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Oh the tenderness of Gale being under Astarion with tension rising on both sides only for him to notice that hollow gaze in Astarions eyes. For him to softly tell him its okay to pull away only to cuddle with him under starlight...
#sometimes i think in fanfic people fail to realise how scared sex can be to Asta#also how he dissociates through a lot of it#not all the time i think in the good ending he does end up taking the reigns for himself and he feels a lot happier with his sexuality#but its definitely a process#and id love for it to be explored more#late night posting#help#im normal about bloodweave#gale dekarios#bg3#gale of waterdeep#bg3 gale#astarion#bg3 astarion#baldur's gate 3#baldurs gate gale#gale x astarion#baldurs gate 3#galestarion#bloodweave#headcanons#fanfic#prompt
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remus is very unimpressed, sirius is very happy :)
based on this post
#i spent like 1.5 hours on this that i definitely should have spent studying instead considering i have an exam tomorrow :')))))#anyway enjoy it extra hard to wish me luck please#remus lupin#remus lupin fanart#harry potter#harry potter fanart#marauders#marauders fanart#Hp#My art#marauders era#Mine#he was supposed to look like a malnourished noodle but i failed at that#and didnt have the time to actually put effort into it#Ive not gone through the process of letting it lie around for a couple days tp find all thr mistakes#So noe im already spotting them but its too late to fix#(Or rather. You guessed ir. I domt have thr timr)#Like the first one is fime but i have several issues with thr second one#But oh welllllllll who cares yolo and all tht jazz
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eye color hcs
#rick and morty#morty smith#rick sanchez#evil morty#rick prime#morty blue rick brown so they match That Is my main thought process#but i could also definitely write an extensive spiel about blue vs brown based on the “i used to wear brown pants” comment in s3e1#evil morty has brown eyes exactly because of this. like basically brown is like the Mature color i guess#prime with blue eyes thoughghhh well hes the exception that enforces the rule#him with blue eyes is just cause i think its a little freakayyyy lol. PLEASE GET HIM BROWN CONTACTS etc etc#and also hehe. Him and Morty match.#my art
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Selfish.
#hellooo doai sitcom au community#im no masterful comic artist but this idea has been spinning in my head like rotisserie chicken#basically what if clyde knew about alex becoming a veldigun and could stop the process by simply staying away from them#but decided not to cause (whether it likes it or not) they're it's first friend in a loong while (while also being useful)#clyde's moral compass definitely isn't perfect after all#i dunno... food for thought..#doodlesoup#doai#dreams of an insomniac#doai sitcom au#doai clyde#doai alex williams#i dont like the last page tbh but its probably fineee#oh yeah also clyde wants to keep the house bright so alex doesnt notice vision changes + the fact that their eyes are kiind of glowing
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in the whitchlite carinval. straight up “caking it.” and by “it”, haha, well. lets justr say. My chad
(some gideon exploration & little doodles)
#ok i think i might be obsessed with freeform#its just…so low stakes yk?#and very simple#idk its nice to use for little things like this#it was supposed to be some ideas for day 18 of loa shiptober (tattoo artist/florist)#but i got sidetracked#what can i say#gideon lovers (cough cough dragon cough) enjoy your mans <3#i really like how the half body shot came out#gideons body type is so nice to draww idk why?#i definitely draw too many skinny ppl (i love you kremy but you’re literally built like a wine glass) so i enjoy some more variety i guess#conflicted over how the portrait came out#do i like it? do i not like it? who knows…what a mystery….certainly not me……..#i should probably draw torbek frost and gricko more#but my mind is preoccupied with middle aged man yaoi#speaking of middle aged man yaoi…….#ive embraced the cringe within (its dead! if youre not hurting anyone do what you want!!)#and written my second coalecroux fic (shoutout to my beloved mutual szare for beta reading it!!!!) and im in the process of polishing it up#so….stay tuned……#will probably draw a Specific Scene (tm) because im proud of it like a toddler is proud of their silly cute crayon scribbles on the wall#ALSO#thank you to the person who pointed out to me that gideon doesnt actually canonically have uneven horns its just hair#i have elected to adopt the uneven horns thing regardless because IMPERFECTIONS RAHHH#theyre more fun to draw for me#ok ill stop rambling now#thanks for reading <3#once upon a witchlight#legends of avantris#gideon coal#ouaw
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Do you have any advice for starting hrt?
If you do start, dont compare yourself to other people. everyones paths are going to be different, and your journey should be focused on becoming the version of yourself that you want to be, not about others. Its a marathon, not a sprint
#ask and mew shall receive#I like the trans timeline pictures but a lot of them give a very skewed perception of what you can exprct out of hrt#its definitely not a miracle process that can count on to turn people into models
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Okayyyyy yeah also let's talk about Tammy. I didn't know how I felt about her for awhile because she did very much feel like the Disposable Black Girlfriend, but I'm seeing people saying she's an "abuser" or God forbid "just as bad as Kevin" and that's just. Not at all true.
Yes, Tammy is controlling. She doesn't seem to really like Patty for who she is, and kind of seems to want to change her into someone else instead. HOWEVER, I think we need to look at the whole character to understand WHY she's like that. I don't think she's controlling Patty for personal gain or for the sake of manipulating her. I think she's lonely and desperate for companionship, which leads to her ignoring/pushing past the obvious incompatibility in her relationship with Patty.
Here's what we know about Tammy:
1. She seems to be the only black person in the Worcester social circle. She also mentions frequently how she's surrounded entirely by white men at work.
2. She is also the only openly lgbt person in the area, other than Patty, who is still not exactly out and proud.
3. She describes her entire job as "making excuses for" and "cleaning up after" the men at her job, particularly her partner (whose name I am unfortunately forgetting, does anyone remember?), who even had her plant evidence for him on at least one occasion.
4. Despite being very competent and good at her job, the white men around her keep failing upwards (she mentions a few times that people beneath her keep getting promoted) while she remains stagnant in her career. There doesn't seem to be any explanation for this other than the fact that she is a black lesbian in an extremely white, conservative community.
Basically, Tammy seems like someone who has been taught (like many black women) that she will have to work much harder than everyone else to get ahead in any capacity. She is also likely very, very lonely. She doesn't seem to have any friends outside of work, which isn't surprising given the above. It seems like she doesn't exactly have a ton of prospects, dating-wise, other than Patty. In my opinion, it's really no wonder that she clung to Patty so desperately and immediately and tried to forcibly mold her into someone who could be compatible. She's tough, smart, organized, direct, manipulative, no-nonsense and controlling because, well, she had to be. And she ends up trying to "rein in" Patty because, in her mind, what's the other option? She ends up alone, surrounded by men who force her to cover for their antics and don't care if she lives or dies.
I'm not saying her behavior is healthy. But it comes from an entirely different place than Kevin's abuse, or Chuck's, or even Neil's. And it's also not uncommon. In real life, I know many queer women (specifically small-town lesbians) who end up in relationship dynamics just like that over and over again because they start dating someone who doesn't quite fit, and they compensate for it by trying to force a connection instead of accepting loneliness and isolation. I have a lot of sympathy for Tammy. And I wish the show had taken more care to establish the abuse she faced from her coworkers off-camera.
#tammy ridgeway#kevin can fuck himself#kevin can f himself#patty oconnor#basically i think tammys story is about the perils of girlbossdom for black queer women#and theres a lot to be said about the fact that she chose to be a cop. we dont know anything about her home life or childhood or anything#other than that she grew up in worchester (?) which i think she mentions one time#but like the black lesbian cop trope is so overplayed due to sitcoms fundamentally not understanding why 'diversity' is important#and like im sure her character was meant to kind of lampshade that phemonenon#but i think its so interesting to look at characters like that and ask WHY they ended up in that position#in tammys case i think it was definitely trying to 'rise above her stature' and basically force people to actually respect her#not that it worked of course. it never does#and she had to become a tool of the oppressor in the process#ill talk about sam later because hes also a really interesting case study on race in sitcoms and the way poc are framed#but these are my thoughts for now. this show has gotten my analysis brain buzzing again and i feel alive for the first time in months
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Daisuke's Notes on Robo-Ky's Concept:
A robot made by incorporating Ky's movements.
When we were developing the consumer version, we decided to add a bonus character. But we didn't have enough time to create any new characters. There was talk of making extra characters (characters with slightly different specs), which was what other companies were doing, but we felt that wouldn't be enough. We decided to thoroughly tinker with what we could, so we broke up Ky, added weird sound effects and gimmicks, and called him Robo-Ky. We joked that not only were the specs different, but the character itself was different too. However, he became quite popular and was promoted to a proper character on the roster later on. At first, his face was the same as Ky's. I decided to change it, making it more with a "robot" in mind. Or perhaps something like one of Leiji Matsumoto's robots, with a radar on his head. When you say "robot", there are all sorts of things that fall under this category like mobile suits, but when I say "robot", I mean it like this.
#SORRY THIS HAS BEEN SITTING IN MY DRAFTS#anyways i wasnt expecting much about his personality or anything but i still like knowing the creation process#but its interesting that he has his own 'unique' definition of a robot#also keeping the thought in the back of my mind that in another interview daisuke said he really enjoyed designing robo ky#and considers him a personal favorite#guilty gear#robo ky
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Aaaaaah I know I've been talking abt this art for like 3 days but I FINISHED IT HEEHEE 💖💘💖💘💖💘💖 The thought behind this was Cherry was getting mugged during their walk back to her apartment cuz Townsville be like that, and this is the moment Mojo swooped in to her rescue (How did he know it was happening? He deeeefinitely wasnt spying on them lol) ANYWAYS ENJOY If you want more thoughts look at my tags!! 💖💖💖💖💖💖
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#my art#💜: loving you's a felony#🍒🧬: emotional processing lag#self ship#oc x canon#self shipping#self ship community#self insert#fictional other#mojo jojo#okay with organization tag outta the way. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH 💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖#GUYSSSSSSSS THIS ART WAS SO FUCKING FUN 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖#i have NEVER done lining like this before and messing with line thickness was a fucking blast!!!!!#ALSO HATCHING. FIRST TIME DOING HATCHING AND THAT WAS ALSO RLY FUN 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖#and of course oho. ohoho OHOHOHOHOHOHOOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖#ive definitely talked about it on the blog before right. the idea of him being sooooooooo protective 💀💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖#like whoever the assailant is here is DEFINITELY BOUTTA DIE LOL 💖#i hope i did good on the expressions but i mean i rly love it!!! 😳💖💖💖💖💖💖💖#also the way that cherry's a little roughed up. i like to think that they just tripped trying to get away 😂#like the person mugging them had very little to do with actually causing those scuffs. doesnt change how definitely dead they boutta be 😳#anyway whoo hooooooooo here it is i am so happy with it it was so fun and its making me so 😳😳😳 i hope yall like it too!! 🥺💖🥺💖🥺💖#also last thing sorry for shitty hotel room lighting hrnsnzhf it was all i had to work with but I tried my best 😂💀😂💀
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at first getting diagnosed with cptsd was like, "yay my trauma has been validated (it always was valid)!" and i really thought that was going to be it, but then i started to do research as i do whenever i realize i have something and learned that!! the way i experience socialization is!! quite horrid actually!!
#i have had this stupid fucking rule for myself for years since i was little#''dont speak unless you're spoken to or else something bad will happen. nobody wants to hear what you have to say unless they ask''#I TELL MYSELF THAT ALL THE TIME????#AND I DIDNT REALIZE IT WASNT NORMAL#thats not something that healthy people think to themselves whenever they want to talk to people. they just talk to them#they dont tell themselves not to speak to people for fear of what may happen to them jesus christ spacie#i get so scared when i message anybody ANYTHING#bc everything and anything i wanna talk about feels so stupid why would anyone give a shit#staring at a funny joke i want to send someone for 30 fucking minutes before deleting it b/c my brain is like ''errmm who cares?''#''also they're going to yell at you for wasting their time!!!''#i sent my friend a meme once and had a panic attack (or maybe a flashback?? im still trying to figure out what they are) immediately after#this shit sucks dude. it sucks#at least im processing what happened to me. thats why it hurts so bad rn its been stockpiled for like.#2 decades#im not looking for any sympathy here im just putting it out there#so that anybody who feels the same way i do know they're not alone#ive been struggling everyday for like 2 months now (actually DEFINITELY longer)#it will get better. things just need to be taken one step at a time#i have gotten thru my worst days i have a 100% success rate#how many days have i been alive#7930#lightwork#lets keep it goin#vent#trauma tw#trauma mention#wrote this post thru a flashback btw!! dealing with them is getting easier#before i would be unable to function for days at a time!!!#with one of the most recent ones i had i was so in the thick of it i avoided everyone i knew for a week cuz i was convinced#i was an evil unlovable freak that only wanted to hurt people
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Whoa what made lamb so angry?? Narinder what did you do!
😬he revealed some information to them in not the most sensitive way....
#long answer is that its based off my hc that crowns change ur dna and genetics so thoroughly that you Cannot have kids#an narinder is like lmao good thing u (to his knowledge) never wanted kids because you Cant lmaoo if u tried it definitely wouldnt be a lam#an lamb processes it later like I am not even a lamb anymore.there are no more lambs i cant even save my kind im a false lamb like they sai#though truly its ambiguous enough it doesnt need that context and it can ultimately just be interpreted as an identity crisis#theyre upset by the lack of choice in their life and they feel alone.
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i think the reason izzy can be so blasé about his relationship with ed is not because hes taken to blaming a shark instead, but because hes actually already done a lot of the processing in the previous episode.
hes mourned his leg, hes had his drunk crying rants. hes gone through the five stages of grief. and then? the crew reaches out to him, offers him their support. they make him a new leg, they nominate him their new figurehead. when he stands there on the prow of the ship, leg on, letter in hand, thats his acceptance, thats his moving on.
#sure maybe then deciding to erase ed from the situation isnt healthy- but it is conducive to his continued healing#it helps him not carry the weight#maybe he needs that to be able to live on a boat with ed#its obvious to me that he has blamed ed for this- he voted him off the boat.#but now? now he needs to move on.#the crew has him. they proved that they have him.#he looks so fucking happy stood there as their new figurehead and maybe thats all that matters#that he finds a new way to be happy#nyxtalks#ofmd#our flag means death#ofmd s2 spoilers#izzy hands#israel hands#is this obvious to everyone else and im just slow on the uptake orrrrr#idk i felt like. yeah hes actually already done a lot of what lucius is doing now. hes processed! hes over it#or. not over it but found a way to fit it into his reality. to be able to keep going about his day#idk!!!!!#slight clarification- i definitely think. he should keeo working on it! he needs to like. actually speak to ed; for a start#but i just don't think hes completely ignoring the whole situation i think he has properly processed the trauma he just is avoiding#specifically the 'ed' part of it
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it's so funny how people were shitting on you for saying the album was going to be about matty and it turns out you were right lmfao, how does it feel to be vindicated like this?
don't worry im being as annoying as possible about it. like I predicted this literally down to the fact that she reconnected w him / was emotionally cheating in 2022 and left Joe for him just to get ghosted by him and that he was the tortured poet in question. they hated jesus bc he spoke the truth
#swifties saying she was cheated on but real ones would know she's too petty to sit on that information for a year#swifties saying its all abt Joe but real ones would know she had 3 albums processing the end already#swifties saying she wouldn't focus on a one month relo but real ones would know and she LOVES writing abt a nasty lil situationship#swifties saying she dumped him when anyone with eyes could she was definitely having an insane phase n was ghosted#they just don't know her like I do
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I was reading back through caged lungs and I realized just how many times Donnie got hit in the head during the last fight and how hard, no wonder Leo is concerned about brain damage.
Also, when Donnie goes to see April at the end of chapter 2, is he just dissociating really hard or is that an actual physical symptom from the…everything really!
not to mention the oxygen deprivation with raph throttling him! the last fight is so visceral and nasty and it was the final nail in the coffin when it came to donnie's issues physically and mentally, because although he would have been terrified of them regardless i dont think it wouldve been "inconsolable screaming heap at the sound of raph's voice" like it was in the early bit of CW.
and id mark that as dissociation personally. the second he registered as being in relative safety he kind of shut down because he wasn't able to process it, which had kind of been a running coping mechanism through the last month or so of CL. MIND YOU: IT IS NOT HELPED ALONG BY THE BRAIN FOG CAUSED BY HIS TIME IN ISOLATION, its a nasty concoction of problems. and also yeah physical exhaustion definitely doesnt help! he ran all the way to april's apartment while actively starving, after all.
although itll get better after [REDACTED PLOT THREAD] is handled, i think dissociation is gonna be something donnie will be dealing with for years, because spending four days in a quiet, enclosed dark space has some extremely messed up consequences for your brain and body. it was also in general something he used to cope under the abuse, so i could see him having issues with it when he's not in his right mind (sick or sleep-deprived, for example), i could see him regressing back to that old mindset when something like that happens. his perception of reality is permanently a little fucked :(
#ask#canary continuity#theres a lot of factors you have to put together for donnie's behavior right now#he's been so stressed that he's been running a low grade fever#the consequences of being in solitary are still taking a toll on him#his brain automatically shuts down as a coping mechanism when triggered#and he's absolutely dealing with both ptsd (notably about the closet the final fight and mikey attacking him in the kitchen)#AND cptsd. he definitely has cptsd. this is for absolute certain cptsd#+ he's still on some strong painkillers which are distorting his perception of reality#the source of the nosebleeds could very well be stress to be optimistic. but. well =) who's to say#everythings horrible but donnie is STILL too overwhelmed to process#its going to hit him very soon and its not gonna be pretty!#also despite his developed claustrophobia ive been haunted by the mental image of him waking up sick and immediately trying to hide-#-under his bed like a YEAR after all of this and Ouurgghhh#one of them comes looking for him when he doesnt leave his room and he just claps his hands over his mouth when he hears their footsteps#and his mind is just an endless mantra of “hes going to find me hes going to find me hes going to find me”#he doesnt know what he's so scared of. he just knows that something bad is going to happen and he needs to stay quiet#(remember when leo dragged him out of the laundry room? that left scars)#just thought i should share that cause it wouldnt leave my brain <3
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okay, I'm pretty annoyed by how they handled the fallout of this plotline with Robby, because the setup/initial conflict for it was... a genuinely really traumatising direction to take things? it would have been just as much for a fully-grown adult as it would for a kid, so this weird half-hearted swerve where there's clearly SOME kind of effort to give it emotional depth makes it all the more irritating when the gaps are papered over with the most generic teenage angst stuff imaginable.
#and tbh I'm annoyed about this ESPECIALLY because it is a kids' show#like the storyline you guys just depicted is genuinely pretty horrifying in its implications!#it's a huge potential source for emotional impact!#and your younger viewers WILL pick up on that in some capacity whether you actually address it in those terms or not#so like... creating this storyline which has definite emotional resonance especially because it happened to such a young character#and then just being like 'ya he's just kinda Broadly Angsty about it now'#like kids are capable of processing more than that and deserve better storytelling than something so artificial#earthspark#earthspark spoilers#kinda#transformers earthspark#Robby Malto
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sometimes i think about how the people who hate on my takes on here would talk to each other and its always phrased like the twitter fandom drama i see but completely irrational and it makes me giggle
"calling kusuke abusive just because he shot his brother with a lethal weapon, plotted his murder, planned to use their grandparents to assist in hurting/killing him, and tried for years to expose his secret to the entire world against his will and through knowingly hurtful means in order to destroy everything he cared about is so stupid! what a stretch!"
"the saiki k fandom is so damn sensitive. i shoot my brother with massive guns all the time and its not abusive because he just blocks it!" HELPEKSJJSJSKSKKS
#sorry i have absolutely no beef with anyone this is just funny#its just an opinion and i have nothing against people with a different opinion than me#its just funny how they think IM irrational when this is legitimately their thought process#and they come directly onto MY page and cry about people having diff opinions#like girl u do NOT see me doing that shit thats so embarrassing stop#im not even a kusuke hater like thats my man#but even if i was- i dont get why that bothers people so much like y r u so scared of different opinions#i sometimes talk about teru or saiki haters i dont like but that isnt defined by 'literally anyone who doesnt like them'#idgaf if people hate my fav characters- i just hate the WAY certain people hate them that shows they didnt understand the show#YOUR definition of 'evil kusuke haters who must be purged from this fandom' is literally anyone who has an opinion on him-#-that isnt sunshine and rainbows and kusuke is the most morally right and sympathetic character and nobody else deserves him !1!1! ur crazy#oh this isn't targeted at any specific person btw im just being dramatic#i havent acknowledged this at all in months idk what compelled me to do so now#the single anon that barely even said anything just made me think back to this#nobody gets him like i do i swear i swear#saiki k#tdlosk#the disastrous life of saiki k.#saiki kusuke#meows post
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