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fukirvana · 5 months ago

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cringy aaah angst

#count it as a vent i need #help /hj #sonic the hedgehog #sth #shadow the hedgehog #sonic #sonadow #shadonic #sonic x shadow

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trans-leek-cookie · 2 months ago

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yknow what. I wanna say: CSA and COCSA survivors are all incredible, but I also wanna give a shout out to ppl who were exposed to sexual stuff or had any kind of sexual experience as a kid that they either aren't comfortable labelling as or don't consider abuse, but they know it still fucking sucked and shouldnt have happened. Even if that changes later in life and you identify as a victim/surivor, it can be messy to have to imagine those labels applying to the ppl in ur life and that can take time.

The most important thing is to prioritize your recovery + health, and to support other victims + survivors.

#COCSA ment #CSA ment #This is like. V personal and venting (maybe over sharing)#It's. I'm going to be honest recent discussion really brought this back into my brain aaughhh. Not in a bad way necessarily #Just. I know I've had experiences that I think others might label this way and I struggle to really understand that #Beyond the gut feeling of ''it doesnt count'' there's the understand that I might be denying it bc of shame or even just. The fact I have #An internal definition of it that excludes myself. And that I don't want to imagine the other ppl as 'abusive' and I don't think they had #The intent to hurt me. And the fact in one situation I know none of us understood boundaries or consent bc we didn't #Actually talk with adults about what like. Sex and sexuality meant so all out fucking context was porn. And just idk #I have specific experiences but those Memorable Incidents were just part of a larger pattern of me learning Abt sex young #And then failing to get proper sex ed for years. And the internet. And the Fucking Internet #(fanfic is like. Anti sex ed. 70% just the fucking worst shit to internalize 30% ''hey this is actually Okay'')#Sex Ed... Like in school... Needs a fucking HEAVY overhaul but it's still better than nothing usually

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c0ke-0-my-beloved · 4 months ago

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life if i had smaller thighs

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kaysdenofchaos · 2 months ago

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hha lowkey not looking forward going back home from college anymore

regardless of how it turns out im kinda realizing that this election like. probably broke my last bit of hope i can keep a relationship w my trump supporting asshat of a brother

i just wanna feel safe man.

#vent #sorry im like. not well rn l mao #i can count the number of people i feel safe being open w on one hand and they arent blood related thats for sure #i dont wanna move out in this economy but idk if i can handle staying in my household for longer than i need to #khaotic #i have an assignment due in two hours this is horrible #election 2024 #us politics #im gonna. draw for a bit and cry ig

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phone-kisser · 2 months ago

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Pleasbe there's gotta be a jake account on here somewhere that can adopt me HELP

#im sad and i need to be self indulgent #I NEED MY DAD TO BE REAL #this is not okay im actually having a breakdown over this #dont look at me #randy yaps #idk if id count this as a vent but #randy vents #vent tw #dsaf #jake wilson #dsaf jake

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puppyeared · 1 year ago

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its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn….#if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

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reasonsforhope · 1 year ago

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Welp, officially just got called a parasite living off my parents for the first time for being disabled. In person and not on the internet, even. Check that one off the punch card

Anyway @ fellow disabled people: we're better than their fucking asses and NONE of that has to do with our ability to work or not work or participate in capitalism. So go us, for having the strength to Put Up With This Shit, Whether We Like It or Not (It's not, the answer's not)

#actually disabled #this isn't a reason for hope I just needed to vent #there's some encouragement on the end tho so it still counts #not news #me #and btw I was being SO NICE TO HER and expending SO MUCH CONVERSATIONAL EFFORT to include her #guess now I know why no one at the same retreat as her made room for her at their table

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fabdante · 23 days ago

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*gritting my teeth* if you don't share your work no one will see it and nothing will happen. you don't know what piece will resonate with people. you don't know you just have to keep going even when it feels like you're throwing stuff in the void. you just gotta keep going

#trying to keep up 4 art accounts when 3 of them get crickets and one of them like #also gets crickets but you like it enough to tolerate that is uh Something #fab talks #fabtalks #i lied it's 6 if you count webtoon and tapas which ALSO get crickets btw asdfghjk #like don't mind me im just venting a bit i might delete this later i just like i need to remind myself that like #numbers don't matter putting the work out there matters #it will find the audience #i try to remind myself to that when i do in person events people are always really excited to see my work #i get really great enthusiasm and reactions to it like when people actually SEE it they like it

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a-scary-lack-of-common-sense · 2 months ago

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I am exhausted, good heavens.

#hey watch this neat trick I can do [cries]#love that for me #BUT #BUT- the actual EFFORT I put these days to not make a suicide jokes is *chefs kiss* phenomenal #actively shitting bricks as I physically have to stop myself from saying I want a car to hit me for the 50th time that day #I am not progressing any more than I am downgressing or whatever the opposite word is. but girlies #and boysies and peepsies #my lipgloss is popping and my eyebags are gucci- and so I shall prevail #MAN this tiredness is BONE DEEP man- it's like it's engraved into my goddamn clavicles #sorry that was like the only bone name I could remember- I don't even know what a clavicle is #anyways- I need to fall asleep forever and never wake up. But not in like a dying way #I just need to stop waking up tired and being tired and going to sleep tired and living tired like GIRL #WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WHEN SLEEP STOPS SLEEPING #I JUST SLEPT 10 HOURS HOW ARE YOU STILL TIRED #I am so tired that i stopped liking shit- like that SUCKS my dudes #I sometimes Don't Like art now and that is WILD to me because that was lowkey the One Thing that got me going #I used to actually LIKE english class! and reading Shakespear and shit!!!! and history class!! Now I don't!! Where did the spark go??????#Now everything feels like a chooooooore and it sucks major dick #and my graaaades are slipping because I stopped giving a damn but I NEED. TO. GIVE. A. DAMN #because those are like highkey lowkey and every-other-key my grades and I need them to go into uni so I don't die <333 #I need to spite little mini me who said I wasn't going to live past 13 because BITCH- guess how old I'm turning next week????????#THAT'S RIGHT- 17 YEARS OLD- FUCK YEAH BABY I'M STILL NOT DEAD #SUCK MY BIG ASS SHLONG MINI-ME #and then I have a big biology exam the day after so- funnnnn!!#anywho- should I tag this as vent? this probably counts as vent right? like among us? impostor and shit?#sorry I think my brain is actively rotting out of my ears right now #vent post #personal vent #tw vent #tw sui talk

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my-unorthodox-life · 2 months ago

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not to be an angry punk on my love and light blog but FUCK MAN i really can NOT take non-jewish (or jewish adjacent like me) liberals seriously anymore with everything going on. you can tell them that news outlets have admitted to favoring palestine and that people in israel are also being killed and yanno suffering from their country being at war, and bring up hundreds of thousands of examples of antisemitism ALL OVER THE WORLD and how (for us americans) we DONT want to leave despite the election because while it's uncertain safety here we at least have our community and wouldn't be STARTING OVER IN A NEW COUNTRY WHERE ANTISEMITIC VIOLENCE IS WORSE THAN WHERE I'M AT and they'll sit there, with their "i'm a good ally" listening face to all of that just to turn around and say

"well yea but what about gaza? there's no excuse for that"

like there's a fucking excuse for all that israel and jewish people everywhere have been going through these past few years

#hearing coworkers takes on I&P and the election has me wanting to rip my hair out and cry #i want to believe they just don't know or understand but im still so hurt #ive been told more times than i can count this week to move to canada or the netherlands cause im trans #AS IF THOSE ARE SAFE SPACES FOR NORTH AMERCAN INDIGENOUS PEOPLE OR JEWS #i'm so tired #i have jewish music class and torah study and a meeting with my rabbi tomorrow which is MUCH needed #but still i'm fucking tired #jumblr #jewish conversion #tw antisemitism #jewish vents

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adustoflove · 7 months ago

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Growing up in a house where everything is an argument will really make you feel like everything is an argument

#personal #actually bpd #bpd #bpd vent #actually borderline #actually traumatized #I tell my grandma stories and she's juat absolutely baffled #like the one time the bus didn't come down my street and my dad was pissed and said I missed it #so he forced me to call the company and they apparently were not coming down my street for the day because POWERLINES FUCKING FELL #and it would count as an Excused absence. i tell my dad. he calls me a liar and tells me I need to find a way to get to school #sir you fucking call them then #and my dad would say this knowing damn well my school was in a different district. kinda a far drive...but also he was . home #with access to a CAR. doing nothing. literally nothing like why dont you drive me you lazy asshole

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thimbell · 2 years ago

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quick punk leo sketch just because i got caught up watching PUP mvs and got nostalgic for my old band and performing

#rottmnt #doodles #fanart #i’m still working on my rollerdisco stuff dw #mikey’s almost done #i just needed a quick nostalgia/vent? sketch before bed #does it even really count as rise fanart? idk

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lialox · 20 days ago

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In the process of 1.5 hours, so much drama was revealed to me that I’m cancelling my next trip back to my hometown next year.

#Sigh……..#I cut off more than half of the people I knew here and it’s still this messed up??#I need to lie down #But I literally can’t until another full 23 hours from now #Why did I do this to myself #Liveblog count (Lia’s Holiday Trip Home Sunday Edition):#Friendships ended: 1 #Friendships repaired: 1 - these guys were salty at each other since June jfc #Flights cancelled: 2 #Hours of sleep: 5 #Update 2 ->#Therapy sessions given: 1 #Therapy sessions received: 1 #Update 3 ->#This one was actually pretty relaxing #Hours spent yapping: 9 #Update 4 ->#No energy to get into it. But I feel like I needed to go to a self help session or something after that #Update 5 (pure venting) ->#These people want to be involved in my life more so badly but they are only willing to do it on their terms and not mine #You don’t get to have that for free anymore!!#“There was no time to talk” BULLSHIT. There was plenty of time! I even brought up the topic first during lunch!!#To keep acting like this doesn’t exist and only want to talk about it when I’m exhausted and trying to sleep #You picked a time where you know I don’t have the energy to fight back because you’re too scared you’ll say the wrong thing #And I’ll cut you out of my life again

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pojexana · 5 months ago

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21h fast

530 kcal

40 min workout

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maisybee · 6 months ago

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WIEID - 14 July 24

1375 calories in

600 calories out

(not my photo)

Cheese Pizza - 380 cal

Chocolate Chip Cookie - 295

Iced Cookie - 160 cal

Pepperoni Pizza - 540 cal

did lots of walking to burn of extra calories !! went to a concert so i had no food choice for dinner but i took off half the cheese 😭 the cheese pizza for breakfast was just pizza base with sauce but better safe than sorry

#thinspø #@na motivation #i need to lose so much weight #disordered eating mention #tw 3d vent #tw ana bløg #⭐️rving #3ating d1sorder #4nor3xia #4norexla #wannarexic #⭐️ ing motivation #⭐️vation goals #⭐️ve #low cal diet #cal count

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1justwannabeprettyy · 7 months ago

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Th1nsp0

to help me staying motivated

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