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k0kichiimagines · 2 years ago

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i love jumin

#my humour is so broken i actually laughed too 😭#i haveny even thought of TOUCHING vs route in years #i was going to go through it and get calls and all that and then saerans after end came out #that in addition to it is already painful due to everything that happens to ray #bro i couldn't do it #but now im pushing throw #through ***#ahhdjsjdslld

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starry-bi-sky · 2 months ago

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on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.

Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.

Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.

Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.

There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.

#svsss #luo binghe #svsss au #scum villain #scum villian self saving system #shen yuan #shen qingqiu #disciple shen yuan #lbh. visibly exhausted and with twitchy eyes: im fine :) | everyone else: ho no the fuck you ARENT.#SQQ was hysterical not because he found out LBH was half-demon but bc he was having a long-awaited mental breakdown over his autonomy :)#or (limited) lack thereof. he was having a sudden onset crisis of mortality and was handling at quite literally the WORST time. oops #im thinking very hard that LBH would never push his disciple into the abyss especially with no system to force him to. so SQQ either #had to goad him into it (failing always) or throw himself in. he ended up doing it himself but not before some very impressive hysterics.#BUT ALSO. IF THIS HAD BEEN WHERE SQQ WAS THE HALF-HEAVENLY DEMON INSTEAD IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO GREAT.#and by great i mean horribly angsty bc SQQ is NOT doing too hot and has. in very SY-like fashion. convinced himself that LBH will kill him #when he finds out he's a demon. so when it comes out i have this mental image of him lunging at LBH and LBH flinches back. but SQQ wraps hi #hands around the blade of Zheng Yang and yanks it up so the tip of the blade is digging into his chest where is heart is. LBH can't yank th #sword away without risking slicing into SQQ's hands. SQQ's hair has fallen out of its tail/bun and is now messily spilling down his #back and its NO helping the kinda deranged look he has going on. he's visibly shaking and his eyes keep flittering away and back at LBH's #face. SQQ is looking at the messages from the system warning him that he has to go into the abyss or punishment will occur. he's like.#rambling though. talking about how shizun doesn't *like* unclean things and there is nothing more unclean than a demon. like he is #INSISTING. LBH can't?? get a fucking word in. actually. SY isn't listening that much either anyways. too overwhelmed with the system and #the amount of stress he's under and his crumbling mental state and the innate and primal desire to live even when he's standing in front of #his own executioner. it all ends with him sitting on the ground at the lip of the abyss with his hair falling in his face. he looks so #unkempt and fallen apart and so distinctly *non-Shen Qingqiu* that LBH feels physically ill over it. tears are streaming down SQQ's face #and despite everything he is smiling. its not a nice smile. its a very frayed falling apart at the seams about to crack smile.#he tells shizun not to worry about staining his blade with this disciple's filthy blood because this disciple will take care of it himself.#and then he falls into the abyss before luo binghe can so much as grab him. the only reason LBh doesn't literally jump in after him is bc #he was numb with shock and the abyss was already closed before he could feel his legs again :]

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gunstellations · 2 years ago

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double trouble

#detroit become human #rk1700 #the boys....baby boys....woobies...#listen i just think nines would have such an overprotective streak for connor..#he protecc and he want to attacc. connor will teach him well #my favourite headcanon is nines quietly admiring the hell out of connor and learning from him and his mistakes as well #choosing the most optimal way to exist within society. hes so impressed with connor who is bumbling terribly but doing his best #connor has the experience and higher social relations but nines is much quicker to catch on #they both admire each other and are pushed forward by each others existance and improvement #ive seen a few fanfics where they have that dynamic and its my favourite #they work so sweetly in a brotherly bond it warms my heart (though i am a shameless rk1700 enjoyer)#anyway thats enough rambling #i wish there was a dbh fandom still #im just throwing up doodles now with no thought of making any solid pieces yet #my art #dbh #rk900 #connor detroit become human #also i know theres zero consistency with the art style and keeping them looking the same but fuck that i dont have the patience rn #also also lmao i just noticed but the top one looks like hes trying to kiss connor but no that was a continuation of bottom left sjdjfjdj #feel free to interpret it any way yoy want hajdjfjfjd

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baeshijima · 1 month ago

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the itoshi brothers through the years ...

#sophie's idle chatter #congrats to blue lock for being the only animanga to have itoshi sae and itoshi rin !!!#haha... aha... ha... a...#excuse the mega long rant in tags i just have a lot to say when it comes to the itoshi bros #crying btw haha <33 #they changed some lines from the manga in the snow scene...#“we're half-baked. you and me both.”; the whole “screw that...” spiel ..... ourgh........#and the way there was. no music. just silence in their confrontation scene until the moment where sae decided to cut ties #hahah.............#once again the part that always got me in the manga (and now the anime) was where sae still had light in eyes when talking abt being the #best midfielder with rin the best striker bc they could both still have that dream together only for the light to fade when rin refuted #and said hes not the brother he knew with there being no dream if its not the one theyve had all this time.....#sae more than likely believes that if anyone can become the best in the world its rin but is wasting his talent by looking up to the #big brother who couldnt uphold his promise to be the best striker and instead pushes him to the brink so he could forge his own path #to be a striker in his own right without being his saes shadow even if that means having rin hate him in return bc he has always cared #which ofc doesnt invalidate rins feelings bc he has a right to feel betrayed after dedicating so much time to follow a shared dream #with his brother whom in his eyes stomped on it without remorse and left him to eat shit #neither of them are wrong but they both went abt this in the worst way possible haha... a... ....... i hate them.#also very sick of them to have their relationship progressively be depicted from light and dark like. excuse me while i jump out a window.#i need them to have a sit down and talk in the manga like. a whole 20 chapters at least.#ALSO WHAT WAS THAT ADDITIONAL TIME SEGMENT IM GOING TO THROW UP AGAIN HELLO

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1eos · 1 month ago

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crazy to see men complain that feminism is rotting the brains of women and the left is creating misandry when all of the 2020s online based social praxis is just varying flavors of men's rights activism lmao. black and native women can't even talk abt how men of all races know they can kill and abuse them with impunity bc no one else gives a fuck without some white bitch who wants cock bad being like 'um don't u understand men are more likely to be victims of random acts of violence 🥺 you're the problem if u even think of pinning any accountability onto them'. no easier time to be a man than rn. you don't even have to put into practice a goddamn thing you say. just make a vague comment abt respecting women and boom you're drowning in acclaim and pussy and you want me to feel bad that your life is sooooo hard bc now when you make rape jokes unprompted one person out of all the people who defend you may be like 'that's not nice :('

#like we're absolutely living in times that are pushing us to be more and more isolated #and robbing us of human connection. see: tech freak watching a movie w his wife w those visors on simulating connection #when they could just connect #so suicidal ideation is up across the board #but men still coddled across every political and ideological spectrum and im supposed to cry for you?#bro they out here telling lesbians theyre bad people for not giving ppl who openly and clearly identify as MEN #access to them romantically and sexually #like cmon now and call it all transmisogyny when trans women are WOMEN #just grabbing other minorities and throwing them under the bus #black women say hey men avoid back ground checks by using other ppls identities and theyre like oh u hate IMMIGRANTS

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tootalltech · 5 months ago

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WHY DID I JUST THROW MY FUCKING AIRPODS BEHIND MY DESK

#for one thing i took out marty byrde in the process #AND IDK HOW IM GONNA GET THEM BSCK #LIKE. MY DESK IS UNDER MY LOFT BED WHICH IS PUSHED UP AGAINST A WALL #I CANT JUST PULL OUT EITHER OF THEM WITHOUT LIKE SCRATCHING UP THE FLOORS OR SOMETHING PROBABLY #for some reason i was trying to throw them just onto the desk. instead of getting out of bed like a normal person and setting them there #and they just knocked marty over and fell behind it #good job aylo #this is a tomorrow aylo’s problem now #aylo talks #mine

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toytulini · 6 months ago

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me, stupidly and weirdly resistant to listening to audio books vs reading a physical book for no real reason: man i wish there was a way to like, read a book while i crochet like i do with tv shows and movies and podcasts

#toy txt post #my reasons are irrational you dont need to try to talk me into it. i KNOW #its very silly of me #imagine how much reading i could get done. but alas. Feels Bad #even listening to a more. uh. Story type podcast or fiction like nightvale was a bit difficult to start for me. i like nightvale now i #listened. but i worry that is clocking in my brain as an Exception 😔 maybe it would be easier if i tried some nonfiction books? scary #i also struggle with single host podcasts apparently even tho im also ehhhh on the kind where the structure is the host Interviewing a #different person everytime? maybe it would be okay with a nonfiction audiobook tho cos it would be getting read by a narrator and not sound #so much like a guy ranting into a mic which makes me feel a little insane. altho propaganda doesnt necessarily always sound like a guy #ranting into a mic so idk. i could probably make it through if i can find a nice book about like. parasitic worms. i could tolerate #feeling like im falling into sigma male affirmations videos for worms i think. wormffirmations are allowed #*to clarify i dont listen to those but listening to better offline makes me feel like im morphing into the kinda guy who does and i hate it #which feels unfair cos he is RIGHT and the podcast is good but i need there to be like a cohost there to break the tension of the Ranting #sometimes he has guests on? but its not quite the same #i think the format i like best is either like 2 or 3 regular cohosts discussing things within a specific topic #OR. 1 host whos like infodumping to the other host who knows nothing about the subject. OR. 2 hosts info dumping to each other about #different aspects of the subject. OR. 1 host who brings on fun guests to infodump to them about a subject. and then obviously the subject #needs to intrigue me. ex. sawbones well theres your problem (I HATE THAT THIS ONE IS BEST EXPERIENCED ON YOUTUBE😭 I WANT THEM TO JUST DUMP #ALL THE SLIDES INTO A BIG BLOG POST SOMEWHERE AND I CAN CHECK IN AND FOLLOW ALONG THAT WAY WITHOUT HAVING TO HAVE MY PHONE SCREEN ON THE #WHOLE TIME!!!!!!!!! but. im listening for free so its unreasonable to demand more of them BUT ALSO I FEEL LIKE JUST COPYPASTING ALL OF THE #SLIDES INTO A BIG BLOG POST ISNT THAT MUCH MORE EFFORT THAN EDITING A WHOLE YOUTUBE VIDEO? WAAAAAH. THEY DONT NEED TO BE TIMESTAMPED OR #ANYTHING JUST THROW EM IN ILL FIGURE IT OUTTTTTT #anyway. also more than 3 hosts is really pushing my ability to keep track of voices.#anyway: sawbones wtyp tpwky behind the bastards scam goddess #(which is true crime adjacent but focuses mainly on scams and isnt copaganda and laci is funny and cool)#common descent pod completely arbortrary maintenance phase if books could kill #deep sea podcast has more bringing ppl in to interview them about shit than i personally enjoy but i put up with it cos i do like the hosts #and the subject

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thedrotter · 5 months ago

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(cw for a gun, mild blood and suicide in the last drawing.)

Day 1-5 of drawing Re:Kinder daily for a whole month! I'll be doing that all month. ☺️

I did not draw Re:Kinder enough (said both sarcastically and genuinely, because while I know the statement is ridiculous I also do believe it www), so I chose to challenge myself. I will post these every 5 days to not clog the tag too much.

#re:kinder #rekinder #fanart #hiroto yamakawa #rei suzumura #aya hibino #sayaka akatsuki #ryou shimoya #takumi katsuragi #shunsuke takano #yuuichi mizuoka #AND CHIE!!!!!! :3333 #now... commentary...#for the first one i tried doing the proportions a bit more realistic than the chibi like ones i usually do !#although it comes with the worry they may seem like teens in contrast of how i generally draw them^^;... i hope they still look their age😢#second drawing is based on an idea from my sister that hiroto’s more responsible attitude comes from taking charge more than he should-#-due to his parents both being depressed. so i tried to express that idea somewhat... its more speculation than anything but still #third one is HORROR MOVIE TIME!!! this one was very funny to me because i dunno whos house theyre in but ryou looks right at home www #certainly not takumi's because that breaks the law children have of “its MY house so if i dont want to watch this movie we wont watch it”#fourth is SHUNSUKE VS THE SCHOOL TESTS!! based on him throwing out his school tests on the trash as mentioned once ingame.#in case it isnt clear the 12 is a 12 out of 100... im afraid i dont know how to make it clearer😓.#chie originally wasnt meant to be there but the compositions i came up with felt boring otherwise. so she was brought in to fill in the voi #final drawing is here to remind you this is a horror game about mentally ill children i am so sorry #im aware it is a bit jarring compared to all the (mostly) fluff but the rng said it was a yuu day he doesnt get any fluff #ah yes sorry spoilers he wont be getting any fluff there will not be a single drawing where he feels joy😭 i am sorry for this #this is because the ideas i never really got to draw (that are here) of him are the sad ones because i feel such a pity drawing him that wa #but i had to get to them eventually because i did want to draw it anyway but i was going to keep stalling them if i didnt do em here #so sorry no happy yuu the whole month😢#anyway i may redraw one of these later down the line (when its no longer august).#i do these with time limitations so i dont get to push them to bigger steps but if i feel one should get one i may redraw it LATERRR

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velvetstreets · 6 months ago

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I got into the two schools I wanted and now I have to make a choice within the next 2hr30 min

#IM GONNA THROW UP #pro: I wanted the music one rly bad and now I finally got it and have a chance to at least try being an artist& give myself an actual chan #*chance #con: it’s part time and I still have to get a job which is fine but the program is only one semester and I’ll be done by Christmas #pro 2: the other school is super high valued and typically hard to get into (it felt easy to me) and is over a year long and sets u up with #an internship at the end #con 2: it’s not my passion and I’m worried I’ll get bored with it after 4 months but have to push through & I actually want to enjoy school #this time around….

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starry-bi-sky · 2 months ago

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yall ever think Shen Yuan went through like, internet withdrawal after being transmigrated into Shen Qingqiu? Like, he's canonically a NEET shut-in who did nothing but spend his time online, you can't tell me that for the first week or first few weeks of being SQQ he wasn't twitchy.

Like, reaching instinctively to his pockets for a phone that wasn't there, having an obsessive itch in the back of his mind that he should check and see if X or Y novel or webcomic has updated -- only to realize he can't anymore and being irritated by it. Wanting to go and see if there's new posts about this or that, but again realizing that he can't.

When he's bored or uncomfortable or just feels like wanting to escape he tries to go for his phone to distract himself, but oops! Not there anymore, and now he has to find a new and different way to distract himself from his feelings. And going through system notifications, quests, etc only does so much.

And there's that Tetris Effect too. SQQ makes a mistake while writing and instinctively goes to backspace on it except hey-ho that's not a keyboard and now he just dipped his pinkie into a bottle of ink or on a still-drying letter.

With him scrambling to fix his reputation and learn how to be a peak lord, I think his abrupt cold-turkey from all things internet would just be another straw on the camel's back that he promptly Ignores until it goes away on its own after he acclimates to his new surroundings.

#svsss #mxtx svsss #scum villain #scum villian self saving system #shen yuan #shen qingqiu #i think him learning how to be a peak lord and cultivation and everything else would help distract him from the internet withdrawal for the #most part. but the moment there's a lull in the day and his mind wanders or he becomes bored or stressed and he instinctively reaches back #for his phone and realizes it isn't there it just sends a spike of panic/frustration/irritation through him because its a familiar comfort #and now its gone. like this is all based off my own experiences from being Chronically Online but i just think its neat to think about #in that same vein i think it also pushes him into getting into the arts on QJP. Like as the peak lord naturally he would be doing this kind #of stuff but hes NOT the peak lord but to keep up appearances he has to know how to do this stuff. and finds it??? actually quite rewarding #even more than getting into an argument online or getting a new merch item. he's making or doing this stuff. he starts drawing and finishes #a piece and regardless of its skill level he feels something unclog in his chest. like sediment being scraped off the bottom of a creek and #being washed downstream. a weight that's been slogging through his veins suddenly untangled. physical proof of his efforts that feels great #starry is incapable of NOT giving her favorite blorbos more hobbies. starry is incapable of not giving her favorites artsy hobbies #this is probably NOT a new or original thought whatsoever but im throwing it out there anyways bc it fascinates me. i love transmigration #and albeit i've only read isekai manhwa/manhua there's a common theme of the people there assimilating into their new lives relatively quic #which i know is for ease of transition and getting to the rest of the story. but WHAT IF.#i have still not read svsss yet and idk when i'll be able to BUT have some thoughts anyways

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luciality · 6 months ago

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#might kms instead of going to the anime con tomorrow #there is literally no fucking end to my tears #shut up luci #delete later #i hate being alive i cant fucking do this anymore #my apaetment flooded and all my shit is ruined and my mom called me just to yell at me and i fucking dropped my grocerys so now theres glass #and juice and shit everywhere and i forgot like half the things on my list but the store just closed #plus im STILL fucking sick im still running a fever and throwing up but i keep it pushing but i only feel worse its been like a week #im not looking forward to my london trip anymore i literally have no joy left in me

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melto · 10 months ago

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my birthday week is like a fight for my fucking life.

#like i dont like my birthday bc i dont like attention and also bc the fact i am still alive when i never planned to be is so heavy #which makes it feel like all of a sudden i have a timer and i need to kiilllmyself #but mostly. The biggest issue is i think of my exbest friend bc it was our week always even if they treated me horrible #and i would just go along with whatever they wanted even if i hated it and i just think about them think about them think about them #and i dont want them in my life but i will talk myself into missing them #and feel guilty like its my fault like i deserved everything they did to me like i should never be allowed to move past it #and then i get so embarassed over how i let them rule my life and ruin so much for me and made me break away from people i care about #but then its like im so lonely at least they were always there even if they hated me #even if they wanted me to be so miserable even if they just wanted to know they would always have someone to push around #And i still have trouble when it comes to food im still scared of opening up to people im still scared of my friends of buying new clothes #somehow everything they said to and about me was true even though none of it is and it hurt me and ruined so much #but i must have deserved it. they were supposed to know me best. and i never have known myself #so everything they had said about me has been true for so long.#every time i have the thought that i miss them i think i need to crash my car #every year it gets better every week it is easier but its been so bad recently its been so bad i feel like pieces of me are falling apart #i dont want to manifest this year it being bad bc its just starting to get easier after my total depressive state but god #im looking at are they made for me years ago and i want to rip it apart but i cant every time i try i almost throw up.#i think im going to throw up right now.#deeply pathetic.#news with isaac

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minminambus · 3 months ago

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Forever going to bite the walls and shake tables over casual expressions of ableism. It’s basic human respect to acknowledge and provide understanding for someone’s illness / condition / disability.

#Throwing rocks at SOOO many people right now.#🌸 minminrambles #Like. Outside of how ableism is rooted in society and its rules and such. It should be BASIC human respect to like.#Provide care.#To say ‘oh yea you dont have to get on the phone for this insurance. You’ve done enough. Ill try getting through.’#To say ‘oh don’t do much today. I can tell you’re having a flare up you dont have to push through it. Im here.’#To say ‘maybe i wont play my sports game loud because that creates too much anxiety/energy and with bother your [illness]’#To pick up the slack when someone can’t #Like.#Little day to day accommodations to one’s actions to help someone who is hurting.#Becoming the joker. Like actually. I’m going to become some kind of supervillain about this.#Strapping people down on an evil medical table and yelling at them to GIVE A SHIT AND USE THEIR HEARTS

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fappellmoan · 1 year ago

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i dont wanna be a dick and act like i have no responsibility in this but after a point dont u think if all you ever say to ur friend is Omg you never make it out why dont you ever come out with us you bail all the time youre such a flake etc. dont u think that person (me) is like. not gonna feel so inclined to. be there

#like. yeah i was bad last semester i get it. and probably i shouldve tried at least once or twice to push thru #but i was so exhausted. and every time they would bring up hanging out it was on my longest days #and when i casually brought this up they were just like Well we have long days too. Okay!#and i love and miss these friends and i know for the most part. or at least think. theyre just teasing #i hate being seen as the flake like any time i do have to be like Oh i cant make that or Shit im sorry i have to bail #i try to offer an alternative???? and they never compromise on that. how is that fair like im not just outright rejecting u all the time #not to mention most of the time last semester it was always gonna be somewhere super easy for them to get home and far from me #im not like constantly holding this against them btw but i feel like they're holding it against me and i dont have any more apologies in me #anyway. that said. if theyre somewhere really expensive and far from me tn and i get out of work early #i. probably will not make it. lol! if theyd be willing to come a little closer to my place to one of the dives or some shit thatd be great #and like im not doing much today until class and work so really like. i WILL try. but i think they could sometimes not go for the most #expensive and inconvenient option as well. and these r all things ill say if it becomes like a problem problem or smth #but rn im not gonna be a dickhead and shit on their plans #but also! ok whatever im not gonna keep going on i just feel shitty im not 100% better from being sick and im just frustrated #about having to fuckign grovel over and over and over. i meant it the first few times now im just like #u could try not to be an asshole to me for five seconds too. like. i am very clearly not someone trying to secretly stop being friends #w yall. things happen #abby talks #and maybe this is an esp sore spot bc like ive certainly had some of you bail on me or be flaky or whatever before. and i didnt throw #a fucking fit to your face about it. probably bc it actually did feel more mean spirited sometimes #OK im sorry im not trying to make my friends sound evil and its mostly just the one and like im working on forgiving her for it cause it #was years ago but also like christ!

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todd-queen · 1 year ago

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I just love comics so much bc these are both the same character <3

#this post is supposed to just be about scrungly Floyd bs carved out of marble Floyd #but now im thinking about the text #and how in both he's defensive.. but in different ways #with Michelle he's making her angry on purpose so she stops trying to get him to stay (he's doing it for her and zoe's sake ofc)#vs with Amanda he's just throwing attitude around because he's bored/agitated #BUT BOTH OF THEM ARE HIMMMM #he is snarky and a shithead and he also pushes away everyone who loves him abd maybe sometimes the lines get crossed #don't mind me just losing my mind over a favorite character #the usual #keeping a mental note of all of this for writing later #floyd lawton #floyd fic #deadshot: bulletproof #suicide squad rebirth #vs vs vs but it's not.... it's AND #i think Secret Six Floyd is the PERFECTT combo of both of these

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meteodrives · 1 year ago

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hey if u like this i will send an ask or two ur way :)

#i don't have a tag for this but note to self: delete once completed.#anyways ... 🤠#i am pushing myself back into a bit of a routine so hihi :)#multis u don't have to specify unless there's one chara u rlly want me to throw something at 💕#i'll rb this for the evening crowd as well. im just posting now so i don't forget :')

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