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sparingiscaring · 2 years ago

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#40 exact science with Eliza 👀

Eliza Marlow in Exact Science

The art of poison is an Exact Science, isn't it? Eliza is quite the expert, in those matters.

#your honor i- well okay i can't defend this #Eliza is about to kill people like warden walker in holes #(this is a canon thing they can do)#fl #oc: eliza marlow #can you tell it has a god complex?#dame's art

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sammygender · 6 months ago

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i’ve never been as angry on behalf of a character as i am for sam winchester

#currently thinking about season four and five. absolutely fuckibg mental #the world literally reshapes itself around him to prove him wrong #its all framed as God. Sam was so stupid and selfish and reckless for drinking demon blood. He just liked the power of it and he chose a #DEMON over DEAN.#but. that’s not the story they tell in s4.#like even aside from every single other complexity. Sam is literally right. he has ZERO WAY of knowing that killing lilith is the final seal #AND DEAN DOESNT KNOW TJAT EITHER. like sam is literally right he can kill lilith and he does kill lilith. dean wants lilith dead just as #much. sam’s cardinal sin is disobeying dean and then the world flips around on him and plot twist sam and dean were both wrong all along and #killing lilith is what will bring back lucifer :)#but. it’s not framed like that either. it’s framed like SAM BROUGHT BACK LUCIFER BY KILLING LILITH WHILE HIGH ON DEMON BLOOD #dean you wanted to kill lilith too?????????#but. doesn’t matter dean despite being mostly motivated by jealous anger is retroactively proven to be Right #and sam is retroactively proven to be Wrong. he is bad #i just. jesus. sam’s not evil ever. he’s hardly even that fucking morally grey #and he still thinks there’s something wrong with him that he’s a freak that he’s inherently evil and needs to be purified #why?? cause of something fucked up that happened to him when he was a baby #and because he’s disobeyed his father and his brother and been angry at awful things that have happened to him #makes me feel fucking insane actually #no wonder narrative frames sam as evil no wonder he’s inherently marked as Bad by the forces in supernatural like even on a meta level #in supernatural gods just another shitty father. embodiment of the familial patriarch. and from sam’s very first moment on the show he’s in #opposition to that he’s ran away from john and he argues with dean. therefore he is evil #i don’t think my words r really making sense right now but. fucking hell #and sam is so swamped in guilt all of season five and he just fucking accepts that everything bad is his fault #and he gets tortured in the cage to save the fucking world and it’s STILL not enough. not to appease his own guilt and not to appease deans #anger at him. dean is still throwing his perceived violations back at him in like season nine!!#and whenever he tries to get out it’s treated as yet another Sin. narrative acts like sam thinking dean was dead and having a life outside #of hunting is The Worst Thing He Ever Did #worst sin sam ever commits in the eyes of the show is disobedience. Absolutely awful actually #spn #sam winchester

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mallevsmaleficarum · 7 months ago

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alright, since all important faculty members are evil, maybe augefort is the bbeg for senior year

#in the sense that-#lmao can you imagine #but if I say it now and on the off chance its correct that'd be funny #because really what was the deal with grix anyways?#and why does he collect evil doers and powerful cursed objects if not to do some fucked up wizard shit #fucked up wizard shit is what wizards DO #like he's morally neutral at best anyways you're telling me the bad kids aren't gonna have to stop some plan he put into action?#even accidentally- which has kind of already happened #it would be so sick and scary to see arthur augefort act with REAL malicious intention #he was indirectly responsible for every near calamity that has happened thus far....wait... unless????#how did jace and porter get hired in the first place?#i'm lowkey convincing myself now #I don't even think I want to be right but here we are #like the town of elmville is wildly different from the rest of spyre- why is that really?#he has the entire town protected by the school through a series of complex rituals with specific conditions- that somehow keep being met #idk if you told me it was some experiment or some long con at this point-#the only thing is I genuinely don't know what his motivation would be- thats what makes this so unlikely #if augefort was secretly the god of chaos maybe; or wanted to be- but I do think he could be a god already if he wanted to be #he's already powerful enough #my guy seems to genuinely enjoy creating chaos and exploring chronomancy and teaching children violence #so I think he's content the way things are #but hey #you never know #fantasy high #inner monologue of stupid #fantasy high junior year spoilers

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bumblingbabooshka · 8 months ago

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One of the best Voyager scenes to indicate Tuvok & Neelix's dynamic and how I think Tuvok is just as if not more 'annoying'(positive) than Neelix is when Neelix pours Tuvok a fresh squeezed glass of a fruit juice blend and Tuvok's like (paraphrased) "I don't want to drink this." and Neelix is like "Can you please try it?" and Tuvok's like "I don't want to, you're really bad at this sort of thing. It's going to taste bad." and Neelix says that Ensign XYZ said she LOVED it, she even had a second glass! And Tuvok says Ensign XYZ could drink poison without a second thought and Neelix is like "Tuvok could you please just TRY it? Just try a little SIP of it PLEASE??" and Tuvok sighs and rolls his eyes and sniffs it before taking a sip and it turns out he loves it. Turns out it tasted good actually. And then after all that Neelix tries to talk to him over eggs (which he's again cooking fresh for him) and Tuvok tells him he doesn't wanna hear "the life history of his breakfast." Absolutely insufferable this man I would have burned his eggs on PURPOSE!!!!

#I love Neelix so much and I think he and Tuvok are very funny together - irritating4irritating #People say 'Neelix is so pushy with Tuvok!' and you know what? I think Tuvok can handle it. I think maybe he does need to be pushed -#down a flight of stairs. (he's my favorite character and he's so annoying...TUVOK!!!!!)#Tuvok: -kicking and screaming- I don't want to drink the juice!!! It's poison!!! You're trying to poison me!!!!!!!!!#Neelix: Can you please drink the juice. The fresh squeezed juice I made for you Mr. Vulcan??? Can you please???#Tuvok: Fine but if I die it's your fault. If I die from the poison you're FORCING me to drink it's on y- Oh this is delicious actually.#and don't tell me 'Neelix didn't make it SPECIFICALLY for Tuvok' bc I know he didn't but he says #'I'll start squeezing that second glass!' after Tuvok finishes his sip so he IS freshly squeezing it #Neelix: -makes Tuvok fresh squeezed juice-#Tuvok: Are you trying to poison me???#Neelix: -talks to Tuvok while making his eggs-#Tuvok: Can you be quiet???#<- TUVOK!!!!!!!! I'M GONNA KILL YOU EHHEHEHEH <3 #Tuvok is the most annoying guy ever bc he doesn't care about what people think and is a snob with a lowkey superiority complex #vs Neelix is perceived as annoying (post his relationship with Kes) bc he cares a lot about being useful and helping the crew and sometimes #is too pushy because of that but listen...I think Neelix is sweet and genuinely trying his best - after the Kes plotline with him ends I #really don't find him objectionable. Just chatty & a bit overbearing maybe Meanwhile Tuvok !!!#Meanwhile Tuvok!!!!!!!!! HHEHEHHE #st voyager #star trek voyager #I think they should have done more with Neelix thinking the crew of Voyager were spoiled - specifically how Tuvok acts Like That sometimes #little lord Tuvok. oH SORRY...for DEIGNING to speak while preparing your eggs your HIGHNESS!!#I think people do a disservice to Tuvok by not talking more about how he's kind of a hardass and a snob v_v also a disservice to Janeway #indirectly bc her bestie is kind of a hardass and a snob and what does that say about her??#I also wish Neelix kept up a bit of that 'these people are crazy and also so soft oh my god shut up about the food being bad - we're trying #to SURVIVE!!! Eat the Leola Root!!' from the earlier seasons...I like when he shows he has a bit of bite #It's just funny and interesting that Janeway isn't friends with Tuvok bc he's 'not like other Vulcans' - she's friends with the most #Vulcany Vulcan ever and I love that for them.#CRIMINAL that we don't ever get any in-depth insight into their friendship #Tuvok

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moe-broey · 3 months ago

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Some. Sort of spectrum. From most likely to least likely.

And by kitten-pile I mean This

I'll put a transcript under cut for easier reading! ��

How Likely Are They to Kitten Pile?

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Mirabilis: "are you tired..? do you need a break...? ohh we could take one together..."

If she likes/trusts you even a little, she wants to cuddle about it!!!

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Sharena and Peony: "Okay! 💖 Yay! 💖"

Shari: The only thing stopping her is social conventions -- making her MORE likely to jump at the opportunity!

Peony: Learning social awareness as she goes, and is surprisingly good at it?

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Triandra: "Aren't we a bit old for that...? But... even so..."

Embarrassed, conflicted, but feels strangely nostalgic at the notion...

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Plumeria: "I'm not so petal-soft that I'd resort to such INDECENCY, I mean even if your intentions are Pure USE YOUR HEADS YOU FOOLS!! Girl, the IMPLICATIONS!!!"

Desperately wants to join the kitten-pile, but her Issues and Pride gets in the way.

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Moe: "aw, so cutes!"

Generally touch adverse, extremely picky even with the people it likes/loves -- everything is entirely on its terms.

#fire emblem #feh #STILL. DRAFTING. IT FEELS LIKE. concetualizing. ect.#but this vision was So Strong. and is honestly Such a way to parse each out.#like... mira craves warmth and comfort... i think she esp likes cuddling w peony bc it feels like a mother's touch #esp the discrepancy in body types i'm going w here. i really wanna draw them together actually...#meanwhile LONG. LONG STANDING HC. about sharena being v physically affectionate even touch starved #and having to learn boundaries the hard way. i also think a huge difference between her and peony actually #is that peony always had someone to cuddle with (mira!!). so peony never had to 'outgrow' it the way shari had to #which may have led to peony being a little more adjusted actually??? i also am v much playing w the idea #that peony is like min maxed. she's surprisingly socially aware/emotionally intelligent #BUT. she still has huge blind spots due to her seclusion and mostly only interacting w kid mortals (in the dream realm)#and i esp think she fails to see the complexity in situations. ect ect #triandra. boy do i have lore about triandra. but you can take a guess. i'll leave that up to you.#AND PLUMERIA. OH MY GOD PLUMERIA. i can just TELL she's going to be an EXTREMELY FUN chara to write #she basically writes herself. looking deeper beyond the obvious sex repulsion/intimacy issues #she's a stubborn jaded 'too cool for this' older sister. who is WAY more protective than she will Ever Admit.#LIKE... I AM THINKING ESP HOW SHE TREATED MIRA IN THAT TT SIDE STORY.#the way she was looking out for her. tri is absolutely plum's most trusted confidant and therefore #the person she's most vulnerable with. but even then. she's still protective of mira and i bet even peony if she had trouble #(granting. they're on the same side). AUGH AND ALSO THE WAY PLUM IS STUCK IN HER WAYS TOO....#I DON'T HAVE COHERENT THOUGHTS. but the way plumeria Is just resonates so deeply w me...#mirabilis #sharena #fe peony #fe triandra #fe plumeria #moe tag #summoner oc #my art

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frankensteinmutual · 6 months ago

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one of my housemates is so fucking sensitive it turns me into a person I do not like

#like i always thought /i/ was 'overly' sensitive but my god. you cannot say ANYTHING around her #every little thing is too much for her everything is a trigger everything makes her tell you it wasn't okay for you to say around her or not #warning her about first like my sister in christ how the fuck should i have known this was a problem for you #maybe print out a trigger list and send it to all of us or something #but breathing is probably on there so #truly i hate how i sound i don't want to be like this but she's just playing the victim so severely it makes me aggressive it's like. primal #and I don't care when she flees from the room all the time when we're just having normal conversations because honestly I'm glad when she's #gone but she projects her issues onto everyone and everything around her like she cannot comprehend that maybe she has a fucking problem and #should maybe learn to deal with the fucking world #people aren't horrible for simply existing around you being themselves like. ny god it just makes me so furious #like i am AWARE that i have deficits; things that are easy for other people or come natural to them that i have issues with and that's fine #I'm learning to live in my way #and i can still love myself and not blame myself for having these problems without turning everyone around me and the whole fucking world #into the problem instead #i don't know if I'm even conveying what i mean #it's just this fucking victim complex that's driving me up the walls #she sees herself as so innocent and actually she's treating people like shit #man do i wish i could smoke about this

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gay-caesar-truther · 3 months ago

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I need to draw Gabe in his New Vegas fit- its some priest vestments (I know they aren't in game I'm using my powerful imagination) with leather armor peices he took from his armored Vault suit over the top. Of course he still has his spiked knuckles but he also has a rifle with some rosary beads wrapped around the stock.

#can you tell he's clinging to religon as a justification for all the hell hes been through?#its an intresting guy because he needs something to believe in #and its not going to be himself #so its his mother's faith #does he beleive in God? he doesnt know but he pretends at least goes through all the motions plays up his devotion #he wants to be a man his dad would be proud of #and he was raised Christian so leans into it #he doesnt like talking about religon though #if someone were to ask about it he'd give the most basic answers and remove himself from conversation as soon as possible #he doesnt try to recruit because for him pleasing God (and his father) has brought him so much pain #and hes convinced hes damed to hell regardless so being devoted wont save anyone why so curse them with this burden #its both familair and safe and a burden that sits on his shoulders like a tonne of bricks #its one of the reasons hes got such a martyr complex #anyway if u read all this tags im kissing and holding ur hand as we skip through a meadow #oc: gabriel

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eldritchqueerture · 26 days ago

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#my father is such an entitled fucking asshole with a superiority complex sometimes #its such a small thing now but it just opened up years of repressed rage in me.#motherfucker thinks he can be passive aggressive to me like that. out here making himself feel better at my expense #and yeah of course he can. what the fuck am i gonna do to him #god im just so. fucking livid #after Years of making me feel stupid and inadequate. after i put in So Much Work into redefining my self-worth #but no he can do whatever he wants if i want to pursue academia cause he still supports me financially #and i. ghhh im just so fucking. ill see a glimpse of emotion in him and my empathy is in overdrive #so OF COURSE we have to help him with his stupid ass fucking endeavors to create a foundation or whatever.#OF COURSE i have to support him in his literal Theatrics and support his coming out and whatever. because OF COURSE #i have to support someone who is experiencing difficulty. even if that someone has done unimaginable damage to my entire psyche #(unintentionally but still)#i wish i could just tell him to fuck off and leave me out of whatever fucking bullshit he comes up with next but he thinks #we can bond over queer stuff like I wasnt the first one to come out in this family. like he could bridge over YEARS of emotional neglect no #and besides. he once called the savings my parents had for our college an “investment” that he would “hate to see wasted”#fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you #seriously. i cannot fucking believe we are related.#god. i think im gonna go cry a bit. fuck him and his entire fucking life.#delete later

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coquelicoq · 1 year ago

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a long shot i know, but if anybody happens to have a copy of the wall of storms (book 2 in the dandelion dynasty by ken liu) and is willing to send me a pic of two of the pages in chapter 7, please let me know!! the copy i got out from the library has a torn page, and though i can pretty much guess what's missing, it would be cool to put a note in there for the next person <3

#it's the third-to-last and the second-to-last pages of chapter 7 in the copy i have. pages 101 and 102 #starting with 'What do talent and wisdom have to do with the daughter of a poor peasant?'#and ending right before 'Perhaps it is the will of the gods that we meet‚ and who am I to deny their wishes?'#also i know i have some librarian followers so if any of you have opinions about what to do in this situation feel free to advise meee #should i tell the library that the copy is damaged? how? one time in the past a book was in such bad shape i actually rubber-banded it #and put a note under the rubber band. otherwise it would have fallen apart #and then i put it in the book return. but i feel like that's probably not the way to go most of the time #if i put a note in there with the missing words will the library notice and if so will they leave it in?#seems a shame to lose a whole copy when it's just this one page that has a problem #the dandelion dynasty #ken liu #the wall of storms #my posts #this series is so fascinating and i'm getting really into it but i do understand why there doesn't seem to be much of a fandom for it #the characters are complex and interesting but they're not blorbos #obviously that's very subjective but #in a way the characters themselves are not the point of this series. not sure if i can describe it

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milfronin · 1 year ago

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#vent post essay ahead lol #having complexes about talking about your emotions is literally the fucking devil . its miserable. it sucks so bad.#the aamount of damage that is caused to someone by like #i mean im talking abou t me here obviously.#being the person whose like. overall ultimately tends not to feel horrible as often is like.#it's nice not feeling bad emotionally all the time but also it's like. i develop this complex about being like able to help.#i don't feel bad anywhere near as often as my friends so i can help them out and listen to them vent i can have the mental room to #like listen to them talk about their problems. yeah. but it makes me feel like. well this is my job now so i shouldn't fucking talk about m #i shouldnt vent when i feel bad because that's not what i'm known for. plus my friends already all feel worse than me more often than me. s #i don't want to dump any more on their plate than they have to deal with. i don't want to burden them anymore than i have to. and like it's #it's hard. i hate fucking talking about it and it's made so much worse when its like people i love . always been a fucking problem becaus #i just feel fucking horrible admitting that i feel bad i hate that so much. i don't want to like turn away people who care about me but li #i feel like if i tell them what's wrong with me i'll like do it anyways. i feel like i come off as super normal and happy go lucky and like #ostensibly fine. so when i admit this shit its like. oops the facade is cracking!!!!!! uh oh uh oh you can't help people so you feel bad!!!#because your fucking npd has made you feel self centered in a way that means you want to help people or some shit i dont fucking know #and so when i feel bad or get mad over something unreasonable it's like. well i hope i fucking keel over and die or something i dont like .#i don't want people seeing me like this or whatever. and my stupid fucking personality disorder just ruins every god damn thing its so bad.#my past experiences giving me complexes that lead to me feeling fucking left out over like small stupid stuff but god the worst part is lik #my brain categorizing something as being ''My Thing'' so somebody else talks about liking my thing AFTER my brain has designated it mine #makes alarm bells go off and feel like theyre fucking. i don't know encroaaching on my turf or what the fuck ever? it SUCKS ASS #it makes me feel HORRIBLE . and it's like i'm not gonna fucking bring it up because i don't wnt to be like a dick but also it's like well.#i feel fucking miserable about this but it's just like mean and unnecessary and cruel to like stifle people's fucking fun because of my dum #fuckin complexes. it's fucking constant. like oh look at you girl you feel fucking left out because you never get characters who really gri #you mentally and so now you have one but oops! someone else talked about them and now you're seeing red! you like this person though #so you're gonna feel fucking MISERABLE about this . you're gonna feel HORRIBLE because of this. and there's nothing you can fucking do #and it controls my goddamn life and i HATE IT i fucking HATE IT i wish i knew how to fix it. ghghrgurghrughruhg i want to fucking explode #and then you feel bad about feeling bad because you are fucking sisyphus. you're sisyphus. and your own anger is your boulder. you ingrate.#i hate this. i just wanted to have a good day.#jane mary cry one tear

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attractthecrows · 6 months ago

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retconning stroud out of the deep roads so i can shove laure amell and the hawke siblings and varric and anders all into the same little camp. they would all have such a bad time

#carver: dying of blight. with an inferiority complex. but mostly dying #danie: MY BROTHER!!! MY BABY BROTJER HELP HIM!!!!!#anders: oh god oh fuck. wait a minute. i recognize this area. isnt this where the commander should be? oh hell #varric: we are all going to 🪦die⚰️ in a 🕳 hole. not even a GOOD hole #warden commander laure amell of ferelden and amaranthine: oh. anders. glad you're not dead or a darkspawn but Why The Fuck Are You Here #anders: oh hell. uh.#warden commander laure amell of ferelden and amaranthine: actually shut up. darkspawn incoming. its too open here so follow me to camp #'uh- commander-' 'shut it. there are shrieks about. this is a nasty area to be in with non-wardens' [glaring disapprovingly]#they awkwardly walk to camp. sigrun and a couple other wardens are there. they all sit down & drop their stuff #amell sits on a stump and pulls out a corked bottle. pops the cork. sniffs it. takes a swig. her white hair almost seems to glow?#she coughs then asks anders 'so why *are* you this far in the deep roads with a band of nonwardens? how'd you even get here?'#anders pulls out the map and hands it over. she looks at it. her expression darkens. she rolls up the map and says 'Anders.' he looks up.#she whaps him on the head with the map and gripes 'do you have ANY idea how long I spent looking for these fucking maps?!' whap 'you dick!'#she whaps him one more time then stuffs the maps into her bag. 'that still doesn't tell me WHY you're here. out with it.'#varric speaks up: 'my asshole brother locked us in a thaig. we came down on an expedition and found an idol that he betrayed us for'#amell frowns. 'a *thaig*? there aren't any records in the shaperate of any out this far. this isn't even a main branch of the deep roads.'#'it could be ancient!' sigrun offers 'or an unsavory secret the shaperate 'lost'. like Caridin?' amell nods & turns back to varric.#'so you're looking for a way out.' they nod. 'and just happened to come by this way?' anders says 'no commander- we need your help.'#amell takes another swig of her bottle. her hair is definitely glowing slightly. 'who *doesn't* these days. but for a pair of old friends-'#she winks at anders. 'what is it you need?' danie interrupts. '-please- my brother is sick- if you can't help him he'll die!'#amell looks at hawke then at carver. gets up and steps over to him. kneels in front of him and unceremoniously grabs his face #tilts his chin up (carotid + jugular blackened) peels his eyelid back (sclera greying and bloodshot) pries open his mouth (tongue greying)#then releases his head and stands shaking her hands. 'oh yeah. that's blight for sure. this is why you sought me out?' anders nods.#'we'll take him. but you know- he may not survive the joining.' 'any chance is better than letting him die!' 'i agree.' amell says coolly.#'youre lucky. we can do it here but the prep will take time. rest. eat. be on your guard. and DO NOT touch my whiskey if you're not a mage.'#it takes like a day of prep. also no one has used amell's name so they havent figured out the Cousins thing yet #eventually amell pulls carver over to the fire and hands him a cup of the joining potion and says 'you get one warning. *don't flinch.*'#he drinks it. he lives. but he's unconscious. amell sends the party on their way #to anders: here. i found this not long after you left. *hands him the phylactery* you and justice be careful. it's getting chaotic out there #to hawke: for what it's worth im sorry. if ever you need the wardens' assistance i grant it under the authority of warden-commander amell

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bo0zey · 2 years ago

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when gerard way said “when i grow up i want to be nothing at all” i felt those words in my gdamn soul bro

#cried alone in my car parked in my driveway for like 17 minutes #i feel so hopeless and useless and stupid so so so stupid i’ll never be smart enough like the other nurses #i can’t fucking think im too slow i don’t know anything #it’s the emergency room and god for fucking bid i have an emergent patient i don’t know wtf to do ever #i don’t know how to initiate protocols or contact interdisciplinary or put in complex orders i don’t know anything i’m so useless #everyone thinks i’m stupid i’ve been on orientation for like 2 months know and i’m still the same useless stupid novice airhead new grad #i just get so frazzled i feel like everyone expects so much out of me and i have to be perfect to meet their standards #but im stupid im subpar im not good enough like them like #ever if they’ve been nurses for years and i’ve only been working as one for legit 2 months it’s just i still don’t know how to do anything #it’s like i can’t think i don’t do things how they want me to do them and then i look stupid im the attending doctor thinks i’m so dumb but #she wouldn’t even hear me out like i know you want both fluids running i know it’s important but he only has.1 IV and they aren’t compatible #we’re trying to start a second IV and he had difficult veins like why are you trying to tell me i’m stupid i know why you ordered it thatway #it’s like nobody gets my dumbass brain but that’s not their fault bc they can think clearly and convey their thoughts to people without #sounding like a fucking dumbass i have no critical thinking skills im just useless i hate this so much i don’t want to be here it sucks #i never wanted to be a nurse i never wanted to be anything i was 12 years old hoping i’d be dead by 18 #and now i’m 23 and i’m still fucking here but it’s clear i shouldn’t be i don’t fit in im not fit for society #i should be euthanized like an unwanted dog that’s been at the shelter for too long that’s exactly what i am #20min later still crying can’t stop being a fucking crybaby pitypartying myself i’m the worst oh my god grow the fuck up already #why is everything so difficult for me why can’t i just fit in literally everyone knows i don’t belong #i’m the dumbest most useless new grad orientee and EVERYONE knows it even management it’s so embarrassing #i’m so embarrassed to be alive and take up space that could be filled by someone so much better smarter prepared someone meant to be there #i don’t want this i don’t want any of this i never wanted to grow up im just a kid in my head i’m so pathetic #i wish i was smart and good at something i wish people looked at me and thought o wow i respect her bc she’s also a good nurse #nobody likes me i’m such a burden to everyone the doctors my preceptors other nurses who deserve to be there #i’m leaking snot everywhere today wasn’t even that bad but i think it’s all just hitting me now how helpless i am #i’m so tired of myself and waking up and making a fool of myself every shift fucking stupid loser i hate myself i try so hard and it’s not #it’s not enough it’s never enough im not enough im an imposter i’ll never be as good as the other nurses even tho i’m really really trying #i seriously don’t want to do this anymore i don’t want to be here i can’t do it everyone knows i’m not cut out for this they all talk shit #ramblings

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autism-disco · 1 year ago

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music(als) (screaming)

falsettos specifically (screaming louder)

#fucking unlikely lovers aaaaehahaaaaaaa #the ending the fucking ending it’s such an unresolved chord like i’m not sure what cadence but it’s sure not perfect #and its fucking heartbreaking the the the #same musicals with the words ‘hepa hepa hepatitis hepatitis hepatitis?’ makes me feel such emotions #(and doesn’t ever leave me alone ever i swear to god)#this is why you don’t put music on shuffle because there’s no way i’m getting through dracula anymore #i’ll be normal later but right now william finn is literally exploding my brain #music is wild how can a fucking cadence make me tear up like that’s actually fascinating it’s just frequencies n that but it’s so complex #how is music what even is music?? music is pretty natural everything has rhythms and pitches and then we combine them to make melodies and #more specific pieces of music and it’s beautiful that we do that that there is literally music everywhere ever #there always has been there always will be it’s so important and can tell you so many things about so many things #sorry got a bit sidetracked from falsettos there but yeah. music i love music i like it a lot i really really do believe it or not

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trainingdummyrabbit · 2 years ago

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so fucking obsessed with kai demonanime because hes just this awful little man, completely committed to keeping himself alive at any cost, a complete deflection of anything that tries to reach out to him because of his skewed view of the way the world works, deciding that the world was inherently cruel and selfish and deciding to be Worse as a defense mechanism. and when given the choice, he completely doubles down on it, abandoning his humanity entirely in favor of the image of infinite power and praise from “the right people,” the ability to right “wrongs” he selfishly believes he is owed, and at the culmination of this horrible, borderline tragic arc... he just becomes a weird cat.

#kny spoilers #HES SO FUCKING MUCH BUT ALSO... HES JUST A PATHETIC LITTLE CAT BEAST.#GLORIFIED CATBOY WITH A GOD COMPLEX! SHRIMPLE AS!#its that dichotomy of this horrid ultimately self destructive spiral in someone who Was loved despite not really deserving it #this exploration of worth and power and whatever the fuck else he has going on #...but hes also the most pathetic little thing ive ever seen. hes so fucking funny. hes trying so hard to look scary #like you can TELL hes playing himself up. and also he looks like a weird cat! im sorry!!! its true!!!!!!!#pikramble #piktalk #i cant fucking stand him. he haunts me. hes awful. hes my favorite. goodnight #[long wistful sigh] there is something Wrong with this one

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starlight-storytime · 6 months ago

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bill would think neopronouns were one of the few decent concepts of humanity and his favorite pair to use is hy/hymn

nobody asked me my headcanons on Bill's weird alien shape gender but that's only because you didn't know you wanted to know

of course he has gold bricks and pronouns

#bc bill has that big ol god complex that's arguable justified considering he's a pyramid of dreams but 🥸#but that's just his favorite to use bc of the worship implications. there's probably be some other ones I'm not thinking of that r his fave #like for actual gender (pyramid?) reasons rather than the ones you put on in front of company #anyways.#can you tell this is also my favorite pair of neo pronouns #I think it's the only one I ever mention

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ganja-hq · 8 months ago

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Do u guys remember barbiegirls dot com©?? Do u remember how you only had premade sentences to use in chat unless you had a physical barbie girls mp3 player? That's what it feels like to speak English when you know German

#there's SO many german words that you'd need a whole sentence in english to translate #“hello do you want to be friends?” more like “SMASH??”#i was groomed online can you tell #ganja talks #also yes i had a physical barbie girls mp3 player and it gave me a whole god complex #my avatar has white and neon pink hair wbu?? oh just the standard blonde??? sucks to be you 💅#i have a little penguin in my apartment wbu? oh no pets??? sorry ur parents arent upper middle class 💅#imagine my shock when they added the subscription service part

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