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àŒâI would set the world on fire for youâ | LN4 âą
Parings: lando norris x gf!reader.
Summary: after the Brazil GP, lando comes home to the worst week of his year. Also, it was his birthday. So even though the world hates him, you wanna make sure he is loved and he did nothing wrong. And that if you could you would set the world on fire for him.
Word count: +5k.
Warnings: written and smau. angst and fluff at the same time. Anxiety attack. Overthinking. Selfhatred. Language. And thatâs it. Iâm not a native English speaker so there could be (so many) errors. Not proofread.
Authorâs note: lately I NEED to write things to cope with my feelings so here it is. Hope Vegas is good to all of my boys đ donât forget to like, reflow or comment! Ur support its way loved here. and follow me so we can be friends :3 (and drink mate together!)
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Your heart was completely shattered. Your heart was racing to get out of your car at the airport. In exactly 20 minutes your boyfriend will be back home after the worst weekend ever imagined. You couldn't assist the Brazilian GP because of your work schedule. You had a few meetings after Mexico gp. And you felt so guilty about it. You knew lando would be more protected if you were there. At least in the intimacy of you, emotionally speaking. Having someone there for him to hug and to comfort him. to calm his mind. To stop the self hatred you knew it was playing right now in his head.Â
Lando is an overthinker and you get him because you were also one. You knew to which scenarios his mind can travel to and how painful it can be for him to live with himself sometimes. You were fighting your tears reading all of the atrocious things people commented online. You knew that wasn't real life. But you also knew he would see all that and how that would weigh in his heart. They can never let him win. And the worst part was only because it was just him. Other drivers could do or say worse things and everybody would laugh and brush it off. But when it came to Lando, he was a monster, a loser, an arrogant son of a bitch. That hurt deeply. Because in reality lando is the sweetest soul you have ever met. And you knew how vulnerable he could be. Tho you always admired him for that. You always thought that the bravest and strongest people in this world are the ones that admit to need help, the ones that are vulnerable and open about it. In a world this cruel, that was no easy task. But he did time and time again.and he did even knowing how shitty people were gonna be to him. Though, he did it for people he knew that counted on him. Lando always talks about how people sometimes come to him saying he has saved their lives and the impact he had on them. It's something beautiful yet that weighted on his shoulders as well, you thought.Â
You crossed the airport gates. Anxiety shaking your whole body. You wanted to hug him so bad. To tell him everything was gonna be fine.Â
You opened the flight information he sent you before his plane took off so you looked for the probable gate he was coming out of when landed. Even though you were anxious you were also relieved that he was home with you.
After a few minutes passed by, a lot of people started coming out of the door you were waiting for. You started gazing at everyone just to find him. After a bunch of people got out, there he was. One of the last ones to go through the door. When you saw him your body almost came undone. You were out of air for a moment while the two of you got closer. When he is finally within reach, you give him the strongest hug you could. He melted on you, hugging you by your neck. Not much time passed when you heard him crying hid in your neck. Your heart that was shattered, broke immediately. You tighter your grip unto him. He started to sob and you couldn't hold your own tears at that point. You knew he had the worst time on that flight, alone with his cruel thoughts torturing him for hours. And there was nothing that you could do to protect him. You couldn't say a word. There was nothing that you could say that it would make things better right now.Â
Lando was sobbing and shaking. His levels of anxiety reached a high when he saw you standing there looking for him desperately with your eyes. He needed you. But lifeâs a bitch and you couldn't stay with him throughout the whole American leg. He came undone in your arms. He needed to hug you for so long. He was broken. His mind replying to all the mistakes he made. All of his wrong decisions. All of the shit he said. He was embarrassed, angry and defeated. He was ashamed of himself. Disgusted. Frustrated and scared. Â
Yu rubbed his back trying to comfort him in the hug and trying to not cry so you could be the strong one for him. He needed you, you knew it. And you wanted to fix all of this in a snap of fingers, but you couldn't.Â
âItâs okay baby. You are gonna be alright, I promise. I love you. Youâre home now ", Yu said, to make him feel at least slightly better. When he heard you he started sobbing even harder. You let him take all the time he needed. While doing so, you tried to see where you were and how you could, if someone was recording and taking a picture. Fortunately you were almost alone. It was the last flight arriving for today. You feel relieved knowing this won't be used against him by the cruel internet trolls.Â
(...)
The drive home was silent. No music, no speaking. He didn't even look at you the whole ride. He was looking through the window avoiding any contact with society you thought while driving your Audi R8 V10 GT RWD through the illuminated Monaco streets. It was around 9pm. You had cooked for him some home made pasta you knew he adored. You just wanted him to feel better.Â
When you got home, he took his bags to the room with your help. You left his second suitcase next to his wardrobe and saw him lying on the bed.
âI made your fav homemade pasta. Do you want me to bring it here and eat it in bed?â you offered him with a soft voice. He was looking to the ceiling. He did not answer right away, but after a few moments he did.
âI'm not hungry, but thank you. Maybe i'll eat laterâ he said with a deep cracky voice and turned himself in the bed showing you his back. You frowned a bit.Â
He couldn't look at you. He hated that you could see him like this. He was ashamed of himself drawing in self pity and self hatred. He felt he let you down.Â
âAln, did you eat something during the flight at least?â you asked worriedly, walking forward to the bed so you could get closer to him. You sat on the table next to his back looking at him. You didn't want to touch him just because you didn't know if he would want you to. You didn't want to be invasive. You stayed in silence for a few minutes. You understood he didn't eat, that he didn't want to either or speak. So you stood up and let him have his alone time closing the door gently behind your back.
You ate alone that night.in silence just as if you could hear him from your kitchen aisle. The past was really good. You turned off your phone after washing the dishes and tidied the kitchen and living room up. You didn't want to see what social media was saying about your lover before bed. It was already enough scrolling and reading so many people wishing lando to die. That was the hardest part of it all. You left your phone charging on the kitchen counter and went to your shared room. When you entered he was already showered getting into the bed again. You half smiled at him even though he couldn't see you. You put on your pajamas in silence and climbed up the bed. He looked at you while you were getting comfortable next to him.Â
Your eyes met. Any of you said anything. Just looked at each other trying to read each other thought as if that was possible. He licked his dry lips. His eyes turned glassy.
âI messed everything up,â he said almost in a whisper. Your heart is breaking again. You shook your head at him getting closer and bringing him into your chest. You hugged him tightly.
âNo you didnt baby. Sometimes people are just mean, you know? They will interpret things as the wishâ you said softly rubbing his back and arm and caressing his hair gently. He felt a bit better under your frame. He felt protected but as a little kid when missbehaved so now he tries to find comfort. He didn't want to cry.he was trying hard not to let tears stream down his cheeks. You kissed his forehead and made him look at you. âI know you dont wanna talk about it but i love and i am so deeply and entirely proud of youâ you whisper close to his face. You saw him pout and the first tears coming down his face. You hugged him tightly. He hid in your neck and eventually fell asleep. You wanted to set the world on fire for this. You wanted to ruin every single person who says awful things about it. The comments, the media. You wanted to destroy everything and everyone just to protect him. He doesn't deserve this. He is an angel and you can't believe the world could only see the devil in him.Â
Lando tried to sleep but he couldn't. Everytime he closed his eyes, all of the tragic scenes from the race replayed in his mind. How the car felt, the rain, the radio messages, Oscar's voice, comments from his engineer . everything replayed in his head torturing him the worst way possible. He felt like getting down. He felt alone and miserable. He remembered Oscar words replying in his mind over and over again. âYou will eventually make it, mateâ. It was a positive message but he replayed it like a fucking nightmare.Â
What if he never makes it? What if he doesn't have what it takes? What if people are right? What if he is actually a monster and deserves to die? What if he did? Would they like him again or figure him out? Would anyone care about his feelings? Why does it have to be him and not someone else? Why are they all so cruel to him?
He couldn't stop thinking about every single detail about the weekend. He didn't want to celebrate his birthday anymore. He had you there but couldn't look at you. He felt disgusted by himself. He can't control it. He wants to go back into go karts and stop the time when he was actually happy and having fun with his friends. Now that line between friends and enemies is so blurry for him. Max didn't talk to him like before when all of this shit started. He knew Max was really competitive, of course he did, everyone knew it since day 1. But what about their friendship? Lando shit talked, max shit talked. He felt so confused even by his own feelings around this whole shitty situation or championship situation. Whatever you want to call it.Â
(...)
When you woke up the next morning he was gone. You felt kind of confused for a bit. You heard him talking so you guessed he was speaking on the phone. When you got up from bed you walked out the room to find him. When you got closer to the living room you knew he was talking to Max on facetime because you heard his voice.Â
âMorning, guysâ you said, getting into the kitchen for some water to take your thyroid pills. Lando looked at you half-smile.Â
âGood morning babyâ he said as sweetly as he could. You smiled at him. Before coming back to your room to shower and stuff you went and gave him a good morning kiss making Max almost throw up when he saw you in a funny way. You showed him the middle finger and disappeared so he could talk in private with his mate. You respected his place a lot. And i guess thatâs why you understand so much each other.Â
(...)
The following day things got worse. Lando hasn't eaten any meal you prepared for him, didn't even want to have take out or anything. You found him crying in the kitchen and in the garden by the pool of your house. His anxiety was killing him, you knew. The desperation and guilt were eating him alive and you didn't know what to do rather than try to talk and comfort him.
He was sitting on the sofa in the living room. His sight was fixed on the floor without moving. You got alarmed because you knew what was going on. You got close slowly to not trigger him even more. His face was red, his hands sweaty and shaking. You sat on the floor diagonal from him looking at him. Slowly and gently you grabbed his hands trying to capture his brain's attention and get him out of the fog he was in. You were almost sure he was having an anxiety attack and he started because of your touch. You gently rubbed your fingers in his hands. He was out of breath for a moment and you got scared so you tried to do as your therapist told you in case someone you know goes through this.Â
âLan, can you hear me? Try to pay attention to my voice okay? I'm here and I'm with you dull be alrightâ you said really softly trying to make him look at you. You looked for his eyes with your gaze. âItâs not as terrible as you think, baby, I promise. You aren't all of those things people commentâ you used your words carefully. His hands caught your strength and so you reassured him. You saw his pout becoming deeper. You hurt to see him like this. It was so unfair. He doesnt deserve this, god. And he broke. He broke down again. His tears streamed down his face. Sobbing in so much pain. You sat next to him to hug him tightly once more. But now you knew it was worse. He was shaking under your arms.you let him go through this. So he can let go of all of this shit inside him. âI promise lando, you aren't all of those things. People are just mean and cruel. You are a good baby and so talented. Gifted. You have it in you I promise, I can see itâ you tried to comfort him with your words as well, trying to distract your mind from the tragic thought he was dealing with by himself. A few tears fell down your face. It was a hard time. And you were trying to be strong for him.Â
âI'm so stupid I'm sorryâ he sobbed and you shook your head.Â
âNo, Lando, you aren't. I promise okay? Believe me.i know you and you aren't. And this will pass. All the people that know you for real, we love you and we are so proud of you. You had an amazing year. You are fucking fighting a three time world champion, even sooner than he did with lewis back in 2021. Thatâs huge my love. Your dream is near, I just know it. Because I know you, and youâll make it, baby. You didn't let anyone down. You're getting stronger so when you finally make it, all of these moments will make it taste so much better and sweeterâ you explained while rubbing his back. Your words made an effect on him. Heslowly calming down. He didn't want to let you go. He wanted to just stay there in your arms. Where he felt safe and sound. Noone could hurt him there. That was what made him fall for you. You saw him. You knew him. And you care about him. He was finally important for someone for being lando, and not lando norris formula one driver. His past lovers left him feeling confused whether they loved him for him or their idea of him. You came outta nowhere and blew him away. You were brutally honest, no filter yet so gentle and caring with your words. He thought his perfect girl didn't exist but then there was you, listening to him for hours if he needed to. Giving him the best advice and clearing his perspective. Always cheering him up. Cracking jokes so he could distract and feel relaxed. Heknew he was in love with you the moment you offered to give him a ride because he was drunk as well at a new years party. It was normal but the fact that a stranger could do that for him blew his mind. He never admitted afraid people would think itâs weird. But it is what it is. Your smile ended him right there and when you started cracking jokes he didn't want to live in that damn car for the rest of his life. So here you are 4 years later,and you still be the greatest person in the world and the one who knew him the most. He felt your lips on his forehead. For a moment he thought about leaving racing. What if his life was better without it in it? He could go back to Bristol and be with his friends. With you. Maybe start a family and have a normal job so you could spend each day together. He started crying again at that thought. He loved racing but this year was the hardest yet amazing one.Â
He finally calmed down after a few minutes in silence. He looked at you with puppy eyes. You caressed his face gently brushing a few tears falling down still.Â
âWould you be there with me? Could you?â he asked, making you a bit confused. And he noticed. âTo the races. I need you there. Please. To every race and when I become a champion,would you be there with me? You could feel he's scared. You half smiled at him melting as his comment.
âOf course I'll be there, baby. Iâll always be there for and with you. If I could , I would set the whole world on fire just for you. Never doubt it, okay?â he nodded and you pulled him closer to give him so many little kisses around his whole face making him gigle a little.Â
âI love you, y/nâ he said looking at you fondly.
âI love you, lando. Everythingâs gonna be alrightâ you said, assuring him and gave a peck on his lips. âGo have a shower and dress cute im gonna take you out on a date before your birthdayâ you said more lighful to cheer him up and his face lit up.
âReally?â you noddedat him and send him to shower agin funny. Before going with him so yhou both looked facy, you needed to say something to the world. You couldnt stay crossed arms and do nothing about it.Â
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norrisfan: omg thank u queen for this
user45: ur as dumb as he is. you cant defend him. he sucks and thats it darling. don lie to yourself.
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You turned off your phone once again. You were already so fed up with it all. Let them talk. You were sure they would choke with their own shit eventually.Â
but continued with the day. Lando was still a little off but he was looking better so maybe he is actually feeling better. You took out to dinner at a restaurant he always dreamed of going to. He was so happy to be there. The food was delicious. It was near the beach though it is colder here so we looked at it through the glass window. You gossip and talk about anything and everything as if everything was alright. And it was a fact it was. Because this is real life. Not social media. A few people stopped you while eating to ask for pictures and Lando said yes every time you even became a photoshoot photographer. Nice people telling him nice things was what he needed right now. Plus, you would never be pissed off by his fans. You were actually grateful for them. Of course, some can be disrespectful but you knew the real one was it. You really embraced Lando's life even though itâs nothing like the life youâd dreamed of to have one day. But he is the boy of your dreams so why would it be a problem.Â
November, 13th
When the clock hit midnight, the restaurant made a cake for him so we all sang him happy birthday. You chose his favorite type of cake. He giggled all nervous and shy. His cheeks red while his eyes showed a little sparkle while watching the candles. He blew them. You recorded the whole thing and took so many pictures. He thanked the staff and staff of the restaurant and they let you enjoy the cake in comfort. Your heart was full to see him a little back again.Â
After The restaurant kicked you out because they needed to close, you decided to do a road trip through the mountains of monaco. You always enjoy a good ride with good music and good company. And you also had sex in the car. You kind of guessed he needed to take his frustrations out somehow because you had the rough sex you really enjoyed. He joked it was his best birthday present making you laugh. He was joking again.Â
âThank youâ he said while gently rubbing your naked chest. You were seated on him. You smiled and leaned for a soft kiss on his lips. You really loved him. And all you wanted for him was happiness and well being. And you would do anything to make sure he is okay.Â
You came back home and had another round of sex. Enjoying yourselves in intimacy. Lando finally fell asleep after a terrible few days, in the calm of your body. His face on your bare chest. You clothed him and fell asleep relieved.
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yourusername: What can I say about you? There's no words that can describe your greatness. Or my feelings for you. I'm so grateful you were born on November 13th. 25 years ago my best friend and the love of my life was brought to this world. And sometimes what unfair is that, right? A world that is so cruel to you. A world that doesn't deserve your greatness and kindness nor your attention. You are the greatest son, brother, uncle, friend and lover. Anyone who says otherwise doesn't actually know you. We are all so lucky that you choose us to spend your time on this world with. Thank you for being who you care. For caring about the people you love and making sure we are alright and happy. Thank you for being the light that you are for so many lives. Thank you for being vulnerable. I admire you so much, lan. You are the strongest and bravest human I know. so honest and open. Anyone who says otherwise, actually, doesn't know you. I know this is not the best birthday of your life, but I promise you I'll try to make it better. Thank you for being who you are to me. I promise I see you and I care. You're the love of my life. And I'm so lucky you love me over any other human out there. So happy birthday to the prettiest and most genuine, real, fun, kind, warm person I have the chance to call mine everyday. Hope you have the best day you can have right now. Thatâs the least you deserve. I love you forever bestie. Donât ever change.
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So you had a master plan for Lando's birthday. You went to the Hilton hotel for some coffee with Max and Lando of course. We lied and said pietra couldn't make it because she had a meeting and Lando believed. Truth was, you have contacted all of his friends and arregened flights so everyone could make it to Monaco on time. Pietra was the one in your house. You left her a spare key yesterday evening after coffee with alex. You gave her the directions and the idea of what you wanted while you and Max distracted Lando until 7pm, she decorated the house and received all of his friends. Lando had no clue of what was going on but he was so happy it was the second cake you brought to him. You recorded the moment and seeing him smile made your heart melt.Â
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landonorris: I love you greatest girlfriend there to exist. Thank u for everything and specially for making this day so much better. Ur an Angel â€ïžâđ©č
‷ yourusername: I love u more Angel â€ïžâđ©č the least you deserve is to be loved and happy.
User33: đ€Łđ€Łđ€Łđ€Łđ€Łđ€Ł
Landostan: THANK U FOR EXISTING AND TAKING SUCH CARE OF HIM UR A QUEEN I LOVE U WE LOVE U
carlossainz55: ur the best đ«¶đ»
‷ yourusername: te extraño hermano we need to double date with Rebecca again asap!
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When 7pm came around we all âdecidedâ to go to your house and eat pizza for dinner. Lando even said to me that they could do a stream and have fun for a bit. You agreed and all knowing that wasn't gonna happen. The ride home was so much fun. You spent the 20 minute ride screaming a one direction song from the top of your lungs. You sang Lando âthrough the darkâ And he sang âYou and iâ.it was lovely, Max almost threw up when you kissed. Luckily he was driving so he hadn't watched much of your pda.Â
You got out of the car trying to play it cool though you were so nervous. You saw Max texting Pietra that you were close.the lights were off. And silent. Your nervousness took over you when you tried to open the door but let the keys fall nervously. Thankfully Max and Lando were discussing which type of pizza they would order. Finally you opened the door, lando behind you and so you turned on the lights.
Everyone jumped from everywhere saying happy birthday in unison. Yoursmile was so big but when you saw lando his smile was even bigger.
âSurprise!â you said and lando was still processing it. But when his friend started hugging him he started crying out of joy. He thought his friends weren't coming this year because of their busy schedule.but that was a lie you made them tell so lando wouldn suspect anything. Fortunately, they all kept the secret safe. Lando was so happy.Â
You all spent the night playing poker, drinking gin and tonics and surrounded by laughter and love. In the moment, around everybody, you felt lucky to be there. Especially to be in landos life. Everyone was so sweet and good just like him. He deserves the world.
Everyone went home around 2 am. You were exhausted and tipsy at the end of the night. So you put your pajamas on and sled straight on the bed. Lando wrapped his arms around your waist.
âThank you for everything. It was a great birthday. Thank u for always taking care of me always.you make me the happiestâ he said under a whisper looking at you. He looked so gorgeous with that little smile and tired eyes. You stroked his cheek gently, smiling.Â
âYou deserve to be happy darling. You are unstoppable. Better days at work will come,I know.but im grateful that you have so much love surrounding you. I love youâ he smiled widely listening to you and leaned to kiss you with so much feelings and passion. You were the greatest thing that ever happened to him and also the greatest decision he has ever made when he asked you out.
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f1gossipofficial: here it is @/yourusername at the McLaren garage ready for fp1 cheering for his 4 year boyfriend @/landonorris! Lando was asked about the whole drama around the Brazil gp and his birthday and her statement and he said âIâm lucky to have her. I would set the world on fire for her. So yeah. We are the same that is why we work so well. It was a great birthday though. She brought my whole group of friend to Monaco for a poker night so yeahâ also he said that if it wasnât for her he wouldâve collapsed on his overthinking but thankfully she was there. We love a power couple on the grid!! What do we think about all of this? #LasVegasGP2024
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User1873: they are both the same shit tbh
User23: I LOVE THEM GREATEST COUPLE ON THE GRID
User29873: I donât like lando but she cute supporting him like that. I saw she gave a kiss to him before getting into the car. They seem in love!
‷ Usrr988: I KNOW TIGHT I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY I CAUGHT THAT KISS IN THE OFFICIAL TRANSMISSION
Yourbff: she is the greatest person you would know!! Letâs go lan!!!
User564: Max will win the dwc and NOTHING would change that or move me so
User90: omg she is so pretty
y/nstan: how lucky lando is to have her. She is always the sweetest to all of his fans. And also funny. Such a queen!
User897: where are the pictures of them arriving together????????! I NEED THEM
‷ user45: so iconic need to marry asap
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It was the day. The day you were back to media duties. Back to being a target for social media. Back supporting your boyfriend no matter what. You even went on media day to be there for him if he needed it. You chatted with everyone around to entertain yourself while he was doing interviews.Â
Oscar helped a lot and the whole McLaren team to make Lando feel safe and actually enjoy the weekend. You Were grateful for it. At least they decided not to be dicks in front of his face.Â
Fp1 was about to start and you were proudly there in the garage to cheer on him. You were also anxious because you felt things almost like him and this competition is rather never racking. You kissed him gently but shortly. A good luck kiss before getting into the car. He smiled widely.Â
âGo be the best you can be. Youâre greatâ you told him sweetly.
âI'll try my best to impress you,â he replied, letting go of your hand.Â
âYou already do everyday babeâ you said smiling making him grin before walking into the car to start the first session of the weekend.Â
You watched from there how fp1 unfolded hoping this would be a great weekend.
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About the latest polemic about Zayne and Sylus over twitter...
I left twitter for good. I'm honestly so tired of the drama that arises there everyday. I literally decided to log in today just to see some Arcane spoilers and the first thing I was hit with was with the most recent drama about CN players and specially Zayne and Sylus players having a heavy argument about plagiarism and how some lines of Zayne seem to have been copied onto Sylus' lines...
Firs of all, I don't know how the CN fanbase is, so I can't really say anything about that matter. From what I read, it seems things are quite complex there and arguments & harassment among LI's fanbases seem to be quite intense from what ppl is saying but, again, I can't really say too much on that matter cause I don't know how the fanbase is there, I'm not part of it neither I go to CN websites to look up for lads content. Most cases my experience visiting CN websites has been because of kind ppl that has respectfully asked me permission to repost my art and give me credits there, from that perspective my opinion about the CN fanbase has always been good and it still stands, I'm pretty sure that great part of the fanbase it's nice and it's only the small little toxic portion that is overshadowing the nice and chill part of the fandom.
My point here it's: Don't let yourself to have a tunnel vision about this situation.
You can probably see 10, 100 or even 500 ppl arguing and harassing others and even so it's not even a quarter of the whole total of players that belong to the fandom only in China, let alone global. To generalize from your point of view is not the objective take you think it is, talking from your experience doesn't talk for others experience, no one's experience here is universal. I read a lot of ppl trying to find someone to blame all the time "Zayne players started everything" "Sylus writers copied Zayne" etc and you know? Rolling this ball to one another is not going to lead us anywhere because as always, it's not acknowledging the true issue here: that is, us as players, keep enabling this kind of toxic behaviour if that means to stand up for or to 'defend' our main LI.
To try to portray one LI's fanbase as the guilty one is just creating more trouble than solving it and it's also not having a general understanding of the situation at hand and instead, encouraing biased opinions that only create more division and discrimination within the fandom.
And let's be honest, it's not the first time (and probably won't be the last, sadly) that drama arises within the fandom where we attack others LIs and their fanbase. This game is targeted towards adult women, we are not supposed to behave like adolescents making tantrums and messing up with our peers, yet here we are, enabling arguments, harassment, bullying or overall having an ugly and mean attitude in order to defend something that honestly, all the LIs would feel ashamed for if they were real. Like, literally all of them hate to be on the spotlight for the stuff they're good at, it would be even worse if the spotlight it's caused by them for all the wrong reasons.
I know lads guys are fictional, and I'm not going to invalidate people's feelings by saying that you shouldn't take it too seriously just bc they're not real -most of us find a lot of comfort in fiction, after all- but that doesn't give you the right to harass real people neither hurt their feelings [the same ways you feel when they attack your fav LI]. You are able to feel whatever you want to feel, however, you're still responsible for your words and actions. If this game is turning you into an awful person, then I'm afraid to say that you probably must step back and reconsider if your passion for it is healthy for you.
I know it's easy to get upset and sometimes we have the need to express it. However, to decide to be a part of a fandom is to accept that you are not going to always like what ppl say, let alone agree with them. Not everyone's opinions might aling with yours but it's enterily up to you the way how you take and respond to them. As I said before, I left twitter for good bc I found myself often wanting to be mean to others upon reading the negative stuff some ppl said about Zayne, especially in order to compare him with other LIs just to make him look bad. I would often felt so ugly thinking like that. Staying away from that drama has been super helpful and that's the best advice I can give for now: try and enjoy the game and your LI by yourself if the fandom is getting too much to handle.
Be careful about the discourse you support and always ask yourself if your words and actions will truly lead you somewhere good and healthy or it will only cause more chaos for you and others. Flammable opinions only light up and burn if we feed the fire, if there's no one to keep it alive, the flame will drown out very quickly.
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I've struggled a lot throughout my life with feeling pretty as an asexual. For a very long time, I actively didn't want to be pretty and firmly believed I wasn't and was okay with that. Because being pretty meant being desired and that made me feel uncomfortable.
As I grew up, I started to feel pretty and was okay with that because I'd finally internalised that beauty doesn't have to have anything to do with attraction. Beauty is everywhere, so why couldn't I be beautiful too?
But comments like 'you're wasting your good looks', 'you're so lucky to have X features', 'you're really pretty, how are you single?', 'I bet your kids will be so cute' have started to leave me feeling like I'm unworthy of looking the way I do.
I have no desire to ever 'make use of' my appearance by having a sexual relationship or children and I wish beauty was more generally appreciated for simply what it is rather than in relation to anything else.
#I do recognise the privilege of being conventionally attractive but it's taken me a long time to feel ok with how I look#I think there's different phases of life where people emphasise looks more#when I was a teenager of course people thought a lot about appearance#and now that I'm getting closer to 30 there's all the messaging of losing your youth#I want to try and just enjoy being in my own skin and forget what other people think#but it's not always easy and makes me feel guilty sometimes when I look in the mirror and like what I see#asexual#asexuality#aromantic asexual#asexual problems#aroace
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hey! i wanted to request r with a best friend!marauder, and she feels guilty for being a clingy/touchy bsf? eg. always holds hands and loops arms together and loves hugs. but said marauder comforts her? thank you jadey
The steps off of the bus feel especially steep on just four hours sleep. Youâre not dizzy, but when James offers his hand from the ground, you accept it. Much less scary to know he could catch you if you slipped.Â
âIâm surprised we werenât holding hands already,â he says, giving yours a squeeze as you land, and pulling you to the side where the already departed rugby team and their family members wait for their luggage to be retrieved from the busâ belly.
âOh, I know,â you say. Thereâs an odd awkwardness to it that youâre trying to bury.Â
James is used to you. Your hand in his is casual, perhaps a little too much for company, but itâs just hand-holding. You like feeling that heâs near, the slight chill of British summer more readily suffered with his palm against yours. He runs hot.Â
He lets your joined hands swing gently with the wait, doesnât bother letting it go until the luggage is all out. James grabs his duffel bag and your suitcase, and everyone makes their way to the hotel. Itâs late âthe team were expecting to be here much sooner but there had been a punctured tire, and then an accident on the M4. James will have to play the game tomorrow with less hours of sleep than intended, but heâll play well.Â
âYouâre uncharacteristically quiet,â James says a little later, when youâve shoved your suitcase under the double bed. He turns off the big light.Â
âThat is an uncharacteristically large word.âÂ
âLoser,â he says, pushing down the blankets to sit next to you. He rubs his mouth and nose, then he turns to you, all business. âYou are quiet, though. Whatâs the matter? Still feel poorly?âÂ
âI feel fine.âÂ
âYou look awful.â He winces at his own harshness. âYou look upset, sorry. And you still have sleep in your eyes, let meââ
You sigh and tilt your head up for him to scratch the sleep from your eye. For a moment, itâs quiet, just your face in his hand, his fingernail against the delicate inside of your eye. âDo you ever think weâre too close?âÂ
âNot really. Sometimes when you kick me in your sleep, maybe.â He takes back his hands.Â
âYou donât care that Iâm, like, constantly on you? I donât know, like earlier, when you helped me off of the bus. Most friends wouldnât keep holding on to each other after, but we do.âÂ
âMost friends wouldnât take a nine hour bus just to see me play an away game, soâŠâ James gives you a little poke in the ribs. âBut we arenât friends, weâre best friends. So what if we want to hold hands? Thatâs our business.âÂ
You frown. âYou really donât care? Even when Iâm harassing you for hugs and stuff?â Nausea sits in your chest, waiting for him to say, Yeah, actually, the hugging is a bit much.Â
âBabe, I love you,â James says, his glasses slipping down his nose as he gives a shake of the head. His eyebrows are pinched in confusion, but his mouth is softening. âHow long have you been thinking about this?âÂ
âI just donât want to be a burden.âÂ
âYouâre never a burden.â He opens his arms.Â
You crawl into his embrace, reassured by his chin where it digs into your forehead, and his warm voice.Â
âYou donât bother me. We bother each other, right? We fight like kids. I love it, I wouldnât trade our friendship for anything.â He pauses. Hums. ââCept a Big Mac. Iâm starving, I canât believe we got stuck on the motorway like that.âÂ
âYouâd trade me for a Big Mac?âÂ
âIn a moment of weakness.âÂ
His smile curves against your head. His arms settle on your back. Itâs the same as every other hug youâve shared, warm and easy. âI wouldnât,â he murmurs, âI donât know why youâre worried about being too much, but donât bother. Youâre touchy, Iâm touchy, weâre affectionate people.âÂ
âI spent too long on that stupid bus,â you say, dropping your flushed face into his shoulder.Â
âYou definitely did. Why would I care about you hugging me too much?â His hand moves gently up and down. âYou give the best hugs around.âÂ
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Some of my favorite, understated moments with heartbreaking implications for Halsin
1. Halsin threatening to turn into a mouse in the epilogue if the player brags about his achievements- he's so shy and humble that just being acknowledged for LITERALLY BUILDING A COMMUNE HIMSELF makes him want to hide. A mouse is a very symbolic choice here: not only easy to hide, but also easily overlooked and forgotten. The idea of his accomplishments being acknowledged is so terrifying for him that he wants to turn into an animal no one will notice, instead of his usual strong, large, noticeable bear.
2. "Sometimes, I think people look at me and imagine my feelings can't be hurt." This isn't the kind of thing that happens after one or two people act like jerks. This is years and years of cruel treatment, of his emotions being demeaned and mocked because of his size. Of people judging him before even meeting him- and forming an entirely wrong view of him. Halsin is a bighearted, tender, sentimental man, yet because he's big... Well, big people don't have feelings, surely. /s
3. "You and I may struggle to go unnoticed in such environs, Karlach[...] Folk of our stature can be a lure for drunkards seeking a brawl, I have found," combined with, "There is a particular discomfort to besting one you know to be weaker than yourself - even when needs must," from a different scene. People have sought him out and fought him because of his size (which had to have been terrifying, especially the first time), and he feels guilty when he takes out someone he knows is weaker, even if they STARTED it. How many times has the poor guy been traveling and then had to defend himself against someone 1/2 his size, making HIM look like the asshole to onlookers, and reinforcing that whole "people think I can't be hurt" thing?
4. "It was always destined to be so, if we prevailed. But the foreknowledge makes it no less bittersweet..." (About the players' paths diverging post brain battle), combined with "I see... After all my years of living, I know all too well that nothing lasts forever. Yet a parting can sting, nonetheless," if the player breaks up with him in the ending. This poor guy was having the time of his life adventuring with the group (and possibly falling in love there) yet never believed it would truly last (because of his abandonment issues). And then to have it confirmed.... he must have felt so awful in that moment, even if he was being dignified about it.
5. "You came for me... thank you. I feared Orin's accursed smile would be the very last sight I beheld," when Halsin is freed from Orin, combined with, "Orin's blades. I hoped my friends would save me..." If he is killed by Orin instead and Speak With the Dead is used on his corpse. The tone of his voice in the first line, especially added to that bit in the second... he never thought the player was coming to save him. He HOPED they would. Not "believed". Hoped. He thought he was going to die there- just like how he was in the Underdark for THREE YEARS and no one came to save him. And if it's confirmed... Yeah. That. (Sidenote: if you ask his corpse if he has any regrets, he says not telling Thaniel and Oliver goodbye, and not getting to see their land flourish. :( My heart. :( )
6. "I... have not had true confidantes for some time. The Shadow Curse robbed me of almost all my peers, and replaced them with the weight of responsibility. Perhaps that caused me to gild undeserving memories of my youth." Halsin was so miserable and stressed being Archdruid that he romanticized his past as a sex slave, viewing it as a safer, even happier alternative. There were actually times when Halsin thought he might rather be a sex slave than continue to be Archdruid. In a sense, for the 100 years the Shadow Curse was around, Halsin was just as much a prisoner as Thaniel was in the Shadowfell, but Halsin's prison had invisible bars. The Shadow Curse took away his entire support system, and being Archdruid forced him to be the strong one, always, never allowed to be weak or scared, forced him to take control of situations when he hated it, forced him to spend his time sorting out people instead of being in nature. And he was MISERABLE. For 100 years.
7. "You understand me almost perfectly. Only my late mother may have bested you." (Said if you get one question wrong at the love dryad test). He misses his mama. :( Especially when you consider that if you steal Balthazar's "Mother Dearest" and taunt him about it, Halsin disapproves (and is the only one to do so), while returning her gets you approval (which only Halsin approves of). And then the line when you look into a mirror while controlling him, "more like my father, with each passing day..." He really misses them. :(
8. "I am loathe to see anyone behind bars. It reminds me of my time as a guest of the goblins." He is, secretly, still quite traumatized from his time in the goblin pens, but he brushes it off. Just like every OTHER time he is hurt.
9. "I am aware [of having a habit of getting captured]. Perhaps I put too much faith in my skills of negotiation, or want to see good where there is none. It would be easy to resort to nature's fury whenever something stood in my way, yet I cannot help but feel I would be sullying the Oak Father's gifts. Naive perhaps... but I still draw breath." Halsin is aware he gets hurt often because of his desire to see good in people until he has no other choice, but refuses to give up anyway (which is backed up by that letter Gut had on her where she reveals Halsin TRIED to help the goblins, saying he could cure them of their tadpoles, only to be thrown in the cage, with Gut threatening to have his stomach cut open and maggots placed inside it.) Further, even though he is an Archdruid, and one of the most devoted, and explicitly has Silvanus's favor (Halsin says that gaining his favor was the only way he was able to open the portal to the Shadowfell), he still constantly worries about using Silvanus's powers, to the point of wondering if an actual threat to his safety actually merits using his powers. Which... combined with some other stuff, reads like one hell of a problem with self-worth.
10. "At least you were not present. Grim as [the ruined battlefield] is now, it was worse on the day of the battle. A vivid wound upon my memory[...] I was lucky - I lived, when so many did not. It would take me a day and a night to recite the names of all the friends I lost" combined with, "I was [present when the Shadow Curse was unleashed]. Part of my spirit was shorn away from me here, and never left," and, if Last Light falls, "All gone... devoured by the shadows. Oak Father preserve us, it's just like a hundred years ago[...] We are [still standing]. Yet there is a burden to being the survivor... the witness to others' tragedies. It only grows heavier with time." He has so much PTSD and survivor guilt from the Shadow Curse. :( No wonder it's all he can think about- to the point that some of the other companions even get annoyed at him for his obsession.
11. "I never quite realised how burdened I was, until I met you. The threat of the shadow curse, the politics of the grove... I was forgetting who I was, but you lifted the fog. Thank you." Not only does this tie in with the above, with his PTSD from the curse and his utter misery at being Archdruid, but this HEAVILY implies Halsin had depression. Like... that "fog" line hits HARD if you have or have had depression, because that's exactly what it feels like. And the "forgetting who I was" bit too. Not just losing his sense of self to the depression, but to the neverending responsibilities of being Archdruid. I keep repeating myself, but damn, this guy has really and truly spent an entire century being absolutely MISERABLE. :(
12. "Forgive me. I... lost the run of myself. Sometimes, if blood runs hot enough, it's difficult to tame the beast." With that little disgusted groan/sigh, the fury and disgust at himself visible on his face, and the way he rushes to get out the rest of it- he thinks he fucked up so badly that you're about to leave him, maybe forever. And then if you reject him after this? "Ah... I see. Well, of course. Back to camp then." He has the most heartbroken look on his face here, and the way he says "of course" like he just... knew this was coming the instant he accidentally wildshaped. He felt that the first time he let ANY of his imperfections show, the player would leave him. :(
13. "Death is nature's final slumber - it awaits us all. Do not punish yourself over those lost, or give in to despair - not while there are still folk in need of your help." (Said to a Dark Urge if they tell him they're not much of a hero and most people needing them end up dead) Not only is Halsin speaking from experience here, but it's very clear he is STILL doing exactly what he tells Durge not to do, to himself- punishing himself over those who were lost, struggling with devastating survivor guilt.
14. "The grove has cut itself off from the world, to jealously guard its own little pocket of nature. No one shall ever enter or leave again. And I have been evicted from the very place I was charged to safeguard. A telling summary of my time as Archdruid, perhaps..." If the Grove is sealed and you ask him about it later, this is what he says. Interesting that he views being evicted from the place he was in charge of protecting to be a "telling summary." He was forced to take the leadership role there, and yet it was clear he wasn't wanted or respected by a great number of the Druids (exempting Nettie, Rath, and Apikusis). He got a truly thankless job that took damn near EVERYTHING from him emotionally/mentally, causing him to develop depression and causing him to backslide in his previous healing from his trauma from his time as a sex slave, he still gave EVERYTHING to the Grove, and in return...... almost none of his Druids appreciated or even liked him. (I could seriously write at least five metas about how obviously miserable Halsin was at the Grove, despite caring for it deeply).
15. "You could have done anything, gone with anyone... yet you chose me." Said at the epilogue to a solo romanced player who went to the commune with him. There's so many layers of heartbreak here. He is still surprised, six months later, that the player chose him. He even thinks the player will regret it, and will decide they want an adventurer's life after all after seeing everyone else. He doesn't think he is good enough- doesn't think he deserves the player, and yet at the same time he loves them so much that he is heartbroken over the possibility they might agree with him. He thinks that given a chance, there is little chance they would actually choose him again. (He is put at ease quickly when the player promises they picked him for a reason, but even the explanation he gives for why he was so worrie is heartbreaking- that he's so used to a tumultuous life that he thinks something must go wrong. He has been so traumatized so many times over the years that he just has almost no ability to think that true happiness is possible [or deserved] for him.) Something about that is just heartbreaking, even though his ending is one of the happiest of any of the companions.
Someone give this sweet bear man a hug, please :(
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Hi Mae since u said u would be willing to do an ED reader here's a lil idea for James or tasm Peter but them with a gf who had a really bad ED before they met (he doesn't know) and she starts to relapse and he thinks she's just too stressed to eat or something (idk u can pick how the topic comes up) and just her telling him and him comforting her (this is a bit self indulgent bc idk how to tell anyone I'm dating that I'm struggling)
Hi lovely, thank you for your request!
cw: discussion and depiction of eating disorder, anxiety
James Potter x fem!reader ⥠916 words
You donât seem much up for talking at dinnertime. Which is fine. James can talk for the both of you.Â
He prattles on about Siriusâ one-way rivalry with the temp at his work while you cast him half-hearted, flickering smiles and push your food around your plate. Heâs made sesame tofu, a first for James but he thought it turned out all right. His plate is clean, whereas yours is all mixed up but heâs fairly sure youâve only eaten a couple of green beans.Â
You donât appear to notice when he finishes his story. Your fork seems almost limp in your hand.Â
âIf you donât like it,â James says lightly, âI donât mind making you something else, lovely.âÂ
You look surprised, then guilty. âNo, sorry, itâs good.âÂ
Itâs not like you would know, but James isnât cruel enough to point that out. Aside from his own ego, he has other reasons to suspect his cooking has little to do with this.Â
Youâve been strung up tight, lately. Thereâs a lot going on at work, some conflict with your boss you donât really want to talk about, and drama in your family you want to talk about even less. James has tried to make home as comfortable and easy for you as he can, but understandably youâve grown withdrawn, seemingly exhausted all day long. He wishes he knew how to do more for you. Wishes he could cast a bubble of pure goodness to put you inside so the only things that could get to you were the lovely things you deserve.Â
âI know youâre stressed,â he says, gently as he can, âbut youâve got to eat, you know? Itâs probably cold by now, you could have something else if itâs easier.âÂ
Something painful twinges in your expression. James reaches for your hand on instinct.Â
âI get that youâve got a lot going on, angel. We donât have to talk about it if you donât want to, but we could.âÂ
You sigh. âNo, itâsâŠI donât think itâs what youâre thinking, Jamie.âÂ
James frowns, but forces himself to stay quiet. He has the familiar sense that all heâs doing is putting his foot in his mouth.Â
After a minute, you say quietly, eyes lingering to the side of your plate, âI havenât always been able to eat properly. Itâs beenâŠIâm a lot better about it than I used to be, but itâs still difficult sometimes. Like now.âÂ
Your hand feels tensed inside of Jamesâ. His heart has begun to ache lowly. James thinks he knows the term for what youâre trying to tell him, but heâs not about to lob it at you now, not if it could only make you feel worse. He tries comforting you the surest way he can think of, smoothing his thumb along the side of your hand.Â
It at least seems to relax you enough to say more. âYouâre not too far off, I guess, because it is sometimes worse when Iâm anxious.â You glance up at him tentatively, an attempt at a smile on your lips. âFoodâs just a bit more difficult for me right now.âÂ
âIâm sorry I brought it up like that,â says James, earnestness aching in the back of his throat.
You lift a shoulder. âHow could you have known? Sorry I havenât been eating your cooking.âÂ
âThatâs not your fault, sweetheart.â Your gaze flees his again. Guilt and shame quiet Jamesâ voice. âIâm sorry, I thought you were only stressed.âÂ
You give a little laugh. âI guess I am stressed.âÂ
âYeah, and for good reason, butâŠcan I hug you?âÂ
You nod, and James gets out of his chair, bending awkwardly to get his arms around you. Your fingertips press into the muscles of his shoulders.Â
âItâs not quite so simple as stress, though, is it?â he murmurs into your shirt.Â
He feels your chest contract with a sigh. âNo,â you admit.Â
âWhat can I do to help?âÂ
âI donât think thereâs anything you can do, Jamie.â
âNot accuse you of not liking my cooking, though, surely.âÂ
Another little laugh, this one seemingly more genuine. âYeah, that would help a bit, actually.âÂ
James worries about smothering you, backs up enough to see your face. His hands want to go there, too, one for each cheek.Â
âPlease tell me if you think of anything,â he says. You donât agree but donât look away from him either, which James figures is about as good as heâs going to get. âWould it be any easier if we ate in front of the telly?âÂ
You chew your lip. âIt might, yeah. Iâm not sure.âÂ
âYou donât have to make any promises,â he assures you, taking up your plate and bringing it into the kitchen. âDo you want me to reheat this for you? Or we could have something else?âÂ
You linger at the edge of the kitchen, fingers bundled up in your sleeves. âIâd like to try to finish that, if thatâs okay.âÂ
âOf course itâs okay, mâlove. More than okay.â James presses some buttons on the microwave, then turns to you, requisitioning you for another hug. He kisses your hair. âThank you for telling me.âÂ
Your voice is soft. âThank you for listening.â
He scoffs, squeezing you around the middle so that you squeal. âYou make it sound like a chore. Donât be so ridiculous.â James presses another kiss to your hair before releasing you. âGo find something good for us to watch, sweetheart, Iâll be there in a minute.â
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HOLD ME, KISS ME âĄ
âȘ the little dippers â forever âȘ
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synopsis: your wishes come true when a beautiful boy is found sleeping peacefully in your barn. much to his surprise, you donât care about who he is or what he has or hasnât done â you just want to ensure he stays forever.
cw: mentions of prayer, religion and god (for plot purpose) reader has two parents, western!au, innocence kink, slight manipulation, mentions of crime, breeding kink, smut âĄ
âPlease deliver me a man, save me from this loneliness. Make him kind, and strong, and handsome. I vow to make him the happiest man alive.â
Your forehead rests against your clasped hands where you kneel beside your bed, speaking out loud as there was no one else to speak to. Your parents had gone on a trip for two weeks, leaving you in charge of the farmhouse all by your lonesome.
Isolated didnât feel like the correct term. You were grateful, happy to live off the fat of your fatherâs land in the middle of nowhere, but sometimes you wished you had someone to share it with. Someone your own age who was there to see you. You had become the perfect host, thrilled when your parents would bring home guests once in a blue moon. Youâd tie ribbons in your hair and pick the perfect dress and set the table like your mother taught you. You often imagined setting the table for a family of your own.
Your own farm house. The thought sent you off to sleep each night, walking through the home in your mind as if it were really real, feeling the creaking of the painted wooden porch beneath your feet as you enter, the distant cooing of your baby being comforted by your husband in the next room. White shabby-chic panels across the walls with oak furniture and knitted throw pillows and lots and lots of warm light. The kitchen table would have the perfect lace floral embroidered table cloth draped across it which youâd serve the heartiest dinners on each night. The babies room would be painted mint green, noâ maybe pastel yellow, with handmade toys and a music box that played your song and oh, the master bedroom⊠where you and your husband rest your head would be flooded with natural light. A haven. All yours.
The details to the decoration often changed, new inspiration plucked from the papers that father would bring home and new favourite colours integrating themselves into your home plans but one thing remained the same each time. Your husband. He never had a face, but it wasnât important. He was warm, strong without having to prove just how macho he was, kindâ you could feel his love from the next room on. That was all you really wanted. You could forget the house, forget the land, live in a barn for all you care â you just wanted to experience a love like the ones in the fairytale books stacked high in your room.
It had been a week already of this routine youâd grown used to. You wake up, feed yourself and then the chickens, come inside, clean yourself and then the house, paint, crotchet or read â however the mood takes you, eat lunch, tend to the crops, brush the horses, maybe milk a cow, come inside and cook dinner, bathe, think about your dream husband and grind your wet messy cunt into a pillow, feel guilty, beg for forgiveness and then sleep. It was an easy life, and you couldnât complainâ but you couldnât help feel the world had more to offer.
Your mother often told you that gifts from above come when you least expect it, you just had to keep your eyes open. You always wondered how one might find these gifts with no idea where to look.
Your gift arrived bright and early the next morning.
Well, not technically as early as it should have been, infact you probably nearly missed it. The roosters calls at 6AM each morning, but on that very day you had decided to sleep in. A few hours wouldnât kill them, you think as you pull a plush white pillow to lay over your earâ itâs not like the chickens would starve.
At 11:45AM, you stumble bare foot onto the grass outside, setting out on your walk to the barn a little way up the land. Your pert nipples harden, awakened by the cool morning breeze as the thin white fabric of your nightdress blows in the wind. With the sunlight shining directly on it, it was sure to be totally and utterly see throughâ and you suppose that was one upside to living in the middle of nowhere, yards upon yards from civilisation. No one would see you. Sigh.
You feed the chickens, totally blind before it even occurs to you that anything might be astray. Infact, you donât even seem to notice that the barn door was left ajar, as opposed to how you usually leave it bolted by a wooden slab to prevent the animals from wandering off or being massacred by foxes. You suppose thatâs the price you pay for sleeping in, you live in dreamworld for the next few hours.
The Earth seems to stop turning for a moment when you see him.
Youâre more curious than anything, wide eyed, holding your breath as to be totally silent despite having been humming and speaking to the chickens only a moment prior. You tiptoe through the hay, shards of straw sprouting between your painted toes and pin-needling your sole as you draw closer to the man. A fallen angel, your first thought.
Heâs half curled up onto his side in the hay behind the stable for your white pony. He has thick-ish arms crossed over his chest, his hat laying over his face seeming to be serving as a purpose to block out the light. You figure as you hadnât woken up him before, a closer inspection couldnât hurt. Unhurriedly, you sink down into a squat beside him, knees pointed upwards and feet taking your balance. A real man, in your barn? It couldnât be. You chew on your bottom lip, goggle-eyed and inquisitive as you cautiously lift the hat away from his face.
He doesnât wake and youâre for some reason thankful. It gives you time to observe him, the breath all but knocked from your body as you take in just how beautiful he is. He was perfect, and just like what you were hoping for when you wished to be delivered a husband.
Dark eyelashes kissing at the rim of his closed eyes, pale lips and freckles, sunkissed across his nose. Your eyes trail over and across him, now with his face in mind taking in account what he looks like as a whole. You were still in disbelief, a real man sleeping in your barn. But then again, as your eyes skim lower and you notice the blood seeping through his shirt over his stomach â you wonder if he was sleeping. Surely he wasnât dead? Only God could be so cruel to deliver you the perfect man without a pulse.
So, you press two cold fingers to his neck, searching for the rhythmic beats signifying life. As soon as you do so, the man jolts awake â wide brown eyes meeting yours.
âJesus.â
This is where the stare off commencesâ you were sat in a squat giving him a straight shot up your night dress with dome like eyes and parted lips, observing him like he was some sort of alien life form that had happened upon your barn infront of your very eyes. Your chest rises and falls, and his gender fails to betray him as his eyes fall there for a moment, subconsciously noticing the way your bare tits strain against the thin fabric with each exhale. Somewhere in the back of his mind he canât help but acknowledge that youâre a pretty thing, totally his type. In any other scenario, he mightâve seen you at a local tavern and introduced himself, getting you tipsy and loose, making you giggle beneath his soft gaze and coarse hands in some dimly lit booth before realising heâs far too respectful to take advantage of you like that.
With his eyes open, the picture is complete â and he truly is as beautiful as you thought. He had a puppy like quality to his eyes, they were big and brown but from the sunlight streaming in you could see specks of orange which intrigues you. You wish to look closer, but you feel itâs not the time. His adamâs apple bobs with a thick swallow and he tears his eyes away from yours to look around, still disorientated from sleep. He touches his wound with gentle fingers and he winces, going to push himself up on his elbows.
You open your mouth to speak but he beats you to it, warm deep voice raspy from rest as he dives into a sequence of begging.
âDoes anyone know Iâm in here?â
âNo, Iââ
âOkay, thatâsâ okay, please â hey, please donât tell anyone. I wonât lie to you, Iâm in a little bit of trouble with the law, nothing super bad I swear just â I needed somewhere safe to sleep so I ended up here. Didnât take anything and uhâ and Iâll be out of your hair now that Iâm up.â He rambles, continually glancing at the barn doors, expecting Sheriff Shoupe to bust them down and take him in at any moments notice. You say nothing for a moment and he pushes himself to his feet, eyes squeezing shut at the soreness of his injury. âThink itâs easiest if I justââ
He cuts himself off this time, because you slip your hand into hisâ stopping him from going anywhere. His eyebrows jump up and he freezes on the spot, staring down at your doe eyes with a wide and confused gaze of his own.
ââŠHi?â
âYou just got here? Whyâd you have to go?â You sound sad, and he actually canât believe what heâs hearing. Not only did he break into your barn, on private land â but heâd totally overstayed his non-existent welcome, and now you didnât want him to leave?
âPâpardon me? Maâam?â He tries to be respectful, when what he really wants to ask is along the lines of âWhat the fuck?â.
You scramble to stand up and he helps you using the hand that youâre grasping. âWell, you wonât get far with a wound like that. It could get infected. Maybe you could come inside, let me dress it. You can refuel⊠maybe stay a few days?â The last part sounds wrong coming from your mouth. Heâs a stranger for goodness sakeâ everything your parents had taught you about safety went against this and plus you were practically begging. You might have been embarrassed, if there wasnât such a nagging feeling in your stomach telling you that this was meant to be.
He scoffs out a chuckle, because he thinks thereâs no way youâre seriousâ but when he sees your wide eyes bouncing between his own, searching for something he couldnât quite put a finger onâ he realises youâre being completely genuine and his expression melts into a more worried gaze, shuffling a little closer on his feet.
âLook, I really appreciate your hospitality, but you have done more than enough, really. Just the fact you didnât have the sheriff busting in to drag me away is something I will be very grateful for. Believe me. But I canât drag you into this. Anyway, donât you have family? That you live with?â
You sigh, looking down at your intertwined hands that you had yet to release, staring as if you were trying to memorise the feeling of a manâs touch incase you really couldnât convince him to stay.
âWell yes, but theyâre on a trip you see â and theyâre going to be away for another week and Iâm not sure how much more I can take. Iâm awfully lonely, and I know youâre a stranger and all but I could really use the extra set of hands⊠plus itâs the least you could do⊠for breaking inâŠâ You feel youâre pushing it with that last part, but decide to proceed with it anyway, any means necessary to get him to stay. He bites his bottom lip in thought as you stare up through your lashes and he thinks screw it. Heâs sure youâre not setting him up, a little thing like you would be far too weak to pull that off.
âOkay, I⊠donât see why not then.â He doesnât sound certain, but you make such a good offer heâd be a fool not to accept. He bends down and swoops his hat off the floor, holding it to his chest and you take his hand once more, guiding him out of the barn.
He presses his lips together in an awkward smile at the way you confidently lead him, almost having to break into a jog to match your eager pace. Once nearing the house, you tell him your name and he nods â taking in the scenery.
Youâre sitting him down in the living room before he can blink, and he takes in the setting around him. A real cozy place, a family home for sure â with a pale blue couch, a scratchy patchwork blanket draped over the back and floral cushions. Thereâs photos of you in multiple spots around the room, an only child â he gathers. The main photo sits on the mantelpiece, framed, a set of parents curtaining your smiling face in the image. You seem to be a few years younger, fuller in the face, still cute as a button.
He doesnât quite realise youâd gone anywhere until youâre returning â the contents of an old first aid box rumbling in your grip. You give him a reassuring smile and lower to kneel by his feet, opening up the container and fishing around for some cotton pads.
âDo you have a name, mister?â
He clears his throat, trying to gage your reaction once he speaks, attempting to work out if the name rings any bells. âUh, yeah. John B. John B. Routledge. You mightâve⊠actually heard of me. If you have, uhâ Iâm sorry.â
You donât seem to react in any kind of alarming way, a smile grazing your face as you pour rubbing alcohol onto a soft white pad.
âHeard of you how? Are you famous?â
ââŠYouâve never seen those big âWantedâ posters up in town? Kinda got my picture up on one of them.â
You peel up his shirt revealing tanned, toned skin and a wound that had crusted over with blood. You press the pad to it and he winces, knuckles turning white in his lap and head lulling back against the seat for a moment.
âSorry.â You furrow your brows apologetically before continuing to mop up all the dried blood. âOh, and Iâm not allowed up in town. Not by myself anyway. So, I donât keep up to date with all that⊠stuff.â You pull away, rifling through the box for another clean pad. He nods, eyes jumping to look at his wound and then back to you, watching your face for any discomfort regarding his presence. Oddly, there was none. If it wasnât clear before, itâs wildly apparent now that youâve truly been sheltered your whole life. There was this innocence you carried that was hard to come by, a lack of judgement that was sweet but made him worry for you slightly. You were lucky he had a good heart.
âThatâs⊠probably for the best, actually. You know, they like to tell lies. Iâm being falsely accused.â He speaks a little slower, and enunciates the last part as if you might not understand, and as expectedâ you hang onto every word, lips a little parted and wide eyed. Itâs pretty cute, albeit inappropriate considering heâs a stranger.
As he speaks, you wrap his wound, pressing the sticky part down onto his skin before gently pressing the cotton covering his injury. âWell Iâm really sorry about that John B. You donât have to worry about that anymore.â You chirp, before leaning forward and pressing a soft kiss over the dressing, pulling back to offer him a sweet smile. The lines on John Bâs forehead smooth out, his concerned expression melting into his own gentle smile of disbelief.
He wonders what the odds are that heâd stumbled upon a real life angel. Well, it was that â or you wanted to chop his body into tiny pieces whilst he slept and add it to your cauldron. He couldnât quite figure it out yet, but you were pretty â and he was a total loverboy, so stupidly he was willing to take that risk.
He pulls his shirt back down over his now dressed wound and you begin to clear your things back into the first aid box.
âIs there anything I can do for you? Like, anything you need help with around here?â He offers and you look up at him, brows furrowing with adoration.
âGoodness, noâ I couldnât ask that of you.â
âSaid you needed an extra pair of hands earlier.â He challenges with a smile.
âI only said that to get you to come inside. With your injury, I couldnât possibly put you to work.â
He scrunches his face a little with a half scoff, half smile and shrugs one shoulder. âPlease, this thing? It barely even stings. Come oooon.â He croons with a smirk, and you really feel the full effects of his charm nowâ the warm timbre of his voice headed straight to your clit giving it a heartbeat of its own.
âFine.â It comes out airy with a giddy smile and you take his hand yet again, almost getting distracted by the coarseness against your palm, the sight of bulging veins along the backs of them.
Your bare feet are treading lightly over soft wood chip once more as you lead him toward the destroyed fence round the left side perimeter of the farm.
âSo⊠I suppose you could carry all the planks back from the fence that fell down in that awful storm last week. I was gonna wait for my daddy to get home to get him to do it âcus Iâm much too weak for something like that.â You point, and John Bâs brown fluffy head follows your finger to the destination at hand. He nods, a doable task.
âWell a girl like you shouldnât be lifting a finger anyway.â He turns his head back to face you with a smile, eyes squinted in the sun. He looks radiant, no sign of pain anymore and you look down at your night gown, scrunching it in your clammy hands with an uncontrollable grin at the floor, harbouring such an innocent crush on the boy already that you didnât know what to do with yourself.
His gaze stays on you for a tick whilst you step quietly and he speaks up again, tilting his head a little inquisitively. âI really, really hope this doesnât sound rude⊠âcus I donât mean to be. But⊠are you not⊠married?â He trails off, thinking of all the times heâs been walloped round the head in taverns for asking questions of a similar nature. Your smile doesnât go away, your gentle nature not retiring for a moment.
âOh no, no. I donât meet boys often. Thats why Iâm happy you came!â You chirp, hand reaching out to softly squeeze his arm. âCan be like husband and wife whilst you stay round.â
He just laughs in response. Not necessarily in a mean way, but the same way you laugh when a child tells you theyâre going to be an astronaut when they grow up.
The brutal beating of the sun does nothing to stop the honest work youâd put the self proclaimed outlaw up to, he seems to be deep in thought often â carrying the planks to and fro. You slip inside for a while to change into something more appropriate, a sweet and floral sundress that ties up at the straps and hugs you in a more womanly way. Youâd rubbed your lips together as you fixed your hair in the mirror before bringing him a sandwich in the early afternoon. âYou are adorable.â He grins when you do so, and it wasnât quite the reaction youâd hoped for on your dress but it still made you warm in the face. He simply brought out a true primal bodily reaction from youâ thatâs why youâd skipped the panties under your dress. He was making you excited and slippery down there and you just didnât see the point. You stay out for hours at a time to chat with him. Your affections grow.
John B. Routledge finally returns back to the house when heâs all finished and you let him lay down for a nap on your couch, finally getting some real rest in. Whilst he does so, you spend hours preparing a hearty meal â the type you reserve for when mama and papa have guests round. As the pie browns off just a moment longer in the oven, you come to the manâs side, kneeling beside him and stroking his fluffy hair back.
âI made dinner. Sure youâre really hungry.â You whisper and his eyes flutter once more, the arms that were crossed over his chest stretching out as he wakes. You sit back to give him space, and when he opens his eyes youâre there with a smile â the orange beam of sunset haloing your head. Something about an angel drafts through his mind once more and he stretches.
âOh boy, I slept longer than I was meant to huh?â He sits up and you shrug, leading him through to the kitchen where youâd laid the round table. Steaming seasoned vegetables in a bowl, freshly picked by you. Warm bread, baked and scored by you with flowers the centrepiece of the table. A jug of gravy there too. Thereâs a tray of mashed potatoes waiting, creamy and delicious looking. Routledges stomach audibly growls and he chuckles at this as he sits down, taking in the scenery youâd laid out. âYou⊠have spoiled me. All this for someone who breaks into your barn?â He chuckles as he lowers himself into the seat.
You follow him round the table with a giddy smile. âTold you I like havinâ guests.â You perch your bottom on his leg, an arm wrapped around his neck as your feet swing. It felt right. Youâd always wanted to sit with a man this way, youâd seen it before in the picture shows. Man and wife, domestic bliss. His brows jump up and he clears his throat awkwardly.
âOh⊠sweetheart, you shouldnât do that. I am aâ a stranger, after all.â He tries to do the responsible thing, even though there was something about your innocent brashness that was turning him on beyond belief. Your eyebrows knit in the centre, a line between them and your bottom lip seems to have doubled in size from how it pushes out.
âBut I like you?â You mewl, rejected. It all seems so simple to you, which is probably feels super unfair. No one had taught you how to address men because you were so sheltered, and now it was giving you all of these complicated feelings that John B would have to deal with.
âAnd I like you â a whole bunch. You know Iâm super grateful for you taking me in and⊠all that good stuff. But sitting right here is gonna⊠make me excited. Because Iâm a guy. Go ahead and hop off for me.â He taps your lower back gently and you huff, feeling upset and rejected about the whole thing. His eyes are all wide and hopeful as he stares at you, like he wanted to make sure you were okay. The way he handles you so sweetly made your stomach stir despite your current mope.
You drag your feet to the oven comically and he stifles a chuckle at how dramatic you were, despite his sympathy. You place your hands into oven gloves and take out the pieâ perfect and golden. You walk it to the table and John B sits up a little straighter, eyes darting between you and the food.
âDid this all by yourself? You have got a real knack for cooking. Should put you on the TV.â He grins, switching on the charm to attempt to loosen up your silent sulk. You nod, eyes casted down childishly and he reaches out to touch your arm. âThank you, pretty girl.â
A small smile slips out, and he flickers his eyes over to the heart shape youâd scored onto the pie, his own lips twitching up into a smirk. âThat for me?â
âMaybe.â
âHmm.â
You end up giggling, his smile too infectious and your bad moment is all forgotten as you serve him a slice, plating up for him and then yourself before you eat. John B digs in ravenously, itâs almost erotic â the way heâs groaning at how good it all tastes, gravy dripping from his lips as he licks more off his fingers. He was clearly less proper-mannered than you, but you liked that. Table manners were for boring old people anyway. Maybe everything about him got you going, but you had to really concentrate on getting some food inside you instead of just watching the show of eating he was putting on.
Once youâre finished, and heâs finishing up on his third helping â you let your giggles die down from the wild goose chase story he relayed for you, one where he of course wound up the hero which only made your heart beat harder for him. Your socked foot begins to prod at his ankle, sliding up his leg until it rests in his lap. He doesnât seem to mind, the food having lowered his guard just that bit as he leans back in his chair, undoing his belt. He adjusts his hips on the seat as he does so and your thighs clench.
âSo what did you think?â You ask, though you think itâs clear that he liked the meal from the empty plates and unbuckled belt. He lets out a long satisfied sigh, gazing at you for a moment with a kind smile.
âI think, whoever gets to marry you is a lucky son of a bitch.â He presses his lips together, almost like he was disappointed about the idea of you with another. You blink, the hands resting beneath your chin dreamily slowly falling to play with eachother on the table.
âWhy not you, John B?â You question sadly, giving him those eyes again. The ones that tug on his heart and made him wanna give you everything and anything you ask for. He lifts a napkin, bringing it to his mouth as he shakes his head dismissively, closing his eyes with a frown.
âMmâmm.â The tissue fabric muffles the sound. âYou donât wanna marry me, believe me â okay, Iâm an outlaw. Your parents would never in a billion years accept me. Anyway you⊠you deserve someone less rough and tumble, you know? Like a prince from a storybook. A bubblewrap life. Not⊠whatever this is.â He gestures to himself, more so the browned blood stain on his shirt.
You sigh, determined. âMy parents would understand. Theyâre â theyâre generous people.â
âReally? âCus they donât even let you leave the house.â He quips quickly in response, smirking at your naivety and you fall silent for a moment. His face flattens just a tad from guilt. You were far too soft for that kind of tone.
When you look up at him again, your face is more solemn â wide eyes searching his for a shred of understanding. âYou donât understand, John B. There are actual scary, dangerous men out there that would take me and do terrible things to me.â
The outlaw leans his elbows on the table, his lips stretched into an amused smile at the irony. There wasnât an inkling of threat about the gesture, pure amusement coursing through the energy between you from his side alone. âAnd how do you know Iâm not one of those scary, dangerous men. Hm?â His voice is warm, it seems to rumble straight from his chest. You release a shaky sigh.
âWell you havenât hurt me yet?â Your voice lilts out, and you engage in a long stare off. Thereâs a different kind of tension in the air now, itâs hot and feels heavy on you. It oozes into the nooks and crannies of your balmy skin and slithers between your thighs. You canât take the heat and you stand, beginning to bring his dishes to the sink to wash. Itâs quiet for a while, John B watching you with this thoughtful and almost knowing smile as you tidy up around him. Even he couldnât run from how good âdomestic blissâ felt.
You let yourself indulge in the fantasy too. Wife cleans up, husband sits behind at the table and sips at the drink she poured him. You wanted nothing more than to experience this everyday, and your heart sinks sadly at the fact that this will probably be the last. You lose yourself to thoughts and daydreams as you scrub away, to the point you nearly donât hear him stand up, slowly walking to lean against the sink beside you.
You smile at him politely as he eyes you, and return your gaze to the plate in your hand. You mustnât dwell. He moves, and soon heâs behind you, a hand resting against the sink beside your hip, head craning round to look at you from the other side. âYouâre really serious about this husband and wife thing, arenât you?â
âVery serious, sir.â You bat your lashes at him earnestly and his cock stirs in his pants at the title, unexpected but not unwelcomed. Bless your heart, you were only being courteous. He presses his lips together in thought and the side of your face warms with his slow exhale. Turning your body, you face him fully now. âI just think it was divine intervention that you wound up in my barn. Youâre like an angel sent to take away my loneliness.â Youâre shy, a little bashful about your beliefs and without thinking he cups your cheek in reassurance, thumb swiping slowly over the skin.
His eyes take in your every detail, and your lips part with a wobbly breath, nervous. âMay I kiss you, John B?â You address, just as his thumb strokes the delicate skin below your eye. He grins, slightly amused by your formality and simply nods his head.
You stand on tip toes to reach him, socked feet almost knocking at his boots as your body presses to his, lips meeting. Youâre a little messy, inexperiencedâ which comes as no surprise to the boy as he tilts his head, welcoming your mouth at another angle and taking control in order to guide you. Youâre mostly a quick learner, slowing your pace to something much more sultry and he nearly canât contain his excitement. He wants to be a gentleman, but as soon as he introduces his tongue â you lose composure, needy and all but panting into his mouth right then and there in the kitchen. He pulls away and breaks the string of saliva that connects your lips with his thumb, stroking it over your moist bottom lip as you stare at him readily.
He tilts his head, eyes wide and almost innocent as he gestures away. âYou⊠want me to show you what husbands do with their wives?â
You nod so hard your eyes nearly roll back like one of those baby-dolls.
John B is the one to take your hand this time, leading you slowly and carefully through the house. You partially think heâs giving himself time to rethink what heâs about to do, but from the way your pussy is drooling into your panties â it feels set in stone. He finally reaches your bedroom and you watch his head move left and right as he takes it in, cheek lifting with a smile at the China dolls on the wall and the frilly white bedsheets. Itâs clear your room hasnât changed since you were a little girl. The sun is just starting to disappear behind your lace curtains and he switches on the lamp, sitting you down.
The man joins you, easing himself down at your side and cupping your cheek as he begins to kiss you again. He takes it slow, but the passion and need only grows as the splayed hand on your back begins to slide upwards until its cupping the back of your head and heâs beginning to slowly lower you to lie down like youâre made of glass.
Naturally you shuffle up the bed and he follows, hovering over you and leading with his tongue this time â the wet muscles wrapping around eachother languidly making you moan, legs falling wider apart.
âI wanna make you feel really good, okay? That okay with you?â He asks gently and you nod, sucking in a breath. Youâd waited for something like this since you knew what pleasure was, craved the touch of a man with strong coarse hands and a wet mouth. Routledges thumbs swipe across your tits through your dress, massaging them until your nipples were poking painfully through the fabric as he burrows into your neck, licking and sucking.
Your whole body feels like itâs on fire as he tugs gently at your dress, eyes meeting yours once more.
âLetâs get this off, yeah?â
He tugs the garment up and over, puffing out his cheeks as he blows air out his mouth, brows raised at the sight of your naked body. You look so soft, so pliable beneath him. He was already hard just from kissing you, but this made him feel like he might combust. âTook your underwear off?â He smirks, pressing kisses to your stomach and between your tits before bringing his face up to eye level with you, same kind but teasing smile on his face. âHave you been needing me aaall day? Hm?â
You turn your head to the side, flustered and clammy with a whineâ eyes screwed shut. He chuckles, pressing a kiss to your cheek. âOh, now youâre shy?â
âNo, sâjust â when you speak like thatâ nâsay stuff like that⊠makes me hurtâŠâ Youâre breathless, hips twitching and bucking slightly as he grins, pearly whites showing.
âAw.â Is all he manages before continuing his descent down.
Heâs a real tease, spending an ungodly amount of time on your titsâ sucking, licking and biting your nipples until youâre arched off the bed, teary eyed and wincing from sensitivity. Itâs then, and only then he starts to kiss lower, pushing himself down your pristine sheets until heâs settling between your legs, gently easing your ankles upwards so that your knees faced the sky, your cunt fluttering and open right infront of his face.
âWell sheâs very pretty.â He smiles up at you, thumbs coming up to spread you. He leans in slowly, hot breath fanning over your heat before he simply presses the softest kiss to your clit. He draws back again as you whimper, running the pads of his thumbs up along your spread folds. âHear that? So wet, pretty girl.â He marvels in a whisper.
âJust want you to make it better.â You mewl and he nods slowly in understanding, tongue swiping over his lips as he observes you.
âThat I can definitely do.â He confirms before leaning in, licking and sucking at your clit as his thumb automatically rolls downwards to massage your hole. You gasp, knees shooting up towards your chest as he eats you, similarly to the pure fervour and passion he only recently devoured the meal you cooked for him. You wondered how any appetite remained.
When he sinks his middle finger inside you, your stomach tenses â a high pitched noise of relief and utter devastation leaving you. You had no idea how badly youâd craved fullness to this very moment, and you werenât even halfway there. Heâs smiling against you, glancing up as you flutter around his single digit and make plenty of noise for him. âYeah? Think youâve really been needing some of that, little girl.â He nearly laughs at your extreme reaction. He had to admit, it was fun doing this with someone so inexperienced. Everything to you seemed like the best thing ever.
He eats and eats away, proving himself to have quite the monstrous appetite for your slick . Your feet rest on his shoulders at one point, lost in pleasure as you whine and writhe and to keep you out of the way, the outlaw pushes your legs up and pins them there, nose deep in your gloss.
âFeels too goodâ feelsâ hurts!â You cry, because you donât know how to put that youâre simply aching to cum.
âDoesnât hurt, sweet girl. Just let it happen.â He corrects in that low reverberation that youâve grown to love. After a series of âUhâ and âMmâs, you feel yourself hitting that peak â the one you usually reach all over the soft cotton of your pillow, but ten times the strength.
As soon as he senses this happening, he doubles down and continues repeating the same action with his mouth over and over until youâre squealing and pushing him away, curling into a ball as your completion dribbles out of your quivering hole.
He grins, real proud of himself as he pushes up on his hands to near you, gently shushing you the same way you would to soothe a baby to sleep. âI know, that was a lot huh?â He cooâs, rubbing your back with his warm hand as you suffer the aftershocks, clenching and whimpering, a smaller clammy hand reaching out to his shirt to grab a fist of it.
He forces you softly onto your back, stroking a hand over your warm forehead. For someone so convinced the two of you shouldnât be together, he sure did look at you like you were his entire world. By the gaze shared, you would never know the two of you only met that morning.
âWhat now, hm?â He smiles, quiet. You open your mouth to speak, and your voice rasps from the loud and explosive release that had you calling out.
âWanna⊠make you feel as good as you made me feel, John B.â
He licks his lips, thinking over it. If it wasnât already clear, his dick was throbbing in his pants just from pleasing youâ and had you wanted to end things there he would be sure to take a trip to the bathroom to finish in his hand. Maybe swipe a pair of your underwear from the basin for inspiration, but that made his stomach tense with guilt.
âThink I can manage that, yeah.â He nods before reaching slowly for his belt. âSure?â
âMhm.â
âGood, good.â
His belt is still undone from after dinner so he slides the snakey leather from its loops with one hand, the act more attractive than you anticipated which made you clench once more with need. He sits on the edge of the bed and you usher up beside him, pressing your naked body to him and ghosting your drooly lips over his jaw line as he sighs, working his length out of his pants.
âOh my.â You breathe, as soon as you look down. Now you hadnât had much experience in dealing with the male anatomy, clearly â but you knew for certain John B had to be miles larger than the average man. His cock stood tall, straight â slightly mauve towards the tip with a beautiful blue vein drifting down his shaft like a river on a mountain. His balls sat beneath, heavy and pink â inviting in a way that made your mouth water primally.
âYeah? This is⊠what mâworking with.â He chuckles, sounding a little nervous.
âHow do IâŠâ You mutter after a moment and heâs quick to take your hand, pressing your fingers so that it forms a cup and bringing it to your mouth.
âYou wanna spit for me, pretty? Right here.â He encourages and whilst you donât understand, you do as he wishes, letting a bubbly glob of saliva drool out into the cupped crevice of your hand. You look up at him with wide unsure eyes, searching for praise or reassurance that youâd done as he asked. He presses his lips together at the sweet and submissive expression, shifting his hips a tad in excitement. âMm, fuck.â He punctuates with an airy chuckle, ticking his head in a single shake.
He brings your hand down and begins to smear it all over himself, releasing a shaky exhale as he does so. âSo, uh⊠youâre gonna wanna move your hand. Just like this.â He sighs as he works your hand up and down his shaft, slowly jerking him off. Your eyes flicker between his face and pretty dick to make sure you were doing it right. As you do so, he presses a lingering kiss to your lips, muttering a âSo sweet, bubba.â Against your mouth.
This only encourages you to gain confidence, doing whatever feels right. You twist your handâ squeezing just a tad harder towards the tip as that seemed to be what made him release that heavenly groan, jaw constantly agape as he watches your hand.
âTheeere you go sweetheart. Easy right? Like milking a cow.â He kisses your temple briskly once more before his eyes screw shut, chest heaving with quicker breaths. You get carried away, fascinated by the pearly precum that seeps from his slit as you work him with your hand and following your own judgment you lean down. You figure if he used his mouth on you, you could return the favour.
His eyes open with a loud shudder when you tentatively wrap your plush lips around his tip, working your hand up and down to try and squeeze more of the interesting salty flavour from him. You let out a long drawn out moan of your own as you feel your clit throbbing with desire, liberating his precum from your mouth to let it dribble back down his shaft in messy bubbles.
He winces, placing a hand on your shoulder and removing you with such an abrupt speed that you nearly flew off the side of the bed. You sit up straight, slick mouth pouting as your eyes flicker between his, worrying that youâd done something wrong. Thereâs a second of just looking at eachother, before you stumble over some words.
âSâSorry. Did I hurtââ
âNo, no God no. I uhâ I just wasnât sure if I should make a mess all over that pretty face just yet.â His wide eyed expression melts into a reassuring smile, thumb rising to swipe lovingly at your cheek. You lick your lips, savouring the taste of him and nod â not quite sure where to go from there.
Your silence makes him question, and he eyes you. âIs there⊠anything in particular you want now?â
You think, blinking your doll-like eyelashes off into the distance before nodding once moreâ pushing off away from him and scurrying to the head of the bed where you lay yourself gently on the pillows.
âHm?â He follows up in confusion, craning his neck round to watch you.
âWould⊠like a baby now, please.â You spread your legs a little, shy and bashful in your request like you wasnât sure if youâd asked impolitely. His face falls as he stares at you for a moment before closing his eyes, rubbing over his face with an exasperated chuckle, elbows on his knees.
As you stare at him with with an upset little pout, already ashamed by your forwardness. âLike husband and wife?â You try to justify and he sighs out his nose, turning his body fully to you.
âOh sweet girl.â He tugs you gently lower toward him by your hips, rubbing his thumbs at your waist. âWe just met.â
You launch into full fledged begging, whiny and high pitched with tears threatening to dive over their trough. âIâll make you so happy John B, Iâll make all your problems go away and you wonât have to run anymore. Please?â You were deadset on this man giving you your dream life, and youâd officially pushed shame to the side in order to get this. His brow is permanently creased, staring with those big wide puppy dog eyes, continually stroking your skin in hopes to calm you.
âAre you⊠sure thatâs what you want? Youâre still young. So much time for all that.â
âJust want it now. Iâd never be lonely again.â You sound defeated, staring down away from him now. He felt bad, heâd always hated disappointing people. Once upon a time he was a fixer, always running to his friends aid to make their problems go away. That urge never died, just burned low and quiet like an old candle flame. He wanted to make your problems go away too.
âOkay.â He presses his lips together. âIâll give you what you want, sweetheart.â
He watches your devastated expression lift into a radiant grin, and it was like watching the sun appear from behind a grey cloud after weeks of downcast weather. âYeah?â You chirp toothily as he crawls over you, leaking tip grazing your tummy and then your folds as he buries his face into your neck.
âUh-huh.â
When he pushes his tip inside, John B says a prayer for the first time in his life.
Heâd never really followed any religion. His father had been the type to say it was all a bunch of âMumbo jumboâ and that he should believe in the human psyche instead, or something like that. But as your wet folds swallow him and you release that high pitched mewl at the inevitable stretch â he finds himself asking God â please, please donât let me knock this young girl up.
Thereâs a warm blanket of chills that cover his spine as he slowly sheathes inside of you, feeling like he was pushing deeper and deeper into a black hole that would selfishly keep sucking him inside for the rest of his life. It felt too good, calming â like falling asleep. He was euphoric.
âSo â so big inside me!â Your cry knocks him out of his thoughts and he kisses your shoulder before looking down to watch himself push in all the way to the hilt.
âFeel okay, gorgeous?â
You nod, a pained whine falling from you as you dig your nails into his skin, walls fluttering around him like they were constantly trying to accommodate for this thickness. âFuck.â He groans, before sliding back a little and starting to thrust. Yeah, he wasnât gonna last too longâ he needed to get to work on you fast.
As he gently fucks into you, your plush tits recoil with the movement and he canât close his mouth, sounds and sighs leaving him without permission. A hand slides between the two of you, the other pulling his shirt up to grip between his teethâ giving himself a better view of the way he strokes at your clit â your legs being spread exposing it, making it easier for him.
You clench, and shudder â that sweet face contorting with each time his tip ever so slightly grazes your cervix, careful not to bruise it. You really were beautiful, that type of homely beauty heâd thought of marrying in his lonely nights of travelling through desert and grass. The type of girl you work for, the type that deserves spoiling, princess treatment. The more he fucks, the more heâs convincing himself that impregnating you might not be the most awful thing after all. Why should he chase away security?
Your fingertips grace his chest, and he takes your hand â pinning it to the bed as your fingers intertwine, using the grip to aid his rolling thrustsâ speeding up the pace and force now he knew you could take it like a champ. His mouth opens to speak, and his shirt drops out of it.
âTaking me real good baby. You like getting fucked, donât you?â He cooâs and you can only nod, tears gathering in the corner of your eyes before rolling down to your temples. Poor thing, lost for words.
Thereâs a wet slapping sound with each thrust, your cunt equally gushing as it was thirsty â hungrily welcoming each inch of his, and even demanding more by locking your ankles around his lower back. Perhaps you did it for comfort, or perhaps because you suspected a hesitance, the threat of him pulling out last minute too much for your baby-crazed brain.
âJesus. Sweet little puppy.â He breathes like itâs a revelation beneath your ear, the curly tuft of hair above his shaft tickling you as he continues to rub your clit.
âSâgonna happen again, John B. The big feeling.â You strain, eyes clamped shut and snifflingâ too overwhelmed by your impending orgasm. He kisses each eye lid and watches you closely, experiencing you unfold once more.
âThats my good girl. Let me have it, pup. Gimme a good one.â
Youâre an explosion of whimpers and moans, thrashing under his firm grip once moreâ and heâs not sure when your orgasm ends, if it even ends at allâ he doesnât care, the release pushing him close to his own. He speeds up his pace, hand that was at your clit now wrapping around your lower back, forearm pushing your lower half up and against him, forcing you to just keep taking him.
He was like a beast from a fairytale book, fucking wildly into you with a primal determination that had you struggling to breathe. Youâre crying now, full out crying because itâs just so much. Thereâs still one last thing you require, and only he can give you it.
âYou wanna make me daddy, huh?â He demands, that gentleness in his voice gone. Itâs nearly unrecognisable from him, and you preen beneath the rough touch.
âMhm!â
âWords.â He barks. He didnât mean to be mean, he just got a little bossy when he was close. Youâd come to learn that.
âPlease give me a baby. Please just â make you a daddy! Need it!â Youâre squealing, voice shaking from the hard âplap plap plapâ of his balls slapping against you. You feel you might pass out if this goes on much longer.
He releases with a long groan, lips dropping to the centre of your chest and back arching upwards. You register his sounds before you feel it, hot slimy ropes of himâ shooting up inside you, warming your walls. You moan too, because it feels so good to be full. It feels right, like this was what had been missing after all.
Everything is a blur for the next few minutes. Itâs like you black out a little, because maybe you forgot to be breathing like you should have been. You briefly recall John B scooping you up and helping you through that, ignoring the gooey seed dripping from you to cradle you like a baby, humming a calm âBreathe, sweetheart. In and out. With me, câmon.â Your gentle boy was back, and through your haze you smile.
Once youâre tucked at his side beneath a soft cotton blanket, his hand stroking over your head after cleaning you up, a whispered conversation ensues.
âDo you really like me John B? Like, you really think Iâm beautiful?â You inquire, gazing up at him with stuck together black eyelashes. The question was so innocent, yet he could tell it was so meaningful.
His expression doesnt falter, a gentle smile sat comfortably on his lips as he continues to pet you. âBaby, I think youâre the ponds swan. Just⊠gotta get to know you a little better, okay? âSpecially if I really did put a baby in you.â Only then his smile falters, brows knitting as the reality sets in. Oh Lord.
âOkay.â Your eyes flutter closed, happy to leave it at that, happy to fall asleep right by his side under his watchful eye. It was unnerving how safe a lonely girl could feel with a stranger.
âOkay. Good girl. Itâll be okay. Weâll figure it out.â He quietly reassures, watching you drift off. Heâs not sure if heâs trying to dispel your fears, or his own.
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svt + nerdy y/n!!
a/n: this is absolutely self-indulgent. i'm sorry if i'm writing slower than usual, i'm trying to get back on track!
sfw content. gender neutral reader and established relationship.
very mildly suggestive (pg13 audience only!). nerd here refers to anyone with academic interests or a general high level of interest in uncommon/niche topics. i've tried to make the concept of nerd as inclusive as possible.
seungcheol
not a nerd himself but will encourage you 100% to be a nerd- buys you new pair of glasses when your eyesight worsens, new documentary CDs and even membership of a hundred foreign journals.
defo has a sapiosexuality kink- you can guess how attracted he is to your intelligence. but he's the smarter one on the streets, so he'll take care of you in every way possible while you stay in your little geeky bubble.
it's always baby let me recharge your phone bill for you; baby please eat your meals on time; baby you can't stop drinking water because of exam stress; baby if you're pulling an all-nighter, call me over, i don't want you to stay up all night alone.
jeonghan
loving jeonghan involves so much cuddling and lazy time when you both just lie under the blankets, his head is on your stomach and your fingers in his hair. it's at these moments that he encourages you to read out for him and he hums along whenever you pause to check if he's fallen asleep.
but jeonghan draws the line sometimes. he is supportive- but only when you're not trading off your time with him for the sake of peering into books.
you can sit with me and solve bivariate normal distributions or whatever you have to do, he whines into your ear. but you keep tickling me and i mess up the calculations! he laughs at this, i can't help it if you're just so ticklish, baby.
joshua
three years ago, joshua would've laughed if someone told him he would be more interested in the latest discoveries of astrophysics than in who's winning the la liga matches. but here he is- successfully converted into a nerd entirely because of your influence.
joshua was ridiculously easy to convert. all it had taken was the shiny, lovesick look in your eyes when you'd ask him if he wanted to watch a documentary on alternate universe theories with you, and he'd said yes in a heartbeat. and then it had just been a spiral into the metaphorical black hole. and he does NOT regret it, as long as he gets to spend time with you.
josh is this getting too boring? you'd quietly ask after an hour of the documentary, guilty for being too absorbed in it to even look at your boyfriend and see how he's faring. but joshua is melting at your concern, so even if it was a little bit boring, he'll reassure you sweetly, not at all baby! this is so new and interesting!!
jun
yes he may be from china, but clearly you know more about his own roots than he does! whenever you're watching news, jun loves it when you fill him up on some quirky background info that he didn't know about, but adds so much value to the context of the news.
in awe of your academic capabilities and keeps bragging about you to everyone. feels so proud when he can contribute to something you're passionate about too. he CANNOT fathom why someone as nerdy and intellectual as you should want to be with him.
junie, you're so smart! you praise him after he reports a profit he's making on a stocks investment. he shyly giggles, not like you, baby. you shake your head, i may be book smart. but you're street-smart!
soonyoung
hyper and calm partners!!!! he used to get annoyed with how you would pore into your books all day and how focused you were on your studies, but now he sees the charm in it all. it makes you happy, and in turn, he gets to wrap himself around you and be as clingy as he likes.
he really tries to follow with your nerdiness, his enthusiasm is there he swears! it's just not his fault that his attention span is so low and he ends up staring at your lips more than actually listening to you.
baby are you even listening? you ask, pouting. it drive him even more insane and he ends up giving in to his instincts and kissing you. yes baby! i heard everything!
wonwoo
WILL BE GEEKY WITH YOU! i imagine the two of you sitting next to each other at a table, him focused on his games and you're focused on your studies, your feet in his lap, and you're both sharing the same cup of coffee.
he loves collecting pretty little diaries for you, because he knows you write little poems and trivia in those diaries. whenever he's out on tour, he's bringing a locally-made diary for you, and if possible, he customises it with your name imprinted on it too.
wonwoo, there's a new adaptation of pygmalion getting shown in the theatre! do you want to go watch? i want to take notes from this adaptation and write about it on my blog... you need not even explain so much, wonwoo bought the tickets already when you began to talk about it.
jihoon
feels so giddy when he comes home from work and the first thing you do (in between his kiss attacks) is tell him a new fact you learnt today in whatever is your latest obsession.
jihoon loves his personal space, so when he's found you who's equally fond of your personal space and interests, it's literally a match made in heaven. they say it'll put distance between the two of you, but it really does quite the opposite!
jihoonie, can you help me learn this table? maybe ask me randomly and i'll try to answer. jihoon wants to tell the table to self-destruct from the entire world because you're near to tears trying to mug it up. but he doesn't. instead he says, love, how about i make a song for you which simplifies this? like a mnemonic but nicer.
seokmin
man was too desperate to get out of school to understand why you choose to be a nerd. but it's hella cute, so he doesn't need to understand. he's obsessed with your quirky habits- the way you bite your lips when you're finding a topic difficult, the way your glasses slip down your nose and you irritatedly push it up again, the way you crave the hot chocolate he makes when you're under exam stress.
admires your smartness so much! WILL brag about it to everyone he meets. WILL bring up the fact you told him yesterday, in today's conversation with his members just to show off your smartness.
posts stories about you being so cute while working hard for your exams but it's just you with oiled hair, acne breaking out like hellfire, and cramming notes at breakneck speed (you don't talk to him for an hour after this, but he doesn't get why you're so embarrassed, he only sees cuteness.)
mingyu
another one who WILL be nerdy with you. mingyu's always been a curious boy- even as a child, he would be drawn into new ideas easily. nothing is different now, and mingyu sits with you often when you're studying, his hands often wandering to your shoulders to massage them, and bringing you a regular supply of ramen and snacks.
you have a habit of repeating to yourself what you read, so mingyu steps in and asks you to talk to him and explain the topics to him as if you're teaching him. safe to say, he gets VERY turned on after such mock 'teaching' lessons and eventually loses focus on what you're saying.
gyu do you remember that paper i wrote last month? yeah, it got selected for a journal. you say it so nonchalantly that any other person would think you're showing off. but mingyu knows how much it means to you, and you're only downplaying it because you think mingyu won't think it to be a big deal, as most academic snobs tend to do. but lucky for you, mingyu knows exactly how precious an achievement it is to you, so he shows his appreciation to you instead of merely saying it (by showering you with kisses that make you tingle all over).
minghao
OH oh. will listen to your rants with the sweetest subtle smile on his face. will buy encyclopedias and reference books for your mini library. will take you to speaker sessions, workshops and other such informative events across the city, even places you've no idea about.
the most ardent supporter you could have asked for, he is in awe of your mental capabilities and your intelligence. you both have a lot of quality time where you're just sitting together and doing your things, but minghao values it like no other activity in the world.
hao? there's a new parcel at the door. you call him when a delivery arrives and he's at work. open it. he may not be around to see your reaction, but he can sure imagine the grin that's bursting out on your face when you squeal his name into the phone on seeing the hardcover special edition version of your favourite collection of essays.
seungkwan
lots of wide-eyed wondering at why you would want to stay rooted at a spot and read books over playing badminton with him. he wants to complain that you've chosen your academics over him, but that'd be a lie, so he can only half-heartedly whine about it.
comes around to your point of view as soon as you start showing him documentaries (on animals living in the Himalayas, as per your latest obsession). it begins with him finding the animals cute, to eventually finding you cute when you animatedly talk about them. and once he's totally converted, it's fairly easy for you to convince him to help you with exams.
expect eye rolls, smug smiles and hair being brushed back nonchalantly when the questions he had asked last night from your texts actually matched with the ones asked in the exam. i told you, baby, he whispers in your ear. now i want my reward, you've been drowned in books for way too long and not paying any attention to your boyfriend.
vernon
it was a surprise to him as well when he realised he's got a massive sapiosexuality kink. as someone who's run as far away from the education system as he could, he doesn't even know why he finds it so attractive when you're being nerdy. but, well, he does.
he loves hearing you talk about whatever it is that you're learning lately, and sometimes something or the other catches his attention. and then, you know he'll dive right deep into it to know all about it, until his curiosity is satisfied.
nonie, what's the video you sent me? you ask him when you return home from uni. i wondered if you've watched this one. it explains the theories of why the harappan civilization disappeared so well. you can only smile at his enthusiasm, i bet you've been looking at conspiracy theories again, nonie. the guilty grin on his face says it all.
chan
chan listens so well, but you can't really blame him if he doesn't retain the information. he's elated simply to have you wrapped in his arms as you talk about what happened in your classes today, and his nose in the crook of your neck so he can smell your lovely scent. intermittently nods his head (just wants to rub his nose on the soft skin of your neck) and hums in agreement of what you just said (suppressing moans when he can feel your heartbeat quicken when he presses kisses to your neck too).
it doesn't matter what your new niche is, but he's indulging it. he admires your ability to stay focused in a field as demanding as academia, and he's all for you to go ahead with your interests and education as long as you want to learn.
you wake up to post-its on your forehead every day when chan has had to leave early for work: get out of the house and get fresh air. shampoo hair today, interview tomorrow. practice the introduction speech again. drink water and take vitamins. STOP DRINKING COFFEE. and you giggle at each of them, because they're all things you've tried to remember for yourself and forgotten, so chan reminds you like this, but his cute handwriting and the little XOXOXOs he's drawn all over make your heart melt.
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how to be a whole new student this school year (A MASTERPOST)â.àłàż*:đđ
HOW TO BE BETTER THIS SCHOOL YEAR ;
TAKE ADVANTAGE. take advantage of extra credit opportunities, make sure to advocate for urself and take advantage in any way that u can. by simply doing ur homework you'll have a much better grade in the overall class which gives u wiggle room to make a mistake. but if ur slacking off on ur homework, ignoring extra credit opportunities AND doing bad on tests then ur basically setting urself up for failure. and by doing the opposite then ur setting urself up for success.
something i've noticed (and im guilty of this too sometimes) is that i spend so much time making my notes aesthetically pleasing that i forget to actually go over them which defeats the whole purpose of notes. theres nothing wrong with having fun and creative adorable notes that spark joy and happiness but PLEASE actually use them, trust me you'll love them moreâŠđŹđ
furthermore understand that getting good grades isn't as daunting and difficult as u may have imagined. just remember to always do ur homework, take advantage of extra credit, projects are an easy test grade, and get things done as fast as u possibly can.
FIND WAYS TO STAY MOTIVATED ;
the best way to stay motivated is through ROMANTICIZATION. when u learn to enjoy going to school, your going to be motivated to do well in school. because school is so IMPORTANT not only for ur education but also ur future. so take school seriously. and if u wanna become an academic weapon for the long term the best thing u can do is learn to make the best of, and enjoy it. some ways to romanticize school include ->
⥠create a school playlist that embodies the school vibes that u wanna have : i have lots of new jeans in my school playlist : i rly like the songs cookie, ditto and hurt for when im at school
⥠creating a study blog or study group to hold urself accountable in a fun and healthy way
⥠ur appearance : if u go to a school where u dont have to wear uniforms, i strongly recommend getting dressed and getting ready meticulously bcuz when u look good, u feel good, and therefore u perform well. if u do wear uniform, wear accessories or hairstyles that make u feel and look pretty. i wear leg warmers with my school uniform and my signature is hair clips and barrettes.
⥠read at school : i always walk around with a book bcuz i like to read a lot but if reading isnt ur thing, listen to a podcast about something that interests u (i rly like true crime)
⥠take pride in ur notes : invest in cute stationary! i swear, sometimes i dont feel like studying but since my stationary is super cute and pink i get motivated to study just by looking at it lol. invest in quality stationary that u love and make ur notes look pleasing to you, and also effective. effective + aesthetically pleasing.
⥠doing homework/studying in the library : or at least changing the scenery and location that u do ur homework from time to time. do yk how boring it is to do work in the same place every single day? give urself a break from the places u see all the time and spend time studying or doing homework outside of ur home. in a cafe or in the library, inside or outside, just change the scenery a bit
⥠start a video diary : i started a little video diary with my friends so that we can remember our school memories. i just think its rly cute and a great way to bond with ur friends, make memories, and romanticize school.
try and formulate a PASSION for learning as a way to cultivate the school romanticization attitude. be passionate to learn and be an academic weaponâŠđŹđ
CHANGE UP ROUTINES ;
in my next point i talk about the importance of routines but its also important to change little things about ur routine. dont go and change the whole structure of ur school routine but make sure to add little changes to spice things up and not keep urself like a hamster on a wheel. i find when i do this i just feel a lot better and its easier to romanticize.
MAKE A REGIMEN ;
make a pretty basic routine to stick to, to make sure that u balance school and personal life. having a routine can make falling into line and following through with tasks a lot easier. its easier to do things personally when u MICROMANAGE urself. at least from my own personal experience.
ABOUT STUDYING ;
every single day study (at least for a little bit) ofc this will vary depending on ur personal schedule but the goal is to do a little bit of studying everyday, and if that isnt possible, designating 3 days a week to a thorough studying session.
the way that i divide my time with a study session is 40 minutes of work time and 20 minutes of downtime. during the 40 minutes of work time u need to LOCK IN. lock in on whatever assignment needs to be complete or lock in on whatever material it is that ur studying. ofc this'll differ between all subjects but dont study all subjects in one night!! thats ambitious, but i find it'll just burn u out so stick to studying for 2-3 subjects max.
HOW TO STUDY WITHOUT BURNING URSELF OUT ;
⥠get off ur device. literally put the phone down. 9 times out of 10 the burn out that ur feeling is just the dopamine detox and laziness
arguably, the most important aspect to prevent burn out is ENERGY management. when ur burnt out u can literally feel ur energy tank on zero, so regardless of all the study techniques, however effective they may be, if u can't even muster up the energy to do them then they're uselessâŠđŹđ
⥠get PRODUCTIVE rest. what is productive rest? scrolling endlessly on tiktok is NOT productive rest. productive rest is actually letting ur mind and body REST. like, taking a nap, indulging in self care, or whatever relaxes u.
STAY ORGANIZED ;
find a tool and stay ORGANIZED. i personally use notion. and on my school notion i create a space for me to write my own notes, a calendar to put important academic dates, resources like passwords and logins, and a to-do list where i can put down some of my assignments. keeping everything organized is so so important. its non digital as well, make sure to keep ur desktop space organized, ur supplies and physical notes organized also. the more organized the better.
SOME POSTS FOR RESOURCES ;
how to get good grades without excessive studying - by yours truly
ways to romanticize school - @4theitgirls
studying methods + tips - by yours truly
youtube channels to help u out this semester - @4theitgirls
creating a study schedule and routine - @prettieinpink
how to study like rory gilmore - @itgirldiary
my studying plans as an accounting major - @iluvprettygirls
citation resources - @workitgurl
how to get good grades without excessive studying - by me
khanacademy.org
coursera.org
annualreviews.org
google scholar - research
google calendar - organization
notion - organization
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second thoughts âĄ
toji fushiguro x fem!reader
your ex keeps popping into your head during sex with toji, so he'll just have to make sure you can't think at all instead
cw: nsfw (18+), smut, p in v, size kink, dumbification, mentions of intrusive thoughts
tags: @gor3-hound @nexysworld
"Right here," he growls, "Look right here. Right in my fuckin' eyes."
His large hand held your head in place by your jaw. He gives it a sharp jerk, jostling your thoughts into place. Making sure you're completely focused on him. His lower half thrusts against you hard and fast, stretching you out with each rock of his hips.
"'m lookin'" you whine, your lips parting as little mewls fly out.
"Good. Good girl," he grunts.
The muscles in his abdomen flex as he keeps pounding into you. He wasn't taking it easy on you tonight. He was determine to make sure you couldn't think of anything but him.
The past couple of weeks things had been off between you two. Since you started dating, your relationship had always been very physical. You had sex once a day at minimum, and when he wasn't inside of you, he had a hand somewhere on your body. He may have struggled with true intimacy, but physicality came easy.
The problem he'd noticed recently was you didn't seem as into it as you usually were. You seemed kind of spaced out. You got pretty quiet when you were typically vocal.
His first reaction was insecurity. Was he not pleasing you? Were growing bored of him? The possibility of that unnerved him to his core, but he tried to convince himself those couldn't be true. You never denied him when he initiated, and you still loved to cuddle and hang off his arm whenever you could.
After another round of you looking distracted while he was balls deep, he finally just had to ask.
"Sorry..." you'd said, looking up at him sheepishly, "I just... I'm having trouble focusing."
Your tone almost made him feel guilty for asking, but your reasoning didn't answer all his questions. He knew you had trouble with concentration and intrusive thoughts sometimes. He just didn't think it would apply to this.
"Focusing?" he murmured, ducking down to plant some kisses on your cheek, "Am I not doing it right, baby? You know... I'm open to pointers."
"No... it's not that. It's just..." you continue. You hesitate as to whether or not you should actually tell him.
"C'mon, angel face," he said, nuzzling your jaw, "You know you can tell me. I want you to feel good too."
"You do make me feel good," you reassured, "It's just that I can't get my brain to be quiet. And when we're doing it, I keep thinking of my ex boyfriend, and it doesn't feel good. I don't like him at all, it's just like my mind wants to bug me."
Even though the idea of you thinking about another man during sex causes jealousy to flare within him, he reins in the instinctive anger he feels. By the pained look on your face, you clearly were just as displeased with it as he was. And while it hadn't happened in a while, he couldn't pretend like he'd never had his late wife dance through his thoughts in the heat of the moment.
So he didn't make you feel bad about it. He sighed and told you it was ok. You wanted to finish though and so he got you both to finish. He held you after like always and let you fall asleep against his side, but in his own mind, he planned for things would be different next time. There was no way he was gonna let some other guy keep you from enjoying yourself with him.
That's what led the both of you to now. He keeps your gaze locked with his own as fills you to the brim. Your eyes are glossy but with the haze of pleasure now rather than distraction, and he can't enough of it.
"That's right, babydoll. It's all me now, isn't it?" he coos lowly in your ear.
"Mhm," you whimper and nod, your head bobbing extra from his momentum.
"No room for anyone else," he grunts and digs his fingers into the plush of your cheeks.
Your lips puff out under the pressure, and he leans down to mash his mouth against your own. The kiss is wet and sloppy, your saliva and his mixing together while he nips at your bottom lip. He ruts into you faster, his breaths growing more ragged.
"Fuck.. Toji," you whimper arching your back and pressing your tits up against his chest.
"That's all you're gonna be able to say when I'm done with you, sweet thing," he says.
You whine and nod. That was what you wanted. Just him. If he was the only thing on your mind, you were happy. A big, dazed smile drifts to your features to match your fucked out eyes.
"That's a biiiiig smile, princess," he coos mockingly, "Who's making you smile like that?"
"You are," you whimper.
"Right. No one else can make you smile like that," he says.
You nod again and yelp when his cock rams into a sweet spot inside you. He chuckles at the sound and lifts his hands to rest above your head, caging your body below his.
"My baby. You're all mine. Mine to fuck dumb every. single. night," he pants.
"Don't want anyone else. Just you," you babble and drag your nails down his back.
"I know it," he says.
He then quickly reaches down, securing your hips with an iron grip and fucks into you as deep as possible. You see stars stars and let out a sound you can't control. You tighten around him like a vise, keeping him nice and deep where you need him.
"My Toji," you slur and bring your own hands back up to slide through his hair.
He moans quietly, and his eyes flutter shut. His hips sputter a bit as he feels his release creeping up on him.
"Gonna cum soon, dollface. Get you nice and full of me so even when I pull out, you know who that pussy belongs to," he mumbles.
You mewl in ecstasy, eager to feel him shoot deep inside you.
It doesn't take long for you to get your wish. His body lowers against yours, his flushed, sweaty skin sliding against your flesh. He pumps into you desperately with a groan as he drains himself between your tight, velvety walls.
He lets it all sink inside you before pulling out. His cock is still slick with your arousal. He leans back and pushes your thighs up, taking a look at your pussy stuffed full of his cum. Just how it should be.
Up top, you were still blissed out. He huffs out a laugh at your drooping eyes and contented expression.
"How you feeling, baby?" he asks and crawls back on top of you to give you some lazy smooches.
You hum and rub your nose against his cheek. Words were too hard right now in the best way.
He smirks and nips at your nose teasingly.
"Head all clear?" he whispers.
"Mhm," you say with satisfaction, opening your eyes wider and taking in the face of the man who had you now, mind and body.
#toji fushiguro x you#toji fushiguro imagine#toji fushiguro smut#toji fushiguro x reader#toji x reader#jjk imagines#jjk smut#jjk x reader#jujustu kaisen x reader#jujutsu kaisen smut
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silence || lia walti x reader ||
lia doesn't think you'll come to her game while the two of you are fighting.
you hated the quiet, but you were stubborn. lia was mad at you for something, an old fight that was rehashed a few days ago. you didn't seem to get the message, so lia had left last night. there was no note, no call or text. lia packed up an overnight bag and made her way to leah's to get ready for the game. you didn't even know if lia wanted you to come, but you were going to anyway.
this game was big, and even if you weren't there for just lia, you'd go to support the friends you had made on the arsenal team. as a kid, you had played on the youth team, but eventually gave it up for a coaching career. you had spent years learning in america coaching a college team before you came back to london to take a position at a team a league down from arsenal.
you loved your job, occasionally too much. you put in way more time and effort than what was required of you to do so. lia wanted you to take a step back and relax a little, but you couldn't. that was probably the root of the fight, and regrettable things were said on both ends. neither you nor lia were innocent in this fight. you knew that you had to apologize, but you weren't sure if lia would feel the same way and that was where your apprehension came in.
it was easy enough to find your seat in the friends and family section. you always sat in the same place, generally next to the same people. since today was a big day, you found yourself sandwiched between katie's and alessia's mothers. you liked the two women, who definitely doted on you a little whenever they saw you.
sometimes, you'd sit with lia's family when they came down, but you doubted that they'd want to see you. lia had to have told someone what was going on, so you stayed in your seat. you tried to keep to your best behavior in order to not attract attention. you knew how lia could be after big fights, and the last thing you wanted to do was distract her with such a big game hanging over her head. to a lot of people, it was just another game, but you knew that a loss here would knock them out of any major tournament play chances.
"(y/n), lia said you weren't coming today." you hated how surprised alessia looked as she saw you. you rubbed the back of your neck as you awkwardly shifted your weight between your feet. "i thought you were out of town."
"is that what she told you?" you asked. alessia shook her head, but you didnt miss the guilty look on her face. "i should probably go. good job today less, that was a great goal."
you quickly shoved all of your things in your bag and tried to make a quick exit when you walked right into lia. she had her back to you, so she didn't notice who it was until you were speeding past her. the conversation with her parents was immediately cut short to chase after you, genuinely not having believed that you'd try to come see her play after the week of silence between the two of you.
lia knew that you hated not talking to her, but you wouldn't open up communication until she did. whether it was you being stubborn or just not knowing how, lia wasn't completely sure. she knew that you had a hard time opening up to anybody, and that sometimes it was easiest to give you space to work things out on your own. lia also knew that she had really hurt your feelings during your last argument, and that it was best if she didn't accidentally say something to make it worse.
"i'm really happy that you showed up," lia said as she grabbed onto your wrist. you stopped moving the moment that she touched you. "i missed you last night and this morning. are we okay?"
"yeah, i think so," you told her. lia let out a sigh of relief as she pulled you into a hug. you melted against her body, leaning heavily into her embrace. "will you come home tonight?"
"only if you're sure that you want me back. i am really sorry for what i said and for ignoring you. you'd never expect me to put my job on the backburner for you, and i can't expect you to do the same for me," lia apologized. after the week that you had, you easily would have done anything that lia wanted you to. luckily, she realized that you were living your dream the same way that she was.
"i'm sorry that i've been distant. i'll be better," you promised. lia smiled as she cupped your cheeks and leaned in to kiss you. you kissed her back eagerly, hoping to make up for all of the kisses that you had missed out on because of the fighting. "go back and celebrate with your team, i'll pick up something for dinner."
"no, come celebrate with us. i don't want to celebrate without you there too."
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GHOSTINâ
summary: in which Luffyâs been your sanctuary as you grieve the loss of your sworn-soulmate â his brother.
pairings: luffy x reader / ex!ace x reader | the request
warnings: post-marineford, one sided love, slight angst/comfort, reader grew up with ASL, no gendered terms
an: haiiii!!! iâve been working on this on the side as iâve been reading nana. i really didnât know how to tackle this request + song with Luffy especially, but I really tried my best. please leave feedback, itâs always appreciated!! also, as always, thereâs another a/n at the end ^.^
inspiration: ghostinâ | word count: 2.2K | tip jar!
âiâll always find a way to protect you, promise .á
â GOL PORTGAS D. ACEâ
PORTGAS D. ACE IS DEFINITELY, YOUR OTHER HALF. Some might call him your lover, but to you, it was more than that. You had known the hot-headed boy since you were two were children; some say your calm and quiet demeanor balanced him out, but was just as evil and devious, which you couldnât help but agree with that. The two of you went around the village causing trouble for fun and sometimes youâd help him with his tasks in the mountains.
Ace has always been your ray of sunshine. With everything heâs gone through â which, you were a witness to â heâs still able to light a room up with a single conversation. Literally.
When Ace informed you that he finally got a devil fruit, you thought it mightâve been a God themself that handed the Mera-Mera no Mi to Ace, because still to this day, his presence remains the brightest and captivating â
even though he physically isnât with you anymore.
Itâs been almost two years since the day the Heavens took Ace back. Years that were full of utter silence in your world; the pain weighing heavy on your body and soul. Youâve remained under the watch of Shakky and Rayleigh, asking that you get to spend as much time with Luffy as possible; the last bit of Ace you have access to.
Following the War at Marineford, you had asked Rayleigh if it was okay for you to stick around. He agreed after recognizing who you were â a childhood friend to both Ace and Luffy â figuring you didnât have anywhere safe to go anyway; youâve become infamous due to Aceâs influence on you during your childhood, and with your reputation, youâre not sure of what consequences youâd face if you were even near pirates or marines.
Youâve been with Shakky the most during this time: her giving you haki training in exchange for you to help her out whenever she needs it. You canât complain though. You enjoy the feeling of having a maternal figure in your life, especially right now. Youâre unsure of how to control your emotions, and Shakkyâs been helping you navigate through them, and use them to your benefit.
Luffy has too. Whether the rubber boy knows it or not, you appreciate his gimmicks whenever you get to visit him on training days. He always has a bright smile on his face when greeting you, your body grows with warmth every time he sees you; like right now, you feel like the heat has gotten ten times hotter, yet his embrace just feels so familiar and welcoming, you almost forget that you have to pull away.
âHey! You said youâd visit me two days ago! I got finished with my training early and expected to see you, but Rayleigh said your plans changed! What happened?â His voice is loud yet soft, and the way heâs looking at you makes you feel guilty. You avoid his gaze immediately, the small smile youâd painted on your face fading.
You donât like talking about Ace to Luffy. Itâs been like this since the two of you were children, but especially now. You know heâs trying his best to keep your mind astray from the grief, and heâs been doing so, so good at that. But every now and then, Ace visits you as you sleep, and the following day is so hard, you want to be left alone.
áŻâ
Luffyâs not stupid â or at least, he knows how to navigate his feelings. Itâs what helped observation haki come easy to him, and instantly he feels your demeanor switch; the sun reflected in your eyes, then suddenly disappeared. He knows when youâre having a tough time. In fact, he thinks he knows everything about you.
Heâd probably never find it in him to voice it, but somewhere along the way, he thinks heâs found love within you. Even with the entire ocean separating the two of you for years, the feeling only blooms at the thought of you. He thinks this is how Ace mustâve felt.
Without hesitating, he grabs your hand and drags you into the jungle thatâs served as his temporary home for the past year and a half. These days the jungle is quiet, so Luffyâs able to spend more time in it without having to worry. Plus, heâs a hundred times stronger than he was when he first reunited with you.
He giggles at your confused and shocked state, wanting to tease you about how youâre not used to his antics at this point. Instead he just basks in your flushed expression, admiring the beauty that graces you.
áŻâ
After the most unwanted and unexpected marathon of your life, Luffy stops. Youâre barely able to process your surroundings when youâre suddenly flying. Screams leave your throat immediately, only for you to be situated on a branch seconds after.
Luffy sits next to you, his left arm wraps around your waist securely and he nestles his head into your shoulder blade; itâs almost as if heâs clinging onto you like a koala, all while youâre nearly dying to catch your breath. Heâs always been this close and clingy, especially on days youâre quiet, but over the years, youâve grown accustomed to it this trait of his.
Your breathing goes back to normal after a couple of moments, and soon your eyes find the boy staring up at you, eyes wide and curious, sending a gentle shiver down your spine.
âSoooooooâŠyou been thinkinâ about Ace?â Luffyâs bluntness is something you should be used to by now, but sometimes you wonder how his crewâs able to deal with it.
You sigh as you lean into him, staring out in front of you: the clear sky was painted a pretty shade of pinks and blues, the sun was saying its final goodbyes, and the ocean â a symbol of your will â sang peacefully as the two of you settled in each otherâs presence.
âYeah,â you breathed softly. âAce visited me again, the other day â It was kind of sudden, he hadnât done that for a while now.â
âWell did he say anything?â You donât want to answer, but the way heâs looking at you has your chest fill with warmth.
áŻâ
Ace lays next to you in the sand, his gaze fixated on yours as his fingertips softly grazed the features of your face. It was silent as it always was, and you felt yourself relaxing into his touch. Although it was all in your head, it felt so real. As if the two of you were just taking a vacation, without a care in the world.
And for the first time in a long time, Aceâs voice reaches your ears.
âYa know, Luffyâs always had a thing for you,â Youâre taken back and your brows furrow in confusion. Ace has never actually talked to you in your dreams, so for this to be the first time makes you question your sanity. âHe always asked me about you whenever we were kids. He never wanted to do things unless you were there to watch him. He cried whenever you leave. I always thought he was just overly dramatic, but even now, as I watch him, his eyes water.
Heâs hoping to ask you to join his crew,â Ace pauses to chuckle, a sound that you had almost forgotten. You bite your tongue as you feel your eyes water, not wanting to move incase youâd wake up. âThe boy asked me for advice. Mentioned the times youâve denied him before, when we were kids, asking on how and what he could do to get you to join him.
He believes in himself more than ever now, and he told me he feels like he owes you something for not only taking care of him, but Sabo and I as well. I always thought it was a weird-one sided obsession, but then thought about how I feel the same way about you too. Like a treasure that must be protected â even though youâve done well on your own already. I used to think you were a witch.â You roll your eyes at his nickname for you, slowly processing what heâs telling you.
âIâm not asking you to date him or anything â But I think you should consider joining the Strawhats. Theyâre promising, and I believe youâd make their crew so much stronger. Now that Iâm gone, whoâll watch over my crazy little brother? If only Sabo was here, then maybe Iâd have him do it instead of asking you â but youâve always been the best of taking care of us, and Luffyâs attached to you. Heâll listen to your insight, because he thinks youâre the smartest person in the world. I agree, but only because Iâm not on Earth anymore.â You scoff at his self-compliment, knowing it was just something to tease you about, but appreciating the fact that the boys always knew you were the smartest of the bunch. You roll on your side to face him, eyes widening when you notice heâs staring you straight in the eye.
He looks like the same hot-headed boy that left you those years ago. As if he was seventeen again, waving a see-you-later to you and Luffy as the ocean carried him and his tiny boat away. Nothingâs changed since then, even when youâd run into him at ports when you were venturing the sea as well.
âAgain, you donât have to feel any kind of those feelings towards him, but I think Luffy will help you ease the pain and eventually grow from it. If anything, he looks up to me. Find me in him if it helps. Iâll watch over the two of you and try my best to help you both out, but for now, please enjoy your youth and life for me â surrounded by love. You have so much to live for and so much willpower. Youâve always been the epitome of freedom to us, so please go and enjoy it.
I wonât visit you for a while now. Iâll let you go and handle business. But please, as always, be safe. Donât go crashing out on everyone now. I love you, thank you for allowing me to grow with you.
Iâm sorry that time and distance separated us, and Iâll make sure youâre always protected, just as I promised.â
Youâre silent as he just smiles at you, words wanting to spill from your lips, but none of them feeling right. Your bottom lip wobbles as you stare at his face and features, blinking tears away so you can engrave his face into your brain.
âYou know how to get to me; Iâll always be here for you. Iâll see ya later, hot stuff. Canât wait to watch what trouble you make happen.â
áŻâ
You sigh as you bring yourself back to reality, breathing in the air surrounding the two of you. It was fresh, the breeze was nice, and the sea remained humming her song quietly.
âWell, he mightâve let it slip that someone wants me to be apart of their crew,â you tease, feeling the boy suddenly jolt.
He chuckles nervously as he rubs the back of his head awkwardly, clearly not expecting to be outed by his own brother. âHuh?â He feigns innocence, âWell who?â
You roll your eyes and raise your brow, arms crossed as you stared at him, challenging his gaze to see if he breaks. When he doesnât, you decide to mess with him.
âShanks,â you tease; youâd met the infamous Red-Haired pirates around the same time Luffy did, and he was your first ever haki teacher. Although it was a small lie to tell, it wasnât hard for Luffy to believe it.
His expression fell dramatically, his voice whiney as he pouted and looked towards the sky.
âACE, YOU DIDNâT TELL ME THAT SHANKS ALREADY BEAT ME!â You giggled as the Luffy sent curses up to the Heavens, silently hoping none of the Gods cursed you for Luffyâs outburst. You grabbed his hands suddenly, and for a split second, shivers went down your spine. He turned and looked at you, an unreadable expression on his face that almost looked like regret.
âHey, hey,â you coo to him. Youâd always comfort Luffy after his brothers would tease him, and over time Luffyâs grown to love your touch and words. ââM just teasinâ. He told me that you were hoping Iâd join your crew. Honestly?â His fingers intertwine with yours as he patiently waits for you to finish your thoughts; his hands are warm and soft, despite his constant training, the way theyâve always been. The way heâs always been. âIâll do it, if it means I can help you reach your goals. I told you Iâd see you off as pirate king when we were younger, didnât I?â
Luffy gasps and wraps his arms around you tightly, burying his face in your shoulder. The sudden embrace takes you by surprise, and you feel his mouth moving but youâre unsure of what heâs saying. You welcome his embrace, thinking of all thatâs happened since Marineford. Luffyâs been with you since, helping you grow stronger and stray your mind away from what youâve lost. Heâs been doing so well â he makes you laugh about the stupidest things, heâd always defend you from the former monsters of this jungle, he tells you stories from his adventures and you do the same. These past few months, itâs gotten easier to accept and let go of the grief, thanks to him.
âPromise Iâll make it worth it for ya! Thanks for trusting me! Took you such a long time to say yes,â he says as he pulls away from you, smile accompanying his lovely facial features. âWeâll have so much fun! You remember the crew, right? From that time in Alabasta?â
As you and Luffy sit and escape the world around you, you feel a new excitement grow in you. Youâre just as ready as he is to reunite with everyone, even if you werenât a Stawhat before this. For the first time in a long time, you feel free. You donât feel this way because Ace let you go, but because he pushed you to finding your freedom. And all you can do now is live and hope to achieve all thatâs waiting for you.
áŻâ
an: iâm thinking about a part two because this felt more like it was centered around Ace and Readerâs relationship T^T. but honestly i wouldnât mind. plus i think reader might subconsciously love Luffy the way he loves them. so maybe i will write a part two to satisfy myself, idk. itâs been a while since iâve written and have been able to get any creativity out of my body, thanks to work đ». anyway, please do leave your feed back!!! iâll enjoy it. thank you so much for reading!!
#luffysinterlude#luffy x reader#one piece x reader#ace x reader#luffy x y/n#ace x y/n#one piece angst#one piece fluff
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I absolutely love your writing!!!
Are you able to write something where reader is in a relationship with Max or Carlos or Lando. They sometimes playfight and yn usually wins. But one day the driver has to go somewhere else and uses his real strength to stop playing. And yn is shocked that he used to just pretend. Slightly angsty but mostly fluff.
Only if you can please :)
Playfight | M. Verstappen
warnings: slight angst, mainly fluffy
wc: 800+
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You and Max have always been close. Long before you started dating, you were best friends, partners in crime, and each other's confidants. Your days were filled with inside jokes, playful banter, and those moments of playfighting that always left you breathless with laughter. You loved the way Max engages in these little tussles, seemingly evenly matched, making it all the more thrilling.
Today was one of those days. The afternoon sun streamed through the windows of your apartment, casting a warm, golden glow across the living room. Lounging on the couch, you and Max are scrolling through your phones and sharing random memes when the playful urge strikes you.
You nudge Max with your foot, a mischievous grin spreading across your face. "Bet I can take you down in under a minute."
He looks up, eyebrows raised, and chuckles. "Oh, really? Is that a challenge?"
You nod, laughing as you leap off the couch and adopt a mock fighting stance. Max follows suit, rising to his feet with a grin that mirrors yours. He's always game for a little fun, no matter how ridiculous.
You start your usual routine of playful attacks, knowing exactly how to make him laugh and stumble. But today, Max seemed a little distracted, glancing at his watch every few seconds. You notice but choose to ignore it, too caught up in the moment to let it break your stride.
"Alright, alright, you win," he says, attempting to end the fight quickly.
But you're not ready to let him off the hook. "Oh no, you don't get off that easy!" you tease, lunging at him again.
"Seriously, schat, I've gotâ" he starts, but you cut him off with a lighthearted shove.
"Come on, baby, fight back!" you urge, laughing as you goad him into continuing.
He sighs, clearly reluctant. "I really don't have time for this right now," he says, but you're too lost in the moment to listen.
You push him again, harder this time, and his expression changes. Without warning, Max grabs your wrists, twists you around, and gently but firmly pins you face-first to the couch. The sudden display of strength leaves you stunned, your breath catching in your throat.
"There, I win," he mumbles into your ear, before releasing you as he noted the time on his watch.
You lie there for a moment, processing what just happened. Slowly, you push yourself up and turn to face him, your mind racing. "Max... what was that?" you ask, unable to mask the shock in your voice.
He rubs the back of his neck, looking slightly guilty. "I'm sorry. I really have to go. I didn't mean toâ"
"You've always let me win, haven't you?" you interrupt, the realization hitting you hard.
Max sighs, his shoulders slumping. "Yeah," he admits softly. "I didn't want to ruin the fun."
You sit up fully, the playful mood evaporated, replaced by a mixture of surprise and a sting of hurt. "Why?"
He shrugs, avoiding your gaze. "I liked seeing you happy. It was never about winning or losing for me."
Your heart clenches, a lump forming in your throat as you process his words. "You've been holding back this whole time," you say, more to yourself than to him.
He nods, finally meeting your eyes. "I didn't want you to feel... I don't know, like you couldn't beat me. It was more important to me that you had fun."
You reach out, taking his hand in yours, squeezing it gently. "You're too sweet for your own good, you know that?"
He chuckles softly, squeezing your hand in return, but the tension between you remains. "I try, and I'm sorry for rushing off like this. I'll make it up to you, I promise."
You shook your head, preventing a smile from forming on your lips as you thought of an idea. "No, don't make it up to me, we'll just have to rematch."
He quirked up an eyebrow, amusement dancing in his eyes. "Are you sure you want to do that again?"
A grin breaks through despite your best efforts to remain serious. "Absolutely. But this time, let's make it more interesting. How about we use Nerf guns or water guns, you name it. Let's see who really comes out on top."
Max laughs, the sound easing the last of the tension between you. "Now that sounds like a challenge I can't refuse. But remember, you asked for it."
You nod, feeling a thrill of excitement. "It's on, baby. Next time, no holding back."
He presses a kiss to your forehead, still smiling as he heads for the door. "I'll be ready. Just don't be too disappointed when you lose."
With a smile, you settle back, imagining the thrill of the next fight. It won't just be about winning or losingâit will be about showing Max that you're ready to match his strength, playfulness, and love, shot for shot.
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Locked in
Dick Grayson x Gn. Reader
Extra: Fluff, And very mild taco sauce angst
     You were content with watching him from your spot on the couch, Haleyâs head on your lap while you gave her scritches. You hadnât seen him in a while. An off-planet Titanâs mission that kept him from your grasp for longer than both of you expected. And to no one's surprise, heâs returned to more work. You admired his work ethic but youâd be lying if you said you didnât wish heâd take it easy.Â
     âI hope youâre thinking of me over there~â You heard him chime from his seat at the kitchen table.Â
     âKinda.â you sniff âIâm thinking of how peacefully quiet it was when you were gone.âÂ
     âOuch,â He laughs. âAnd here I was, thinking of you~â You know that tone, and you know heâs baiting you into feeling bad. And itâs working. You try your luck and peek up from petting Haley. You breathe out through your nose at the look heâs giving you. Big blue eyes fraught with faux sadness, His pretty lips pursed in a tempting pout. You crack when he furrows his brows looking utterly pitiful. With an exaggerated huff, you relent.Â
      But you arenât going to make it easy for him. You bite your lip looking between the doggoâs ears and fluttering your lashes at him shyly. âI missed you.â You donât quite manage the coy tone you were aiming for, you're too earnest, as itâs the truth. You did miss him. A lot. His act drops instantly. The lines around his mouth pinch and he averts his gaze.Â
     âBut not that much.â You add. âI really enjoyed being able to use a blanket.â You lay the breadcrumbs and the Robin pecks.Â
     âYouâre saying I hog the sheets?!â He scoffs mock offense dripping from each syllable. You donât waste time quickly narrowing your eyes, the memories of shivering in the night as he steals them away arenât that far away! Heâs raising his arms in defense âOkay so maybe I do⊠sometimes.âÂ
     âSometimes?â You press.Â
     âWell, I havenât recently.â He grins, but thereâs a tightness to the corners of his eyes as the joke slips past.Â
     âWell, you're here to steal them nowâŠâÂ
      You can tell that itâs still eating at him. Always feeling guilty that man, you roll your eyes fondly. His bad habits have grown on you too much for you to resent them. However, knowing him heâll try to make it up to you even if youâre not bothered. You knew what you were getting into when you cast your lot with him. And you know youâll let him play out his âatonement.â
      âCan I make it up to you?â And there it was.Â
      âYeah, you can start by finishing up over there so that you can come cuddle us.â You can see the tension melt from his shoulders at your words. And the sounds of his fingers against the keyboard resume. You yawn into your hand after a few minutes, your eyelids heavy.Â
       âOr..â You look over to see his eyes already on you. âYou can come here and cuddle me while I work?â Heâs batting those pretty eyes at you as if you're not already unfolding your legs and standing. You leave the puppy to sleep as you leave the living room. Your hands slide across his back and over his broad shoulders. You kiss his cheek, laughing when he grumbles about you missing.Â
      âAs nice as this is, this isnât what I meant.â He hums. His calloused palms grasp your forearm and you allow him to position you in front of him. He uses his legs to push the chair from under the wooden table.Â
      âDick.â You begin.Â
      âI missed you too.â he cut in, patting his lap to drive his point home. âAnd itâs late, what if you fall asleep and we canât cuddle?â Heâs giving you that look again. All innocent and boy Scout blue and you're instantly suspicious.Â
      âFine. But I donât see how you're going to get anything done like this.â You climb onto his lap and his arms wrap around your waist to pull you closer. âAnd no funny businessâ you add trying not to brush against his fresh wounds. He lets out a sulky âAw manâ before he shuffles you both forward until you feel the wood resting against your back. His head is over your shoulder as he continues to type. Slower than he would have before, due to the awkward angle. You almost fall asleep that way, the soft rise and fall of his chest against yours, the rhythmic tapping of the keys. That is until you feel his lips against your head.Â
   ââm sorry.âÂ
   âNothing to be sorry for.â You yawn, your fingers playing with his hair.Â
   âYou deserve a present partner.â He mumbles.Â
   âAnd you, a patient one, Pumpkin I do miss you when you're gone but I Swear that I don't mind waitingâ Your lips press against his scratchy stubble. âNot when I know you always come back.â You both ignore the blaring siren of what his not returning would mean. ââTold you I'm locked in, are you?â
      He smiled, kissing your temple. âAlways angel.â You'd have this conversation again. When he comes back to you from yet another mission all banged up and guilty. Absolutely no doubt about it. But you're here to stay, for as long as you have together, youâre locked in.Â
#dick grayson x reader#dick grayson x you#nightwing x reader#uh random bullshit go!#Had this one in my drafts for a while#But the latest Nightwing issue really had me wanting to post it <3
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Marriage-Life (One-shot)
A/n: Thank you all for all the love on the Between Worlds series! I promise an update next week. This is just something I thought about while on my walk with my dog :) SUPER FLUFFY!
**Also, it is unedited so fair warning, like a rough draft!**
Word Count: 1.8K
Summary: Collections of domestic life with Azriel, married/mated for fifty years.Â
Warnings: Fluff & crack at times, drinking, some intimate moments. Pet names (Sweetness, My Love, Baby)
Azriel the spymaster was your mate, the most handsome man youâve ever laid eyes on. Balancing life with a spymaster was no easy feat. Azrielâs frequent absence on risky missions tested the boundaries of your marriage at times. Yet, amidst the challenges, you found solace in the ways he made up for his prolonged departures.
Like sleepless nights in bed after a long missionâŠ
As you settled in settled into bed, with Azriel lying on your chest, his breathing growing heavy as his eyes were closing. A question tugged at your lips. âWould youâŠâ you began, hesitating for a moment. âYes, I would love you if you were a worm,â Azriel hummed, his warm breath grazing your skin.
âLove me if I was a snailâ You finished, feeling Azrielâs smirk form against your chest. He gave a soft nip on your breast. A deep sigh escaped his lips as he opened his eyes to look up at you. The hazel eyes looked up at you with amusement you could see his smirk turn smug.Â
âOh sweetness, that changes thingsâ he drawled as he sat up a little, pushing himself up to see your face. You bit your lip trying not to giggle as he continued.Â
âI mean, are you a normal snail? Like could I tell you apart from all of the other little snails?â Azriel began, his deep voice filled with a teasing tone. His hand roaming your bonds, fingers caressing your curves.Â
You stifle a laugh as his fingers find ticklish spots, âI would be a cute snail, one that you could distinguish from the othersâ
âA very cute snailâŠbut the fact remains. You would still be a snailâ Azriel hummed as he ran his fingers across your curves again. His gaze goes down to your body and back to your lips and then your eyes with a playful grin. A grin that only you ever saw. âI would feel so guilty if I stepped on you by mistake. Canât have that, can we?âÂ
Giving him a playful pout, you look at him innocently. âAre you sayingâŠthat you wouldnât love me if I was a snail?â you whisper to him in a soft gaze, as you notice his movements. Azriel grinned again, pushing himself onto his elbows against you as he moved closer to you. His wings continued to drape across the both of you.Â
âWhat Iâm saying is I would always have to worry about stepping on you if you were a snail. Which would make being married to you quite the headache.â His hand once rested on the curve of your waist, moved its way to your collarbone then your jawline, and finally to your chin. Tilting your head as he brings himself closer to whisper on your lips. âHow about you stay fae my love, maybe in another universe we could be snails together. But this one, I would love to be fae with you.â A gentle kiss was planted on your lips, which led to you both having a very sleepless night.Â
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Azriel never really had much of a sweet tooth, in fact, he typically stayed away from sweets until he met you. When you both got married, you would try out a new cafe once a month, sometimes going to the same one if their seasonal menu changed.Â
âLetâs get ice cream today, itâs starting to get so warm out.â You whined as you slipped on a sundress. Azriel in the middle of brushing his teeth as he shrugged and gave the confirming nod.Â
One of the best things about Azriel was that he always tried to match your outfits. If you wore a blue ribbon in your hair, he would wear a blue button-up shirt. If you wore a floral sundress, he would find a shirt that matched one of the colors. Today wearing a blue floral sundress, he opted for a light blue button-down and khaki slacks. One of which, he never owned any colorful clothing or anything other than his leathers and a few formal outfits until you two met.
Once you were both ready, Azriel took you on a flight down to the Palace of Hoof and Leaf. A district is known for its food. Once landed, you both walked hand in hand. Shadows trailing the both of you as you walked. Azrielâs huge hand compared to yours as he guided you to a cafe.Â
âFeyre mentioned this place the other dayâ he began as he guided you through the busy streets. His wings were tightly tucked in. âI guess they make the ice cream look cute, like little bears and pigsâ he gave you a warm smile as you trailed next to him, giving him a confirming squeeze with your hand.Â
The streets were packed today, the market was selling spices, the smell of delicious food filled the air, and merchants trying to gather attention as people walked past. It wasn't until after a few blocks away, that you noticed a cute pastel pink building that had âIce Creamâ written in a beautiful cursive font on the window. You moved your hand from his, moving it towards his bicep as you both walked to the front doors. When you grasped his muscle, he flexed. The pastel-pink building exuded a quaint charm, its exterior adorned with delicate floral motifs that seemed to dance in the sunlight. Inside, the decor was equally inviting, with plush cushions and paintings on flowers on the walls. Along with cute stuffed animals on shelves around the parlor. A beautiful fae girl led you both to a table and placed a menu in front of you both. Azreil looked at you. âOrder anything you want. I will just share with youâ
The menu was filled with a tempting array of ice cream parfaits, each more enticing than the last. Ranging from little animal-themed ones to flower ones You ended up ordering the panda, and right when you ordered you noticed there was a drink menu that showed an adorable foam cat latte. You order it as well obviously. Azriel smirks as he looks at you with a smile. People in the ice cream parlor glanced over. A smile from the threatening looks of the spymaster was quite rare.Â
You both talked about what other errands you both needed to run, a market trip was due. Luckily Azriel wonât have a mission for a while but will be training with the Valkyrie and having to go to Hewn City soon. As you both talked, you very impatiently waited for the dessert, Azriel held your hand across the table. He was rubbing his finger across the top of your hand.Â
âI appreciate youâ He whispered so softly that you almost didnât catch it. You give him a warm smile âI appreciate you too and everything you do.â
After what seemed like forever!Â
The ice cream and latte finally arrived, you looked at the ice cream with a pout and looked at him.Â
âI donât think I can eat it, itâs too cuteâ you pout as you look down at the panda ice cream staring up at you. Azriel had already taken the latte and was about to sip it. As he raised a brow.
âShall I eat it for youâ he teased, flashing a playful grin as he took a sip of the cute cat latte. Something about this intimidating creature sipping a cute cat latte caused your heart to flutter. A blush made its way across your face, even after fifty years of marriage, he still makes you have butterflies in your tummy. You reluctantly used your tiny spoon that was given to you, to poke the face of the little panda ice cream ball on top. Tasting the ice cream, it was a cookies and cream flavor. So cute and so delicious. Azriel teased you by claiming youâre murdering him. You would flash him a playful glare which would cause him to laugh. It was moments like these, that you enjoyed being married to him.Â
***Â
Drunken nights, meant drunken mates.Â
Azriel arrived at Ritaâs to find his mate giggling drunk next to Feyre who was being led away by Rhysand. Azrielâs mate however was still sipping on her drink as he walked over.Â
âSorry, I have a mate,â you slurred, raising a hand to Azrielâs face as he approached.
âOh, do you? Is he handsome?â He teased in a low voice, taking a seat next to you. His wing brushing against your shoulder.Â
âThe most handsome man in the whole world, let me tell you if he caught you right now, you would be catching his handsâ You drawled with a drunken grin as you sipped the rest of your cocktail.Â
Azriel covered his mouth covering a laugh, âIs that so? So heâs like super powerful.â He teased, his tone holding amusement. One of his shadows trailing around your arm.Â
You notice it and giggle, âYeah, my mate has these little shadow things tooâ You point at the shadow and show it to him. He laughs a bit harder and leans closer to you. You almost immediately recognize him.Â
âHello! My mate!â You giggle as you lean your head on his shoulder. His arm slipped around your waist. âWhen did you get here, there was such a strange man hereâ you giggle as he holds you close, placing his chin on top of your head.Â
âJust now, how about we head home? Hm?â He hums as he plays with a strand of your hair, leaning back a little to slide a hand under your chin to tilt your face to his to see your drunken smile with a red flush on your cheeks.Â
âCan we walk a little?â You smile up at him as you slur a little.
âCan you even walk?â He teases in a low tone, âIf you can then sureâÂ
He pays the tab and walks with you out. A hand firmly on your waist to stop you from stumbling when you both walk the streets of Velaris. If anyone even looks at you stumble theyâre met with the glare of the spymaster. You notice a pigeon leaving his arms and make your toward it.Â
Tears stream down your face.Â
Oh fuc- Azriel almost thought you were about to throw up but here you are giving the pigeons coins while crying.Â
âBaby please, heâs homelessâ You give Azriel a longing look as big alligator tears stream down your face.Â
âThe pigeon?â Azreil covers his mouth from laughing, thereâs no way his mate is crying about a bird on the street. This is one of her more normal moments.Â
âYes, and heâs so poor. I mean he had no pockets!â you slurred as your voice cracked feeling so bad for the poor pigeon.
âIâm sure heâs fine love, please leave the pigeon alone,â he says quietly as he pulls you up. Perhaps, winnowing home would be for the best.Â
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Undeniable.
Part two - Insatiable.
Older!Eddie x Fem!Reader.
Heâs your Dadâs best friend but when temptation comes to strong, you just couldnât turn away.
This fic is inspired by the amazing edits of @eddiemunsons-missingnipple, which make me absolutely feral. đ« (pictures used in header created by @eddiemunsons-missingnipple )
Warnings: Thereâs a age gap. Reader is 20, Eddie is in his 30s. Fingering. Choking. Size kink, maybe? (Eddie is big.) Dirty Talk. Eddie is tattooed to the max. Teasing, a lot of smutty goodness. Dirty thoughts and easy temptations, itâs just filthy, babes. đ (let me know if I missed anything)
It started small.
Like a ever present dip that strung low in your stomach, itâs soft, subtle and you almost always missed it. The creep of warmth that prickled the tips of your toes, made your chest bubble like tiny explosions weaving through your bloodstream, left you feeling slightly left of centre with no real reasoning.
It was small, dismissive and evidently so fucking obvious.
You werenât sixteen, freshly twenty, straight out of your adolescence but you were anything but naive. You knew by the second time the feeling had woven itâs way through your hormones like stitching, pulling, twisting, tightening the thread that lead directly to your cuntâ that this was every bit of what you knew it was.
It was wrong. Instinctively and morally, it was everything bad, dangerous and wrong in the world to fragile to even think aboutâ to impulsive, playful, thoughts of sin and lust, desire and temptationâ It was fucking carnage and you wanted to dip your fingers, smooth the rough edges like rippled water, you wanted to ravish and exploreâ let the filth cover your skin like dirt and regret.
You wanted to devour, tempt and play with him.
You could take it. That was no hesitation. Everything he could dish out, you would lick clean and ask for more.
âHey! Look, I got to go, alright?â
The hand waving across your line of vision breaks the border between your subconscious and draws you back to reality.
âYeah, yeah. Of course. Itâs fine, Iâll see you when you get home.â
He shuffles the jacket over his shoulder, the puff slowly dissipates when he zips it all the way up, a concerning smile plays his lips before stuffing the keys into the side pocket and hoisting his bag on his shoulder.
âTry to be good. Itâs a late one, donât think Iâll be back until morning, 6am at best.â
Thereâs a slight wince in his expression, it falls and tugs his frame along with it, the weight shifting his stance when outstretched arms pull you in.
âItâs fine, Dad. I have a whole night planned, full of pizza and shitty movies.â
You run little circles at the middle of his back, the thick jacket restrains most of your touch but he gestures with a smile in response regardless, he huffs a laugh, nods and heads for the front door.
You genuinely felt fucking terrible most days, your Dad loved what he did, strived for the best in all aspects of his career and it was truly admirable but sometimes when the days would turn to weeks and the nights would stretch longer and longer, he felt guilty, leaving you for so long, though every reassurance you noted towards him felt like it fell on deaf ears you tried none the less.
Except this time, you werenât alone.
The gentle hum of water swam through the pipes and trickled like notes through the wall, no, you definitely werenât alone.
The occupied upstairs bathroom was proof of that, housed by one Eddie Munson.
It was like a cruel twist of fate that landed him on your doorstep, like a perfectly timed occurrence when your Dad mentioned that Eddie was in town and would be staying over the weekend.
You had met Eddie before, many times before, see Eddie was your dads best friend. Childhood friends, in-fact.
The pipes creaked, shuttered to a holt when the water turned off. It was like a alarm that vibrated the walls, sent signals telling you to vacate before he came downstairs, telling you to hide. Four minutes. Thatâs exactly how long it took for you to take the gap between Eddie leaving the bathroom and going back to his room. You stumbled upstairs, each step seemingly drifting further apart with each stride until you hit the top, feet planted and making a line straight to your bedroom. It sounded good, planned perfect, down to each second until you collided with something that held resemblance to a brick wall, knocking you clean from your feet.
The patches of water residue seeps through the fabric of your shirt, bleeds and stains your skin underneath but the searing heat that bares the curve of your waist sticks like molten from the hold as Eddie bares your weight, keeping you grounded, keeps you from falling.
You feel the muscle pinch, flex beneath your palm, the water soaking between skin, seeps from one pore to other beneath your hand.
Itâs soft reels of time, like everything is in slow motion, your eyes rake over the sparse of dewy skin coated in a sheen of water, drops leaving tracks as they follow the contours of definition, the inky black images show so much more refine up close, each placed line and shading painted, stained, perfectly across his chest.
Curls cling to the dip in his shoulders, wet ends create a pool in divots of his collar bone, strands of black glisten from the recent actionâ everything is so wet.
Itâs a sickly wet that drys way to quick, beads mirror your face in tiny droplets painted across canvas that you want to reach forward and tasteâ the border between water and salt, the cool on your tongue mixed with the taste of him.
âSorry, I uh, are you okay?â
The wind catches in your throat, sucks any air and words along with it when you finally land in his line of sightâ deep, dark eyes fluttered beneath eyelashes that study you.
âYeah, sorry.â
Itâs a pathetic response, itâs all breath with no voice and it makes you want to sink further than you already were.
âMaybe, I shouldââ
In a instant Eddie letâs go. Hovers slightly to make sure you have your footing but removes himself completely, from touch, from space, stepping backwards. The loss of contact winds you without the actual impact, makes you want to run, makes you want to stay more.
âIâm sorry.â
Eddieâs apology is quiet, knowing.
âNo, please. It was my fault.â
You pull a semblance of a laugh, a dry attempt at trying to lighten the strain that had set in the air. Eddie bites back with a smile, itâs lop sided and it quirks his lips to dimple the hollow of his cheeks.
âItâs good to see you.â
âYeah, you too.â
You canât help it. You smile. Itâs small and shy, makes you dip your head to hide the growing heat that burns to the tips of your ears.
âI was just about to clean up, make a pizza, want to join?â
His voice is thick, syrupy like honey but dark like malt, it bares rough in the back of his throat but cheery none the less. You sense the hope in his words, a strained branch in offering to deescalate the situation so you nod.
âYeah, would love too.â
The painted skull on his throat bobs along with his adams apple when he smiles, reaches behind him and opens the door and youâre quick to take the message, heading back downstairs.
Itâs a mess. The whole kitchen is laid out in flour and dough, ingredients spread across the island, once were in bowls, now a muddled mess of vegetables. Eddieâs got a ball of dough, fingers and knuckles need the springy texture to a mould and heâs helplessly coated in the powdery substance. It clings all the way up to his elbows and flecks decorate his hair.
âAre you laughing at me?â
Eddie side eyes you, the gleam reflects off the light and back into you but you canât help it. You both look a absolute mess.
âCan you blame me? You said you were good at this.â
âHey, I am. We got dough right?â
âYeah, and so does the kitchen floor.â
Thereâs a drop in his expression, a pouty look before he dips his fingers, finds were the flour has collected most and smears your cheek. The white powder blends with your laughter, to slow to avoid his actions, instead you mimic.
Fingers dip into the bag of flour, you watch Eddie hesitantly step backwards, eyes squinted in a daring gaze before you leap forward, your hand smearing white across his shirt, the trail of your hand print perfectly centred on his chest. The walls bounce with laughter, rebound and echo with squeals when Eddie comes for you. You dip and weave managing to duck under his arm before twisting on your heel and feeling the collision of your back into the counter, but that wasnât what caught you off guard.
Somewhere between the push and pull, Eddie had reached across mid duck and when you came back up, cashing in to the counter, Eddie had caught your throat.
It was a obvious mistake, a miss of direction when you twisted the other way but the evident pressure was unmistakable. You whined, a needy gasp that slipped way to quick before you could even try to swallow it back down, the flush of your cheeks burn through the rapid of your heart rate and you lean forward. Against all better fucking judgement, you chase the feeling, you lose yourself in the hallow of boring eyes that look back at you, to far gone in the abyssâ Your mind swept in a fog, dragged by your ankles and left you looking from the outside in.
âShit, Iâm sorry. Fuck.â
Eddie moves quick, takes three steps backwards, hands raised like a wounded soldier.
âNo, no. Youâre okay.â
Itâs breathy and loose, you mask a laugh behind in desperation to carry the banter, not make it awkward, though you very clearly already had.
He laughs but itâs weak, cautious and when he turns to finish working out the discarded dough, you donât miss the slight tremor to his movements, the way he swallows thick.
âSo, how have you been?â
You pick the vegetables, try to place them back in their respective bowls, busy hands keeps your tone lightâ Friendly.
âAh, you know, here there and everywhere. Can never seem to keep my feet planted long enough to enjoy much.â
âMaybe you should settle here. You always seem to drift back.â
You catch him wince slightly and realise maybe it had come across more bitter than intended. You knew Eddie hated it here, ever since high school, or so your dad says.
âIâm sorry, I mean, you just seemââ
âNo.â He laughs. âYouâre right. Itâs like I canât keep away.â
Thereâs a playful hint in his smile when hooded eyes glance your way, just for a second. It settles deep in your stomach, the churn that pulls and tightens.
âItâs okay, if you ask me, the town is cursed.â
He laughs at this, itâs deep and throaty when he nudges your shoulder, reaches across and offers the jar of sauce.
âI think youâre on to something there. So, whatâs kept you?â
You reach across to spread the sauce on the dough, watching the red seep and blend with the stark white, Eddie steps back, lets you manoeuvre in front of him to reach the sides.
âDads wanting me to move to collage.â
You hum in response, evening the sauce into the sides, dipping into places you missed.
âAnd what do you want to do?â
It rumbles like a distant thunderstorm, his breath seeps across your neck from behind you, the warmth pricks bumps along your skin. The slight brush of his chest makes contact with your back, sends your mind deeper into oblivion.
âI, uh, I donât know yet. Maybe travel.â
âHere.â
Eddie reaches around, leans into you as he guides your hand in smooth circles.
âItâs easier if you cover the whole area in one motion, the sauce will spread more easily.â
His chest moves in perfect waves as he breaths, the pressure pressing into your back with each inhale and it only sends yours into unease. Each lined breath comes short and uneven, itâs a wall thatâs compressed against your rib cage, shrinks with every small move, slowly suffocating.
You nod back, willing yourself to pull some kind of composure but when his hand holds yours steady against the wavier of motion, just the view of his hand engulfing yours, sends your hormones in active overdrive.
âThatâs it. Just like that.â
Itâs over. Your heart shutters to a complete skip, missing several beats as your pussy throbs. Itâs a dull ache that nips painfully and if you donât find a way out now, you werenât going to be able to stop.
âAre you okay?â
Eddieâs now leaning over you, his hair fans your shoulders, the angle of his words ring like a perfectly chimed bell through your ears as he runs a pad of his thumb over your knucklesâ The task of spreading sauce long forgotten.
You instinctively lean into his touch, your throat catches on dry air, leaving a strangled groan to brush your lips. If it werenât for Eddie keeping your hand so stable, youâd be a complete fucking wreck.
âAm I reading this wrong?â
No, god no.
âEddie..â
âJust say the word, Iâll back off.â
No, please. Donât.
âI donâtââ
âWeâll forget it ever happened. Go back to normal.â
But, I want it too happen.
âNo, please. Eddie.â
Your hips sink backwards, finds the dip between his thighs and you grind, itâs slow and pitiful, pulls the most needy whine from your lips. Breath is sucker punched from the hollow of your chest, a tension snapped after it had been so far strung out and the gasp that hinders in your throat when Eddie pushes back has all reason bailed and running for the door.
âFuck.â
The spoon is long discarded and Eddieâs now got both palmâs following the contour of your waist, his fingers dip in to the curve of your frame, touching and teasing the exposed skin.
Itâs a helpless battle of push and pull, your heads rolled so far back it now sits in the dip of Eddieâs shoulder, while his hands play puppet along the underside of your breastsâ curious palms test the water, squeeze the soft skin underneath, lengthy fingers creep to come full circle and caress you. The warmth spreads like wildfire through your veins, the pinch of fingers as he toys with your nipples has your mouth gapped and hiccuping gasps of air, it all feels like fire and ice and it makes you strain harderâ Your hips arching painfully back in search of friction as his ever present bulge presses harder back, looking for one of the same.
âJesus Christ.. Fuck.â
Eddie groans into the sparse of your throat, the mumbled words pressed into flesh when he moans around the soft of your throat. Teeth graze, pinch, bite. Sink so deep that the skin threatens to break, itâs a purple stain that bleeds instead.
âFuck, Eddie. Please.â
Itâs a complete fucking disarray when Eddie takes hold of your waist, fingertips bruise when he spins you around and hooks two palms under the back of your thighs, lifting you up like you were nothing. Your ankles meet at the small of his back, your hands graze the definition of muscle along his arms when they link around his neck. Your ass perfectly cupped in strong hands and you can absolutely feel the mess created between your thighs. Itâs soft and wet, humming with pressure that begs for release and when Eddie places you on the opposite counter, needy hands drag you to the edge, itâs a collision of lips and teeth.
âI canât believe Iâm doing this.â
A fight for air between heated kisses, Eddieâs forehead rests against yours as his fingers work at unloosing your jeans.
Black eyes bore into yours, itâs a pit of lust and desire, the edges burning with flames when he mutters the sentence, each lingering stare silently asks permission with every pop of button he releases and you simply moan back in response, in approval.
An arm slings around your waist, Eddie hoists you up slightly, enough to get a pull on your jeans and pull he does. The thick material drags down your thighs and gets tossed at his ankles.
Eddieâs taken two steps back, enough room to give way to remove your pants and underwear, now, heâs standing thereâ All tall and built. Heâs not overly muscular, toned, but his presence is big and demanding. In one swift motion, Eddie reaches behind him, grips a handful of material and effortlessly slips it over his shoulders and head, leaves him in low hanging sweatsâ A curtain of curls follow suit, leaving the strays still damp to cling to the dip of his temples. The display of tattoos is mesmerising, his torso, chest all littered in black and white art, tales of storyâs and pictures of momentsâ Itâs absolutely beautiful.
âLike what you see, sweetheart?â
Thereâs a dark ring to his tone, it pulls from the back of his throat is a rasp, a growl almost.
You nod your head, all dumb and shy, feels like youâre drunk just from the view.
âFuck, baby. You canât do that.â
You whimper, small and needy, watch as his cock twitches beneath his pants.
Eddie does growl this time. Itâs predatory and deep, has you white knuckling the edges of the counter when he comes closer. Your whole body is limp on impulse, reacting to the man in front of you. You knew how you must look, all drawn out and needy, not exactly how you expected to play this out but the tables quickly turned when Eddie shown a slight hint of dominance.
âWhat did I say?â
Eddieâs hand comes to cradle the side of your throat, gentle, holds you there while he nuzzles into the latter side, breathes in the scent. Heâs slotted perfectly between your thighs, a puzzle piece meant to be, and his painfully hard bulge presses into where you are most vulnerable.
âYouâll have to remind me. I forgot.â
Itâs absolutely dripping in tease, has your confidence spiked and you wanted to test the waters, see how just how far you could sink before you drown.
âDonât fucking play with me, baby girl.â
âAh, Eddie!â
Teeth hook into your throat, skin pinches when he releases, slides his hand to cover the front of your throat.
âMm. A little fight in you, huh?â
The pressure is evident, itâs spreads across your throat where fingers pinch the sides, tips your head back to bring your vision to his and it feels so fucking good. Your body tingles all over, feels like thereâs a flood baring through your bloodstream, making everything heightenedâ sensitive.
Even if you wanted to fight back, you couldnât. The palm encasing your throat kept its firm hold and the desperate whine that leaves your lips was anything but expected when you felt Eddieâs latter hand smooth up your thigh. Itâs a trail that burns, leaves behind a tingling sensation that scorns your skin. Eddieâs fingertips graze the slit of your lips, teases the sensitive flesh and when the pad of his thumb rolls over your clit, so do your eyes, falling helplessly into your head as the wave of euphoria blankets your senses.
âNa uh, baby, look at me.â
Eddieâs fingers dip into your entrance, your slick making it to easy while his thumb stays steady circling your clit. The intrusion has the walls of your pussy fluttering, they clench around the thickness of his fingers, drawing them in to the knuckles.
Your head falls forward, caught by his grip as hooded eyes strain to focus on the man in front of you.
âThatâs it. Good girl.â
His eyes swallow you whole, pull you in head first and you had no plans on stopping it. Eddieâs fingers find a pace, pumping in and out of you, his thumb never leaving your clit. Your entire body trembles from the high, your senses so far on alert that it has you internally screaming. Your stomach washes in waves, the draw of pleasure been brought to the surface, you can feel the bubble, the drop.
âOh god, Eddie.â
The curl of his fingers has you tipping over the edge, your pussy fights with every draw of his fingers, the heated pressure against your throat sends you further. Itâs all a collision of white heat and pleasure, has you babbling and moaning complete chaos.
âOh fuck, Eddie. Iâm going toââ
âEyes on me, baby. I want to watch you.â
The second your vision locks with his, youâre brought down in crashing waves. Your pussy contracts, leaves your thighs shaking. Itâs intense and hard, the release rushes through your system in a whirlwind, boils your blood and leaves your head in a blissed out fog.
Eddie removes his hand from around your throat then his fingers, slowly. Letâs the ride of your orgasm slow before placing the two fingerâs between plush lips. His tongue darts out, swirls and sucks the evidence of your cum from his fingers. Itâs a fucking sight to see, dark eyes follow your motion before he releases with a soft pop.
You absolutely should be completely fucked out, your body heavy is evidence of it but the need still claws in the pit of your stomach, the hunger that bleeds and screams for more.
You reach out and pull Eddie back in, your ass slipping further to the edge from the slick created when your mouths meet in a tangled mess of lips and breath. You wanted to feel him, taste him. You wanted to explore and trace and Jesus Christ, you just couldnât get enough. Your hands weave in a knot in his hair, groans vibrate through his chest at the action as you abandon one hand to reach between you both. Finding the hardness that hid beneath his pants, eager hands work through to slip between the barrier of material and skin.
âAh, Jesus. Oh fuck.â
Eddie moans against your lips and you smile in response. Your hand sinks and wraps around his length, your palm working in slow strokes, doing what you could with how much you had to work with. Eddie was big. Thick and lengthy. Youâd be lucky if your fingers could touch around the girth and as Eddie fucks up into your hand, you realise just how much bigger he was.
âJesus Eddie.â
You hadnât really need to say it, Eddie knew.
You break from the kiss, slip your other hand out from his hair and tug the left side of his pants down. Eddie chuckles, helps the process by pushing the remainder down, his cock still grasped in your hold and fuck where you right.
Eddie wraps a hand around yours, uses the other to hook a finger under your chin and dips his head into your line of vision.
âYou doinâ okay, sweetheart?â
Thereâs humour in his tone. Your eyes are blown out when you nod, smile. Spreading your legs wider with invitation.
Eddie places both hands to cup your face, presses forward and you feel the gentle nudge of his cock spread your pussy. It slips perfectly, your slick making easy way when he breaks the head in. The stretch burns, itâs subtle but there and when he inches further your throat breaks out in a pitiful cry.
âYouâre doing good, baby.â
Eddieâs forehead rests against yours, his gaze holds yours in reassurance when he presses further. Itâs unmistakable the width that your pussy is being stretched, its a mix of pain and euphoria, leaving behind the most delicious throb.
âThatâs it, baby. Youâre taking me so well.â
âOh, Eddie. Fuck.â
Eddieâs thumbs run the pad of your cheeks when he bottoms out, you whimper against the movement, the pain easing from discomfort to pleasure and it courses through your system like a new high all over again.
Eddie draws out and thrusts back in, his rhythm is steady, slow. Each drag pulls new waves, each one has you moaning for more. The pleasure undeniable, it brings forwards a hunger that seemed to be starved, a pulsating heat that hooks your arms around his neck and has Eddieâs palms resting on your thighs, spreading you further. Itâs absolutely filthy the image in front of you. You watch Eddieâs cock disappear in the hollow of your pussy between your legs, fingerprints stain your thighs as Eddie picks up the pace, his hips crashing against yours in a wet collision.
âJesus H Christ, youâre so tight.â
Eddieâs tattoos flex along with his thrusts, the pictures and words dance across his skin, the black ink shining with sweat.
âFuck, oh my god.â
âAh, right there, oh fuck.â
Eddieâs railing you with relentless force, itâs a sticky wet fucking mess, echos of skin and moans bounce around you and his cock feels so fucking good. Your chest hammers against your rib cage, air seems to be long gone with every thrust. His curls stick to the creases of his forehead, his eyes watching you intently, almost possessive.
Your hands weave into the back of his hair and settle just at the nape, knuckles knot around the curls and you pull, Eddieâs head jars back momentarily and when he comes back to eye level thereâs a flare of desire that bares straight to your centre, ignites a wildfire.
âFuck, you have no idea what you do to me.â
Eddie grits out between teeth, the rumble in his tone matches the harsh imprints his hands leave upon your thighs, blunt nails scarring the skin.
âShow me, god, please.â
Itâs down right fucking pornographic the moan Eddie emits, he wraps his arms around your waist and without falter, without removing himself he lifts you from the counter and lays you out on the floor beneath.
Before you even tried to protest, Eddie has your legs hooked over his shoulders, your knees press to your chest as he fucks into you. Itâs deeper, the thrust of his cock hits the soft of your pussy and has you throwing your head back, even the contact with the harsh floor doesnât registerâ Just Eddieâs cock sending you into complete fucking meltdown.
âLike this. Mâ want you spread wide fucking open.â
Heâs not shy, he pounds away with force and perfect precision, dips his head into the curve of your neck and his moans are like the perfect melody, ringing loud and hard.
âOh fuck, Eddie. Jesus.â
âLet go, baby. Let me fucking feel you.â
Your stomach churns, the warmth bubbling with one last thrust into your soft spot and it has you clenched tight around his cock. Your orgasm baring down like a earthquake, leaving your thighs trembling and your body fucked out.
âFuck, good girl, you feel so fucking good.â
Your pussy is soaking, Eddie fucks your orgasm right to the very edge, coats his along too. His thrusts wavier, you feel his cock swell and you reach out, grip his waist and urge him deeper.
âShit, fuck, Iâm going to cum baby.â
His eyes search yours in a hasty need, searching, asking.
âIâm covered, fill me up Eddie, please.â
Itâs bares more a whine than a moan, the desperation drawn on every word.
âHoly fuck.â
You feel the hot substance coat the inside of your pussy, Eddieâs release seeping into the most intimate parts and itâs has you on cloud fucking nine.
Eddie sinks above you, his weight rests lightly above yours, the air is thick and humid, filled with heavy pants for air and raspy ends of lingering moans. Eddie rolls over, loops an arm and takes you with him, curled up beside him, tangled in arms and legs and itâs absolute bliss.
Eddie chuckles softly, nudges into the crook of your neck.
âWell, fuck.â
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