#but its worse

[briarmae]

I have autism and I'm touch repulsed.

My sense of touch is super sensitive. (Even though I have a pretty high pain tolerance, idk.) I base all my clothing choices first and foremost on how it feels against my skin.

Human touch is... awful. Skin to skin is even worse. If it's one of "my people," I can tolerate it. They now know that I prefer not to hug, and they wait for me to offer, or in rare cases, ask for one.

Crowds? I take anxiety meds and actively dissociate. Handshakes? Dissociate. People touch me without permission? Try not to punch them.

My family was fairly tactile growing up. They loved tickling. I would literally collapse on the floor crying. It was too much; it didn't feel like fun or whatever it is that people like about tickling. It felt more like pain.

I've tried explaining what it's like to people who are not touch repulsed. People on here will probably get it better.

Let's see... touching people makes me want to claw my skin off (it's somehow even worse if there's skin contact). Even when it feels less extreme, my skin is still crawling. I am constantly aware of every part of me that is touching someone else. It's too much, and then I get agitated on top of it.

Being touch repulsed with autism probably has a lot to do with me being asexual. I'm fine reading about sex (sometimes I even enjoy smut), I'm pretty uncomfortable watching sex in media, but the idea of ME touching another person, let alone naked... gross. Just gross.

[frostbittenstatic]

working on another new ask blog im gonna kms

[daily-crabbys]

This Friday's meme is: the perfect being

[dyke-ass-fujoshi]

How I found out about trump getting shot

[aropride]

[sumechiayuu]

@/folkoftheshelf on Twitter has made a thread of fundraising links for Gazans. I’ve transferred the links here, please boost them as the conflict is worsening:

Help Ahmad Hassan and his family escape Gaza

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Help Donia Tanani and her family escape Gaza (they are close to reaching their goal!!)

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Rafah Masterpost

[bacchuschucklefuck]

couldnt draw my thang for mid-autumn so treated myself to a calne redesign instead

[trekkerac]

this is just what anxiety is like context

[jobycewl]

I believe in the “Everyone is jealous of Shang Qinghua” agenda

[time-woods]

simon doodle in honor of fionna and cake dropping, sad old men gotta b my favorite species tbh

[valtsv]

i've figured out the hack to writing is to write badly so that you can eventually write good when you go back to edit. unfortunately that means that i'm going to have to go back and edit. sisyphus rolling that damn boulder up the hill emoji.

[jay-wasstuff]

The group chat with Wade, Logan and Nicepool

[tojisun]

god you just know simon likes it messy. he likes it when you're a drooling, crying mess; hiccupping once in a while because it's so hard to breathe when you're plugged with his cock. he loves holding a heavy hand on the back of your head and forcing you to stay still with his cock down your throat. you're more subdued now, used to his width, but his thighs are full of angry welts from when you were scratching him, trying to pull away. spit bubbles from the corner of your mouth where your lips are left as tight rings, swollen and bruised when simon used you like a toy, bullying all of himself in.

and thing is, he'd be so quiet throughout. ever so watching, attentive and tactile, but quiet. like a hunter stalking.

[creekfiend]

I saw this on FB today and I wanna try and express something about it. Like, you know the curbcutter effect? Where when curbcuts are put in it benefits everyone (bicyclists, people with baby strollers etc) and not just disabled people?

There is also whatever the opposite of the curbcutter effect is. And this is that.

This isn't just anti-adhd/autism propaganda... this is anti-child propaganda.

Kids have developmentally appropriate ways that they need to move their bodies and express themselves and sitting perfectly still staring straight ahead is not natural or good for ANY CHILD.

Don't get me wrong, I was punished unduly as a kid for being neurodivergent (and other types of kid will ALSO be punished unduly for it... Black kids come to mind) and thus UNABLE to perform this -- but even the kids who ARE able to perform this type of behavior are not SERVED WELL by it. They don't benefit from it.

This is bad for everyone.

The idea that bc some kids may be capable of complying with unfair expectations, those expectations don't hurt them... is a dangerous idea. Compliance isn't thriving. Expectation of compliance isn't fair treatment.

[spyroz]

if anyone needs help identifying things that can become moral scrupulosity OCD obsessions/compulsions, heres a list of some i've experienced:

rereading your posts/texts over and over

checking your notes and/or followers list frequently to "make sure" bad actors aren't interacting with you

checking OP's blog before interacting with posts

compulsively opening a social media tab to look at your notifs and then closing it, over and over

fearing ways that things you say/do (or don't do) could be taken in bad faith. being anxious that your words/actions will be misconstrued as morally wrong, bigoted, rude, or aggressive

feeling guilty or obsessing over whether you should or shouldn't have reblogged a post

feeling like you aren't "allowed" to disengage from online discourse or unfollow people who post it

fearing you're being stalked, talked about, or called out behind your back. fearing you'll never be forgiven and that people might even celebrate your disappearance or death, even though you havent done anything wrong

searching your own name/username to see if anyone is actually talking about you

imagining defenses you would make against nonexistent heinous accusations or arguments against you, to prove that you didnt do it

feeling like you have to roll over and become a doormat when others are cruel to you, because it could cause strife if you do anything other than grovel or apologize

having trouble enforcing your own boundaries out of fear that they are somehow "wrong" or unethical

ending up surrounded by people who have all the "right opinions" but are super mean and unpleasant, and make you feel like you have to walk on eggshells

fearing that just HAVING moral ocd makes you a bad person somehow (for example, i often fear that having moral ocd is somehow pushing a 'stranger danger' or misanthropist agenda, even though i actually have a lot of faith in my fellow humans)

some of these bullet points are not inherently bad on their own, but if you find yourself having this kind of anxiety very often, that's not normal, and it's time to get offline or even seek professional help if it's impacting your life

this list is catered to how online culture influences moral scrupulosity, it is not indicative of how everybody's moral scrupulosity functions, and it is not exhaustive

[150en]

Welcome to the Etho Lab. I need to make Etho look even more weird and uncanny.