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scruncheduppaper · 6 months ago
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seeing ppl on twitter’s takes about snowgrave kriselle makes me want to kill myself oh my godddd “its toxic” “regular kriselle better bc its healthier” DO YOU THINK I WANT TO SEE THEM MUSHY KISS AND BE LOVEY DOVEY AND HUG EACH OTHER??? NO!!! the APPEAL is that adding romantic connotations to their snowgrave relationship (which mind you very much already exists in canon) allow their relationship to become so much more interesting. do i think they’ll become truly endgame canon? do i think they’re in love with each other??? ABSOLUTELY NOT!!! AND I DONT WANT THEM TO!!! the POINT is that it’s supposed to be dark and interesting and exploratory of their characters in relation to the deconstruction of autonomy in video games through gender roles and principles of knighthood and the idea of the “damsel in distress”. not to mention that “shipping” regular kriselle and snowgrave kriselle isnt mutually exclusive either. in fact i think understanding both allows you to analyse their relationship much more fully and deeply than without considering the other side. and besides, isnt the fucking point of shipping to explore character relationships??? why would you want to Ignore nuance and depth rather than focus on it???? are you unable to handle anything deeper or darker than like fucking cocomelon??? if you hate character analysis and dark themes in relationships you can head on back there or smth idfk oh my lord i cant fucking TAKE IT ANYMORE
#snowgrave#kriselle#rant#deltarune#this probably comes off as harsh lol#i was going to add its alright if you find snowgrave kriselle uncomfortable for personal reasons#but like sincerely if youre in the utdr fandom and you’ve seen the fucking geno route then i think you can handle this#and not only that but i feel like nowadays fandoms are purposefully trying to get away from darker subject matter and themes#while in the process airbrushing nuance and details in favour of shoving characters into tropes and boxes#all in the name of ‘person comfort’ and ‘preference’#and while i cant control what other people do or ship or whatever#i do think its a sign that we’re leaning far more into anti-intellectualism these days#and people are just completely unwilling to engage with things outside their comfort zone#its okay to have preferences! its fine if you think kriselle is bad!#but like if your only reasoning is that its unhealthy and toxic then idfk what to tell you man#please play/watch/read better media#relationships in media can be toxic and unhealthy and portrayed without romanticisation#kriselle is very much so!#my ideal version of them is that neither of them have feelings for each other at all#neither does the player have any for noelle#the romantic/marriage connotations are there as metaphor for the stripping of autonomy through a forced heterosexual lens#however if they somehow form some fucked up forced conditioning traumabond feelings for each other along the way which fucks things up even#more… now THATS fucking interesting#really gets you questioning the lines between the decisions you make and the ones they make of their own volition#suselle completely endgame though#i just like analysing kriselle more LOL
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soratsuart · 17 days ago
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When writing about the normal route in Deltarune I like to ignore the meta aspect of the game and treat the Soul as its own character instead of just the player's self insert because it automatically makes its relationship with Kris way more complex and nuanced. Like. We all know Kris has it bad having their autonomy taken from them and whatever shady thing they got going on with Carol and the Knight, and of course they hate having to let the Soul possess them even if they need it, but many people have pointed out that the lack of autonomy is mutual and it becomes much more interesting the second the Soul becomes a person itself and not a player that objectively isn't so affected since, you know, we are real people in the real world- Imagine this: You are a being that just recently began to exist. A mysterious voice starts talking to you and offers you a life. They offer you an existence, they help you make a body of your own that you pour all your efforts into making perfect. You are excited to begin your life and explore the world... only to have it all taken from you at the last second. Suddenly you are in a body, yes, but it's not YOUR body, it's someone else's, with their own life and personality and they don't appreciate you being here as much as you. Now you have to pretend to be this other person, because what else are you supposed to do? But it's hard, because you don't have all the memories everyone else keeps referencing and you are painfully aware you keep acting out of character, the other conscious person inside the body makes sure you are aware.
Then you get thrown into a whole adventure and become the hero of a prophecy, with new people who don't really know the body you are inhabiting so you can be more yourself. You make friends, you both make friends and it's fun! But there is a constant reminder that no matter what, you both are screwd up. The original person loves these friends too, but they don't really know them all that well because it's always you at the wheel. You love your friends, but they don't know you because you have always only ever interacted with them behind as Kris.
You want to help. You want to be useful. You don't like hurting Kris, but you also can't help resenting them as much as they resent you because everything you have is really only theirs, and they hate you because everything they have is being taken by you. They have some hidden agenda going on and seem to be working with your enemies. You want to trust them but neither of you can or are willing to communicate. If you ever give up, the world ends. You are three days old.
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chipjrwibignaturals · 1 month ago
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are we all collectively mature enough now to acknowledge that mcyt is inherently a liiiiittle rpf and thats ok. or is that still too spicy a take
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significant-narratives · 8 months ago
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quinn has a libra sun / sagittarius moon which is honestly a very sweet whimsical combo that makes him a natural leader with a lot of optimisim and drive and then you look down his chart and it's [glass smashing] mercury in scorpio [horn blaring] venus in virgo [tires screeching] mars in sagittarius
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devondespresso · 1 year ago
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i will not dedicate hours to explaining that & pairings are not the lower-focus version of romantic pairings, i will not dedicate hours to explaining that & pairings are not the less important version of romantic pairings, i will NOT--
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One day
One day I hope people realize that Kitsunami already "broke through his programming" back by issue #56 of Idw Sonic
He had an entire mini arc where he dealt with being without Surge for the first time, and in the real world. He met Sonic and his friends directly, tried to work out what his purpose would be without Surge in his life (gave it a shot trying to devote himself to Sonic, seeing him as the next best thing after Surge). And when it was all said and done, he decided after experiencing more that at Surge's side is where he wanted to be.
As of the recent IDW issues, Kit isn't sticking with Surge "because of programming" and "because he just needs for other characters to friend him and turn him into a better person". He is at her side because he wants to be. He protects her and aids her because he cares about her, not just because he's serving the strongest guy in the room. And he's not interacting with others because he's decided not to give a shit about anyone else other than Surge (because from his pov, even the "good guys" are fake. From his pov, everyone is someone trying to lie and manipulate their way into pulling him and Surge to their side)
Kit already has decided what he wants to do with his life. And he decided it on his own. Not because of anyone else's wants or wishes. That's the whole point of his speech at the end of #56.
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He's burying whatever his and Surge's past is and moving forward with his conviction to be with Surge because it's what he wants.
#sonic the hedgehog#idw sonic comics#perverted bond#surge the tenrec#kit the fennec#kitsunami the fennec#idw sonic issue 56#to be honest I actually despise the fandom's overuse of 'Starline's programming'#because they treat Surge and Kit as people whose entire selves have been dominated and controlled by a set of code that makes them as robots#Essentially they treat Starline's hypnotism and 'coding' as a strict set of rules that's hard af to break#When the truth is that they're more of a set of heavy suggestions and guidelines to fall back on when they have nothing else to return to or#nothing else to compare to their own experiences#You can visually see in the comic as they ''diverge from their programming'' simply because it clashes with their personal wants/feelings#(For instance‚ how after actually meeting Surge in Imposter Syndrome‚ he is never again the dutiful fox that would do anything she asked#ever and the happiest he could be about handing his life to her on a silver platter no matter how she treats him. rather‚ he falls back on#serving her because he has no other purpose to fall back on‚ but he performs it unenthusiastically without receiving positive reinforcement#and to the bare minimum‚ as if he's just doing his job)#This topic is a bit nuanced‚ but I think IDW is less focused on them fully 'breaking their programming' as a robot storyline might go#and more focused on them solidifying just what it is they want to do with their lives and how they live it#Many people miss that Kitsunami has had his defining moment and knows what he wants to do with his life now because they don't think it's#possible for him to live a future he wants/needs unless he 100% rejects everything Starline did to him and Surge and chooses a purpose#completely separated from any 'programming'#And I'm sorry but I think some of you need to ask if a future as a good boy fox hero who gets entirely new friends and family outside of#Surge and is barely associated with her and is also just a normal sweet guy is something that he actually wants/is projected to receive#or if YOU specifically decided what's best for him. Bec#Because 'If I was in his position obviously I would want X' or 'If he was my kid I would want him to become like X for the sake of his own#happiness'#It's fine if that's your headcanon or your au and you own it. But recognize that this current Kit likes who he is and he knows what he wants#to be. He's a smart fox‚ and he doesn't need anyone out there to pledge to save him and fix him. He doesn't want fixing. He wants to spend#the rest of his days with Surge making her happy (because it makes him happy). He doesn't want for himself what everyone else wants for him.
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vinyls-and-valentines · 2 months ago
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After careful consideration I have come to the conclusion that a romanian Battery City would probably look like a termite nest, but distinctly gray and brutalist from the outside with fully enclosed roads and everything.
On the inside it's be rather quite pretty, though, with glass roofs and green spaces and shop fronts with street access selling food or colorful trinkets everywhere you look. Nicely tiled floors and retro tram cabs. A marriage between modern functionality and the evocative imagery that once earned the moniker of "little Paris" for the capital, meant to be seen only from the ground floor.
After all, it would be arrogance for man to turn his gaze to the heavens and question the designs of God. A labourer may covet his master's lifestyle, yet if granted the same opportunities he would surely make a fool of himself, acting in ways unbefitting of his station. Yes, it is best for the average citizen not to concern themselves with the outside world, filled with confounding practices and ravenous gazes waiting for the poor layman to make a trivial mistake while speaking his mind.
One should always live within their means and leave complicated matters to those who have proven themselves worthy of handling them
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ghoul--doodle · 6 months ago
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Sorry to Moss specifically because I gave them a really sad story and then I consistently call them “oopy goopy”
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eusexuanal · 3 days ago
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It is so twisted how you can think you are connected to the things you want and need but you're actually more plugged into the inverse of it, like you think you're acting in service of what you want but you're not acting out of genuine desire for it, you're acting out of a fear of not getting it, to the point that your desire for the thing itself feels underdeveloped and just kind of lukewarm and less real as compared to the lack of it...like whyyyy is so hard to be plugged in to your desires & feel deeply connected to the positive aspects of what you could create for yourself sometimes! 🤬
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amtrak12 · 2 months ago
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Me: rolls my eyes and judges fic writers who talk about how they can't control the characters, the characters control them, and then laugh it off like it's a good and valid way to write
Also me while writing my own fic: Oh shit... did you really just think that, [character]? Daaammmn..... I've never considered that for you before, but it makes so much sense. I love it!
#It's different when I do it okay! :P#The characters aren't doing whatever the hell they want in my fic first of all#These realizations happen as I'm drafting and fleshing out the reasons behind their actions that I have already planned#And it leads to some deep and profound moments that sheds light on characterizations that canon took for granted#You know what happens when you let the characters run rampant and you never analyze what you're writing?#You write yet another fic that demonizes characters outside the ship who shouldn't be demonized#Or you write another fic that gets the ship dynamics horribly wrong#and not in a 'we interpret this ship differently' way but in a way that demonstrates some deep internalized biases#These fics come off flat if not outright harmful and whatever good elements you unintentionally write into them does not negate that.#And yes I don't care how skilled you are at writing -- all good elements become an accident if you're not putting thought into#crafting the story#You can't say biases and prejudices that get into the fic are unintentional while still getting credit for the good elements#Fic is for fun yes and yes that means you don't have to edit it and treat it like a novel you want to query before you publish#But if you are putting any effort into your fics at all#-- AND I KNOW MOST OF THESE 'THE CHARACTERS CONTROL ME TEE HEE' AUTHORS ARE PUTTING IN A SHIT TON OF TIME AND EFFORT --#then AT SOME POINT you *have* to extend that effort into planning or editing your fic so you can reel in these biases#You're just being a lazy fuckwit if you don't#Sorry apparently I woke up in a MOOD this morning when I actually went to bed quite pleased#exactly because I discovered something new in Daphne's POV while drafting last night#Whatever. My words are harsh but I stand by it 🤷‍♀️#I will never accept 'the characters do whatever they want' as a valid writing method outside of creative exercises#For stuff you're expecting other people to read that shit better be edited out and cleaned up#so you're telling the story you actually INTEND to tell#And if you don't have an intention even after completing the first draft#then why the fuck are you bothering with this story at all???#DO BETTER!! PRACTICE AND LEARN TO DO BETTER!!
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lorillee · 5 months ago
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literally Nobody want me 💔
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iliveinprocrasti-nationn · 1 year ago
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one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else
#i have to sleep a lot. i’m at the point where functioning requires 8 hours of sleep if not more#I should probably be getting 10+ but i’m a student and i work so 8 is the minimum. but then also getting ready for bed is a whole process s#the whole thing can take 10-12 hours depending how much im sleeping. just to make sure i can do anything#that is time in my day i cannot use for anything else. it’s not ‘oh but i can push through it’ because i can’t without spending the next da#lightheaded and nauseous and vaguely dizzy and with such intense brain fog I can’t think with my fatigue so bad i genuinely don’t know how#get myself to work a lot of days. my abled peers don’t have to deal with this at all. they have unlimited study time if they want to#and yeah it is a choice i’m making that’s true i could just not do. except i would lose my job and fail out of college because i would not#be able to get to classes or do my homework or think. but being told ‘but you are making choices about your life’ when i have lost so much#of what i used to be able to do because i am spiralling down and continuing to get worse is so.#literally last year i would wake up at 6:30 and then go to school till 3 and then go to my internship until 10 and get home at 11 and be in#bed anywhere from midnight to two in the morning and then wake up the next day and do it all again. i graduated with a 3.9 gpa and made it#into my top college while dealing with my cancer symptoms and then the two surgeries about it#but now i lose half my day to just making sure i can get out of bed. i can’t go anywhere because my body is physically too exhausted#any extra time goes into doing homework or occasionally time to myself#not decimating my health by doing minimum body care responsibilities isn’t freeing. occasionally i have a good day which is freeing but tha#usually goes into just. other things outside class or work or eating. I don’t go do something for myself or go do something fun on good day#because I still can’t. good days just mean i don’t want to lie down on the pavement when i’m going somewhere#I just. I don’t magically have control over my life because i try to get enough sleep. i lose half my day to doing that and ultimately it’s#just a bodily function that would have to happen anyway#this is a vent post im just having a really hard time right now because it feels like im in exponential decline. it was nowhere near this#bad last semester. my grades are tanking and i have no free time because anything outside of sleep is either work or school#vent tw#yall can rb this just ignore my tags completely#disability#chronically ill#i keep trying to explain to people how pots works because that’s all logical but there’s no way to explain what it’s doing to my body or ho#i feel all the time. the last time i felt this bad was when i had a bad flu or immediately after surgeries because i don’t react well to#anesthesia and always come out of them feeling like shit. and now i just feel like this all the time and it’s only getting worse#I can’t even stay up late anymore because my body feels like it isn’t counting the sleep even if I get 8 hours#I can deal if I have a free day the day after but that just leaves Friday and Saturday nights and I usually still have to do homework
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hauntingblue · 10 months ago
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Jaya time
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I love these moments of nearly cosmic horror when they encounter inexplicable things (at first) they are so intriguing
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Is strawhat here?! *Megan thee stallion saying AAH 😜*
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This cover just goes hard... Get it chopper
#usopp and luffy wanting to go to skypiea and nami only gets it going when luffy says she won't do it cause she can't... now it's personal#robin getting nami an eternal pose..... yeah exactly#luffy eating takoyaki immediately after he finds an octopus... sanjis speed is no joke#THE FUCKING GUY SHOOTING THE SEAGULL IS THE ONE IN BLACKBEARDS CREW!!!! DAMN#dying swiftly or not is result of your actions??? i guess man whatever#FUCKING BURGESS TOO!!! and the fucking transing your gender virus maker.... here luffy doesnt explode!!!#teach and luffy having complete opposite opinions on everything.... having bad vibes immediately.... incredible its like luffy knew#luffy doesnt fight bellamy bc he isnt worth the fight sinply bc they have different ideals... yeah.. also emerald city when#the pirates that do it for the money and the pirates that do it for their dreams... which is weird bc luffys foil (?) is blackbeard#also a d also a pirate with dreams (the same one even?) but they go about it in two different ways still.... compelling#why dies luffy think about shanks and ace when he hears teach outside the bar i an going insane... why does luffy just stare at him#WHAT ARE YOU THINKING LUFFY!! DOES HE SEE HIM AND SEE COMPETITION??? THATS WHY SHANKS AND ACE TELLING HIM TO BE A GOOD PIRATE??#how do they know about the them. why do they not tell anyone. to this day they havent said A WORD#noland was also from 400 years ago.... we got joyboy noland and toki#also are the next cover stories about ace.... please......... i need to see him#el señor de la noche moment (luffy fighting bellamy) draws near... i am so excited#i love ace being a hobo and just jumping on whatever boat he can find to eat and sleep and nobody refuses bc he's with whitebeard ajdjajkqw#ALSO I MISSED YOU KING!!!! COME BACK TO MEEEE#gorusei kuma and doffy first appearance omg... hello everyone#'if we let redhair act more than its sufficient it could be problematic' does this mean they can control him? shanks sus evidence n.1#'redhair is not one to change the world on his own' is he waiting for luffy??? is that it?? is shanks rogers successor to aid joyboy???#he told something to shanks before dying about laughtale and left that work for him so thats why he went after the one piece right after#joyboy manifested in luffy. thats why he refused so outright to buggy when he proposed to sail together to find it... maybe shanks not evil#lafitte was a cop and is the one to propose blackbeard as shichibukai? for some reason even if he hasnt done anything yet ✍️#whitebeard appearance... loving this in between arc issues even if they are not in between arcs... in between islands arc i guess#see??? why does benn beckman care about what the gov thinks... why would they give af and why would they even think about it#fucking blackbeard was after luffy..... but he 'settled' for ace i am going to be sick#blackbeard should have died when the knock up stream destroyed his ship what happened there....#also i didnt notice cricket smoking so much and trembling akdhsksjk he is hoping he didnt send luffy to die#reading one piece
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itsplasma · 1 year ago
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i wish my parents would stop letting the cats outside they're bringing dead mice/shrews/moles each day i hate it
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letmeliedown · 2 years ago
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if i ever want to feel better about where i’ve gotten in terms of being in touch with material reality all i have to do is look at an occult subreddit for 5 seconds (and then stop because it feels like putting my hand on a stove)
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blackwaxidol · 28 days ago
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Did my eyebrows and reinserted a new septum ring since my old one broke. I look like a bassist for a garage band, don't really hate it to be honest. Vaguely masculine...
#Maybe if my health problems can be controlled and I won't lose big clumps of my hair whenever I do anything I could keep the longer hair.#Not a huge fan of looking particularly 'manly' but—#—I think going outside and looking indisputably like a woman has been causing something in my soul to rot.#Felt like the only choice because I just don't have any confidence in any other form—#—but it occurs to me that it is killing me also.#Sort of a rock and a hard place because I get very embarrassed that places use my male name when I just do not look anything like one.#I haven't talked about anything regarding this in a while because it just ruins my day so much.#I'm not bothered about it at a moment.#If I'm being completely honest I don't think HRT would fix my psychological issues.#If I'm not living or doing much of anything socially to affirm (I hate that word) that I am a male-thing—#—then how is looking like one privately going to help me.#I'd just be rotting like I am currently anyway except I'd actually smell like I'm rotting because showering becomes very very mandatory—#—and I am too unwell both physically and psychologically to maintain it as regularly as I really want.#I'm just so... always embarrassed to be alive aren't I.#I'm starting to really hold a negative opinion on having breasts simply because of how hard it would sabotage the rest of my presentation.#That's something I don't like feeling because I'm terrified of surgery.#I can also only discuss that because I am practically sedated at the moment.#It raises my heart rate a little and makes my hands tremour but it doesn't quite reach me at the moment.#I think I have to live ignoring any dysphoria because I just cannot deal with the possibility.#You saw how well I responded to trying to contact a clinic about HRT.#I had to stop because I could feel something in my mind starting to break.#Not in a psychological breakdown way. I was already having that.#Just... if you know you know. ''The potential for a new part'' type of splitting headache.#One of those things that feels like a warning you have to heed.#Even if I didn't have this problem I just don't think crying everyday for two months straight was good for me.#I tried to ''do it scared'' and it was a complete failure.#God I hate that phrase. It's like​... I've done your experiment—now can I have actual help please.#''I have done the thing you say to masturbate your own ego now can you help me for real''#Reaching tag limit. I'm not sure why I went on this rant. It is fine though.#I don't have plans for the evening. I am going to forsake an energy drink and just lounge slothfully I think.
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