#but its also like not their obligation to post anything !!
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
Interest Call for Raging Loop Official Merch at the Pop Up Shop
From December 13th to December 22nd, 2024, there will be a Raging Loop pop up shop in Tokyo to celebrate its 9th anniversary! I happen to be going to Japan during this time, and will be buying merch for myself. Several people I know were interested in me purchasing extra merch for them, and given the sheer rarity of Raging Loop merch, I am more than willing to oblige.
To facilitate this, I have set up an "order form" of sorts (more of an interest form than anything) so I can figure out what people want. I don't need immediate payment or anything, but I will be requesting payment for the items you bought (+ shipping) once I do buy them for you. There are so many items that I'll put most of them below the cut, but I'll put the primary interest for most people above the cut. That is....
...the plushies! They're ¥4,800 per plush, ~$32 USD each at the time I'm writing this. No I don't know why they made Nosato and not Haru justice for my girl please
Rest of items/prices under the cut - in yen only, I can't be bothered to convert everything. (They're also in the order form, lol.) All of these are rough names since I have abysmal kanji knowledge to rely on Google Translate for a few of them. Full post contains spoilers, you have been warned!
"Japanese-Style Werewolf Card Game" (probably just werewolf...) - ¥3,000
Feast Photo Playmat (used for e.g. Magic the Gathering) - ¥4,000
Prayer to Shin'nai Music Box - ¥12,000
T shirts - ¥4,400 for the wolf shirts, ¥5,500 for the sheep shirt
Reversible Bomber Jacket - ¥33,000 (no, that is NOT a typo...)
Die-cut Sheep Cushion - ¥3,000
Kaori-san's Special Furikake - ¥1,980
Kiyonosuke's Darjeeling Tea - ¥1,800
Yasunaga's Financier Cookies (comes with a can badge) - ¥1,800
Haru's/Mocchi's Cookies (comes with a can badge) - ¥1,500
Various types of Acrylic Keychains - ¥880 each
Family Crest Can Badges - ¥550 each
Large Acrylic Standee of Haruaki & Chiemi - ¥2,400
Various Character Standees (original game art & special art created for the pop-up!) - ¥1,800 each
Full sets of the Character Standees with Special Background Pieces - ¥30,600 each
Character Fine Graphs (fancy art prints) - ¥16,500 each
"Store Shopper" (...probably just a bag, will likely be difficult to mail this if it's just a paper bag) - ¥550
#レイジングループ#raging loop#rei jin g lu p#please reblog#(even if you have no interest in rloop at all. im trying to spread the word.)#chiemi serizawa#rikako uematsu#kiyonosuke nosato#< tagging characters for additional visibility#being the probably singular person from the US going to this who kind of accidentally created most of the rloop fandom in the states.......#yeah. <3#junpei.txt
21 notes
·
View notes
Text
AHHHHHHHHHHH
Yeah, the two endlessly go back and forth about the advice White tries to give and Sentinel ignoring them because he's the King of Iacon. Why of all bots should he listen to someone who isn't even a bot? She ruled an empire once but gave it up for (what he believes to be) dumb reasons. Why bother?
Of course, White Diamond would feel out of place in Cybertron. The cultural and social practices are different. The language is completely foreign to her. She already struggles enough to relate to her own people, so trying to connect to sentient transforming car robots is practically impossible. Although the bots are kind and patient with White, she knows its only out of respect for their beloved leader. She feels very out of place and isolated even when she's by Sentinel's side, and he tries to make her feel more comfortable for the sake of her literally not being blue all the time. She has tried striking conversation with Airachnid, but she either doesn't acknowledge her or outright says she's under no obligation to speak with her. Airachnid straight up doesn't like White. This'll be elaborated upon in a future post.
For the rules thing, I imagine one of them is not interacting with the miners unless it's for an event or something. White suggests holding a party just for them to show their appreciation for their hard work, and Sentinel laughs. He doesn't see the point and jokingly remarks they'd drag dirt and grime everywhere and ruin all the beautifully polished banquet halls. White simply says they could wash the miners, and Sentinel says that wasn't his point. White argued that in the past, she did not see the point in celebrating the accomplishments of or showing appreciation towards the laboring gems because that was their job. What they were expected to do. They were not owed anything for doing the purpose they were literally made to perform. But she's learned that anyone, regardless of their social standing, deserves to be given their dues. If not, they'll feel unappreciated and then forget to appreciate themselves. White giving voice to the little gem strikes again! Sentinel looks at her like she said a Unicronic incantation and tells her that isn't happening. He doesn't like the idea that White would become more popular among the miners if she were to actively spend time with them. He also doesn't want her to witness or hear about how they're treated by the Transformers and upperclasses.
But yeah. Everything White suggests would go in one audial and out the other when it comes to Sentinel. He believes he knows what's best for Iacon compared to a literal alien, so he never takes her seriously and makes that very clear. White despises being ignored like this. Then she's has an epiphany. Was this was how she treated Pink? Of course, it was significantly more cruel and abusive, but progress is progress.
White making little crystal friends. Please. My heart. I remember how Steven brought a pebble to life with his own diamond essence/sweat in the episode Familiar. I wonder if that could work for White, maybe she accidentally created them out of loneliness. I'll have to do more research regarding that. Sentinel would hate them and view them as little pests. He can't release them either. That'd cause a stir. So he let's her keep them until she has to leave for one reason or another. He insists on her taking them all with her. White obliges, but she does miss a few which Sentinel tasks Airachnid to, uh, deal with them. Luckily, they're a lot more slippery than she thought, and White briefly returns to pick them up. Sentinel and his right servo femme pretend they didn't just try to shatter them 10 seconds ago.
Is a headcanon of a headcanon any less canon? Lmao good ending Prime Diamond is cursed to me cause niether of the goobers deserve it, in my humble opinion. But it is cute. Sentinel being the one to put his pride aside for the sake of maintaining the peace instead of White having to do that 24/7 (at least the best she can). He listens to her advice cause he's that curious to see how it'd pan out, mostly to prove her wrong if it doesn't. Then he realizes wait... listening to gf is??? Good??? Lo and behold, he begins to genuinely respect her. Imagining White and Sentinel growing to genuinely love each other and treat each other better despite their flaws... only to have it literally torn away from them. MUAH HA HA HA HA. Hilarious.
Anyway, White fighting the Quintessons hmmmm.... Idk how White would do in a fight cause she isn't a warrior. That's more Yellow Diamond's forte. Her weapon of choice is her words, but chances are the Quintessons aren't the most open to diplomacy unless its tons of energon neatly wrapped with a bow. I don't even know how her diamond powers could affect beings that aren't gems. It would be cool seeing her beat their asses though, and Sentinel definitely would not complain.
And Sentinel and White calling each other "My Prime" and "My Diamond" respectively... I'm using that. Thanks for the idea!
Back with more White Diamond x Sentinel Prime crackship nonsense baby!!!
Ever since I first thought about these goobers, I haven't known a single day of peace (mostly cause the ideas are just racking around in my brain)
So here's a list of headcanons I came up with for Prime Diamond! If you have any questions regarding this ship, my ask box is open. Double if you have any thoughts or anything to add, go on ahead! I hope y'all enjoy!
I may make a part 2 when I come up with more lol
For this relationship to even be possible (as possible as a crackship between two characters from completely different franchises can be), it will have to take place Post-Steven Universe Finale/Future when White Diamond is in her therapy, self-help guru era. And when Sentinel Prime is... alive.
Also, I have been trying to do research regarding this but since the results are so inconsistent, I'm gonna assume White Diamond is around 80 to 90 ft tall and Sentinel is around 60 (based on how he's double Orion Pax's height and apparently TF One Orion is around 33 ft tall). If you know their actual canonical heights or anything close to that, please lemme know!
As mentioned in a reblog, White Diamond would take an interest in Sentinel Prime as a sort of little DIY project. Though he tries to hide it, White with her supernatural intuitiveness can tell there's more to him than meets the eye (he's an asshole). Having been inspired by Steven to see the worth and beauty in imperfections, she wants to give someone like Sentinel a chance like Steven did for her. Though she is making genuine strides to improve upon her previous controlling and obsessive behavior regarding perfection, this aspect of her will resurface in her attempts "fix" Sentinel while in a relationship with him. She adores and finds much interest in his "positive imperfections," but helping him improve on his more negative ones wouldn't hurt, right?
Other reasons she developed an attraction to him is for the same reason all the Sentinel fangirls did: he's just so... pathetic. When he tries to impress her with stories of battles he's never fought in and gives her a tour of his treasure room full of artifacts he didn't discover, she can tell he's trying way too hard to impress her. She finds this cute and charming rather than douchey and desperate.
Sentinel Prime pursued her because, as stated in a previous reblog, "his diva ass was always going to try and seek out a gem fit for a king." He laid his eyes on an 80-90 ft giant alien rock woman and thought,"I need her." As any sane person would. She was supposed to be nothing more than another symbol of wealth for him to show off to the other elites and officials of Iacon City to further cement the royal image he works so hard to maintain. He definitely underestimated how overwhelming White Diamond can be, and I am not just referring to her height.
Sentinel would rather have his spark be extinguished than admit to this, but his stabilizing servos get wobbly at the idea of his alien girlfriend being so much taller than he is. His pride would never admit to this, nor would it accept someone taller than him accompanying him. He believes that as a "Prime," he is supposed to be much taller, bigger, and more imposing than those around them.
Whenever they make a public appearance, Sentinel insists that White shrink herself to a height more tolerable for his fragile ego. He bullshits an excuse about their buildings not being designed for a being as tall as she is. White obliges, but given how Iacon was built when the previous actual Primes were all gigantic and alive, she quickly figures his lie and confronts him about it. He'd just lie again and say he didn't want the other Cybertronians to be intimidated... by her beauty. Clearly, it's not because of some Napolean complex or something. Still, White in her patience era takes the compliment for what it is.
The "guy who doesn't like speeches" vs. "professional yapper" isn't a joke. Sentinel can't stand how much White Diamond loves to yap. She's the kind of person to have thoughts and opinions about anything and everything. Given that she doesn't breathe, she doesn't even need to catch her breath in the middle of speaking, so she can go on and on and on, much to Sentinel's annoyance.
He tries to get her to quiet down at times, but as White tends to do, she either doesn't hear him or straight up ignores him. Her monologuing, along with her height and just how shiny she is, is very overwhelming for Sentinel at times. The only good thing he finds about this aspect of his sweetspark is when she dotes on him and showers him with compliments and attention. As if a attention hungry fame whore needed any more of it.
Sentinel even allows White to indulge in her psychoanalysis, playing up the whole "tragic hero whose brothers and sisters perished in battle and now has to face the pain and weight of protecting his people alone" that she eats up. White does sometimes hit dangerously close to home, so Sentinel shuts her down before she could dig straight to bedrock and uncover the more unfavorable parts of himself he wants to stay hidden.
Speaking of staying hidden, the way White carries herself in public makes Sentinel was to keep her locked away in a jewelry box. White is excellent when it comes to using her words to inflict psychic damage or to build someone up. When it comes to social situations where charisma, relatability, and poise are needed, this is when White is at her most alien. She is not the most socially adjusted given that prior to the finale, she spent thousands of years hidden away in a world of her own delusions. She doesn't have much of a filter, something she has been working on to avoid upsetting offending others.
She has the habit of pointing out any interesting thing that catches her eye, especially about people, whether or not it's positive or negative. This has led to her unsettling the bots at best or offending them at worst. Sentinel then has to come in and use his charisma to difuse the situation and paint her behavior in a more positive light. Only for White to turn around and ask everyone if they ever noticed how Sentinel's wings move in accordance to his mood and how adorable it is. Everyone laughs. Sentinel is thoroughly pissed.
Sentinel definitely has more relationship experience than White Diamond. All of her knowledge comes from what she's heard from the gems that come to her for her advice or from that human show the little green Crystal Gem recommended (she can't remember her name). In her attempts to emulate the behavior of what she's heard of and observed, she ends up coming off as cringe at best or detached from reality. At certain points of the relationship, she even imposes certain "deadlines" on courtship behaviors she expects from Sentinel. All his previous relationships were private, casual flings. He only made this one public because bagging a bad bitch like White Diamond is an accomplishment he felt he had to show off.
This may come to bite him in the aft when her radiance catches the attention of other bots. On these occasions, he acts possessive and showers her with attention, gifts, and affection. He tells himself and Airachnid it's because he doesn't want her to outshine him in the eyes of the public. In reality, he gets jealous and doesn't want to lose her interest and, most importantly, her attention. As overwhelming and embarrassing as she can get, a twisted part of him really craves her attention.
In private, Sentinel can flip flop greatly in how he treats White. On some days he leans on her for support and wants her to pet his wings while he vents about all the dumb, annoying bots he has to fraternize with and all the boring meetings he has to attend. White occasionally interrupts him with advice or her own views on the situation, which frustrates Sentinel. On other days, he's completely detached, not even bothering to give her the time of day. He is at his most consistently sweet and romantic when they're both in the public eye, performing grand gestures of love. This intensifies when they're on camera.
They present themselves as THE Iacon couple, but Sentinel and White argue a lot about pretty much anything. More often than not, White is trying to advise him on how to improve himself and his city, and Sentinel kindly tells her to shut up and mind her own business.
They are both very prideful people who can't accept when they are wrong. White is more willing than Sentinel to admit to it and compromise. If she believes she is 100% in the right, she won't go down without a verbal fight. She has yet to figure out how to properly counter Sentinel's "NUH UH!" though. She believes this is normal and healthy as she hears time and time again how arguments are a sign of a functional relationship. White knows how in the past she never allowed anyone to express their grievances or criticize her. If they did, she'd twist their words to further force her own viewpoint or take control over their mind and body. Seeing Sentinel passionately argue back while White practices her listening skills and only sometimes speaks over him gives her hope that she isn't regressing back to her previous toxicity. No one has told her that disagreements are healthy and normal, but frequent fights and arguments are not. And the kind of hellish circles these two go in just ain't it
43 notes
·
View notes
Text
I’m doing a little goal over on my ko-fi to get myself a new laptop so i can stream again! ✨any help is super appreciated
You can find my ko-fi here
I will also be opening coloured sketch bust commissions on my Patreon tonight for my £5+ tiers
#the comm money isnt going towards my laptop tho thats livin money#but i never advertise my patreon or my comms so im like i probbly should do that#but really any donations is very much appreciated#obviously no one feel obliged or anything#but its there if you want to support me as a one off thing rather than a patreon thing#i also never post about my ko-fi#aahh im very awkward at promoting myself
375 notes
·
View notes
Text
i think ppl who are super online or into fandom should watch/read/etc something without ever touching fandom discourse or making aus or shipping characters just like every once in a while
#this isn’t a diss at shipping or aus#i participate in that sometimes#and its fun#im mostly saying like#sometimes people seem to get way too engrossed in the idea of fandom to the point its not even about enjoying the source material atp#and it also seems to result in fans acting like the creators of things have some obligation#to keep in mind a fandom or how a fandom would feel ab their thing#and i think that’s a stupid mindset#a writer should not be like i better specify this specific thing so there’s not meaningless discourse about it on tumblr!#☀️🌈🔥#i just think it’s not particularly good to get really into a fandom of anything and everything you consume#mostly bc of the way fandoms are nowadays#also maybe i’m a bit tired of seeing really good series/whatever turned into au/shipping fodder and nothing else#if you’re going to do that at least pretend you like the source material outside of the character designs#idk im rambling i might make this a more cohesive post later lawl
72 notes
·
View notes
Text
i think itis funny in the past when i would list my interests as if i post abt them i donot post abt the shit im into rly Mainly bc im not rly Into Into anything anymore i occasionally watch or read or play something but i dont do fandom stuff rly much.... just sometimes i get brainworms
#do i still list my interests somewhere i dont knowwww#i just stopped rly being into fandom a few years ago combination depression antipathy + bad experiences in fandom spaces#but idk. me listing my interests didnt rly accomplish anything for anyone bc it was just like anddd just so you know i was crazy abt this#video game for a rly long time it probably wont ever come up again but it might maybe one day. yk. ig its just sharing info Which is one#supposes the point of all of this but idk#its not that im cagey abt my interests except that one which i cant talk abt publically bc its a triple a game and im embarassed abt it. no#anything bad im just embarrassed . its not anything any of my oomfies have ever posted abt either so its just for me. and lamp . and when#the third game comes out i might post very very very vaguely abt it ......... possibly.#but ya its like. idk i think you guys have to find out abt my plague tale obsession on your own through lived experience. aka just me seein#like the word king and randomly collapsing to the floor and going KING HUGO 😭😭😭😭😭 oh god hugo guys oh god . please play plague tale#i wish i had finished that tw thing i started making but then i got too focused on the color palette and making it look nice and i stopped.#umm tw child death animal death The plague some gorey stuff theres some cult things in the second game ummm. yeah ..... its rly special to#me tho i love those games PLAY PLAGUE TALE!!! and if u need more indepth tws ill give them to you even if i have to replay both games to#refresh my memory... lamp wont play plaguetale with me (not their speed) so im all alone </3 but i miss it i might replay soon... i wish i#was in like discord servers so i could play it on call w ppl or something <- is in discord servers but is shy and Also i feel like playing#game on call is like a level like 2 friendship thing and i cant even do level 1 friendship things like i feel i need to at least be talking#regularly in a server b4 i like try to do Calls in the server esp for plague tale bc its like a 1p game so wed need a rapport to like have#shit to talk abt and etc ..... i could just infodump abt the game but again i feel doing that to like strangers/oomfies would b weird. ik i#come on here and talk abt whatever i want but its like you guys dont Have to read this and its not like a server where Yeah im not talking#to one person but im still like Oh well ive sent a message and its in the channel and everybody just has to look at it and whatever.#but on here i post i nobody cares and it just gets pushed down and its Fine bc its not like anybody has to feel obliged to respond#which is fine. you know.. i just hate being like a nuisance i hate . idk how to phrase. imposing myself on others ig.. which is dumb bc the#i turn around and whine abt how i have no friends and its like Maybe that is bc you donot talk to anyone bc yr scared they will be annoyed#with you and you dont leave the house and have no interests to bond with ppl and etc. but basically the difference is ive written all this#and you guys can just not read it or you can just read it and ignore it and its different. even tho i am like addressing you and i do have#like. weird parasocial thing with My followers or whatever where i talk directly to you YES YOU! reading this. IDKK im rambling so much i#dont know what im talking abt anymore. i proooooobably need to go to sleep im hungry tho but im not but i am. but i think my sleep is getti#off schedule again i had trouble sleeping yesterday too... ugh
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
okay sorry for having opinions on sonic shipping but . the more popular a ship is the more likely i am to be annoyed by it so its probably for the best that my favorite ship is one of the not as popular ones . but also the way sonknux gets talked about (or not talked about) as a result of it being less popular drives me up the wall . what do you mean it doesnt make sense. hes literally not staring at the moon and thinking about him💔
#theyre literally the sun and the moon and you dont even CARE ....#okay but ive actually seen random sonknux posts get a bunch of comments from so/nadow and kn/uxouge fans#along the lines of ''umm i prefer so/nadow :/'' or ''this doesnt make any sense so/nadow is better'' or ''nooo knuckles likes rouge''#like ohhhh my godddd shut UP#anyway theres so many things that sonic and knuckles have done that if it was sonic and amy or knuckles and rouge#or sonic and shadow doing it instead it would get labelled as peak romance#i know this to be true because it literally already happens sonic and knuckles do something gay and its cricket noises#then sonic and shadow do the same thing later. sometimes in the same show/comic/whatever . and it gets reposted everywhere . what#hell none of the other pairings i mentinoed even have to do what sonic and knuckles do they just have to stand near eachother#and people start freaking out ...#also im not saying youre legally obligated to like sonknux too if you like so/nadow or that you cant prefer so/nadow#but. if you think so/nadow makes perfect sense and have convinced yourself that its basically canon and every interaction between them#is a hint from sega that theyre secretly dating or something and you make the biggest reaches imaginable to prove it#while also thinking that sonknux doesnt make any sense at all and labelling it as a crackship or whatever#i can only assume that you arent paying attention to anything that happens in knuckles centric stuff#and/or being That obsessed with so/nadow has just heavily warped your perception of things. because how#and its not even just so/nadow .. knu/xouge is constantly overshadowing sonknux too#but at least so/nadow is actually okay its only crime is being too popular and having some annoying fans as a result#knu/xouge on the other hand is too popular and has a lot of annoying fans AND sucks . which is worse#but so/nadow is one i find myself comparing it to more often because its another gay pairing#and also people are obsessed with taking stuff from sonic and knuckles' relationship/interactions and giving it to sonic and shadow instead#and acting like knuckles doesnt exist and stuff that sonic and knuckles did first is exclusive to sonic and shadow or something#whatever . runs away
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
i mean i should probably stop saying shit just to be mean
#on the other hand....#the social environment cultivated on here almost demands it lest i let people walk all over me#definitely one of those skills i picked up in childhood to survive social situations back then#not a great skill. not even one i particularly like using. in fact i hate this part of me that feels the need to be judgemental#the logical part of me- the more ~~evolved~~ part of my spirit you could say knows its stupid and has hated doing it since forever#i completely stopped for a while. and then my abusive ex did all the shit they did so i felt like i had to dig that judgemental asshole sid#back up to defend myself bc ik thats the level they operate on. but it also started being the level a lot of ppl on here operated on soon#after (and im not entirely unconvinced they weren't an influence as to why people became more of an asshole on here)#(them or twitter. probably a mix of both but mostly twitter users coming here lol. also had to be an ass on twitter to survive)#so now i feel like i have to cling on to this side of myself i was more than happy to let rot in the dirt bc if i dont then people are gonn#use my vulnerability and niceness and lack of desire to use ad hom n shit against me so they can bully and abuse me and say whatever#and i have to keep this image up of being unphased and happy all the time and then i snap and then its a whole problem to people#so basically be nothing ever bc ppl on here will think thats you forever moral of story i guess im not sure.#best advice i can give: dont exist online publicly in any significant way. if you wanna be a pfpless. bioless account that is your god give#fuckin right okay. never are you obligated to be part of this shit and im personally telling you its hell and if i knew then what i knew#now i would have never started coming on to tumblr in the first place. its cool i learned about all this queer stuff or whatever but it#sucks otherwise#tumblr. twitter. insta. any social media where the point is to make posts and write posts more than anything else#dont bother. so much is lost in text-style communication. bridging gaps is nearly impossible. you will always be misunderstood#i think thats the case for most vocal communication but ESPECIALLY digitally
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
I need to remind myself often it's okay to take as long as I need to work on projects/drawings
#dangerous grind mindset territory >:(#i get so weird abt wips like#unless its extremely relevant no one is gonna care rly how long it takes#like if someone shared a wip with *me* and they took a while to finish it or never finished it#id still be like ahhhh so cool#but then i get into a weird mindset of like: you need to finish this TONIGHT#and then it never happens lol#as i said its only random occurrences when i can sit down and finish smth in one night#i need to remind myself: these things take time#i think my brain is sometimes running on a deadline that doesn't exist#theres a weird point btwn:#enjoying encouragement bcs it makes you feel more motivated to finish smth#but also feeling this odd sense of guilt and obligation#i draw for myself but literally for my whoel time drawing i often feel obligation towards a nonexistent audience#some imaginary force thats gonna be disappointed if i dont finish smth in [illogical period of time]#its good to have some sense of motivation obv bcs how would you ever finish anything#but its weird to start feeling the same thoughts abt schoolwork for your hobby#basically: I hate setting deadlines for myself bcs it just never works out#if i say 'you must work on this tonight!' i will absolutely not be working on this tonight#funny feeling when you start being like 'aaaahhh everyone is gonna hate me if i dont post this soon'#i think its nice when i can post smth i talk about in a quick turn-around#but rationally i know that if people are interested they wont care how long it takes <3 bcs id feel the same#also i guess i get put out some times seeing how fast other people can create :/#catie has 3 moods(for creation):#a. complete and utter burnout#b. not burnt out but finishing smth takes more than just one day. maybe a wk or more#c. can finish a piece in one day or even one sitting. often draws several things right after the other#C is truly the goat 🙏 i feel blessed when i get into that mindset#blah blah blah please stop feeling beholden to something that doesnt exist. thanks catie.#catie.rambling.txt
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
i have such a love/hate relationship with being unable to transition in my life currently, for a multitude of reasons
because while it sucks, not feeling like the body im in reflects me 100% (i do feel like its *me*, always has been *me*, just not like..the full picture of me) the entire reason it took me so long to come to terms with being fully a boy is that i don't hate being a girl! i enjoy a lot of it! but in the way that i don't want it to be my entirety. i want womanhood like a cosplayer wants to out on a wig. i love being a girl in the way a drag queen loves being a queen. i love being feminine, but i don't want to be seen as just feminine.
so now that i've come to terms with the fact that i won't be satisfied until i'm actually transitioning, instead of feeling trapped by femininity i feel like...i'm doing a victory lap. a farewell tour.
i don't hesitate to compliment other girls anymore because I know when i'm fully passing as a guy it won't be seen the same way. when i meet a girl for the first time instead of shying away from "being a girl's girl" and gossiping about her trip in italy where her boyfriend cheated on her; instead i lean into it, not thinking twice about how i might make the conversation awkward because i know one day this isn't going to happen one conversation in with a girl i've never met before. because now that i know why these things always made me uncomfortable despite how much i like them, i can enjoy them while they last. having a pad on hand for the random lady in walmart. being in a thrift store and an older woman approaching me to ask if the yellow dress or the purple dress looks better, and i say the purple one because it suits her eyes. because i know one day, i will be happier because ill feel so much more comfortable in my own body, but i know i'm going to miss these parts of being a girl.
i love women!!! and i love being among women! but i don't love being a woman, not like the joy ive felt after accepting that i'm not. but that's okay, and i know i will miss it, but that means i can enjoy it while it's here ❤️
#and i feel obligated in the tags to say i know it might seem like it but im not like bigender or anything like that#like probably vaguely nonbinary leaning heavily towards boy#i love being feminine but i want to be a boy who is sometimes feminine. you understand#transgender#personal post#long post#i played with genderfluid for a LONG tome and honestly its probably the closest label#but after stressing over labels for years now im just queer hahah#if i were to use genderfluid it's more like#im a boy except for on the full moon every third month#also loving women confused it for a long time#like it was hard to tell the difference between 'i love these things about women...so i must want to still be a woman..?'#or ur just a womankisser cedar have you considered that?
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
one of the prev posts I was like oh cql? on the url and they WERE cql...but their top tag was...bad....but I don't even have the energy to refute their nonsensical arguments for it because like that's not what shipping really is about but also THEY REALLY THINK JC IS *THE ONE* TO MAKE WWX HAPPY AND LWJ IS BORING???? incest aside like jc makes wwx MISERABLE jfc canonically yeah lwj does make wwx happy and jc is left miserable and alone due to the consequenves of his actions including actively tormenting and mocking and humiliating and trying to kill wwx. go die mad about it 😭
#like 'wow their love for each other is so crazy and all-consuming its insane to thibk some boring lan cultivator could do that for him'#WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT!!!!! their relationship is so unhealthy and marred by debt and obligations in the FIRST PLACE#and even without that yeah there's love there but they also just don't see eye to eye on so many things and jc actively impedes#wwx in things he wants or believes in and also treats him like shit like this is fully a sector of the fanbase who are just making things u#in their own head to enjoy#which would be mildly annoying if not for the fact that it's 1. INCEST#and 2. between two characters with THAT kind of history. wwx needs someone he can like...trust..#okay I guess I donhave the energy. I'm less angry at them calling lwj boring. yeah he is kind of boring but that's fine#wwx canonically doesn't think so and canonically is very happy w him#these bitches think his arguably abusive extremely immature and volatile pseudo-brother who tortured and tried to kill him is BETTER FOR HI#?????? brother jc is not better for ANYONE. there's loving someone and there's wanting to be around them and shit. like there's so much#history there it's lucky if they can even be friends again#like 🤢🤢🤢 what the fuck are you on. the narrative was pretty clear. media comprehension -100000#I don't even think this person is unintelligent or anything they just have incredibly bad and nonsensical taste#or at least used to. idk how old those posts were I fully admit#wwx with anyone besides lwj is a hard sell but jc is beyond insane for multiple reasons#even if you 'don't see them as brothers' which is an interpretation I guess they still have a horrible relationship#and jc makes wwx feel terrible bc he has a bad personality and blames wwx for all the most painful things that happened to him and he lashe#out constantly. like he canonically makes wwx miserable and forces him to prioritize jcs own emotional and physical needs. by the end he's#a little better. but he's also not the moral beacon wwx gravitates towards. he's pragmatic and callous#wwx NEEDS someone he can trust someone who shares his principles someone who will take care of him and not demand him to crush inconvenient#parts of himself and play nice. to cater to someone else's feelings#like...structurally they're so well matched this post was insane I hate c/x shippers so much 😭#cor.txt
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
still awesome
#i feel obligated to post the really good team rocket bits with how much ive turned on them djdjkdkfkfkf#echoed voice#sm lb#its genuinely really good tho i think this is a nice episode for them and a good ep overall#its a solid intro to nanu and acerola that nails their relationship and i like an ep that starts off a long arc#but takes a break from the main characters before doing so. like cutting to TR before doing anything with ash and nanu was clever and fun#also gengar was just really cool in this episode like the way greedy rapooh is animated is so fun#im sorry i like ash’s gengar but like. this was such a breath of fresh air the og colors look so good on gengar and this one is so expressiv#expressive#idk solid ep all around one of the highlights of the season easily its really good
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
i literally cant make a post about this without sounding unbearably bitchy but i am frustrated by how often self-described writers (especially ones i see here on tumblr) describe the process of writing as completely passive--"you dont write the story, the story writes YOU!" "im not in charge here, the characters are in the drivers seat XD"
when as another self-described writer (on tumblr) the most interesting and satisfying part of writing to me is making deliberate choices about how a scene proceeds, what a character is like, how to describe something, every part of the piece. none of it is passive for me. even though i follow people who reblog posts about writing and even though i care a lot about writing and do it often, i rarely see posts i want to reblog about writing because i struggle to relate to any of them.
the part where i get unbearably bitchy about it is the fact that (trying with all my might to restrain the snarling biting evil dog in my brain that wants to kill) the writing produced by people who talk this way is. not to my taste. and frequently. in my opinion. not very good. and i dont think that that is a coincidence. nor do i think it's a coincidence that writers on tumblr seem to. have trouble. finishing projects. but. yknow. different strokes. and all that. just because their approach is different doesnt mean its wrong. (the dog in my brain is gnawing its own leg off)
#NOT! that there is ANY shame in being unable to finish projects! nobody has any obligation to finish anything!#if you dont like a piece you dont have to finish it! if it sucks hit da bricks!!!#but. if you WANT to finish pieces. and cant. and struggle this much with writers block. yknow.#perhaps. your approach is. flawed#i might delete this later lmao. even this version of the post sounds so mean. whagever.#.......also every person who's ever put ''pick a line from my writing'' on a uquiz and put shit like ''her knife-blood eyes quavered yet he#bones were anvil resolute'' or some other purple prose bullshit like that wouldnt know good writing if it hit them square in the face and--#(HASTILY YANKING THE DOG BACK AND SHOVING IT IN ITS CAGE)#this too shall pass
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
At this point, unless you're aiming for specific accommodations, a self diagnosis is just as good as a professional diagnosis. I've been in several disability communities for years and being professionally diagnosed vs being self diagnosed has not changed the experience, like at all.
The only shit I get is from people who constantly invalidate others on a basis that you need to follow the rules in order to be seen as one of their own. And like, people who think being diagnosed as a child actually means anything in terms of the oppression you will face. I tried interacting with a group of diagnosed autistic people a while back and they discredited me for not having the exact same experience as them. And it's honestly fucking sad that you need to discredit another and go as far as to call it offensive when they seek support in a space they thought was meant to all people of that disorder. But it goes to show that it's not supportive unless people pay the membership fee of professional help, and that's an incredibly expensive fee to pay for a community that isn't inclusive. Therefore, it wasn't worth it in the first place.
In general, you will have virtually the same amount of ableism thrown your way as every other invisibly disabled person on the planet, with the added bonus of other random disabled people being ableist to you at the low, low cost of zero dollars.
So. I'd say self diagnosis is just as good, you just don't get the benefit of accommodations and you may incur some distain from ableist people in the community. Which is sarcastically fun, as I mean to say, it's fucking annoying, but yeah you'd probably experience the fakeclaiming regardless of whether or not you actually got diagnosed.
#babey posts#self diagnosis#pro self dx#self dx#people act as if it's a massive downgrade but it's not#its basically about the same#ignorant abled people? check. bitter disabled folks? check.#people who want to support you but feel obligated to be neutral to you based on the fact#that they don't want to incur the wrath of other disabled folk? check#so please self diagnose without fear#its not like you actually affect anything otherwise (no matter what they say)#misdiagnosed people also actually went to a doctor in order to get fucked over by incompetence#you're not the fucking same because you didn't try to go to one
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
I'd really like to talk about how non-black artists often draw Aisha with straight or vaguely wavy hair. I know a lot of these artists genuinely just.. don't know, so please understand, that 100% is whitewashing. Whitewashing isn't just about skin - there are a lot of different ways to whitewash real people and fictional characters.
I get that winx club came out in the early 2000s and was originally hand drawn so there were limitations with how well they were able to communicate her hair, however, it's not straight.
"There are four basic curl types of texture types ranging from 1 to 4," shares Yates. "Type 2 denotes wavy hair with no discernible curl, and types 3 and 4 plus additional classifications define both the curl type and shape. If your curls are defined ringlets, think like the shape of a slinky or corkscrew, then you have class 3 curls. If your curls follow more of a 'z' pattern, then you have class 4 types of curls." -source
For reference, here's another chart.
Now here are some pics of Aisha's hair in various hairstyles.
It'd be easy to assume that Aisha's hair is in that loose wavy pattern that takes up Type 2, but I really don't think that's the case. It's hard to place her in an exact category since we can't see the individual strands and therefore can't see if she has waves or defined curls/coils. However! Please take note of the overall shape of her hair, the volume of her hair, how well it holds shape and stays up, and how it moves.
Aisha's hair is most likely in the Type 3 range (and possibly Type 4A)! Again, please look at her updos! Her hair holds shape in ways that Type 2 hair doesn't (not without a lot of product and styling).
Honestly, I think some of this confusion also comes from people having the belief that black women can't have naturally long hair. That's not the case... but it is still a pervasive stereotype.
Anyway, this isn't the most thought out post but it is me asking non-black artists to be aware of how they're depicting black characters. Natural hair is important! And while we may not know Aisha's exact type of hair, we do know that it's not in Type 1 or Type 2. Drawing her with straight hair or somewhat wavy hair is whitewashing and needs to be avoided. Aisha's hair is very stylized and it's not really meant to look Realistic, but portraying her with the hair type she most likely has is important.
Please remember that whitewashing doesn't just mean making someone's skin lighter. Depicting a black character who canonically has curly hair with straight hair instead is 100% whitewashing. Just... please be more conscious of how you depict black characters and how Sometimes you might do something racist without consciously realizing it because you're not black, you've grown up in a racist world, and you do have unconscious biases and stereotypes running around in your brain (everyone does ! you are not exempt !!).
#obligatory i dont have curly hair so im Not an expert#and if anything i said is Wrong or off please let me know !#like i promise i wont be a dick about it#and obviously no one is obligated to add on but if you do have curly or coily hair and you have thoughts Please feel free !!#again i promise i wont be a dick and you wont come off as annoying or anything#i Want the fandom to learn more and do better#the only reason I'm making this kind of post is cause i see it too often#like practically 9 out of 10 aisha fanarts gives her straight hair or Kinda Wavy hair#and its like... it just feels so lazy#if its in the art style of winx or close to it then i understand it more#it pisses me off more when the art style is realistic or more realistic#like dude... DUDE...#anyway PLEASE GIVE MY GIRL HER CURLS BACK#winx aisha#also listen ik this isn't written well but it gets the point across and thats what matter
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
wish I had it in me to draw mid art of canon characters but instead I will continue to draw mid art of my own ocs that I barely speak about publicly and will get little recognition for
#my one annual bitter artist post...#😁✌️#my thang is. no one is under any obligation to interact with my (or any other artist's) art#and i don't expect interaction especially with how infrequently i post art#and with how i never really polish anything also lol#but its still always like. ok.... well....
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
nawt to be bitter but my stupid fucking juice poll getting more than 600 notes in less than a day but my commission post that's been up for a Month not being able to break 15 reblogs that aren't just Me. actually no to be bitter what the hell man
#THIRTEEN HUNDRED PEOPLE FOLLOW THIS BLOG AND NONE OF YOU. CAN REBLOG MY GOD FORSAKEN COMMISSION POST#this is not meant to be guilt trippy or anything reblog whatever you want#its just very frustrating putting hours of work and love into things and then nobody fucking cares 👍#and also I need money and have so much free time right now I'll draw anything you wantttttt#like I don't want ppl to commission me or reblog my art out of pity or obligation or anything because that sucks#I'm just being diseased in my brain don't worry about ittttt#its not even anybodys elses fault actually I just want to be good enoughhhhhhh#ghost posts#text
5 notes
·
View notes