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slowly coming out of a very lengthy and rude artblock; have an etoiles doodle
#i feel a bit bad i havent posted in ages but its fiiinnneeeeee#ok but things aside#why is this man so hard to draw#something in my brain just dies as soon as i have to consider his hair lmao#etoiles#qsmp#ummmm i havent posted qsmp art before i dont know how to tag it#chart
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changed my tune so fast just bc of youtube autoplay lmao ok here have some sagau diluc thoughts
the player, diluc thinks, is an incredibly endearing being.
he's come a long way from the curt and wary attitude he used to put on around the traveler (and by extension, you), and today is one of those days where he finds himself privately thanking whatever powers there may be that allowed your paths to cross, with him staring at the reflection of you hidden deep within the traveler's eyes in the wake of his fight with the abyss that fateful night in mondstadt.
as one of the first people to have their constellations manifest in the sky of teyvat, diluc is more than aware that the fact that you still choose to ask for his company in your (or, well, the traveler's) journey is a gift he must treasure deeply. he knows that it is your presence in this world that gives vision bearers a chance to become something greater than they presently are. he also knows that he is no longer as impressive of a companion in battle as he used to be from back when the sky wasn't as bright as it is now (when the world you knew was smaller and he was still a figure that you could look to and proudly call "your main").
but you always come back to him. when he least expects it, you invite him back to your party and diluc can't help but privately think, privately wish, that it's because you're as fond of him as he is of you.
standing in silent prayer while you bestow upon him artifacts that thrum with divine power is an experience he can never tire of. the claymores you give him, the food he eats, all the materials he needs to reach a breakthrough in his capabilities... he understands that you aren't teyvat's creator, but this world and everything in it seems to exist just for you. you, the provider, the sustainer, the beloved of all. sometimes, diluc feels that everything he has and ever worked for have all been for the sake of one day meeting you.
he's not a religious man by principle, and he loathes people of absolute power. the only exception to this, however, is you. he's not foolish enough to believe you're some omnipotent, omniscient being that lords above all. no, you're not like that. he knows this because the longer he journeys with the traveler and feels their bond strengthen, the faint whispers he used to strain himself to hear grow clearer and clearer until finally, one day, he hears you.
you're both nothing and everything he thought you'd be. you view the world of teyvat with so much awe and joy that it's infectious, and he finds himself smiling more often than not to the privilege of finally hearing you. the traveler always looks at him with an understanding smile when diluc slows down in their travels to listen to you. he lives for the moments when you talk to yourself or to someone else (a companion of your own, maybe? from your place beyond the stars?) because this is how he learns. your favorite food, your favorite nations, your favorite "characters" and more. he holds every morsel of information you unknowingly give close to his chest where all his affections and wishes hide. he likes to think that this way, he can be closer and better for you.
but he knows he's not the only one who hears you, and it is the traveler that is closest to you out of all them. even so, diluc harbors no ill will to the avatar you chose to see and travel the world through. you're so fond of the traveler, and how could he ever come to loathe anything graced by your love?
he knows how to play nice. it helps that most of your other chosen are people he can find himself enjoying the company of as well. diluc understands that as much as he wants to be the sole holder of your attention, the world does not function that way. he's willing to extend an olive branch so long as they can all work together to keep you present in teyvat. he can worry about his more aggressive competition later when they aren't at risk of being caught in such an unsightly state by you — all that matters to him, right now, is how to keep your gaze on him for just a little longer and keep you from leaving him again.
it's a daunting thing to be so close to your grace. you take diluc to lands he'd never thought he'd visit again, to ruins of civilizations long past, domains with unimaginable horrors and have him run, claymore and vision burning at his hip, into fight after fight at your command. it's tiring at best and painful at worst, but you always take care to heal him and his companions before leaving, and you always lead them somewhere safe to rest until teyvat brightens and you come again.
his current companions (his "supports", he inwardly preens) rest and talk amongst themselves once they feel your presence leave. it used to be something they, your chosen, would panic over, but now that they've gotten more used to you and all the signs that pointed that yes, this is your will, they've grown to be able to tolerate the harrowing chill that comes when your warmth leaves them. diluc leans back on his chair in front of good hunter to observe them. they're all people he's come to grow fond of in time: diona was prickly, yes, but ha become pleasant to be around once they grew past their misunderstandings. the young master of the feiyun commerce guild, xingqiu, was also a reliable companion both in and outside of battle, and for all his faults, venti has proven himself to be a devout believer, unwilling to be a burden to you or the party you've guided him towards.
under normal circumstances, he never would've met and forged such strong bonds with these people. if not for your own interference, he never would've bothered getting to know any of them at all. though he may have his own gripes and complaints at times of how their dynamic works when you're not around, diluc is still fond of them. he's grateful for the opportunity to grow close to people again, and traveling the world alongside them and the traveler has become one of the few things he's begun to look forward to outside of his duties as "diluc, master of dawn winery." when the day is done and he can sit and relax with them in the tables in front of good hunter, he can rest in the company of others who understand the near-maddening pull in his chest that draws him to try and get closer, closer, to you.
it's days like these where diluc quietly thanks whatever it is brought you to them, and prays that one day, he will no longer have to search through the traveler's eyes to see you.
#miyo.muses#diluc.togo#i wrote this all in one sitting please i love him so much#i hope my research did you justice sir#if he sounds awkward or anything id appreciate feedback on how to improve!#diluc is one of my faves honestly and i wanna write more for him#and as you can see#he is a very generous muse#this is worse than when i wrote for zhongli oml#i wanted to keep this short n sweet#just a silly little hcs or brainrot post#but no#this happened#but im not that mad lmao diluc gets a free pass <3#also pls dont flame the team ok i asked a friend what their diluc team looks like and they said “diona + xing + venti”#dsdhewu i have a very skewed view on what's considered a long or short post but just to play it safe#i added the read more this time bc id hate to be the person who clogs up the tags with super long posts#ok thats it rambling over i hope u guys enjoy <3#genshin impact#sagau#self aware genshin#genshin diluc#diluc x reader
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#my video lol#my audio lol#vocaloid cover#synthv cover#synthesizer v cover#genbu#genbu synthv#evil food eater conchita#i am forcing everyone to look at this. look at my guy ehehehhkjnjkhgmlb AFTER TWO WHOLE ASS YEARS FINALLY#i couldve probably put more effort into this but ITS BEEN IN HERE FOR 2 YEARS i wanna be done w/ it already 😭#so regardless if it kinda sucks a little bit; its wayyy better than the covers i made like ~4? years ago when i was first starting out#was the iku drawing i posted before this foreshadowing?? not necessarily but its rly funny to think abt in hindsight#also rip genbu in a dress that i was gonna draw for this originally 😔✌️ i'd really love to draw more stuff for these covers i make#but it usually never comes out the way i want it to and i figure editing some sorta visualizer like this is better#than keeping some things trapped in my files for so long purely bc my extra ass wants a cool pv. some day maybe but not now#some sick fuck unsubscribed from me after i posted this BYE BITCH i dont miss you at all. live laugh love genbu in this house /j#im not the most obnoxious genbu stan i'd say but you WILL respect him in my house i do not tolerate genbu slander i love that man your hono#yes im extremely based bc he (and eleanor) were THE very first vsynths i ever actually fucked around w/ programwise#but WHATEVER!! idc he is so dear to me i do not regret buying his full version at all (it was impulsive)#the only synth i'd actually consider myself kinda good at tuning LMAO ik people hate how he sounds and have issues w/ him but not me...#these tags are too long girl stfu. anyways tldr; look at silly thang i made w/ my silly man#i love genbu and i love songs about cannibalism <3#Youtube
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twitter is entering their "rts > likes" phase now that likes are private after they spent years calling us ungrateful for being demotivated by ratios lmao
#man fuck yall just support artists you enjoy#dont attack people who dont rb/rt your art (hell they might even have it scheduled) but also dont constantly demand ''content'' from people#ESPECIALLY without telling them that you appreciate the effort they put in to show you cool things they made for free#you should've been rt'ing/rb'ing from the START 😒 just show people you care!#im just waiting to scroll through post after post of ppl calling out ''entitled artists'' lmao#btw my opinion on the whole thing is painfully neutral if you couldnt tell#i dont think you should care that much about numbers and ppl take it wayyyyyy too far#throwback to that one guy who personally @ everyone who didnt reblog their art that was CRAZY. i would straight up report you KJFGHKG#i also understand and have personally experienced how much engagement can change your mood#a simple ''i love this!'' can make someone's day. it's not hard to understand why ppl like engagement#when they make post after post without so much as a little tag they dont care about sharing anymore#the fact that people call that ''entitlement'' is also crazy#i have a lot of drawings i havent posted or just left nonrebloggable bc it really doesnt make a difference lmao#the only ones i leave rebloggable are the ones that i Know will do well and get attention. like the little pig redraw#if it's cute or funny it gets positive attention. anything else is shit on here lmao#it's just not as fun to share. it either leads to no engagement or negative engagement#would rather have nothing than something rude so whatever#some ppl say it's always been like this but no it absolutely was not always like this#idk what exactly caused the change. probably a lot of factors#could even just be the fandoms i hang around in! but considering i've seen the same sentiment from a bunch of ppl i doubt it's that#the best solution to no engagement is to just make friends and have fun#but 90% of the internet is hostile and negative and rude for no fucking reason#when i unfollowed someone on my old public twitter and they @ me over it. damn i dont know why but NOW i know why 😭#this post has gone way off course im just ranting at this point. i havent talked in a while hi how have you guys been#work was a lot yesterday and today is too slow (im not at work im just going crazy in my house)#(and i cant leave my house bc there's construction blocking the road someone save me)#chat
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Luv how I'm an sdv shane fan but I do not give a single darn abt coral island mark
#granted when i end up playing the sdv update ill probably marry emily or Sebastian lmao#Sebastian fans ya got me ive been indoctrinated#honestly i think that tracks considering i ended up marrying wakuu in coral island#hmm smart bois w/ daddy issues hmm 🤔 is there a pattern? idk.#anyways i want to talk more abt coral island but. idk im so solitary abt my gaming?#i wanna info dump and share but im nervous lmao#maybe becos the fandom is so small and i dont see a lot of ppl posting abt it#like hcs and fics and stuff#so im nervous to open up aaa ;;;#maybe ill start in my comfort zone and make some art#OH id love to draw wakuu or millie......thats an idea#anyway hi hello ur reading my tags whats up#how's ur day going who did you marry in coral island#tell me abt it (im laying on my stomach kicking my legs like im gossiping at a slumber party)#scout.txt
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do other artists ever invest a lot of money into art and it ends up a waste? like getting prints and stickers and stuff made and then not selling a single one? I never see other artists talk about that. i've only seen artists be successful. where are the artists like me who invest a ton of money into their art and end up empty handed? why does no one ever talk about that? is it one of those weird "taboo" things? are they just embarrased and hide it? or does literally everyone else succeed and it's just me that failed multiple times and wasted so much money 😭
#art#artist problems#artist#artists help#artists on tumblr#small artist#if i tag this will i get answers lmao#i genuinely want to know if this happens to others and i just dont see it or if it's just me#also what do you do about it 😅 i gave my prints and stickers away for free but cant afford to keep doing that#id love to do it tbh but free doesnt pay the fees#every time i make interest check posts now i get no response. how do you get people interested or support#or like how do you see how much interest there is before you invest? idk how to word what im trying to ask lmao#will anyone even see this post...that's one of my issues. im invisible 😅#lee text#also let me add i consider “successful” to be not loosing money. even if you break even i consider that a success personally
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wanted to apologise for possibly being someone who fucked up ur tl with 18+ slime posts (coming to grips with how tagging works on this here webbedsite!) please take my sincerest (anonymous) apologies ur a cool goober 🙏
ay man it's alright!! really!!! i understand most of the 18+ people are coming from websites like twitter or tiktok so they don't quite understand how it functions :-) if you ever need a tutorial or any help with understanding the culture here, shoot me an ask! it's insanely different from other social media and i completely understand its weird to adjust to and navigate. peace and love + have fun with your slimeposting ✌️
#i make yet anothet post just for me 👍#we have mail :]#btw - just as a sidenote#tumblr dashboards work different from twitter timeline#theres a few tabs: 1 dashboard 2 for-you and 3 following#following is tags you follow. which is why im mentioning the maintagging#if you tag stuff with that maintag (like slimecicle) then ANYONE going through that tag (searching 4 fanart like me! 4 example)#will see that post#and with 18+ stuff- most people consider it disrespectful to put it under maintags. there's subcultures and communities within just mcytblr#that specifically exist to keep it separated#the for-you tab is typically like a standard twitter tl though. thats pretty much how it functions#fun fact: likes are useless here! all they do is bookmark things#they dont affect your for-you tab. and they also don't help the visibility of other posts#the important button that does is Reblogging#which brings me to the dashboard! where most users reside#its a following-only tab that shows you things (if you have the setting turned on. which i recommend) in reverse-chronological order#so newest at the top oldest at the bottom#its exclusively curated by YOU! the user#so when i get upset at maintagging know its mainly not an issue ! but its considered a common courtesy to avoid main tags#and stick to those communities that thrive with that kinda posting#and not that it will mess up peoples individual timelines#<- also final note on this: dont add extra tags ! since again people will search specific tags for specific things#any more than 15 tags will then stop being sorted and categorized by tumblr- so its not helping your reach#<- for example. if i were to tag things hashtag mcyt hashtag mcytblr hashtag fandom onnnn and onnn#it would cut out organizing them at 15. all the tags b4 that 15 mark would be organized and go in their maintags#but after? tumblr doesn't count them#and !!!! tumblr has a report button for spam-tagging. if its about slimecicle the cc: dont tag his characters ! general rule of thumb#hope my rambling was helpful lmao! again i mean no ill-will dude all the 18+ account runners seem chill#they just obviously dont understand the culture and systems here and im more than willing 2 help out if i can :-)#if you need anymore help again !!! a dm or ask or ANYTHING is encouraged
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sometimes I'll remember that official marvel/DC comics have done werewolf 'AU' stories and I become less embarrassed of Abomination
#I think I'm having another art slump. I mean technically it hasnt been very long but for a few days ive just been..#disappointed with my skill and I'm considering taking a break from posting art until I get it how I want it#I like my style dont get me wrong but it feels super underdeveloped to me right now#of course it wont look exactly how i imagine it. but I'm thinking it could look close to it if I take some time to really work on it yknow#+ I won't hold myself to that standard exactly because it would only end up stressing me out. I still want drawing to be *fun*#but I'd also like to be satisfied with what's produced#if I go through w/ said break I may still post the things I *do* like. The decision is pending though. I still like posting a lot lmao#<- tags that have absolutely nothing to do with the actual post#anyway. I'm saying all this under this text in particular because I've been wanting to draw more Abomination#but am currently shackled by my current confidence. yep. thats what the tags were leading to
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if i ever were to write anything for my robot hdb au the chapter in which harry finally gets a dick would be called "have you tried turning it on and off again?" and it would be a constant trial and error, it would end on the successful attempt but on a cliffhanger also
#my posts#and for organization#disco elysium#robot hdb au#harrykim#bc i went at it in the tags lmao but also robot hdb au is nothing without kim tbh thats how it started. anyways#i mean. im not really a writer. i havent properly attempted it in a decade and if i tried id do it in english and its a bit.. scary lmao#but. itd have to be like that. id get silly with it#i dont even have his design to even consider it either lmao but.#like. to be silly for a moment. imagine it like... that gif of shape of water when shes signing about the monsters dick#at first itd get stuck#then theyd notice itd need work for it to like be both sensitive but not overheat and short circuit harry#... and not shock kim also sjfshu#it seems like its working once. some touches. theyre having a good time. but#'eh...' / 'everything okay harry?' / '..... i cant feel anything anymore' / '..... alright up on the work table you go'#the closer they get to figure it out the more annoyed kim is at having to do his actual job to get money#and not being able to do fulltime on his robot boyfriends dick#the last one? it gets out. its sensitive. it seems like its not overheating him. but it does a spark. they are worried something got ruined#but they touch again. its good. its happening for a few moments and nothing goes wrong#and once it seems theyre about to actually get into it id end the chapter (?#.... also how the fuck would you program a robots orgasm.#........ wait. it could be manual it could be a specific button or something lmao#also im talking about robot dick bc i think thats easier than the other way around but who knows! theyre switchs in my heart#... or vers. i struggle to remember which is for passive/active and which is for sub/dom. you know what i mean. i also mean it for both#... anyways!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#having a normal one today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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playing an ongoing game called ‘learn whats acceptable to say in someones tags or get blocked’. a lot of you are losing.
#i know i can be cringe or annoying but like. theres a difference between joking on something vs fucking insulting someone you dont know#is this person talking about something they enjoy that you dont? filter the tag and post content and go on with your day#if theyre too annoying then just unfollow for a bit and check back later even#is this person a fan of a character you hate?? put it on your own post instead of coming onto someones account to bitch in their tags#you are literally insulting a real life person over a fictional character. over a show. over a comic. what is wrong with you.#unless the thing they like is actively rooted in real life hate (racism sexism misogyny ableism transphobia etc) that will reflect#and cause real life harm then it literally doesn't fucking matter if you disagree with someone.#youre not making me want to read and consider your opinion about something i literally consume for fun and because haha autism s/i#by calling me an idiot or by saying how i (a disabled person) am ‘braindead’ because i have a different opinion or whatever.#youre just being mean because you feel like you have an excuse to pretend youre superior to someone#like idk how to break it to you but dick grayson isnt going to suck your dick despite you insulting a real person over him lmao.#anyways. im going to block you if you insult me. im going to block you if you see my post on something i like thats harmless and tell me#how much you personally hate it or disagree. i dont care. make your own post because now you cant make it on mine.#and my anon is temporarily off (sorry shy mutuals </3) because a lot of ppl dont have common decency on what's okay to say or demand lol
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i love u dropouts i love u super seniors i love u homeschoolers i love u alternative learning environment students i love u students w 504 plans/individual education plans i love u special education students i love u online students. having trouble w school is not a reflection on your worth no matter what anyone tells u and i believe in u and wish u luck w whatever u go on to do <3
#sorry im having a Moment.#also i love u community college students but thats a different post. lmao#like not to ‘make your own post’ myself on my own post but… make yr own post#anyways how do i even tag this#high school#encouragement#positivity#i dont wanna be intrusive so im just using the most general tags i can think of#i finally graduated last spring but like even when i was in high school its not like i was searching tumblr for school related tags#i def wasnt looking for homeschool tags lol it was Way too soon to risk it#that wound is still a bit too fresh lmao i was talking to someone abt it cause shes considering homeschooling her kid#and like i was happy to answer her questions + give advice on Not Immediately Becoming Abusive or whatever but. man.#it was just a lil much yk#anyways i need to go to bed i just wanted this out of my system asap#quetzposting
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wailing like a fax machine thats slightly broken such that it whines with even more pain and suffering than normal
#biblio babbles#uuughhhhh........ romantic attraction (derogatory)#im surprised we're still friends even. i have done so many bad ideas#and no i cant just confess because 1. incompatible orientation (<- the truth of my statement here is debatable but you get the idea)#and therefore 2. i do not want to risk ruining the friendship. i really REALLY do not want to risk ruining the friendship#i know even vagueposting about this is a bad idea#but im so desperate. i dont know how long i can fucking take this#on the bright side. im now fully consciously aware of my Sins™ and am actively attempting to minimize the impact my attraction has#shit sucks though.#oh yeah by the way ill post some content soon lmao. hopefully#also feel free to reblog lmao; the post text is made to be reblogged#if it helps you could consider me venting in the tags as just. coincidentally there! ignorable to your hearts content :)
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something something ghost oc he is silly
#ghost#ghost band#ocs#i really dont know how to tag my art anymore considering i never post it here lmao#theres something wrong with her#like intrinsically
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Machine translation didn't "destroy the field of translation". If some dumbasses use AI to translate their websites or apps it's their problem (and it's visible because it sucks). But professionals are still very much here. Computer-aided translation is a thing, but it's a tool to help translators be faster and more efficient, not replace them.
Hey, do y’all remember how Tencent said they were developing faceID AI to identify people in riots, and then they suddenly created an AI art generator to turn your selfies into anime?
Do y’all remember that time that someone discovered facial recognition cameras couldn't see through Juggalo makeup, then Facebook had a fun “see what you'd look like with Juggalo makeup” thing, and then facial recognition cameras could suddenly see through Juggalo makeup?
Do y’all remember how, on Twitter, Elon started a tirade against artists who ask for credit when their art is reposted, and he suddenly he created one of the first big art AI programs?
Do y’all remember how AI destroyed the field of translation, despite the inferiority of the machine translations, because people didn’t care about the quality of the translations? They just wanted it done for free?
Do you know how companies will see a lot of money going into a New Tech Thing (like, say, AI art apps) and will jump to try and implement that New Tech Thing into their tech? For example, how it felt like every big company and celebrity had an NFT to sell?
Just wondering.
#i agree with the point of this post its just. i dont like seeing blatant disinformation on translation#“do yall remember” yeah ok nice fallacy. no i dont remember the field of translation being “““destroyed””” maybe bc it didnt happen#yeah the use of ai is scary. like what if by the point i finish my studies subtitling is done with ai and im just here to check it#trying to make a machine translation idiomatic and aware of context/culture and cooccurences#idk i see stuff like deepl and im like whoa machine translation is wild#but then i think about all the specific techniques that exist in translation and ig an ai could be able to learn them and apply them#but applying them correctly?#(i accidentally hit post rip)#idk i just wanna believe that creativity is something that ai can imitate but not do. and translation is creative. you have to make choices#for example as much as i hate the french version of star trek the nomalization in the translation of live long and prosper is very nice#would an ai think of that#and beyond techniques how would it translate jokes and puns that are very dependant on context and culture#ok enough rambling in the tags lmao#actually more rambling#there's the question of whether or not ai can reach a human level of creativity and understanding of language needed to translate#and thats the one i focus on#but translation is a field that no one gives a shit about and translators are already underpaid overworked and not well considered#people are already stupid abt translation (thinking that you “just need to be bilingual” + the whole “translating is betraying” bullshit)#so like even if ai translation sucks its still possible that companies will use it bc its cheaper and faster#bc they already dont give a shit about treating translators well to get good translations#ok i need to shut up now lmao
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I mostly just scroll thru blog subs when im on mobile bc I follow too many ppl on here so I add mutuals etc there n then turn off notifs so it's like the creme de la creme of the dash anyway if u see me in ur notes more its bc I forgor to add some of u on there until recently sorry 😭😭
#i kept seeing some of u in my notes and i was like damn u guys have been rl quiet on the dash even tho ur active thats weird..#nope just wasnt seeing any of ur beautiful posting. my bad#ONL <- me on my hands and knees begging ur forgiveness#rly need to clean up my following list so my main dash is useable again..... 💀#maybe i should add it to my list of official chores for this weekend so i actually do it lol#.diaries#not done much this morning cuz i slept in n took my meds late.. but thats ok properly hitting my task list now#done 1 round of laundry got my med delivery n organised a bunch of stuff just tidying n cleaning now n then i have some laptop admin#n then i need to go out to town just debating maybe doing a closet sort first so i can take a bag of stuff to donate to charity w me hmm#and after im back ill food shop i have my meal plan for the next week done already. mm ill fit another round of laundry in too for sheets#and then tmr ill do a third for bathmats n teatowels etc. and polish boots/do my ironing while i watch a new movie or show..#awesome. i love being medicated i love being able to concentrate and get stuff done it feels so so good#i rly spent two wholeass decades unable to and thought that was that. god bless my adhd diagnosis for letting me access stimulants#even if i have to deal w this bullshit private shit atm its fine. ill be back on the nhs soon hopefully#and ill only need half of my script next month bc theyve sent me too much of one of them the last 2 months. so itll be way cheaper#i have like at least 3 months supply of my amfexa lmao and i dont even need it every day sometimes i skip it or take half instead#so it could probs stretch 5-6 months. but theyll only issue me 1 month of my elvanse at a time so i need to renew it more often 😔#considering taking a med break next weekend bc i just want to see how bad it would be. i can take my instant stuff if it rly sucks#and if its okay maybe ill take one day off meds every weekend when i dont Need to focus to get chores done etc#so that way i can gradually build up a buffer of med supply n also might be nice to have a day i can fully relax innit#not that i Can't relax on meds but it feels rly good to focus n get shit done n I don't get as much out of just lazin#anyway.... me and my 5 million tags as always
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I hate when I tell people that something they tell me to do/try doesn't work for me, I tried it and it didn't work, it won't work for me because it doesn't consider my particular circumstances, i'm unable to do it because X reason, or i'm uncomfortable doing something, and their response is that i'm ~not even trying! just giving up! making excuses! complaining too much! being negative! ignoring their advice! dismissing them when they're just trying to help!~
why don't you listen to me????? if you truly want to help, you will listen to me, consider my circumstances, needs, boundaries, etc, and not make it all about YOU. especially when I don't even want advice and just want support/comfort.
#lee rambles#i dont know what to tag this lmao#it was just a random thought#I can't stand people who do this. they will guilt trip you for not listening to them and gaslight you if it doesn't work#because they're Always Right and you have to listen to them or it upsets them.#the amount of “friends” i had like this...and they dont get why being like this is wrong and why i hate it lmao#just do (thing that doesnt consider my needs/difficulties) i did it easily! oh you wont try or listen to me? dismissive! inconsiderate!“#one from my previous friend group kept dping this to me. i think she just liked bossing people around and making them do what she says#she was the self proclaimed mother and leader of the group and decided the ones in the group who did everything she said were her favorites#i didnt do what she said so she alienated me from the group and everyone that were her favorites turned their backs on me#another one even further back when i talked about my horrible relationship with my family and wanting to move out but unable#shes like i moved out at 17 on my own and was roommates with strangers until i got married a couple years later!#but her roommates were horrible and she had a hard and bad time. i'm not able to be independent and live on my own#i dont trust rooming with strangers. i dont havw friends who want me and will room with me. i cant get hired by anyone. how will i pay!#she didnt consider any of that and told me to “just do it. dont think about it. worry about it later” thats dangerous and irresponsible#she got upset at me when i told her that. because i just need to do stupid dangerous things that i know im incapaple of!#if i know something wont work out i dont want to do it! i need a full thorough plan and see the end or a stable result! or i cant do it.#ugh. now im kind of off topic. this cane because ive had people trying to “be nice” and suggest mindfulness/meditation#like i talked about in my precious post. and theyd get so angry at me for saying it doesnt work because i “didnt try” or whatever. I DID. 🙄
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