#can’t get too comfortable tho
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Alien Stage Fridays give me such tonal whiplash whoever said it’s like playing Russian roulette was right
#the amount of psychic damage i took from last week’s post was astronomical#and now we’re getting silly little interviews of my favorite characters#you never know what you’re gonna get when you open up twitter.com on fridays at whatever the fuck time#i think they keep us on our toes on purpose#can’t get too comfortable tho#The Horrors are always right around the corner#i should probably sleep#alien stage#alnst#alien stage friday#alnst friday#ivanttakethis talking just to talk#ivanttakethis talks too much
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LMFAOOOO
Madre mía y decían que en los años 70 ya se quedaron sin ideas,
Aún hay gente que idolatra a estos farsantes y se creen todo lo q les meten con colador 😂
Y esto de la luna podía colar, hoy en día todas las mentiras que cuentan las celebrities no 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 (relaciones inicio de la fama etc)
#n.a never lied tho#he said it never happened#these fucking Americans lmfao#always lying and making up ridiculous shit for attention basically#it’s a cultural thing imo#I mean I’ve known this for years but likeeeee it’s one lie after another#they talk about walls and shit and they are all immigrants#like their country is less than 1000 years old - the fuck are they talking about LMFAOOOO#most of us ignore them for the most part but the second hand embarrassment is real#Jim Carrey is ONE hell of an actor#hilarious dude lmao#AND THEYRE BUYING IT#😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂#lmao they go to the 🌕 once and now it’s not possible to go there bc ¿¿ they forgot how to ??? pls#America you’re boring as hell😳😳😳😳#they’re attention seeking folks tbh#and those Americans who can’t and don’t like they get harassed killed and so on#make it make sense 😳#I once dealt with a Canadian bitch and since then I make fun of Canada too#thank god I was not born there but my parents wanted to settle down there wHEW#add to the mix that bitch of trudeau who basically laughs at every Canadian#man we’re screwed lmao#fuck these politicians NAHSKASBSJA#I literally don’t like some people and I don’t pretend to ever hide it tbh#and France too like we’re so sick of these bitches in government#I hope **** *** ***#at least u can live comfortably in other countries#in Spain? LMAOOO#depends on ur profession u can live well but not too well#if u compare w the neighboring countries - it’s 20% of what u could have
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You’re my happy place
#tokyo mew mew#ichisaya#ichigo momomiya#masaya aoyama#my dumb art#I was gonna caption this ‘exposure therapy’ as a joke but decided against it LOL#how long can ichigo last#on a side note that no one asked for: I personally think down the line either ichigo would be able to reign in her heart a bit better—#—around Masaya or more likely Ryou would develop some kind of medicine to help manage her side effects when she gets too excited#Masaya is associated with blue in many ways but let’s not make blue balls one of them#i have been waiting to make that joke sorry people who read my tags#i can’t be the only one who thought of that tho#cause lbr i don’t think ichigo could ever get to a point with Masaya where he doesn’t driver her heart crazy haha#not saying she can’t be comfortable with him but he’s always gonna manage to rile her up. He is the ultimate high score holder for getting—#—that reaction from her
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screaming into the void <3
#my best friends boyfriend (who i’ve also been friends with for years) is just. not himself rn#we think it’s a manic episode but we don’t really know but it’s. terrifying lowkey#he thinks he’s genuinely jesus and that he’s conquered time and that he and my bsf are adam and eve#he’s been sending my bsf liek hundreds of texts per day since tuesday but it got really really bad and incoherent yesterday#and i woke up this morning to see multiple texts from gcs he created w me in them#and he keeps being like ‘because it’s 6:20 this is true’ and like ‘i know that at 9 pm everyone is gonna understand’#and he’ll text like 5 times then send a sc of what he just texted like that proves something but it’s all nonsense#i’m just really really concerned cause he really needs help but i don’t know how to ensure that happens cause he’s 19. not a minor#he’s just. not him rn. he’s called my bsf multiple times yesterday when he HATES calling normally#he had his band and his mom over in his apartment yesterday cause my bsf called his mom and h went to his bands show but was visibly not ok#and he saw nothing weird about it even tho he hates having ppl over normally and never without warning#and you can’t get him to see logic because everything you say he just twists around to work for him#to be clear it was not this bad when it started. when it started it seemed like normally maybe slightly out there conclusions he was drawing#but it just got worse and worse like exponential decay and really bad yesterday#he also didn’t sleep at all yesterday night and idk if he slept tonight#i know his mom took his phone at one point but he texted me and gcs w me in it starting at like 6:20 this morning#and my bsf and i and friends are on a trip out of state rn but we’re leaving today and i don’t wanna wake her up until i have to because#this is literally hell for her. but it’s just. scary. i don’t know what to do. i don’t think there’s any good options really for me rn#i want to warn ppl and try to explain he’s Not Him rn so they don’t get concerned but who knows if they’ll understand what i’m trying to say#i know it’s not the end of the world but it really feels like the end of my world as i know it if that makes sense#and my bsf lives with him in an apartment near their college and they just signed the lease for the next year#but she can’t stay there with him alone. not until he gets help. we’re all too scared it’s going in the directon where he thinks it’s better#for ppl to go to the afterlife. which like he never would normally. but he’s Not Him and so like. who knows#he keeps talking about all these different dimensions and how you need to travel to the 7th dimension to understand#my bsf was crying yesterday and she called her mom to explain and she keeps saying that she just wants her jake back it’s really scary#cause he will probably never be the same again. he’ll be similar but different but she wants his comfort but he’s Not Him. and can’t give it#i just. really want this to get better but it’s so hard to see that happening rn
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Told my boss that NO I cannot take over customer phone calls because my anxiety will literally not be able to take it. And I’m being SO brave about it,
#I say this as I’m sitting here shaking and on the verge of having an anxiety attack. AHA#Shima speaks#She called me yesterday morning and was like. Hey your coworker is drowning and I KNOW you hate phone calls#But she really needs help#And I was like. Yeah okay. Maybe I can do this.#Fast forward to last night. I’m in bed hyperventilating bc no I CANNOT do this#My mental health has already been Bad for the past few months bc I’m already working overtime for this job#And now to take on the One thing I generally get anxious about? Bro. It’s gonna kill me. 100% no exaggeration#So I called my boss this morning and was like hi I’m so sorry I said I would but I actually can’t. I deadass had an anxiety attack#just THINKING about it last night#And she was like omg no I get it. I have anxiety too I know what it’s like. It’s debilitating sometimes#So she said I didn’t have to do the phone calls and now I’m like YIPPEE#And she said hey that was a really brave thing to do. Speaking up like that and making it clear when you’re not comfortable with something#Me still shaking and holding back tears: Thank you I’m being SO brave about this rn#Anyway I’m still coming down from the near panic attack I had before I called her to tell her lmao#It’s been a rough 24 hours. I’m fine (lying)#I’ll BE fine now that I don’t have to talk to angry customers on the phone tho 🥰
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Finally home…
Now to sleep for a week straight, bye y’all /j
#seriously tho gonna try and get more writing done cuz I miss my goobers :(#SMG5 and SMG6 specifically but Schmicago too /hj#at least during my short break tomorrow before running around again#because trying to make a family member’s death as painless and comfortable as possible can’t just be simple#yay…#at least I can sleep in my own bed tonight! :D#blue strawberry rambles#mini rant
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#okay i read a transcription of most of the nj video#and my main conclusion is that the girls are highly misinformed / being fed false info bcs no adult figure is looking over them#‘mhj is the producer of our music’ that woman has never produced a single song#‘our demands are not being met’ ur demand is to bring back mhj ? i wonder why it is not being met#even the manager not saying hi thing … saying this with all the empathy to them but i get it#imagine ur team boss tries a coup towards the company and u side with them it’s understandable if other employees don’t feel comfortable#and the legal side too like most employees were probably instructed not to interact with them on company grounds#and again i have all the empathy towards them and understand it’s because they’re victims and so on but this is all just bcs they can’t let#mhj go#like if they weren’t fighting tooth and nail for her everything would be different#and they don’t have adult figures telling them this and protecting them from the situation#they just dont know how working environments / company work and they have no one guiding and helping them throughout all of it#this whole thing is just so heartbreaking and frustrating#and they said they found out about the situation from the media — that again proves that mhj doesn’t actually care because she knew about#all of it but she couldn’t pick up the phone to tell them ?#hybe can get fucked and is evil too but if anything this suggests they wanted to leave the girls out of it at first at least#this is not to say i think hybe was nice just to be clear i think they just didn’t think the girls would care this much since it was a#business/legal dispute concerning the company#it’s like if aespa cared when lsm was kicked out .. they didn’t gaf and that’s what it’s supposed to be like !#the leak thing is so heinous tho like i really don’t understand why someone would leak private records of some young girls#after we’re done with mhj we gotta take care of bpd
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Another batch or Mr. Puzzles quick sketches. I kept forgetting to draw his side pocket in the last couple ones. Random character featured in the little comic-ish Live Interview is some version of doodlesona. Can’t guarantee the dialogue will be believable/sound in character for Puzzles because honestly I’m still working on understanding his talking style and when he sarcastically jokes around or when he chooses to be serious and drop performance act. But in the off chance you wanna read it goes from left to right with reading
#GUYS it’s so hard drawing a character who uses his hands to communicate 24/7 jksjsksp PLEASE#my brain doesn’t know what pose to put him at any given time because he keeps SWITCHING inbetween words#he’s so animated and that’s why I love him so much expression and emotion in display#but I don’t like drawing hands at any given time if I can avoid it so screw him jskjso#the last two pages I think I’ve started to get a hang of how his expressions operate#still need to see if I can pull off the full range in my own style tho#and yes I inserted my silly doodle sona in the interview segment hello wazzup lol#although it’s very much a caricature because in reality I have no issues being on film. Been doing that since I was a toddler it’s natural#was even in a production class in high school operating camera equipment like I honestly love it#speaking of that art…still trying my best to figure out how his dialogue is meant to sound?#like I’ve always struggled with writing character dialogue I’m unfamiliar with the style of#thing is I’m good at acting the part if you give me a script to follow and example of tone inflections#but writing it from scratch is a whole nother struggle#so I’m sorry if it doesn’t feel on point I’ll try to get better at analyzing his speech patterns#honestly think I made it too formal sounding here? Or jumbled in some parts because I was stumped on how he’d translate thoughts to words#still fun interaction tho!#like I think he’d try his best to drop a few moments of empathy and try to get someone with anxiety to feel comfortable#but he’s also got the ratings to worry about and can’t afford it being ruined by someone’s anxiety hiccup#so kinda treading the line of being compassionate and giving advice to calm them v.s impatience to get the show rolling#or something idk still trying to analyze him and how he reacts to given circumstances#can you tell I think way too deeply about all this trivial stuff?#doodles#sketches
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Listen, I love the LGBTQ+ community as much as any other queer person. But we have got to stop ostracizing people in our community to fit in with cishetallo people.
Some of y’all really do go ‘these are the acceptable boxes for queer people and their definitions, anyone outside of these is actually not queer and making us look bad’ and act like that’s ok. Now that being queer is generally acceptable in online/progressive areas (as long as you are one of the ‘well known’ orientations), a big part of the community has started regulating what’s ‘acceptable’ of a queer person and how we should fit into society.
I’ll see people hating on trans people who don’t fit into the ‘normal’ expectation of ‘Trans girl, Trans boy, or Non-binary’ or use Neo pronouns because that’s how they feel the most comfortable. I’ll see people hating on queer people who don’t like labels ( or try to assign people one even if they don’t want it). Or people who use a label in a way they don’t like (bi people who mostly date the opposite sex, lesbians who use pronouns other than just she/her, gender non-conforming people who don’t identify as trans, obscure micro-labels, etc.)
And it’s so frustrating because we as LGBTQ+ are supposed to be better!!! We are supposed to empathize with the feeling of not fitting in with regular society and help others like us! But the community has become part of the oppressive ‘societal standard’ for some people.
Some people just can’t be put into a perfect little label box and a lot of y’all aren’t cool about that. And I can’t believe I have to tell my fellow queers this, but there is nothing wrong with denying societal standards in order to live in the way that is genuine to you and makes you happy. End of story. If you disagree with that, look inward at your internal biases and try and fix that. Get rid of the cop in your brain telling you that you have to police others self-expression.
#look man I am just TIRED of having to pick from a bunch of different boxes to feel like I’m REALLY LGBTQ+#as far as I care I’m queer#and if that label changes as I grow?#good for me#That’s something y’all need to get cool with too#labels changing over time#I just don’t feel like most big labels really fit me and I don’t really want to use micro labels#not a micro-label hate post btw#love y’all and glad you’re happy- it’s just not for me#like you could probably find some obscure aspects label to describe me#but is that anyones business other than maybe my future partner if I get one?#I don’t OWE people an explanation to me and how I experience attraction#I’m also tired of seeing people shoved into being LGBTQ+ just for going beyond gender norms#like y’all will say ‘yeah I’m normal about feminine men’ but won’t believe that a feminine man is cishetallo#which in turn is why a lot of cishetallo men don’t feel comfortable being feminine#I have a lot of feelings about this#but anyway you don’t owe society anything and you shouldn’t have to change how you present yourself to make them happy#unless you are actively harming someone by being yourself then I don’t care and I support you#actively harming in a ‘purposefuly harming someone’ way -not in a ‘you make other queer people look bad by not conforming to the norm’ way#I love the queer community if you can’t tell tho#I just think we can do better#cw queer#I like the label and I use it#but I get why some of y’all might not#gay#LGBT#lgbtq#lgbtqia#lgbtq community#queer
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several days and 15 thousand words later, i am relieved to report that the suffocating urge to Write Something has been sated and no longer has me in a chokehold
#Seven.txt#writing stuff#thinking of that post that’s like ‘u Have To make art or all the ideas stay stuck in ur brain and make u sick’ bc yeah thats been the vibe#wish i wasn’t so all or nothing about it tho. but alas. i’m that way with everything in my life#i either expect 10k in a day from myself or i don’t write at all for weeks. or months :)#and my average pace is about 500 words per hour. so u can see. how that might be a problem. given how many hours are in a day.#and that’s obviously not sustainable. but idk if it’s adhd or what but it’s So hard to quickly start and stop tasks just Whenever#i struggle to be one of those ppl that can consistently write like. 500 words a day every day and then wow! soon you have a whole novel#nah. once i get myself in the Zone then i’m Goin’ and i can’t stop until i’m Done or i collapse from ignoring my body’s needs lmao#it’s something i should make an effort to do though bc i’d love to be consistently chipping away at things instead of working in bursts#anyways this is a lotta negative self-commentary for what is actually a Positive post! bc yay!! i wrote a thing!! Two things actually!!! 🎉#i got the follow-up to last year’s Matt oneshot done And i wrote the next chapter of Heaven in Hiding after uh. a year and some months#i wanted to blow the dust off the ol’ keyboard by starting with writing some less. uh. high-stakes(?) stuff#not that i didn’t put my all into writing them. i always do. just that ik they’ll have less of an audience so ill cringe less if they suck#so then i can hopefully do justice to the [N]MbD stuff that i’ll be putting out next! ehehe *rubbing my hands together* Finally#the next two [N]MbD fics r already written but the first little one needs a final edit#and then the Big one for. uh. someone (u kno who u r) needs a bit of rewriting i think. i wanna make it Better#so release schedule will be 1. Matt • 2. HiH Ch.3 • 3. [N]MbD small fic • 4. [N]MbD Big fic#then i’m gonna write a lil Boothill comfort oneshot. then i’ll edit/maybe rewrite and post that Dew (Ghost) OCD comfort oneshot#i also wanna keep writing the last couple chapters of HiH before i unintentionally abandon it again#and after/amidst all that maybe i’ll manage to get ES Ch.6 written and posted before the end of the year 😭#anyways ik i’ve made posts like this before. talking abt all these Plans of mine. and most of those things r Still stuck in the pipeline#so don’t put too much stock into this plan. i could have another Bad couple of months and get None of it done#but god i sure fucking hope not. i’d really like to cling to my creativity. if for no other reason than that it makes me happy
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no, dragon age 2 is not the best dragon age game. but it’s also not the worst. and most importantly, it is my favorite.
#sorry for continuing to obsess over the cast of da2 13 years later. i just adore them#they’re messy and terrible but god do they compel me. the thing about da2 is that a surprising about of the bad writing CAN enhance it#if you really lean into it and make it work. it makes the characters worse people yes. it makes them very contradictory people#but the longer i sit on it the more i can make it work. the ending choice is still bad and lacking and doesn’t allow for genuine roleplay#and i lament that the world states don’t let me properly convey that my hawke THOUGHT they ‘did the wrong thing for the right reasons’#and that you can’t really play as the kind of selfish coward my hawke is to me you know. someone who pays lip service but doesn’t follow up#whose allegiances come with conditions and at the end of the day always looks out for individuals rather than entire demographics#i think that’s why i love varric so much too bc that’s how he is! he loves merrill and anders (tho he won’t admit it) BUT#he doesn’t really ‘get’ mage stuff. he wants them to give it up. anders even more so. varric doesn’t believe#there’s a gap of lived understanding between them he NEVER really tries to breech and that’s why his love is conditional#for as much as varric went to bat for anders year after year and would never have sold him out during their time in kirkwall…#he still resents anders in inquisition. bc anders had goals and ambition and wouldn’t settle for varric’s friendship#such a conditional allegiance would never satisfy anders. he wasn’t the type to forsake all mages just to live comfortably hidden by others#oh my god i need to play dragon age 2 again
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had a thought about how sanji would probably be so into casually fingering you so i had to come and plague you about it too <3
really anytime you’re cuddled up next to him, his hand will eventually end up slipping into your panties. it happens most often when your back is pressed up against his chest and you’ve both laid down to go to sleep. he’s not even really trying to make you cum when he does it. he just wants to make you feel good and keep you there, take away all the noise for a lil bit and let you relax. and he’s so sweet about it :(( kissing you behind the ear, your jaw, anywhere he can reach really. just to let you know he’s got you :(( he makes me feel insane
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#WHY#WHY IS ALL I HAGS TO SAY#HELLO#I genuinely can’t type I just malfunctioned#I’m like a computer and someone just dumped water on me#VEIDBDJBDJDNDKDKD#NO BECAUSE HE WOULD THO#I CANT W THE WAY U WRITE HIM#the way you make him always SO IN LOVE IS WHAG GETS ME#*clenches fist*#ITS THE BEST PART ABOJT HIM#😭😭😭😭#tears streaming down my face#don’t even get me STARTED!!!!!!!!! on this position too#it’s like peak domesticity and comfort WAHHHHH#YOU make me insane#(in a good way)#I bet y’all can’t even imagine how it feels to have YOUR FAVORITE WRITER ON THE PLANET#write u something in ur inbox specifically#his hands………….I’m sure they’re SO soft#GOODBHE#consider me PLAGUED AS WELL#I’m going to be going to bed tonight laying on my side and thinking about this fml#SANJIIIIIIII WHY IS HE SO PERFECT AND ALSO NOT REAL???????#WHY ARE YOU LITERALLLYHHH THE BEST TO ME ILY 😭😭😭😭😭#I have nothing to offer I just be existing 🥺😔#is ur love language acts of service bc so is mine#sunny the loml tag#sunny tag
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womp womp
#I’ve fucking ruined everything again. Cool cool#the only thing I have now is my job and if I actually try and get help which I probably need now I will lose that too#radical#I’m just fucking scared and alone with my thoughts here#all my support system is 900mi away#this is so fucking dumb but I miss my mom and I just want someone to tell me it’s going to be ok and that it will get better#it just never feels like anything gets better for me#I’m so so tired of making my life worse#I feel like such an abject failure and defective life form#like I’m fucking worthless below the fucking dirt#the only thing I’m good for is my job and my work and I can’t lose that either#i have a psych appointment on Friday and I’m fucking terrified they’re going to send me to the hospital#-_-#dumb shit yapping#I don’t think anyone is reading this I don’t really want to talk about anything though I am just venting to the wind#I can’t tell any of my irl friends this tho bc they’d be concerned#which rightfully so but I don’t want to burden them with that knowledge#I just do not know how much longer I can keep doing this and being alive#I kept crying on new years bc I was scared and I don’t think I can make it until 2026#and I just feel so fucking unfixable and defective that therapy and meds aren’t actually going to fix what’s wrong with me#it goes deeper I am inherently flawed and subhuman#there are a lot of core human moments in life that I just never will experience#i can’t lie to myself and act like I’m the same kind of person things Can get better for#I’ve always been like this#built differently built wrong#I’m gonna go take a nap and watch co09 again#not gonna do nothing just try and shut my brain off#last time I had a really bad mental breakdown though my mom took me to go get boba bc I couldn’t eat anything#and I know she’s my mom and she has to but like#It was just really comforting and touching in a way that I can’t do for myself
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Born to break their brain down to them and why they are where they are right now as well as tell them how to grow and feel better
Forced to say “I’m here if and when you need me!” And wait knowing they probably won’t
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#I think I’m making progress#I just need to crack this shell#and I can do that#I care about them and I’ve been in their shoes#they just need to realize something important but I can’t just tell them that#what I say won’t matter unless they understand I’m being genuine#I’m very proud of this person tho#they’re taking strides to move on after a conversation we had and I’m really happy for them#I don’t think it’s because of me I don’t know if they trust me like that#but I think at least I’m getting the emotional breaks rolling for them#I hope being my friend helps them to see life doesn’t have to be lonely and that it’s okay for people to intrinsically understand you#that life is less lonely when you’re loved with no strings attatched#our friendship will have no ‘but’s#‘he’s my friend but’#NO#I’m your friend#I’m not your friend because you gave something for me#I’m you’re friend because I care about you and enjoy your company#maybe I’m in too deep#maybe I’ll get myself hurt or find out I’m just wrong#but I want this to be good. I want to show them what friendship is really about#I want them to be comfortable
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building up my appetite again is gonnna suck
#getting my wisdom teeth out fucked me up#and i’ve been too paranoid to eat properly#the last time this happed was the last time i had covid like a year or two ago??#it fucked up my appetite somehow and i was NEVER hungry for months#i ate simply bc i knew i needed to#like my stomach didn’t hurt or anything i literally just didn’t feel an urge to eat#i slowly got it back#this is different tho lol#i’m hungry allll the time#but i get full so fast#i just wanna inhale some butter chicken#lyriumsings txt#the holes are so close to being closed but still big enough to fit a grain of rice#when it can’t anymore is when i’ll feel comfortable chewing again lol
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Do I have to start saying not that anyone would care in that super duper passive aggressive way to guilt people into caring or what
#dora daily#I’m so tired#the one thing I’ve consistently wanted since I was a kid was to be cared about and seen 😜#yet I can’t even seem to get that ☠️ I honest to god am so tired like every day is another futile attempt to try to engineer what I say#specifically for the purpose of me hoping someone ANYONE would care#how I used to be sick when I was younger because I saw that the kids who would get sick or would get sad would get sm care and love but#I was stupid because I didn’t account for the fact that when I was sick I had to just suck it up or when I was sad I need to stop being such#a crybaby and get over it#what if I say I’ve had enough of just being shamelessly used by others for me to comfort them through their problems#but I always have everything thrown back at my face because somehow when it’s my turn my problems are uncomfortable or awkward#I don’t have energy for a single thing yet I force myself to talk to at least one person and trying to fix my relationship with just#literally talking it shouldn’t be that hard but I feel so worthless that even speech is impossible and makes me feel like I will literally#die. it’s been working kinda but now I just can’t help but feel so sick to my stomach about all this my head hurts really bad and I’m trying#not to cry and trying my hardest to make peace with the fact that in truth nobody will ever like me enough to care at all ever#not my mum not my dad or my siblings and certainly not my friends either#I’m so tired of always begging and pleading for someone to just notice I’m here too#or maybe it’s specific people#it’s so cruel to say all those overly nice things to me and not act on them#why else was I so psychotic about that girl ? obviously because she would shower me with the nicest things I’ve ever heard#but she says that to everyone she’s not consistent with me and we aren’t really friends#ik it wasn’t her intention but it doesn’t change the fact I have wanted to and I’m not even over exaggerating but actually off myself#because this is just proof I’m around to serve people’s dirty work and clean messes when I can’t even stand on my two feet anyways#isn’t it so stupid I’m just talking to myself here and most likely nobody will ever see it meaning this was just useless yet again#and the fact i can’t be free ever nor can i do anything about this to permanently end things because i am a coward and because the worst#part is that even after death I shall be tormented anyways#and let’s say I somehow survive an attempt I will literally be scarred for life and then I’d rlly want to be dead#it’s the way not even death can be a solace for this because there would only be more torture#I can’t leave this religion because leaving won’t change the truth but I’m so tired and worn thin of every single responsibility in my life#even tho I don’t have much the few I do have feel excruciating#life is too much and death is worse so why couldn’t my mum who’s strong willed said no to my dads family and not gotten married period 🧍♀️
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