#let me do a lil ranty

[catinasink]

Heyyy, You are kinda cool you know? /Gen

And you are obviously a boy pretending to have been born a girl/hj

teehee

i cant tell if thats giving me gender euphoria dysphoria or norhting

yeha its giving me nothing sorries 😔

[engelfeather]

Whats a g/t trope y'all genuinely hate, but is considered a "hot take"

For me it's borrower stories, specifically those that always follow the same formula and never get creative.

As in, borrower is outside looking for food or smt, somehow gets into a situation where they are trapped, human finds them, borrower is scared and tries to flee, yet gets trapped under a glsss, with the human assuring them that they're kind and won't harm them. Then after a few chapters, the borrower leaves behind all the fear they held for humans and becomes close friends with them (this especially throws me off whenever the borrower has had a friend or a family member be killed by a human). They usually also meet their friends who are also super nice.

I understand that most humans wouldn't be out here tormenting a tiny person they found, but I honestly don't get the hype behind stories where it's only fluff and basically almost always the same plot.

The human characters are usually the most boring to read about, which is a huge let down for me. Especially as, it feels weird that I've yet to see a borrower story where the human genuinely freaks out that a tiny person has been watching them all along.

I mean how disturbing is it to know that you were being watched all this time, that you were never truly alone. Including in moments where you were feeling down.

For more interesting prompts, you could have the human actually be someone insane, that sees the borrower as nothing more than another experiment or something to exploit for money, with the borrower showing them that they are sentient, yet, perhaps, due to sn inability to understand each other, the humans doesn't understand what they're doing.

Or

Have the borrower have a whole web of crime with other borrowers, where they purposefully steal things from humans to make their days just a little more upsetting. Getting back at them for, maybe, having hunted them in the past. Have borrowers actually be evil little gremlins or something.

Heck, maybe even have the two be criminals, with the borrower helping breaking into people's houses and spying on them, to see who has the best stuff to steal from and the human doing the rest.

And if you do give your borrower a sadder backstory, please please please let them deal with their trauma and not completely remove it for fluff. Have them have moments where they feel inferior and break down, rushing back to their holes regardless of if the human is being nice or not. Let the human get frustrated with the borrower for not fully trusting them, not knowing the full story. LET THEM HAVE TENSE MOMENTS WITH EACH OTHER. I WANT TO SEE THEM FIGHT

MAKE THEM HAVE CLASHING PERSONALITIES WHERE THEY OFTEN GET INTO HEATED ARGUMENTS

Idfkanyway hope you liked this silly lil ranty rant I wrote. No hate to anyone who writes borrower stories, considering my own story has borrower elements.

-Lucky

[spangelmybeloved]

Do you all know what time it is? Well, it's about 3:15 pm here. But that's not what I mean. What I mean is... It's Spicy Opinion™ Time!

Today I want to talk about something I hear a lot. (I don't know if any of you have heard it a lot. But wow have I.)

It's gonna get just a lil bit ranty here so buckle up.

"People (read: anti-spike peeps and/or Angel fans) only like Angel because he appeals to the male fantasy!" Um.

No.

I'm a big fan or Angel. (I'm not anti Spike, let me be clear about that.) Despite the fact that I'm a part time man (read: genderfluid), I can't say that this is why I like Angel.

The male fantasy?

Really?

(AtS S1E3 In the Dark. Got tortured by Spike)

(BtVS S2E10, What's My Line Pt. 2. Weakened by sun, tortured by Spike and Dru, then had the life sucked out of him by Spike and Dru)

(BtVS S2E22 Becoming pt. 2. Stabbed and sent to Hell.)

Ah, yes. The male fantasy. (sarcasm)

Ok. So maybe I'm being a bit sarcastic and not taking this 100% seriously but this is such a wacky take to me.

There are other reasons that people might like Angel. For example, thinking his character arc is interesting, find him cute or endearing, relating to him in some way, or even just thinking he has good fashion sense.

I dunno. Maybe this post doesn't make a ton of sense. Oh well.

[chaoticspacefam]

Just a lil heads up for folks that don't follow my main and/or the ranty tags on my main: my meatsuit (aka my body) is committing serious mutiny a LOT lately and sometimes even writing out tags is Too Much for me. So I haven't been able to play swtor, or draw/write anything, for Months now and it's showing no signs of letting up just yet.

There's still just over 100 posts in the queue on this blog so you're not in danger of having NOTHING from me for.....a few months yet? I think?? But just in case I DON'T get another good pain day where I can sit down and add more to the queue (I did a bit this morning, I'm tired now, this post will be the last one I do for the next few days probably) and it does run out, I wanted to say something so yall don't think I just dipped or whatever. I'm still Here it's just everything Hurts and stuff is Hard lmao

[thinittowin]

ed changed presentation and I fucking hate it

There is like quite a large tw on this because idk what I'm gonna type yet but it's gonna be ranty and explain my different presentations in the past and present. There are dates for timelines but no mentions of weight (aside from title of highest, lowest, current)

Let's start with i am undiagnosed to the best of my knowledge (sometimes doctors here will diagnose you and not tell you). I have bounced between restrictive and overeating tendencies since I was about 12 (20 now) and it got super bad when I was 15. "Recovered" by myself (ie i weight restored after threats to be brought to a dietitian) but prior to this i was not eating much at all. I'm diabetic and would purposely make my blood sugar go low so I had an "excuse" to eat.

I've bounced moreso between over and under eating since aug of 2020. My highest weight made me so uncomfortable (Jan 2021), especially after being at a point where I was okay with how I looked. I would've liked to weigh less or be thinner but I wasn't overly unhappy.

Since Jan 2021, I've been struggling a lot more with thoughts of restriction but I can't seem to get to the same ability to restrict as lil 15 year old me. I know I shouldn't want to. I shouldn't need to. I just really want to get back to that weight. My body was fucked. I couldn't eat without my stomach hurting. I couldn't go to school without needing a three hour nap afterwards. I was so tired. My hair was falling out. My nails were so brittle that if I didn't bite them off, they'd bend and break. I was so pale. I was dizzy just standing up. But I was "skinny." I was "achieving" something. No-one noticed and if they did it was just my mam asking me did I want one scoop of potatoes or two. I had two other friends who were restricting at the time but none of us mentioned it to each other at the time. In my head we were in a silent competition. I wanted to "win" but they had a "head start" on me. I couldn't "win". I was the only one who had to be monitored regularly by doctors due to diabetes. I couldn't "win". It's fucked that a couple of 15 year old friends were competing to eat the least, but it's normal in an all girls school. You can pick out when someone's ed started, you can pick out when they recovered, if they did. Kids shouldn't have to go through that shit. Adults shouldn't go through that shit.

But with the new "trend" in bodies again I can't get over it. I wanna do it again. I wanna win. I'm an adult. With a job. I need to be responsible. I need to pay rent. I need to do my college work. I need to fucking survive but it's so hard. I've started overeating because I'm stressed and numb and depressed and Haribo fizzy jellies are the only things that make me able to think. With the sugar and the feeling on my tongue I'm either gonna not stop overeating or I'm gonna relapse into sh. At this point I want to relapse because it's easier. It's how I could win when I was younger. Things would be easier. Life would be straightforward. I'd think clearly I'd be able to control myself if I could control my pain.

This is very vague cos i crossposted from a forum but deal w it

[thorn-walker]

Okay I thought back on What Lies Within now that I've had a few days to take a step back. I'm sorry it'll be long and ranty this is my favourite game ever EVER and I have strong feelings about it.

Overall, I am still happy I get to play the story with my Commander. Just logging in the game with my miniature twig stick and his big hammer and colorful birb makes me happy. How-EVER I think I am getting... Let's say worried for what's to come with GW2.

Tbh I only have two issues with this episode but they are quite substancial (for me at least). One: these updates are way, way, WAY too short. I know they said "smaller updates more regularly than before" but I don't think one hour max of story instances is worth almost three months of wait. Exploring the map is always funny, but it doesn't have the same emotionnal impact as the narration. I play GW2 to simp on my salad Commander and to immerse myself in the story and the characters.

Two: they sold us a Commander-centric deep-dive psychology arc!! I was so excited!! We've been fighting and carrying the whole Tyria on our shoulders for ten years!! My commander is a skinny-ass twig with minimum height for male sylvaris!! He needs THERAPY!! And I don't think the episode served what it promised on this specific aspect.

During our world-tour of Trauma Facing, I felt the choices were lackluster. I'm sorry to say but I don't give two shits about Mai Trin (Edit: the minus ten connection I have with Mai Trin is largely due to the fact that she came back from Living World S1 in a time which we couldn't replay said LW1. Us folks who came to the game after LW1 still got a bit of time to know the characters that were introduced then BRAHAM MY BOY koff koff, but there was next to nothing on the Aetherblades between LW1 and Eod. How am I supposed to develop a connection to a random NPC that apparently was evil but now is not and I have no clue why?). ALSO where was our trip to Trahearne's grave?? Why does Anet insist on forgetting about him at every turn??? (Yay, his ghost showed up for three seconds at the end. It makes up for all the times he and his work should have been mentioned, right?). Also, why Cinder specifically? What was sooooo important about Cinder that it took a spot for another NPC? A point could be made that I personnally did not develop strong feelings for characters that were introduced recently, but anyway.

And THEN, we spend the last boss fight helping OTHERS with their trauma. I also liked it, tho. GIVE ME MORE RAMA AND YAO LORE. I FEED ON RAMA AND YAO ANYTHING. I WANT MORE RAMA AND YAO. Howeveeeeeer, nothing on the Commander. I get that the devs have to leave it open-ended so that every player can put their own HC in there, but they also have not been afraid to give the Commanders quite the sassy personnality and defining traits, so like. The Commander needs to ACTUALLY face their issues, not just read about Blish's academy papers (no hard feelings tho. I miss him :'( )

On one hand I liked the last fight, even if it was messy. On the other, we ended up doing what we always do: helping others and forgetting our own issues.

Lil addendum: THE DATE WITH YAO WAS AWESOME THO. I LUV DEM

So, yeah, very mixed feelings about What Lies Within. I also had very mixed feelings with What Lies Below. I'm in a weird in-between of waiting for the next chapter but also being afraid of the quality.

[altamente-inflamavel]

lil ranty ramble bc no one follows me and i want to say shit into the void also if someone read all of this let me know if i forgot any tws in the tags

ive been more stressed than ever with college + working 2 freelance jobs (theyre freelance but i have a steady amount of work in both, so no fixed schedule just a billion deadlines which makes me want to rip my scalp off)

i know im really stressed out when the palms of my hands start to kinda peel off. some lil blisters appear, the next day they pop and just become peeling skin. its kinda satistying to peel the skin so i dont use moisturizer or anything, i just have fun with it, but anyway the point is: built up stress

i have a really hard time dealing with stress and anxiety (by which i mean anxiety inducing situations, im not diagnosed with anxiety) because they put me in a kinda self destructive mood. not like in a self harm way, just drinking too much, hooking up with strangers (which is not a bad thing, just not my thing. ive used it as a kind of escape before), sometimes just sleeping so i dont have to deal with anything.

so thats where im at.

i have a birthday to go to today but my back hurts from working on my computer all day but also i wanna make terrible decisions and this would be a great opportunity. also my ex and his current girlfriend will be there so thats great

which brings me to lil ranty ramble part II: 2 ranty 2 rambly

i feel SO ALONE even though i know i have lots of friends, some truly are like family to me but i just dont feel like i fully trust anyone so i dont open up i dont talk about my problems or how im feeling or anything i just make jokes and im funny and silly and giggly. and i love being funny its what i like the most about myself (along with my boobs) but like oh my god how can you be friends with a person you know nothing about

i know thats not 100% true they know me and have been with me through some of the worst moments of my life and they still love me and blablabla i was diagnosed with depression like 8 years ago i know how this goes

but ya know what they say it do be like that sometimes (and it sucks

but yeah i guess thats what going on up in the cuckoo's nest haha lol

if anyone read this, thank you for being here

[bbyquokka]

My dear bestie, I saw your ranty rant.

And I just wanna say, I know it's frustrating & annoying but do not let it discourage you to stop writing, I'm excited on what you have for the future and you know damn well imma fully support you. They're just a hater trying to discourage you. And get to you. You're an amazing writer and I love watching you grow each day. Every single one of your works are amazing, even if it's not my thing it's still really well written!

That being said. I adore you so much and I adore your writing so much as I said. So keep at it and keep doing the things! You're a great writer 💖 ilysm twin, the jisung to my felix & together were literally real life Jilix 💖

bestie 🥺 i literally stopped crying, read this and now i'm crying again 😭 ‹3

idk what to say apart from thank you ;-; i appreciate the message and also the love and support you always give me, i cannot put into words how much i appreciate and love you ‹3 even when i write something that's not to your taste, you still show me support ;-; ajjsjwkw ‹3

i guess I'm just feeling overwhelmed and maybe a lil bit discouraged rn, just one thing after another and i let it get to me, however, after today i know I'll be okay again and will come back fighting (because i'm petty like that, lmao)

again, thank you bestie for your words, they helped cheer me up. i appreciate & love you sm ‹3 😭

[theanoninyourinbox]

I'm back with another cat who deserves to go apeshit. It's Leafpool. It's like she was born just for StarClan and everyone to shit on her. Unless the Erins retconned it Sandstorm pressured Leafkit into becoming a med cat. Sure she did come to like it later but she had her own mother try to tell her to follow that path.

Then when she listened to StarClan and followed her heart she comes back to see her mentor dead by a badger. Then she is pregnant with Crow's kits when they split up and has to deliver them outside of the Clan and give them to Squirrel to raise as her own while she has to pretend to be the Aunt to them.

And StarClan for some ass reason got in their feelings about it and treated Leafpool like 'Wah how dare you break the code that the clan equivalent of a teenage mom in ye olde times created because she was stressed out and really shouldn't be a measurement of every medicine cat?'

And even though it was Leafpool who found the warrior version of Black Mecca, the pool she was named after and the thing that connects the world of the living to StarClan, no one acknowledges this at all and goes 'Holy Smokes, she is practically the next Moth Flight, you know that cat that found that sparkly blue stone in that cave before the two legs came and destroyed everything. Maybe we should at least give her deserved respect and that she can make mistakes like everyone else.'

Like Leafpool found the Lake version of the Moonstone to keep the Clans from running around like headless chickens and would have made the panic of having no Moonpool because it was frozen look like a cake walk because they wouldn't even have a Moonpool to have it be frozen.

Instead of saying 'Okay Leafpool, you did break the Code but since you helped the Clans not degrade into Godless Heathens, you can keep your role. It's not like you gave birth to Brokenstar 2.0 and helped save lives after all' nearly everyone treated her like she was a pariah or the next coming of Tigerstar.

Hell, when Leafpool died, that's when the Moonpool froze. It's like they were connected and when she passed, it too 'died.'

( Don't even get me started on that trial shenanigans, because I will rant until I hit a word limit LOL )

And while Holly, Lion, and Jay had every right to be mad at her but they didn't have to go out of their way to be that antagonistic since nearly every cat in the Clans both dead and alive already treated her like a yeast infection or you know, try to force her to commit suicide by the berries that did in Brokenstar.

I just kinda wish Leaf snapped back at Holly during that moment, even if it will be out of character.

'I know I gave up the right to me your mother and you every reason to be mad at me, but I will NOT have you use that tone against or say such things to kewhen you know how The Clans and our Ancestors view Kin Slaying in cold blood. Let alone killing a Medicine Cat. Firestar will be forced exile to you and when you die you will not grace the stars of Silverpelt.

And many cats broke the Code. Will you kill Crowfeather too? Technically Tawnypelt broke the Code when she went to ShadowClan and had half clan kits. Should she be slain by you as well? And Firestar was a kitty pet by birth. Should Sandstorm die for giving birth to half kitty pet cats?

If making me eat them truly will make you feel better, then do it. But my death will not be quick or pleasant. I only ask you as my final wish is that you look away as I choke to death, because I still love you, and I don't want you to see how a cat choking to death looks like.'

And Hollyleaf is so stunned she doesn't run off to the tunnels, but does come back to the Clan until a week to fully comprehend what happened.

Sorry if this came off as ranty but Leafpool deserves better.

Oooooooo this is Good Stuff! I’m not even going to write a lil story you already did Amazing! Go off Leafpool! Let Leafpool Be Angry! Let her R A G E! She was Wronged! I cannot express how good this is!

[ray-the-fanatic]

seeing leosagi trend on twitter makes me so happy though at the same time i kinda avoid it cuz a majority of it is yu/ichi usagi that's with leo and i don't wanna ruin the fun of the people who enjoy the samurai rabbit show, i tried getting into the show a month ago but it just... did not catch my eye the same way rise did

maybe it's cuz the show's not technically about the og usagi or the fact that i struggle to care about cast and story itself cuz it feels... boring to me? idk, it's just hard for me to get into shipping rise leo with yu/ichi when i'm not really interested in the character or show (yu/ichi i mean), esp when i'm more attached to everyone's version of rise usagi

sorry if this seems a bit ranty ^^;;;

Okay  1. I was answering another ask when I saw this and deiced nope I need to answer this! 2.no so yes let us talk about this because i see you I feel you and get what you mean as well.3. Sorry this is gonna be a lil long.

Okay so I recalled when they originally announced doing the samurai rabbit show and I was excited cause Usagi content. Forgot about it till finally getting back into tmnt after being convinced to finally watch rise cause o didn't when it originally aired. Which sent me down a rabbit hole obsession on usagi in time for the Samurai Rabbit show coming out. And to make this easier when I say Usagi I’ll be talking about Usagi Miyamoto and Yu/ichi for Usagi Yu/ichi yes I know they have the same first name that's the point it’s just for clarification here.

Now I do not mind the show it’s fine for what it is and I think Yu/ichi is cute and interesting but I have a love hate thing for the show. I spoke to a mutual on tiktok about this and I know I made a post on my thoughts about the show. I like the concept of Usagi descendant  Yu/ichi trying to become a samurai in a future time period when Samurai aren’t around, because he idolizes Usagi. Only to find out Usagi is a bad guy so he tries to clear their name. Despite that set up its not really what we get and Yui/chi didn’t really clear their name im still annoyed about that. I do still enjoy Yu/ichi mostly the design I even drew some inspiration from it for my own rise usagi because I liked the bangs. And I do find he and rise leo could be fun buuuuuuuut He is not the Usagi I want.

See as I have gotten more into Usagi’s own series I have just really come to love the character even more and love the idea of him in rise compared to a cross over with samurai rabbit. I just love the idea of the conflict in personality I just want him to be a grounded samurai who is emotionally in touch. Like especially with Leo going into his role as a leader I just love the idea of that being when he meets Usagi because of how special that friendship is in the 03 series. Besides I enjoy the Lore of Usagi Yojimbo and would love tidbits of it in rise uwu

Well I will still share and enjoy ship art of both cause i’m greedy and like Leosagi I do agree with people that the two should have different ships names. I saw seabunny mention for rise leo and yu/ichi and thats cute. But yeah well the sudden boom on twitter been nice to see and I have a friend who prefers that version simply cause yu/ichi is cannon over a rise usagi is. Thats fine though I also feel there another reason for the push on yui/chi i’m just being skeptical though so i wont say that in this. I just personally perfect Usagi myself over yui/chi. Again theres nothing wrong with him it’s just well I feel hes getting more praise than what is earned really. Based off the show am I a fan of it? eh I like it i don't know if its something i’ll re-watch I wish the writing was better I kind wanna do a fix it fic for it but that's a lot of work compared to one shots lol

TL;DR: Well I dont mind yu/ichi as a charater when it comes to the leosagi thing esp for Rise I’m in the side of Usagi Miyamoto over Usagi Yui/chi. And feel they should have different ship names also 03/2012 usagi > over any other usagi uwu

[wolfwhiteflowers]

My mixed thoughts on Carol and Daryl/Caryl in s11 and the spin-off show.

 I think my thoughts are a bit unpopular or mixed.. Idk. I’m overthinking. I’m really am. LOL  It’s a long ranty post and with some spoilers and speculations! (I’m kinda a hate-watcher but I want or keep hoping for good writing. Oh I’m also more of an ensemble-show/TF fan too. So I'm like yeah u know twd/cheesey-ok-writing but I'm also taking it serious. I want good story telling/writing. Sigh, anyway.)

vvvvvv

 So everybody have these expectations and speculations on the TWD shows and shipping Caryl of s11, Rick movies, spin-off show. I feel like Carylers are all not the same page /different opinions on it. I feel weird and awkward about it. I mean it means people are gonna agree or (majority/petty) disagree with me or not like the idea of what the future will bring. So it means that there will be some fandomwank or debbie downers around. (Idk I’m thinking of the BeIIarke fandom.) It’s like oh well...but we’re all in the same team. Well it's always just gonna be up to me deciding if I like it/trust the writers. Eh it’s just right now it’s a waiting-game on what these shows or future will be like. 

Like recently Kang mentioned Caryl as “platonic friends” (im not sure what she means..like s1-10? but she mentions them as soulmates last year) and NR talking about the Caryl spin-off show that he wanted ages ago. I think all these lil hints on what the Caryl spin-off show will be like, I don’t think they’re gonna spoil it to us and it’s also this story-plot comes after s11. So it’s like they can’t really tell us all what it’s about really. So..idk be hopeful or whatever you wanna do till the show comes. 2023. Caryl on. Fics, pls.

And there’s still s11, the series’s last season that Kang have to work on. I guess I feel I don’t know Kang well yet or trust her. So I think Kang might put a love triangle plot and tropey soapy love story going on with Caryl. Like she might want to play into it. And she might want to tease the fandom with the “will they-won’t they”.  S10c-s11f is 30 episodes that is a lot story needed going on. Eh I don’t want a love triangle plot and I hope Kang does something interesting with Caryl in s11 and make them canon! (I also want Conni3 to be like a Sasha and not  a Beth. I want Conni3 to be her own character and bond with her sister, Kelly.)  So.. it’s gonna be a lot we go through before the spin-off show.

So what I mainly want from “TWD Universe” .. And hoping for is... that I think Gimple had always planned to have these TWD shows & movies be connected like “TWD Universe”. I want the (ship canon) Caryl spin-off show connected to the Rick's story in the movies in some way and Caryl(and others) be in the movie(s) too. The spin-off show could be Caryl looking for Rick (with Lydia and Grimes kids), looking for supporters (idk like FTWD?/Morgan), OR eventually later on they helped Rick before they go be part of the movie(s). Idk just something related to Rick grimes movies. Even though like most Carol fans don't like Rick or don’t want the show to be connected at all to the other shows (and no kids). :\ IMO!

*This here I rant about Carol’s story arc and spin-off show. -Lydia.

Recently I watched s10 finale, it hit me that TWD show is ending next season, s11. Like, it’s the end of seeing Team Family and the Grimes/comic-based story. The s10 finale ep kinda also pointed on what I am feeling lately on TWD show and Caryl spin-off. I actually want to see how s11/TWD/Grimes show goes and ends first. I know Caryl are already TV leads, Maggie returns, comic things and drama are back for one more season, but me as a Caryler, I’m also fan of Carol and Daryl individually. (Well I'm more a Carol stan.) Anyway I'm trying to say that I want to see how Carol's or/and Daryl's story ends in the TWD show with TF. I want it to be good writing and story. Like seeing Carol and Lydia in s10f made me cry because it was so good, but what does it mean in s11 and so on? I'm gonna miss Caryl with TF and ASZ. I’m gonna miss some things of TWD too. Idk what the Caryl spin-off show will be like exactly. Will Lydia and others be there too or ..it's the end for them s11? It's sad to me.

 I want more Carol and Lydia to well.. be like mother and daughter or friends. I think of them as “Carol and mini-Carol.” Why should I be invested in them then if it all ends next season and Carol rides off? Idk I'm like, is it bad writing if Caryl spin-off show just be Caryl road-tripping? Idk what I'm saying. I want Carol's/Daryl's story to be good and in character, in end of s11 and spin-off show. Idk... It's like, writing-wise, is Carol always meant (or it’s in-character for her story?) to then look after Lydia and grow old with TF in ASZ..Or was Carol always meant to leave to go to New Mexico away from TF and on the spin-off show( or it’s just show business?) It's almost like there's two endgames that I want with Caryl in s11 and spin-off show. There's two endings on how Caryl's journey ends with TF AND how they will be like in s11 finale/spin-off. Like there’s Caryl and TF’s story ending and Caryl’s TWD show-arcs ending. And will it be in character and be an interesting story? Sigh idk it’s just a lot of hoping and trusting on these writers, and wondering if I still like the story. A lot of changes to get through. 

 Although, I recently read some comments about Carol and Lydia and thought about s11 and the spin-off show. If Lydia isn’t part of the spin-off show, I think I would be okay, story-wise, if Lydia is always meant to be a plot to end Carol’s (TWD show)arc on TWD show. In the finale, Lydia mentioned that they don’t have to be like a mother and daughter which Carol is probably already thinking of it and had this unlucky past with kids. Lydia said they could be friends. Then Carol told Lydia to find her own path, her own way in life. I think the writers are like wrapping or going over the whole Carol and kids arc since s4. Carol have this long traumatic past with kids. Carol wants to protect her/the kids and it’s like Carol realizes that she can’t always protect them, the kids also have to be their own and survive and it’s a rough life. It’s not all Carol’s fault in a way that if/when they die. If that make sense. So with Carol and Lydia since s9f, I feel they have this different adult-kid storyline than Carol with the other kids. I see it as a Carol and mini-Carol storyline. It’s probably all about Carol and all kids/Lydia storyline too. Later in the s10f, Lydia saved Carol, like Carol saved Lydia in s9f. They’re so like similar, mirrored. I’m really interested in them. I think I would be okay if the writers focus on them in s11, if it’s about Carol’s arc-with-kids ends. She learns to not to feel like a bad mother and letting go of this protecting-kids-thing but try her best to protect them and not blame herself. Learn to see how much she grown and love herself by being around Lydia. So yeah just overthinking on this and it would be nice if the writers go there next season because it’s seems like a in-character (TWD show) arc to end for Carol. (I don’t care about Negan and I don’t want the kids with Negan. :\ I also don’t want Daryl to be friends with Negan. maybe just tolerate him.)

Another thing .. Is idk how the Caryl spin-off show will go for Carol and Daryl. At first I'm like whatever they have fun on their road trip but thinking on it and with TWD, I'm like I don't want the spin-off be like a ‘Mcreedus on the road in their costumes show’. Like that's not what the Caryl spin-off show is right? So like I'm overthinking on it I know I am but really .. Now I’m wondering how this spin-off show really goes with Carol and Daryl and still being in-character. I feel there's gonna be some main motivation or arc in spin-off show. The core storyline and character's core storyline. Idk what it is for Caryl/Carol and Daryl. I think of other shows like this and there are reasons to it. Like all of this, it's really a whole new show and it gotta start with all these usual basics in the show. I think of other shows that might be similar to the spin-off show. Right now I'm thinking Avatar:TLA and Telltale games’ (comic) Michonne or TWD game s3: New Frontier (Clementine and Javier). Lol, yeah random. These are I think traveling stories and the main characters have a motivation or whatever. And it’s a hero’s journey/redemption, finding her lil bro(AJ), or with Michonne it was going through stages of grief in six (?) episodes. So my point is I don't want the spin-off show be pointless and OOC and just Mcreedus riding around with no plot. Ok, it’s still a story about Carol and Daryl. Idk what the show’s arc will be about. Maybe it’s them helping people, them finding peace and learn to love themselves. Maybe to find Rick. Idk. I want Carol and Daryl story be good and ended good. And related to Rick's story....I kinda don't mind if Caryl bring the Grimes kids (and Lydia) along. As long as the story is good to me. So, I just wanna point out that it’s still Carol’s and Daryl’s story going on. 

Another thing with Caryl’s relationship, I'm thinking on what makes sense to me on Caryl's relationship is that if the Caryl spin-off show will be them as already a couple. Then I think Caryl should be canon in 10c or s11 finale or earlier. I think to have a spin-off be separated from main TWD, it will go smoothly to me if they are already a couple in the spin-off show. If they don't then I feel the writers lost their chance and/or baiting shippers. I don't feel like waiting for them to be canon in spin-off show, because it's like previous TWD seasons. I find it tiring and boring and it’s the same as before. If they're confirmed as just friends then I feel that the characters' story is wasted or shorten/OOC. They deserved more in their life. It’s not good writing or story to me. And if one finds a bf or gf like... who wants to see that and I guess we assume it won't last that long because Caryl are the mains. It would be OOC to me and not interesting. Anyway, I hope Caryl are a canon couple in the spin-off show by then. Oh I also think the show would be at least 2 seasons. But you know show business u never know.

Oof high expectations. Caryl on.

[normal-thoughts-official]

Okay hi can i just pls throw out this idea i have in my head because i have literally zero friends to talk about malec with and i love your blog fhksghs but anyway i have this headcanon that alec is autistic because like, he's kind of stiff in his movements and he's straight to the point matter of fact but he's so very very empathetic and he feels so much and maybe he's been masking his entire life because his way of being is "Wrong" (and on top of that he gay) and people beside his siblings (1)

don't really get him and honestly the fact that he doesn't always find the words to express himself especially when he's scared and upset makes sense and maybe with the masking thing the only way of stimming he's ever allowed himself is that jerky lil hand shake thing he does or the pinching of the skin between his fingers. also!! im thinking that's why he's so good at archery and not AS good at hand to hand combat because archery doesn't take as much coordination and he noticed it was easy for him so he kind of hyperfixated on it as a kid and it never really left and it makes sense with the self harm thing. it's so common for autistic kids to take out their frustrations and sadness on themselves and if alec doesn't allow himself to stim that jittery energy might just turn into frustration and anger he doesn't understand or know what to do with so causing pain to get it out becomes the only way he knows how to cope. anyway THE POINT i'm trying to make is i've kind of adopted the headcanon that magnus has adhd as well so he kind of complements alec where he struggles and the other way around and as they get to know each other they kind of start finding new ways of coping together and allowing themselves to be exactly as they are with each other. alec finds ways to stop masking and starts to come to terms with who he is and what he's like because he's never really identified with anything but his masked persona and magnus finally has someone who understands him

also i get that like... this headcanon is not new at all. i just haven't seen it being discussed a lot just like magnus having adhd is something i came across like two days ago so idk how big that headcanon is but yeah snglbghk sorry for taking up so much space i guess im a lil fixated hehe thank you for your time

okay, first of all i just want to say that i’m thrilled that you wanted to share this with me, specifically, especially since this is clearly meaningful and important to you. and don’t apologize, i love getting ranty asks tbh, they are the best dajsaijdadja 

for the hc! i totally agree with you on autistic alec, that’s not an uncommon hc because yeah he does have like... a lot of autistic traits lmao (altho there’s a lot of hm. gross ableist content involving this. but anyway) like i’ve been talking recently on here about alec’s honesty and his complete unwillingness and even unability to understand like, mind games and flirting and such and how that draws magnus in, and i definitely think that is directly connected to his autism. like the whole throwing hints and innuendos and flirting ;) ;) just doesn’t fucking make sense to him and he’s very in contact with his feelings and why would he not? be direct about them? you know? and magnus has had to basically teach himself to be able to do that (because well autism and adhd overlap and he’s probably had to struggle a lot to pick on social cues too, and learn these little tricks. this also probably has to do with the personality that he chose for himself, like, that whole over exaggerated over the top kind of careless thing, because then he can pass off his rambley tendencies and other ADHD traits as just... him being careless, i guess. so he lays it particularly thick so that the parts that are actually there - his tendencies to ramble and hyperfocus, lack of attention, sometimes unawareness of social cues - end up less visible under the veil of his exaggerated persona) and it’s so damn good. and important. to not have to. to be basically forced not to. because alec doesn’t engage in those. he’s completely honest. and he offers magnus a space where he can be, too

and i just duahdsiuahda love autistic/adhd solidarity malec (and also autistic/adhd solidarity mag&raph but that’s another topic. lêx shut the fuck up about raphael challenge. actually send me asks about autistic raphael pls yall). especially because like i said. magnus has had a lot of time to learn how to mask his ADHD traits! but it’s exhausting, and god it feels so good and he’s so fucking happy that he gets to stim, and ramble, and just be himself with alec

even if it definitely takes him a while. i think longer than it takes alec. because alec 1- is not as good as magnus at hiding it, and 2- sees no reason to hide them from magnus, because once he trusts, he trusts, and he’s all in. i think what would take alec the longest would be to stim - because he’s so used to suppressing those it’s almost second nature - but stimming is exactly the one thing that magnus still kind of allows himself. especially with magic, you see the way he’s always conjuring up little balls, doing sparks with his hands, rubbing his fingers together, etc etc etc. and alec picks up on that, the ways that he stims subtly and without hurting himself and maybe starts doing it too. we even get to see him rubbing his fingers in a similar way that magnus does sometimes, after they meet, and i think that might be the beginning of that process

so that definitely applies to what you said about them helping each other out with their greatest difficulties! like magnus is most uncomfortable letting go of hiding his traits, and alec is most uncomfortable with stimming, and they slowly- well, not coax each other into it, but walk that path together, especially as they also walk their career paths and earn more respect and space, and their relationship path and learn to be more open and earnest with each other and work together. you know? magnus sees that alec keeps picking at his own skin and hands, and he’s like... all lovingly healing him, and telling him that he should stop hurting himself, and alec tells him that it’s just. that he feels like the world is so sharp, sometimes, and he just has all that energy, and he doesn’t know how to let it out, and it’s too much, but he doesn’t know what to do with it, so he just. picks at his skin. and magnus looks up at him, brows a little furrowed, a little in shock and also. a good kind of surprise because he understands? and he’s happy that someone else understands? and that he can help with this?

and so magnus is like “i feel like that a lot, too. having magic helps, but well, there are other things i do” and then he tells alec about how he rubs his fingers together instead of picking at the skin and how he taps them and does the little wrist shaking thing and how that helps. and alec starts to figure out other ways to stim that work for him and don’t hurt him. magnus also tells him about jewelry and how that helps, having stuff to fidget with/focus on, and well alec is not big on jewelry but maybe he starts wearing a chain under his shirt, and there’s always the wedding band :) which we already see him fiddling with a lot in canon anyway so i definitely think it serves the same purpose for him as magnus’ jewelry do magnus. plus, it’s grounding and reminds him of them, which is also a bonus

and then there’s also everything we see in canon, about alec just. wanting magnus to be exactly himself and telling him that? seeing the way magnus is tapping his foot and then stops when he approaches, and he’s like “you can keep going,” or the way that he sometimes approaches magnus and is all like “i can tell you’re thinking too hard about this conversation. i don’t want you to say anything but what you feel. it’s okay” and magnus slowly relaxes and allows himself. or when he catches himself mid rant about his hyperfixation and he feels ashamed but he turns to alec, about to apologize because he just started talking way too much and way too fast about fucking wormholes and astrophysics again and alec is probably bored- but he turns and alec is staring at him with his usual, open adoration that always takes his breath away, and alec is like “no, i love hearing you talk” because even if he doesn’t understand what magnus is talking about, he loves how excited he is and to see him happy. plus his voice is so nice and pretty and just hmmm very good for the senses you know, like it’s just nice to focus on. so magnus does that little half smile of his, super pleased, and keeps talking, except this time gesticulating even more wildly and like flapping and going into detail without holding back, and he’s just so happy, and alec is so happy, and so in love with him duaudsaa

also them being sensorial heaven for each other :) alec wanting to hold magnus after he’s had A Day, and he just wraps himself around him and buries his face on his neck and feels his presence there, you know, focuses on him and his touch and hair and nice clothes (magnus picks clothes pretty much based on texture because he can’t stand some, and others, like silk, are just perfect so he has a bunch of those, and alec likes the same textures too so that’s great) and stops focusing on other noises and light and other things that might be giving him a bit of overload, you know? but also he doesn’t feel like, trapped, so it’s great. while magnus is enveloped in his arms and having all that stimuli from alec touching him and again he can laser focus on that and feel like his brain calms down a little. and it’s perfect for them both. sensory healing cuddles. perfect

and when either of them feels like having their space or not touching because Too Much, that’s okay too, because they both 1- understand, and 2- are mindful of each other’s space always. magnus especially, we see how he’s very careful with getting into other ppl’s and particularly alec’s space, and alec appreciates it because he never feels invaded. but he also learns when magnus needs space, be it alone or just a broad space to Flap Around in, and he always gives him that when he needs it, and magnus is so grateful for that. and it’s just duaihdsiahdasidaihahdah god i fucking love adhd/autistic solidarity malec thank u for coming to my ted talk

[lex-n-weegie]

Hey so this is a lil ranty and I dunno if you even wAnt these kinds of asks but like I don’t know where else to vent(?) to.

I kinda feel like by selfshipping I’m ruining canon ships? Like I f/o Hajime and I feel like by doing that I’m ruining Hinanami, Komahina, or any other Hajime ship with canon characters. And I feel like by f/oing Celes I’m ruining Celesgiri and stuff-

I feel really bad for f/oing characters cuz of this. Like I really love them but holy heck do I feel guilty.

Aisowjow I’m gonna stop before I start to overshare. Sorry I just needa vent :(((

Don't apologise to me dear anon! I'm fine if you end up in my inbox needing to vent! (Though I don't always have the best advice)

Actually anon, I've felt the same way before. About a couple of characters. For the sake of not doing any possible v3 spoilers, let's talk about my boy Luigi Mario. In a LOT of Mario games, especially the side games, we see a lot of Luigi x Daisy. To the statues in Daisy circuit to some cannon(?) interactions. However, I looked at it like this: Has it been actually said by either character or anyone in this universe that they are, in fact, dating? The answer is no, it's kinda only implied.

The same goes to your two wonderful f/os dear anon. While it's clear that Hajime cares a lot about Chiaki, or while in some japanese translation that Nagito likes him, it's never been said to be cannon. Hajime never outright states "I love Chiaki." (And anything they might say in free time events I don't think count, as for Dangan 1 you can have multiple girls fall in love with Makoto). Celeste never says anything about being in love with anyone too. They're completely open and ready to embrace you with loving arms dear anon.

I know it might be hard. You're probably thinking "Oh, well they'd like (cannon character) instead." Nope. Not uh. No way Jose. They love you! They love you with all their heart, and they want you to know this.

I hope this reply finds you well anon, please have a good day/night ^^

[orderuponthe99prettygrimmdiaries]

Bite my tongue.

Been feeling so much this week, with so many things happening too... I was actually gonna do a post a couple days ago, but guess I ended up procrastinating again.

Funny, one of the things I wanted to write about was about learning when to bite your tongue. Recently I feel like I've been a little ranty again... And also, I guess some things are making me unsure who exactly to trust. Some people are great to vent to as they'll relate to your situation, but I guess as they say, the people you gossip with tend to also be the people who gossip about you.

So... Well.

And I guess my dumbass didn't get that message in my own head cos I just did something pretty dumb.

Things have been going pretty good with him again - we've been talking daily for over a week now. Maybe it's nothing really, but it means something to me. He's also been initiating a little more, replying to stuff that I'd expect him not to (not this one, or not yet).

Still no chance for a meet yet, though we did see each other at work last week. Yet another long story.

As usual, I'm still not really sure what's really happening and where's it really going... And today we had a convo that, I don't know, maybe led me to thinking a bit... So I just asked him something. That maybe would freak him out a bit. That maybe he would run for the hills and never return. And that I'd lose the friend I'd just got back...

Sigh.

But I really just wanted to try. And before I had asked him that, I saw how I was reacting to it... And I guess I just wanted to know for sure.

I mean I should be proud of myself that I asked him. Even if he doesn't reply at all, even if this is gonna be the last of it cos I scared him off. At least I would know... Finally.

And maybe it's kinda... Well... I don't even know what's the word to use. Someone who is seemingly right, but just no feels. So yes, after all this, I'm still hanging on to him, despite all that confusion and all. But I mean, it's not easy, is it? Maybe it's also not meant to be this tough, but I am willing to try...

For once I'm willing to trust my heart, trust myself. Trust him. Have faith and be confident in myself.

I'm not sure how good this mantra will do for me after that dumbass thing but.. we shall see.

I guess I'm trying to do that other thing I've been wanting to write about - communication. I'm not very good at saying no, or even confronting people. This has led to quite a lot of situations... And just kinda put myself in one again with another stranger guy 😪 also ironic I had just told my uni friend (whom I hadn't seen in ages) about the past few months, and then I put myself in the same situation.

I really need to learn how to communicate what I feel when I need to. Stop relying on ghosting people, at least let them know what they did.

There's probably much more that I wanna write about but I guess I'm a lil distracted now... Sigh. We shall see how it goes. But at least I guess I've kinda braced myself for it. I hope so. I really hope that it's not me just putting on a strong front cos this is such a bad time to fall apart.

But y'know what... Even so.. I believe in me. I got this. I picked myself up all those times. I can handle it. I'll just emerge stronger, no matter the outcome. And I guess I'll just learn something new.

X

[hegglespeggles]

How to write an essay you could not care less about in 10 steps

Hello. I have an essay to write.

I am also, (unfortunately) the kind of lazy, apathetic burnout who will only do my FUCKING work if I get really worked up. Usually that ends up meaning all of my papers are spite-fuelled tirades but my profs seem to like them so fine. I hope you find this particular raging tirade useful.

Today, I would like to educate the 4 of you that will actually see this on a fine art I have perfected over the years. Writing a paper, about which, you do not give a single, solitary, crumb of a fuck about. This is (you may have guessed) and excellent way for me to procrastinate doing a paper that *I* do not give a single solitary crumb of a fuck about. For best results, I recommend doing this NIGHT-BEFORE-PANIC like, a week in advance so you can fix all the NONSENSE that your more reasonable brain will undoubtedly find. But if it’s the night before and you are shit outta luck, this will get ‘er done. And with practice, you can even pull good grades outta these bitches.

 Dissociating? I gotchu. Woke up the day of the deadline to feel like absolute utter garbage? Search no more friends.  

  FAILING GRADES ARE BETTER THAN ZEROS JUST FUCKIN DOOOOOO ITTTT

1.    Go get the prompt.

I fucking mean it. Even if you are like 1000% sure you know what the prompt is asking, go to the FUCKING assignment, and copy that shit into your word document. Got the assignment on paper? TYPE THAT SHIT UP MOTHERFUCKER.

(Do you see what I fucking have to deal with)

Boom?

BOOM.

Congratulations, you now have a document, and whats more, there are WORDS in it!! You aren’t starting from scratch anymore kiddo. Fringe benefit, you always know EXACTLY what the assignment wants because its fucking Staring You Down. Not saying you have to do exactly as it says, mama didn’t raise no BITCH and I aint scared of fuckin CALLING PROFS OUT but if you wanna break the rules you gotta know what they are first

(Disclaimer: I have also been kicked out of class on numerous occasions for fighting with the prof and had full classes where the lecture WAS me arguing so maybe take my opinions of conformity with a grain of salt.)

2.    Math THE FIRST

I know, this is an essay and not a fucking calculus test. But some of this shit is USEFUL OKAY

Take the paper in question. How long does it have to be? Mine is 5 pages. A page is generally accepted to be 250 words (double spaced because we FUCKING LOVE OURSELVES) so 5 x 250 = 1250 wds. That’s the goal. That’s the pinnacle. That’s your new holy grail.

Time to split this bitch up

  3.    Yarrrrrr, CONTENT

And finally, we get to the part that is the reason why you are being an absolute bitch baby about this essay (maybe. I might be projecting. Your life is your life and im sure youre doing your best.) I Hate this part, but now with our magic number we don’t need to pull 5 pages out of the ether.

This part really requires you to know your vibe. Is this something that you have a lot of little opinions (read: evidence) about or like, only 2 or 3 big bois? Look deep into your soul and figure out which is the easiest for you to shit out, a rant or a list. a  great way to do this is to WRITE ANYTHING YOU GOT OUT

Here you can see I’ve put all of the thoughts I have about the question into a list, slapped some standard “opening” and “closing” shit around it so I can FUCKING FIND IT AGAIN and given it a good hard look. Whats the common thread in all of my opinions? That the prompt is fucking stupid and makes no sense is asking 2 different questions. Congratulations: you found your thesis. This essay, like many of my essays, bears the thesis “this is a weird question to be asking” (which falls under my broader category of “bitches aint shit” essays.)

Congratulations you have the bare bones of your skeleton.

  4.    MATH THE SECOND

 The magic number returns. All hail our glorious leader. 1250 right?

So heres how I break this down. Break off a small chunk at the beginning. For this essay im gonna split off the 250. Split that baby in half. Congratulations, now you have a word count on your opening and closing. Personally, I know I like a lil extra space at the end to get all ranty, so Imma split this puppy up 100 for my opening and 150 for the closing. WARNING: You will think that you will be able to write enough in your opening and closing to take up lots of space. You will feel the urge to give them both the same amount of words that you give your points. This is misguided and foolish. Not only will you 1) not be able to do it but 2) even if you did, that’s like getting a sandwich which is all bread. No one wants that. Don’t be that dude. Fight the urge.

 RIGHT SO. We’re still left on the other 1000 words.

If you have an idea that like, is bigger than the others, go ahead and give that puppy more of the word count than the others, fractions are your friend here and you wanna think about how much of your final product each of these babies will be. If you, like me, are an utter buffoon with no clue what youre doing, open your calculator up. Divide the remaining word count by the number of points you have. Congratulations. Youre doing the essaying.

If this is enough to get you started, GREAT! See you at step seven. BEFORE YOU GO I would like to give you this tip

5.    CITE YOUR INFORMATION AS YOU ADD IT IN.

It doesn’t need to be a full citation, just literally a footnote with something that will help you remember where its from and for the love of god WHAT PAGE IT IS ON. The you of 3 hours from now will thank you.

  6.    Filling in the skeleton

 I don’t know about you, but I cant exactly riff off of a single sentence. Like, I know what the VIBE of my point is, but like, I cant pull it out of a hat. The name of the game here is whittling down your arguments into thinner and thinner chunks that are easier and easier to bullshit. This is how you avoid that “burning building found in flames during Brooklyn fire” bullshit that memes. You don’t wanna meme. You wanna pass. So, figure out what the things you are gonna say and in each bit, keep track of how many words you are gonna write. EITHER

a)      You put how many words you think you can write on any point beside the point as you go and just keep developing points and shuffling word counts around until it matches the total for that section

or

b)     You evenly breakup the word count between all the points and keep breaking them down until you look at a subject and a word count and go “yeah that’s doable. I can do that.”

I prefer the second so LEGGO.

Ta-Da!

7.    Write ‘er up

Ahhh glad to see we’re all back together again. Try-hards who can ACTUALLY bullshit papers, glad to see you’ve rejoined us! This is the part where you take all that shit you’ve broken up into nice little chunks and you turn it into something worth reading. You can do it. I believe in you. Try and keep your citations in place.

I like to do this as a question answer thingy, like an exam, so halfway through writing mine is gonna look like this

 The handy part about the numbers is that it gives you a frame of reference for how your bullshit is going. Realized you had a lot more to say here than you thought? Dope! Less bullshit somewhere else, take it out of a weaker point. This point didn’t give as much as you thought it would? Split the difference elsewhere! This way you have checkpoints and you can see how your essay is going

And then you can go ahead and delete your skeleton work. Its time. Its served you well. For extra drama, whisper menacing nothings to it as you send it into the darkness. Personal favourites include “no one will mourn you,” “your fate belongs to me,” and “so this is what you have come to”

  8.    Citations

Theres like a million ways out there to find out how to do your citations and its gonna depend on what kind of a paper you are writing. I use Chicago most of the time, including here. My advice? Use a site like, bib.me or something to do your bibliography, and then plaster that in the bottom of your document. Use that as the building blocks to do your footnotes. Let Purdue Owl be your guide. Purdue Owl Style Guide Is A Mighty Friend Indeed.

 Also your welcome for that, “putting the page numbers in as you put the info in” shit. That took me alarmingly long to figure out. It’s a wonder theyre giving me a degree.

  9.    Proofread that shit, ya bougie bitch.

If you wanna be time effective, getting a friend to proofread while you do your citations is a great way to go. If you have a few days, put your paper away and come back to it. If you are out of friends and time then https://www.paperrater.com/ is your last hope.

  10.       Slap a title page on that shit and GET IT SUBMITTED

 No joke, I have been using the same template for a coverpage all through highschool and my undergrad. There is only one title page and every time I write an essay I take the title page from the last paper I wrote. There is no beginning. Only title page. Title? Topic of paper: point of paper. For example, If I had to title this screed I’d call it Essay Writing: An exploration of mediocrity. slap the date and your name and the course and instructor on there and BAM. YA DONE.

 Anyway submit that shit an go to bed youre done goodnight

EPILOGUE

I’ve gotten this essay back, and when I wrote it, I was barely a human being. Barely capable of human speech let alone a coherent argument. I would forget the end of the sentence by the time I typed out the beginning. But I still for a 70%! is it the best mark I’ve ever gotten? no! but it is a hell of a lot better than the 0% I would have gotten if i hadnt done this. I get it. And i hope this helps. 

[looking-for-all-the-fucks-i-give]

Oh but like lowkey major spoilers ahead

Y’all really getting mad at people for hating on Steve’s happy ending but baby let me telll you unless they’re doing some more weird time travel mumbo jumbo it doesn’t even matter. Like sure I want them all happy but Steve I’m from seventy years in the past and through out this franchise the only other thing I’ve been hoping for is Bucky Barnes Grant Rodgers been knew he wasn’t getting the lovey dovey romantic ending and even if he talked it out with Bucky that is incredibly selfish for him to go back and (technically live with while ignoring everyone else���s pain) for the sake of the life he’s always wanted but realistically wouldn’t have had bc he was in the ice for 70 yrs and the past is the past for a reason

Ok because Natash this is my fucking family Romanoff had nothing she sacrificed herself for her best friends happiness first and foremost she did that for him and nobody will ever change my mind she held it together long enough to see her bff again and let him be happy like she’s not coming back unless y’all pull the shit y’all did with gamora like we don’t get Nat back and I will never be ok with that. Like it was so fucked up and dirty bc I really thought that she and Clint were gonna be selfish and try and sacrifice the other but no they love each other want the other persons happiness and I just really hate that she did like I love her to bits and pieces bc of it but they didn’t have to go that hard

And Tony I cant save everybody I got lucky and got my family Stark really just did this and that for all you peasants ok fuck everyone else he needed this happy ending and he had it ok he had it and he was happy and it was ok but bc Tony’s not selfish he went and helped and y’all have the nerve to call us selfish for thinking it’s fucked that Steve wanted to go back for his lil boo (no offense Peggy your lovely I’m sure) but like my man has been through hell and back he was in space by himself he was the one who saw the kid go he is the one who did this and that ok he’s my genius hero and fuck he deserves so much better and I’m really gonna cry bc he died so we could live and fuck it mistakes or not he should’ve been worthy bc he’s just as worthy as Steve or Thor

And ignoring five other points I could make it was really great movie worth the stress I endured for it also sorry if this doesn’t make sense I’m worked up so it probably sounds ranty and not right