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its so weird when like you judt kind of accept something happened 2 u and was real and then later remember you were dreaming
#this one isnt avtually srs tho it seems. as a kid i Constantly dreamt abt a magical little door in my great grand closet#that led to this big field with a dilapdidated barn on the other side and i would run around there and occasionally be chased#but it wasnt real. yk#and then more recently i dreamt i hsd a rly weird like. Probably gross to describe but it was weird#it was like a rly bad like. Gigantic acne Thing on my right cheek#and in my dream last night (ive had this in dreams for a bit) i finally like. got rid of it. and it looked Naaaaasty but that didnt avtually#happen i just realized bc i touched my face. sigh.#this is very constanttho. esp nowadays a lot of my dreams have me waking up and just sort of scrolling on my phone#or feeding the cats. or things i acrually do
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amanda investing in crypto. already shocking. amanda actually making some money off of crypto. DEEPLY shocking. wild.
#amanda lehan canto#smosh#g o d askfjsgjsjgjksjvjdjdnf#anyway kids. shayne is right and for most people crypto is going to be akin to gambling. so. yk. treat it accordingly.#also as someone who works w/ software if you cram 'crypto' into shit know i am Judging You So Hard#people buying it is kind of like. well. 🤷♀️ if people arent well versed in technology/treat it as the gambling it is then yk#but you motherfuckers selling it as a solution to problems that arent real.. you know who you are and im coming to kick ur ass#that and blockchain... you vc assholes HAD to have known blockchain WASNT SUPPOSED TO BE USED LIKE THAT... CMON....
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I at once spurred alongside Raffles, as he rode, bronzed and bearded, with warworn wideawake over eyes grown keen as a hawk’s, and a cutty-pipe sticking straight out from his front teeth. I can see him now, so gaunt and grim and debonair, yet already with much of the nonsense gone out of him, though I thought he only smiled on my misgivings. -The Knees of the Gods
#letters from bunny#crime and cricket#aj raffles#lfb#tbh i struggle to have fun w this one#especially in this middle bit where its just War Adventure Story like. egh#i like a lot of it a lot as like. a narrative and what it does for bunny and raffles' arcs#but the colonialism/patriotism is just so much#and its not even like jubilee cup where its at least silly and fully fictional#its a real conflict that was pointless and cruel#idk its frustrating bc theres a lot of KNEE that i care abt very much but. ughghgh i wish it wasnt what it is yk#edit fwiw ik a lot of these tags r negative and also notnrly relevant to the drawing sjdjdh#at the end of the day i Do like knee and i like how this drawing turned out !#its just wat i was thinking abt while working on it#and looking up refs for the uniform especially#british military history is uhhh bad?
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Nothing funnier to me than a fansite that horrifically white washes pics of the guys until they genuinely look like walking corpses but then will have DO NOT EDIT in all their captions like baby.... if there's anyone here who should have the editing software taken away, it's you...
#see this is where i might potentially have a controversial opinion#bc while i 100% always link back to twt videos or pics from concerts and stuff#bc i think its the polite and fair thing to do#i also find the DO NOT EDIT DO NOT REPOST stuff slightly silly#just bc ypure taking pictures of famous people and posting them on the internet like.... people are going to#i think putting credit is 100% the right thing to do but also if i ever went to a show and took a pic that wasnt a total blur#id p much expect others to save it and do stuff with it bc thats just how the internet works#also somehow pics taken at the airport and other invasive places with those captions especially make me laugh like you can go mob them#and take those pics but also expect everyone else to respect your copyright or something?#like at least with concert stuff its expected to take videos so i really do believe you shpuld link back#bc its like wow thank you for taking that video and sharing that funny moment with the rest of us#but some of it im like Nah be for real#like yeah always link back to op when applicable but its not always applicable yk#and white washers dont deserve anything at all
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i remember on my playthrough through uty and the true pacifist route when clover gave up their soul i was like "no guys stay please :(" as everyone left because i didnt want clover to be alone when they died. then i was like "well i guess its ultimately their choice. :( rip clover" and then i put my hand on the screen because i still wanted them to be kinda comforted. idk i think about that sometimes
#the ipad is dead chat#obviously clover is fictional and just a character in a game and definitely did not feel anything bc it wasnt real but like#wow...............#i mean in that one secret flowey dialogue its implied the player is in fact relevant so theres that#but yk#whatever bruh
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spent the first hour and change at work deleting some old files and am having a grand ol time laughing at myself for not realizing i was a lesbian sooner
#vulnerable tag rambles ahead please be kind abt them i didnt intent to ramble this much but i dont wanna delete it eitehr#me to every single man i have ever dated after 6mo-1y: yeah hey this really isnt working out i dont really know why but i really hate mysel#and i dont want to blame you because i dont think you did anything inherently wrong here; i think this is something about me but i need#space to figure out why im feeling this way [every single one reacted by telling me No i wasnt allowed to leave btw]#i hold very complex feelings about these relationships esp bc of them ending in very violent/chaotic ways most of the time#but its interesting to look back at it all and realize ive left every man for the same reason (which is that ive hated myself Every Single#Time ive dated a man) and its funny bc i recognized the self hate pretty early on w/ cishet men but when it came to queer men it was#much more confusing (esp w/ nto knowing Any lesbians at that point in my life). im so happy im a lesbian tbh#i have a lot of issues w/ the racism fatphobia and transmisogyny present in lesbian groups#and also coming out as a lesbian really truly saved my life. before i met my wife i was quite literally in a 3yr abusive relationship that#definitely would have died in if i hadnt realzied i was a lesbian and ran from him#its also weird seeing liek the hard evidence of the things that happened to me btween 2016-2020 tbh#cause that was such a bad time of my life. i truly dont know how i survived it but im so glad i did#like the three major relationships in my life b4 meeting my wife was: guy who was in college when i was in HS who stalked me when i left;#guy who was a year younger than me who cheated on me the entire time while telling me he was being victimized (he wasnt; this was very mess#guy who saw the very messy toxic ldr i was in and helped me dump my ex then decided that meant we were in a relationship [insert 3 yrs here#and admittedly all 3 years with him werent the same level of abusive but it was definitely unhealthy from the start considering I Didnt Kno#we were together until he wanted to celebrate vday and got mad i didnt know our anniversary - and like this isnt including the other stuff#that happened between those Relatonships[tm] (cause ive never been monogamous; these were just the Major Relationships)#like i genuinely think if i hadnt come out i'd be dead rn given just how dangerous my relationships were/continued getting#i am also so tired now that ive seen all this cause like. fuck i can barely believe it and i not only lived it but have PTSD about it#i should write about my life sometime. i feel like it'd be cathartic to try and make a tangible timeline and stories from the years ang stu#anyway yeah. be nice about the tag rambles. dont message me with pity or curiosity or anything about this. i dont usually talk abt this stu#publicly bc i hate the ways ppl start tryign to baby me when they realize my life has been extremely fucked up until only a few years ago#n im still working on accepting kindness from others bc of [insert life traumas here] but its a long process so pls respect my need for jus#being heard rn w/o too much pressure< 3 (but ig if u do read this can u like it cause i feel a little crazy seeing all the evidence of the#stuff i experienced now also cause fuck ik logically it was but also i cant believe it was all real still yk)
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damn... kinda mad i didn't die in my dream last night... could've added another method to the list
#all that 'oh god im gonna die' dream stress for Nothing smh#got stabbed... i mean it was kinda my own damn fault but also was it? was it.#it was absolutely fault when the blade had to be removed but yk. didnt die so it was whatever#shaking a fist at last night's dream like COWARD!!!#what was Interesting though was upon waking up#i was still kinda dozing and i held my position#and i was very careful moving as to not jostle the knife. Not Realizing Yet. that that was a dream and was now awake#there is no knife in ba sing se#but damn. gnarly#usually i dont have to go through the whole 'coming to terms with my imminent demise' in these sort'a dreams#its typically Fast#the longest dream-death ive ever had was that one where i got shot#but even that wasnt That long#its just that the others are usually immediate. and non-wound based#absolutely unprompted#sorry to dream post but Hey tumblr blog is my personal diary. To Me <3#its weird tho that this is the second time ive had a death or death-adjacent dream#where i woke up convinced that it was Real#knife wound.... legit asking myself if im dead after another... fun stuff!#these dreams are very interesting. in a morbid way i enjoy them
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Fuck if I think about the lore for too long the Implications start to loom over me and then I want to do nothing except lay down
#just. the tyler/clancy character specifically. how fucking sad all of it is. how sad HE is. he was clearly broken in dema during sai so he#started to hallucinate josh to feel less lonely... someone who he hadnt even known for that long...#wait so is navigating the first time theyre seeing each other again since tyler's latest capture? i need to rewatch the music videos again..#but like. think about it.#you meet this guy again who has been your best friend in the past years- who has been by your side all this time but you havent been there#with him bc he wasnt REALLY with you yk#just#the realisation that he did all of that. alone. no wonder why he seemed overconfident in overcompensate...#he was so lonely. how can i exist like this.#it's so fascinating how well they pull the “he wasnt real” plot twist off so damn well#the story itself is amazing but the delivery is on another level#nothing can and will compare to the way this story is being told#twenty øne piløts#twenty one pilots#tøp#tøp clique#the skeleton clique#clancy#clancy album#tøp lore#tøp spoilers
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Sometimes I think I should just have this as my banner so I don't have to keep explaining this every time I talk about liking Elise as a character or like 06 at all
#trash rambles#sonic 06#the thing is i dont even have a problem with this scene other than the kiss#like idk#i feel like it wouldve been a million times less weird if theyd made it like#a forehead kiss or something#or like#made it kinda like the revival scene in tangled? like? tear based? yk?#or just not have that bit at all cus it wasnt the kiss that brings him back#so theres no real point of it being in there other than to force a romance plot that dosent really read well#idk i just have a lot of thoughts
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lmao looking at her insta highlights was a mistake
#i feel worse WHY DOES SHE HAVE TONED MUSCLES UGHHH#also my confidence has gone down a tiny bit bc why is she hanging out w all these cool ppl#how is this girl simultaneously a lawyer and also has her social life on max like give me a break#thered a photo of her walking around in heaven either before closing or after opening shes sooo#HOWEVER. i just had a call w her yesterday that made me realise my idea of romance is more romantic than her idea of romance#but also that she doesnt want to do smth super romancey on a 3rd date which according to my friends is fair but according to my heart#it is not. like why are u on a date if u dont wanna do anything romancey at that point just hang out w friends#odd of her to say that too considering our first two dated were quite romantic . anyway#yo this cafe is playing persian music nice. anyway yh#also she makes being middle eastern so gay yk the goodbye fake cheek kiss thing we do . where u like . kiss the air on the sides of the#persons face when ur saying goodbye. ygwim . yeah she doesnt do the fake air kisses she gives u two tender kisses like . anyway#i discussed the stuff she does w my friend and like why r her words so aloof and her actions so...not . and my friends reaction was#basically this is fuckboy behaviour. apparently he used to do that to girls ?? like tell them he rly liked them#and be all charming and romantic even tho he rly wasnt invested at all and he mostly wanted to hook up. like ok#im gonna kill myself then. why would u stroke my hair w my head on ur LAP THEN. WHAT IF SHE TURNS AROUND AND IS LIKE#oops it was nothing#....ill kms actually. no i womt. but anyway#also got added to the gc w the other lecturers givjng talks on the 6th so its getting more real#my friend was like did u do the script yet :))) . almost died shes so scary i love her . but . fuck two exams . crush. talk. ucl cambrdige#three conferences aaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAA im so anxious i dont even feel anything atp#......I HAVE NO MONEY!!! TO TOP IT OFF#my crush and i are both iranian (aka born w extremely expensive taste woven into our genes) but i wanna like#treat her w the entire 2 quid in my bank account ig ♡♡♡#crushposting
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love paying thousands of dollars so I can sit in a lecture hall and over think my identity instead of maths
#its like. god idk. the more i think about it the more i feel like i have to accept that i am just aroace?#and the more i realise i really dont want that to be true?#it just. feels so fucking lonely#like. god.#all my friends are in relationships and im not. everyone was talking about childhood crushes yesterday and i just couldn't join in. we were#fillimg out these identity chart things and there just. wasnt an option for what i was#relationships are always going to be more important than friendships and that makes sense. i get that. but that also means im always going#to be lesser to someone else#like yes amato/allonormativity is bullshit and i shouldnt listen to it but. fuck its depressing feeling like im just missing a core part of#what makes someone a real person yk. it fucking sucks#like i think im already sensitive to that bc growing up trans and neurodivergent means i already feel like ive missed out on so many#milestones#and now i have this. and im always going to have this. and it fucking sucks#like idk!! i wanna date!! i want someone to care about me in that way!! but ill never be able to do that without feeling like im decieving#them so whats the fucking point yk!!#like im just overexaggerating the few hints of sexuality i have now to at least try to pretend i have one#because at least then i can be included in those conversations and not feel like a lesser person for those few seconds#but then it changes. and im back to feeling like a freak and half of a person !! and i feel like a freak and gross whenever i di exaggerate#my sexualoty at all so yk. no winning there ig#god idk#this got uh. more depressing than i thought#i think i just already feel lowkey like shit constantly so this just makes it worse?#idk. im too tired for this shit#thumbsup#i swear im normal
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Thinks abt how the one person in my family I really relate to and respect settled in her marriage and later wakes up in a cold sweat
#'i mean he's not emotional and open and super loving but he works hard and can provide and i decided that was worth it'#good god.#im really glad that im no longer married to. well. the idea of marriage lol#and a home n kids#like it would be nice if i found my dream person#but i simply cannot afford to settle#my soul cannot handle settling for anything less than my dreams and genuinely if im alone forever than so be it#i can give myself everything i want!#i just could never forgive myself if i settled and god forbid had kids w someone i wasnt 100% sure of#i will not recreate the family i grew up in.#if i do have kids i want them to know their parents are madly in love and happy#and the idea of this dream person is so Fun but also it can just be a dream yk#ive learned a lot thru this and thru talking w more adults abt heartbreak etc and just.#wow.#so many ppl settle cos they're scared of being alone or see it as a failure#and i just cant do that. id rather be single forever than settle i really would#the way ppl live is so fascinating idk#i 💗 old women#my real dream is to be a cool old woman lmao#kdjfhshdhfkglahfk#like im a man now but idk if i'll be an old man its hard to explain
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No because Zhao speculating felt like such a
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"I bet you're wondering why that happened. ;) heres maybe a reason ebina was deep..."
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no literally- like other antags' endgame Deep Moment scenes worked because there was SOME build up throughout the game to key us in on them from a deeper level but it just doesnt work with ebina
#iw spoilers#spoilers#snap chats#a big part To Me really is because hes just an aoki clone like its really not something to look over when its so half-assed#they did have his flashback and backstory but like .. i repeat it just feels like such a lame plot twist ...#a plot twist that could have been really interchangeable ... before i get into the orphan-under-kazama rant again..#YK1 nishiki got his build up from watching his added backstory scenes and even the scenes with yumi in the beginning#yk where its clear yumi gives more attention to kiryu#ryuji .. ok i mean tbf he was majorly there to fuck around he wasnt trying to be overly deep but even he still has his issues#HE STILL AT LEAST HAD A PRESENCE and even so his moment with kaoru was real sweet .. big bro ryuji my beloved im cryin ...#like a character doesnt have to be OVERLY deep to be fun/enjoyable i love ryuji ... hi king ... im getting off topic ....#MINE-- //is pulled off stage before i get into it//#and aoki is built up from the arakawa's accounts of him coupled with his Dog Eats Dog mentality and esp that NYE flashback#that shot of the No Dumping sign lives in my mind forever .... so good im going to kill myself thinking bout aoki bye ...#im rambling point is Do Better RGG what happened. the stories and characters had been bangers from 0 to 7 to gaiden and then. ???
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I CAN’T BELIEVE I FELL FOR THIS. YOU’RE THE KIND OF GIRL THAT LIKES TO GET FUCKED WHILE YOUR BOYFRIEND GETS EATEN ALIVE. MY MOTHER WARNED ME ABOUT GIRLS LIKE YOU !
#of montreal#kevin barnes#false priest#skeletal lamping#georgie fruit#girl named hello#I LOVE THAT PART SO MUCH ITS RANDOM BUT KIND OF 😳😳#LIKE WHYD HE SAY THAT#i wish i wasnt a child when false priest tour was a thing Sighhhhhhh…#jus look up kevin barnes has sex with (people in) pig (costumes)#i dont know why the uploaders didntf specify that they were COSTUMES but yk. they are costumes. the titles are so scary though#thank you kevin barnes for inventing uh. actually no you probably didnt invent the unsuspected vorecuckhold ? idk what youd call that#ANYWAYS.#false priest good why did they hate it so bad when it came out. kills all the critics i think you just hate fun#its such a banger fr fr#like when you do mutilate comes on i transform into a transgender werewolf in real life Trust
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i would be wayyyyyyy more likely to see tim pursuing higher education if he had graduated high school (~*new earth continuity post*~). bc what he did like about school was socializing with peers and the aspect of normalcy and like... hes absolutely not going to re-enroll back in hs atp. hed have to get his GED. and he... could do that. but he'd have to be motivated enough to want to go to college enough to schedule the GED i think months in advance plus needing to wait for the next semester of whatevwr gotham community college hes looking at to start... And Also the very high chance that he would miss his appointment for the test LMAO like it would be incredibly on brand for him to sleep through it or like be stuck in, idk, brussels or someplace on a mission and misremember the time difference. furthermore after a certain point hes gonna start feeling like he missed his window particularly if what he *actually* wants is to be around normal ppl his age and feel tethered... like at that point just go see if ives has a tabletop rpg thing going u can join baby yk
#like the normal reasons (enjoying it/connections/training/certifications) arent like#like he learns better in different environments and the thing he liked abt school was socializing/normalcy#and uh. hes absolutely not going to go for a job that needs a bachelors degree or more &#as for networking. Well. gestures#i do tend to think he drops the wayne hyphenation at least on an unofficial level but#either its still there on his drivers license or was there once! yk! so#like college is just not a very practical choice for him personally and like#i also think the attendance issue would be a Big issue#tim struggled quite a bit even in hs which has a regular schedule n structure... even if he wasnt a vigilante i think hed have+#a real bitch of a time getting to all his classes. not just 8am class hubris hed take a nap after his 10am and sleep thru his 4pm#he could do it if he had to or rly rly wanted to but. why would he tbh#dc
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Heyyy, You are kinda cool you know? /Gen
And you are obviously a boy pretending to have been born a girl/hj
teehee
i cant tell if thats giving me gender euphoria dysphoria or norhting
yeha its giving me nothing sorries 😔
#cat's asks#let me do a lil ranty#so you see#i like being born a girl#its nice#has its perks#but i also like being a boy#because its also nice#and it makes me happpier than being a girl#but i dont really mind not being a “real” boy because i wasnt born one#yk?#guh#anyways#idk how to explain
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