stones.
spring had woven itself into every corner of the estate, from the blossoms swaying overhead to the long grass brushing against your ankles as you walked.
gojo stood a few steps ahead of you, glancing back as if to make sure that you hadn't disappeared, hadn't been swallowed up by the earth. he was dressed in far more traditional robes for once, navy linen lowing and rippling as he moved.
but there was something endearingly out of place about him here, like a bird perched on the wrong branch.
"spring makes it look nicer than it is," he said, running his fingers over the soft, white edges of his undercut. you can hear the underlying vulnerable note in his seemingly casual voice.
you didnât reply right away, too caught up in the way the sunlight filtered through the cherry blossoms, scattering dappled green shadows across the worn stone steps. when you reached the base of the shrine, you paused, taking it all in: the moss, the blossoms, the breeze, and him.
"it's beautiful," you said finally, and he gave you a lopsided smile that felt more honest than any grandeur could ever be.
he waited for you at the top of the steps, his gaze steady and warm as the spring air. for a moment, he looked like he belonged here, a part of the ancient garden itself. like a carven statue created by loving hands, forever memorialised as something not quite human. but you knew better.
he didn't like this place â this house that felt more like a museum than a home, this estate heavy with the weight of a family name he wore like armour. since arriving, heâd been quieter than usual, his usual spark dimmed by old memories and expectations, and constantly bowing servants who called him lord and master gojo.
but now, as gojo watched you walk through the long grass, something shifted. his shoulders have relaxed, his hands hung loose at his sides. and then, so softly you almost missed it, he says, "i want to marry you."
you froze, the words catching in the breeze between you.
he wasnât looking at the shrine anymore, or the blossoms, or the sky. gojo satoru was looking at you, his blue eyes calm and unwavering, like heâd found his answer in the very place heâd been avoiding.
"i know it's not much right now," he added, his voice low and rough around the edges, as though he wasnât used to baring this part of himself, "and i don't care what the elders say. but you're the only person i want."
at the edge of the jujutsu high campus, there's a vending machine of incredible drinks. its green paint had faded, and chipped from the years of stubborn sun and countless coins clinking into its slot.
it hums faintly, blending into the scenery like a reliable friend that carried you through your own years of high school.
somehow, it's become your spot. not officially, no. there was no grand declaration, no conscious agreement and treaty. but after his classes, he always ends up here.
and so do you.
it starts the same way each time. gojo satoru saunters up to his fiancé with that unmistakable grin, white hair catching the light as if he was trying outshine the sun itself.
you watch as he slides a coin into the slot with theatrical position, with his finger hovering dramatically over the buttons. like he's choosing between life and death, instead of commercial canned drinks.
"one iced matcha," gojo announces in a tone meant for a training arena, and not a quiet campus corner. his hand arcs in an exaggerated flourish as he offers you the drink, "for the love of my life."
you roll your eyes, but the corners of your mouth betray you, "flattery wonât get you anywhere," you reply, accepting the can and cracking it open with practiced ease.
it's a dance you've done a hundred times, but somehow it never gets old. he leans against the vending machine, towering and smug, watching you take a sip like heâs waiting for something.
"don't even think about it, satoru" you warn, holding the can just out of his reach.
but itâs gojo, so of course he thinks about it. he grins wider â how is that possible? and in one fluid motion, he leans in and steals a sip before you can react.
"i will get revenge, always so difficult," you weakly huff, but your fond smile gives you away.
"difficult to resist," he counters, winking like itâs a challenge, "besides," gojo adds, holding the can up to the light as if inspecting its soul, "it tastes better when itâs yours."
you snatch it back, pretending to glare at him, but heâs already leaning closer, his hand brushing yours as he reaches to press another button.
"second round?" he asks, as if this isnât already part of his plan.
the vending machine hums again, green and steady and familiar, as it delivers another drink with a satisfying clunk.
green had grown to be more than just a colour. it had been a thread that stitched its way through your love story. quiet and constant.
so when the day came, when your heart thudded heavier than ever before and your hands shook just slightly as you smoothed down the expensive fabric, it only made sense that the colour of vitality and new beginnings was everywhere.
the first ceremony itself had been steeped in tradition, from the elegant folds of your formal robes to the rhythmic chants that seemed to echo on in your head. you were grateful for its beauty, but it was the dinner afterwards that felt like yours truly.
the reception was tucked away in a corner of the sprawling grounds, where the tables were adorned with white lilies so luminous they seemed to carry their own light. they sat in vases of muted jade, the colour rich and soft, like the grass after a spring rain. the candles flickered in delicate green holders, casting shadows that waltzed across the tablecloths.
gojo was, of course, the first thing you noticed when you stepped into the space. he wasnât wearing robes anymore; heâd swapped them for a sleek black suit that fit him perfectly, save for the ever-so-slightly loosened tie (because he couldn't help himself). his hair, as untameable as always, gleamed in the low light.
and then there was you, in a flowing green dress that felt like youâd stepped out of a dream and into his orbit. the soft fabric caught the candlelight, shifting from deep emerald to pale sage as you moved, shimmering. you thought about how this colour, the one that reminded you of leaves and tea and moss-covered shrines â had always meant life to you.
gojo's grin when he saw you was wide enough to rival the moon, and he made a show of adjusting his tie like a movie star spotting their co-star for the first time, with an awfully cliché wink.
"you clean up nice," he said, eyes gleaming with mischief, and then something more love-struck, "my beautiful wife. i must be the luckiest man on earth."
"and youâre just realising this now?" you teased, the soft fabric of your dress whispering as you stepped closer.
dinner wasnât a grand banquet, but it was perfect â just your closest friends, a table overflowing with warmth, and gojo stealing glances at you as if youâd disappear if he looked away for too long. between bites of food and sips of something sweet, he leaned over to whisper ridiculous commentary in your ear about your guests: how much wine nanami had thrown back, or how shoko had situated herself perfectly near the food.
but then, in quieter moments, heâd reach for your hand beneath the table, his thumb tracing soft, lazy circles on your skin.
the night blurred into laughter and soft music, of digital cameras and drunk speeches. the green hues around you shifting like memories folding into themselves. you caught sight of the lilies swaying gently in the breeze and thought about how gojo had insisted on them when youâd been indecisive.
"white lilies mean devotion," he'd said, smirking like he knew something you didnât.
"and green?" you'd asked.
"green's for us," he replied, "or for you. i know you like it so much. an' it's cute when you're sentimental."
by the end of the night, gojo's tie was completely undone, and his jacket hung over the back of a chair. he pulled you onto the dance floor despite your protests that your feet hurt, practically yelling in their strapped heels.
"then i'll carry you," he said dramatically, dipping you halfway before breaking into laughter when you yelped.
the two of you swayed there, in the gentle green glow of the reception, his arms wrapped around you and the world falling into place. your husband smelled faintly of the lilies and something warm you couldnât name. you're sure if you put pen to paper, like a poet of old, you might be able to name that feeling.
"you know," he murmured, his lips brushing against your temple, "i've been to a lot of ceremonies, but this oneâs definitely my favourite."
"oh? why's that?" you asked, resting your cheek against his chest, feeling the steady rhythm of his heartbeat.
"because this time, i got to marry you."
you used to love the colour white. it had been the colour everything pure. everything soft that made you feel safe. the brightness of it had brought a clarity to the world.
it was the colour gojo's unruly hair, glistening in the sun like a crown. you had been so enamoured, watching him run slender fingers through soft strands. to you, white had always been perfect and radiant in all of gojo's unbridled glory.
but the winds of the snow storm must have shifted.
you still remember that day so vividly, as if your mind could never forget it no matter how much you wished it could. the white falling on the streets of shinjuku, covered with layers of freshly fallen snow. pristine and untouched.
but there had been a sickening crack of flesh against pavement, the wet thud that only those who've known death too closely can identify.
you had seen it before you'd even registered the horror of it all. the red, the bright crimson that bled into the snow. staining it, warping it. turning it into something so vile. the ministrations of ryomen sukuna.
gojo's body, cleaven and unmoving. the garnet staining his snow-white hair as it pulled from under his spine. the quiet calm that had settled over his face, as if he had seen something so wondrous in his last moments.
that snow, once so untouched and pure, was suffocated by the iron scent of blood. and at that moment, when you had lost him forever, was the moment you knew that white would never mean purity again.
the colour of white, the colour of christmas eve â no longer held any softness for you. it wasnât the gentle lightness of his hair; it was the cold, hard truth of loss. it was the memory of blood seeping into that pure snow, the last thing he saw before his life was ripped away.
now, you avoid it. you avoid white whenever you can, as if by doing so, you can erase that moment from your mind. you keep your house warm and cozy, perhaps almost unhealthily so, with shades of warm and soft earth tones, and you dress your daughter in colours that remind you of life, of what was still worth living for. but white? it's a shadow, a reminder. so, you avoid it.
but then, one afternoon, a few months later, your daughter tugs at your hand, small and warm, a soft giggle escaping her as she skips ahead of you. you canât help but smile at her, at how much of gojo satoru is in her â the way she laughs without hesitation, the way her energy fills up every room, every corner.
you're walking down the street, the air still crisp from the tail-end of winter. it's one of those moments when the world feels ordinary, but in the best way possible. sunlight filtering down between reconstructed buildings, the bustle of the city in the background, your daughter's little chirp bubbling in the space between. you're lost in her, in the joy she brings.
but then, you stop.
you don't mean to. you didn't even notice where your feet were taking you until it happens. your gaze drops to the ground, and there it is.
that spot. the place where it all happened. the very spot where the white had been stained with merlot, the place where gojo's life was stolen from you. the pavement looks the same, the cracks just as they were before, but there's something different now.
a tiny green plant, barely noticeable, growing through the crack in the concrete. the leaves are soft, a rich shade of green that seems to pulse with life. it's small, fragile, but determined, its roots pushing through the cold, unforgiving pavement.
you swallow, the lump in your throat almost choking you.
"satoru..." you whisper to yourself, but your daughterâs voice pulls you from your morbid, breaking thoughts.
"look!"
you glance down, seeing her kneeling beside the plant, her tiny hands reaching out to touch it with wonder in her eyes.
"it's pretty, isnât it? can i pick it?" she asks, her voice light and innocent.
you nod, tears welling up in your eyes that you refuse to let fall. you hold your breath, trying to steady your heart. it's absurd, you think, how something so small, so simple, could make you feel so much. how something as insignificant as a sprout could make the weight of the world feel just a little bit lighter.
nitrogen, iron and phosphorus are all found in human blood. and hey! they're also needed for plants to grow!
you hear the voice of teenage shoko, kicking her legs back as you tried to finish your homework, right before yaga assigned you another detention. but now the memory comes back to you, sickens you. tears at your heart.
you crouch down beside her, your fingers gently brushing against the plantâs leaves.
"yeah, it's pretty," you whisper, voice barely audible. âbest let it rest where it is, yeah?"
you've taken a deep breath and stand up, your daughter tugging you along as she continues on her path, unknowing, innocent. entirely unaware of the memory of her father, lauded as a hero and as a sharp weapon by all those who knew him.
most of those who knew him.
but you glance back at the little plant, the green leaves waving in the soft breeze, and for the first time in months, you donât feel the crushing weight of grief.
you just feel⊠a little less lost. and for the first time, the colour green feels like something more than a memory of gojo satoru.
more of a promise for the future, for those who lived on.
#wikicollabs:cookbook#gojo satoru#gojo x reader#gojo satoru x reader#gojo x you#gojo fluff#jjk x reader#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jujutsu kaisen x you#jjk fluff#jjk angst#gojo satoru angst#gojo#works#HEYYYY. two fics in one day wtfff#daphworks
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Can't Draw Him Anymore
Oh look, my sketching pencils are blue and orange. Wonder what that makes me think of?
#rottmnt#tmnt#fanart#rottmnt fanart#tmnt fanart#I had this idea because I was trying to draw my mother a little while back#and I drew a complete blank#like what on earth does she look like#I've looked at her almost every day of my life and I still can't picture her face?#It was a messed up feeling#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#teenage mutant ninja turtles#traditional art#future leo#future mikey#rottmnt movie#tmnt leonardo#tmnt michelangelo#angst for the soul#first fanart of these guys and it's when two of them are dead#adding that crack to the wall mural was an artistic mistake that will haunt me
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Smthn about escapism and why someone (me) might choose to stay with Kinito even tho he was a bit mean and also didnât like that u had freewill lol
Also a little bit of thinking abt how Kinito and the Player Who Stays (the Stayer???) share a lot of parallels (working hard to deserve nice things, crippling loneliness, selfish reasons for clinging to one another, self awareness, dissatisfaction/disappointment with their respective realities leading to them idealizing the concept of each other, etc etc)
(The song lyrics are from âWoof woofâ by ARTHUR. It took a few listens to rlly appreciate it, now it scratches my brain in v nice ways)
#kinito#kinito my beloved#kinito the axolotl#kinitopet#kinito x y/n#kinito x player#self insert oc#self insert#oc x canon#canon x self insert#woof woof by Arthur#song lyrics#music inspired art#doodles#angst#self awareness#tw obsessive behavior#tw unhealthy coping mechanisms#tw toxic relationship#longing and loneliness#character exploration#Iâm ok btw I just had this concept in my brain for th past two days lol#babbitsona#babbit#oc persona
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The fact that DC isnât capitalizing on the Billionaire Romance potential between Bruce in Clark is criminal.
It has all the markings of success. Tall, dark, brooding love interests thatâs richer than God but has a tortured soul? Check. Small town protagonist whoâs in over their head but too in love to care? Double check. Complicated family and/or workplace dynamics that could pull the couple apart? Triple check.
Superbat is like an Ana Huang book on steroids; I know Iâll never see it actualized but DAMN is Bruce and Clarkâs dynamic perfect for itâŠ
#like you know that scene where the couple gets into a huge fight and they break up for like two days before getting back together?#it happens in ever billionaire romance book ever#and then they make out#and probably more#but just imagine#that it was Bruce and Clark because the angst would go so hard#Iâm a sucker for a billionaire romance novel#donât judge me#bruce wayne#clark kent#dc#dc comics#batman#superman#justice league#superbat#billionaire bruce wayne#well-meaning small-town clark kent#just kiss already#also thereâs an only one bed trope throw in here somewhere ig
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OH MY GOD ITS CARMEN AND RICHARD
#spooky month#spooky month carmen#spooky month richard#theyâre so silly I LOVE THEM I LOVE COUPLES WHO KNOW WHAT THEY WANT#every time pelo posts them; itâs because iâm sending the brain waves trust me#one day the carmen richard enjoyers will be hit with the family angst#and i specifically wonât know peace ever again /JOKE#iâll live !!! it just means i can use sad love songs now#yknowâŠ. for pmvâs /evil#i mean i do have some angst ideas but it feels awkward posting them lol#anyways a bunch of nothing tags to hide these two tags ->#[ the art of mourning ]#spooky month fanart#not like i really tried to replicate the style i just went âgood enoughâ and posted it LOL#carmen x richard
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KIM HONGJOONG FIC RECS
Poly!Ateez Pt. 1 - Pt. 2 - Park Seonghwa - Jeong Yunho - Kang Yeosang - Choi San - Song Mingi - Jung Wooyoung - Choi Jongho
Next up we have the Captain himself!~ I feel like Joong is always written so interestingly because for one, he is part of the demon line but he is also a silly lil goof my shorty in blue đ©đ© Just so you know, I have not read many series for individual Ateez members (feel free to recommend any!!!), so most of these will be one-shots or drabbles. As always, I hope you enjoy and support these authors!!
DISCLAIMER none of these works are mine and majority are MATURE 18+, please review all warnings before reading!!!
Key:
âš - My Favs
đ„ - Smut (MINORS DNI)
âïž - Angst
đ - Fluff
đ - Humor
SERIES
Wanbelyn - @songmingisthighs âïžđđ SMAU ⧠Dad!Hongjoong ⧠Doctor AU
expect to see this author on almost all the masterlists because their SMAU đ€đ€đ€ like you couldn't pry my phone out of my hands when i'm reading these fics đđ this one is the first i got to follow along with as they updated so i am emotionally attached to wanbelyn!joong, the mc, and kijoong MY BABY đđ
ONE-SHOTS/DRABBLES/ETC
This World - @hongism đ„âïžđOutlaw AU ⧠Ateez Lore
The Captain's Favorite - @edenesth âïžđ Pirate AU
Untitled - @sanspuppet đ„
Ruin Me - @sxcret-garden đ„
Untitled - @yourfatherlucifer đ„
marigold - @yoongiseesawmp3 đ„đ College AU
Invisible Man Hongjoong - @justaaveragereader đ„ Slasher AU
Morning Haze - @nateezfics đ„
wetting your lips - @k-hotchoisan đ„ Sugar Daddy AU
the shoe on the other foot - @bro-atz đ„ Idol AU
tone - @puddingyun đ„Idol AU
he's kinda hot - @ohmyamor đ„âïžđ Demon AU
yours, mine, & everything in between - @sungbeam đ
friends to lovers to strangers - @bro-atz đ„âïž Composer AU
Untitled - @thetypingpup đ„ College AU
on me - @hongism âšđ„
listen ok đđ sub!joong is such a rare treat that i kinda lose it when i see it but this fic is just so well written and its sensual and intimate and how joong is written is just đ©đ©đ©
Pretty Pink - @nateezfics âšđ„
the teasing đźâđšđźâđš the edging đ€€đ€€ the overstim đ©đ©đ© this is just really well written smut its so fucking hot you just need to read it!!!đđ
a wild ride - @bombuni đ„ College AU
13:00 - @kwanisms đ„Idol AU
bla bla bla - @yoongiseesawmp3 đ„âïž Idol AU
Stupid Games, Stupid Prizes - @last-words-ofashootingstar đ„âïž Rockstar AU
I'm The One - @sorryimananti-romantic âïžđ Royalty AU
you're my desire - @hongism đ„
bonnie & clyde - @byuntrash101 đ„ Gang AU
duck curtains - @ichorai đ Roommate AU
Coachella Rut - @meltingmidas đ„ Idol AU
Wings and Thorns - @k-hotchoisan đ„Angels & Demons AU
deal - @hongism đ„ Roommate AU
while you were sleeping - @seonghwaddict đ Producer AU
Mist - @hongthoven đ„âïž
boyfriend!texts - @lololololchips đ Idol AU
Business Call - @nateezfics đ„ CEO AU
Untitled - @thetypingpup đ„ Hybrid AU
fĂ©conder - @yeosgoa âšđ„ Witch AU
listen okay there is few things hotter than sex potion/sex pollen/anything that makes them so fucking horny they can't think ok ok and this is just desperate joong fucking mc into oblivion its incredible đ”âđ«đ”âđ«
Untitled - @thetypingpup đ„ Hybrid AU
#ateez#ateez fic recs#ateez x reader#ateez smut#ateez angst#ateez fluff#kim hongjoong#hongjoong x reader#hongjoong smut#happy comeback month~~#two days til i tryto get ateez tickets đđ#merengue makes lists#5/18/24 update with a few more recs and i forgot to list a fav đđđđ#also i didn't get tickets đđ
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Sarathrwizard aka SaraWiz's Master post
This is a place holder to make it easier to find my comics!
-Chapter 1- :Deadly Save: Part 1 Part 2
-Chapter 2- :Intertwined: Part 1 Part 2
-Chapter 3- :Stolen Souls: Part 1 Part 2 Part 3
-Chapter 4- :A Shattered Dream: Part 1 Part 2
-Chapter 5- :Spirit of Water: Part 1 Part 2
-Chapter 6- :Two see as One: Part 1 Part 2
-Chapter 7- :Every Second Counts: Part 1 Part 2 Coming Soon!
-Chapter 8- :Right by your Side: ???
(Let's play a game of 'how many chapters can I add before people notice!')
Fun Doodles and asks
Other comics:
Even Heros Fall
Out of the Blue
We could use a LifeSaver
Misunderstood Love :(Still Going):
Two Hearts Beat as One :(Still Going):
That One Novel:
7 Day Camp Stay
:Hamato Beth: (my oc.)
Birthday Comic
#masterpost#masterlist#comics#rottmnt#i care comic#Out of the Blue Comic#fanfiction#comic#saverottmnt#riseofthetmnt#angst#tw blood#tw injuries#disaster twins#rise leo#rise donnie#rise mikey#rise raph#We could use a LifeSaver comic#Misunderstood love comic#Two Hearts Beat as One Comic#7 Day Camp Stay Novel
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