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PLS ANSWER PLS PLS PLS
do we like this masterlist setup or the one i currently have ? iâm indecisive HAHA
#please please vote bc im actually going insane#on one hand its cute#but on the other it seems sooooo long#yanno?#meeya talks .á
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO 1ST LIEUTENANT EDWARD LITTLE!!
Having a little party with the other lieutenants and Crozier (left to right: Hodgeson, Irving, Le Vesconte, Ned, Crozier, Gore and Fairholme), Winter 1846 (before everything went downhill)
#homegirl is so hard to draw#have no idea how to draw gore and fairholme#didnât even know they were the other lieutenants on the Erebus#thought it was just dundy for some reason#and I canât for the life of me get crozier right#he seems easy enough to draw but he always ends up looking like a dyke somehow ahhshsh#this took sooooo fucking long to make but I like it#the terror#the terror amc#edward little#ned little#george hodgson#john irving#jirving#dundy le vesconte#francis crozier#graham gore#james walter fairholme#froggerart
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If y'all ever see me IRL- it'd make so much more sense why my Sona looks how it looks
#also I like cats#and stripes but I never really wear stripes IRL so that wouldn't really transfer over :P#the only opposite things between me and my sona tho are that I gots me some small hands and feet and I'm kinda insecure about that???#idk- I just always really imagine my sona (and all my other oc's that are really similar to how I look IRL) with larger hands and feet#it's a weird thing with me- sometimes I'm fine with having smaller hands and feet and other times It just doesn't seem.. nice????? idk#..wait why'd I even start this post- ajfuzkgkldgkdkjdkdj wasn't to vent about my disproportionate hands and feet I'll tell you that#think I just got some idea to talk about my sona then this happened#sOoOoo uhh- yeah I'm gonna go get ready to shower now#and water my plants#cuz I forgot to yesterday and I usually water em either every Saturday or Sunday#<< wait do I unconsciously draw hands big because of this???????#hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.... nah that's probably cuz my general understanding on anatomy is a bit finicky- especially on how long arms are supposed#be and how big hands are supposed to be ajhfsjfjfkgjxkgkdkhj
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twst book 7 part 5 felt like such an attack on me personally. i slightly edit silver's official art to make him look more like riku from kingdom hearts, mostly as a joke based on how similar they already look, and then suddenly a few months later i'm getting silver vibes from lizz robinett's lyrics to riku's theme
#at least sebek was there to help silver speedrun this character arc#imagine how much different kh would be if sora and riku found each other again like right after kh1 ended#also silver hallucinating himself looking like the knight of dawn has riku taking on ansem's appearance during kh2 vibes#and the knight of dawn has long hair like kh2 riku#my theory on why mickey seems to know silver is he subconciously recognizes him as being partially twisted from his kh bestie riku. /hj#sorry i am just sooooo not normal about all this#anyway i have now read this whole update twice in a row. oops#twisted wonderland spoilers#twst spoilers#twisted wonderland liveblog
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What a good episode. Maaaaaan
#I can't even start I'd be here forever#It did take me in fact like one hour total to watch it lmoa. It sooooo good!!! The animation is very good#(albeit it's awfully low on brightness at times. But such seems to be the sin of lot of recent media unfortunately)#but I'm not even going to dwell on that. The plot / storytelling is so good. Sooooo god. I adore this arc.#Love the symbolism. I've been saying this for almost two years now (is it really been that long ever since these episodes came out... ) but#I want to write an analysis on the op & ed so baddd. The emphasis on the twilight this episode!!#Like the sun was setting on the detective agency. I love love love the hd. They're so cool in this episode and they're so cool in general.#I ADORE Jouno. I don't feel particularly strongly for sue/giku yet their scenes are so cute and funny. I see why people ship them.#Even Tetchou I don't usually care much about is so !!!!! I love all the hd so much fr!!!!!!!!!!#I love love love Jouno. Like much like it is for Akutagawa I'm very weak for characters that aren't really good people.#But they're still trying to be a better person than they were. And oftentimes they end up doing a terrible job!!#But the fact alone that they're //trying// has me ougheueueueu. Here in this episode you can see Jounoâ#sliping very easily in his cruel / sadistic habits. But he is trying to be a person that cares for others! He made good actions in the past#and he will again in the future even though right now he's acting like this! Because improvement isn't linear! I love him tonsss#And DON'T get me started on the ada. Yosano's âWelcomeâ scene. I love women. I love women. Yosano please one chance#KENJI'S SCENE God I needed this. How could I forget the way this literllyyyyy rewinded my brain when I read the manga for the first time.#That scene is so deep and poignant and so so meaningful I. Oughhh#I am going to run out of tags am I not#Kyouka saving Atsushi!!!!!!! That scene is one of my all time favourites. It makes me soft to remember when the s4 trailer droppedâ#I was so overjoyed for that bit of them holding hands :') Rightfully so!!! It's so cute.#Her coming back to save Atsushi. The âdon't worryâ I didn't kill themâ direct towards Atsushiâ#that is so so Akutagawa and it sends me insane hhhhhhgggggggggg#Kunikida!!!!! His âI'm not leaving anyone behindâ!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm not precisely Kunikida's first fan but aaaaaahhh he makes me feelâ#so much for him in this scene!!!!! Mmmhhh one last note would be. It bugs me a little how the ada is defined terrorist by the militaryâ#forces starting this episode? I don't have space to elaborate properly but. An action to be considered terrorism must have clear politicalâ#orientation and goal. Violence alone isn't enought to be defined terrorism. It's an incorrect use of the word#Up to the next episode!!! Can't wait to see more Atsushi đ„°đ„°#random rambles#It's late now and probably most are asleep rn... Then I'll be queing my posts for tomorrow probably
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sorry for spamming the tlc tag. but im not done yet
please rb and explain why. ill go first
#its cress because they spent way too fucking long in that desert#also why was it brown people that kidnapped the two white main characters. marissa lets think about what youre implying here with poc#there werent enough scarlet chapters to explain wtf happened and it was way too random#not enough focus on wolf besides him going beserk and passing out. also all his trauma being told thru the lens of other people ie cinder#the jacin scarlet switch up seemed so random#JACIN WAS MEAN AF!!!#and thorne was just ⊠UGH#those are my thoughts. my two univs if you will#the lunar chronicles#mine#the rooftop fight scene is actually my FAVORITE out of the ENTIRE SERIES#it was just SO ICONIC FOR EVERYONE#I LOVE THAT SCENE SOOOOO MUCH#cinder being a BAMF. cress being a BAMF#thorne being a BAMF. jacin escaping somehow đ€Ł#kai passed out on the ground somewhere. sybil mira being tortured by cinder#just absolute INSANITY i LOVED IT#shitpost
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the actually worst part of doing things alone is getting other people to not want to go with you
#bc itâs normal to ask someone to accompany you but telling someone you want to do sth alone tends to be viewed as rude#esp when the other person doesnât get going places alone#but i looove doing that itâs sooooo fun#like i literally lied to someone today that i was going to the doctor even though i went to see a museum exhibit#bc i was worried sheâd want to join me and i wanted to just sit there with headphones on and wander around#btw how do i get a relationship to die off naturally if the other person doesnât seem to want it to end#like even the 2 hours we spent together today were a little exhausting and sheâs been annoying me this entire past semester#nothing happened either ig i just donât care as much abt this as her plus listening to her sometimes makes me want to go crazy#like yeah iâm sorry the guy you like told you he was busy and then went to see someone else#but also. this has been going on for so long he clearly doesnât want to see you that much#but i donât want to tell her that like itâs be kind of cruel but i just. find that such a strange situation#maybe itâs bc iâve never had a crush on anyone or maybe bc i donât care to pursue relationships when they arenât just developing#on their own but like. girl how do you live like this#and listening to her complain that she doesnât have classes this semester like ok?? then find some to go to???#đ#idk i donât want to be an asshole but sheâs so tiring
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Love atheist communities that hate Christianity but reproduce every single issue Christianity has right down to the racism, wild misogyny, and of all fuckin things evangelizing atheism by sending religious people rude ass 'gotcha' type reactionary content to like idk, recruit people to atheism the way Certian Brands of Christian recruit literally anyone to their religion.
Like yes this atheism is what I see a lot of white men participating in, but like how dense do you have to be to only ditch the GOD part of religion and nothing else while claiming you're intellectually superior to religious folks like a great many incredibly talented and smart people in various sciences weren't religious?
#winters ramblings#its so funny that the so called 'skeptic' communities on youtube and reddit claimed ti be SOOOOO skeptical of things#but never took a fuckin second to check their misogyny or racism and badically applied shite christian values to everything they do#but think they arent doing that because they openly denounce god. like bestie youre doing ALL the same shit i have a problem with#in teligious spaces except you have the balls to claim youre inherently smarter and more intellectual#which is why youre SO SMART you cant figure out how to be a halfway decent human being#like its so funny when i see athiests like this around where it feels like religion is the only thing they felt held them back#and not in the ways PoC queer people and women deal with- THEIR athiesm is usually rooted in#'christians told me i was black because i have the curse of ham and thats fucking racist as shit' or some other discrimination event#plus your average religious truama and in my case just a lack of desire to participate in religion and also no belief in it#but then you have white dudes whove never had a real problem in their life doing all the same shit as them Nasty Christians they rail on#without a H I N T of the irony while also wondering why it is that their spaces seem so... homogeneous lmao#almost like women PoC and queer people know all you did was reject the GOD bit not any of the underlying discrimination tendencies#no need for them to unpack that i guess because theyre Very Smart Skeptics they dont seem to think#that they believe just as much dumb shit as any religious or non religious folks out there except theyre insufferable about it#also the nonsense of science being inherently opposed to religion like tell me you know nothing about the history of science#without saying you have NO IDEA what youre talking about. so much science was trying to understand gods creations#science and god arent diametrically opposed to each other and in fact went hand in hand for a long time#not as much any more but ill bet a huge number of scientists are still religious because being smart#doesnt mean youre an athiest like HELLO youre not smarter than anyone for not believing in god#the same way you arent smarter or better FOR believing in god lmao
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ᄫᥠheian era! sukuna, who cant seem to keep his hands to himself, and has to touch you at all times.
whether it be while walking around the estate, in the bedroom, or even attending important events, you always have to have some kind of physical contact. nobody has any idea of where it stems from, but nobody has the guts to question it. not even his closest subordinate, uraume.
especially when you are always seated sooooo pretty on his throne, as he listens to the ridiculous requests the civilian people have for him. his large lower set of hands resting on the small of your back, and the top two are rested one on your shoulder, the other on top of your head, as your body turns to face his. he pays little to no attention to you, other than the fact that he is holding onto you like you are about to blow away if he doesnt. he would nod as a civilian speaks, all while rubbing your back in large circles, reassuring himself that you are still there.
or lets say you want to move away from him? that simply will not happen. his grip on you will tighten, and he keeps a closer eye on you. you need to use the bathroom? too bad. either he is coming with you, or you're just gonna have to hold it. you want him to loosen his hold on your waist? thats fine, but now you are being carried on his shoulder, he hopes you dont mind, (not like he cares anyways, it isnt your opinion that matters in the end.)
but he enjoys it. he secretly enjoys the physical relation he has to you. he himself cannot pinpoint why, but it definitely has something to do with the way your body, in comparison to his, is so much softer and plumper, juxtaposition to his rough, calloused frame. he relishes in the softness anytime he wants, because he knows you are his, and you are his to touch, feel and hold. and nobody else besides him will be able to touch you the way he does.
and when you touch him back? he will hum in contentment. a low, gruff hum letting you know you are doing good. eventually, you will crave his touch, to a point where you do as much as he does. he maaayyyyy deprive you of touch if he thinks you have not been fit for it. but as long as you let him feel your lush body, he is a content man.
#sukuna#sukuna ryomen#sukuna x reader#heian sukuna#heian era sukuna#heian sukuna x reader#sukuna x you#sukuna x Charlotte#heian#heian era#jujutsu kaisen#jjk x reader#jjk x you#jjk x Charlotte#jjk smut#sukuna fluff#sukuna drabble#drabble
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let me love you - matthew sturniolo
summary: your boyfriend sucks, and matt may or may not be in love with you.
warnings: pure smut, cheating, oral f!receiving, fingering, hickeys, unprotected sex.
a/n: thanks for enjoying my ghostface au! this is kind of a slow burn itâs like 1.5k words before they get freaky. yall wanted best friend matt so here you go đ ALSO I started writing this prior to everyone talking about no nut november sooooo âŠ. lmk if u want smut from me still or maybe some fluff or angst cuz I am a sluuuttt for angst
wc: 6.2k
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âNo!â You cry out, throwing your body backwards on the white couch you sat on, dramatically slamming the PS5 controller down next to you in defeat. âYou guys teamed up on me and cheated! No fair.â
Laughter filled your ears around you, your friends and boyfriend finding your reaction hilarious.
You were at your best friend Mattâs house, along with his two brothers, your boyfriend, and a couple of other friends from high school. Nick had wanted to invite your guysâ old friend group over as it had been a while since you had all seen each other together, and so far you guys were having a blast. Youâd ordered a pizza, watched a cringey movie that came out while you guys were in high school, and now were playing Mario Kart, which was never really your strong suit.
âNobody ganged up on you, kid. You just suck,â Chris laughed from his spot next to you, bringing his phone up to take a picture of the big pout on your face.
âI hate this game,â you tell him, standing up from your spot between him and your boyfriend, getting up to go refill your red solo cup with soda. As you walk to the kitchen, you hear footsteps behind you, and youâve been friends with everyone here long enough to know whoâs creeping up behind you, so you turn around, pout still plastered on your face.
Matt laughs as soon as he makes eye contact with you, unable to hold it in. âCmon, donât be a sore loser,â he starts.
Your jaw drops at his comment in disbelief before you pick it up and giggle, dropping the facade. âIâm not being a sore loser,â you assure him with another laugh. âIâm thirsty and was also kind of wondering if there was any pizza left.â
Matt smiles at your change of attitude, happy youâre not actually upset with the outcome of the game, even though he would never mind trying to cheer you up. âI knew youâd want more, actually,â he moves around the table to open the fridge door. âSeemed like everyone was going crazy on the pizza so I grabbed a couple slices and put them aside for you.â
Your heart swells a bit as you walk around to join Matt by the fridge, smiling wide as he pulled out a tupperware container with a couple pieces of your favorite pizza. âAww,â you drawl. âYou know me so well, Matt. Thank you!â You take the container from him and set it on the counter before turning around and wrapping your arms around his neck, hugging him tightly.
He hugs you back with his arms around your waist for a moment before pulling away, patting your sides as he does so. âOf course, just heat it up real quick. Iâm gonna run to the bathroom,â he smiles at you, turning and walking away.
You smile to yourself as you pop the tupperware into the microwave, listening to the hum of the machine while you twiddle your fingers and wait for it to heat up. As it beeps, you feel a presence sneak up behind you, hands wrapping around your waist.
You spin around with a small grin, looking up at your boyfriend looming over you. âHi,â you say sweetly.
âHey,â he responds, kissing your forehead. âMore pizza?â His eyebrows furrow as he looks down at you.
âYeah,â you respond, breaking free from his grasp to grab your pizza out of the microwave. âMatt put a few slices aside for me because I always eat more later.â You take a bite out of one of the slices, humming in satisfaction, looking up at your boyfriend with a small smile.
He looks down at you with a smile that doesnât meet his eyes, watching you eat. âDidnât you have like four pieces earlier?â He questions, raising his eyebrows slightly.
You pause chewing for a moment, furrowing your eyebrows as you look at him. âHuh?â You say, slightly garbled by the food in your mouth. You take a moment and chew whatâs in your mouth, swallowing thickly before setting down your bowl, placing both hands on your hips. âAre you questioning how much Iâm eating or am I hearing things?â
He crosses his arms as the smile drops off of his face. âThatâs not what I mean,â he starts. âIâm just⊠saying you had a few pieces earlier and you just heated up like four more pieces, thatâs all.â
You guys have been friends for almost ten years now, however your relationship was relatively fresh, only about seven months in, and in those ten years that youâve known each other, youâve never been known to eat salads or small portions. Youâve always had a faster metabolism, and a more active life, so you werenât particularly worried about indulging in a few extra pieces of pizza during a night with some of your closest friends.
You tilt your head and narrow your eyes, arms coming up to cross over your chest. âIs this something youâd be comfortable saying in front of all of our friends?â
He scoffs and shakes his head, turning to walk away. âDonât make this something itâs not, babe. Just a question,â he says, heading back towards the couch where the rest of your friends are.
Youâre still standing there with your arms crossed, watching him sit down next to Chris, picking up a controller while he laughs about something somebody said, completely switching up his attitude like he wasnât just trying to patrol what you were eating and how much of it.
At that moment, Matt comes back, drying his hands on his grey sweatpants, making them a bit darker on the outsides of his thighs. âHowâs the pizza?â He asks with a smile, before he notices your demeanor and the pizza resting on the counter instead of in your hands. âEverything okay?â
You turn your attention to your friend, looking at him with a confused expression while you try to decipher the interaction that just happened between you and your boyfriend. âYeah,â you say, but it isnât a confident answer, and you sound almost confused. âCome on, letâs go sit back down,â you tell him, grabbing your bowl of reheated pizza before starting to walk back to the couch, flopping down on it aggressively, making sure everyone knew you were back.
Matt follows happily, sitting down next to you. You turn and smile at him before slinging one of your legs over his, his hand habitually landing on your knee as you did so. You two had always been the closest in the friend group, but it was always platonic, as much as some of the people in the friend group wanted you guys to end up together.
Nick came and sat on your other side, smiling at the bowl in your hand, pointing at it happily. âSecret stash?â He asked.
You nod enthusiastically, swallowing the food that was in your mouth. âMatt saved me some because he knows how much I love to eat again a few hours later.â Your tone was slightly bratty, eyes flicking over to your boyfriend who stared at you and Matt. He was clearly mad at how close the two of you were sitting, and the hand placed gently on your knee.
Nick nodded. âOh yeah, I think we all know how much you love leftovers. I wish I could eat as much as you and still look that good,â he teased. You laughed, knowing Nick had no idea the interaction that transpired in the kitchen a few minutes ago, and his timing was just coincidentally perfect.
The night played on as usual, games continuing to play on the tv, loud chatter filling the room as you all caught up on each othersâ lives, talking about how adult life takes so much time to live and leaves so little for socializing.
Soon, people started leaving, and eventually it was just the triplets, your boyfriend and yourself, all sitting on the couch as the conversation started to die out, everyone starting to become tired.
Your boyfriend stands from the couch, stretching his arms above his head, shirt riding up slightly. âI think Iâm gonna head out, Iâm really tired,â he says. âYou want a ride home, babe?â He looks down at you where you now laid on your side, head resting on a pillow by the arm of the couch.
You look up and shoot him a quick smile, shaking your head. âIâm gonna pass out here for the night, thanks though.â You tell him. It was typical for you to stay over at the tripletsâ house when you got the chance. Youâve known them the longest and grown the closest with them out of the friend group.
âOh, you can sleep in my room!â Chris smiles at you, reaching over to grab your ankle, shaking it lightly. âIâm gonna sleep in Nickâs room.â
You sit up and laugh at Chris, nodding your head lightly. âOkay, thanks, Chris. Youâre the best.â
You and Chris had an almost sibling like relationship from the start, teasing and goofing off being an essential part of your bond. They were also a little bit younger, so he was like the little brother you never had.
Your boyfriend nods and walks over to you, leaning down to kiss you quickly before straightening back out, heading towards the door. âBye guys, thanks for hosting,â he says towards the boys before leaving, door shutting behind him.
You let out a sigh you didnât know you were holding, looking around at the three boys around you, all comfortably sitting on the couch on their phones. You smile to yourself a bit before pushing yourself up off of the couch, causing them to look up at you.
âIâm gonna go to sleep,â you say. âThanks for letting me sleep in your bed, Chris.â
Chris smiles up at you and nods. âGoodnight,â he says.
âNight,â you respond, starting your walk through the kitchen to get to the stairs.
Matt gets up and trails behind you, and you donât even question it, only turning around to look at him when youâve made it to Chrisâ room. âHere to tuck me in?â You tease.
Matt laughs and shrugs, walking to sit on the edge of the bed, looking up at you as you raid the drawers to find a large t-shirt to change into for the night. âI mean I can tuck you in if you want, but I just wanted to make sure you were okay after earlier. Iâm not really sure what happened but you werenât right after that.â
You pull out an old, worn out red sox shirt and walk over to the bed, sitting down in the middle of it. You let out a sigh and stare down at your hands. âIâm okay, itâs just⊠you know how I was eating those last few pieces of pizza?â
Matt scoots closer to you and turns to face you, nodding his head as he did so. âDid he say something to you?â He asked curiously, head tilting a bit.
You take a deep breath and nod, letting the air out slowly and quietly while you think of what to say. âHe just made a comment about how much I was eating and it kind of rubbed me the wrong way. Said I already ate a good amount earlier so I shouldnât eat any more.â
Matt pulled his head back with a disgusted look on his face. âThatâs weird. Itâs no different from how you usually eat.â He said.
You just shrugged your shoulders and leaned back against the headboard. âYeah, I know. Thatâs why I was so confused when he said it, it was just so out of left field. Itâs not like Iâve gained weight since weâve been together or anything either. I donât know, Matt, heâs been weird lately. Iâm not even sure if we should be together, but if we break up itâs going to make things weird between everybody and⊠I just donât know.â You run your hands over your face and groan loudly, smacking your hands back down on your legs when youâre done.
Matt looks at you for a moment, trying to figure out what to say that might make things better, but his curiosity gets the better of him and he finds himself trying to dig deeper. âHow is he being weird?â He inquires, sitting still in his spot in the middle of the bed.
You shake your head and look up at Matt, pursing your lips as you think. âHe just⊠heâs not very physical with me, he barely takes me on dates and when he does, I have to ask him to take me out, his texts are so dry it hurts, and⊠not to be too tmi but⊠Iâm just not very,â you blush and look down at your lap before finishing your sentence. âSatisfied.â Your voice fades off into almost a whisper.
Mattâs eyebrows raise, shocked that you confided in him about your sex life. It wasnât the first time it had happened, but normally he didnât know the guys you were complaining about and you could joke about it more freely. âLike⊠youâre not finishing?â He asks, not sure how far youâd be willing to take this conversation.
You cover your face, embarrassed, but ultimately you make eye contact through your fingers and shake your head, silently answering the question. âI do things for him every time, but I feel like heâs just using me to get off and my pleasure isnât important. Heâs never even eaten me out, just like fingered me before sex but you can tell heâs just doing it because he thinks he should, not because he actually wants to, and Iâve been with guys who enjoy that kind of stuff so I know itâs not a universal thought that getting your girlfriend off is a chore. But he doesnât even get me off! He just like⊠plays around down there and then fucks me for like two minutes!â
Matt laughs at your tone, nodding his head in agreement. âTwo minutes is⊠crazy,â he cackles.
You laugh back at him, the mood lifted. âYouâre telling me. I feel like I can literally count the seconds without losing track in the time it takes him to finish.â
Mattâs head falls back in laughter, but when he comes back to look at you, he raises an eyebrow at you. âHeâs seriously never eaten you out?â He asks, shocked at the earlier statement.
âNo,â you shake your head, lips falling in a tight line. âCrazy, right?â
He nods, taking a breath in like he was going to speak, but stopping himself before words could come out. He thought for a moment, not wanting to say anything to make the situation awkward. âI feel like I always eat a girl out and get her off at least once before we actually, yâknow. Fuck.â
Itâs been way too long, you think to yourself. Way too long since youâve actually been pleasured by a man that left you satisfied and even craving more. With your boyfriend now it just felt like you should be having sex, but you never craved it.
âI wish that was the case but⊠itâs mostly just me blowing him and not getting anything in return, or we just have sex without any sort of foreplay,â you tell him. Your eyes bore into his and you swallow thickly. Itâs not like youâve never thought about what sex with Matt would be like. You guys have talked about your sexual encounters before, but mostly as a joke, in ways that didnât make you guys want each other, at least thatâs what you thought. But now, talking about how awful your sex life was and how attentive Matt was in bed, it made you feel even more deprived.
Unbeknownst to you, Matt had thought about sex with you more than heâd like to admit, but would never bring it up due to fear of rejection. Heâs had a crush on you for a while now, but the thoughts of getting you naked and in his bed and consumed him recently. He was so turned on by even the smallest thing; the clothes you wore, your hair in a bun paired with your glasses, the smell of your perfume, everything made him want you even more. He felt like this conversation might be the only time he could make a move and actually have it make sense, but he didnât know how to bring it up.
âYou deserve better than that,â he starts nervously, right hand playing with the ring on his left pinky. âHave you talked to him about it?â
You laugh, rolling your eyes. âYeah right. Doesnât do anything. He says he doesnât do that. Says itâs boring and he hates the taste. Like suck it up.â
Matt keeps eye contact with you, taking a deep breath before the words that will change your relationship no matter the outcome slip past his lips.
âI love it,â he says. âI love eating girls out, having them squirm underneath me, pull my hair⊠it might be my favorite part of sex.â
Your throat goes dry as Matt talks, the eye contact getting almost too intense for you. The air in the room has shifted, and itâs hard to ignore. You swallow thickly, looking down to his lips before flitting back up to his eyes.
âListen, I.. I donât want to make this awkward or make you uncomfortable and,â he scoots closer on the bed, reaching a hand up to trail over your thigh. âI know weâve been friends for a really long time and this would change things forever, but I canât even tell you how bad I want to make you feel good.â
You suck in a breath, goosebumps arising on your leg where his hand rested, thumb gently swiping back and forth. âMattâŠâ you look at him with raised eyebrows.
âI know, I know youâre with him,â he interrupts. âBut I could make you feel so good. Please.â
Begging was your weakness, the desperate look in his eyes having you more hot and bothered than it shouldâve. You were in a relationship for fuckâs sake, this was wrong on more levels than one.
Mattâs hand reaches out to push a strand of hair behind your ear before he rests his palm on your cheek, getting up on his knees to tower over you, looking down at you from his elevated position. He leans down, left hand resting behind you on the headboard, locking you both into place. His face is right in front of yours now, both of your lips merely inches away.
âPlease,â he breaths out quietly.
You stare up into his eyes for a second.
TwoâŠ
ThreeâŠ
âFuck it,â you whisper, reaching up to grab the back of his head and pull him down the last few inches, slamming your lips together.
His tongue slides past your lips almost immediately, meeting yours fervently, his hand that rested on your cheek sliding down to rest on your waist, gripping gently like he was afraid youâd slip from his fingers.
Your hand slides up to thread through his hair, keeping pressure on the back of his head to keep him close. You moaned against his lips, both of you kissing more aggressively than you typically would due to the tension thatâs been growing between the two of you for years, finally snapping.
âI need you so bad,â he mutters against your lips, sliding down to kiss your neck, tongue sliding against your skin as he left kisses down your collarbone. âTake your clothes off, please, I need to see you.â
You sit up from the headboard and oblige, pulling your shirt over your head, leaving you in just your sweat shorts and bra. He follows suit and takes his shirt off, throwing it to the ground before sliding down the bed so he can grab your ankles, yanking you down the bed roughly so you were laid flat on the mattress instead of sitting up.
You let a small squeal leave your lips, followed by a giggle. This is exactly what you needed, to be manhandled by a man that wanted nothing more but to please you, and you couldnât be more excited for the night ahead of you.
Matt crawls back up the bed, looking at you like youâre his prey and heâs about to devour you. âYou look so good,â he says quietly, voice deeper than usual. Heâs hovering above you again just staring down at your face and admiring, like he canât believe heâs finally getting what heâs waited so long for.
Your hands reach up to touch his shoulders, dragging your fingers up and down his arms that are braced on either side of you, holding his body up. You admire him for a few minutes yourself, just staring up at him as he looks at you, the silence not awkward at all, instead itâs comforting, and he feels like home.
Finally, he breaks the eye contact as he leans down to kiss you again and your arms come up to wrap around his neck. âMatt,â you mumble, his lips pressed firmly against yours. He hums in response, placing a final small kiss on your lips as he pulls away to hear what you have to say.
Youâre nervous as you speak, but push the feelings aside as to come off more confident than you actually are.
âI need you,â you whisper, staring straight up into his bright blue eyes. âPlease.â
Mattâs still for a moment before he leans his weight on his left hand, sliding his right one underneath your back that arches for him to have easier access, skillfully undoing the clasp on your bra. As soon as itâs undone, you use your own hands to peel the bra off of your arms, leaving you completely topless in front of him, nipples hardening at the cold rush of air on your chest.
He starts his descent down the bed, letting his lips trail down your body, over your collarbone, through the valley of your breasts, down your stomach, finally reaching your hipbones where he started to suck a mark into as he tucked his fingers in the waistband of your shorts, pulling them down along with your underwear, your naked body fully on display for Matt for the first time ever, but in the back of your mind, you hope it isnât the last.
He pulls his lips away from the purple mark he sucked into your skin, admiring his work. âYou have no idea how long Iâve wanted to mark you up, to claim you.â Matt looks up at your face to see you already staring down at him. âNeed to taste you so bad.â
You nod your head lightly, giving him permission to finally do what he wanted, and what you needed so badly.
His head dips down to kiss your hip again, lips moving over your thighs, his hands pushing them farther apart to give him access to what he needed the most. His eyes stare down at your core, something that would usually make you insecure, but right now only made you feel even hornier, the thought of him soaking in the way that you looked down there turning you on more than anything so far. âPretty?â You ask him bashfully.
Matt licks his lips in response, taking in a breath to calm himself. âFucking perfect.â He drops his head and drags his tongue from your hole up to your clit, grabbing the wetness that dripped out of you and spreading it up, wrapping his lips around the nub that needed attention more than it ever has in your life.
You gasp and drop your head down to the pillow, hands instantly tangling in the sheets to ground yourself somehow. âFuck, Matt,â you cry, arching your back off of the bed.
He uses his hands to keep your legs spread apart as he devours your pussy, the wet sounds coming from his mouth meeting your heat filling the room. Youâre grinding up into his mouth and he lets you, wanting to allow you to do whatever felt the best to you, but you halt your motions when he pulls away and lets go of your left thigh, dragging his fingers up your leg until they meet your entrance, slipping two fingers into you, your pussy enthusiastically accepting them.
He brings his mouth to the inside of your thigh as he starts to finger you slowly, thumb rubbing against your clit as he does so, sucking another hickey into your soft skin. Youâre a moaning mess as he plays with you, finally feeling something other than disappointment in bed for the first time in a long time.
After heâs satisfied with the mark heâs left on your skin, he moves his thumb away from your clit and trails back up to wrap his lips around it, sucking softly and letting his tongue run over the nub, fingers still working inside of you. The combination of both had you reeling, damn near seeing stars. Not only has it been forever since youâve been eaten out, but itâs been even longer since youâve been eaten out well.
âMatthew,â you breathe, exhaling loudly. You were trying to stay quieter, but you were quickly losing your inhibitions. The way he used his tongue on you, sucking on your clit alongside the fingers working their way inside you was making you dizzy, your stomach coiling in a familiar way. âMatt, please donât stop,â you beg, reaching up to slide your fingers through his hair.
He listens, curling his fingers inside of you as his tongue traced shapes on your clit, the taste of you alone making him so hard it hurt.
You cried out and arched your back against the bed, fingers gripping the overgrown hair that adorned Mattâs head, moans growing louder than you were able to control. âFuck!â You whined, thighs shaking as they tried to close around Matt, but he pulled his fingers out of you and used both hands to press your knees apart, keeping you exposed to him as he ate you through your orgasm, making you cry out even more, not used to the overstimulation.
He finally pulls away, kissing his way back up your torso until heâs hovering above your face, smiling down at you. âYou okay?â He asks sweetly, using his left hand that isnât covered in your arousal to brush your sweaty hair out of your face.
You pant as you look up at him, desperately trying to catch your breath. All you can do at the moment is nod, eyebrows furrowing together as you stare at him, almost innocently, and the look in your eyes makes his dick twitch in his pants.
He smirks down at you and reaches back down with his right hand, dragging his fingers over your clit again, making your legs twitch and try to close, a small whimper leaving your lips. âSensitive,â you whine, but you still canât help the moan that leaves your lips when he dips his fingers back inside you, pumping them slowly.
Your eyes flutter closed as your head rests in the pillow, back arching as you push your hips down to meet his fingers.
The mix of the pleasure and the immorality of the situation is ripping you apart, like an angel and a devil on your shoulder, but the devil was winning tonight and you werenât even worried about the consequences.
âSo good,â you whisper, finally able to respond. âBut this is so wrong, Matt.â
He nods, leaning down to kiss your cheek. âI know,â he says quietly against your skin. âDo you want me to stop?â He slides his fingers out of you and starts making circles on your clit, slowly but surely bringing you back towards the edge of an orgasm, but the tone of his voice makes you completely confident that he would stop if you told him to, that heâd cover you up and leave you here to sleep, never to bring up this incident again. Your best friend was way too sweet to you for your own good; unfortunately for him, and especially for your boyfriend, you werenât quite as good of a person.
âNo point in stopping now, not when you got me wanting you so bad,â you tell him, a smirk falling onto your lips. âI need you to fuck me.â
Mattâs breath hitches in his throat at your filthy words, unable to even process the fact that heâs in bed with you right now, let alone the way youâre speaking. He wouldâve been completely happy just getting you off and making you feel good, so getting to fuck you really just felt like a bonus for him. âAnything for my favorite girl.â
Matt stands up off the bed and slips his sweats and boxers off, stepping out of them before taking a step back towards the bed, blushing at the expression on your face.
âHoly shit, Matt, I wouldâve fucked you a long time ago if I knew you were packing straight heat,â you laugh, gawking at the size of his dick. Your boyfriend was nothing in comparison. You donât think youâd ever be able to go back after this.
âShut up,â Matt chuckles, climbing back onto the bed and fitting himself between your spread legs, sitting up on his knees and pulling your hips up to meet his, ass resting on the tops of his thighs. âYou sure you want this?â He clarifies, making sure a final time. You guys have already crossed so many lines, but this seemed like the final one, the point of no return. But youâre happy where youâre at, and you let him know by nodding at him, confirming that youâre ready to say fuck it to the boundaries set by the standard rules of friendship.
Matt shakes his head and leans over your body, face hovering above yours. âI want to hear you say it,â he whispers, eyes boring into your own.
You smile and reach your hand up to cup his cheek, tilting your chin up slightly. âIâm ready,â you tell him sweetly. âFuck me, please.â
Heâs nervous, and you could tell, but he pushes it aside as he sits back up and grabs the base of his dick, using his hand to line up the tip with your entrance, slowly sliding himself in until heâs buried to the hilt, a small moan leaving both of your mouths. âShit, Matt,â you whine, reaching out to grab any part of him, something to ground you in this situation. He sees your efforts and leans over you once more, the angle of him just sitting inside you brushing up against all the right places.
Your hand reaches out and grabs his bicep, eyes fluttering open to look at his face above you, his expression slightly distant as he focused on the reality that has been the subject of every wet dream for at least the last five years. âYou okay?â You ask him, and he lets out a breathy chuckle.
âI should be asking you that,â he states. âIâm fine, just canât believe Iâm finally getting to do this. Iâve wanted you for so long.â
You smile and wiggle your hips, pushing down into him. âShow me how long youâve been waiting for this.â
Matt doesnât hesitate when he hears those words, and he pulls his hips back just to snap back into you roughly, making you moan and throw your head back, your neck exposed for Matt to do whatever he wanted.
He keeps up a rough pace on you, grunts leaving his mouth every so often. âYou feel so good,â he says lowly, leaning down to bury his head in your neck as he fucks into you relentlessly. His lips trail over your skin, until you feel his mouth open, a light suction on your neck sending you reeling.
You know heâs marking you up in places that are going to be visible now, and thereâs no turning back from this, thereâs no way youâll be able to hide it without being obvious, but you just canât find it in you to care.
âFuck, Matt, youâre fucking me so good, donât stop,â you cry out, hands reaching around his back, nails digging into his skin.
He listens, like the good boy he is, keeping up his pace on you. He sits up, though, your ass still planted on his thighs as he rocks his hips into you, his arms wrapping around your legs and holding you in place. âIâm not gonna last long like this, Iâm so sorry,â he apologizes. Heâs far too turned on to last as long as he normally does, too worked up and so enthusiastic about finally getting to fuck you after all these years.
âThatâs okay, Iâm so close,â you tell him, reaching down to start rubbing circles on your clit to push you farther towards the edge, wanting to finish with Matt, but he pushes your hand away, replacing it with his own, rubbing a quick back and forth motion on your clit in time with his thrusts. âIâll take care of you,â he tells you, looking into your eyes. âI got you.â
Those words alone had you arching your back off the bed, gripping the sheets next to you as you came for the second time that night, legs shaking as you cried out, muttering out his name mixed in with obscenities. âMatt,â you whimper, breathing heavily as you came down.
He was still thrusting into you, slower and gentler now, but enough to still have you riled up despite the orgasm that just shook your body. âYouâre doing so well for me,â he praised, sliding his slick covered hand over your thigh, rubbing the skin lovingly. âIâm so close, baby, where do you want me?â
âAnywhere you want,â you tell him, shaking your head. âIâm all yours.â
The words send him over the edge, his thrusts getting sloppy as he finished inside of you, shooting his load deep into your pussy. âFuck,â he moans, hips coming to a halt fully inside of you as he collects his breath.
You guys are both silent for a moment before you make eye contact and start giggling, your hand coming up to cover your mouth as you did so, his shoulders shaking slightly. âOh my god,â he speaks first, looking down as he pulls out of you, his seed spilling out slowly. He acts without thinking and reaches down, using his fingers to scoop it up and push it back inside of you, making you gasp.
âMatt,â you warn, and he snaps his head back up to look at you. âSorry,â he says, a blush starting to cover his cheeks. âJust donât wanna waste any.â
He pulls his fingers out and wipes them on the sheets, grimacing slightly. âDefinitely going to have to wash these tomorrow, but thatâs a tomorrow issue.â
You smile and reach towards him, grabbing his arm to pull him back down to you, sliding your hand up his arm and towards his cheek before pulling him into a soft kiss. He kisses you back happily, his clean hand resting on your waist.
As you both kiss, he moves to lay next to you and slides his hand down your hip until it rests on your leg, pulling it over him so you guys are cuddling face to face.
Matt pulls away from the kiss and smiles over at you. âI guess this would be a bad time to tell you Iâve had feelings for you for a really long time?â He raises his eyebrows as he speaks, pressing his lips in a thin, awkward smile when heâs done.
You laugh and shake your head, brushing a long strand of hair out of his eyes. âI think itâs perfect timing.â
He smiles wide and leans in to kiss you once more, holding your body close to his own.
-
You guys mustâve ended up under the blankets at some point during the night, and thank god for that, because it couldnât have been later than 9am when you hear the sound of the bedroom door opening and the song Pony by Ginuwine blaring through a speaker, ripping you out of a deep sleep.
Your eyes tear open and you stare at where the noise is coming from, feeling the hand wrapped around your waist tightening before you both sit up and stare at the door, seeing Chris in the doorway jokingly dancing and grinding as he held the speaker up in his hand, looking at both of you on the bed.
You canât help but throw your head back in laughter, the sight of him breaking into the room like this making you crack up. âChris!â You yell between giggles, making sure youâre holding up the blanket to cover your chest.
Nick comes up and stands behind Chris, shaking his head. âI told him not to,â he states, clearly unamused with his brotherâs antics.
Chris giggles and turns the music down, staring at the two of you in bed, one of you laughing and one of you glaring back at him. âHey, Iâm happy you guys finally fucked, just really wish it wasnât in my bed.â
Matt narrows his eyes and reaches underneath him, grabbing the pillow he was previously laying on and flinging it at his younger sibling. âChris, get the fuck out!â
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âł check yes or no
âł sae itoshi x fem!reader âł sfw âł influencer!reader, established relationship, hidden(ish) relationship, going public, language, fluff + crack(?), jealous!sae, kissing on livestream, slight possessiveness, shat outta my ass ngl, my writing
âł 1.3k words
âł iâm sorry sae has me in a chokehold (i love it harder pls) and this little brain bug just randomly slid into my skull sooooo here it is! thank you all so much for reading and i hope you enjoy dahlings! <3
(y/u/n)fan1998: welcome back lovely!
switterz: good to see you again! hope ur feeling better!
emi44578: i missed you so much!
a smile pulled at your lips and your chest warmed at the multitude of messages flooding your livestream. your throat was still a little sore, but thankfully your stomach had stopped rolling the day prior, and youâd been fever free for twenty-four hours. you didnât feel completely better, but you felt well enough to at least start a small stream.
âaw, thank you guys so much.â you croaked, voice slightly groggy and thick. âiâm feeling a bit better, but as you can probably hear, iâm not outta the woods yet.â
once more, messages flooded your screen, so fast that you could hardly catch more than a mere glimpse of one before it was pushed up by another. your fans seemed to be extremely pleased by your online appearance, and it made you so happy despite the sickness still weighing down your body.
you hated having to take time off, especially unexpectedly.
the chat slowed to a comfortable trickle as you dived into the events of the past week, starting off with how you even got sick in the first place. you had to tweak the truth a bit â after all, you couldnât exactly tell your audience that youâd caught a cold by attending your boyfriendâs game alongside a snotty, congested child.
â⊠this kid was sneezing all over the place, and the mother didnât even care to wipe his nose or the things he sneezed on. it was so gross.â you complained, receiving a fair share of agreements and sympathies from your viewers.
it was as you were berating the mothering skills of a complete stranger when something familiar caught your eye. a username followed by a simple message, one youâd seen time and time again.
(y/n)husband1: (y/n) will you go out with me? check yes or no
you forced out a small laugh and shook your head as you addressed the message. your skin felt tight suddenly, that username always putting you off just slightly.
âiâm afraid iâm going to have to check âno.â iâm in a very happy relationship.â the same answer you gave every time.
there was a flurry of comments again, some berating the user who had even typed a message like that and others calling out cap on your statement. you were fairly used to that; youâd never even shown sae on camera before, so your relationship was as good as hearsay to your viewers.
âokay, letâs just calm down.â you chipped out, barely suppressing a cough that threatened to rip through your throat. âiâll need to take some more medicine soon, so i donât have very long. letâs do some q and a before i go.â
thirty minutes later and over two dozen questions answered, you finally said goodbye to your viewers and clicked off the livestream. your shoulders sagged with relief instantly, and you let out a small sigh.
âhowâd it go?â
you startled at the sudden intrusion to your thoughts. saeâs voice was a smooth, seemingly uninterested rumble. you calmed your racing heart and hummed as you stood from your chair, raising your arms up to stretch out your stiff torso.
ânot bad at all. they werenât mad at me, at least.â
sae rolled his eyes as you ambled to his side, his arm immediately sliding around your hip as he guided you to the sitting quarters.
âso what if they were? the feelings and thoughts of insignificant strangers arenât important.â
you clapped your palm over his chest gently and shushed him. sae was always blunt like this; but his words did remind you of something.
âoh. that reminds me. (y/n)husband1 struck again.â
you know you didnât imagine the way saeâs fingers tightened on your hip. was it wrong that you took some pleasure in that? maybe.
âwhat did they say this time?â sae murmured a bit tightly.
you huffed and rolled your eyes. âthe same thing they always say. â(y/n) will you go out with me? check yes or no.ââ
âitâs incredible they donât already have a girlfriend, what with that irresistible smooth talk.â sae quipped, pulling a giggle from your throat. you shook your head and wrapped your arm around his rib cage, stumbling slightly from the awkward position.
âletâs just go find a movie, baby.â you suggested, your statement quickly garnering saeâs agreement. cuddles late into the night were always your favorite; and you had a feeling they were saeâs too.
three days later, you were completely recovered and back to your usual streaming schedule. your viewers were quite happy with the development, and for the most part, it was smooth sailing.
well, except for the occasional whirlpool conjured by the appearance of (y/n)husband1. they seemed to strike when you least expected it, and always with the same stupid question â the same stupid question that earned the same stern answer.
even your viewers seemed to be becoming irate by it, as they expressed their distaste on multiple occasions.
switterz: why dont u just block them from your streams? theyâre annoying!
(y/u/n)fan1998: yea theyâre clogging up the chat log all the time! and harassing u!
you wet your lips and said, slightly timidly, âwell, technically, they arenât breaking any rules guys. the best thing to do is simply ignore them, like i do.â
a majority of the chat seemed to disagree, but you werenât wrong in what you said; though they spammed the same message again and again, they technically werenât breaking any of the rules you had set in place during your first few streams.
suddenly, as if on the drop of a hat, the chat began to flood with a different topic â one that seemed to have taken over the controversy of (y/n)husband1 entirely.
switterz: SAE FCKIN ITOSHI????
emi44578: why is sae itoshi in ur house?!!?!?????
jackerquack: WTF HELLO SAE
user193949294: DONT TELL ME YOUR BF IS SAE ITOSHI!!!!
usererror404: THIS IS ABSOLUTELY INSANE THERES NO WAY
âwhatâ?â
âi have to agree with the chat. you should block them.â
you swiveled around in your chair only to nearly touch noses with sae. your eyes widened and your lips popped open. what the hell was he doing? wasnât his pr manager the one that insisted his relationship with you stay underwraps? just what was even happening?
there were hundreds of questions you wanted to ask, but in your pure shock you simply could work any past your lips; sae blinked once, then twice, before turning his eyes to the monitor in front of you.
âfor those who have been wondering if sheâs in a relationship, she is. with me. so no more harassment, or lying accusations.â
your heart was literally racing in your chest, your entire body frozen. sae was acting completely normal, as if he hadnât just gone against every wish of his pr manager. you didnât feel scared, per se, but the only emotion you could liken what you felt to was fear.
âdemonking12 says they donât believe it.â sae observed smoothly, eyes skimming down the chat. âand thereâs some others who second thatâŠâ
you couldnât even look at your screen â your eyes were glued to sae. how could he be so calm right now?!
sae turned to meet your stare of disbelief, and your stomach rolled when his lips quirked into the smallest, most mischievous smirk youâd ever seen grace his features.
âshould we prove it?â
âum, whatâ?â you couldnât even finish your blubbering before sae leaned in quickly and captured your lips with his â right in 4k!
the kiss wasnât messy, or even sultry in nature, but it had your nerves lighting up and your cheeks flaring. saeâs lips were soft, warm, and almost commanding â it lasted a total of three seconds, but it was long enough to have your legs feeling weak.
sae pulled away but left just enough space between the two of you that you could see the sly swipe of his tongue across his bottom lip â as if he were collecting remnants of your taste.
âiâm pretty sure youâve met your hour stream goal; time to entertain me, now.â
thank you so much for reading and i hope you enjoyed! likes, comments and reblogs are by no means required but are so greatly appreciated! <33
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I'm sorry I'm not in First Love love with you -
I'm sorry I can never give you that.
I'm sorry I gave my First Love love to someone elseâŠ
Who didn't have my First first love either.
I'm sorry I can never love you the way I loved my First Love (stay with me).
Never cautious and doubting;
never giddy learning I could be Loved;
never wholly and fully open, in a language only he could understand;
never confident in the years - not now.
I'm sorry I never waited months to change "I like you" to "I love you,"
or years to change "I love you" to "I'm in love."
I'm sorry I can never love you the way I loved learning his softness or helping him feed it.
I'm sorry I learned him at the same time I was learning so many aspects of myself.
To him, I'm sorry that I know him.
I'm sorry at times that I ever Knew him the way I did.
I'm sorry I know how he needs a love like a wildfire...
He shattered me so quickly when we were through.
I'm sorry that he knows me.
That when he Noticed me over a beer the next year, he had to laugh and say,
"some things never change."
I'm sorry to him, that he has to know me.
I'm sorry he has to devote a place in his history
to the things that are true about me -
to the things that were true about Us.
~
I'm sorry I'm not in Forever Love love with you.
I'm sorry: I could love you until the end of days but
I'm sorry, I cannot love you the way I love my brother.
Never so uncertain from year to year
and yet so core; so kindred; so vital.
I'm sorry I could never love you careful,
wishing I had more sway over the way you read our fatherâs lips.
I'm sorry I could never absorb you into my sense of self
or mark our histories on my skin.
I'm sorry I could never love you the way I love my mom. My dad.
Never angry, secure, undaunting, guaranteed.
Never vile and never pitch perfect beautiful.
I'm sorry Iâll never fight with you until we both feel insane,
only to quietly come back to the same room after some time
and clear the air with a story
told slow and long.
I'm sorry I could never trust you so deeply,
and break down, time after time when I realize youâve been there forever.
~
I'm sorry I could have never loved my First Love the way I love you.
Never hot and disbelieving and totally overwhelmed,
Never open in a way I didn't know before,
Never so near to the comfortable discomfort of home.
Never surprised.
I'm sorry I could have never been so beautifully grateful as I am with you, for the ways
your differences from me make me breathe more tight,
but more easily.
I'm sorry I never cared that much to know him the way I care to know you -
Invested in your secrets,
Yearning for your mysteries,
Wishing I could share every gleaming facet of you with the whole world.
I love you, and I'm sorry how you hold me,
And I love you, and I'm sorry how you soothe me,Â
And I love you, and I'm sorry how you want to know me too.
I'm sorry I kept thinking in the book you gave me -
The heart in your heart -
That the beautiful pieces of Forever laid down
And intoned,
"I've never loved before, Or if I have it was nothing, And I'll never love again Or if I do it's make believe, All for you, all for you!"
But, I'm sorry, I heard.
And I'm sorry, thatâs not true for me.
I have loved
and loved and loved
and I hope I will love
again and again and in all different ways.
I hope I love you again and again
I hope I love you every day new
Every day different
Every day, a love song in a new key.
You deserve it and so do I.
You deserve me and so do IâŠ
And you, and us.
I'm sorry, my love, I love you so well, and so wrong, and so stupid
with all the wrong words
and a fraction of the right reverence.
I'm sorry I apologize when really,
I love you,
Iâm not sorry.
Written 5/1/23
#That's a long one boys#but i do think it's pretty good to be honest#sooooo uh#yea#every and every love#is what i have it titled in my docs#âit's honestly not as sad as it seemsâ#I wrote this out of love for every one of the people it's about.#including me hehe#poetry#poem#love poem#kinda#but in a different way than that other one
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member â incubus!cheol x f reader genre â smut, supernatural (demon), pwp word count â 2.2k synopsis â who said you aren't allowed to fuck your sleep paralysis demon? warnings â descriptions of female anatomy, monster cock!cheol, mean dom!cheol, masturbation (reader), messy blowjob, rough throat fucking, throat bulge kink, choking/breathplay, dacryphilia, some degredation and praise, a little humiliation, throat training (kinda), cum in mouth, sooooo much cum, cheol is a demon both metaphorically and literally, cheol has a tail and uses it for kinky purposes, objectification (of reader), nicknames (darling, sweetheart, slut, good girl, toy, etc.), implied established relationship ? (this is not their first time together) notes â thanks to @multi-kpop-fanfics @kwanisms for help brainstorming the demon part and @cheolism @onlymingyus @beomcoups for proofreading !! i really wanted to put out one more spooky fic before december hehe. if you enjoyed this fic, please remember to reblog!! it's super important for sharing my work and it lets me know this is something people wanna see more of :)
âdarling, now what did i tell you about touching yourself without me?â
you startle at the sudden low voice whispering in your ear, and your cheeks grow hot as you sit up straighter on the bed. your skin prickles with the sudden feeling of being watched, tingling almost in excitement.Â
you already know who it is even before his figure fades into visibility. his face still obscured in shadow and your room is dark, illuminated by nothing but the faint gleam of the moon shining in through your window. even so, you know his piercing eyes can see through the dark when yours can't.Â
he looks different each time he arrives. sometimes itâs the long blond hair, slicked back with gel and a single strand falling across his forehead. sometimes itâs the black hair, shaved close on the sides with half of it tied back in a bun. but the red that he wears tonight has always been your favorite: a bright, unnaturally glowing shade that seems to match his fiery personality.
thatâs how he appears to you now, dressed in his usual purple suit, the deep neckline showing off the muscles in his broad chest and his tail curled in a relaxed coil around his leg. a thick silver chain hangs around his neck and instinctively you shiver at the sight of it, the memory of it seared into your skin from all the times he's held you down rough and fast and let it drag across your back, just the way you like it.
âyou were expecting me, werenât you?â he murmurs. his voice is warm and deep like a pool of water, and each time you hear it, it only makes you want to jump deeper and deeper into him.
âm-maybe,â you manage breathlessly, though both of you know itâs so obviously a lie.
he laughs, but his tone isnât humorous. you can practically see the smirk in his voice even without being able to see his face. âof course you were. or else you wouldnât be sitting there, soaking through your panties and thinking about me like the depraved little slut you are. isnât that right, sweetheart?âÂ
the bedroom suddenly brightens with a warm orange glow, as if lit by a candle, except there's nothing there. cheol finally steps out of the shadows, allowing you to see all of him. the look on his face radiates condescension, yet it only makes the heat between your legs burn hotter.Â
you don't give him an answer to his question, and he doesn't pry for one. that's how this usually goes; you both know exactly what the other is here for anyway. once you're sure he's watching, you slowly pull your fingers from your cunt and keep your legs spread to reveal your glistening, sticky arousal that he loves so much, and that's enough of an answer to keep him satisfied for now. he doesn't react, but you can tell he's enjoying the sight from the way his eyes begin to glow a deep, hungry red.
you get up off the bed and start to move towards him, but he vanishes. a laugh sounds from behind you, and you whip around to see him sitting where you had been on the bed.
cheol spreads his thighs apart, leaning back against the headboard of your bed, and you take it as an invitation to move back towards him. you're already starting to feel the neediness returning, the empty feeling only heightened by his presence.
you try to sit down but his hand catches your arm, wrapped around your wrist to keep you at a distance.
âah ah ah,â he scolds, holding back a laugh at your pout of confusion. âyou already had your turn. if you behave for me, then i might consider giving you something in return.â
you nod quickly, and he smirks, directing you to kneel between his thighs instead. âmm⊠my good girl, always so eager.âÂ
he leans closer to you and fists his hand through your hair, his fingers tangling in your hair to pull you up and force your head to be level with his. he whispers against your cheek and it raises goosebumps on your skin, his eyes dark and narrowed as he bares his teeth with a grin. âi think you might just be one of my favorites, you know? such a cute little thing you are.â
he lets go of your hair and you reposition yourself to lay as comfortably as you can, now face to face with his cock as he pushes away his pants. you may be one of his favorites, but he's also one of yours. the first time he appeared was the last time you slept with a human man, and as long as you have him you'll never want to again. there's no desire for the mediocre hookups of the past when you have the devil's right hand man using his hands on you. seungcheol fits in all the right places, in all the right ways, and each time with him is even more satisfying than the last.
you tentatively wrap your hand around the base of his cock, trying to guide him into your mouth. this part never gets easier on you, but it's well worth it for the pleasure he gives you in return.Â
ârelax, sweetheart,â he coos as you slide your lips further down. âyou're so tense. you want to take it all, don't you? breathe through your nose, you know the drill.â
to anyone else his words might sound kind, but you know the way he's teasing you is anything but kind. you whimper and try to follow his direction, forcing your jaw to go slack as you try to fit more down your throat. slowly but surely you manage to take him into your mouth, but your lips still only reach halfway down his length.
he pushes his hips up into your mouth once he's given you a moment to adjust, an experimental thrust to see if you're ready. you choke a little and let out a gagging sound, your eyes instantly starting to water as he hits the back of your throat. but you don't tell him to stop, and he doesn't stop.
you keep trying to relax your jaw, letting the length of his cock slide against your tongue with wet, messy noises.
cheol's tail wraps itself around your neck and you stifle a strangled gasp in surprise. his cock is so far down your throat itâs already almost hard to breathe, but the added pressure as he chokes you makes it even harder. you're lightheaded from the feeling but not enough to hurt, teetering on the line between pleasure and pain.Â
âyou look absolutely pathetic, darling,â he says, a low groan rumbling deep in his chest. âso gorgeous.â
your arms are shaking from holding yourself up on your elbows, but his praise is what keeps you going, choking back a whimper as you take his cock further down your throat. your vision blurs around the edges, but you can feel the spit dribbling from your mouth as it runs down his length. he makes it impossible to focus on anything besides the bruising pace of his cock.
cheol coos in fake sympathy, his tail coiling just a little tighter around your neck. âaw, poor thing. is it too difficult for you, sweetheart? you're trying so hard to be good for me. just relax.â
at this angle he can't see it, but he can feel the way your throat bulges around his length. he can feel the ridges of your throat tightening around his cock with each labored breath you take, barely enough room to allow air into your lungs. if you were in a different position he'd be able to see the faint outline of his cock stretching your throat, expanding and contracting as you struggle to meet his thrusts.
âyou're loving this, aren't you? i can tell. i can smell it.â he inhales deeply through his nostrils, as if to prove his point. âahh. like cinnamon, and⊠peaches. i can practically taste you from here, my darling. so sweetâŠâ
if your mouth weren't so full and you could speak properly right now, you'd probably be whining seungcheol's name and begging for more. no matter how many times he tells you to forget him, he always ends up back in your bed like this. maybe he really does have a favorite.
he groans and rolls his neck back, his skin flushed red as he looks down at you. fuck, what a sight: your pretty little ass up in the air and your lips stretched around him, looking up at him with pleading eyes filled with tears.
cheol lets out another laugh, his voice just a little strained as he teases you. âif you hadn't already soaked through your cute little panties before i got here, then i'd bet they definitely are by now.â
you choke a little around him, caught off guard by his words, but he's not wrong. you wiggle your hips involuntarily, trying your best to hold still but it's hard to stay focused. your head is fuzzy and your senses are overwhelmed, your throat burning with friction both inside and out.
your grip starts to loosen around the base of his cock but seungcheol just tsks and repeats your name, his tail squeezing once to get your attention. âuse your hands, darling, you have them for a reason. now just stay still, relax for me.â he flashes you a grin. âdon't want to hurt my favorite toy, of course.â
his thrusts into your mouth grow more hurried, shoving his cock down your throat faster and sloppier with each snap of his hips. the force of his movements is unnaturally strong, and although you know by now that he's right on the edge, he barely looks like he's breaking a sweat.Â
he finally releases with a deep groan, spilling down your throat and flooding your mouth. his thrusts don't stop, only slowing down a fraction as he tilts his head back, letting out another satisfied moan.
you know better than to stop without cheol's permission, so you hold your head in place and try to keep up with him. your eyes are brimming with tears as you struggle not to choke, and finally the hot, wet drops spill over and roll down your cheeks from the intense amount of energy it's taking to stay still.
all you can do is focus again on breathing through your nose and swallowing all of his cum that you can. unlike other men you've been with, you're not repulsed by the taste of him, and swallowing would be easy if there weren't so much of it. even when he should be finished he still keeps going, his tip pulsating against your tongue with each spurt.
just when you think you can't hold it any longer, the pressure on your neck suddenly releases and seungcheol uncurls his tail from around your neck. you pull your head away from his cock, gasping and stuttering, and you vaguely register cheol's fingers beneath your chin to support your head, your jaw aching from being held stretched open for so long.Â
âmm, there you go. deep breaths, now.â
seungcheol chuckles as if heâs pleased at the sight of you. his tail lifts to wipe the tears from your cheeks, then some of the drool and spit and cum from the corner of your mouth, and you exhale a shallow, shaky breath.
âare you done for tonight? orâŠâ he hums once he's given you a moment to recover, but although his words are kind again, there's no sympathy in his tone. he caresses your cheek gently with his thumb, his crimson red eyes sparkling as he looks down at you.
â⊠you think you can take more?â
your eyes are heavy and lidded, feeling like all your energy has been zapped from you, but somehow you're still insatiable. there's an itch that you can never quite scratch, feelings that only seungcheol can make you feel, and the promise of that satisfaction is enough to keep you sated and happy for decades.
âmore,â you stammer, still catching your breath, but your eyes are fixed on his. âp-please, i can take it.â
cheol's smile widens, revealing his gleaming white teeth, although he'd already known what your answer would be. âoh, i know you can. such an obedient thing you are, always so ready to please and be pleased. you want more, hm?â
you nods quickly as you can manage, your neck still aching a little. that's how he always leaves you: a ruined mess, exhausted and sore, yet you'd still jump on the chance for another round if he offered. and he always does.
before you can blink he flips you onto your back, disappearing almost like magic and reappearing at the end of the bed to kneel between your legs. his thick cock rests against your stomach, still just as hard as before, and the weight of him on top of you already has you shivering with excitement.
âyouâve been such a good girl for me, darling. i think you deserve a little reward for taking my cock so well.â he grins as he traces his fingers down your body, his hands finding your hips as his grip tightens. âyou get to take it again.â
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mha boys as american high school teenage stereotypes
a/n this isn't an original idea, ik that, but this is just my take on it. also lowk just based off of ppl ik irl but also just really similar to the actual character. also these are really short n simple, my brain wasn't able to think any further
characters katsuki bakugou, shoto todoroki, izuku midoriya, eijiro kirishima, denki kaminari, hanta sero, tenya iida, hitoshi shinsho
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katsuki bakugou
not just saying this bc he's my fav
but quite literally the most popular person at school
like hes handsome, athletic, smart, rich, all of the above, no one could ever compare
everybody would have a crush on him (shit i would too)
or hate him
no in between
but he's still very intimidating so he doesn't have a lot of friends and has a heard time making em
not saying he's a playboy or anything
but definitely gets hella attention from girls
but he is more often than not uninterested
he would play football no doubt, run track/shot put during his off season to stay fit
not a douchebag but he totally comes off as one
shoto todoroki
he's the loser, the loner
actually jk, bc i really don't believe anyone is a loner
theres gotta be someone he talks too
hes that smart kid whos schedule is filled w ap n honors classes
and his only friends would be classmates that hes not super close w so they never talk outside of school (me lol)
hes rich rich
def plays tennis or golf, school and club
he's THE hallway crush
especially for like underclassmen
he just gives off that mysterious vibe that makes girls fall for him
not to mention he is sooooo pretty
like it's not a secret that he is attractive
but he's never had a gf or even a situationship in his life
idek
izuku midoriya
teachers pet 100% lol
not the smartest but also not dumb
like definitely top 20% of his class
i feel like he would take part in a lot of extracurriculars
he's not popular at all
but has a small group of close friends
so so sassy
like imagine arguing w him about a random subject
and you just start to piss him off
he just puts you on blast and starts embarrassing the hell out of you
making you feel hella stupid
he doesn't do it to be mean or anything
he's just a sassy lil guy idk
sassy man apocalypse!!
eijiro kirishima
social butterfly
friends with everyone
but not like a floater friend
but literally just everyones friend
like he's so genuine and is able to get along with everybody
sooo loyal
always has the best advice
definition of boyfriend material!!!
probably has had a long term gf
he takes his relationships n friendhsips so seriously
definitely plays multiple sports
idk i see him as a wrestler or even like gymnastics lol
lowk imagine him apart of the schools student council or leadership club
fully goes out for football games/friday night lights
denki kaminari
class clown fs
also lowk rlly flirty but has never had a gf or even come close
like such a ladies man
thats just part of his personality
most of his friends are girls but not in a weird way
he's the life of the party
lowk one of the only characters i can see myself having a smoke sesh w lol
big party goer
theres a house party being thrown
best believe he's there
he's not the brightest of the bunch
but he does try, its not like hes lazy
he's also so pretty
deff one of those guys w the longest eyelashes than any girl lol
lowk tennis player!denki?
also sorta see him as a swimmer/waterpolo
hanta sero
he is just so friendly
lowk a npc
but i still love him
he's so laid back and chill and has such a relaxed personality
like if you'd ever need to just have a calm night/hang out with one of your friends, he's the first person youd call
has had mulitple gfs, but def not a player
they just never seem to workout
would start a bs club with his friends so every other week they could just order a couple pizzas to school and hang out in the chill teachers class
idk i feel like hes kinda artsy
like he took art 1 his freshman year just for an easy a and schedule requirements, but he realized he was actually kinda creative
likes to doodle in class rather than pay attention now
lowk plays basketball
big car guy!!
tenya iida
THE honor student
number 1 in his class
5.0 gpa
student council persident all 4 years of high school
friend group is made up of all the other nerds who take 10+ ap classes
definitely got into multiple colleges before even applying
definitely not just saying this because of his quirk, but would lowk do track n xc
everything ive said so far i legit just his normal selfđđđ lemme try to get more specific
lowk imagine an iida where like outside of school he's lowk a partier
like imagine him getting blackout drunk every weekend but sobering up for school every week
and still being the best student in his grade
he's just so handsome
multiple girls have liked him but he's rejected them due to wanting to have his life set in place before thinking about romance
hitoshi shinso
he's so fucking emo just look at him
ok well not emo but just a little alternative
but yk in an american high school being a little alt means other people see you as full out gothic
so what if he's just a little quiet and broodingâčïžâčïž
again he's also smart
but he doesn't take all those honor classes
he wouldn't admit it but his favorite genre to watch is reality tv
best believe he was fully invested in season 6 of love island
#ppgbackontop
not an athletic guy
but was definitely forced to like play soccer or sum as a kid
works at your local comic/record store
all the emo girls that come in have a crush on him
thats all i gotđ«
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Could you do yandere head cannons for Caitlyn from arcane?
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includes caitlyn jayce victor vander
WARNINGS: implied stalking, implied drugging, infantilization, coercion, general unhealthy behaviors
from roselĂ. ᥣđ© : decided to pair these guys up because there was sooooo many requests for them! ^^
caitlyn protective type
She wasnât always this way. It was an accident that caused something in her to change. The bullet had just barely grazed her, a close call, but one that made her realize just how fragile everything could be. It wasn't the pain that lingered in her body, but the sense of terror that gripped her heart when she thought she might never see you again. What if it were you insteadâ what if the bullet didnât just graze you? What if it went through you instead?
She was already drawn to you, but after that brush with death, Caitlynâs feelings became something she couldnât ignore anymore. The idea of losing youâsomeone who had become her rockâbecame a constant, gnawing presence in her mind. She had survived countless dangers before, but the thought of you slipping away was far worse.
It wasnât long before Caitlyn started showing up more often. She would check in on you regularly, whether you were in the office or just at home, her presence now a familiar yet unspoken thing. "I just wanted to make sure you're alright," sheâd say, though you couldnât recall ever needing to be checked on. At first, it seemed like genuine concern, but soon, you began to notice how her eyes would linger just a little too long, and how her posture seemed tense when you werenât near.Â
Her love, while seemingly genuine, would feel smothering at times, as if she canât let you out of her sight for too long. She might start showing up unexpectedly, always with an excuse, but slowly turning up at your most inconvenient times. Caitlyn might resort to more extreme measures. She might manipulate situations to make you think you're in danger or that you can only trust her. Sheâd plant lies, create paranoia, and twist things so you decide to seclude yourself more.Â
Caitlyn canât just simply be a part of your lifeâsheâd want to control it. She would subtly start dictating where you go and, who you interact with. Youâd feel like you have no room to breathe without her approval.Â
 The near-death experience had cracked something inside of her. Caitlyn needed reassuranceânot just that you were safe, but that you werenât going anywhere. She began to ask, almost obsessively, if you were sure you were happy with her, if she was doing enough for you, if you felt as though you were being properly protected. Her doubts about her own ability to protect you made her needier, more insistent on showing that she could keep you safe from the chaos that threatened your world.
âYouâre not going to leave me, are you?â Youâd awoken in the middle of the night to her staring down at you in the dark bedroom. It was weirdâ had she been watching you sleep? Her voice was soft but heavy with something unspoken. The question hung in the air, and you could see the hint of panic in her eyes. She had always been so composed, so controlled, but this new Caitlynâthis Caitlyn who had almost lost youâwas breaking down those walls.
 Her jealousy would flare when she saw you interacting with others, especially anyone who showed a hint of interest in you. Caitlyn couldnât help it. Her need to keep you safe extended to wanting to keep others away, ensuring that no one else would get too close to you. Her envy would manifest in small waysâlike an extra long hug when you returned to her side, a slightly tighter grip on your hand in public. When someone else laughed with you, Caitlyn would withdraw slightly, her smile turning into something forced. âDonât get too close to them,â sheâd murmur later when you were alone, her tone carrying a mix of fear and a protective sharpness. It was as though her love for you had warped into something far darker.
Sheâd say things like, âYou donât need to do anything without me. Iâm here to help you,â and youâd find it difficult to refuse, because behind her words was a certain pleadingâan unspoken desperation for you not to pull away from her.
Her emotional dependence on you grew stronger with each passing day. Caitlyn would assure you that she wasnât trying to control you, but her actions spoke otherwise. She couldnât stand the idea of you slipping away from her, of you finding comfort in anyone else. You were hers to protect, and no one would ever take you from her.
On the flip side, Caitlyn's loyalty would be unwavering. If you ever found yourself in danger or in need of help, sheâd stop at nothing to make sure you were okay, even if it meant making dangerous choices or going against her moral compass. In her mind, you're hers, and she'll do anything to keep you safe, even if itâs at the expense of others.
 The first time she almost lost you, Caitlyn had been ready to tear the world apart to ensure it wouldnât happen again. Now, her obsession had grown to the point where it wasnât about safety anymoreâit was about ownership. You had become her entire world, the one thing that mattered above all else.
The question was no longer how could she keep you safe. It became how could she keep you with her? She couldnât bear the thought of you slipping through her fingers.
âPromise me you wonât leave me,â she whispered one night, her hand trembling slightly as she held you. Her eyes searched your face, looking for something that would assure her, reassure her, make her believe that you wouldnât leave her alone in a world that felt far too dangerous without you.
You could see the vulnerability in her gaze, the fear, and the obsession lurking just beneath the surface. Caitlyn had changed. Her love for you had become a tether, a need, a consuming thing that had overtaken every part of her. And now, she needed to make sure you would never walk away.
It wasnât just about love anymore. It was about control. It was about keeping you close, locked in her world, never letting go.
jayce fixating type
After the breakup, Jayceâs world shattered in a way he had never anticipated. For so long, he had been consumed by his work, his passion for Hextech and its potential to change the world, that he hadnât noticed the growing distance between him and the one person who had once been his emotional anchor. His heart had been so tied to his inventions, to the pursuit of progress, that he never imagined he could lose the one thing that mattered to him more than anythingâher.
When you broke up with him, it felt like the ground beneath his feet had crumbled away. The calm, steady hand that had always guided him through his struggles was suddenly gone. He tried to reason with you at first, to explain that Hextech was not just a project, but a visionâa chance to make the world a better place. But as your eyes turned away from him, he began to realize that it wasnât just about the work. It was about him. And his focus, his obsession with Hextech, had taken him so far away from you that he had lost sight of what truly mattered.
That realization consumed him. In his mind, he couldnât accept itâcouldnât accept the idea that it was his own blindness to your needs that had driven you away. He had never truly seen it before, but now that it was gone, he saw it everywhere: your absence, the way his lab felt colder, how every success in his work now felt hollow without you by his side. The weight of your rejection clung to him like a shadow.
And so began his obsession.
Jayceâs need to fix things started as an impulseâa desperate attempt to prove he could balance both the future of Hextech and the future with you. But as days turned to weeks and you remained distant, his obsession grew darker. He started showing up at your door, uninvited, his gaze intense, almost pleading. He would try to convince you that things could be differentâthat he could change, that he could be there for you. But in truth, it wasnât about change. It wasnât about improving himself. It was about keeping you close, where he could protect you, where he could ensure that you never left again.
Jayce had always been a man of intellect, but now, logic and reason had abandoned him. He couldnât fathom the idea of you being free from him, of you moving on. The thought made him sick, twisting in his gut. He began to manipulate your conversations, pushing boundaries, trying to create situations where you would need him, where you would have no choice but to return. He would remind you of all the moments you had shared, the promises he had made to you, all the things that had once made you believe in him. But none of this was genuine anymoreânone of it was the person he used to be. He was no longer trying to rebuild a relationship. Now, he was trying to reclaim you, no matter the cost.
The obsession deepened. He began showing up at places he knew you'd be, lingering in the background, watching you as you went about your life without him. If he couldnât keep you at his side through words, he would make sure you couldnât escape through actions. In the quiet moments, Jayceâs mind would race, imagining the worstâwhat if you found someone else? What if you grew stronger without him? What if, one day, you were truly gone?
His need to keep you close became all-consuming. Jayce started to twist the very things he loved about you into weapons for his obsession. Heâd tell himself he was doing this for you, for the future of both of you. Heâd tell himself that he wasnât controlling, that he was just keeping you safe from the world outside. But deep down, he knew the truth. He was terrified. Terrified of losing you. Terrified that his obsession had driven you to a place where the only thing left was distance, and that distance was now a gulf he couldnât cross.
Jayce had always been a man of vision, but now that vision had warped. He couldnât see a future without you, and he couldnât accept the possibility that you had chosen a life without him. His desire to protect, to build a better world, had been replaced by a singular focusâkeeping you from slipping away. And with every attempt, every plea, he could feel his grip on you tightening. But what he didnât realize was that the more he pulled you in, the more he suffocated what little remained of the love you once shared.
In his obsession, Jayce had lost sight of the one thing that could have healed them both: the space to breathe, to be free, to make choices. Instead, he was creating a prison of his own design, and with every day that passed, he was sealing both of your fates in it.
victor savior type
Victor had always been driven by the idea of progress. From the moment he first set foot in Piltover, he had envisioned a future where technology and science could heal the broken, the sick, and the flawed. His dreams were grandâof perfecting the human body, of eradicating weakness and suffering. But after his experiences in the Arcane, that ideal evolved. It wasnât just about saving others anymore. It became about creating something that could be truly perfectâand, somewhere along the way, you became the focus of that vision.
At first, Victor admired you from afar, intrigued by your brilliance and passion. You were like himâa seeker of knowledge, a person striving for something more. But it wasnât long before he began to notice the small things about you, things that most people wouldnât see. The subtle hesitation when you looked at your reflection, the way you seemed to fight against something within yourself that you couldnât escape. It was there in your eyes, in your postureâthis quiet dissatisfaction with who you were. Victor saw it as weakness. A flaw. Something that could be fixed.
In the beginning, it was just a passing thought. A small seed planted in the back of his mind: âWhat if I could help them?â But as the days passed, that seed grew. Every interaction you had with Victor became tinged with this idea, this possibility that he could take you, just as he had taken his own body and reshaped it, and bring you to a higher form of existenceâhis vision of perfection.
He became obsessed, not with curing illness or repairing his own mechanical body, but with fixing you. Every glance, every word you spoke, was studied carefully. He began to analyze you, to understand what made you unhappy, what flaws you perceived in yourself. He noticed how you would sigh when looking at your reflection or how youâd become withdrawn after difficult interactions.
And, somewhere deep inside, Victor felt a rush of excitement. I could fix this, he thought. I could make them perfect.
Victor began to put his plans into motion. At first, it was subtleâsmall changes. He'd offer you assistance, claiming it was for your benefit, your health. Perhaps it was a supplement to help with fatigue, a mechanical adjustment here and there, things that would seem innocuous. But all the while, he was slipping things into your life, gently guiding you toward the idea that something needed to changeâsomething big. He began talking more about his own work, his experiments with biomechanical evolution, how he had perfected his own body through the use of Hextech technology, how he had become better. He spoke of it with such enthusiasm, such conviction, that you couldnât help but listen.
And you began to listen more closely, to wonder if he was right. Could you truly evolve into something better? Could you become free of the insecurities that haunted you? Victorâs words were so convincing, so filled with promise, that the idea began to take root. But even as you were drawn deeper into his world, you couldnât quite shake the feeling that something was off. His gaze lingered too long, his smile a little too knowing, as if he saw something in you that you didnât see yourself.
Victor was careful, patient. He needed you to want it, to believe in the perfection he promised, because that was the only way his plans could truly succeed. He began to subtly manipulate your environment, ensuring that youâd be isolated from others, making it more difficult to question his intentions. You would be so wrapped up in his ideas of progress, his vision of perfection, that you wouldnât even think to resist.
His words became more frequent, more insistent. Heâd talk about the benefits of his work, of how it could be applied to you, how much better you could be with his guidance. Youâd hear him speak of the âimprovementsâ he could makeâsubtle at first, but gradually escalating. The more time you spent with him, the more you found yourself considering the idea, wondering if it could really work.
But in Victorâs mind, this wasnât just about improving you. It was about making you into something that could never reject him again. Something perfect. Youâd be his greatest creationâyour flaws erased, your body transformed, your mind reshaped. In his mind, he was offering you salvation, even as he slowly ensnared you in his vision. You wouldnât have a choice in the matter; the idea of perfection, of becoming whole, would consume you entirely. And when the time came, he would reveal his true intentions.
There would be no turning back.
Victorâs obsession grew with every passing day. He watched you carefully, analyzing how you reacted to his suggestions. Every word he spoke was another piece of the puzzle, another step toward his goal. He was a patient man, and he would wait until the perfect moment arrived, when you were so entangled in his vision that you would beg him to make you perfect.
By then, it would be too late to stop him. His arcane technology would transform you, reshape you, into something that could never reject him again. And once you were his creation, the perfect version of yourself, you would belong to himâbody, mind, and soul.
vander infantilizing type
Vander was always a protector. Heâd spent his life making sure the people of Zaun, especially those close to him, stayed safe from the dangers that loomed over the Undercity. To him, protection was everythingâhis family, his crew, and you, the person he cherished most in his heart. But over time, something shifted in his mind, a shift so gradual that neither of you noticed it at first.
It started with small acts of kindness. When you were out, Vander would show up unexpectedly, insisting on walking you home, even if it was just down the block. âZaun can be unpredictable,â heâd say with a smile. âI just want to make sure youâre safe.â It seemed harmless at first, but there was a subtle urgency in his words, a note of unspoken control hidden beneath his seemingly loving gestures. He never directly told you what to do, but you began to feel his presence more and more, often when you least expected it.
 At first, it was innocent. He would casually ask about your day, making sure you were staying out of trouble, always with a smile and a reassuring hand on your shoulder. But then the questions became more frequent. âWhere were you?â âWho were you with?â âDid you get home okay?â He never seemed satisfied with a simple âIâm fine,â needing the specifics of every encounter, every moment you spent away from him.
Vander never outright said he didnât trust you, but the way heâd check in felt more like a constant inspection, as though he had to make sure you were always on the right path. He would often show up at places you didnât expect him to be, seemingly out of nowhere, with that protective smile of his. It wasnât out of malice, but of love, or so he told himself. The idea that you might stray from his care, even accidentally, made him uneasy.
Vander had always treated you like an equal, someone who could handle themselves in this chaotic world. But slowly, as his protective instinct overpowered his rational thinking, he began to take over more of your responsibilities. At first, it was small thingsâoffering to take care of errands or tasks you could easily do yourself. âYou donât need to worry about that,â heâd say, brushing it off as no trouble at all. You were busy, after all, and Vander was happy to lighten your load.
But as time went on, the things he took over grew biggerâdecisions about your personal life, where you went, what you did. âI donât think you should be hanging around them,â heâd say, and suddenly your plans for the evening were altered without so much as a thought. At first, you were grateful for his care, thinking it was just his way of protecting you. You didnât realize that it wasnât about care at allâit was about removing your ability to make your own choices, piece by piece, until you werenât sure where his influence ended and your own will began.
 You had always been capable of making your own decisions. But gradually, Vander began offering advice with a weight that felt more like instruction. âI donât think itâs a good idea to go there today. I heard things arenât safe around that part of town. Youâd be better off staying in.â His words werenât demanding, but they carried a subtle pressure. The more you heard his concerns, the more you started to question your own decisions, second-guessing yourself.
Soon, you found yourself deferring to him more often. It wasnât that you didnât want to do things your way, but the more he guided you, the more you felt that maybe he was right. That maybe he knew better. His opinions began to overshadow your own, and with each piece of advice, his grip on your autonomy tightened without either of you realizing it.
Vander never directly tried to pull you away from your friends or your life outside of him, but little by little, he began to discourage it. âYou know, they donât always have your best interests at heart,â heâd say with a concerned look when you mentioned spending time with someone else. Heâd never speak ill of your friends outright, but his warnings always lingered in your mind.
You began to notice that you didnât hang out with your friends as much anymore. His presence seemed to always loom, and when you tried to make plans without him, you felt guilty. His protective smile would reappear whenever you suggested a solo outing, and heâd suddenly have a reason why you shouldnât go. âI just think itâs better if you stick with me for now. Just to be safe.â
Over time, the lines between his care and his control became blurred. You started to spend more time with him, less with others, and you began to depend on him more than you realized.
Vanderâs concern turned into something more infantilizing. He would no longer treat you as an equal, but as someone who needed constant guidance. Every decision you made seemed to be followed by him taking over or offering advice that bordered on patronizing.
âYouâve been through a lot today, you should rest. Iâll take care of things,â heâd say, trying to get you to step back from your own responsibilities. Heâd make you feel like you didnât need to handle things on your own, and that, in itself, became his way of asserting control. You began to rely on him more and more for even the smallest of tasks, from taking care of your finances to managing your relationships with others.
He would smile and say, âIâm just looking out for you. You donât need to worry about these things, Iâm here to handle them for you.â At first, it seemed like an act of kindness, but over time, it felt like your independence was slipping away. Your world became smaller, controlled by the boundaries heâd created, and you found yourself feeling like a child, helpless to make decisions without his approval.
Vanderâs control was insidious. His intentions were goodâhe wanted to protect you, to shield you from the harsh world of Zaunâbut in doing so, he lost sight of the balance between care and domination. His protection slowly became a cage, and what was once a bond built on mutual respect began to feel more like an overbearing relationship.
âYou know Iâm only doing this because I love you, right?â he would say, when the tension between the two of you grew. His eyes, full of affection and pride, would hold you in place, as if to remind you that he was the one who knew best. He wanted to protect you, but in his mind, protecting you meant controlling your life, even if you didnât see it at first.
The more he infantilized you, the more he believed he was doing what was best. After all, he was the one who had been through it all, the one who understood the world better than you ever could. And you, in turn, began to wonder if he might be right, and you started to lose sight of who you were before he came into your life.
Vander had built a world around youâone where you needed him, one where you couldnât escape. And you began to wonder: had you been protected⊠or trapped?
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Carterâs Body Is A Party
Dan:
Ahhh shit! I think I fucked up. The crazy thing isâ this isnât even my body. It belongs to this 21 year old kid name Carter. Kinda a long story but I basically talked him into switching bodies with me. Well okay, I know how that sounds! Let me correct myself we mutually agreed to the swap but I initiated it. You see Iâm 39 years old, single, handsome I might add. But when I met Carter, I felt like I had a chance to really live carefree again.
We were in a bar when I first laid my eyes on Carter a couple weeks back. I was sitting alone, I frequent this bar a lot since itâs in walking distance to my place and he was sitting by himself as well⊠l kept noticing that he was staring at me which felt good. Heâs a good looking young guy. He looked liked the kinda guy Iâd beg for attention from at his age.
Eventually he came up to me and offered to get me a drink. I tried to turn him down but he was so persistent. After a while of him flirting with me really hard, I decided to let my guard down.
We talked for hours at that bar, taking shot after shot. I eventually invited him to come back to my place.
That is where I had the bright drunken idea of us swapping bodies.
âCarter, you are sooooo fine,â I said to him drunkenly. âI think I want to be youâŠletâs swap bodies!! It would be sooo hot!â
He didnât believe me at first but then I pulled out a magical ring thatâs been passed down through my family.
We started to make out a bit and we both ended up stripping off all of our clothes down to our underwear.
I look at Carterâs young face⊠he said to me, âfuck, I hope this is real. I wanna be able to touch your body every morning.â
My dick got hard at the thought of being able to do the same in his. Carter ran his fingers through my chest hair and says, âyouâre such a fine ass man Dan. Iâd do anythingâŠâ
âFuck well Iâm about to make both of our dreams come true. You ready?,â I say putting on the ring.
âFuck yeah!â
As I slid on the ring, I said his name aloud. I just a split second both of us passed out.
As I started to come too, I immediately knew I was Carter. I sat up and saw Carter filling up my chest.
I thought he would be freaked out. Instead he seemed so amazed.
I watch him navigate slowly with my hands⊠touching my chest, my nipplesâŠ
He worked his way down until eyes met my dick which was about to pop out of my underwear at any moment
âcan I?,â he said with the softest tone.
âItâs your body right now.â
Carter pulled out my dick and began to fondle it in front of me.
I was so turned by his excitement about having my body. I got up and immediately started sucking my body off.
Carter watched me work my own cock for him. I felt my bigger hands run through Carterâs hair.
And I felt him pull back and grab his chin.
âDan, letâs get in bed.â
I pull off his underwear and saw all of Carterâs naked body for the first time. His cock was long and eager. His pubes were trimmed down (unlike mine) and he had these cute tight balls.
Carter felt up and down his junk for me.
âDoes your hands feel good on my cock?,â he says to me with a grin.
âYeah it does,â I say back to him.
I look down at Carterâs legs and then at his sexy boyish feet.
Thatâs when Carter began to run my tongue up and down his shaft. I could feel my stubble glide across his ballsack.
âFuck, I can tell this is going to be a long night!,â I say to him.
Carter and I fucked around for hours. We would take turns edging each other and showing one another how each otherâs bodies respond. Neither one of us wanted to cum.
But I was the first one to blow my load. And he came shortly after me.
Both of us laid in bed licking cum off of each other. Shortly after I felt my naked body wrap its arms around me and we cuddled off to sleep.
By morning, we made an agreement. We keep each otherâs bodies until one of us says weâre ready to swap back.
Listen, I knew I was going to go back to my life and my body at some point. I was just not prepared for the wild ride of Carterâs life.
I soon found out that was a college student who parties a lot!
I mean the schedule was already made for me. Iâd go to his class which was a surprisingly easy for me. And then his friend sends in a textâŠ
âA total rager is going down tonight boys!â
âWho wants to go out and hit the bars?â
âHouse party at my place tonight!â
It was nonstop and I couldnât get enough of it.
It took me no time to get to know his friends but I do think itâs because Iâm the best looking in the crew and Iâm confident several want to get into my pants.
Which I may have let a few of them do soâŠ
Although, they have noticed a difference in me. Which is that I have zero fear of showing off myself, especially this body.
Most nights Iâd even refuse to wear a shirt!
I went from constant hook ups, hard core clubbingâŠ
But then we went to a concert and I may have taken it too farâŠ
All of us were having a good time when I came across this handsome guy.
âSup! My names Carter,â I said to him with a grin.
âHey, youâre cute. You wanna make out?,â said the handsome stranger.
âFuck yeah!â
This guy and I made out for a while at the concert. Neither of us gave a fuck about anyone around us.
Thatâs when I felt him unbuckle my pantsâŠ
All I could think of in the back of my head was⊠am I really about to get my dick sucked out in the open at a concert???
Before I could even think, Carterâs dick was out of his pants and this guy was on his knees.
âHoly shit Carter!â I hear one of his friends say in the background.
The guy sucking me off was sooo good at it. I couldnât even think straight.
âDude! Carter!! The police!!!â
The second I came down this guyâs throat, the police came up and caught us red handed.
Luckily, I didnât get charged with anything. But they did take me to jail along with the other guy.
We both sat quietly the entire ride.
And when they put us in a cell both of us sat awkwardly.
All I could say in that moment was, âman I messed up.â
The guy looked over at me nervously, âI did too Dan.â
It took me a second to register him using my real name.
âCarter?â
âYeah itâs meâŠâ
âWhat the fuck??!? Where is my body???â
âWell with this guy⊠I donât know. It was a really dumb idea. He came over to your place. I showed him the ring and then the next morning I couldnât find him in your body. Plus he stole your ring!â
âCARTER!!!â
âIâm sorry!!!â
I watched as the other handsome 20 something, cried his eyes out. I wanted to be so mad at him. But then I remembered just how foolish Iâve been in his body.
Shortly after one of Carterâs friends posted my bail and I ended up doing the same for the actual Carter.
Weeks passed while Carter and I tried our hardest to find my body. But unfortunately we had no luck. Carter and I eventually grew a fondness for each other.
I graduated college the following spring and Carter got a nice job with his body. It helped that the stranger that took my body was already somewhat successful in life.
Both of managed to get a nice place together. Although life seems kind of boring now, we do frequent a club on an occasion.
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