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bro fuck it im workposting. i did illustrations, i storyboarded, i directed. I did many cool things in 2024 and millions of people all over the world saw em. that has to count for something
#brawl stars#marcia#i dont workpost because i am deeply aware nobody here is here for brawl stars but on god i#i work and i create and its real#and there is a part of me thats ashamed because i know that brawls is not. like its not league of legends you know?#league of legends is something you post about#about the skin you helped create or sculpted#or the splash art you painted#its has that... value that is obvious even in the eyes of a person who has never played league#its a very mature visual language that historically calls for respect#meanwhile presenting brawl stars art feels like showing my anime girl oc to an art teacher#even mentioning an illust i created for a skin announcement for brawl stars feels so#so dollar store#so laughable#like noone would take me seriously#it feels like when you say you're an artist and then a person asks to see your art#and you show them and they get that soft soft look in their eyes that informs you that they had an image of who an “artist” is in their hea#and that you did not live up to it but all they'll say is 'oh thats nice'#bro help me im doing art elitism to myself#how can i simultaneously believe that art can be anything and yet only neoclassical realism has real value#i want to be creatively free yet all i do is fear the unimpressed looks of strangers
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you always land on all fours
#umineko#umineko spoilers#ikuko hachijo#ikukos turn for a more serious piece... the old man has reigned for too long#now. INCREDIBLY LONG INCOHERENT TAGS RANT INCOMING FAIR WARNING HAS BEEN GIVEN:#it makes me so so sad how little discussion there is about specifically ikuko because imho she fits so neatly into a lot of the more#overarching Big Themes of the game in a way that i have not ever really seen people take notice of or point out in a meaningful way#like even just off of the top of my head. the significance of names and what it means to go by a name that's Not Yours (she has like 4+)#what it Means to be a witch how it represents a person's deepest insecurities and flaws & how its at its core a coping mechanism#the fact that it takes two to create a universe and trying to do it on your own anyways has the capacity to bring you intense misery#^ (how she's shown to be extremely dismissive of her own work and skill until a collaborator comes into her life and helps/encourages her)#and even the family/patriarchy/misogyny stuff that is so prevalent in the rest of the game comes back around to her. even her Only Friend#(young&stupid atp to be fair) remarks that shes Weird for being unmarried + the little she does say about her past invites the question of#to what extent her self-image stems from her family deeming her a freak outcast & effectively disowning her while celebrating her brothers#and i have lot in my mind about the witch thing specifically because i think her particular situation is very reflective of what umineko's#entire magic system and fantasy facet as a whole is meant to represent for an individual. from what little we see of (what is presumably)#her Real personality she is shown to be deeply self conscious in a way that is JARRINGLY diametrically opposed to both 1.) what we see in#featherine and 2.) what we see when she is acting as a Public Figure. because both of the above are very much purposeful acts that she is#putting on in order to obfuscate her true self. and i have always been very resolute & adamant about not totally equating her to featherine#not only because im very firmly in the camp of “featherine is the avatar of the Pen Name & tohya is part of her too” but also very much b/c#i feel very strongly that the stark differences between the two are very centrally relevant to her character & her psyche. as is the case#with most other witches featherine's personality traits serve to reveal/magnify a lot of ikukos inner workings by playing on her#insecurities/reversing them e.g. ikuko being very quick to downplay her skill/achievements becomes featherine being the COMPLETE opposite#to the point where she barely registers even other witches as living beings rather than just fun touys. BUT even though i do champion the#ikuko/featherine separation so hard i ALSO think it is purposefully relevant that at first glance the line between them seems so blurry#her introduction implying a more nebulous separation between her reality/fantasy counterpart is i think is an intentional move on her part#like it is part of the front she is putting up when acting as the Author. as opposed to Ikuko the person who we (in a way ironically very#similar to the way that the Real Battler is presumably only shown during the boatscene) only very briefly get to see take up screentime#which even on a meta level lines up very well with her apparent underlying nature as a like. extremely private largely reserved/shy person#hit tag limit but if by some miracle anyone is still reading this thank you... please see ikuko with the love she deserves... ok ily byeee
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What have you done?
based on an idea @username8746489 had where sylvie discovered nightmare fuel for the first time on accident while getting bullied by some older kids (and pushing him further into social isolation now that he's known as "that scary kid who could summon someone's worst fear")
#♦️charlie's art#epithet erased#sylvester ashling#sylvie ashling#ok i have a lot to yap about here hold on#this was a challenge to make since i was imagining it with no dialogue and limited colors i hope i pulled it off#because of those two things something i had to think a lot about was how the color progression changes the mood#I wasn't originally gonna add that last panel with the aftermath but un suggested the idea of the bullies being vague shadowy figures#initially until sylvie realizes what he did and is forced to see that “that was a real person with their own fears and insecurities”#so then they're drawn more detailed#sylvie and the bullies also aren't in the same panels together until the last one because he's just so below them that he isnt worthy of#sharing equal space with them. these kids are highschoolers. if sylvie wants to look at them he'll always have to look up#and also because i was struggling with their height difference#i hope the second page doesn't make it look too much like sylvie summoned a fire 😭 it kinda helps with the mood but what he summoned is#supposed to be ambiguous and i dont want it to look like i was born yesterday and think nightmare fuel ONLY summone fire#but its hard to make it NOT look like fire when i can only work with orange#the lineart starts out clean and gets messier as the conflict progresses to represent a lack of control#and also it creates kind of a shakey/unstable effect which emphasizes sylvie's fear#also unintentional but i think the second page having detailed shading emphasizes the mood changes. this just got SERIOUS#oh also i used the mizu5 untrained as a color reference thats fun#ALSO SYLVIE DIDN'T KILL ANYONE im just realizing the one curled up in the last panel could be interpreted that way#that's not what i was going for#this might be unrealistic...... but we also know so little about sylvie's backstory that who's to say for sure IDK LET ME MAKE MY FAV SUFFER
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I hate AI. You wanna see your favorite character say something? Here
Dick Grayson: Hi, Don't use AI to make me say things. I'm literally a fictional character, just think.
Look at that Nightwing himself told you not to! Want another?
Dean Winchester: AI is fuckin' stupid, nothing can fake being a human on my watch.
Wow, amazing!
Support the actual humans in your fandom.
#ai#fuck ai#why does ai get to write and do art and create music while some real people cant? why is ai talking over human leasure activities?#why cant ai work for us instead of talking our creativity?#if you write a fanfic that is all one block of text with no plot and horrible spelling its better some bs chat gpt 'wrote’#dc comics#robin#dick grayson#nightwing#dean winchester#jensen ackles#supernatural#support human artists#support human writers#support fanfic writers#anti ai#some of you are getting a little too chummy with AI#🗞stop🗞using🗞AI🗞#even the most mediocre human art is better then ANYTHING AI can 'create'#'bUt i WaNt tO aCtUaLly tAlK tO tHeM.' go find a roleplay account
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Rewatched Moist & Magical and thinking about the gender of it all.
"I wanted to be a witch" "You cannae be a witch" "Why cannae I be a witch" "Because you're a boy. You can be a warlock or a wizard" "I want to be a boy witch"
Like initially the premise gets played off as a smart gender joke within the meta of the storytelling and becomes a major plot point along the way, but I can't stop thinking about it.
I don't want to be a boy or a girl, but some shade between and yet outside it all. I want to be a woman with a beard and long hair and gravel in my voice. I want to be a man in eye liner and a skirt and work boots laced tight. I feel some of my most feminine when I am wearing baggy, heavy clothes or building sets for a show. I still refuse to wear glasses that aren't that hipster square shape and made of dark material because it makes my face look more masculine. I dressed up as a vampire for halloween this year and looking into a mirror and seeing my high hairline and stubble poking through and the corset hugging me and my hair long and fluffy and a dark red lip and an open view of my chest that I don't hide from anymore and I felt so at home in my body in a way that I haven't in years. My relationship to gender not easy to figure out, and, as someone living in it, digesting it is laborious. And I don't expect everyone to get it; that's not the point. That was never the point. The crux of it all: Boys, if magical, can be ONLY a warlock or a wizard.
But I want to be a boy witch.
#something something 4 white british men creating gender metaphors from their improv shows#but truly its a concept ive been trying to describe for forever of feeling outside of gender but deeply entrenched in it as well#going from a point of no concept of gender as a child beyond where you piss or being defined as a mom or dad#to suddenly experiencing puberty and i dont hate everything but its not right and now im something im not#to add on top of the whole autism and poor socialization skills and youve got the real workings of an uh oh sandwich#anyways uhhhh gender is stored in the crystal ball ig#sfth#shoot from the hip#moist and magical#shout out to sam he keeps doing shit that hits me right in the gender about it all
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Thoughts on mtt
they should travel the multiverse together and see and experience a more peaceful life than all of them ever have (⁎˃ᴗ˂⁎)
also they should get to gnaw at each other like rabies infected dogs 🧡🙏
#tricule asks#mtt when the only conflict they have now is with eachother and themselves#or really the conflict with each other is partially caused by themselves too x3#i just think that their character dynamic with each other is so complex and intricate and also very flexible#like you can really go with any route as long as you can justify it and thankfully the mtt have MANY justifications#i feel the only thing limiting that is if i were unable to adapt my mindset to consider them in different settings and emotional states :3#aside from that?!?! mtt are truly infinite in possibilities i will be so for real#they are my favorite characters yes but they are also my favorite instruments to paint a story where the tools creating are also the focus#holy Trio i love the Murder Time Trio i need them all to explode#triglycercule (of course) has ideas for stuff to do for them!!!#was thinking a series of drawings where i just capture moments from their multiverse travels in my mtt take#like in hi3 they sometimes do these art series where the main trio tour different countries and i was thinking that but mtt and multiverse#and then i was thinking of a mttpoly animation meme.......because im stupid and silly like that i love mttpoly#the she was walking around with a loaded shotgun one would be nice to propagandize dust with a gun methinks 😈#also i think making ship animation memes with 3 people instead of 2 would be a wonderful way to experiment#the great part about mttpoly is that because there's 3 of them it never feels stagnant or boring bc if you get sick of 2.....ADD THE 3RD!!!#also also also i was thinking of the mtt meeting the satsujinki or really just the touken-kamui mtt timeline#touken-kamui MY GOAT is remaking the mtt concept which is so so so SOSOSOSO awesome to me#and reading the youtube community posts about it gave me inspiration on this idea i think their reactions to it would be fun to see#and also further elaboration on the satsujunki was given so you know ME (the only touken-kamui's mtt fan) i was overjoyed#the only issue: SCHOOL!!!!!! the bane of everything creative artful and joyful 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔#in an ideal world i would be staying up to draw or write or do a creative project#however this is not an ideal world and i unfortunately have to stay up to do my math and chem homework. it's so over 💔#i swear guys once summer hits......its over for ALL OF YOU......mtt take over beginning june 20th trust#spring break means nothing because i wont be home (to my dismay) i will be forced to go on a family trip 💔💔💔#anyways off to answer all my other asks FINALLY before i begin doing my work because i really feel bad that i answer asks so late 😭😭😭
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One of my favorite details in the manga is how Astral, at the beginning, had an indefinite and vaporous body, but as his adventure with Yuma progressed, he seemed to have gained a more concrete form, and towards the end, he became completely tangible.
#and I love every versions of him very much#Astral’s design is top tier in both his forms#but I’m really fascinated by how his design changed in the course of the manga#I know that the reason he became more solid at the end of the manga is because they are in another world closer to the Astral World#but some of these changes also happened before that#It seems like he has become more real the more time he spent on Earth#because at the start of the manga he had just been created#and then the experiences he lived at Yuma's side had shaped him#Another thing that came to my mind while I was writing this (that probably will get a post of its own): Astral's aura works differently#between manga and anime#at the start of the manga his aura is indistinguishable from his body#and it doesn't appear only during the duels (like it does in the anime)#his aura swirls around him and there are times when his arms or legs can't be seen clearly#sometimes even half of his body “disappears” because of it#I found it very interesting while I was reading the manga#the more I think about Astral the more I find things about him that I want to talk about#I love him so much#astral zexal#astral yugioh#zexal#yugioh zexal#yu gi oh zexal#ygo zexal#zexal manga#zexal manga spoiler
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I bet there were entire origin system groups dedicated to no-moon truthers. Moon just never existed, you can't prove it did, not to them anyway. Kinda like flat earthers but in the Warframe universe where they don't believe in Lua.
#the moon is just a myth we made it up same with the moon landing; there was nothing to land on in the first place /j#I mean I could certainly see the corpus having life long running bets as to whether or not the moon existed in the first place#given the quote from alad v in the second dream quest that would certainly support the idea that it's a huge thing in universe#anti lua groups like flat earthers probably lost their shit when it got brought back out of the void like NO WAY IT WAS REAL!?#i had to compress and reduce the FPS so much for this gif to work you have no idea lmao#the lotus created probably entire groups of history deniers on accident just to protect the reservoir and our operator#its the little details that some of us like to overthink regarding Warframe's worldbuilding & lore isn't it? AUDHD is fun sometimes!#mod rose#warframe confession#warframe#alad v
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=w=b
#uwaaa shoutout to precure posting on my dash. awesome ideas are created#i dont think this is how he'll lookk. i think its going to be worse tbh. </3 but its ok....#hes cute.....#sillyposting#yeagh i stole the colours from his idol outfit you knoww. who caress#first post into my true mspaint journey........ waugh....#one real one knows my true first mspaint drawing. but that was before my hugee getting-a-trackpad :3c#no one will see the doodles i did to try it outt but. this blade is cute imo. sure.#i will allow you to see. just this once.#my work#i think.#uwaaa i dont wannnaaa tag it as thatt.... but i shall....#i need to get better about posting imperfect drawings bc. duhhh??#but i need to be proud... this one is cute... yes....
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its interesting to me that the common sentiment appears to be that han sooyoung intended for jang hayoung to be trans. I think there's room for multiple interpretations, but I view being trans in orv as being inherently tied to the themes of self-actualization, as well as the idea that a narrative is unable to be fully defined by either author or reader. put more simply, jang hayoung is trans regardless of either kim dokja OR han sooyoung's intentions in creating her, or in how they each interpreted her. maybe the version of her in the novel was meant to be something else, but in the reality of this world, she is a trans girl. han sooyoung's intentions kind of don't matter there because the text has moved beyond its author
#narrates#orv#orv spoilers#i guess its like. its not Incorrect that kim dokja misinterprets her (this is a major part of their interactions obviously)#but the assumption seems to be that hes misinterpreted her all along and she was supposed to be trans. which. eh?#again i can see it but i like this reading a lot more#when i discuss characters paralleling kim dokja in some way it is always fully independent of my considering of hsys authorship btw#thats interesting for me to consider separately but i tend to just. enjoy parallels as parallels#as fun as it is to think about how hsys writing choices characterize her. i really like how deeply orv is influenced by death of the author#again it just feels more thematically appropriate to consider orv as a work created in a specific real world context#then to speculate on how writing comes from an author. as interesting as orv's in-text author legitimately is
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The tragedy of having my hands full of work until at least next week and suddenly remembering how much I love and miss Lies of P while living my Geats fever because I need stalker!Riders injected on my veins to keep living
#will tag them to manifest to the universe my need of while my hands are too busy — dont mind me#lies of p#kamen rider geats#i already talked about this once on twitter but i was born with a severe case of bRAZILLIAN#just like d2 fed a lot of my aus now lop is my mental playground#im still weak to the steampunk victorian dystopic puppetto made with souls worldbuilding#and i'm just scratching the surface here bc the wake-up call was stalkers with animal masks#like we already have fox and cat volfe siblings you'll always be famous#so technically i would change them to fit geats and na-go - prob make one white and the other yellow instead of red and black#but also wHAT DO YOU MEAN WE DONT HAVE A BULL STALKER— 'its a buffalo'#AND NOT A RACCOON— 'tanukis are not raccoons'#for real tho mad donkey is this *okay emote* close from buffa#and going one floor deeper ergo / giragira hello jyamato and puppets manifesting memories of the dead hELLO#another floor deeper and a godly figure turned into tree/stone //drums#i'm not even mentioning 'idealized child created post-mortem' bc since pinocchio this is a staple but hEY#prob here just like my d2/lop au i would subvert sophia's role bc casuals would think of tsumuri which /fits/ but so would ace#'polux why do you create so much aus if you barely do anything with them' BECAUSE ITS A CURSE ITS MY FATE I'M DOOMED TO AU#technically they help me have inspos for my own original ideas but while i have my own jobs i can't really work on them so i stick to aus
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ajax/rembrandt/cleon… your mind (genius)
Okay I know I made that post being all doomed yuri about Ajax/Cleon but my true passion in life is characters who love each other SO much and are SO devoted to one another but it simply would not work unless 🫵 you put another guy in there. And i do believe Rembrandt has the power to be that guy.
Like Ajax is fundamentally a pretty insecure person and she needs someone to put her first, something that Cleon can kind of fundamentally never do (unless we are living in fanfiction world in which case 👀 the drama). And I think that Cleon already feels like ahe has the world on her shoulders and so Ajax having such unwavering faith in her just feels like another person shes potentially going to let down. So while they love each other they can't really work in a relationship. But Rembrandt is anxious enough that I think Ajax's level of devotion would be steadying for her, and she's petty enough to take Ajax's side even when she's wrong. Rembrandt is on paper just a better partner for Ajax to have. Their needs match up better. But I don't think Rembrandt gets in the way of Ajax and Cleon's relationship at all, I think her being around reduces the stakes because Ajax doesn't NEED Cleon quite as badly since shes got someone else, so they could actually explore being in a more romantic relationship because Rembrandt is there to balance them out.
I think the most obvious interpretation is that Ajax would be dating Rembrandt and Cleon but they're not dating each other but give me like three business days and I'll have cooked up a Rembrandt/Cleon dynamic. Even if they're not dating I think they take their metamour thing very seriously in a way that isn't properly described by them just being friends. Also I think Rembrandt would be the Warrior Cleon can hang out with when she wants to take a break from being Cleon the Warlord for a night. As a tagger I think Rembrandt doesn't take the chain of command like AS seriously as the soldiers do because like Cleon's orders for her are mostly "go spraypaint that building." Not as much drama and tension as she has with the others who could and would kill and die for her.
However. If we're talking about that tweet. In a totally unrelated to canon au. I think Ajax and Cleon as an established couple picking up Rembrandt in a bar would go craaaazy.
#ive been kicking around the idea of one of those classic#'the group is trapped in a dreamscape created by one of the members' subconscious that they need to find a way to escape somehow'#episodes that you see a lot in like superhero cartoons#now do i know HOW the warriors would end up in that situation? no#do i know WHAT fantasy scenario they would each create? yes#also for this au the way the dreamscape works is that you get out by making the person whose fantasy it is realize its a dream#and so its also drama of like them each realizing slowly that its not real#and then trying to figure out whose dream it is and convince them to leave#warriors musical
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To also go off of the point about cop!akihiko being annoying to me I gotta say that Akihiko as a character is very hit or miss with me because of how different adaptations of p3 will subtly alter his character. I felt like in portable with the femc route he comes off best, he’s a bit of a hothead with an obsession with fighting, but he’s overcompensating his strength so he doesn’t feel as weak and helpless as he’s been in many situations. He defines strength in a very literal sense, being physically strong and using that to protect others, but he’s lacking in emotional strength as a result. And in particular in this version I think he’s portrayed as a bit more goofy and sweet in a sense. He cares deeply for you as a friend and leader but he struggles with finding the words to describe how he feels. Hes kinda naive and gullible and has trouble noticing his surroundings. He has no clue what he’s doing but his heart is in the right place. I think he just comes off much more human and he has flaws, many many flaws, and that makes him all the more lovable
But then in other adaptations and spinoffs it’s like. They look at him through some hetero male bullshit filter and seem to view him as a lot more admirable and cool. Like in p3 dancing, theres literally an event where he’s talking with Junpei and Minato and they’re gushing about how perfect Akihiko is and how he doesn’t seem to have ANY flaws at all. And it becomes clear his inability to flirt with women just gets added as a way to make sure you, the Straight Male Player, don’t get insecure being next to such Perfection because at the end of the day, you’re still more charming and sexy than he will ever be because you’re better. It’s a “flaw” that’s only there to shield a sensitive male ego. And then in arena I mean, come on. He’s overly beefy and is a damn cop and travels the world and loves Protein™️ it’s his whole personality and he’s so clearly meant to be seen as hot but like, he’s just some shitty hetero male fantasy. Hes what the writers deem to be a Perfect Man that every guy wishes he could be, but don’t worry he’s still bad with women so you don’t gotta worry about him stealing your property- I mean, girlfriend!
And though I’ve not played reload and don’t really plan to anytime soon, judging from his social episodes they seem to have a similar problem. Akihiko comes off as a lot less approachable, like the year age gap is just too much of a barrier to get to know him properly. And he doesn’t have that dorky sweetness he has in portable, he’s just that perfect hetero male fantasy guy and don’t you fucking worry- he still has his protein powder with him
#persona#persona 3#akihiko sanada#does this make sense like i feel like im going crazy cuz okay#akihiko isnt in my top 3 characters (shinji ken and fuuka lol) but hes teetering on the edge hes number 4!#i really loved him in portable i worked my ass off to get his social link i had him on my team the entire game#i found him really cute and endearing and hilarious but then like i played dancing#and er well i never got all his events cuz im bad at that game but i noticed that subtle difference#and then watching reload clips i felt it again i was like good god i hate this guy i wanna beat him up#which is so weird since hes one of my favorite characters so like what the hell is that#but i really think it is just this filter hes being presented with like when hes supposed to be a love interest#hes allowed to be more flawed and adorably pathetic and sensitive#like hes the one who wants to do the protecting but you end up protecting him you know?#so yeah this is what i mean when i say that if any straight person looks at akihiko sanada i will melt them with lasers#my mitsuru rant is a lot longer but its very similar just that ughh disgusting filter shes presented through I HATE IT I HATE IT SO MUCH#i think having kotone as the protagonist fixes most problems so i consider that the solution lol but i think Aki not getting a real social#link is a major disservice and creates that super annoying upperclassman divide that makes him unapproachable and idolized
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BADGER! BADGER! BADGER!
I wanted to show off this small set of badger-themed sculptures (in cold porcelain and painted with acrylics) I have been working on during the month ✨ After reading and investigating about servitors/magical self-created companions, I intended to make anchors for the one I'm working with!
And is a badger because I'm following my gut and my brain is very attached to the animal so, why not ride that wave of energy? (The dual bolines/sickles have too both visual and functional symbolism, mostly aligned to cleaning/reaping energies + moon phases).
The first two actually are for the vessels/anchor: the bigger one was the first try and ended just a few millimeters tall to enter properly on the destined tin I'm using to hide it in (I live in a place where's not safe to do my practice publicly so, I need to keep concealed); then I did the second try and ended super chibi for my tastes but x'D there.
The third is simply just a recreation of the animal because I want to pet the critter without the need of retrieving the vessels at all times.
The last one is my fav of the bunch: a tiny, super chonky badger bead!!! I want to do more in the future and put all of them on a string with other tiny trinkets for good luck and protection.
I have time without sculpting something so, these were a great starting point and I hope to do more themed around other animals I feel they align to my energy and spiritual needs!
#witchy side of the wind#servitors#energy work#animal ally#spirit work#witchcraft#chaos magic#i cant call it spirit because of its artificial nature even if a simulacrum of a real animal#i never delved this deep on my craft but my soul gravitates and points at it that i say WHY NOT#and at the same time i want to have certain control over this so#i will work with a creation of my own and at the same time sprinkle archetypes that im familiar with#i know vessels dont need to be fancy but IM A VERY TACTILE person so#creating these figurines reaffirm for me my attachment and desire to make this work#and if nothing works at least i can say i tried and have cute trinkets to carry around sdjkfhsdhf#i feel a tad cringe for sharing these but AAA#THIS IS HOW I KILL THAT FEEL
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I'm alive (light-heartedly). Thank y'all for being so patient with me. I have been having some trouble writing requests for a bit, and I've been a little worn out.
I'm going to just focus on the poll fic for this weekend and try to get other stuff done next month. It's been hard for me to actually get started, but I'm enjoying the process with this one, so hopefully you all will like the NSFW Beel x Diavolo x MC content I'll have for you, some time on the 31st (I hope).
#moss update#also if I can elaborate a little#warning: venting in the tags#but I did kinda pop off with it so maybe give it a read?#I feel a bit disconnected with my words as of late. I can write something but it's hard to tell if it sounds like my other writing#I feel like I've taken my usual voice picked it up and just sort of dropped it in an adjacent location#I can see how I would usually write but it's more like I'm trying to mimic the usual narrative path in real time instead of creating it#like tracing the veins of some familiar creature#and trying to follow the pulsing of blood so I can use its rhythm in my own Frankenstein-ian creature.#It's awkwardly intimate but my hands are doomed to the work of piecing something together.#I happily crazily do it#knowing that I crave it so intensely that it must be done at any means.#Even if it involves this self-conscience feeling of self-mimicry.#How else can I get back to my sense of voice if not to relearn it all over again?
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Do you mind if I have a message to the Anons? (you can just ignore this ask if you don't wanna post it)

My Dear Anons and everyone here present
Plz Let Kawa Cook and Chill a little
As you could see from the last posts, she didn't had a nice time lately, so she deserves to just sit and enjoy her drawings If she will be ready to show us some of her gorgouse work, she'll show it
Guys plz remember that asking Artists "When will be the next chapter of this and that", "What are you cooking there" isn't always a good thing, there are a lot of us here, it can make the artist tired and it (in my opinon) doesn't really help to get more motivation if everyone is asking these questions
Guys! Some mistery from the Artist side is good! It will hype us more!
(Again Kawa, you can just ignore this Ask if you are not comfortable with answering it, I hope that you feel a little better then before)
Okay, so.
Today was my first day in a new school. Im very anxious about this. New people, new surroundings, new stuff to learn and new responsibilities.
Because of my school year starting, I'll have less time for myself which means less time to draw and write :(
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Im planning on some stuff for you, but I dont wanna tell you what it is. I want you to have a surprise & its much less pressure for me!
& I dont mind asks, comments, dms, requests or questions. I like when you talk to me!
Just please be patient with me, and thank you!

HAVE A NICE DAY/NIGHT/ANYTHING!!!!!!🩵🩷🩵🩷🩵🩷🩵🩷omg the hearts are so pretty what yhe hell
#ask#ok time for stuff im too embarassed to say out loud#the whole attention and kind feedback makes me feel accepted and important even which i dont feel on daily basis#i do realize its internet and not real life which makes it impossible for me to get attached to but its still very nice#im flustered when you guys get hyperfixated over my stuff or when you create something because i inspired you#its just.#so cool to see you make stuff#also im not joking. asks dont make me feel pressed or anxious at all#btw the thing im working on is smiliar to arcane crossover :)#i hope i will finish it LMFAO my ass just cant focus on finish one thing at a time /hj
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