#but this week has been hell
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i'm sorry
after you've taken the world from my hands? after you've broken me under promise of fixing me? I'm here to help, you whisper as you tear me apart and I'm tired, so tired, of this stupid dance of not knowing what part of me is not you but me, tired of having to mend my own heart and not knowing what I can fall in love with. accepting the bare minimum for all my effort and the torrents of hell for when it goes to nothing, too scared to say I'm finished, to take my words to the goddamned sword to carve my own spring living in fear of everything because if I talk too much I'm being rude but if I stay quiet I'm being dumb
and I'm only at the table when it's my turn to serve but I think I've realized being mediocre is no longer a choice and being outstanding is still never enough. I heard what you said, I did, I heard, but lately I've been trying to find my own voice and all I've done since then is screw up. I've grown but I haven't learned and I've changed, but for the worse stuck in the noise -- hoping that in my error you'll think my fault is my luck and I'm sorry, but I'm so tired.
#wrote this twice in a rant#so the structure is strange#but this week has been hell#and it's only tuesday#lyralit#creative writing#writers#writing#writerblr#writblr#poetry#poems
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Ep 3 AU in which Evan succeeded on his death save but lost his arm, so K made him a prosthesis while the group was still on Galamanis
#Teddy is helping :3#Evan's Shadow still has both arms and he is conflicted about that#initially K tried to make a high-tech automail kind of arm but eventually went with something that works and that Evan can actually use#pondering how the K and Evan fight would have been different if he lost an arm instead of died and was resurrected with both arms intact#misfits and magic#misfits and magic 2#mismag 2#misfits and magic 2 spoilers#mismag 2 spoilers#k tanaka#evan kelmp#art#went through multiple iterations on the shading and hatching and screentones but it slowly came together#I began drawing this after they left Galamanis and it looks like they are returning to Galamanis this week lmao#I want to know who the hell L.O. is#I also wonder what would have been the plan if Evan hadn't died#St. Dotto's works like the Galamanis hot springs - amplifying the healing the body already does - so Evan's arm wouldn't have regenerated..
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couldn't get it past your lips, could you? (aka the moment in the scene I knew pok was lying)
[ID: First image: a black and white digital drawing of pok gukgak sitting tied to a chair and bleeding from several wounds. we see him from the back. in front of him are two goblinoid but large demons saying, is there nothing you miss? do you regret dying? do you regret not seeing the life of your son? Second image: a sepia picture of a tiny riz sitting on pok's lap as seen from pok's perspective. pok is gently caressing riz's soft cheek with the back of his index finger. with his other hand, this one with a wedding ring on it, he's holding a big picture book that depicts a dog sherlock holmes. riz is grinning and excitedly pointing at the drawing with one hand while his other holds his dad's wrist to get his attention. outside the memory, pok is saying, i don't- i don't miss- and the words cut off. Third image: the drawing is again black and white. pok is back in the reality of being tied to a chair. he's staring forward with a blank expression, face battered, and saying, i don't know what to tell you. there are tears in the corners of his eyes. End ID]
#pok gukgak#riz gukgak#fantasy high sophomore year#fhsy#fantasy high#this has been living in my head for weeks and weeks#truly self indulgent as all should be#couldnt rly decide whether or not to make the first and third red but decided to leave it as is#i get a headache from red flashing back and forth#just imagine its there#fhsy spoilers#dan draws#that baby riz is immediately becoming my discord pfp see you all in angst and pain hell
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Thief! (Don't stop! 💙) [Shop]
#My art#One Piece#NamiVivi#One Piece Nami#Nefertari Vivi#NamiVivi reunion when Oda. WHEN IS IT HAPPENING ODA#I just. I wanted to draw cute girls. Let me be.#I dunno I love the way Oda sometimes incorporates phrases into his colorspreads and I kinda wanted to evoke that#But also I just did not want to draw a proper background. That's so much effort man#I just wanted to draw the lesbians I can draw backgrounds some other time#(Hell drawing fucking backgrounds has been all I've been doing on my shitty webcomic these past few weeks and I am. So fucking tired)#Anyway I absolutely loved drawing Vivi's silly expression that brought me so much joy y'all#The OP Brainrot is indeed. Still very real. Terminal in fact
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My copium where they all survive and they are an iconic one eyed trio
Also some random sketches because 266-267 have been killing me emotionally thank you
#genuinely how the fuck do they go back to society after this???#for how Megumi would lose his eye#I saw some really cool fanart a while ago where he got some scarring post-possession due to Sukuna's weird face thingy#Forgot where it was but I thought it was so cool#and wouldn't it be fucking hilarious if they all have one eye at the end of this#Hell if you wanna cope you could throw Gojo in there too with the eye theories#This should not be funny but it is to me sorry#Gege just mutiliating peoples eyes for some reason#As it stands Yuji and Nobara are matching in canon since he supposedly can't use RCT anymore#Unless he fucking dies before they reunite#I swear to god gege#bro has been throwing too many death flags#Yuji feels like a ticking time bomb every chapter I keep thinking hes gonna die every week#Any way happy sunday yall#jjk#jjk spoilers#jjk 267#jjk267#my art#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#nobara kugisaki#jjk art
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matthew tkachuk - florida!!! (also uploading on tiktok later, might be the first and last vid i'll ever post there lmao)
#he has endeared himself to me okay !#i've been in such an intense matthew brainrot#i did this for a week instead of studying up for my return demos#and while suffering an intense summer temperature averaging 45 degree celsius im in hell#anyway#please enjoy#this is baby's first fan video edit#matthew tkachuk edit#hockey edit#my edit#hockey boys#hockey#matthew tkachuk#florida panthers#mattdrai#<- just a hint of it#<- like a sprinkle only#<- i had to !#idk if i should tag the flames
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Shhhh stealth Wip while eveyone reblogs skrimp r bugs post again
#sorry ive been playing and replaying and drawing psychonauts for the past two weeks?#finished psychonauts and i love#this guy has such a fantastically strong silhouette actually all the characters do#psychonauts#wip#always embarrassing posting new fandom art ghhsjdj#Who the hell cares about these characters besides me and like five people ghhhhhssj#i do what i want here!!! and if I want to draw a lobotomized mad scientist dentist then I will !!!rawgghh#delete later#dr loboto#razputin aquato
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Battle of the Not It
Just me pushing my personal agenda that the Battle for the Cowl makes no freaking sense once again.
I want to see the Battle of the Not It, Nose Goes, Worst out of 126+ Rounds of Rock Paper Siscors Takes It, etc. Basically, the Batfam throwing down in Bruce's absence to Not Be The One Who Inherits (TM). No one wants dear dad's emo fursona but they all agree someone has to take it. The resulting Loser Gets Batmanned sibling war throws Gotham into chaos, Oracle's keeping score of everything, the one with the lowest score at the end of every week is stuck with Batman Duty the following week.
Damian hates loosing his swords everytime he gets stuck doing Batman. Tim can't stand losing his tech. Jason misses his guns. Cass hates having to talk on can't use words days. Staphanie hates doing the voice. Dick can't tolerate being unable to smile. Duke needs his freaking sleep. The list goes on because they've all agreed they hate to embody Bruce's Batman, no one can put their own flare on it (Gun!Batman will not happen on their watch and they won't risk any other equally horrible variation either.) The resulting sibling war takes place 24/7 in the masks and the criminals and citizens of Gotham are as awed as they are horrified by it.
The strangest alliances form and disolve week to week. Dick cheats whenever he gets close to loosing and dips out because "Bludhaven needs him." Cass flits off to China on a last minute mission when too many of her siblings start forming up an alliance against her. Steph breaks her leg (she says it's an accident but Tim has very vocal doubts about that). Tim, Duke, and Damien start teaming up against Jason frequently and Red Hood gets stuck doing Batman practically every other week. Other weeks, Jason picks one of them as Robin for his Batman week (rotating between them as revenge) and forces a temporary alliance to make another of them Batman for the next week. Alfred encourages the four's little rivalry and manages to finagle them into all staying in the manor full time with him.
Just Batfam bonding shenanigans over how much they all Do Not want to be Batman.
And when Bruce comes back Babs naturally has a highlight reel waiting for him. Some of the gems include: Steph in a cast with crutches say "oh no, I broke my leg, however will I be Batman now" in the most deadpan voice. Dick 'answering' an obviously turned off cell phone pretending it's an emergency calling him back to Bludhaven. Cass saluting the security camera as she leaves with a full duffle bag in the dead of night. Jason in the Batsuit, minus cowl, storming into the kitchen shouting "you little shits are conspiring against me!" As Tim, Duke, and Damien are crowded around the island with a bunch of documents clearing planning something. A heated game of Rock Paper Scissors between Dick, Jason, and Tim with the rest of the batkids watching (having already won their freedom from the cowl for the following week). Duke wearing the cowl and asking Oracle repeatedly over coms if it's time for bed yet. Damien throwing a full on tantrum trying to get out of wearing the physical cowl "it's unnecessary and impractical!"
Oracle sends him the reel a day after his return during the standard Justice League team meeting, helpfully projecting it so everyone can see. The reels starts with an argument in the Bat Cave between all of Batman's (previously unknown to the Justice League) children:
"Well, Dickhead, I guess this means you're it now." The clip starts with a red helmeted man speaking.
"The fuck?" Nightwing asks on screen.
"You're Batman now." The teenager with yellow bandoliers replies from where he sits in front of an enormous computer. A girl in purple and another in black both nod. (At this point, it begins to dawn on members of the Justice League that this is footage from the fabled Bat Cave they're seeing.)
"Oh, fuck that!" Nightwing answers. "Not it!" He shouts. The boy with the bandoliers jolts and then says seemingly reflexively.
"Nose goes!" Bandolier boy calls out hand shooting up and touching his nose as he speaks. Both girls and Nightwing react immediately following suit. A smaller boy with a sword copies them a half second later. The red helmeted man sputters.
"Wha-that-NO! NO NO NO NO NO! I am not the one! Fuck no!"
"You snooze you loose, Bro." Nightwings tells him.
There's a pause, red helmet starts laughing, pulls the helmet off slowly to reveal a red domino underneath, and lazily touches his nose with a sharp grin.
"You're right, Bro." He says teasingly. "And Signal's still sleeping." A short pause and then all the people on screen are laughing.
"Oh," bandoliers gasps out between giggles. "He is gonna be so pissed in the morning."
#batman#jason todd#tim drake#batfam#bruce wayne#dick grayson#duke thomas#damian al ghul#damian wayne#cassandra cain#stephanie brown#justice league#justice league meets the batfam#justice league finds out batman does not work alone#batkids#batfam shenanigans#no one wants the cowl#keep your emo fursona to yourself#gotham needs batman#battle of the not it#battle of the not it au#please?#🥺#i have very few spoons but i want to read this#this idea has been haunting me#for actual months now#crime alley is just watching red hood sulk everytime he has to be batman#like our poor little crime lord can't shoot people this week and we are sad for him! vibes#dick said oh hell no i cannot be emo and dipped#tim duke and damian all said 'we need an adult. look a jason how convient.'
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Vote.org just sent me a helpful email that "Election Day Is Tomorrow!!!!" and believe me, I have never needed to be reminded of anything less in my life.
#politics for ts#and we enter full time hell watch!#thanks i hate it#also somehow it has been 4 years since 2020#🫠🫠🫠🫠#godspeed to us all#may we emerge from this week slightly alive even if mostly dead#ughhgh this is gonna suck so hard
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Haunted car Au part 15
Previous. Masterpost
“Ok, then “car dude”. What the fuck are you doing and what did you do to Danny?” Red Hood demanded.
Danny wasn't sure to feel threatened by the Red Hood or appreciated over the fact that Jason had gotten the notorious Crime Lord Bat to look for him after only about a day and a half of being a car. He knew the other street kids trusted Jason with their lives, but to ask The Red Hood to find a missing kid was a bit much in his opinion. And while Danny trusted Jason (never with a bet involving stickers and Bat-Items again), he Did Not Trust Hood, especially when in the secret Batcave. He may be kidnapped, but that is better than death by Bats for intruding and finding out secret stuff. Danny was pulled from his thoughts when he felt a rap on the hood of the car.
“Hey, you going to give some form of answer? Or are you actually going to try to play dumb, cause I will take your wheels off.” Hood threatened again.
“Wait, did you just threaten the car equivalent to breaking his legs?” Duke asked, both amused and horrified. “Nope! We are not torturing a car in the Batcave!” Duke proceeded to try to drag Hood away from the Batmobile.
“Ge’ Off Glowstick. I need to know about Danny!-” Hood yelled while shoving Duke away from him, only to be interrupted by the car blasting the word “SAFE!” that sounded like a snip from a baseball game.
“Are you saying that Danny is safe?” Hood clarified.
It took Jason everything he had to not facepalm at the campiest “Ya!” he had ever heard. It reminded him of something from one of those sports themed Disney movies that Dick sometimes makes them watch.
“Ok. Where is Danny?” Hood asked.
Both Duke and Hood heard a sound clip of Ben Kenobi saying “Of course I know him. He’s me.” echo in the cave.
“Danny?” Both vigilantes asked, Duke in confusion and Hood in horror. This was answered with a “correct” dinging noise that was definitely taken from the Riddler.
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#dp x dc#dc x dp#dpxdc#dcxdp#haunted car au#ngl I only know it is Friday cause I had the house to myself#what month is it? what year? hell if I know anymore#this week has been a Time#short work week due to Labor day#and everything kicked off at work on a four day week#no thank you. please never again#can i sleep a week? that sounds nice#writing this as my dog is trying to herd me to bed#she is bestest girl#rambling over#Time to call in the big guns#aka the brain cell holder#after they calm down from finding out that a 14? 15? year old street kid is stuck possessing the Batmobile
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me omw to scare mormons out of a wendys!! 🍂🖤🍟
ootd from like 2 weeks ago and yes that really happened
#ootd#doodles#art#illustration#fashion#fall#autumn#autumn vibes#cozy vibes#self portrait#artists on tumblr#i havent done an ootd drawing in a while and i just wanted to Make Something#the mormons story: my friend and i stopped at a wendys and there were these two Stock Image Of Mormons dudes sitting at a table#and me and my friend are obvious gay and in different directions. you can tell we are Queers(tm). i look like This and he has#long curly hair and huge earrings. we are the poster children of what mormons prolly show kids and say 'these people are going to hell'#you'd think we had walked in holding signs that say WE LOVE GAY MARRIAGE AND ABORTlON with the way they stopped and started#muttering to each other while looking dead at us in the checkout line. like the entire time. and after a few minutes of whispering to#each other they pick up their food and book it tf out of the restaurant. still looking at us *as they go out the door*#it was so fucking funny. anyway then we stole their table#good! gtfo. i dont want cultists with my fries thanks#im glad my gay autistic aura is strong enough that i scare freaks like that by just Standing There thinking about a crispy chicken BLT#sounds like a 'and then everyone clapped' story but that really did happen to me and ive been laughing at it for 2 weeks now#what Isnt true is that i pulled a whole leaf out of my pocket. that shit was in pieces. and i dont know where it came from
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Ok I might need to rewatch the “History of Exandria” video, but I feel like “Matt has established that mortal life existed prior to the gods arriving on Exandria” is actually a MASSIVE change to the lore that was just casually dropped in 4SD?
#luck watches 4 sided dive#not main tagging this until I can get some clarity#because it’s late and work has been hell this week
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"I'm gonna kiss you now."
#dorym#critical role#critical role fanart#orym of the air ashari#dorian storm#bells hells#this has been sitting in my phone for two weeks cause i keep finding things i dont like about it but fUCK IT it doesnt have to be perfect#if i keep waiting ill never post it and Ive been trying to be more confident and less of a perfectionist so here we go!!#ADULT HALFLING for the love of everything.
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random assortment of doodles while i try to figure out how i want to draw them vol. 2
#cult of the lamb#cotl#narinder#the lamb#cotl narinder#cotl lamb#narilamb#my art#my tumblr has been broken for 2 weeks but I prevail anyways!!!#nothing is LOADING i miss the images let me out of gradient hell
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martha jones studies !!
#myyyy love how i missed oil painting#ibispaint i am never using you again 🫶 the sketches were fun but the painting ough it was hell#thank god i remembered i could switch apps to get the base down#but yess !! theee loml she has genuinely been getting me through these past weeks of uni insanity#dw#martha jones#dw fanart#faera's
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for something as trivial and simple those feelings sure are hard to get rid of
also made a gif a version for fun + alt version with no tears under the cut
the gif is in very low resolution...this is a feature (i could make it bigger but that would require saving each frame individually and than glueing it all together. also i feel like low resolution suits it better. aesthetically and fits the mood)
#hs#homestuck#dirk strider#eye strain#probably? if you think i should tag something else let me know!!#anyway hooray its time for rambling in the tags#so uhhh heres the teæ i've been sick for like a week and you know how it is when suddenly your throat becomes the main gunk warehouse#and you can't breathe lol. wish i could just pull it out. anywaaayy this is basically a vent piece for me being sick lol#also i could draw remotively the same thing with kris deltarune. oh how easy it is to project having a cold#though i have been also experiencing troubles with feelings recently as well....how fitting for dirk#speaking of the man himself (enough of me) his relationship with his own Heart...is peculiar to say the least#the thing i love about alphakids is that despite being so feral they were. so relatable. i cannot stress this enough how unwell they are an#and how they represented being a teen so well. yeah being 15 years old makes that to you#imagine being an emotional mess and trying to fit the 'norm' and act normal about your friends so youre not offputting#and then you fall in love with you friend and your ai clone falls in love with him too looool noone makes out of this one alive#uhh literally. godtiering stuff and dying remember#and speaking of it. tw for suicidal talk for the rest of tags#do you ever think dirk was suicidal. of course the part of when he teleports his head to jake was totally planned and he knew he would ->#wake up as dreamself but. don't you think the moment he cut his head off was sort of. cathartic. how much did he hate his own guts#beheading himself not only for the plan...but also because he thought he 'deserved' it#also wow he is a Prince and was literally beheaded don't you think its funny hahaa#sigh poor thing#this has ended on a not the very pleasant note hm#also fckkkkkk i didn't draw anything with rose/mary for the lesbian visabilty week#(putting the slash because tumblr search system has a dumb gag with showing you posts that contain the tag inside the other tag.#and i don't want this post to show up for the ros/mary fans because it's not!!!! its rose's father emotional crisis post!!!!)#update YOOOO WHAT THE HELL THE GIF HAS EVEN LESS PIXELS THEN I PLANNED fantastic#this your breakfast now tumblr. enjoy your crunchy flakes of dirks meltdown. mwah
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