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tobyig · 3 months ago

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the character you play as in KOTOR 2 being my new comfort character for me and my whole inspiration for many pieces of writing/art/etc. and being someone i now want to cosplay as makes me so. just so.

#cant tell if im happy abt it or not #like i love her #but like come on #can someone who knows cosplay help me /hj #kotor 2 #exile kotor #star wars

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skunkes · 4 months ago

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#a doodley #i had to make this blue so tumblr would stop hiding it from the dash #anyway no caption this happened 2 hrs ago #im happy abt my surgery but it and other things this year keep beinging conversations like these up #and i cant handle it at all.#everything my dad tells me just makes me feel worse and not bc its anything bad but bc I Feel Bad #like the conversation then continued to him being like no dont cry im just saying i wpuld have wanted to #quit my job decades ago and set aside money so I wouldnt be struggling as much now but that didnt happen #and i just dont want that to happen to you guys :)#so we have to support u so that your life is what u want it to be #and i cried even more bc what do u mean. thats so sad. ur a person and u were a child and baby once and ur gonna die #and you always almost cry when u talk about your mom who passed away decades ago #and your brothers that passed away #recently and im going to be your age and still sobbing bc i miss my dad. just like i have been prematurely crying about since i was 7 #the other day my dad asked my mom if i cried a lot when i was a baby/kid and my mom said no and then my dad #said that when i Did cry it was so severe he thought i would ''drown in my own tears''#bc i could never stop. like. thats still true today. ive been crying on and off since then #i think i mentioned he's just been telling me stories about his life lately and it further fuels this. i get so sad. im sorry your life was #like this. i dont want to die i dont want you to die im sad im sorry im sorry #im scared. im never going to see you again. how horrible. how horrible #i cant enjoy my day today bc every day is a day closer and i get sad

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tomatoart · 4 months ago

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excited to see Static Dress live this year :3

#I GIVE UP ON THIS IM FREE. i cant tell if i like it or not #static dress #olli appleyard #static dress band #annnndddd. that’s all the tags. no one posts abt them so I am aware this’ll flop but I urge u to listen to them:) I’ve been a fan for a #long time and have been so happy they took off and got to open for bmth and now underoath yayyy yayyy yayy #fanart #desperate tag LMFAO #i know i said id get back to fandom art i just didnt say what <- actually just didnt finish the art i wanted to post #also procrastinating posting to twt sinc e well . uoy know #queue are lovely

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luck-of-the-drawings · 19 days ago

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EDYN TIDESTRIDER, CHALLENGER OF THE UNDERSEA, RIVAL OF THE DEEP. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOUR BROTHER WAS CHOSEN TO BE A WEAPON OF THE GODS? HOW WILL YOU UNDO WHAT THEY HAVE DONE TO HIM?

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #edyn tidestrider #cw blood #EDYYYNNNN TTIDESTRIDERRR OHH HOW I LOVE HERRRR #THIS IS A PAGE FULLA REEAALLY OLD DOODLES AND REALLY REALLY OLD DOODELS AND NEW DOODLES. ENJOY.#ONLY CLEANED IT UP A BUNCH TTODAY AND IM ACTUALLY SO SO HAPPY W IT WEEEEE #WHAT WAS IT LIKE? DOWN IN THE UNDERSEA. TO VISIT YOUR BROTHER WHENEVER THE ADULTS WOULD LET YOU #A KID WHO DIDNT UNDERSTAND WHAT WAS GOING ON OR WHY HER BROTHER WAS BEING TAKEN AWAY OR WHY HE KEEPS GETTING HURT #OR WHY THE ADULTS JUST KEEP LETTING IT HAPPEN. ITS FOR THE BEST? FATE OF THE WORLD AND ALL THAT? HEY WHO THE FUCK IS IN CHARGE HERE #HOW DO WE STOP IT. HOW DO I STOP IT. THERES PEOPLE OUT THERE WORKING ON SOMETHING. ARITIFICIAL LEVIATHAN YOU SAY?#WE COULD BUILD A THING TO RIVAL THE GODS. WELL. SIGN ME UP. IM GOING TO UNDO WHAT THEY DID TO YOU #WHAT A FASCINATING THING SHE ACTUALLY SAID. 'IM GOING TO UNDO WHAT THEY DID TO YOU' HELLO?? EDYN? WHAT DOES THAT MEAN #WHAT EXACTLY DID THEY DO TO HIM. OTHER THAN THE PROPHECY TRAINING. YOU CAN UNDO THAT? YOU CAN UNDO ALL THAT? HOW?? HELLO???#LIKE SURE I JUST SPOUTED MY THEORIES I THINK SHE WANTS TO KILL GOD BUT THATS JUSTA THEORY... A GA #WHAT IS EDYNS GOAL AND WHY CANT SHE TELL ANYONE OOUUUHHH EDYNNNN CMERE EDYNN CMERRE STOP WALKING AWAY CMERE. COME HERE.#fuuuuuck shes so mysteriousss what is she HIDING!!shes also so so so so angry i fucken know she is. shes so gentle and so sweet and timid #but she is ANGRY and shes SMART and clearly shes AMBITIOUS bc shes TALKING TO THE FUCKING BIG HEAD HONCHO O THE FUCKEN NNAAAVYYYYY #ALSO WHO IS NICHOLAS. IF THATS EVEN HIS REAL NAME. WHO DID YYYOU MEET EDYN. DO YOU HAVE A WISH TO BE GRANTED EDYN???#CHEWING ON THE BARS O MY CELL I NNNNEEEEED TO KNOW MORE ABOUT EDYN IM SO CURIOUS IMG ONNA KILL PEOPLE #i said once in another post 'the oath an eldest sister takes on is on par w that of a paladins-#-and sometimes upheld w the very same ferocity'. I REALLY LIKED THAT LINE.#pleeese... if u can hear me.. pls join me and draw edyn w unbridled plasmatic rage abt the way her brother was treated by the Elders #also pls draw her SCARY. I NEED HER TO BE SSCARY. PLEEASEE I NEED HER TO BE JUST AS VIOLENT AS GILLION BUT INA ICE COLD WAY #JUST AS VIOLENT JUST AS STRONG JUST AS MUCH OF AN AQUATIC MONSTER. im sure u see the vision.#ok i gotta go t bed now i got work in tha morning n i should nnot be stayin up this late. if u hav thoughts abt edyn pls scream abt em #okay byyyyeee goodniiigihhttttt

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technicalknockout · 2 months ago

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guess what day it is🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

#IM LIKE 24 HOURS LATE TO TKO DAY 2024 BUT STILL HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE BEST GUY EVER #IT'S 1 AM AND I CANT TELL PURPLE FROM YELLOW. I JUST USED ANYTHING I COULD FIND ON THE COLOR WHEEL. DO THESE COLORS LOOK NORMAL TO YOU #i didnt draw anything for his birthday last year which is a SIN so this year i made something :)#pretty sad bc i wanted more time to work on this but hey at least i finished it (vaguely) on time!#anyways. bestest guy who deserves the world and lots of birthday cake #here's to 7 years of being not normal abt him. here's to 7 years more #ok ko #ok ko let's be heroes #ok ko fanart #ok ko tko #my art

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munchboxart · 8 months ago

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KATAMARI DAMACY REROLL AND WE LOVE KATAMARI REROLL IS ON SALE RIGHT NOW ON THE SWITCH. Katamari Damacy is off for 75% off while We Love Katamari is off for 67%!!! We Love Katamari DLC is also off for 50% off!!! THERE IS 3 DAYS LEFT GO GET THEM

#i cant tell u which one to get bc i never played we loved katamari #but im watching this guy talk abt how we love katamari is the best game in the series so i trust them #do i get motion sick playing katamari that prevents me from finishing the game? yes #idgaf i love katamari happy 20th anniversary katamari <3 #etc

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jkpng · 7 months ago

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day 135/547 of missing jungkook

#jk #jungkook #buny #said i would yap abt this live and here it is #ik when i was watching it live i said to smone like. the mood is weirdly melancholic but now hes talking abt food and instantly its lighter #but since then i kinda forgot that the first half of that live is like. SUCH AN ODD VIBE #and i rewatched unprepared for it 😭 and got emotional #like idk. like the vibe is DAMP. its heavy not necessarily sad but it was Heavy #and hes talking abt not sleeping well lately and waxing poetic abt he can come here when he feels unstable and it feels safe n comforting #and like. mentioning he feels nauseous and one song looped for like 20 mins and sitting in the fucking dark just pondering silently #like bro ARE U GOOD????? its giving Me whenever im horribly depressed 😭#like ik u cant really tell someones feelings from their face esp if u dont know them but he just seemed. troubled #and i was watching it like Bro why are u on a livestream sitting in the dark staring at me w big wet eyes ARE U OK…….#and then he starts talking abt food and my eyes literally got wet bc he just. immediately brightened #and got talkative again #and i cant explain idk it made me emotional like. wuh hes happy telling us abt his noodle recipe….wuh……#and i had to tap out idk ill watch the rest later. IDK IDKKKKKKK im just fond. whatever

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pleasedontcareaboutme · 1 month ago

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It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry

( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)

(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)

#I just realized I can call him dad easier than my real dad and now I understand why am I so damn attached to him #I always knew he was a parental figure for me #but now I connected the dots #How when u have an absent dad and a d34d mom a guy shows up in ur life #that tells u life advice that both of ur parents failed to do so #and makes u feel safe the first time in ur life #ofc ud become attached #i know for sure its unhealthy how much i love and miss him #he occupies most of my thoughts honestly #But how could i not cling to him so much when he was the only one who gave me hope in life #i try to keep going and even tho he is not here i keep telling myself whatever he taught me. i keep reminding myself he wants us to live an #bloom and be free #and that's what ill try to do #but you know somedays i wish i could just disappear and be wrapped in eternal happiness #its so fucking hard to pull yourself out of the slump man im so fucking tired im so so tired #somedays i wish id have the courage to off myself but i know that deep down i want to live and ive always wanted to live but i have no idea #how to live. i feel like i finally found a purpose and someone i love. but at the same time im always doubting myself and im scared of losi #g this little hope again and i know i should cherish and use it instead but each day i have this anxiety because rn i have nothing else if #lose this i seriously will lose everything atp. but ill still try bc rn its this or death so i should try im just damn tired yes anyways #sorry for being depressing some days just dont work out but thats okay #yes at the same time i want to get out of my head and try to find some friends but i cant deny that im highkey fucked up and i just cant le #go of my past and i still feel like that helpless unloved kid and idk how to form relationships this way. i dont trust myself at all so idk #how to trust others. and i feel like in order to find ppl that would love me i have to overshare abt my whole lifestory bc it still dictate #my life heavily. and since i met this band its better cuz im learning to deal w it and i want to heal from everything but yes at the same t #me who would wqnt to be friends w. someone that has like a year of life experience and 18 years of depression lol #so yes its complicated. bc i have friends but im like the funny friend. the one that is as shallow as puddle and has no problems but honest #y im genuinely sufferint qnd have been sufferinz all my life so i want to come out of my funny friend role. but that wojld mean i have to t #ll the shit i went through to all my friends but tbh it would be so random so ye. i do have a plan though. how it could work. But yes im ti #ed have been tired for 7 years now. But this time around i hope i can successfully get out of this torture cycle lol.#ok sorry this is what happens after puberty guys i could beva research case for a damn mental institute atp xdd

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puppyeared · 10 months ago

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i wrote this as a joke because I wanted to strangle a guy watching tiktoks without headphones on the bus, but im genuinely disturbed that we've gotten to a point where convenience comes first. and it depresses me even more that its used to justify and monetize greed

#like we have so many ways of doing things that could help us in the long run but because we're told it requires more work we just cant #its too resource intensive. or maybe its too much to maintain. we have to overlook benefits so money can go into more important things #we teach each other to do things a certain way so it works for everyone but who was it convenient for first? what abt who it might hurt?#i have to wonder if the rules our current system uses is worth listening to or following if it doesnt have our best interests in mind. u an #me and the ppl around us.. would we be better off if i ate my meals knowing the person who grew it wanted to feed others the way they could #feed themselves? and that isnt to say we're going to be happy doing it but i guess satisfied that its helping someone instead of quietly #accepting that itll eventually go in the dumpster behind a grocery store because it stopped looking appetizing or it wasnt on sale anymore #what about building homes so we can shelter each other? what if we were satisfied with what we did because we knew it would be paid back #with kindness? isnt that what we evolved to do?? heal each others bones and tell stories and help each other??#why dont houses come with solar panels or generators unless we find a way to make people pay to use the sun? why is our pooled money used #to fund genocides instead of education and hospitals? whose interests and convenience came first when we started this??#i wont pretend to know the answer because i dont. but we all know we're miserable and im sorry to say that i cant see myself fighting #for a world that wont fight for me too. why do we work if we cant live from it?? why did they stop us from plucking more teeth from our #bosses until they could build more walls around themselves and then go back to underpaying us??#im so tired. i cant even imagine making it to age 70 #yapping #vent

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milkbreadtoast · 2 months ago

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my s class hunters does a really good job at gradually raising the stakes without feeling like a pointless power creep and keeping me extremely invested and i keep saying this but I really do think it's bc it's a story grounded in love at every turn... the bond between the han brothers especially is extremely compelling and beautiful and makes me feel like a knife is being stabbed into my heart and twisted all around... i love them so so much 😞💔❤️‍🩹❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

#(another tweet liveblog that im crossposting here)#im up to ep 102 in the webtoon now btw!!!#s class liveblog #also it took a while for yj to completely grow on me (i always liked/loved him but it's prob bc they #lightened the tone of his chara or w/e as ppl were saying... in the beginning at least #that ive been holding off calling him a 'fav' (im kinda picky w protags/have side chara liking syndrome...#even w twsb i didnt rly start biasing yeseo until i read the novel... cedric was my 1st bias #(and w orv ive only read (part of) the webtoon and yjh is my bias so mdnfn)#(i rly loved yj from the 1st few ch tho but yea i can kinda tell the webtoon lightened his chara a lot... not that i think its all bad bc #its been fun to read at least dkfbdn)#but now that im further in im just like... wow. he's such an incredible character and protagonist. wow #def as good of a protagonist as kdj (and i personally like him better bc he's a big brother HHHHHNG.#i love him just like i love jung yeseo...#i love him SO much. he's just incredible #and yea dont tell me about the novel bc im going to read it myself but #yeah i rly cant wait to experience his original characterization and get intimately aquainted w his narration/internal thoughts...#REITERATING...DONT SPOIL ME ANYTHING FR #also just more abt the webtoon but... biwan-nim is SOOO good at drawing expressions & portraying emotions #i fucking feel every emotion that yj feels and it fucking breaks my heart and makes me cry uuuaaaghh T___T #yoojin.... TT__TT💔💔💔#also god he's just... so fucking COOL. and not just in like a cool savvy protag kinda way #(bc usually i kinda sleep when protags r like. Too cool/op skfjksdj but he's not like that at all)#i mean as a person... he's so incredibly... oughhh #as a person... as a big brother... T__T...#i cant even put it into words. he's just... i love him so much. it hurts.... im so deeply invested and rooting for him at every step...#he and yoohyun deserve the whole world i really hope they can get their happy ending together T_T💔💔💔❤️‍🔥 please...

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bunnyboy-juice · 24 days ago

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spent the first hour and change at work deleting some old files and am having a grand ol time laughing at myself for not realizing i was a lesbian sooner

#vulnerable tag rambles ahead please be kind abt them i didnt intent to ramble this much but i dont wanna delete it eitehr #me to every single man i have ever dated after 6mo-1y: yeah hey this really isnt working out i dont really know why but i really hate mysel #and i dont want to blame you because i dont think you did anything inherently wrong here; i think this is something about me but i need #space to figure out why im feeling this way [every single one reacted by telling me No i wasnt allowed to leave btw]#i hold very complex feelings about these relationships esp bc of them ending in very violent/chaotic ways most of the time #but its interesting to look back at it all and realize ive left every man for the same reason (which is that ive hated myself Every Single #Time ive dated a man) and its funny bc i recognized the self hate pretty early on w/ cishet men but when it came to queer men it was #much more confusing (esp w/ nto knowing Any lesbians at that point in my life). im so happy im a lesbian tbh #i have a lot of issues w/ the racism fatphobia and transmisogyny present in lesbian groups #and also coming out as a lesbian really truly saved my life. before i met my wife i was quite literally in a 3yr abusive relationship that #definitely would have died in if i hadnt realzied i was a lesbian and ran from him #its also weird seeing liek the hard evidence of the things that happened to me btween 2016-2020 tbh #cause that was such a bad time of my life. i truly dont know how i survived it but im so glad i did #like the three major relationships in my life b4 meeting my wife was: guy who was in college when i was in HS who stalked me when i left;#guy who was a year younger than me who cheated on me the entire time while telling me he was being victimized (he wasnt; this was very mess #guy who saw the very messy toxic ldr i was in and helped me dump my ex then decided that meant we were in a relationship [insert 3 yrs here #and admittedly all 3 years with him werent the same level of abusive but it was definitely unhealthy from the start considering I Didnt Kno #we were together until he wanted to celebrate vday and got mad i didnt know our anniversary - and like this isnt including the other stuff #that happened between those Relatonships[tm] (cause ive never been monogamous; these were just the Major Relationships)#like i genuinely think if i hadnt come out i'd be dead rn given just how dangerous my relationships were/continued getting #i am also so tired now that ive seen all this cause like. fuck i can barely believe it and i not only lived it but have PTSD about it #i should write about my life sometime. i feel like it'd be cathartic to try and make a tangible timeline and stories from the years ang stu #anyway yeah. be nice about the tag rambles. dont message me with pity or curiosity or anything about this. i dont usually talk abt this stu #publicly bc i hate the ways ppl start tryign to baby me when they realize my life has been extremely fucked up until only a few years ago #n im still working on accepting kindness from others bc of [insert life traumas here] but its a long process so pls respect my need for jus #being heard rn w/o too much pressure< 3 (but ig if u do read this can u like it cause i feel a little crazy seeing all the evidence of the #stuff i experienced now also cause fuck ik logically it was but also i cant believe it was all real still yk)

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ratzhatz14 · 27 days ago

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Hii!! Thanks for the reblog!!

I’m a huge fan of your sprouts world au!! Very fun angst >:D

Anyway your one of my fav blogs and that reblog made my morning, thank you!

I was gonna make a reference to that one meme which is like "You want colors? We got colors" but with angst instead

Until I read the last part

That made me just

all nice and round and whimsical

#BUABUABUABUABUABUAAAAAA #← the happy noises a rat .akes #makes*#SHIT #i hate typing #I WANNA SPEAK SO MUCH BUT VOICE TO TEXT HAS A 120% CHANCE TO FUCK UP A SILLY WORD #SO IM FORCED TO TYPE #but AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #explodes #it feels so weird yet flustering to know that i could be someones favorite blog #ANYWAAAYYSSSSSSSS imma go reblog ALL ur posts or go find posts with an underwhelming amount of attention. and make them #✨shine bright like a diamond✨#oh GOD that meme is so overused i feel cringe using it hrhhrhrhrhr #Tag yapper #live laugh love yapping in tags #+i like ur art #very silly art #(I DONT REMBER WHERE I GOT THE MOUSE FROM BUT I LOVE IT AND ITS IN MY FAVORITES HELP)#++I dont have many ideas for SW... BUT I DID HAVE THE IDEA TO MAKE SHORT COMICS FOR EACH TOON IN THE AU #from Dandy (1st death oooh) to whoever will be last.... PLUS that means lore mode!!1!1!!#I watched too much game theory when i was smaller if you couldnt tell #eueueueueueue normalize making random high pitched noises wawa buabuabuaaaaaa #← needs to be put in an asylum /hj.... or am i?#CHARLIE STFU YOU CANT JUST STEAL VSAUCES PERSONALITY AFTER WATCHING 2 SHORTS ON YOUR FYP FROM HIM.#sorrgy charliee...... 💔#guys charlie is so meaaaan can we ban charlie #I MEAN NO SHIT SHERLOCK. YOURE THE SCHOOL BULLY. WATCHU EXPECT????#oh yeah i forgot abt dat #YEAH. YOU FUCKHEAD. SHRIMPFACE. GO CRY IN THE CORNER YOU SHRIMP KIN.#wwwwwwWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH CRIES IN CORNER . ...im insane. i need help. genuinely.

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vampirejuno · 2 months ago

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Am I Into This Person But Very Nervous About It, Or Just Going Along For The Ride Because Idk What I Want - And Other Paralyzing Questions To Haunt Your Weekend!

#hhhhhhhhhghhhhghhhhh #man.#its like. i really like this person as a friend and i dont wanna lose her right #and i djd at one point go “hoohoo what if i had a crush on her heehee” bc im weird n i think that abt p much anyone my age i get close to #but ive been very happy having her as my friend and it was so unexpected when she asked me out #and i genuinely cant tell what i want #and like. am i ready to date again. am i just nervous because i dont wanna get hurt again. do i actually feel that way abt her for real.#is this like a “hey lets try this thing out see what happens n if it doesnt work we'll still be friends” kinda thing #or a “I'm really into you and i want to date and ill be disappointed if it doesn't work out” kinda thing on her part....#i know im overthinking this and its probably gonna be fine and im just really not used to casual dating but. aughhhhhhhh #the agonies

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b4kuch1n · 1 year ago

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