#but then noone believes me

[seretoningghost]

If I had to explain having adhd it'd be like this :

Its stupid hard. Especially when people just tell you "get better" or "your best is not good enough". Don't even get me started with getting and keeping motivation.

The absolute fact I'm able to do anything is wild, It's like I'm being split in 18ths by a log mill. My best is just that. MY BEST.

Its a mix of the old cringe saying were too many tabs are open - 18 on screen in various sizes - 6 minimized - ABOUT 10 frozen but hey, you can't actually tell because your stretched so far inbetween to check up on em all. And 4 different songs are all playing and you have no idea where its coming from.

And then imagine pong popping up on top of the whole screen completely random - not scheduled at all and there's no way to close it.

But the ball for pong - isn't the ball, its your mouse. And its your train of thought, and the tabs are your thoughts. Now thankfully god gave your jerry rigged system a sliver of hope - pong is translucent. Even better - you can interact with the tabs below.

However, with every passing second pong continues at a speed demon speed - pong will become less translucent, while that happens tabs will slowly close out until it's all gone.

Btw theres no way to beat pong, it just goes on until 'it feels like it'.. And when you click on a tab regardless of how hard you try - all other tabs will shut down instantly.

On top of that your using a shitty 4th party browser with no history - so you can't just pull up a closed tab.

So its balls to the walls or nothing. You can either accept that your going to loose all thought progress (this all usually happens when you were actually needing your brain) and just slowly feel agony as your brain is ransacked and ripped apart for all thoughts.

You can pray you can click back onto your most desired tab before it ghosts you forever.

Or you can just jump off the train and see where you land up, and build your little chaos brain kingdom there. Before pong inevitably shows back up again.

[marciaillust]

bro fuck it im workposting. i did illustrations, i storyboarded, i directed. I did many cool things in 2024 and millions of people all over the world saw em. that has to count for something

[tonydaddingham]

im going outside to scream at the moon, does anyone want anything

[shalom-iamcominghome]

My jewish community, friends, rabbi, and educators: We are very invested in helping you be jewish. Do you want to help read the haftarah? Here's a chanukiah! You can have it!! Borrow these books! Here's some books! You need more books... Come to pesach! Come to the chanukah party! When are your classes done? We need a minyan for once!

Me and my 50000 IQ: What if I am Secretly Appropriating judaism? What if I am doing a Cultural Appropriation........

[salokorai]

Another new child drop from my side: Hanariel Schilftanz... IF that is her real name????

They're a changeling and go by a ton of names and usually pick out a shape that fits the occasion and they are genderfluid. They are also an assassin and usually like to collect the shapes of those that they kill. But Hanariel is such a sweetheart! It's the shape that she is currently working with in the small campaign which we have just started playing. The other players already know that Hanariel is a changeling but they don't really know her story and relationship to her shapes and such just yet and I am excited to have them find out!

[pyrepostings]

imagining a defiant interrogation whumpee who gets sick of saying "I'm not telling you" so they start going into what sounds initially to be them finally telling whumper what they want to know, but ends up being whumpee wasting time by just quoting a song.

[a-stray-wretched-dog]

guys why is footnote by conan gray kinda ivantill coded or is it just me

[cyberianbattlecruiser]

Relistened to Hnoc and im sorrowful. How can one heal, tell us father Galahad, tell us

[aureatchi]

happy, happy birthday mio amore, i love you through every trial and triumph. 🖤

[rosesradio]

”luke was a hero!” “luke was a villain!” idc what he was what i need him to be is on his knees with fingers in his mouth

[alyimoss]

look at her face.

i never wanna see another "xalphys doesnt care abt the rest of the xtale gang and she never has muh muh muh" ever fucking again do you hear me.

SHE DOESNT SHOW THAT SHE CARES BC SHE KNOWS ITS POINTLESS. THAT SHE CANT HELP ANYWAY SO ITS BETTER AND EASIER TO JUST PUSH THE OTHERS AWAY BC AT LEAST THEN THEY WONT BE HURT WHEN SHE HAS TO ACT AGAINST THEM. BC THEYLL EXPECT IT FROM SOMEONE "UNCARING" LIKE HER. BC THEYLL KNOW WHERE HER LOYALTIES LIE ALREADY. THAT DOESNT MEAN SHE ACTUALLY DOESNT CARE. THESE ARE HER FRIENDS, HER FUCKING FAMILY. OF COURSE SHE CARES.

NONE OF YOU GET HER LIKE I DO NONE OF YOU!! NONE OF YOU SEE HOW AWESOME EPIC SHE IS NONE. OF. YOU!!

[maegalkarven]

Again back with the point what Gortash enforces his narrative while Ketheric and Orin are the captives of it.

It think it can be easily melted down to if they're satisfied, deep down, with how things are going for them (aside from the Dead Three plan falling. Imagine what it's not falling apart)

I don't think Orin actively thinks of her feelings and her intentions; she is in the never-ending chase for Father's love while knowing down well how much his disapproval and punishment hurts. And she is locked into that position without any way out, doesn't even consider a way out because it's all she has ever known and all she knows there to be and matter. But it's not happy or satisfying existence, Bhaal has no worshippers, only victims.

Ketheric got what he so desperately craved: Isobel is back.

And it's almost as if nothing else matters now. He is a lost man, someone who was good and kind and righteous once, and some part of him remembers this man, remembers the man his wife fell in love with, and hates who he has become. He would do anything Myrkul told him to for Isobel, because Myrkul brought Isobel back. But is he happy? Is he satisfied? Absolutely not. He is Tired. He is the man just waiting to die.

Gortash loves his evil plans and his machinations and he loves his genius and his Steel Watch and all the manipulations he pulls of. It makes him feel clever, better than everyone else, it makes him feel in control of everything, like he truly solved life and everyone else is just clueless a clueless senseless mass of bystanders.

He likes innovation and technology, power and control; and he likes combining these things together.

The only part what's missing is an equal to bask in his glory. The perfect equal candidate was Durge, but Durge is gone (if not played as origin), but some wandering adventurer who managed to defeat Ketheric will suffice, they show promise.

He isn't remorseful, isn't trapped, everything is going according to plan (imagine what it does and the Elder Brain doesn't beat him up to it). He doesn't even feel fear. (I believe he was controlled by that feeling for the majority of his young life, absolutely hated it and got himself a cloth of authority to Cancel This Damn Emotion Forever)

He might be lonely, deep down, he is clearly resentful towards Raphael, the warlock who bought him, and his parents, and everyone who has ever wronged him. But he'll get to them, or already got to them. He loves exactly three things: himself, his inventions and his empire.

Someone by his side is a nice bonus, but it's not the requirement.

[ismyteadoneyet]

How fortunate am I to have so many Things to love and be excited about, to appreciate and look forward to?

Things I feel so strongly about that they stumble into my mind, univited, at random times of the day? Things that spill into my speech and vocabulary without me noticing? Things that impact my vision to the point where everywhere I look, everywhere I go, I see ghosts of them?

How lucky am I to have so many Things I love and cherish enough for them to reshape my very person, change my beliefs and make me grow? Things that make my own loved ones see the Things out in the wild, and go out of their way to make sure I see them too?

How wonderful is it that I have Things that I love so much that the very act is deemed and dubbed "not normal", making my love for them seem like it's more than they are supposed to recieve? An out-of-the-ordinary and above-the-norm appreciation for the Things that make the people around me shake their heads, call me "silly".

My dear, beloved Things, may I always stay silly for you ❤️

[ineffablejaymee]

me, every single time i need to feel something

[opaline-fields]

Need to be a new favonius knight, bright eyed and bushy tailed, and for Captain Kaeya be sooo interested in how cute I am. Prime target for taking advantage of and getting his dick wet. Ggghhh

[mwagneto]

it was raining all day, the sun didnt come up til way after 6am (i know coz i didn't sleep all night) and was already down at 6pm, it's cold enough to wear clothes and use a blanket to sleep without dying and i can finally wash my hands with warm water again..we are so fucking back