#and me and my friend are obvious gay and in different directions. you can tell we are Queers(tm). i look like This and he has

[cozylittleartblog]

me omw to scare mormons out of a wendys!! 🍂🖤🍟

ootd from like 2 weeks ago and yes that really happened

[hvnlygrl]

hii can u do rafe cameron

can u pls do soft!rafe cameron or soft!jj maybamk where reader and him get into an argument and then he storms out and then the next morning reader gets her period, and when he comes home he just sees her lying on the bed eith a heating pad so he decides to make her a cookie skillet with nutella in it and ice cream on top of it and when he gives it to her she immediately starts sobbing and covering her face with the back of her hand telling him how shes so sorry and that she wished she never foughr with him and then he just comforts her and helps her eat while they watch a movie

i take it all back.

pairing — rafe cameron x fem!reader

word count — 1.3k

warnings — lotta cussing, reader gets a little mean, argument between rafe/reader, hurt/comfort.

synopsis — after a fight with rafe due to your hormones during that time of the month, he goes out of his way to make you feel better.

notes — sorry i kinda went in a little bit of a different direction with this i hope that's okay! but the general idea is still the same... thank you for the request! it's such a sweet idea <3

it had never bothered you before, the sound of rafe on his game in the spare bedroom, but for some reason the loud sounds of him on the headset with his friends were driving you up the wall while you tried to watch your show in the living room. 

you sighed out in annoyance when you heard him for what seemed like the 20th time in 5 minutes, “GO! WHAT ARE YOU DOING??? TOPPER GET HIS ASS!” 

you clicked the volume up on the t.v. in front of you, head beginning to ache from the loudness of the show mixed with the loudness from the game room. you were unsure of how to handle the situation. you didn’t want to ruin rafe’s fun on the game, and you surely didn’t want to start an argument with him but you couldn’t take it anymore. 

you paused the show, stood from the couch and stomped your way down the hallway. you didn’t bother knocking on the door since you knew he wouldn’t hear it, instead opening it as soon as you reached it. “rafe,” you called out. no answer. he continued clacking at the keys on the p.c., shouting orders at topper and kelce over the headset. “rafe,” you called out again, quite a bit louder this time. still no answer. 

at this point you were fed up. you were unsure of where the blind rage came from, but before you knew it you yanked the headset from his head. 

“what the-y/n? what the fuck are you doing?” he shouts at you, his eyes flitting back and forth between the computer screen and your angered expression. 

“can you shut the fuck up, dude? i’m trying to watch my show,” you grumble at him as if it's obvious. 

“woah,” he cocks his head back at your statement, “chill out.” 

now you’re really pissed. “don’t tell me to fucking chill out!” 

“babe, it’s not that serious,” he continues clacking at the keys on the game. 

“it is that serious. you try watching your favorite show and listen to me hooting and hollering from the next room. it’s fucking aggravating and i can't take it anymore right now.” 

rafe rolls his eyes. “i don’t know what you want me to tell you, y/n, it’s really not that serious. i’m doing my thing and you’re doing yours. you don’t see me busting through the door to get on your ass about the t.v. being too loud.” 

you can hear the oohs and ruh-rohs coming from the headset, only adding fuel to the fire. 

“oh my god, dude, can you just act like a fucking adult for five minutes? you don’t have to play fortnite every single night with your gay ass homeboys. maybe you could spend time with your girlfriend instead of being on the game from the second you get home until hours after i fall asleep.” 

“that is so not true and you know it, bruh.” 

“if you’re gonna play the game and not even interact with me, then just go do it at your own damn apartment. i’m not fucking dealing with this right now. i have a migraine and i don’t want you here tonight.”

rafe can't ignore the pang that shoots through his heart at your words. “seriously? you’re kicking me out?” 

“yeah,” you mutter softly before leaving the room and heading back to the living room. cramps begin overtaking the muscles in your stomach, only adding to your agitation. you breathe out shakily, your throat beginning to tighten as you watch him grab his bag and storm out. 

once the door slams behind him, a wave of guilt washes over you, your eyes watering as you smack yourself for kicking him out. all you wanted was for him to stop being so loud and now he’s on the way back to his apartment, pissed at you for embarrassing him in front of his friends and for sending him home.

you lie down on the couch, allowing the tears to stream freely as your thoughts get darker and crueler toward yourself. you sob deeply, arms wrapped around a pillow until you finally fall asleep. 

about an hour or so later you wake up, shuffling into the bathroom, you notice your appearance in the mirror; cheeks puffy and eyes swollen from crying. the sight only makes you feel worse. you sit on the toilet, letting out a harsh sigh when you notice the blood that pooled in your favorite pair of panties. after already feeling like a piece of shit both physically and mentally, here was mother nature three days early, ready to screw you over even more. 

you couldn't help but tear up again at the inconvenience, suddenly realizing what happened tonight. you wanted to slap yourself for being so stupid and not noticing the signs, but you knew that it was too late now. after heading to your bedroom to find a new pair of underwear and shorts, and spotting the dirty pair before throwing it into the wash, you head back to the living room. 

your heart beats in your throat as you pull out your phone to text rafe. 

after the conversation with him you felt a lot better about the situation, but you were still feeling pretty upset. you rummaged through the kitchen, checking the cabinets and the fridge and freezer for any type of food that would satisfy your cravings. of course, you had absolutely nothing that would help. you sighed as you shuffled back toward the living room, opting to just lie on the couch and watch your show until you fell back asleep. 

you knew the thought was dramatic, but you couldn’t help but wonder when your life turned into this; alone in an apartment that was too big for you with nothing you wanted and no one to share it with. 

and then you heard a knock on the door. despite it being his signature knock, you couldn't stop yourself from checking the peephole, heart fluttering when you saw the blonde on the other side of the door.

you quickly opened it, a soft smile on your lips. “what are you doing here?”

“did you really think i was gonna let you be alone on night one?” rafe raises a brow at you before revealing two grocery bags he’d been hiding behind his back. he had made a run to the local store for all your favorite sweets, chips, icecream, drinks, and anything else he could think of. he even bought you a heated stuffed animal that could be thrown into the microwave and used as a heating pad.

“baby,” your lips curl down into a frown, eyes watering at the gesture, “you’re too nice to me.” 

“of course i am,” he chuckles as he sets the items down on the coffee table, “you’re my girl.” 

you watch in awe as he grabs your favorite cup, fills it with ice and pours your drink into it. then he grabs the stuffed turtle (your favorite animal) and heads to the kitchen to throw it into the microwave for a couple minutes. 

“get comfy, babe,” he calls out to you, “get your show set up, do whatever you gotta do.” 

you smile at him sweetly. “you didn’t have to do all this, rafe.” 

“i know,” he shrugs nonchalantly. “i wanted to.” 

“thank you,” you whisper when he brings the warmed turtle over to you. you moan happily when you stick it onto your lower abdomen, the sensation immediately easing some of the pain. “i don’t deserve you.” 

“sure you do,” rafe huffs as he kicks his shoes off and gets comfy next to you, “how many times have you taken care of me? saved my ass without me even thinking to ask you for help?” 

you nod, “yea, i guess you’re right. i’m sorry about what i said earlier baby, i take it all back.” 

“don’t stress,” he holds his hands up, “water under the bridge, my girl.” 

you smile at him, admiring his features before turning your gaze back to the t.v. and snuggling in closer to him. “i love you.”

“i love you,” he parrots back, hand rubbing at your lower back in the spot that he knows typically bothers you. 

-> back to masterlist

taglist — @lanasb0ngwater

[hauntingjasper]

Well, in many comics and even episodes of AT Fionna was shown having a crush on Gumball.

I wonder if he ignored her or just didn't understand her somewhat obvious signals.

How did it end? Was it like Princess Bublegum with Finn? She gave up when she found out he was gay???

I imagine Cake as the good friend who is trying to help, but fails miserably lol

I wondered if Marshall got jealous watching that...

Well... tell us your head canon

Bahafhhfaskha I love this ask

Honestly I haven't put too much thought into that, mainly because I tend to forget that Fionna also had a crush on PG lol Her crush on him just seems to be less intense to me idk (⁠・⁠∀⁠・⁠)

I did think about keeping that aspect of their relationship tho, just because I thought it was sweet. My version of Fionna isn't a child so I don't worry too much about their age gap

Gumball is just... Gumball. I think he'd be oblivious at first and compare her behavior to the candy people's, they're also kinda clingy and cherish his attention, so he thought she was just seeing him as someone she can rely on.

Not sure how she'd put out those feelings.. Maybe Gumball starts gently rejecting her advances once he finally realizes she might have a crush on him and Fionna just accepts it (aka she cried on her pillow later but she's good), maybe she drops the idea after Gumball temporarily becomes a child (Tiny Gumball I miss you) and she spends enough time with him while she's a young adult for her feelings to change direction, or maybe Gumball says something that makes her see him in a different light, whether it's about his sexual orientation or something she didn't know/didn't realize about him in general.

Cake trying to help is really funny, she'd basically do what she did in the first Fionna and Cake episode, but after failing so many times and almost pulling her fur out at how oblivious Gumball is, I like to think she'd take a better look at him and go "this guy is definitely not straight". Gumball can be pretty private about his life so he wouldn't clear it up right away, nor would they ask right away, they'd just go back and forth with their own assumptions while Gumball is just there making pastries.. plus Fionna's gaydar sucks

And Marshall Lee… This dipshit is looking her straight in the eye and going “yeah you go girl you can do it 😁” just to have a laugh. He actually used to feel jealous, though. I hc that before they became friends, Marshall didn't really like Fionna because of how close she was becoming to Gumball, but Fionna hated his guts too back then so they're even 👍

Now that they're friends, he just finds this situation hilarious

Here's a doodle of them for you bc I adore them sm I hope Fionna and Gary get to hang out more on season 2 🥹

[shakesthewizard]

Now I want to know some of your polycule dynamic ideas for the bad kids???

This is a dream come true, okay walk with me

Let's start out with a couple of what I would consider fundamental pairings. In most any configuration of the group you can think of, most if not all of these are gonna be necessary for me to really get invested.

Fabriz. Duh. Need I say more.

Fabadaine. It's my fucking roman empire and I WILL go on about it for another thousand words if you ask

Figadaine. Support women's wrongs! Going shopping! My girlfriend is a rockstar and we make out backstage! My girlfriend is the elven oracle and we make out twice because she has a vision of it happening first!

I've also got some pairings that are nice on their own, but that I don't find like, mandatory if you're gonna sell me on something.

GorgugxFig. She's so loudly angry to hide her fear; he's so quietly scared of his own anger. She made him join her band and he's probably the better musician. They're so nice to each other.

FigxKristen. Fall into temptation. Make out with the devil on your shoulder. She helps you kill your god. She becomes your devoted paladin. The ArchDevil of Rebellion pulls you into a cosmic war against the very divinity you were the Chosen One for.

Now as for larger groupings, things get pretty fun. There are so many to choose from. Like for example:

The Bad Boys. Like as a throuple. Think about it. You're the cool son of a famous pirate; you're already kicking ass at bloodrush; youre hot shit. A metalhead and a briefcase kid latch onto you like barnacles. This is so embarassing. Cut to a month later and you're all on a rooftop sharing a cigarette and looking at the stars. The briefcase kid kisses you, and metalhead is next in line. Briefcase kid is also your best friend, even without the insane new tension and the fact that he can dismantle your coolguy persona with seemingly no effort. He tastes like burnt coffee. Even ignoring how metalhead can crack skulls, but treats you with gentleness and even hesitation, like he's afraid you'll turn him down. As if. His bangs get in the way when he kisses you.

The Bad Girls as a throuple. This one feels almost too obvious for words. Three girls who are all trying so hard and failing to be normal, but from three different directions. Imagine one day seeing the uptight wizard girl with rich parents and girl who tried to convert you to fantasy mormonism on her first day both walk into school one day holding hands with that punk girl who's in a band and who has already turned like six other students gay just by being cool and pretty. Then at lunch, they're all sitting together, and the elf and the cleric both have the bard's lipstick on their lips and cheeks. The cleric looks at you. She winks. You go home confused.

Figaydadaine. Figayda I don't have to sell you on, but you can't tell me Ayda and Adaine aren't so fucking cute together it hurts. They make spells for each other! Adaine has the key to the Wizard's Synod! Adaine killed her dad with Ayda's spell. Come ON, this shit writes itself. Honestly Aydaine is so good by itself

There's also an extended world of qpr among the bad kids - Rizdaine would be a great example of this. I don't think of them as a Couple, but they are SO close and there's so much trust and intimacy there. That's a pair that cuddle while watching movies or doing mystery stuff.

qpr FigGug is another great possibility. Just take all the sweet support and kindness they already have and pry out the romance.

I think if you pitched me another pair/group I could find something interesting about it, but those are my off-the-dome thoughts. Thanks for asking!

[writing-write-now]

i’m personally not pro choosing sides (Stolas v. Blitzø) , but those who are I think are overlooking some things….

Season 1 Stolas is basically an entirely different character, based on multiple factors. I want to be very clear, he has some very obvious Imp Racism moments— i am not denying that. He was also originally penned in the pilot and first episode to be a main series antagonist. Season 2 Stolas is in a completely different mindset. Look at the line, “I will try to make amends for making you means to an end.” From just look my way— this is a direct acknowledgment of his actions. He still has a lot to learn about inherent power imbalances in relationships, and Blitzø deserves an apology for a lot of the comments Stolas has made. Specifically in New Moon once the argument is started and in Apology Tour when he yells about how gay Stolas’ feelings are,, Blitz doesn’t exactly set the stage for Stolas to apologize. Leading me to believe it is something that will come later. (Personal Theory, Stolas tries to make Ars Goetia friends i.e trailer royals, and recognizes their inherent prejudice— wishful thinking?)

And to the Blitzø haters—- We have no idea about a gigantic gap in his timeline. We have no idea who else he was involved with while working at Loo Loo land. New Moon gives the impression that he’s slept with “blue-bloods” before. Maybe he’s just referring to Fizz’s bad deal with Mammon—- but we know a lot more about the timeline of sheltered Stolas’ princely woes and little to nothing about Blitzø’s in-between Circus Fire—Loo Loo Land—IMP business. Blitz has every reason to hate himself, i mean Apology tour hits the audience over the head with that fact. I have a feeling he hates himself more than we can even recognize. Hurt others, hurt others. He had every right to believe that Stolas’ and his relationship was nothing more than sex.

I will literally shout this until the cows come home— STOLAS HAS NEVER BEEN TO BLITZØS APARTMENT!!!

he hasn’t seen the physical manifestations of Blitzø’s hatred for himself. He cannot stand to see a picture of himself smiling on a wall, because Blitz fully believes he deserves to never be happy.

We also know that Stolas directly has a voice that “says he’s not enough” from his abuse with Stella. Due to Blitzø’s timeline gaps we have no way of know if his self hatred is compounded by existing trauma— or did someone tell him he didn’t deserve happiness and internalized it.

At the end of the day Brandon has said they know exactly where the characters are headed, and if you don’t trust Viv, trust him. Because no one can take from me the most fantastic enemies to lovers he ever wrote— (Tankthrust/Bobby Worst)

Idk i just don’t see the point in choosing sides—- if one of them “wins” are the characters really happy? Do people ��win’ in real adult relationships…

[kanmom51]

Felt like I had to bring this back

Please forgive me @juliapark13 for hijacking your post, but I just had to, it being the perfect example of not only how stupid people are, but also of how there is no problem for people to make assumptions as to the members sexuality when it's about assuming they are straight. It only works in one direction though.

This ask:

And this post linked:

Because, I too feel for either of their non existent girl friends, former (past 7 years), present or future.

With all the noise about the word girl maybe or maybe not being in a snippet of a maybe JK song on his maybe album, I thought it fitting to bring a few posts back.

All part of my hardcore expose proving once and for all that, you guessed right, JK ain't gay.

RB - the Jikook conversation transcript.

Hickey-gate.

It's true. They have been covering for each other for years.

JK ain't gay pt. 1

JK ain't gay pt. 2

JK ain't gay pt. 3

JK ain't gay pt. 2 of pt. 3

And if talking about the gf...

I'm guessing that now with this shit circulating it's time for a part 4 of this expose then, right? I mean the word girl in lyrics to his song (maybe). That would surely mean he's straight, right? Cause Ricky Martin is 100% straight, always was.

Wait, he's not?

But surely he was when he was singing:

"Woke up in New York City

In a funky cheap hotel

She took my heart, and she took my money"

No?

Shite.

Could it possibly be that a queer artist sing a song with lyrics that have zero to do with his own personal life? Could it be?

Could a queer artist create art (song, dance, paintings, acting etc.) that has nothing to do with his sexual orientation?

And now I'm being dead serious. This is total bull. Of course queer artists create art that is not necessarily personal. Queer singers singing songs about loving women, queer actors playing roles being in love with a woman all while they are gay. Queer artists painting women.

Now about this song snippet specifically:

We don't know if this is an actual song or perhaps a guide song.

We don't know what he is actually saying there (I've literally heard so many different versions of it, some with girl some without).

We don't know the full lyrics of this specific song.

We don't know if this song is on his album.

We don't know what this album consists of, how many songs, how personal it is as a whole, who wrote the lyrics to some or all of his songs.

We just don't know.

If the song or songs on his album have female pronouns and talk about love and attraction to females, and if JK tells us the album and all songs on it are personal to him, only then will people be able to come around to our blogs and claim some sort of proof that JK might be interested in women.

But does that rule out him being queer?

Heck no. Cause you know, bisexual is a thing. Pansexual too.

But there is no talking to these people. When you are a brainless moron it's hard to understand that love is love is love. You also can't possibly see what these two have been up to for the past 7 years or so. You can't see, you can't hear everything they've showed us, told us. What a kick in their gut it was when JK came live in the past couple of months with JM on the mind. And what a kick in the gut it will be for them if we have a Letter like song on his album. Here's hoping. Yes, that's me being as petty as fuck.

[storiesofsvu]

This thought ran through my mind today and I would like to know your thoughts on it:

So, if the law and order universe was like Grey’s Anatomy (I feel like everyone is dating/sleeping with everyone in that show) how would the pairing history be of the characters? 👀🫣💕

You don’t have to answer ofc 💕 and you choose which characters to include, as in you don’t have to bring in every single main/recurring character from the shows 😅🫣💕

omg lolol! everyone *really is* sleeping together/dating on Greys, its fucking insane. (although, you work in one place long enough it's bound to happen anywhere.lol)

This will likely get long, so it's going under a cut. Also it will very likely get chaotic. There will be lots of ships, a variety of characters and lots of crossing over. don't hate me if your faved ship isn't here... I also will likely just list all the canon ones down at the bottom and not delve into hc's about them.

omg now i have to try and not forget anyone LOL. so we're gonna start at the beginning.

Starting with an obvious Alex Cabot x Olivia Benson:

these two had chemistry, they flirted, they had lingering looks and touches. They had some form of relationship over s2-5. They definitely slept together, and had a lot of conflicting emotions as they tried to figure things out. I'd like to think that they were dating and in the midst of talking about making things official/taking it to the next level right before Alex got shot. They had no choice but to end it to keep Alex safe and by the time she got back in s11, things were different, weird, Alex wasn't the same person she was before and wasn't in the same place. They do try and go on a couple of dates after Alex has settled, but it's more of a "lets get this friendship back on track" because woof the girls be *fighting*

Casey Novak x Elizabeth Donnelly

it wasn't what either of them expected, when Casey transfers into SVU Liz is her direct supervisor. It's not *wrong* but it's also a little on the shady side when it comes to breaking the rules. Which is exactly what pulls them together more. I think Liz sees a lot of herself when she was a baby prosecutor in Casey. She wants to protect her, esp after Alex has been "killed". This is proven by not once, but TWICE Liz steps down from the bench to defend Casey in court. They're fiery, it's a mentor/men-tee relationship that likely spurred into a sexual one somewhere along the way. It's also VERY likely that Liz helped Casey figure out her sexuality. Liz was married before, but is in the age range that gay marriage was wrong when she was growing up. Casey we know was brought up very catholic. So homegirl doesn't even know what's going on in he head, and after Charlie, she's not sure she wants to date a man again. Liz helps her figure that shit out, and likely guides her through a couple of sexual experiences and they kinda keep things going from there on. THEN in s9 we obviously see the absolute demise of their relationship. I still believe that Casey only returned to the DA's office after hearing that Liz retired. BUT, Liz had her called before the bar to SAVE her career and license (as McCoy earlier said he would yank her license if she fucked up again in Blinded)

It was supposed to be/actually was more casual with Liz, but because she was Casey's mentor, Casey valued her opinion of her a lot higher than she would have otherwise. Their emotional side of their relationship was very foggy and lines scrambled because of that kinda thing, if that makes sense?

Casey Novak x Melinda Warner

definitely dated. Melinda wants to protect her girl, they're bad ass crime fighter, break a few rules to do what's right. There are a few cases/episodes where you can tell they're definitely hanging out. I like to think that it had pretty good potential, but they just figured they'd be better off as friends. And again, casey disappears after her suspension.

Elizabeth Donnelly x Lena Petrovsky

you cannot tell me these two have not fucked

Chester Lake & Casey Novak

these two didn't have anything happen sexually, but he was definitely crushing on her (can't blame him) and i think she accepted that dinner offer, but made it clear it was on a platonic base only. I think these two had such intertwined arcs across s9 that they definitely hung out a few times after work and I like to think that Casey goes to visit him in prison every couple of months (at one point i had a fic idea about that but i can't remember details now. LOL. maye it will return to me)

Dean Porter x Olivia Benson

While i don't think they actually ever managed to fuck. I really think they had the best chemistry out of all the toxic dick choices that were available to her.

Dana Lewis x Olivia Benson

They fucked your honour. Even Calvin knows they have "this your girlfriend?" like.... cmon...

Alex Cabot x Casey Novak

the ever favourite and popular ship despite only having one episode together. Now, in the "real world" these two likely would have known each other prior to alex's death, they would've worked in the same building, same social circles, hell they would've been at school at the same time. They're technically sharing the da's office in s12/13. Which is the prime time for their relationship. Alex is back in NYC, she doesn't really know how to be herself, she's not sure if she can/wants to do the job that almost killed her. She's unsure of herself, on shaky legs persay. Casey's waiting out her suspension, unsure of what to do, and if it's worth it to keep fighting. They somehow run into each other and that's when it all starts. They're both lonely, a little lost, don't feel like themselves anymore kinda thing. They find solace in each other, comfort, a sense of belonging. This is one of my fave ships for Casey, because it truly does have amazing potential. They date, it's serious, likely living together. I think they stick it out when Alex goes to the congo, but when she leaves the da's office again to do vigilante shit, they break up. Not that Casey doesn't support her decisions, they just know they have to go their separate ways.

Rafael Barba x Rita Calhoun

obviously they go on this list. They are a divorced couple who were never married. Whether they dated in college, or shortly after being back in NYC, it happened. Hell maybe it did actually get serious and that's why they know each other *so* well. But they just don't quite fit together long term. Rita spoils too much, Barba finds it overwhelming. (however when things open up to poly, I think they could definitely work) They remain really good friends and I'd honeslty believe they have a "50 and still single" pact kinda thing and are known to still hit each other up for sex because they know it's good and there's no annoying legwork of having to pick up someone new.

Rita Calhoun x Olivia Benson

Now, these two were never going to be endgame and EVERYONE knows it. It was never even a relationship. A couple nights here and there when they were both stressed and needed a relief. It's very likely far before Noah comes along, and Rita is very upfront about her views on children. It's more that they're friends who Olivia enjoys doing different things with that like, Cassidy won't do with her

Rafael Barba x Sonny Carisi

in the world where things make sense, Rafael would have likely been mentoring Carisi through his final year at law school, letting him sit second chair or do more help on the law side of case work with him. One ep of that was stupid, it shouldve been way more. I like to think that somewhere in one of those late nights, a couple glasses of scotch, there's admittance of "you know i don't actually hate you" "oh i know, you tease out of admiration" kinda thing that leads to a little more. I can see them actually dating, but I can also see it just being casual, cause Sonny still has heart eyes for amanda the entire time. Whatever they have going on obviously drops off the face of the earth when Barba leaves.

Rita Calhoun x Amanda Rollins

now this one, is a handful of hook ups and nothing more. Amanda is too chaotic for Rita, their worlds also don't collide very well. Amanda's more likely to be found smoking in some dive bar and avoid the high end places that Rita likes. I like to think that this happens somewhere between Amanda x Nick, and early s17 when Amanda finds out she's pregnant. i DO also believe that Rita kinda keeps her under her wing a bit, encouraging her to cut off her family, let her know if she ever needs help with things (and of course amanda is too stubborn to ever ask for that) but in moments where like, kim has fucked her over, yet again. Amanda finds some anonymous donation and it's like, this unspoken thing between them because you also can't say no to Rita.

William Dodds x Olivia Benson

again, they fucked your honour. and even if there were never officially "dates" they would regularly use each other as plus ones to events that they had to go to for work.

Rafael Barba & Olivia Benson

it never happened, but i had to include it. It was a constant "will they wont they" likely even with money down on it from the squad. They deeply care for each other, love each other, but can never quite figure it out. They're also both so fucking stubborn and there are times when they both have sticks up their asses and hold grudges, neither ever willing to admit defeat or apologize and they know that wouldn't be a healthy relationship.

Rita Calhoun x Casey Novak

my beloved.

these two are a ship that i will die for. It's one of if not the most solid relationship Casey has ever had. They might be endgame. While there's a chance that they would have crossed paths earlier on, they don't really start to pay attention to each other until post suspension/alex leaving.

They might have a case against each other, Casey might be finding prosecution a little stale for herself now. She wants something more. She was so intertwined with alex before that now that she's off pursuing something more, she feels the need to do the same, even if it's within the legal world. Enter Rita, where she can learn about working defence, but not necessarily criminal defence, ya know?

They end up complimenting each other super well, it's the prime golden retriever x black cat, and the smol/tall vibes, which is always hilarious because casey has like, four inches on rita. So i see them in a long term serious relationship.

Kat Tamin x Pippa Cox

Pippa's nervous post hank bs, simply returning to NYC is hard enough, but she finds this solace in Kat. She wasn't around for the whole thing so she doesn't have the subconscious judgment that a lot of other people have. Kat's great with the kids, she's got lots of energy and she's absolutely going to *worship* pippa. Pippa's also likely going to wean her onto a healthier eating style cause Kat is known to crush two pizza's and a litre of pop for dinner kinda thing. Endgame material.

Peter Stone & Sonny Carisi

now, these two haven't directly hooked up. it's not Peter's style. BUT, they've definitely had a few threesomes together with another girl. there's no doubt in my mind.

Kat Tamin x Grace Muncy

these two have hooked up. kat is a daddy. grace is a brat. it just works. they were probably casual fuck buddies/fwb's for a while.

Grace Muncy & Tonie Churlish

they've either hooked up, dated, or mutually pined for each other up until Grace left. I'm in the midst of rewatching Grace's eps so I'll get back to you. lol

Joe Velasco x Grace Muncy

i'm not saying i ship it. I'm saying that these two have this teasing, bantery sibling ISH relationship, and they're likely each other's wingman's more often than not. BUT, there was probably at least one super drunk night that they don't really remember but they woke up together and basically never talk about it.

Samantha Maroun & Rita Calhoun

I can lowkey see a couple of dates here, but it ending up not leading any further than friends. They've both got really good style, Sam wears a lot of colour similar to rita, they probably shop together and i think they'd get along really well.

Honorable mention to Joe Velasco x Amanda Rollins

because if they had met any earlier? they would've hooked up. even just once. they had good chemistry when they did meet and I could see it happening, but she was obvi already with Carisi

I know I must be missing a couple. And there's probably characters I've forgotten about, or not included in this, or just don't have any thoughts about. Also not including any canon ones cause we all know the canon ones. There's also LOTS of other "omg they'd be best fucking friends" that i skipped over cause this was more relationship based. (like, casey, dodds, carisi, kat and grace all have chaotic golden retriever vibes)

Could potentially see Grace x Bobby(?) from OC being a thing, but i can't remember if he's got a gf/wife or not because I clearly don't pay attention when I watch that show lol.

Thank you so much for this ask bestie!! I hope this wasn't too much detail LOL.

Now I'm going to spend the rest of the night thinking about svu x greys anatomy crossovers and who would've slept with who and that is going to be a fucking large list and I'm already thinkin it's a daunting idea LOL.

[meikuree]

daffodil, ivy, nutmeg!

daffodil ⇢ do you have siblings? if yes, in what ways do you think you’re similar to or different from them?

I'm the cooler sister... jk. the common line in my family is that I'm my dad but a girl, and my sister is my mum but whip-smart -- so she's ambitious, entrepreneurial, and social where I'm mellow, dependable, studious, and 性格开朗/温柔, based on what my mother says when she's feeling complimentary though I'm 90% sure that's another one of those family fictions parents spin up to propel and encourage their children. then the obvious point: I'm gay and my sister afaik has never identitifed as anything other than straight? !! also fairly sure she prefers m/m whereas I read/write almost entirely f/f, which is a handy division to make sure I never run into any secret fanfic she's written in the wild.

similarities: we're clumsy, bad with directions, and have close enough fashion tastes that I can borrow old clothes and makeup off her sometimes rofl. and my sister used to work as a model, which has probably bled into me being an occasional tryhard with dressing and presentation myself, #genderisaperformance.

the more fundamental bit I suppose is that we had a gifted child/black sheep dynamic as children that structured our identities -- I was considered the, uh, intellectually inferior child by teachers and adults around because my sister was accepted into a very selective and tbh eugenicist government programme for the best 1% of students in each cohort. we've bucked this trend now because by some metrics I've outperformed her academically, but neither of us care much about that and it's a relief really, as I think she'd also agree, to be defined by more worthwhile things as adults.

ivy ⇢ what are your ‘tells’ for your emotions and moods? how can someone tell you’re happy, annoyed, upset or tired?

ok, good question, I AM NOT SURE myself beyond the typical things like being visibly grumpy, not being as talkative, or becoming easily distracted and listless while tired. when I'm stressed/upset I need back rubs, to hold onto a pillow and start drinking lots of tea and forgoing meals

nutmeg ⇢ how’s your room/home decorated? do you have a specific theme or style going on?

not really :( renting atm which limits our decorating freedom, but I used to display some of my art on my walls including life drawing sketches and I have a bunch of art prints and cat illustrations displayed. I have internalised nerdphobia to borrow a good friend's phrase so I haven't made the leap to displaying merch or fannish trinkets

thank you for the questions!

(get to know me ask game)

[witch-apologist]

Absolutely what is stopping Taylor Swift from coming out at this point? She's explicitly said she's straight and it's weird that people keep insisting she's not. I just don't understand holding onto things from over a decade ago as evidence. It seems very much grasping at straws, which is what that post is trying to tell people like you.

She has quite literally never once labeled herself or "said she's straight" y'all decided that for her and read everything she says to match that assumption. Meanwhile what y'all throw at me time and time again is either completely out of context or literally something I have known many queer ppl to say. If you can find me any instance of Taylor Swift actually saying the words "I'm straight" I will change my icon to a picture of a clown. And if you find me anything with those words , and it has to be that not something that can mean something else too. Post lover era I'll make my banner a circus.

Aside from that do you know how many NOW OUT QUEER PEOPLE called themselves straight at one point? I'm an entire lesbian and I once called myself straight, we learn things about ourselves as we grow. Like when Taylor said Untamed by Glennon Doyle (book about overcoming comphet) was really helpful to her.

Until then fuck off with "what is stopping her" first of all, there's the fact that many many artists like her exist as openly queer without an "explicit coming out" Ariana Grande for example who has literally said "I like women and men" and said she didn't want to label herself. Yet she still has ppl like you who will call her straight instead of acknowledging that she is blatantly attracted to women.

Your desire for an explicit coming out is heteronormative. I don't have to say the words "I'm a lesbian" for you to understand what I mean when I say "I only like girls." No one owes you a coming out but when someone makes it very clear they like the same gender you owe it to them to believe them without them having to tell you exactly what box to put them in.

You know what's not over a decade ago?

"Bet I could still melt your world

Argumentative antithetical dream girl"

Directed at the muse of a song from an autobiographical album. A song about how this love with the dream girl and it's subsequent breakup "hits different" than the kens she used to switch out.

The use of blatant queer symbols (flag colors, remember all those subtle pride flags stuff they used to sell on here? That's what a shit ton of her merch and visuals look like. Hairpin drop, it's nice to have a friend of Dorothea, mirroring Elton johns goodbye yellow brick road and other oz references, giant version of her dressed like Allison Bechdel from fun house screaming at the audience to look at her while the glittery popstar version sings about how she's the problem. I could literally go on forever it is that extensive and that obvious to anyone with prior knowledge of queer culture and history)

The use of queer fashion to an exhausting degree when she's literally said clothes are one of her favorite ways to communicate things to her fans.

Several sapphic love duets (Gasoline, Snow on the beach, the secret of us)

Made a HUGE POINT about how much she listens to girl in red when that was the most popular way to ask if a girl is gay at the time, to the point of posting about it on social media more than once and sending her PAINTINGS MADE BY HER OWN HAND dedicated to the music.

Lesbian salute (the Kate McKinnon one we were all celebrating being in Barbie?) many, many times

Mimics touching herself onstage every single night of her current tour while singing about how pretty a guys ex wife is (who she's, "thick as thieves" with in the song btw, also from the explicitly autographical album)

Also "what is stopping her" well idk her so I can't pretend to know what motivation she might have behind not saying the thing in exact words for YOUR benefit but just this year there was not only a FEMICIDE STABBING where LITTLE GIRLS GOT STABBED FOR THE CRIME OF LISTENING TO TAYLOR SWIFT. There was also A TERRORIST THREAT TO ONE OF HER SHOWS AND SHE YAD TO CANCEL IT. People DRIVE THEIR CARS DIRECTLY INTO PLACES SHES LIVED. She has dealt with insane levels of stalking to the point that HORDES OF STALKING FANS SHOWED UP TO HER FRIENDS WEDDING TO HARASS HER. Donald Trump just won the presidency AGAIN. What fucking rock are you living under that explicitly coming out would not at the very least be cause for increased security concern?

[pinkeoni]

I think the problem is we are so involved in the fandom and miss the point of the average/normal audience members. Audience members won't remember the lines said by Nancy in the UD because that line was just said one time and the show quickly passed that. They can bring it up again via another flashback sequence but does the audience really have to watch another 2949324 flashbacks or sequences to understand a plot? You can tell a coherent story just naturally instead of pulling all these 'gotcha' or twist moments. The majority of the audience will already feel like Byler came out of nowhere and on top of that also including all of this will feel very jarring imho. That's why there had to be more obvious setup and more Will screentime in the previous season.

Idk if ur the same anon who has been sending me similar stuff but I feel like we are just going to have to agree to disagree man 🤝 it’s not that I think you should stop believing in your opinion or stop discussing it, and I do appreciate your asks, but idk how much longer we are going to keep going in circles 😂 unfortunately I do still disagree with you.

The thing about Nancy’s dialogue is that it isn’t just her dialogue. I could believe that people would forget that, but many people would remember Will talking to Joyce through the lights in season one, which is what she is talking about. Nancy’s dialogue is just there to imply more direct action from Will himself “Will found a way” as well as remind the audience.

And if it was just the dialogue from this season then I could brush it off, but it’s the accumulation of evidence from all four seasons beginning with the very first episode that makes me confident enough to make these claims about Will’s involvement with the UD in the first place. I can believe that audience members may not remember one line of dialogue, but they can remember Will’s time spent in the UD, his possession, and his continued connection with Vecna.

The thing about surveying the GA is that there are so many different viewpoints and opinions. When I was on twitter, there was plenty of speculation about Will’s powers from my end. There are GA members who don’t see it that way. There are GA members who don’t believe Will is gay. I have a friend who confuses seasons 2 and 3, but when I mentioned byler endgame to her she said “Oh well that’s obvious.” so it’s really a mixed bag.

I can agree that the setup may not be obvious, but I disagree that it should be obvious. Why should a twist be obvious? Why should the reveal be obvious? Why should the audience have its hands held? Why should the story tell you exactly where it’s going, wouldn’t that be boring?

[juiceboxerr]

earlier i was thinking about all the different things that have brought me to realizing i'm aroace, and one moment that was the most obvious, in hindsight, was my senior year of hs. that was the only time i had a "crush" without someone else pointing out that i "liked" someone, but in reality i've never liked anyone in my life haha. the boy i picked in my senior year was one of my classmates, we became friends throughout the year and i never really put much thought into liking him besides the fact that he was nice and a really good friend, but also thoughts like "this is what people my age are supposed to feel, right?" would often cross my mind. i imagine what it would be like if we dated but it was never something that just crossed my mind, i had to make an effort to actively think about such scenarios. once i graduated and didn't see him anymore the feelings vanished almost immediately, and i didn't think twice about it, i simply thought that was what everyone else experienced because i never talked to anyone about it.

my first year in college is when i discovered aromantism, before then i only know that asexuality was a thing. at the time i was living in my dorm alone and spent weeks researching and having a lot of issues with coming to terms with myself and being aromantic. before then i had tried so many labels, i've identified as bi, gay, pan, and lesbian, but none of them ever stuck for too long. so when i found aromantic it was like someone hit me with a bus. it took me a few weeks more before i could even muster up the courage tell any of my friends, which in the end proved pointless because they still accept me no matter what. i still struggled for a while because all those "what if" scenarios and feeling like i'm missing out on a huge part of life by not being able to feel what everyone else feels, which isn't the case. i can live my life just as fully as anyone else, i don't need romance or sex to be content with myself and my life. i never realized until then that i always fantasized of living on my own for my whole life anyway. i wouldn't say i'm romance replused, as i still enjoy such things in media, but more of feeling vaguely uncomfortable with thinking about romance in reality in terms of myself.

being asexual was something that crossed my mind a few years ago, and identified with graysexual specifically for a while until i thought "nah, there's no evidence that i'm ace in the first place"; however, there was no evidence that i wasn't either. it took my longer to come to terms with being asexual the second time around because by then i had already realized i was aromantic, and i thought that i could at least be "normal" in the sexual area if i was aro. i came to realize that doesn't matter and being normal isn't really a thing anyway. sexual feelings and urges have always been something i never experienced for myself and i shied away from such topics, whether about me or anyone. i was always uncomfortable with sex scene on tv and and talking about such things in a non-joking manner, but i was okay with reading it so i thought that meant i couldn't be asexual (which was before i really researched). but now nothing of the sort really bothers me as long as it isn't directed at me in any form. as of now i think of myself in terms of a sex positive but personally sex repulsed asexual.

identifying as aroace might seem simple at face value because it's asexual aromantic, right? well yes, but for me it's more complicated than that. i am aroace but i resonate more with my aromantism, in a way that's complicated to explain. being asexual is a no-brainer for me, it's just an intrinsic part of who i am and it's not something i have to think about, there's never been another option. sex is also a topic that can be easily avoided, more so if you aren't in a romantic relationship, but dating and being in a romantic relationship are topics that are harder to get out of. so while my ace identity feels like it is just me, and it would be baffling to me for someone to ever think i'm allosexual, my aro identity is me in a different sense, in a way i haven't figured out how to say yet.

geez, i kinda went off on a rant there. this might not be helpful to anyone but on the off chance it is i like sharing my story. being aro, ace, or aroace isn't a linear thing, it can stay the same or change over time. you can identify with it now but maybe later you won't. no one can tell you what you can and cannot feel or identify with, you're the only person who can decide that for yourself.

[sammyluvr]

Ok so, I'm 16 and my mum is planning to send me to what is essentially a conversion camp this coming autumn. I literally don't know what I did wrong or what to do. Apparently this is about me just disrespecting her but I've always noticed her subtle yet obvious digs at queers. She says she accepts me and doesn't care overall but when I told her I was bi her immediate reaction was to refer to a bi friend of hers that married a man and told me "You'll end up making the right choice. Just like she did." And it just breaks my heart because I try to be the best daughter I can be for her and it never feels like enough. Another thing she recently did was refer to a gay man as "broken", seeing it as a flaw and I can feel my heart crack a little more than it already has been. The camp is Christian and I've seen videos and it just seems like a fucking laugh directed towards me. Like I'm going to come back a bible thumping straight conservative woman like she wants me to be but I'm so far from that I think. I don't believe in God- I've come to my own understanding of the world yet of course I haven't told her that. It just feels utterly heartbreaking and I feel like bawling my eyes out like a kid but I'm not a kid anymore and I have to be stronger than this otherwise I'm just a queer crybaby and not an actual person who deserves respect just as much as the next. I know it must be pretty stupid to be ranting ab this to a stranger online but I think I can atleast get some sort of comfort ig from you but idk. I don't know any other queer people in my life and you're the only person I can really talk to. I'm not asking you to save me or come up with a solution. I'm just asking you to try virtually hold my hand through this, I guess. I love your work and hope everything goes great with uni <3

hi honey :(( i can't tell you how sorry i am that this is happening to you, but i promise i absolutely will be here to hold your hand through it all. i'm really glad that you felt like you could reach out to me and that you sent this message <33 it is utterly heartbreaking and if i were you, i'd be wanting to cry too, which you are more than allowed to do. crying is a 100% normal reaction to something so horrible :(( and you are so respected in this space. it's definitely not stupid to send this message and i'm so sorry you don't have a community around you in person, but i'm glad that i could be here as a fellow queer person to talk to.

i'm so sorry that your mom isn't truly accepting and that she says things like that, hearing that sort of thing is just so so difficult. and the fact that she's sending you to this camp is just so so awful and i absolutely wish i could whisk you away from it and we could spend the fall doing gay shit together #begaydocrime !!!

and i'm unsure if it's any help, but i have 100% full confidence that you will make it to the other side of this camp with your personal understanding of the world and queerness intact, and maybe even stronger. that's not to say it won't be hard, because it will :(( you'll probably hear a lot of language used that's really exclusive and triggering and i'm not sure how far this camp goes, but i really hope that it's not as awful as it could be.

this is a really different experience than yours will be i'm sure, but i grew up mormon and went to church up until i was around your age/maybe a little older. idk if i ever really believed it and all that, but it wasn't until that last year or two that i knew i was queer (bi, i thought at the time + questioning my gender) and i was just constantly surrounded by this language that was completely contrary to my whole being. it was basically just "you will marry a man and have children because you are a woman" over and over again and i was like LOLLL none of those things are true :D so i stopped going and i look at me now i guess haha

but no, genuinely it was really difficult, and it took me a long time to get to where i am in terms of understanding and accepting my identity in terms of queerness. i'm still figuring shit out, honestly. and for such a long time i had so much internalized homophobia that was pounded into my brain "it's okay if other people are gay, but i'm not. and even if i was, i'd choose not to be :)))" who are you kidding babyboy... you're saying that bc you think you might be gay and you don't even know it smh lol. anyways i just want you to know you're not alone in experiencing this sort of language that's so insistently thrown at you and that i think it will help you to have the knowledge that you are bisexual and you have your own world views and you do not ever have to prescribe to what they tell you, and that's something to hold onto! hold on tight to your personal beliefs and your queerness with one hand, hold my hand tight with the other, and before you know it we'll be on the other side of things together.

you let me know if you need anything at all, and i will do everything i can to help you. i can say with pretty full confidence that there's so many people in my little tumblr community that are here to support you and help you through it all!! we will be unapologetically queer together on here, especially in ways we can't in our day to day life. i am sending you sooo so much love!! thank you for your kind words my sweets <3

[chirpsythismorning]

It would appear I am indeed one of the very few optimistic (delusional?) Bylers left.

Not saying that if you feel hopeless and need to move on, that you can't. A lot of you have been through this before with other shows. Again and again. You’re tired and fed-up and you have every right to be.

Technically, Season 5 won't be out for another 2+ years anyways, which means the best thing for everyone regardless is to get whatever we need off our chests now and then to just go on a hiatus for the foreseeable future. 

When it comes to how I feel about Vol. 2, there were definitely at least a few good moments. If this season has anything going for it, it’s the emotional value. This is without a doubt the most I’ve cried ever while watching the show. One scene in particular that had me on the floor was the scene with Will and El reuniting and hugging. And of course the scene with Will and Mike in the van (DAMN YOU NOAH SCHNAPP FOR MAKING ME SOB SO HARD ALL DAY THAT I GOT A MIGRAINE!)

But yes, I am a Byler. So you could say I was a bit disappointed in that department.

And yet still, I think my take on the later part of season 4 is much different from the majority.

Because personally, I don’t think that what played out in Vol. 2 means that Byler is dead. If anything, I believe it to be more endgame than I did before (well, at least in comparison to pre-s4. There’s no denying pre-Vol. 2 confidence levels remain unmatched. Truly the best era for the Byler fandom to date).

I think my main issue is, like so many of us on here, I thought it was guaranteed we would get to see Mike become aware of Will’s feelings. 

Alas, we did not.

And to be totally clear, without this revelation, Byler can’t go anywhere. 

Neither forwards, nor technically backwards.

This means the baiting game is not over. Which as bad as it sounds, is why I’m still so optimistic…

Now, if they had made Will’s feelings obvious to Mike, or even the fact that Will is gay as being obvious to Mike, but STILL had Mike behave the way he did in Vol. 2, now THAT would have sucked. It would have been canon rejection on Mike’s end.

But we didn’t even get rejection from Mike. 

Instead, we got Will coming off as a hardcore M*leven shipper in Mike's eyes, all while the audience was getting the exact opposite interpretation of this situation; that Will is helplessly in love with Mike. 

Will is able to voice the extent of his love, albeit through advice to Mike about his own situation with El, in a way that no one else on the show has been able to. Most of the other characters need a bunch of bystanders to make them realize their feelings and push them in that direction. But Will, he doesn’t need someone holding his hand along the way, telling him what the right thing to do or say is. His love isn’t something he needs to really think about in order to understand it. It just is.

(Which is SO fucking ironic when you think about how Mike always needs help with figuring out his feelings for El and even sounds like he’s reading off a script when he’s trying to explain himself to her. Whereas with Will, s2 monologue teas, it’s the most natural thing Mike’s ever done. Unscripted, straight from the heart… And both Vol. 1-2 continued to drive home this concept, so maybe jot that down..)

It’s just that, unfortunately, in Will’s eyes, Mike will never return this love, which means his only option is to let Mike go. If supporting Mike and El’s relationship means putting himself dead last in every respect, so that his best friend and his sister can be happy, Will is going to do just that. 

But as far as Mike knows, Will holds no romantic feelings for him. I mean after all, Will is guiding Mike literally every step of the way to confessing his love to El, and that doesn't sound like the behavior of someone who’s in love with you, now does it? 

So why would Mike, throw everything on the line, including the survival of their family and friends in Hawkins by not simply just telling his gf he loves her? All while El is right there loving him and needing his love to fight (presumably), with Will beside him literally rooting for him to do just that? This is very obviously the only option in Mike’s eyes.

Which is ironic, because in a way, I think that Mike has truly never seen him and Will as an option, just like Will, but for an entirely different reason. 

Mike views his feelings for Will as childish, something he will grow out of, or at least should have by now.

“We’re not kids anymore. What did you think, really? That we were never going to get girlfriends? That we were just going to sit in my basement and play games for the rest of our lives?”

If Mike can’t love El, then how can he possibly love any women? She’s special. She’s a superhero. He HAS to love her, right? It’s the best option he could ever possibly have. Well, at least considering…

But what happens when suddenly, he comes to the realization that him and Will ARE an option? And that the only thing ever stopping them was himself and his inability to just be honest with everyone and himself?

I think the truth is, there’s a reason that they’re holding off on this revelation for Mike. 

It will be a catalyst. It will change everything.

Now, how exactly do you think Mike is going to react to this? The fact that Will was in love with him this whole time and he had no idea?

Honestly, I think he’s going to react horribly, but not for the reason everyone assumes.

Because I would argue that, if Mike was going to react badly with disgust or even just let Will down nicely to confirm it’s indeed unrequited, then the Duffer’s would have just given this revelation up by now. But they haven’t.

Once Mike finds out that Will is (probably always will be) in love with him, and that instead of telling him, Will used his love to help Mike get closer to El, even when Mike himself was having doubts over and over? That Will went as far as to lie about the painting he worked so hard on for Mike in order to rekindle their dying friendship, to instead insinuate it was commission from El, to give Mike that final push he needed to even have the courage to tell El he loved her? That all the moments like this that they shared as of late, was really just Will talking about himself? That the only reason he was able to tell El he loved her in the first place, was because he was so moved by Will’s love for him??

This is going to break Mike.

And let’s be real here, two episodes would not have done this revelation justice. 

So now, just knowing the direction they went for Vol. 2, as well as coming to terms with it, I have reached the conclusion that, despite how bleak things seem now, ‘maybe all of this is happening for a reason’ (s2 Mike Wheeler, we miss u).

Which brings me to the other most important piece of the puzzle, which is that, arguably, El needs to be the one who ends things once and for all.

The general audience has been given the impression El is head over heels in love with Mike, and so of course they were rooting for Mike to get on with it and just tell her he loved her. 

But that’s the interesting part. He finally did tell her, but her reaction in the aftermath was not something a lot of fans expected. 

It seems that she’s distancing herself from Mike, a fact that Will acknowledges to Mike later at Hopper’s cabin, with Mike genuinely confused because he thought he did the one thing he had to do. 

He told her he loved her. Which makes everything alright now, right?

But maybe it doesn’t.

Maybe the reminder we got, of that speech from Max to El, about how she didn’t need Mike or Hopper or ANY man to know her worth, was foreshadowing for what honestly needs to happen in order for El to really process and realize her own true feelings about Mike.

Because, although I do believe El genuinely thought she loved Mike, is it possible that Mike was not only having doubts about saying it because of the reasons he argued, or even because of some repressed feelings for Will, but also because El hadn’t given him what he needed to truly believe she loved him.

Mike, like a lot of people, doesn’t need to hear “I love you” to believe that someone loves him.

“I didn’t say it.”

“You didn’t have to.”

He wants something more meaningful, or more specifically, something along the lines of the speech Will gave to him in the van.

Will’s confession disguised as El’s, was what Mike needed to finally say I love you to El... 

Something I think we also got caught up in, is this idea that the Duffer’s were just going to drop M*leven and throw in Byler, with everything else going on, while they still have a whole ass season to promote for another 3+ years, and to their mostly 80’s loving homophobic audience. If Byler is going to happen, it’s going to be the definition of slow-burn and endgame. That’s literally the only way. 

This puzzle is complex, which sucks if you want all the answers now, because we’re just not going to get them. If they give up all their moves, then what is the point of telling the story at all? 

Other pieces of the puzzle include things that arguably still need to happen before Byler can, even regardless of the constraints they have as show-runners who run the biggest show on Netflix’s dying platform. 

Things like Will and El’s love for each other as brother and sister. Considering all the fans that said Will hates El because he didn’t stand up to her bullies or that he’s a home-wrecker who just wants to get with her boyfriend, is why I do think they needed to debunk these insinuations within the narrative. And boy oh boy did they deliver on that front. Will is the most selfless son of a bitch on the planet, who loves his best friend and his sister so much. They made that very clear. And you can see that despite a few homophobes here and there, the general audience's reaction to Will in Vol 2 is sympathy and to Mike it's confusion and betrayal...

Hmm, making El realize she doesn't even love Mike, after making Will's unrequited feelings for Mike more clear, after making Mike behave like an IDIOT this entire time juggling these two relationships, only for him to become aware of whats going on, and to clearly be in love with Will?

Sounds like a good way to set up Byler to an audience that might not have humored it before...

And like I said, with how important I do think it was for this to happen in order for them to go the Byler route, is why I don’t necessarily see this approach as a bad thing. We even got the Will and El hug in 4x08, which maybe it’s just because Noah and Millie are so close, but I would easily rank that on my top most well-earned moments in the whole show.

We NEEDED that. Especially in terms of what is likely to come in season 5 with Byler endgame...

Also, yes the Will angst sucked and it's just trauma porn at this point. I’m not going to deny that fully. I agree with pretty much all of the criticism in regards to how they chose to do certain things when they didn't necessarily have to, but I also simultaneously am able to understand that it again, maybe this is all happening for a reason. If they are indeed going to have Will play a big role in the final season, than them forgetting his birthday, Mike being oblivious and all this other shit he's been through combined, sets up a really arc for him next season, not even necessarily a villain one, but all of this pain has the potential to lead to a happy ending. And I'm being full serious.

Like we have Finn Wolfhard saying the ending of Stranger Things will be like the ending of Schitt’s Creek??? That it will end at it's highest point. The last episode of Schitt’s Creek is literally a happily ever after gay wedding, there's no other way to interpret that…

We also know that a lot of ideas for the last seasons were planned from the beginning, with David Harbour saying that he knew the ending way back in s2 and that it's beautiful and has been the intended plan all along. That there's easter eggs that will have us going 'WOW this is what we've been watching the whole time'? That it's wonderful?

If you’re the level of Byler truther that believes they were somewhat planned all along from the beginning, then you would also know that if they plan a happy ending for Mike and Will, then they would have no problem killing us this painfully in the beginning of the end, because they know we’ll be the ones cheering on by the actual end, and it'll be the homophobes who are pissed and stuck with this result forever as endgame. 

I’m just saying, don’t be surprised when s5 gets closer and we actually see them promoting Byler… like a lot. And we actually start getting in canon hints at scenes with El herself even trying to get them together.

Groveling Mike Wheeler era?

Will finding a potential new love interest and Mike pining/jealous?

Come ONNN! You guys are way more delusional than you’re giving yourselves credit for and I urge you to join me!!!

[infernalodie]

𝐂𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐓𝐨 𝐘𝐨𝐮 || 𝐋𝐞𝐱𝐢 𝐇𝐨𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐝

“𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘵, 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘯'𝘵 𝘥𝘦𝘷𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥'𝘷𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘥 𝘮𝘺 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴, 𝘣𝘢𝘣𝘺 𝘓𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘳𝘶𝘯 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘯𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘩 𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘮 𝘫𝘦𝘵𝘴“

Pairing: Lexi Howard x Male!reader

ilomilo series

Summary: All I ever want is to be close to you...

(gif used is not mine)

Warnings: Fluff (?)

Words: 1232

I hated these types of environments. They were all so crowded, obnoxious, and annoying. Nowhere I went gave me a chance to breathe without smelling the scent of marijuana or alcohol that lingered even in the night air. Everywhere I went, my pounding headache persisted to blind my thoughts for the majority of the night so far.

But things seemed to clear when I saw you as well attending Maddy’s party. I’ll be honest, you didn’t at all look comfortable being here. Just from the way you stuck out like a sore thumb and obvious anxious movements, I know you don’t want to be here. Either that or one of your friends forced you to come. But I’ll tell you what, I didn’t expect you to come to this thing. Maddy had told the girls and me that it was mainly for close friends. So, I never expected you to be in that group of people.

There was always something more to learn about you. Which only made the thrill of what you were doing here all the more exciting. And I have to be honest, Y/n. I’ve been missing you too much since we met inside the music store. I’ve missed the way your lips moved and eyes seemed to brighten when you spoke-

Wait a fucking minute.

What the hell are doing? I glanced across the house, seeing you directly making a beeline towards Maddy, who seemed to have noticed your arrival just as I have. And I have to say, the pure joyous smile on her lips didn’t sit well with me. Did you guys know each other?

Well, that’s a dumb question considering she dated your brother, but that's beside the point. Her arms that wrapped around your neck and your arms that wrapped around her waist, made me feel sick. But you didn’t look too thrilled to be here as well. Maybe, there was a chance we shared a bit more in common than I already believed. Yet, there was still so much that I didn’t know about you.

You and Maddy shared hushed whispers as I tried to not look too suspicious spying on the both of you. But it didn’t seem like it was enough to seize your wandering eyes from finding me. There it was. A little spark of happiness in those aggravated and tired eyes. Listen, Y/n, I might be out of place to say this. But I would say that I might be the brand new piece of light in your life. I can be that- I promise I will be your light. Just say the word and I’ll be there.

But I wasn’t exactly ready to see you start making your way over. I quickly adjusted my seating and gripped my red solo cup a little tighter. Hoping that my sweaty palms won’t let it embarrassingly fall from my grasp.

“Lexi! Long time no see.,” you greeted with a big smile. One that I knew could enchant any girl that walked in your direction. But you never did. Surprising if you asked me because you were attractive. Far more attractive than any other guy at East Highland. And for a time, I thought you were gay. But after “accidentally” spotting you having sex with my sister, I understood that it was different.

Unlike a lot of guys, you weren’t seeking intimacy. If anything, you were trying to avoid it at all costs. Any girl that came your way, you ignored or denied with kindness. That’s what made you so complex. You had all the money you wanted and had girls falling to their knees for you. But you shut them all down. Not only that, but you also had far more depth than anyone she knew. You had a terrible past with dating and you managed to pull yourself out of an impossible situation most in your shoes never could. That’s why I loved you. You were driven, resilient, and abstract.

“Hey, Y/n,” I replied, standing to my feet and hugging you. Wait! Nope, stupid mistake. Fuck! We’ve only met once and I just hugged you. Maybe I am a bit drunk.

But you hugged me back. Me. You didn’t even hesitate either which made it all the better. So, I hugged back. And let me tell you, the smell of fresh books and vinyls seemed to match your style. You smelled like peace- if peace even had a smell. Being this close to you was calming and released any doubtful thoughts I’ve had in the past. Maybe this could work out if I just reeled you in close enough.

Pulling away, I gazed up at your beautiful eyes that focused solely on me. “I would’ve never expected you to be at one of these,” you said, eyes flickering around at the other kids that were drinking and having the time of their lives. “I always took you as the perfect girl next door.”

“Well, you’re right. I hate these things.” There was so much that you didn’t know or realize about me. But as long as you were slowly learning more about me, little by little, I was getting to know you. This was good considering I wanted you to know me. I wanted to show you the truest parts of myself, but that was if you would allow yourself to see me.

Inhaling deeply, I smiled. “But I’m here because Maddy asked me to come,” I stated. “How about you? I saw you two hugging.”

You let out a short laugh, your hand reaching up and scratching the back of your head. “Yeah, same. Tried to back out, but she put up a fight about it. You know Maddy-”

“Stubborn.” You laughed, nodding in agreement. I glanced over your shoulder to see Maddy glancing over from Kat. She seemed pissed, which made me only feel better that you decided to come over here. I deserved to be close to you. Not her.

But fate had other plans and created problems. Said problems came in the form of my sister, who was a sobbing and slobbering mess. A truly disgusting sight that I hated being connected to. There was vomit on her shirt, which made you step back with wide eyes when she came stumbling over to us.

“Lexi, I need to go home,” my sister wept, attempting to hug me, to which I stopped.

“Okay, let’s go.” Placing a soft hand on her back, I looked up at you and gave an apologetic smile. “I’m sorry.”

You smiled reassuringly. “Make sure she gets home alright, ‘kay?” I nodded, thankful that you decided to show even the tiniest amount of care for this embarrassment of a sibling I was related to.

Making my way to the front door, you called out, “Lexi!” I stopped, turning to see you smile. “Come by the music store tomorrow. We can give Flower Boy a full listen.”

I smiled in amusement. “Who says I haven’t already?”

You shrugged. “Judging by your grades, I highly doubt you give yourself a break,” you commented. “Just come by. I’ll show you some other artists we can listen to.”

Again, I nodded but with a bigger smile. Leaving the party with my broken sister.

Is this what love felt like? Did you like me or even love me as much as I did for you?

[betweenlands]

Ok ill bite whats dominion smp?

BOY AM I GLAD YOU ASKED

dominion smp, which some members call DSMP for what's probably seo reasons but i find intensely hilarious because it's technically not wrong to abbreviate it like that, is a small lightly modded server based around the origins mod! basically, each member has a different origin, and in much the same way empires members are loosely the ruler of their respective countries, you can sort of consider each dominion member to be kind of a paragon of their respective origin.

thing is, while dominion is defined in part by its relation to the origins mod, there is also a lot of plot stuff that happens that is only tangentially related to the fact that everyone is creatures -- you've got people beefing over stolen goods, everyone sort of vying for power in a vacuum while trying to not seem obvious about it, taxes of "give me all of your diamonds every two weeks i am no longer asking nicely", and also. whatever the hell is going on with shadowmech.

oh yeah also literally like 75% of these ccs have 2000+ day hardcore worlds so the builds are insane.

here's a masterpost on everyone's povs! it doesn't have their Vibes down rn but i can do that really briefly (EDIT LOL NO IT'S NOT BRIEF THIS IS GOING UNDER A CUT):

starting members:

jamiejoan/jammers, dragonborn: elected queen of the server during s1. has a corruption arc, as one does. not many s1 episodes, but (without spoiling anything) her pov for s2 is unique and worth checking out

grady, enderian: doesn't have many episodes and is mainly a streamer. his character is half wet cat and half "guy that makes that's what she said jokes", but somehow in a different direction from scar?

legundo, piglin: champion of the piglins, sent to the overworld by his people for. well for takeover purposes probably. this mostly involves doing capitalism and having trusting-distrustful dynamics with the besties. actually the main server admin but this never comes up incharacter.

fixxitt, inchling: starts off as a thief, escalates WILDLY until by episode 5 welsknight is telling him "you fucked up, buddy" and then he builds a gigantic house. has 2 musical numbers in the middle of episodes that will absolutely knock you out if you're not prepared. also has very good cinematics.

nukeri, elytrian: democracy lover and guy who really, really just wants everyone to get along. canonically descended from icarus; all my friends have emotions about him and i haven't watched him yet but he's a major blorbo-in-law. i'd make a joke about how he's the resident gay scot of the server since they couldn't get smajor, but he literally does have a voice cameo from scott in his s1 finale.

rnjoy, witch: loves doing mad science, committing tax fraud, and has a mushroom son in s2 now. not a lot of s1 episodes but she loves her ravager gertrude i know that much. currently being hunted by --

shadowmech, witherborn: hitman of the server who is only withered rn because he ate a really bad porkchop. no episodes currently, he's in the process of doing a supercut of all his s1 stuff. is also in the process of uh. being very possessed and possibly being the s2 arc baddie rn. it's. fiiiiine. he's just not speaking to anyone and also attacking them during blood moons! totally chill

sneve, blazeborn: like if keralis was oli orionsound but with less musical numbers. sneve is an experience that cannot be described. just. watch his episodes there's only like 3 of them it'll tell you everything and nothing you need to know

taneesha, goat: lover of domes and also psychological warfare. started an advancement race probably as an excuse to steal people's shit. not a lot of s1 episodes but has some plot stuff anyway since she kind of got invited to join jamie's. void cult. yeaaaahhhh.

started midway thru s1:

vikingpilot, phantom: SOMETHING IS SO VERY WRONG WITH HIM. sweet ghostboy who is also incredibly unhinged. canonically dead and was also intangible and invisible for the beginning half of s1 up until the dragon fight. does dark magic, or is at least planning to do dark magic. pluralcoded and you can fight me on this. honestly my top pick for "if you only get one pov"

started at the beginning of s2:

progamebot/josh, sporeling: one video so far! joy's mushroom son. helping her make potions out of a van in the desert atm, which is. actually a breaking bad reference, not a reference to that other dsmp. canonically like a week old at the most. doing pretty well considering this.

kiply, fairy: no episodes yet, but uh. i've been watching her other stuff on and off and something is seriously wrong with her in the best way possible. plays on i think at least 2 different lifesteal-type smps? she is unhinged. she is not a reliable narrator. i love her.

dalilred (wolf) and itsryan (iron golem) also REALLY recently joined so i haven't gotten a pin on their vibes yet. red seems like she has a little bit of a cottagecore aesthetic and ryan seems to be kind of closer to sneve on the shitposter end of the mcyter spectrum, but that's all i've got

[starsarefire824]

rewatching season 1 and its confirming my bi mike truth. for real.

• he goes out of his way for her

•he speaks to her with the same Will Voice™️ in a lot of the scenes.

• he tried to kiss her unprompted in the bathroom. (she has literally no idea what he’s doing)

• when he says she’s pretty especially the second time, he really means it. I read his confused face more as I can’t believe I said that kind of thing and not a ew gross kind of thing

•his speech at the end is definitely him trying and failing to say that he likes her romantically (as romantic as a 12 year old romance can be anyway)

Now, she’s very androgynous and sure that can he explained as he prefers her when she looks like a boy (like Will), but that’s a moot point in my opinion cause bi people have very differing tastes usually when it comes to different genders. (Something he would be totally unaware of at that age and also is something that evolves/changes)

I think watching season one and two combined has really confirmed this for me. Season 1 is El and his feelings for her. Season 2 switches to Will and his feelings for him. Season 3 is when they are all finally thrown together and how he can’t balance them in his life because the feelings for both are romantic. (I don’t think he’s self-aware enough there to realize that though in regards to Will). I think that there is a lot of what actors’ and creators’ have said going on there. Mike is trying to be this picture in his head of what “normal” looks like.

Then season 4 imo is the fallout of that struggle (which i also think continues in a more adult/direct way but it sort of is really putting even more pressure on both of his relationships). He’s a bit older and the two most important people in his life are thousands of miles away. Like he said himself, “his other friends are great, but they aren’t Will). I think that hug scene was the culmination of him realizing how much he’s missed Will isn’t “normal”. I think he’s realizing that those feelings are equal (or imo overpower) what he feels for El. I think maybe, painfully slowly, he’s realizing that he’s attracted/wants to be with Will in a way that isn’t “normal”. I don’t think he’s thinking romance per se (yet), but I think he’s thinking “why the hell am i jealous?” “why is it weird to touch him?” “why am i so upset he never called me?” why do i want that painting so badly?” “why can’t i tell my girlfriend i thought i loved the three words she begged me to say?” To me, that is a very queer experience, but specifically a bi person who hasn’t quite realized that they’re bi yet. The confusion can be astounding at times, and emotions and reactions to things tend to be intense in a way that leaves you reeling. Or floundering in Mike’s case.

Idk these are just a lot of random thoughts, but I firmly believe that season 5 will address whatever is happening in Mike Wheeler’s brain regarding his true feelings for Will and El.

I also think that El already had an inkling of “why” Mike couldn’t say I love you. (And no it’s not because his parents didn’t show him how 🙄) And she’s slowly realizing in season 4 that “why” is her step-brother. I think that was made very obvious with the thought bubble imagery and how she was responding, or lack thereof to Mike in the monologue and back in Hawkins.

Miscellaneous thoughts about season 1: people must be thick in the head about Will if they think him being gay came out of nowhere. There are at least 10 instances of characters referencing that in conversations. And damn, if that Ted Wheeler comment, “you see Michael, you see what happens” wasn’t insinuating something. Mike misses it cause he’s too little, but any adult can see he’s saying, “you see what happens to queer kids?”

Then season 2 they spent the whole season building up how different and strong Mike and Will’s relationship was, and how Mike was there for Will no matter what. He was so unwavering in his love and support for Will. And in season 3, I think is when Will actively realized just how different he was and what his love for Mike actually meant, like he was looking it dead in the face in that season in a real, grown up way. And the person he realizes he loves is pushing him away and just not understanding him and what do you do when the person, that you’ve been told your whole life is unnatural, not “normal” to love, is constantly choosing another person over you. That they aren’t even able to make a friendship work let alone something you might daydream about. I’m probably repeating myself but the writers have made it very plain that Mike cannot for the life of him balance his time, attention or emotional availability between Will and El. And if season 3 didn’t make it painfully obvious that Will was having complicated feelings about Mike. Like yeah, they didn’t spell it out directly, but the fact that some people were like wow this whole Mike love thing for Will came out of nowhere??? Like are we watching the same show? I could see that on a first watch years ago.