#and the more i realise i really dont want that to be true?
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gay-dorito-dust · 6 hours ago
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Okay i dont know if you still do writings for isekai au’s, but imagine isekai’ed reader who shows up in gotham and somehow the batfam knows them from their favorite show/movie.
Like imagine the reader is like “omfg your jason todd”
And then jasons like “good lord your (reader)”
And now both parties are confused to how they both know each other but are from separate universes.
This but could you imagine that with Jason, you’re probably a character that he’s grown an unhealthy attachment to, kinda like how -if you fw Jason Todd like me- you have grown an attachment to him.
So this would come off really freaky, especially if you oh so happen to carry red hood comics on you for some light reading or when you were bored and had nothing to do, so by pure coincidence you come across the actual red hood as though one would as though you’ve seen him before.
The same could be said about you as well as Jason/ whoever finds you would think it’s pure coincidence that you look like the person they’ve read or watched, but when you say something that only they know you would say in these types of situations, then it becomes clear that something outside of both of yours and their control is going on.
That and I think that the bat family would bring you to the manor because it’s not everyday that someone walks through Gotham freely with their true identities within their heads. It was dangerous and frightening to allow such a thing to go unchecked.
You on the other hand, were scared with the idea that your entire life had been watched and read by vigilantes with far better lifestyles than yours, what if they’ve seen you piss? Or shower? Or get changed? Like your whole life was akin to that of the Truman show. It would feel like that to you but you couldn’t help but feel flattered knowing that the bat family knew you, but also felt conflicted on how comfortable you felt with random people knowing the lesser liked parts of yourself.
It would be a cool, yet frightening experience to know that in another reality you’re being consumed as someone else’s form of media. It’s enough to fuck your mind a little but you’d also want to know just how much they knew and vice versa.
So it’s a feeling that would die down from being cool to know that the multiverse exists, and become one of pure anxiety as you both knew each other deeply without ever having met one another, it felt overexposing and often a little backed into a corner of sorts.
You feel weirdly interested that Jason knew who you were.
Jason also felt weirdly interested that you knew who he was, but he’s more heavily guarded so that feeling would fade rather quickly upon realising just how much power you hold if a situation ever called for an exchange of personal information.
The novelty would wear off within minutes as an in depth discussion is to be had about what the fuck was going on with you.
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gayve-strider-man-rider · 4 months ago
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love paying thousands of dollars so I can sit in a lecture hall and over think my identity instead of maths
#its like. god idk. the more i think about it the more i feel like i have to accept that i am just aroace?#and the more i realise i really dont want that to be true?#it just. feels so fucking lonely#like. god.#all my friends are in relationships and im not. everyone was talking about childhood crushes yesterday and i just couldn't join in. we were#fillimg out these identity chart things and there just. wasnt an option for what i was#relationships are always going to be more important than friendships and that makes sense. i get that. but that also means im always going#to be lesser to someone else#like yes amato/allonormativity is bullshit and i shouldnt listen to it but. fuck its depressing feeling like im just missing a core part of#what makes someone a real person yk. it fucking sucks#like i think im already sensitive to that bc growing up trans and neurodivergent means i already feel like ive missed out on so many#milestones#and now i have this. and im always going to have this. and it fucking sucks#like idk!! i wanna date!! i want someone to care about me in that way!! but ill never be able to do that without feeling like im decieving#them so whats the fucking point yk!!#like im just overexaggerating the few hints of sexuality i have now to at least try to pretend i have one#because at least then i can be included in those conversations and not feel like a lesser person for those few seconds#but then it changes. and im back to feeling like a freak and half of a person !! and i feel like a freak and gross whenever i di exaggerate#my sexualoty at all so yk. no winning there ig#god idk#this got uh. more depressing than i thought#i think i just already feel lowkey like shit constantly so this just makes it worse?#idk. im too tired for this shit#thumbsup#i swear im normal
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sukunasweetheart · 1 year ago
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Thinking of breakup angst with sukuna...
Thinking of the build up towards it, the way you have been fighting over the littlest things for months now
It leads you to think about how self centered he can be, how you always feel like you loved him more than he loved you and how crushing it felt to have that realisation fall upon you every time
He can be so career focused sometimes, with the long business trips, work parties, etc. always working vehemently to get higher, threatening to leave you behind
And one particular night, the argument gets so heated that you dont get a wink of sleep afterwards, only staring blankly at nothing as you try to calm the chaos in your head. Sukuna heads out without a word the next morning, and you make the final decision in your head, alone, by yourself.
By the time sukuna comes back home with the intent of reconciliation, he finds that youre packing the remainder of your belongings into a suitcase in the bedroom, ready to move out of his home.
"what the fuck is all this?" he asks, his tone coming out harsher than he means it to be.
"what do you think? i'm breaking up with you. i'm moving out," you can barely stop your voice from wavering. you've cried too much this week.
"oh, come on. you know you don't mean that," he reaches out to grab your arm, but you withdraw away from his hand so fiercely that it even surprises him.
"don't you talk to me like that," you speak firmly, "like i'm being dramatic. why won't you ever treat me seriously? i am leaving, sukuna."
you continue your work, neatly folding up some of your shirts. you're already almost finished. he looks around, and the house looks half empty.
oh. you really mean it. you're really trying to leave.
"no, you're not. you're not leaving. not after everything we've been through together," he tells you defensively, grabbing your wrist, stopping you from folding your last shirt, trying to get you to look at him again.
"like what? constantly yelling at each other until our throats are sore? i'm really sick of it. and i'm sure you are, too."
"don't put words in my mouth. i may have gotten sick of our fighting, but i've never gotten sick of you," sukuna hisses, refusing to let you continue packing your things. you feel yourself getting swayed by his words.
"well, i am. i've gotten sick of you," you say quietly through gritted teeth.
"oh yeah? say it to me properly then. look at me dead in the eyes," he demands, voice getting lower.
"you heard me. i don't need to say it again." you pull away from his grip and try to get this last shirt folded. he grabs you again, by the hand this time, and the piece of clothing unravels once more.
"no, i didn't hear shit. convince me that you really want to leave me - and i'll let you go."
in a fit of anger, you turn to face him completely, but your resolve crumbles away when you see his expression. not the one you'd assigned to him in your own mind, but his true features, under the bright bedroom lights.
he looks serious. he looks concerned. he's asking you to tell him it's not true. tell him that you want to stay.
"...let me go. i'm leaving..." you say, voice finally breaking. like a broken faucet, your eyes begin leaking tears relentlessly and your throat closes up in that painful way that you hate, but nothing compares to the pain in your heart at the thought of really breaking up with this man here and now.
he lets you go...
and calmly takes your things out of the suitcase to put them back. you didn't miss the relief in his eyes that showed up for that split second.
"bring it back! i hate you," you attempt to raise your voice, but really, it's only just your ego speaking.
"you can't even say that you hate me in the correct tone. we're not breaking up," he mutters, hanging up your coats and putting them into the closet.
having been defeated, your legs give way and you sit down on the side of the bed, sobbing.
through the blur of your tears, you watch as he meticulously goes through your suitcase, putting everything where they belong. and you sob harder. he knows too much. he arranges your creams, perfumes and accessories in the perfect order on the dresser. he spends a good fifteen minutes, putting all of your belongings back where they should be.
and by the time he gets back to you, he's like a different man. the mattress dips from his weight as he sits next to you, bringing a box of tissues with him to wipe your tears away.
"we can talk tomorrow since we're both tired today," sukuna tells you as he dabs your eyes with the tissue, "i'll take the day off." you just sit still without responding. now that he mentioned it, the fatigue seems to fall upon you suddenly, like a brick. he coaxes you under the sheets.
soon, you find yourself in bed, in his arms. it's been a while since the two of you had cuddled so intimately. you feel oddly shy, the same way you did all those years ago when you first started dating him. there's a special kind of warmth that sukuna's body emits - and you're surrounded by it under these blankets.
"i'll try to do better... so don't go anywhere," he speaks with a softer tone.
because, it's true, he can't imagine living a life without you.
those are the last words you hear before you drift off to sleep.
the next morning, he's still in bed with you, and you're pleased to see he kept his word about taking the day off. checking the mirror, you're horrified and embarrassed about your swollen eyes from all the crying last night.
sukuna takes a look at you and chuckles without ill intent. but in your flustered state, you slap his arm until he's saying "my bad, my bad" in between laughs.
there's still some awkward tension between you and him, but going through breakfast together seems to melt some of that away, until you're ready to bring up yesterday's event.
it goes better than you'd expected, and after the discussion, the only thing that's left is to wait and see whether things will change for the better or not. whether his promises are empty or not.
"i didn't realise that you were so lonely. 'm sorry," he apologises as he plays with your hand, "i may work a lot, but you're always on my mind, doll."
it's like a huge weight off your shoulders.
and he begins to be more like his playful self again, after the talk.
"i'll need you to tell me that you love me today. since you told me you hated me yesterday," sukuna says with a smirk, hugging you from behind.
"well, you need to earn it," you shoot back, rolling your eyes.
"alright. will you say it back if i say it first?"
"sure."
"i love you."
"..."
"now that's not fair, is it?" he tickles you without mercy.
you burst out in laughter, thrashing around uncontrollably, trying to push him away.
"okay, okay! i love you!" you tell him in between breaths.
seemingly satisfied, he lets you go and pushes his face into the crook of your neck. he'll never let you go.
the following day after work, sukuna comes home earlier than usual, and he doesn't wear a grumpy expression in front of you. he greets you with a hug and kiss. it's a small gesture, but it makes you happy.
and slowly, the relationship begins to rekindle itself.
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loganhowlettshousewife · 9 days ago
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just a thought for a logan prompt, what about reader with feral traits? it could be either feral!logan or not. i just like the thought of logan connecting with someone who could really understand his feral behavior! no pressure to write this if you dont want to, love your work! 💕
this gave me the idea of what if the reader in animal had a similar mutation as logan with feral traits? so here's a little drabble about it. (this drabble isn’t connected to the series, just kinda inspired by.)
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your entire life you’ve had to hide your true self. as a very young child it was slightly more acceptable - you behaved strangely but surely you’d grow out of those strange habits. the problem came when you didn’t, when the growling and the biting and the scenting remained no matter how many years passed.
you were bullied and teased relentlessly, both by those who hated you and by those who claimed to be your friends. your parents were just as bad, telling you that if you wanted to act like an animal, they’d treat you like one. the only people who truly loved you were your grandparents, who had died a few years ago, leaving you to inherit their farm.
you’re much happier living in the middle of nowhere. it suits your nature, a wild part of you that cries out when you remain indoors for too long, when you’re stranded in concrete cities far from any natural wilderness.
you’re close enough to a town that you can go if you require anything, but far enough that no one will bother you under the pretense of ‘being neighbourly’. and the solitude means you don’t have to constantly worry about putting on a mask, a false personality that takes all of your energy to maintain.
everything changes the day you see a naked man running into your barn. 
you tense at the sight, a growl escaping you at the thought of a stranger on your property, the hair on your arms raising as your fight or flight mode activates. your instincts win over the self-preservation that’s been drilled into you since birth, the voice in your head saying to lock the door and hide inside until the man hopefully leaves.
so you approach the barn, your steps expertly silent. despite this, he notices you immediately, growling at another presence in the barn in much the same way you had earlier. it almost makes you laugh, but then his claws come out, stealing the breath from your lungs.
he’s wild as he stares at you, not like the predator he should be but rather with a fear that reminds you of prey when they finally realise they’re being hunted. you can smell it in his scent, his desire to flee, and yet he doesn’t.
somehow you convince him to follow you inside. it’s certainly a terrible idea, and yet you can’t ignore the pull that you feel towards him, the way his mere presence feels like coming home in a way you’d never felt with anyone before. the word pack rattles around in your brain, an echo bouncing back no matter how much you try to push it away.
you feed him and help him bathe and offer him fresh clothes, and by the time the sun sets, he’s mostly recovered from his shock. you let him stay with you, and as he grows more comfortable around you, day after day, you start to notice it.
he subtly sniffs at things in the same way you’d trained yourself not to do. he growls and purrs and grunts, animal noises to express how he feels rather than human words. he’s horribly possessive over anything he considers as belonging to him. he’s aggressive, scratching and biting when he’s angry. he’s more gentle when he play fights, still biting but gentle, just nipping at your skin. he makes nests of blankets and pillows that he steals from your room, whimpering like a wounded puppy when you’d once tried to take one of your pillows back.
and in return, he notices the way you hold back in trying to do the same. the way you press your nose into the crook of his neck where his scent is strongest whenever you need comfort, the way you bite back growls when he takes something from you, the soft purring that escapes you when he scratches your scalp.
there’s a quiet understanding that forms, the knowledge that you’re the same. he doesn’t have to hide his animalistic traits with you and neither do you have to hide from him. it takes time to unlearn years of hiding, but with logan, you have all the time in the world.
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tarotwithavi · 10 months ago
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Random messages for you
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How to choose a pile?
Close your eyes and kindly ask your spirit guides or guardian angels to choose the right pile for you and then open your eyes, whichever pile attracts you is the right pile for you.
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PILE 1
The person who doesn't choose a side often finds themselves aligned with the wrong one.
Some of you are about to enter a new relationship. You guys literally manifested this person.
Let go of regret of the past. What's done is done. It cannot be changed, instead focus on the present.
Slow and steady always wins the race. Remember slow progress is still progress. Descipline is better than motivation. Because motivation will start declining with time, discipline will not.
I see that you're trying to manifest your dream friend group, it may take some time.
Some of you are about to be recognised for your appearance. You may get accepted for modeling.
You're about to be in a position of authority. Do not abuse your power. Be humble.
You have two choices either start from zero or go with the flow. Choose wisely.
I see a group of three friends meeting. You may reconnect with some old friends.
I also see that you're able to win something. You're going to attract a lot of attention.
Pile 2
You're about to enter the luckiest time of your life. You'll start experiencing miracles from left to right.
I see that some of you are trying to change your mindset around money and I want to let you know that it'll help you a lot.
Some of you may get the chance to travel to your dream country this year.
I see a proposal from a fire sign in the near future but I must warn you that this person is not ready for commitment.
Something you wished for a long time ago is going to come true.
Ask for help when needed. You cannot do everything alone.
Develop a new skill, it'll help you in future.
Let your creative ideas come to life. start something new.
Have balance Between your logical and emotional side.
I see that coy fish is going to be really significant for you.
You need to realise that the prison you're living in is created by your mind.
Go on a vacation and enjoy your time, plan out fun activities with the people you love, spend more time with your pets.
Pile 3
someone from your past is thinking about you, this person may be a bit older than you but they seem immature for their age.
you should move on from that situationship, it was not worth you time and energy.
i see that some if you are going to encounter a new person, this person will become a great friend to you. this person may be born in february.
i am getting the message that some of you will move to a new place by the next new moon.
someone has their eyes on you, this person may be a doctor or studying medicine.
you should use affirmation "i am ready" and add the thing yiu want to manifest, like "I am ready for my dream job"etc.
If you are planning to get a new haircut you should wait sometimes or dont go to your regular hairdresser because i see that they may mess it up this time.
i see a new job oppotunity coming towards you in the nest 10 days, this job may be related to dealing wth cash or finances.
Look out for toxic habits and behaviors, dont hold onto things that are not serving you anymore.
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tofupixel · 2 months ago
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I feel like this is the worst time to start doing art because every where corporate greed takes over and they push out some thing that either hinder or harm artist in many ways.I'm not sure of me doing art anymore, this feel imposible to grow on social media without getting F by some dude with a lot of money. Maybe art is not a good fit for me rn. Sorry if it not a question
maybe, i mean for me it makes no difference if a website becomes too shit, i will just stop using it. i will still keep doing art and hopefully continue to find work.
things are feeling increasingly hostile for digital artists but people who are younger than me may not realise how bad it used to be. before the internet we had to go to school and go work in a studio, do traditional and hope you get into galleries, or nothing. which a lot of the time was really hard for working class people to enter
my parents basically told me dont do art you will never make it and you will never make money (which isnt true in the modern day)
its more accessible than ever but that also means its more competitive. if u want to do art like i do then nothing should stop you!
i also think all this shit is temporary, like i do believe there will be some restrictions on generative AI (the law is always slow on tech) and i also believe these shit websites will eventually push too many people away and will have to do some things right to get userbase back
thats what i think anyway. a lot of people who do art have been doing it despite everyone telling us not to, and its always been an uphill battle, so just another barrier doesnt change anything to me. artists are strong 💪
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ay-chuu · 4 months ago
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Thank you, next? (Ex!)
Obey me boys (brothers + dateables <except simeon>) past lovers hcs and thoughts about why mc is different from them. <AKA why they fell for you> (By the way i didnt specify any gender in ex's because i talk about all genders!!) Mc is gn too!
(Warning: kinda suggestive. Talking about one night stands and pls, pls spare my grammer mistakes eng. Is not my first language 😔🤙🏾)
Notes: idk why but i couldn't write for my fav, simeon. Maybe i will add him to this post in future
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Lucifer
I dont think his pride let him date someone ever. He stayed in the line of courting and flirting. Like really a lot. He just wanted to see if they were going to gain his affection or not. The persons im actually talking about is always... prideful like him. He never gave a chance to people like Diavolo. (So diavolo was his first in this category AHEM!) Loyals to noble, citizen to high society. It didnt matter to him. He flirted everyone who catched his attention (which is really hard...) and when it happened it just ended with some one night stands. He never felt love. He just liked them for fun, passion or just to... experience. Witches, sorcerers, demons, angels... it really didnt matter to him.
Personas like Mc was out of his lines naturally. His pride didnt even make him thought about it. But as his brothers started to be fond of you, he realised what he misses. The real sincerity he wants, the real experience he aches... that was the first realization of his love for you.
Mammon
He dated people that mostly like him. careless, luxury-loving, praise-loving and boastful... you know the starboys, stargirls, star people like 'amazing' as him. Models, actresses, actors, singers, idols... and even though he never dated a witch he had some one night stands. Sorry for bad example but until meeting mc, dating for him was like leanardo di'caprios love life 👋🏼😭 (HE DOESN'T HAVE THE AGE PROBLEM PLS)
The reason he fell hard was how he actually felt some really careness from mc unlike some fake praises or just you know... unnecessary exaggerated sentences. But with mc, he really felt like being listened. Being cared, being not put the role of some jerk.
Leviathan
None. Except you count his 3 months virtual lover lolol?? He was just jealous of his brothers and wanted to experience it but he just really felt like doing some lovers rp in that time. Even his brothers doesn't know this too.
Does he really have to explain? You always acted him nice. Never saw him as a key of something. You really loved to listen his yapping. And never judged him for a something that he actually screwed. Yoy accepted him as a friend, and he did too. But as some time passes... he realised he was in love with his true friend.
Satan
Dating? No. Courting? No. Flirting? For some fun and lust, yes. Just these. Except that he loved to be unique socialite. He loved to feel the 'i want to be with you' eyes on him. He never admits this too. But like a cat, he just loved to gain it. His social connections are everwhere so from witches to sorcerers, models to artists, lower demons to nobles he always got the attention he wanted. But like i said it was just some fun. A passion that lasts as long match. Thats all.
You accepted the challenge of peeling his barriers. And the first time you did... he was really angry. (The moment you declined his pact offer) he really didnt like to fail his achieves. But you didnt like it either. He loved that. But all aside, you found his existential crisis a solve. And you just did it because it became right to you. Not because you wanted to impress him... or lucifer. He felt this in his long life for first.
Asmodeus
... do you really need me to explain? All people. He tried every kind, sort, type, every! As long as he felt like a new kind of challenge, a new kind of lust and being worshiped. When i say everyone i mean it. From the devildom to human world. Even when he was an angel. He was just a bit more careful and less playful then.
Not being able to charm you? Challenge accepted. Being x2 times AND emotionally charmed by you? Take it back. TAKE IT BACK! He always loved to being attached not to attached to someone! But as he knows you more, he realize this is also a new kind of feeling! He always thought live long loves were going to make him so bored and prisoned at some point. And he was right about being prisoned. But did he care? Not anymore.
Beelzebub
Nahh even he did tried to date [he was just curious] it backfired. Whenever the person asked for some alone time or date he always declined because of some kind of planned event with his brothers. And with some time this caused the relationships end naturally. His family was always first for him.
And thats the reason. His family is always FIRST for him. And you, who saved his brother and made his family all happy and together again also were a family member. You were just new in it. You did what he couldnt. He was so grateful to have you... and his admiration for you turned to love. Because he realized how perfect you personality was. Because he realized how his family was healed with you.
Belphegor
He probably always made fun of this topic like an emo boy 🥲 whenever he felt some urges like lust he just had some one night stands. He was so focused on his self hatred side and that made him always look down on love.
And now he also hates about himself for this too. He always felt guilt how this way of thinking made him hurt you. How someone like you, just a human, free him from lucifer and... his own prison. He killed your trust. He literally strangled it with his hand. But still, you found a way to find a new trust again and show to him. He really believed he really didn't deserve you. And when he realized that, he knew what he was feeling.
Diavolo
He did it for learning duty. As the prince of devildom he must know how to court a lady, gentleman or anybody. So he really courted lots of person. He was really kind to them. Even though he was forced to do so with some of them (ahem politic reasons) he never dropped his perfect act. But problem was here. It was all act. He never felt like saying the things he actually said. Or when he spent the night away with them he always felt so weird after with it. Still knowing he was going to marry a demon someday and going to do that anyways, he did not think so much on it.
But never he did think he would fallen love with a human that he invited. At first he really tried to deny and reason himself. Like even though he did break all the 3 barriers and connected them, this didn't gave a permission to have you. Still, he didnt care. He always acted like a good prince and he still does. Doesn't he deserves some really sincerity. Doesn't he deserves your kind actions. Even if its a little bit, doesn't he deserves you?
Barbatos
This mf... bro is the kind of parent that did all kind of things but never let his son doing it. I mean it. When he was using his power freely he did lots of sins about love. Breaking hearts, seducing someone taken to have it himself, then leave them to start a new adventure... man was the owner of the song: heartless. But since he started to serve as diavolo's butler, he changed all of his personas about this. Even his one night stands was so rare. And he is acting like a such a parent about this too. Like when diavolo starts to say about his new courtship bro is yapping like "may i meet them first my lord?" . If there was a thing that didn't changed about him, this was how slowly he would give himself to someone.
And this happened with you too. When he sensed your interest, he hid himself pretty well. But the trouble was, Barbatos realized that your interest was more of a pure curiosity than the curiosity he had experienced in the past. In fact, many people had approached him like this in the past. The difference was that now he had really changed. Goodness, did many year let him forget what was exciting about this... but no. This was so much better. Because for a first time, he wanted to give in really. For a first time he wanted to last it long. Yes he changed a lot. And he wished he did it sooner.
Solomon
I do not think in game he had 700 wives and 300 concubine BUT i think he dated some people for benefits. Like more power, knowledge, etc. Also he had a loong life as human so im sure he had sone interests. But he never felt... the one for him. He just felt nice, giggly, also got the things he wanted. Thats all. "It was nice while it lasted" is the quote for him.
At first he was amused how every brother started to fall for you one by one. This got him curious. He actually thought you were like him and always found a way to charm someone to make them do the things you wanted. But he didn't expect you to be REALLY get attached to brothers because you love them. And it was this easy for you. He was all alone in his thoughts and goals almost in every inch of his life. But you came, didn't question him, just wanted to help him with his loneliness like you did the brothers. You didn't even asked more from him but he wanted to give you more. So he ofdered you to be his apprentice. For him, you were a diamond he had been searching in underground for decades.
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greenflamedwriter · 1 year ago
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I'm the protagonist, bitch!
What if SY transmigrated as Luo Binghe and had to go through the main trials and abuse under the scum villain Shen Qingqiu?
And in typical SY fashion, ends up deluding himself and no longer cares what Sqq is doing? Since Luo Binghe knows he's going to go into literal hell everything sqq does seem tame in comparison? He starts thinking "If being whipped is making me cry...how will I be when I lose a limb in the abyss!?"
Then he starts seeing this as inpromptu training, he gives SQQ the peerless cucumber roast of a lifetime JUST to get more punishment! He has to get stronger!
And of course in true Scum villain fashion, SQQ backs off and starts treating LBH as a disciple and just ignores him.
This is grossley unfair!
Shen Yuan AS Luo Binghe.
 So SY transmigrates as Luo Binghe and already doesnt feel comfortable as a grown ass man taking wives who were mostly Binghes age with the occasional milf thrown in there. So he decides fuck it, he’ll get stronger deal with he abyss when he gets to it and at first wanted revenge on SQQ then decided it was too much hassle. He just wanted to be left alone. But the scum villain keeps bothering him, and actually seems to like him- why? What changed!? The hell!?
-SY transmigrates as Luo Binghe.
Has the horror that as the protagonist his lufe is a living hell, continous tortourous chores, being whipped and beaten for the tiniest offense how will a millenial survive!
[Welcome Host you can you up! As the protagonist you are the workds child and no lasting harm will befall you-]
“Yeah but I’ll still be harmed.”
[An over powered protagnosit at the start if his journey is too unrealistic.
 Tasks for hosts are;
Create a harem.
Fall into the endless abyss.
Take revenge on Shen Qingqiu.
Merge the realms!]
“I dont want to do any if that!”
[System has heard users complaints and sees that Host will only do one scenario!]
Oh thank god
[System has taken the liberty of choosing the task- endless abyss arc!]
You fuck!
-SY stole a manual. If he wanted to survive the abyss he had to be stronger. Having an unstable core will do him no favours…
So far he was able to keep his head down but realised something. When he first transmigrated the first thing that happened he was beaten. And it hurt.
Then he was whipped and it hurt but…
Luo Binghe was going into the abyss- even with his demon blood awakened he would face a ton of horrors and so much pain his own arm ripped of.
“A-lou? You look pale,” His shiejie spoke placing a hand over his head.
 If he wanted to survive he would have to build up his pain tolerence…
Steadying his rabid heartbeat Luo Binghe smiled.
“This one is fine.”
He purposfully acts out, and tried not to cry- it was just intimidating okay! That he was being whipped while his Shizun supervised-
Did Shen Qjngqiu really have to sit there and watch the sadistic fuck!
Even so, he built himself up stronger.
He accidently proposed to Ming fan that he had no intention of seeing Ning Yinying that way as she was like a sister.
But seeing a man bully someone they percoeved as their little brother how would you react? If Ming Fan acted kind to Binghe he could also hang oht with Ning Yingying.
 “You can have one on one time with Ning Yingying, she’ll be happy that we’re getting along.”
“You just want me to help with your chores-“
“Of course not. This one will do extra and Ning Yingying likes to talk or gets bored easily you can stop and play with her instead.”
And just like that he matchmaked the two, and had all the wood chopping to himself.
It was frustrating coming from a modern eorld you’d think he knew hie to get stronger.
But that was all er-ge. He knew the difference between working out and only looking like a model but was weak and unfit. Meanwhile people who gained weight and looked bigger were often stronger.
Even so, Luo Binghe used the kitchens to his advantage while eating he would study and in his own time would train even dyring the night.
 And if he felt tired he would purposfully sleep in during his Shizuns lessons.
Extra points for snowing loudly.
Of course he rejoiced in the day he no longer felt pain on his back. He even told Shen Qingqiu himself that what point was the punishment if he now felt nothing?
So now he had to sit on pins, hanging off the mountain and not fall to his death because his arms got tired.
 Even so it’d make him stronger.
“Ah binghe can you take this to Peak Lord Shen?”
He blinked then stared at the food. 
And he suddenly had a wicked idea.
He may not want revenge kn his scumbag shizun, even though he deserved it. Lucky for him he was so lazy!
 But this would be the most sweetest revenge.
He decided to take the food up for Shen Qingqiu passing it to Mong Fan.
 “What are you doing with Shizuns food?”
“I was already in the kitchen, while the cooks told me to bring it.”
Ming Fan looked suspicious and Luo Binghe held the urge to roll his eyes.
“You can taste test it if you eant although, Shizun wont be pleased by the delay.”
To be fair, Shizun never ate. He never slept either. The only time he oerked was when he went doen the mountain. He sure had an addiction.
Luo Binghe almost said nothing then remembered he needed to get in trouble and punished!
 “Visiting the brothel, again, Shizun?”
The other gaped at his audacity, to be fair, Shen Qingqiu could kick him of the mountain, but after reassuring with the system that would never happen.
 Shen Qingqiu paused and only glanced back, cold eyes sneering down at Luo Binghe.
 Luo Binghe shivered, he sure was the scum villain alright, so scary!
Such a waste of good looks too.
 “Luo Binghe to the wood shed.”
He bowed, “Yes, Shizun.”
Unknwowing that to others he was practically going whth a slring in his step.
“Why do you rebel against your master so? Are you a glutton for punishment?”
Luo Binghe was forced to kneel before Shen Qingqiu, his legs bloodied and skin torn.
 The original goods would’ve broken Shen Qingqius legs for that.
But kneoing he may lose a leg in the endless abyss he was fine with it.
 “This disciple has nothing but respect for Shen Qjngqiu.”
Hah as if! He wished for nothing but Shen Qingqius castration!
 “This disciple is aware how…behind he is compared to everybody else and only wishes to be stronger. After being whipped to the point of no linger feeling pain?”
He missed the wide eyes of Shen Qjngqiu as he kept speaking.
 “This disciple knows many more trails are to come and this one has to be stronger to face them. So far the punishments have given this Binghe so much thatvhe can’t hope to ever repay. But as the years passed noticed less punishments…”
It was strange usually this was when Qjngqiu got worse.
“This Binghe never wanted to lose all that progress and so…to continue this disciple had to…escalate such things to get what I wanted.”
When he glanced up he blanched, he’d never seen Shen Qingqiu look so enraged!
Luo Binghe realised what he said then bowed, face red in shame.
“This disciple apologises! He should have spoken with Shizun first! And never went about his own training in such a way! This disciple was wrong!”
“Oh, so now you understand?”
Easy for you! Binghe was focused on survivng the abyss! Not your ego! 
 “It seems this Shizun was rewarding such behaviour. Are you truly a masochist?”
Shen Qingqiu used his foot to raise Luo Binghes chin from the floor!
Luo Binghe kept hos face impassive the only thing giving him away was a small twitch.
 He did not want that type of attention from his scumbag Shizun! God damn it!
“N-no Shizun this lowly one only wanted-“
The foot moved, and before Binghe could even relax, Shen Qingqiu rose as he stepped on his head pushing him intk the floor, Luo Binghe turned his nose just in time befkre it made contact.
He grunted, unable to move. Only riding it out until his scum Shizun got it out of his system. But this sucked.
 “What a degenrate beast, thinking he can take advantage of his Shizun. You don’t care aboht getting stronger only using that as an axcuse to get away with being disrespectful.”
Luo Binghe opened his mouth then closed it, to be fair…Luo Binghe did enjoy being able to clap back and roast Shen Qingqiu and even being beaten bloody and blue he thought-
Worth it!
Shen Qingqiu noticed then pushed his foot down harder.
Luo Binghe scowled.
 “With this type of punishment sometimes wonder werher you get off on this, Shizun.”
Shen Qingqiu paused, “What did you say?”
“Visiting all those brothels, and favouring Ning Yingying so, what if sineone where to walk in right now and see this, wouldn’t they jump to conclusions?”
Shen Qingqiu gripped his fan- ha a reaction! Even the original goods had never made him break his fan!
Luo Binghe wanted a record, lips twitching.
 “Whose the degenerate now? Pervert Shizun.” 
 Shen Qingqiu grabbed his hair yanking it back then slammed him into the floor.
 It was too quick to hurt.
All Luo Binghe knew was the blood pouring down his nose all over Shizuns lamenated flooring.
 “Clean yourself up. Then come back and clean this mess and if this stains this master will,”
Luo Binghe looked up at him tiredly, raisng an eyebrow.
 He’ll what? Beat him, burn him?
Kill him?
Ha! he can try he’s the motherfucking protagonist!
 Shen Qingqiu paused, eyes narrowing and Luo Binghe had to inwardly cackle.
Ha he did it! He broke Shen Qingqiu!
 Who knew his tried and true method of pissing of trolls online was apathy and not caring! Peerless cucumber for the win!
 Luo Binghe bowed, “if that’ll be all Shizun, this Binghe will return to clean his mess.”
That you made, he left unsaid.
After that things went…wrong.
Shen Qingqiu ignored him.
No one bullied him, no one hit him. Even when Luo Binghe poured tea all over Shen Qingqius head, it was scalding hot too!
He wasn’t punished.
No. No. No. no-
 The endless abyss was only a year away! 
And are you freaking kidding me! What wanting to get punished made Shen Qingqiu finally act like a decent Shizun!?
That asshole.
Whenever he saw him Luo Binghe couldn’t help but glare his scowl darkening and saw the smug bastards smirk.
 It was awful, Luo Binghe was so used to being on the attack and on guard.
So now he jumped at the slighest sound, thank god no one was there to see him flinch away from a bunny!
And his workload was depleted! He barely had any chores and suddenly realised he had so much free time!
Damn that scumbag!
 Its funny, the lriginal goods would give his left leg to be treated this way…as an actual disciple of Qing Jing Peak and yet…
 It felt wrong. Luo Binghe was completely thrown off it almost affected his appetite!
Wait.
Luo Binghe paused, the endless abyss was a matter of survival.
He was going to have to get used to not drinking water or finding food as well as fighting.
 Luo Binghe, who was going through the motions as he sparred with the rest of the disciples, going through the qing jing peak forms-
He never did before, too busy doing chores to never realise his manual was fake.
…he could’ve went to Mu Qingfang but knew his meridians were healthy and could easily be called a liar.
So he instead left two manuals on Shen Qingqius desk and wrote in the best caligraphy to ever grace the earth;
“I know this is a fake asshole.”
Of course Luo Binghes writing was awful in lessons! But now that Shen Qingqiu was no longer punishing him. Luo Binghe didnt hold back or doodle anymore.
Instead writing as many pages as he could neatly and was done befkre the glass.
The only irritation when Shen Qingqiu realised was a slight eye twitch.
 As well as other lessons, easily able to create the object they were supposed to paint before Shen Qingqiu could even critisice him Luo Binghe beat him to it.
 “The perspective is off and the bounce light is coming from the wrong direction. This disciple apologises for wasting paint.” He spoke in a bored tone.
The other disciples whose work was way worse felt themselves drop in shame.
If Luo Binghes was bad how in the fuck where they going to compete!?
 With all this three time, he decided to spend every moment in the library and study demonic beasts.
His memory was good and he of course knew every single weakness how cluld he not? The monsters were the only redemable thing in PIDW.
Poor Binghe he deserved better!
 He could train with Liu Qingge? Maybe say hey my Shizun is better than you and I can prove it fight me!
 Huh thats a plan. 
But the fact that Liu Qingge was alive was weird, after asking around it turns out Shang Qinghua had something to do with that…
 It was strange- but he didnt have time for that he had to focus! And being hungry was really making it hard.
Even so better doing this now in an enviroment where the wkrst thing that can happen is him collapsing.
Other than the abyss where he might end up dying.
 His head was splitting, he could barely sleep because of the pain.
  There had to be good spots in the abyss for water but airplane skipped it!
Oh no the porn was more improtant than survival! Dumb fuck!
Even so, he had to be lerfect in class, as well as remain consistent in his spars and able to face off against disciples.
And he was doing great! He wasnt hungry as much he could still fight okay the headaches he had grown used to so its fine!
 If he couldn’t fight hand to hand with a freakin disciple then how the fuck was he going to last one day in the abyss!
What Luo Binghe didnt know was he was the world child and the abyss wouldn’t be so bad in the sense it was supposed to make him stronger.
In the original story, Luo Binghe only clawed his way out for his hatred for Shen Qingqiu.
The system was very aware that this Luo Binghe…had no ambition.
 With nothing to keep him motivated, Luo Binghe may give up and so the system had no choice but to make the abyss easier.
Although technically it wasn’t unlike the original goods who was tossed in unprepared, terrible base, and ignorant.
This Luo Binghe has been training so of course it was going to be easier.
 But seriously host was damaging himself!
Luo Binghe, was panting harshly, his hands weak.
 He had to pace himself.
He knew his stomach would shrink if he stopped eating, he couldnt over indulge or he might hurt hinself or his stkmach might explode.
He had to get used to smaller bites.
 And learn how to ration food.
It got to the point where even Shen Qingqius food which used to smell heavenly just smelled.
It was still good. But he didnt want to eat it.
He knew logically his food tasted good, he just didnt care for it.
 When he delivered placing it down before his Shizun.
 Remebering the time Shizun found out his meals were cooked by Binghe! Was pricless he looked like he could cough up blood! 
The truth cane out when Binghes hands were injured, and of course he couldn’t train so he bawled telling Shizun not his hands how will he cook for him!?
 Thats when Shen Qjngqiu found out, and he had the most darkest mood ever.
The disciples of course took it out on Binghe, then he remembered oh yeah, Luo Binghe lost a limb in the abyss! Ergo more training!
So he was able to dodge and fight his way out with just his legs!
The fact that he was in a tree when Shen Qingqiu found him, with a ton of disciples tormening him he almkst laughed at Shen Qingqius face!
 Oh if only he still had a cellphone.
Ah if only his hands could work and take one too!
Instead Luo Binghe decided to paint Shen Qingqiu and it had to be his best work yet!
He had to admit it was the only healthy way to get the aggresion out his system. 
Art was therapytic no matter what Qingqiu said!
 And his woodshed was…covered.
On one hand he wanted to hide them, on the other?
He wanted someone to see and get pissed and punish him for it.
Now, Luo Binghe thought bored, he never gets punished. He was starting to miss it.
 doodling another Shen Qingqiu, his fault for being so handsome!
He drew Ming fan occasionally as well as the other male disciples.
Ying shijie always pouted that he never drew her as his french girl.
But he couldn’t!
Knowing the relationship the two had, anything could trigger a romance he did t want to risk it!
Men were safer!
He just said drawing ugly people was better to learn, Ning Yingying is too lretty unfortunatly!
She flushed then decided to say nothing else.
 Even so, Ming Fan was growing into his looks, he wasnt as gokd looking as Binghe but he no longer looked like an awful mini Scum.
 Luo Binghe was so tired he found his limbs shaking.
 His clothes were too big and he kept tripping on them.
And his head was pounding.
 One foot then-
He blinked his eyes open to see a ceiling, what?
 He tried to get up until a hand grabbed his head and lushed him back down.
Luo Binghe yelped, looking up to see Shen Qingqius dark face.
What? Was he upset Binghe was still alive? Well sorry oh great and bountiful Shizun this Binghe will try harder next time!
Shen Qingqius lips twitched into a sneer.
“Luo Shizi. Please don’t try to kill yourself no matter how much you want praise from someone.”
 Luo Binghe blanched, did he say that outloud?
“Now, might want me to explain why Luo Shizi is neglecting hinself?”
Mu Qingfang asked sktging before Luo Binghe.
It was…weird seeing two peaklords staring him down…
“Um, This Binghe wanted to be prepared in case…at any point found himself somewhere with no food or water and had to survive.”
He spoke, it was a very valid fear! Anything can happen to a cultivator!
“Why would you think that would happen to you- to take such an extreme risk such as this, to prevent it?”
 Luo Binghe’s eyes flickered to Shen Qingqiu for a split second but it was enough to make Shen Qingqiu snap.
“You really believe this Lord will do that to you?”
Luo Binghe stared at him and Shen Qingqiu looked more annoyed.
“Stop looking at me like that!”
Like what? Was he pulling a face?
(He was, he always gave Shen Qingqiu that look when he thought the kfher was being fumb)
“Luo Shizu has Shen Qingqiu done something to make you act this way, has he hurt you?”
“No.”
Both spoke at the same time, Shen Qingqiu looked surprised at Luo Binghe who stared straight ahead at Mu Qingfang.
 “This Binghe, has never been harmed by Shizun. In fact this one has been spoiled! This Binghe only wants to get stronger and prove that Shizun didnt make a mistake in making me his disciple!”
Mu Qingfang melted “Oh Shizi, you don't have to prove yourself. Afterall most of the peak knows that you are a gifted young student!”
Now Luo Binghe paused, sorry what? Since when!?
 “So theres no need to push yourself. You are a growing boy! And developing an eating disorder in this stage could damage your cultivation!”
Luo Binghe blinked, well…no it won't matter to a heavenly demon.
To a human sure, maybe but he was the protagonist he would be fine!
“Shen Qingqiu, you’ll have to watch him.”
Oh sweet! Shen Qingqiu wouldn’t give a shit! As long as Luo Binghe was careful and ate a little bit he wouldn’t collapse and be more careful he should be fine!
Both noticed Luo Binghe perk, Mu Qingfang felt something ease to know how much the disciples loved their Shizun.
Meanwhile Shen Qingqiu gave the other a narrowed eyed stare on why the thought of Shen Qingqiu watching him would being him delight?
As soon as they walked back to Qing Jing Peak, Luo Binghe turned in the direction of the wood shed to continue reading his books until he choked as the back of his collar was tugged yanking him back.
 “Where do you think you’re going?”
Shen Qingqiu asked, lightly fanning his face while holding Binghe by the scruff like a misbehaving dog.
 “My…room?”
Shen Qingqiu’s eyes twitched.
“You really believe this lord is going to leave you unsupervised?”
Luo Binghe gave him that look again.
 And Shen Qingqiu’s first impulse was to slap him.
 He held back, knowing his wayward disciple probably enjoyed that!
“Since this Shizun has been so neglectful of his poor student,” 
Luo Binghe twitched, tensing up waiting for the guillotine.
What was his Shizun up to?
 “This Lord will have to personally take care of you hinself.”
Luo Binghe blinked then froze.
Shit.
Shit!
He had no idea this could happen- but to be fair he thought his Shizun would bite off his own tongue rather than pretend to be caring for someone like Binghe!
 “From now on you will be living with me in the side room at the bamboo house.”
If Shen Qingqiu wasn’t holding him Luo Binghe would’ve fell on his ass.
 What?
“Come on, what meagee things did you need at your room that you were in a hurry to get?”
Luo Bknghe grit his teeth and had to turn stiffly as he walked towards the wood shed and entered.
Shen Qingqiu stayed at the doorway not entering, and instead watching Luo Binghe gather his books and manual.
 He checked the contents making sure it wasn't another fake one the shoved it in a quirken pouch.
 He wasn't stupid or had an eating disorder for christ's sake!
 He just could be reliant on constant fokd only to die of something silly like starvation or hunger day 3 in the abyss!
 And Shen Qingqiu did not even comment on the wood shed being his room other than the dorms.
The bastard.
 “I’m ready, Shizun.”
Instead Shen Qingqiu didn't move, baring his exit while he stood on the doorway.
“Aren’t you forgetting something?”
 His eyes flickered to the back wall.
…that was full of his paintings and charcoal sketches of Shen Qingqiu and…others.
Okay sure after fighting Liu Qingge he had to draw him too!
 Luo Binghe didn't move.
“The disciples can use it as tinder for the fire if needed. So why move them?”
 Luo Binghe tilted his head, “And Shizun does not expect this disciple to live in the side room for the next foreseeable future this Binghe will return back to the woodshed in no time so why move them?” He asked, tilting his head to the side.
Shen Qingqku snapped his fan shut and turned with a flourish of his robes.
How unfair, Binghe was still in his disciple era and can't do that yet.
 With each step he followed Shen Qingqiu to his new home, mulish expression on his face.
  The other disciples scowled darkly at him in envy.
Afterall its the first time any one other than the head disciple had been so close to the peak lord.
 Luo Binghe went straight to the side room and started tidying.
 He’ll have to sort out the linen sheets and wash them, dust, then wipe the floor, open the window for ventilation-
 He ended up washing the sheets outside and once they were dry with a tailsman he brought then back then paused to see his room was done.
Somebody had already cleaned and wiped down the floor.
The window was open allowing a nice cool breeze in the warn room.
“Ming Fan had finished your room. All you have to do is put your things away. You are under direct orders from Mu Qingfang not to over exert yourself.”
Luo Binghe scowled “Yes, Shizun.” 
It was a nightmare.
His Shizun would demand lunch and watch Luo Binghe eat then would make sure he didn't go to the bathroom to throw it up-
Like he would!
 Shen Qjngqiu even told him to stop eating when he seemed to realise it was too much for Binghes recovering stomach before even he knew.
 Even so he was monitored, made sure he slept and didn't read well into the night.
When Shen Qingqiu learned this he ended up tying Binghe in immortal binding cables and laying him in bed.
 Shen Qjngqiu was more aggrieved to learn that's why he was sleeping through his lessons.
 He couldn’t train as much, and usually Luo Binghe would act cool and aloof.
 But this was killing him.
Ming Fan was taking some sick delight out of this he knew it.
 And Luo Binghe’s temper was growing short, the immortal alliance was coming up soon and with the way this was going he was not going to survive.
 [Host! In order to complete the endless abyss arc- user has to prove he can enter the immortal alliance conference or he may be dropped from the list!]
…what?
“I- I can skil the abyss?”
[Luo Binghe must enter the abyss. Failure to do so Hkst will be ejected from his body and restored to the original one]
Luo Binghe blinked, placing a hand over his chest at the thought.
 He had to get better or he wont jump to his possible death?
What was the point?
 Luo Binghe clutched his arms, and made himself smaller in the room.
Okay. Okay he can deal with this.
The next morning, Luo Binghe felt as if he was run over by a truck.
 His emotions were all over the place… probably from his fucked up diet. 
 He glanced up at Shen Qingqiu who ate with poise.
Mu Qingfang told him it was better if Binghe ate with someone. And that someone had to be his scumbag shizun.
He really didn't understand him…you'd think he’d encourage this type of behaviour? 
 “Stop staring and eat your food, mongrel.”
What a dick.
Luo Binghe was pushing his food around and forced himself to take a bite.
“Shizun?”
“What.”
Luo Binghe stared down at his food.
“If this disciple regulated his eating habits only to then fall back into the same habits later down in the future- what would happen?”
“You would die.”
Shit-fuck!
“So this disciple should stop eating now instead-“
He was hot with a fan.
It was less painful that anything Shen Qingqiu has done to him before. It just surprised him.
 “Why prepare for something that may never happen? Why not just build your own grave then lie in it and be done with it? Theres no point wasting this masters time by making you a disciple just to watch you throw it away. You can’t be trusted, that is no longer your body. It’s mine, not one scratch, not one bruise and not one bone protruding without my say so.”
Luo Binghe scowled down at his food.
So now he cares? 
 “This one can still function as a disciple discreetly if you're worried about what others think. Contrary to popular belief I don't want to die.”
Shen Qingqiu looked unimpressed,
“Then what do you call this? Do you miss those punishments so much you would reduce yourself to self harm?”
Luo Binghe blinked, “Self harm? This is only to get stronger, now this Binghe can function without headaches after skipping meals compared to before-“
“Stop.” Shen Qingqiu really looked irritated.
“You are a cultivator, if you don't want to eat work on your core instead, so you have inedia.”
He would but Meng Mo told him if he pushes his core anymore his demonic cultivation will throw it out of balance. So far he’s been working on building that up. 
 By the systems calculations he wouldn’t be able to unlock that ability for the abyss.
To make it more angsty for the readers.
For fucks sake.
So now he was back at square one. Couldn’t train like before and had to go back to the same amount of chores as the others. Finishing quicker but befkre he could even help Shen Qingqiu would aopear like his fucking shadow and punish the ones Luo Binghe helped.
Shen Qingqiu realised he was fine with punishments but when others got hurt on his account Luo Binghe would back off!
Why!?
The original Luo Binghe would be ecstatjc to have such a kind and caring Shizun! But he had to wonder what the fuck changed!?
 Luo Binghe in PIDW did everything to get Shizuns approval but was kicked into the abyss for it! He was punished for breathing!
Now Luo Binghe would give anything to chop wood till his fingers bled or feel the burn of the whip on his back!
And it wasn’t weird he was just under stimulated! 
 He needed to do something!
So he ended up in the kitchen aggressively cooking deserts.
 And it smelled nice.
He already over cooked a ton to feed the entire peak!
He sighed after pulling out his last batch.
 May as well give them out, wouldn’t want to waste food.
“Strange how you can cook such delicious foods yet treat them so callously.”
Luo Binghe flinched, fuck me!
He didn't even hear the devil come in!
Luo Binghe glared, another thing he would’ve been punished for, and yet Shen Qingqiu only seemed amused by it.
…was his Shizun bipolar or what!?
 Luo Binghe glanced away.
“This disciple was only stress baking, I bought the ingredients myself so it's not wasting Qing Jing Peaks resources.”
 Shen Qingqiu picked up one of the steam pead flour cakes he just baked and tasted it.
 Luo Binghe waited for the verdict.
 He hoped Shen Qingqiu wasn’t going to make him eat all this food he may actually develop an ED if he did.
“Eat this.”
Luo Binghe fucking called it.
Before he could even reach for one, Shen Qingqiu pushed the food towards his mouth, Luo Binghe had to eat otherwise it would make a mess.
 Suddenly flavour exploded on his tongue.
It tasted so good, of course it was the protagonist cooking!
 He slowly chewed  then swallowed it.
 “How did it taste?”
“Good.”
What was Shen Qingqiu getting at?
“So what is the problem,”
Luo Binghe tilted his head. Was it bothering him that much that Binghe refused food?
 “Its not the taste of the food. Its the fear that I’ll grow so dependent on it and find that I suddenly cant have it.”
“But getting stronger and studying beasts, what's the point in that if you run your body into the ground.”
Luo Binghe had enough, throwing the tray of food to the side.
“Why do you suddenly care!? You whipped me because I talked back but you dont do that now- I starved in that wood shed you never cared, my back was bloody my hands mangled you did not care. So why start now? You may be fine with acting like the kind Shizun. The great Xiu ya Peak Lord Shen, but excuse me for not buying it. For waiting for the other shoe to drop. 
 So what will it be next? After this would it be sleeping? Is that going to be our new thing once this is done? How many mkre ways do you need to torture me.”
“You torture yourself. I did nothing.”
Yet.
But he will throw Luo Binghe of a cliff into the abyss to kill him.
 “You hurt yourself then blame me. You enjoyed those punishments as training, so I stopped realising it was teaching you the wrong lesson. You’re different from other disciples, stupid. To think this is how any respectable cultivator would train-“
“I’m not a cultivator.” Luo Binghe spoke tiredly, looking at Shen Qingqiu with a bored expression on his face.
 It riled Shen Qingqiu up.
“This one was an unwanted disciple, a waste. All because Ning Shiejie wanted a shidi and you wanted to win one over Liu Qingge. Because he wanted me first.”
 Shen Qingqius eyes widened and Luo Binghe looked down.
“You never wanted this disciple, and this Binghe is fine with that. But after giving me a fake cultivation manual, making me fight elder hammer with posion that could kill me. How can you blame this one for flinching waiting for a third blow?”
Shen Qingqiu looked shocked that Luo Binghe even knew that much.
He walked past, ignoring the food plans of distributing it around the peak forgotten.
 Luo Binghe sat before Shen Qingqiu. Forgetting that he had to eat with the devil.
The only thing that gets Luo Binghe through the day is karma.
Everytime something unfortunate happens to Shen Qingqiu (who had such unfortunate luck) 
 He would bare witness to it.
Being bested in a duel by Qi Qingqi. He ended up cheering her on the loudest.
 Seeing Shen Qingqiu try to practise sword fighting and making a huge hole in qing jing peak.
He acted like he did it on purpose but Luk Bknghe was fascinated by his tells and knew the man was embarrassed.
Dropping a tea kettle on his foot he even hopped up and down with a yelp.
That was the best one!
Thoughts like that got him through.
He ate mindlessly not tasting anything. And had to stop when his stomach ached. 
“Keep eating.”
Luo Binghe paused, “What?”
“Keep eating. After all this Shizun is cruel and would force poor Binghe to starve so keep eating.”
What a petty bitch.
 Luo Binghe did staring right at Shen Qingqiu and kept eating. Until his bowl was finished.
His stomach was killing him.
But he ignored it.
 Then he began to swallow more, saliva pooling in his mouth, and-
Luo Binghes eyes widened, he dropped his bowl into the floor and lunged for the bathroom, even Shen Qingqiu flinched at the breakneck speed then grimaced when he heard Luo Binghe throw up.
 Luo Binghe didnt eat the next day.
And Shen Qingqiu was begging to lose his temper.
“If you don’t eat properlly you’re not going to the immortal alliance conference!”
God dammit!
 Luo Binghe had to admit defeat.
He had half a year left, it would make it more difficult but he had no choice.
 He started slow, eating fruits out in the open after training where everyone would see.
Starting off small.
 Sharing snacks and eating them himself, and when it came to big meals, would still leave food left but not as much as before.
Its fine, when he’s in the abyss he knows what to expect.
 He faces monsters in the beginning, has to keep moving into the centre where he finally finds some springs for water, but no food. Maybe he can prepare a quirken pouch to take supplies.
After all what if water is stored in things, like plants, or trees or even rocks!
It can happen!
 If he has tools to store water, and food and make it last then thats eight out of ten problems.
 Then theres madam meiyans adventures with the succubus clan…hmm, he really wants to skip it.
Losing his first time in an abyss is not the best place, but he would need new clothes…
He had no idea while he was recovering eating, passing Mu Qingfangs bill of health.
 Everyone even peaklords praised Shen Qingqiu for being there for his disciple and helping him through somethimg so trying.
It pissed him off.
No one gave a shut ablut his eating habits, he sweats mu Qingfangs care for his own disciple than his fellow maritial sibling.
 And Shen Qingqiu knew Luo Binghe.
That look in his face when he was alone, the anxiety, and panic before settling down.
 It was refreshing. Before Luo Binghe would always show that fake smile and act friendly but underneath Shen Qjngqku knew something was wrong with the kid.
The relief when he finally showed his true colours and stopped pretending.
If its one thing, Shen Qingqiu hates its liars.
 But no, Luo Binghe may be showing signs he was okay maybe he really is over this bad habit.
 But now its when a new habit appears.
He mentioned sleeping so now Shen Qingqiu is more vigilant making sure he goes to bed on time and stops studying those demon books.
Why is Binghe even writing notes on how to defeat a monty python rhino? 
 He’s too young to be fighting that- he was given a list on what to fight in the alliance why was he studying something else!?
“Maybe he’s trying to copy you?”
Shen Qingqiu paused, lowering the tea cup from his lips.
“Excuse me?”
Mu Qingfang only looked at him cooly.
 “Its not a secret that Shen Qingqiu doesnt sleep, is a bright young man but is weak in his cultivation, and is too skinny.”
Shen Qingqiu scowled. “Thats ludicrous and untrue. He’s never went to a brothel.”
So there!
“Not yet, maybe it’ll happen in time.”
“Why would Binghe copy me?”
“Most do, to someone they respect, or idolise. Maybe wanted to understand you better.”
No. Mu Qingfang is definitely wrong at this.
“Binghe is making his own mistakes. He’s not following mine.”
Mu Qingfang hummed, “Its only a theory, unless he starts showing…signs. Maybe you might have to have the talk.”
Shen Qingqku stared then his eyes narrowed “Certainly not. That's the hallmasters job!” 
“Maybe there's a lot of things he doesn't know-“
“He had a mother. She would’ve told him.”
“What?”
As Luo Binghe came back ho- the bamboo house he wanted to collapse onto his bed.
 He wanted to skip dinner so bad but he had to eat now.
Like a respectful adult ugh! 
 “Binghe!”
“I have moon cakes! I’m eating moon cakes from Ning Yingying!”
He snapped back, he just got into bed! Now he had to stomp because Shizun would want him face to face.
The typical parent yelling for their kid then not answering when they respond.
 “Not that, impertinent brat. Sit.”
Luo Binghe sat. What? What could his bipolar Shizun want now?
 “If you visit brothels or make nong yingying pregnant I will castrate you,”
Whoa- what!?
Luo Binghe blinked “Shizun, this disciple must have hit his head at sparring today and didnt hear you right. Can you please repeat that?”
What the fuck?
Shen QingQiu sneered down at him.
 “Someone brought to my attention that you like to copy me.”
Luo Binghe started looking around and Shen Qingqiu scowled.
“What are you doing.”
“Looking for my fan. But I can’t seem to find it.”
As well as tge stick up my ass but thats not there either so clearly he’s not copying!
“Being a recluse, hiding away from others and assuming the worst of others and your strange relationship with food then you mentioned sleeping habits….”
Luo Binghe glanced back up, surprised.
 Even Shen Qingqiu…?
Luo Binghe glanced back down then realised where Shen Qingqiu was going with this-
“I don't need the talk!” He yelped face red. He did not-
He stood up walking away.
 “I’m not copying you- I’m not going to end up in a brothel with tons of women-!”
Although original Binghe would’ve-
That wasnt him!
He wasnt interested in a harem! Maybe find some girl settle down study beasts get a bet one.
Oh how cool would that be?
The protagonist with a giant fucking wolf as his companion?
Yeah a big heckin chihuahua. 
 Luo Binghe had to start cooking something or he was going to go nuts.
 …Shen Qingqiubeas seriously starting ti scare him.
When his diet was back to normal, his workout began again. And now he was studying arrays.
 Fucking stupid, he was.
Why didn't he think of this before? Keeping food hot or frozen to last longer.
And even have inside pockets so he wint lose his shit willy nilly!
He soent all his tike studying, and sewing and-
Bang!
Most of it exploded in his face.
“Shizun!”
“Don’t tell Shizun!”
It was an accident! It wasn’t on purpose!
But Nong Yingying snitched and now he had to go over sewing techniques and arrary work with the hallmaster again.
 And when they saw what he was trying to make they laughed. Claiming it was impossible.
Luo Binghe gree mullish, fuck you he’s the protagonist he can fucking do it!
 After hiding away from prying eyed and working on smaller fabrics was able to make a heating AND freezing charm.
He experimented with cold foods first to see if they stayed frozen in the pouch then crowed with delight that it worked!
Now to make it bigger!
 And just like that he was able to store large amounts of food in his pouch oldest at the friend newest at the back sk nothing got too spoiled.
 He was so giddy.
After making tons of pouches and even showing them off and how they worked and why they existed.
Shen Qingqiu cleared his throat.
 “Write your progress into a report. We’ll place your findings in the library with the rest.”
Huh…huh!?
“And Binghe.”
Luo Binghe stood at attention as Shen Qingqiu gazed down at him.
“You are approved to go to the immortal alliance. Do not disappoint me.”
 What oh- oh fuck YES!
-he wanted to ditch these disciples why join kf they’re going to struggle!?
Then the demons arrive! About time! Ah these were mich better to fight than the easy ones!
Even the spiders were easy!
 “Everyone! There is a snow flower that is a deterent to demons! Up this way!”
Once they were safe did Luo Binghe sigh with relief.
 At least now, its all on him.
“I’ll go find help!”
He left the disciples before they could utter a word.
Now alone all he had to do was wander aimlessly until the abyss opened.
 He was nervous, like exams, dentist, and blood tests all into one.
 He just wanted it over with. As soon as he was in the abyss the better.
 “Binghe.”
“Fu- Shizun!?” He nearly died- what the hell? 
Oh yeah, Shizun was supposed to toss him in.
 “What is Shizun doing here?”
Shen Qingqiu scowled, “Rescuing disciples such as yourself. Come on.”
Mobei-jun comes in, and Luo Binghe feels his hands shaking as he watched as Shang Qinghua was hit into a tree.
 This was wrong.
Shen Qingqiu was actually fighting a demon and telling Binghe to run?
“Hmm, what a weak cultivator.”
Shen Qingqiu growled, “You demonic spawn- this Peak Lord is the Xiu ya sword! And you will fall by my blade!”
Shizun was hurt.
Shen Qingqiu evaded the most of the ice crystals, but was pinned to a tree by a viscious one.
Shen Qingqiu may die.
Luo Binghe moved, not even aware just lunging for the ice demon with a yell, swiping his sword down.
 He’d forgotten all of his training, only using his bare hands as Mobei-jun looked at him with interest.
“Binghe- run stupid boy!”
Luo Binghe wasn’t paying attention, instead he evaded even getting slammed into the ground, almost breaking his arm he ignored it, until Mobei-jun grabbed his head.
“Hmm, human but not.”
Wait- the monty python…
Luo Binghes eyes widened as a clawed hand reached towards his face, he screamed at the pure agony in his forehead as he was dropped to the floor. 
 He clutched his skull feeling the mark of sin burn into his forehead his whole body becoming liquid fire when his demonic core burned through his meridians along side his spirtual veins.
 Luo Binghe panted, fuck he felt awful.
Mobei-jun replaced the rhino… why was it different?
“Beast.”
Luo Binghe looked up, eyes drooped and out of it. Until a sword touched his neck.
Luo Binghe stiffened, remembering where he was and what he was supposed to do.
“Shizun? Want to tell me what your doing?”
“Who are you calling Shizun, demon mutt?”
Ah back to pet names huh? Luo Binghe hummed, “This disciple is just as surprised as you.”
He glanced to the side and saw Zheng Lang destroyed.
 “Shizun, can you do this one a favour?”
“No.”
Luo Binghe shifted back, and stood up, Shen Qingqiu held his sword high, green eyes almost black with the dark scowl on his face.
 Luo Binghe took another step back, then another.
  His eyes remained on his sword, he really…wanted to take the sword with him…having a sword would be easier in the abyss now he can’t.
He missed the wide eyes look of his Shizun, missed the panic as Binghe took another step back.
 “Shizun, can you fix my sword? Say…Luo Binghe died…a human.”
Shen Qingqkus eyes widened, his sword faltering, as Luo Binghe took another step back.
 Then felt the ledge under his foot and paused.
 “This one has always trained for this…You were never a good Shizun, but this past year…” Luo Binghe turned to look down at the abyss, his chest suddenly tightening, it was terrifying, he was scared. Who wouldn’t be?
 He was procrastinating at this point, the timer ticking down.
 “I think I might miss you. Shen Qingqiu.” Luo Binghe smiled, showing all his teeth no different to how he looked before he did something to piss Shen Qingqiu off.
Then he fell, falling back into the abyss, eyes squeezed tight breathing heavily to hold in his scream.
 The rift shut with a snap.
Leaving Shen Qingqiu with his hand held out, eyes wide in shock.
 He fell to his knees, wounded, in pain…and numb.
All this time he wanted to do away with that brat, he dreamed off it-
Now?
“Shen Qingqiu!”
“Shen-Shidi!”
His eyes slid over to the broken sword…he moved and began to pick up the pieces.
 He may as well honour that brat. And do this one thing for him.
____________
Luo Binghe almost collapsed against the broken stairway, almost there.
 He lost track of time of how long he was in the abyss. He barely had time to think or feel, just respond to each attack and survive.
The only reprieve was when he found a little oasis when the system would pipe up.
 And tell him hints with b-points that he earned in the development arc Disciple days.
Luo Binghe almost slumped with relief, food and water was scarce, it was worse than Qing Jing Peak, he knew if he woke up he would be halfway down a beasts mouth.
 -gets a dog
-loses a dog
System makes him go to madam meiyan.
“You upled the difficulty on purpose!?”
[stop doing side quests and go to madam meiyan! You need new clothes and then you can get Xin Mo!]
Luo Binghe paused, Xin Mo?
“Why didn’t you say so?”
Like an autistic stuck in a closet and forgotten about, Luo Binghe was actually getting used to the abyss.
 But after the loss of Pear…
Yeah, he wanted to call him mini peerless cucumber but that was a mouthful in the abyss. But he wanted it affiliated wkth fruit and thought Pear was a good name.
 When Pear was ripped to shreds in front of him, Binghe drove off any cute baby animal that got too close.
He thought that as the protagonist- he really wanted to go home with lear, watch him get bigger and be an intimadating badass!
 The system knew he was dodging basic Luo Binghe plots and waa dojng his own thing so to give him angst it decided to make him break down.
Losing his pet, his one stability, his confirt in this wasteland. Shen Qingqiu never betrayed him, so he had to accept loss in one way or another.
It just sucked!
And so after finally trudging up to Madam Meiyan, reluctently, then felt bad because she was nice.
He told her he didnt want anything to happen in the abyss, not until he was safe.
 She patged his hand yet still helped him get new clothes.
She didnt act like the femme fatale side fling of Luo Binghe. She acted like a caring older sister.
He slumped in gratitude, and finally adorned the black and red robes.
He checked himsekf oht in the mirror lerking up. 
Now that is a protagonist!
 Complete lady killer! But not in this world!
Luo Binghe, as a reader, always thought if at any point he would have to marry?
It’d be Liu mingyan.
She was smart, strong and cool. Best girl.
 Even so Madam Meiyan was so kind, it almost made Luo Binghe cry.
 Even so, he couldn’t stay in the den long, thats just inviting disaster.
 He began his journey again, rationing his food and thankful that other than the beggining, at least food was no loner scarce and he could eat and not have to worry.
 [That could also be inedia]
Or that too!
Even so, the monsters had to get stronger thats how you level up!
And Luo Binghe wasted no time grinding he wasnt a newb!
He was going to keep fighti bf every single demon he could lay his on to get stronger.
 [Host is procastinating to avoid Xin Mo]
He was not!
…maybe- even so he needed duel cultivation to deal with it.
And he didnt want to deal with it.
So when he finally made it up the stairwell, leaning heavily on the wall and leaving blood and ichor on the pale stone,
He saw Xin Mo in tge centre of the room.
 Before he was scared, now he had to get over it.
 He beat his training, he was literally having a vacation in the abyss, after Xin Mo magbe that will no linger be a problem.
He approached extending his hand and grasped the handle.
Quiet.
Then a sudden flood of screams, intense rage and anger swarmed into him.
He grimaced falling to his knees, breathing his throat aching when he realised he was screaming too.
[Host! Soend b-points to temper Xin Mo?]
Yes yes a hundred times yes!
The screams didnt stop, but dulled down to a feint baackgfound noise.
God how did Luo Binghe deal with this.
He raised his arm and sliced downwards into an arc and a portal opened up.
Luo Binghe gazed at it like the first sunset honest delight on his face.
He didnt think it would work the first time!
 As he stepped through the portal still open he glanced at the sword and three it back into the portal.
“Yeet.”
Instead it slung back missing his neck to slam into the tree behind him.
The portal closed.
[Host and Xin Mo are bonded for life. Only destrkying Xin Mo can release its hold.]
Luo Binghe brushed a hand over his face, really?
At least that was his new goal. Destroy Xin Mo.
The system even had the nerve to make that as a bullet point on his list lf tasks.
[What else will host do now that he’s free?]
Well other than the abyss, he didnt have to do the other plot points.
 He didnt have to return to cang Qiong. Or even go to Huan Hua.
 He coukd just wander PIDW to his hearts content and fight monsters, rescue damsels, without marrying them.
It sounds like a dream-
[Warning! Character arrival! Task: defeat important character!]
Mobei-jun appeared even seeming surprised to see Luo Binghe.
What? Why? Why!?
[To fix plot holes ;)]
You tricked me!
Luo Binghe leaped back, evading Mobei-Jun attack- it was weird.
How weaker Mobei-Jun was.
He could kill him, just use Xin Mo and sate it for now…but Mobei-Jun was a loyal fighter…
And he wont be able to spar with Liu-Shishu again. As Luo Binghe kept dodging, considering expression on his face, he was unaware it kept pissing off Mobei-Jun.
“Take this seriously!”
Oh? Ah he was being rude. Compared to when he was a child, he was easily slammed into the ground.
Luo Binghes claws extended as he grabbed Mobei-Jun by the throat and slammed him into the ground.
Mobei-Jun grunted eyes wide to see Luo Binghe straddling on top of him heavenly sigil glowing with red demonic eyes looking down at Mobei-Jun like he was an interesting bug he decided to play with knstead of squish into the dirt beneith his biot.
“Do you lield and swear your loyalty to me, or should this one kill you know and save myself ghe trouble?”
Mobei-Jun swallowed eyes bright.
“This one will follow you, Junshang.”
[Congragulations! Luo Binghe is now a lord! Next task- defeat the saintess Sha Hualing to claim title as demon emporoer!]
Luo Binghe stood up leaving Mobei-Jun on the ground, onlivious to the ice kings new sexual awakening-  
And stared at the system.
“Are you telling me that I HAVE to do those plots?”
[Yes! Become a demon emporer! And also be adopted into Huan Hua! Investigate plot points! Revenge on Shen Qingqiu is optional!]
Oh?
[Merging the realms is also optional!]
Hmm.
Even so, the reason Luo Binghe merged the realms was because of paper work.
 He’ll need people, unlike the og Binghe who couldn’t trust anyone and had to hold his empire himself but also going on adventures and picking up flowers every five minutes? Garunteed his rule wouldn’t be great especially since Mobei-Jun kills his spy who also HAPPENED to be tge advisor.
 “Mobei-Jun.” He glanced over, time to start planning.
 “Not to be a pain, but this Binghe is tired. Can you be accomidating and give me a room? Prefferbly in your northern palace of course.”
Mobei-Jun looked stiff then nodded with a small bow.
“Of course Junshang.”
He opened up a portal and and was soon making his way to his new home.
Luo Binghe never liked the cold, in his former life or this one.
 But he’ll have to deal.
____
First order of buisness after dealing wkth Mobei-Juns unruly court.
 Linguang-Jun had to go.
Any infatuation Mobei-Jun had fizzled. Luo Binghe only sneered down at the blood smear of what was left of his uncle and said.
“Just some cannon fodder who didnt add to the plot, bound to backstab for further gain when given the chance.”
He had a point but still.
Then he demaded to see Shang Qinghua.
“Relax, Mobei. This lord only wants to reunite with his precious Shang-Shishu.”
Mobei-Jun kelt giving excuses, making Shamg Qinghua overworked on purpose so he would never meet their ecentric demon Lord.
Luo Binghe must have grown tired breaking Mobei-Juns hand and warning him that he was being polite but now enough was enough.
The three kf them sat at a table together, Luo Binghe spread like king, relaxed. A contrast to both Qinghua and Mobei-Jun who sat stiffly.
“So your the spy who ruined the immortal alliance and backstabbed Cang Qiong to align with demons! Never knew you had it in you Shishu!”
Shang Qinghua looked like he was going to vomit.
 Hmm, the man was always…different.
More cold. And evil.
This guy was a gerbil.
“Hmm, first order of buisness. Mobei-Jun.” Luo Binghe looked up glaring at him.
“No killing Shang Qinghua. No matter what, even if he betrays yourself or this Lord being him to me to punish, understood?”
That seemed to surprise both.
“J-Junshang? Thank you for the order on my behalf, but ks there any reaoson…to…”
Shang Qinghua lost his vouce the more Luo Binghe stared at him.
What? Whys he so scared for- he doesnt know me yet or how string I am-
[Host has a resting scary face]
That was just cruel.
“This lord…likes paperwork.” Luo Binghe spoke aving his sleeves and moving forward to pour tea.
 “Its calming, helps keep my thoughts organised. Excessive paper work, redundent paper work, incompetant paperwork is something I’d rather not do. If this lord plans on conquering the south or even plans on dessimating Huan Hua-“
Here Shang Qinghua twitched.
Other times he would’ve missed it.
But in the abyss any movement reflects so much.
“Havkng a base in the human realm and demon realm garuntess my hands will be full. Shang Qinghua is managing the northern realm as well as Cang qiong. Someone that competant will lighten the load.”
After making the tea he sliced his hand calmly watching the blood pour into the cup.
 He saw from the corner of his eye, Shang Qinghua breath hitched, his face pale.
“Here Shishu, drink. Swear your loyalty to this demon lord.”
He wondered why Luo Binghe never did this to his close subordinates in the first place.
Make sure he’d never get betrayed and reward people under his emply with healing beneifts.
Join Luo Binghe we have health care!
“Hmm, why so hesitent Shang-Shishu. You wont bettay this lord so what worry is there?”
Shang Qimghua gulped then grabbed the cup chugging it down.
Luo Binghe laced his fingers together as he gazed at Qinghua.
“Hmm? Does Shang Qinghua know something?”
Shang Qinghua was back to his pale trembling self.
 “N-no Junshang. This Qinghua knows nothing.”
…he’s lying.
Luo Binghe dropped the playful act and tilted his head.
Shang Qinghua immedietly started sweating buckets.
“Do you like reading Shang Qinghua?”
The other nodded “Y-yeah?”
Hmm.
“Theres a book this lord can’t stand, the worst literay piece ever known to man. I regret laying my eyes on such drivel. Its called Proud Immortal Demon way, has Shang Qinghua heard of it?”
It was instant, Shamg Qinghua almlst stopped breathing.
“Yes.”
Luo Binghe felt himself relax, and in turn Shang Qinghua looked like his strings were snapped.
Luo Binghe almost felt nad for him.
“Yes I didnt like that story, so I decided to change a few things in it.”
Shang Qinghua began to oerk.
And in turn Mobei-Jun began to glower-
Itvwas strange woth how a fee words he had Qinghua relaxing and leaning in closer.
 Mobei-Jun would’ve guessed it was the blood but he felt no different.
…or maybe…
No. He felt no different.
Of course when Shang Qinghua came running to him screaming he of course hid him out the way until it was junshang trucking towards them.
“Airplane!”
“Ah dont kill me!”
Mobei-Jun stood stiff “Mobei-Jun get out kf my way.”
“No killing Qinghua. Your order.”
Luo Binghe blinked then scowled at Qinghua who stuck his tongue out at him.
The killing intent was string even Mobei-Jun almlst buckled from it.
Luo Binghe scowled “Fine!”
“If I wanted to kill you, I would’ve used my blood parasites dipshkt.”
“Oh yeah.”
“Hmm hmm.”
“Your inside me-“
“What? Ew why are you like this!?”
A/n:
Shen Yuan: Luo Binghe was influenced by Xin Mo it wasnt his fault.
Shen Yuan as Luo Binghe with Xin Mo: does nothing inappropriote and is a distinguished gentlemen.
-Shen Qingqiu trial
Luo Binghe wanted nothing to do with the scumbag and just let the consequences of his actions continue their course.
 As Luo Binghe was investigating the origins if his parents (since the system was adament ablut it for some reason) he didnt think his inlut mattered.
 But then  it was his reputation that came into it.
 He realised he should have….maybe…thought this through.
 “Is it true that Shen Qingqiu abused his disciples?”
 If it was one thing, Luo Binghe wanted to be fair. Shen Qingqiu never abused him, but he may have murdered Qui Haitangs brother.
But if Luo Binghe expressed nothing was wrong then the whole cultivation world will see him as a backstabbing disciple!
 Luo Binghe was also…curious, why the original goods never invaded both dreams to see what really happened. Verify the evidence so to say.
 “This Binghe has his own personal reasons to remain here at Huan Hua.”
Not to mention, Shen Qingqiu could blackmail him as being a heavenly demon.
 Luo Binghe already felt like he could t relax and retire not with this threat looming at him.
“And Shen Qingqiu has never abused me.”
Here he saw Shen Qingqius twitch, and ignored it.
 “But his past with Qui Haitang is something I am unfamiliar with.” He could tell the tide was changing against him.
 To stand aside while his Shizun was being condemned? How unfilial.
“And so this Binghe has decided to personally investigate this case as a neutral party.”
Qui Haitang looked his way-
“What!? So you can hide evidence and help your scumbag Shizun!?” She yelled and Luo Binghe spoke.
“On the contrary, a rogue cultivator claiming a Peak Lord had murdered her entire family with only servants to survive? Where are such servants why is there not more witnessed to confirm this case? This could just as easily paint you Miss Haitang in a poor light with just the right defense.”
Luo Binghe gave her his best charming look, hoping to give off friendly big brother vibes to aplease her.
“Dont worry Miss Haitang. This Binghe will only uncover the truth on what happened that night and help you find peace.”
[Congragulations! +50 Charisma points for Miss Haitang! Possible love arc begin-]
No no no- it wasnt- no! Cancel love arc CANCEL!
-uses his dreams and finds out the truth from both.
Speaks to Shen Qingqiu in the water prison.
Hunts down servants. Who are scarred and reveal the abuse of Qui Jianlou and his crimes. How they speak kindly lf Shen Qingqiu who got them out.
 How Luo Binghe accidently saved Shen Qinqqiu-
“Why help this Master? It can’t be because you want to play the part pf a loving disciple? After all,”
Shen Qinqgiu leaned close, speaking softly so others wouldn’t hear.
“This master tried to kill you three times after all.”
Luo Binghe smiled, “This Binghe knew he had bigger threats to face, after knowing the trials I had to overcome…you didn’t seem that scary all of a sudden. And this Binghe knows of worse things to come that taking revenge on my scum Shizun seems like a waste of time to me.”
After Luo Binghe removed the red immortal binding cables, tenderly holding Shen Qingqius hand and unwrapping each rope, his eyes furrowed at how thin Shen Qingqius wrists had become. Shen Qinqqiu had lost weight-
“Luo-Shizi.” Luo Binghe straightened, “ah Sect Leader Yue!” He bowed hastily.
“Apologies, this unfilial disciple never meant to disrespect Cang Qiong mountain-“
Instead the sect leader took his hands and made Luo Binghe look up, the look on his face was stra ge and made Luo Binghe uncomfortable.
And the worst thing happened.
The sect leader bowed to him!
“It was Cang Qiong who has done a great disservice to Luo Binghe.” Everyone in the room heard such a thing, Huan Hua bristled but all the lthers practically hungered for the drama.
 “That we had failed in such a way that you felt that you couldn’t return and felt undeserving. Cang Qiong doors will always be open to Luo Binghe, he doesnt have to prove his worth or fear rejection to come home.”
Oh- oh!
 He had to admit, Yue Qingyuan was similar to him, killing them with kindness. Making it seem as if they were the perfect sect family outside, and creating this humble narrative that Luo Binghe didnt deviate and spit on Cang Qiong but it was in fact a simple miscommunication!
 Then Shen Qingqiu spoke as well, “Yes. Qing Jing Peak is your home, unless Luo Binghe doesn’t want to return to the mountain that took him in?”
Oh, now everyone was watching Luo Binghe.
 But…they both could accuse him of being a demon, so why not use that instead?
Even so, both of them were looking at him expectantly, they all were.
“This Luo Binghe is grateful, and relieved to know that his worries were unnescary and that Cang Qiong still accepts me.”
Shen Qingqiu smirked, looking like he was about to win- until…
“But this Binghe is ungrateful. Huan Hua took me in after I was injured and this one wanted to repay that debt, maybe even foster good relations to both sects. And further more…This Binghe wanted to learn more about his past, the Luo River is closer to Huan Hua where I was born and wanted to learn about my past.”
 Luo Binghe gave them both beseaching looks.
“Can this one still stay at Huan Hua until I find the answers I am looking for?”
Shen Qingqiu looked annoyed, the Palace Master even inturupted.
“Yes! Why Luo Binghe was forced to find sanctuary here and never returned to Cang Qiong is a mystery! And Shen Qinqgiu! You claimed he had died at the immortal alliance!”
Shen Qinqqiu gritted his teeth, and the others became more rowdy.
 “Luo Binghe will remain here, until he feels comfortable speaking the truth and has no fear of the power and influence both of you have.”
Luo Binghe was touched this father figure was coming to his aid, but he couldn’t be more wrong, he was a demon emporer. He had a lot of power and influence.
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“Afterall I’m the scum Shizun! And you are the victim! Always blaming me when in reality you hurt yourself,” luo Binghe paused huh?
 “What? No- never ind that.” Why was Shen Qingqiu upset anyway? “Look I’m at Huan Hua now, far away from you. And we can both pretend the other doesn't exist!” Then Luo Binghe paused.
“What are you doing taking missions so close to Huan Hua in the first place?”
Shen Qinqgiu ignored him.
 “What this master does with his own time is his own buisness.”
Okay.
Even so, Luo Binghe figured Madam Meiyan may help with Xin Mo, he can only spend so many b-points on suppressing it, but if it acted up in Huan Hua he may accidently trigger a papapa scene with one of the women and he didnt need that!
Why was it that no matter what mission and what he wanted to do, Shen Qingqiu was there!?
Always in trouble, always causing trouble, really playing the petty scum villain and being an overall pain in the neck!
Xin Mo kept telling Luo Binghe to just kill him and one of these days he may just listen to it!
 -wife plot with SQQ
 He had no idea why, Luo Binghe was on his way to another peak to investigate his mothers origins Meng Mo found a lead of a familair disciple who knew Binghes ‘mother’
Also the imposter syndrome he figured Origianal goods would lose face but this Luo Binghe was only looking into the plot, if his parents were alive he doubted they would be close, 
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And this is where I lost steam and had no idea what to write next, that LBH/sy is ignoring sqq and focusing on himself but when the others in trouble he goes "Ah well its the scum villain who cares...but I have to ask questions I'm the protagonist, and I want to ask questions about this plothole and such-" accidently uncovers Sqq past and reveals it was self-defense.
Whoops?
Now SQQ wants Luo Binghe back at Cang Qiong NOT because he cares about the little beast- it looks bad on HIM as a Peak Lord that he has some unruly disciple avoiding his peak like he's some abused little maiden running away from her husband.
Shen Qingqiu would break his fan at the thought, that little brat loved it! Shen Qingqiu has never raised a hand to the beast in years!
Luo Binghe even claims he hates him, that he's a scum Shizun and never cared so why does Binghe go out of his way to save Shen Qingqiu? instead of washing his hands of him, it doesn't make sense....
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Yeah I do want SQQ and Binghe to be end game, like SY is fascinated by SQQ as a character and has more interest in him than the women of the harem.
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list a, #230 and maybe Danny
Full House
Summary : Daniel had only been home a matter of days and yet not one of them had the pair of you been alone. When you finally snap, what happens when you finally get it off your chest that it’s been bothering you. Rating : 18+ Pairing : Daniel Ricciardo x Reader Word Count : 2,768 ONE SHOT Trigger Warnings : 18+, NSFW, adult language, PinV sex, unprotected sex, graphic descriptions, semi public (? dont know if this really is semi public but people can overhear). Images : curated from Pintrest
List : List A Prompt : Are you sure? Once I start I don't think I'm able to stop”
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The house was full. Again.
The sound of mixing male voices all winding around one another's with intermittent laughter met your ears as soon as you opened the door to the LA home you shared with your boyfriend, Daniel. Your shoulders dropped and a sigh left your lips while your head rolled backwards. It was day nine. Day nine since he had been home and the ninth day he had had his friends over. In nine days the only time you had gotten your boyfriend to yourself was at night when he saddled up behind you in bed - or when he was horny and wanted to fuck - and the hour or so in the morning before his pals started showing up at the door like children asking if he could go out to play. And that was what annoyed you most, how Daniel was usually the one throwing out the invites and asking his friends over all the time. You suspected today was no different. As around loud crack of laughter reverberated through the hallway down to where you were you had to push away the intrusive thought that had been swirling for the past three days.
He doesn’t want to spend time with you alone.
At first you thought it was ridiculous to even contemplate that it could be true. But slowly, it played on your mind more and more to the point you started getting a little stressed and anxious about what it would mean if it turned out you were correct and it was true. But as you heard your boyfriends iconic laugh you were jolted right back into the present and your arms suddenly ached with how heavy the bags in them were. Anger suddenly came flooding over you as you realised how you felt like a housewife.
“Daniel! I need some help!” You shouted. No answer “DANIEL!” You shouted louder. But still nothing. You groaned frustratingly before dumping the bags down on the ground. This was just so typical of Daniel. He got so caught up in the moment, the fun he was having, that he zoned out. Another round of laughter hit you and this time it pissed you off.
So at risk of making yourself seem like a “psycho girlfriend” you stomped through. Daniel was in the chair, his legs over the side of it, with a big goofy grin on his face. He looked like he was king holding court and instantly it pissed you off. “Oh, babe, hey….” You glared at him then rolled your eyes and swiftly stomped away upstairs.
You yanked open the drawer and slammed in Daniel’s freshly washed t-shirts. You opened a different drawer and flung in some of your bras and banged it closed. You were taking out your frustration on the inanimate objects around you. Daniel was so blasé downstairs. He was so unconcerned looking that you felt your blood boiling. He didn’t try to explain why you were joined by the boys (yet again) nor did he try to make any forms of apologies for it either. You were so lost in your annoyance that you missed him entering into your shared bedroom until he said your name gently followed by; “Are you mad at me?” Your teeth ground together and you didn’t want to look at him. You contemplated giving him the silent treatment. “Babe, c’mon…” you heard him sighing.
“Yes. I am mad at you, Daniel.” You snapped at him “Since you've been home you’ve been surrounded by people all the time. I’ve not…” you paused, feeling like you were really close to sounding crazy but if you didn’t get it off your chest now then you probably never would “I haven’t spent any time with you, just you, alone.”
Daniel’s blank face either showed he was unbothered by what you were saying or he understood perfectly. It made a heat rise upon your neck that you only got when you were nervous. You swallowed as he stared straight into your soul. “I thought you liked having people over?” His brows knitted in the middle looked totally flummoxed by your omission “I do….” You sighed. “But not all the time Dan.” For a brief moment you felt like you had made a mistake confessing but, no, he had to know why this was a problem.
“Do you not want to be around me? Just me?” It came out more defensive than what you intended but the meaning was still the same. Daniel still had that confused look upon his face. “I just feel like, well, that you’d rather be with the boys than me.”
“What?” Momentarily his bottom lip dropped open in what seemed like shock before it disappeared “I’m sorry.” He apologised instantly. “I genuinely didn’t think. I thought because you loved being hostess you…fuck, oh my God, I feel so selfish. I’m so sorry.” He came rushing toward you. His arms outstretched wanting your body in them. In your mind you believed Daniel wouldn’t have even realised what you were feeling a little off so there was no way he would be doing it deliberately. So what was coming out of his mouth was really just confirming that.
As his arms engulfed you, hugged you with all his might, your worries all but melted away. His lips pressed a soft kiss to your temple while you breathed in his scent - an act almost like you were grounding yourself - and you felt his grip on your waist tighten. You pressed your cheek to his chest and took note of how your mind eased and calmed.
“I’m going to go kick them out.” He said quietly. You almost missed him saying it because you were lost listening to the gentle, soft thudding of his heart. Tilting your head up you saw him smiling faintly down at you. His words clicked in your brain and you told him he didn’t have to do that. “I do like hosting, Daniel. I just need my Danny time too.” It was only a matter of two or three seconds till his lips hard pressed yours.
At first the kiss simply signalled to you he was listening to what you were saying and he understood you. But as it continued the motivation very distinctly began to change. His hands slid your top up and glided against the skin of your back while yours gripped the front of his hoody tighter. Daniel’s tongue effortlessly skimmed across your lower lip and it was a very obvious signal he wanted you to admit him entrance to your mouth. Which you didn’t need to be asked twice to do. You granted him easy permission. His tongue coasted over yours and you could barely hold back the moan that had built deep inside of you.
“Is this what you meant by “Danny time”?” When you looked at him - with your eyes no doubt filled to the brim with lust - you could tell how cheeky, cocky confidence had exploded in him. “It’s a start.” You replied back. Your voice mirroring the same amount of sass as his had done moments before. His dark eyes that you adored so much turned even darker while he drunk in your features. The spark you had been playing with was igniting to a roaring fire and you had a deep hunger that desperately needed feeding. The intense rising heat that burned inside of you scorched all over your skin as Daniel’s eyes practically screamed out what he was thinking.
Without saying anything your hands went to the hem of his soft self branded white hoody and lifted it. He didn’t resist. Instead he helped remove the item completely and it gave you the briefest of moments to scan down the tanned, taught skin of his abs before glancing even lower to check out the tent pitched inside his matching white sweatpants. Your mouth watered at the sheer thought of him - which only matched how wet your panties had gotten in the few short moments since he initially kissed you. “Let me send them home…” He practically purred against the skin of your collarbone. “No.” Your voice strong and not at all pleading “I’m not waiting for you any longer.” Your head pulled back so he had no choice but to look at you “Fuck me…”
The noise that left Daniel was a loud, very deliberate groan. He loved when you vocalised exactly what you wanted and how you wanted it. Dirty talk was sort of a thing the pair of you had going on and even if you had to blow your own trumpet, you were both VERY good at it. He gripped your waist and turned you so your butt pressed against the dresser. His hand went into your hair and pulled backward so your neck was exposed to him.
“Are you sure?” He asked, his lips hovering above the flesh of your throat “Once I start, I won’t be able to stop.” That’s exactly what you were hoping for. Daniel waited for your vocal response but you didn’t give him one. Instead, your hand immediately went straight to the tight space between your bodies and palmed him through the soft cotton of his sweats. His eyes closed, head rolled back at your touch, his mouth fell open and a dangerously loud groan streamed straight out of it. As his pleasure painted a smirk upon your own lips, it also sent a pulsating ache between your thighs that you desperately needed him to sort.
“Fuck…” He whispered as he looked back at you. Staring at him. Full of sheer desperation. And he couldn’t wait any longer. He hurriedly unbuttoned your jeans and pulled them down over your butt and thighs with haste. Taking the thin scrap of black lace you wore as panties along with it. When free he lifted you to sit on the edge of the wooden dresser behind you. Your leg up around his waist, hands trailing up and gripping hold of his wide, strong neck. More swear words poured out of him as his fingers glided over the sensitive delicate flesh between your thighs. “You definitely need more Danny time.” He referenced how the pair of you had found yourself in this position and it made you smile broadly at him. It hadn’t been your plan to storm upstairs and expose what you had been feeling the past few days in the manner you had but, as he pulled down his sweatpants and let his absolutely mesmerising member spring free, you were glad you had.
A lust fuelled, loud moan escaped past your lips without hesitation the moment he pushed inside of you. His lips were swift to swallow the second one that spilled as he pulled back out before sinking in again, this time even deeper. There was no time for warming up - no foreplay was ever needed with him - not with his friends downstairs awaiting his return. That didn’t mean Daniel was going to sacrifice his performance for them. He was going to give it to you exactly how he knew you wanted it. His fingertips dug into the flesh of your thigh as he began getting into a steady rhythm. His name stuttered past your swollen lips as your hand reached behind you to stop you from falling into the mirror that sat upon the wall. The sound of the dresser beginning to rock with the movements he was making while he fucked you echoed around the room. You figured his friends would probably be able to hear it downstairs - the master bedroom was right on top of the lounge they were sitting in after-all - and not for one second did you care they were kept waiting. In fact, you moaned louder, just so they knew Daniel had chosen you over them right now.
His hand went to your mouth and a naughty smirk appeared on his mouth. “You want them to hear don’t you?” He twigged and you nodded quickly. He released you just in time. His cock angled differently inside of you and he was now repeatedly hitting the fleshy little bump inside that made you see stars, with every single powerful thrust. “DAN…” Your hand slammed down on the dark wood you were sitting on as your toes curled and teeth gritted. “Kinky.” He purred against your throat when it fell back while you gasped for air. The noise of the wood on the wall increased as he quickened his pace. But as the thought of his friends downstairs evaporated and any remnants of the mini argument that lead to having loud, unexpected sex, fled from your mind, the only thing replacing it was the feeling of your orgasm begin to capture and ravish your body.
As eyes opened and you grabbed hold of Daniel’s shoulder, his eyes locked with his and you could tell he was close. He moaned and asked if you were close but before you even had the chance to answer, your body answered for you. The delicious high exploded inside of you. Your body shook and stuttered as the climax captured every shred of your being and soul and you felt like you were being kissed by fire. Daniel kept his strong, unrelenting rhythm up while you came. He wanted every single last morsel of your high he could produce from you before his own hit him. Which, it didn’t take long for it to do just that. Daniel came just as hard as you had done. He pulled you clean off the drawers and held you to him as he released deep inside of you. His fingertips digging into your flesh so hard you would have deep purple bruises. But you didn’t care. You felt him twitching as his milky seed filled you and you wished you had let him get rid of his friends so the pair of you could immediately go again, you hadn’t had enough of him yet.
High’s were levelling out as Daniel finally pulled himself out of you. He smiled broadly before he leaned in and kissed you. The kiss was softer than before. It was almost peaceful now both of you felt satisfied. Delicately he placed you back down on your feet and told you to wait where you were. You knew exactly where Daniel was disappearing to. He was going to get you something to clean up. He always did this, made sure to clean you up after he made a mess. It was sweet, comforting even. Daniel returned with a warm cloth and a towel and nodded over at the bed for you to sit down on. You did exactly as he asked and took a tentative seat on the edge of the bed. Your eyes followed his movements as he got down on his knees and his big palms went on top of yours, using slight pressure to spread them open tenderly. Daniel pressed the warm wash cloth between your thighs. You knew he enjoyed this as much as he enjoyed actually having sex. It was a bit of a kink of his. He rather liked watching his spent seed slowly dripping out of you after he came inside.
“Do you want me to get rid of them now?” He asked playfully as if he already knew the answer. He would have presumed you would say yes. That you would feel a little embarrassed if they had overheard the pair of you banging in the room above them. Or the fact you wanted a round two - which naturally of course you wanted a round two (and three and four, all over the house) so wanted them gone. But you surprised him. You raised your eyebrows and shrugged. “No, they can stay for lunch actually.” You pointed at your panties lying on the floor and motioned for him to get them for you. “I’m going to need those though.” “Babe….They’ve probably heard everything, are you sure I shouldn’t just” he had done what you wanted, he passed you the black thong he had taken off you fifteen minutes before. “And? So what if they’ve heard.” You shrugged pulling your still damp panties on and rising to your feet, Daniel was still on his knees before you, looking up with an amused (yet slightly shocked) look upon his face. You took the opportunity to bend over right then and kiss him. “If they’re going to be in our home so much then they’re going to have to listen to us having sex. They should be thankful we’ve not done it in front of them.”
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cieloclercs · 1 year ago
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what would you say (if i told you i love you)? — charles leclerc
PART: 5/? (read part 4 here)
summary. in which childhood best friends blur the lines between what they’ve always known, and something more
pairing. charles leclerc x artsy!reader
warnings. it’s GROVELLING time !! sad charles, sad reader, swearing, everyone still kind of hates charles (as they should) angst but not quite as angsty as the last part
face claim. tara michelle
author’s note. i hope this is enough suffering for you guys 😭 i’m weak tho so there’s a tinyyy bit of progress at the end 👀 i feel like this one’s a bit messy so i’m sorry about that?? it’s also kind of just setting up the next part but oh well 😭 anyways, LAST PART COMING UP NEXT ☹️ i’m gonna miss this series :’(
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frankiewritesstories · 1 year ago
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Rainbow rose
Tw: hurt/comfort, my first fic with my FAV CHARACYER OMGHSGS LYNEYY, feel like this is kinda shit but oh well
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You and Lyney have been dating for about a year now. It was like a dream come true. And as we all know, Lyney is (obviously) very flirty and a sweet talker. Though you may like it, it wasn't always a benefit for you.
Lyney's magic show at the opera house just ended. It was magical like always. You were talking to Lynette while waiting for Lyney - who had to do something at the back. You saw him coming back, but just as you were about to approach him, you stopped. Some girl approached him and started talking to him. You didn't mind.. at first. It was now near 10 minutes, and they are still talking.
You didn't mind....didn't....mind?
It seems Lyney performed a magic trick for her. You have just seen bits and parts of it, but it was enough for you to get an unsettling feeling in your stomach. He pulled a rainbow rose from behind her ear and smiled at her. Rainbow rose.... a flower that represents passion and romance. You knew Lyney wasn't dumb. He knew what that flower represents. Without much thought, you excused yourself from Lynette and went back home.
You were walking back home, lost in your thoughts. You loved Lyney, and you knew he loved you, but you told him multiple times-you don't feel comfortable with him being flirty with his audience. You wouldn't usually mind, but he even 'hangs out' with some of them. You know there are no romantic feelings present beetwen them, well, at least grom Lyney, but you can't help but get this weird ugly feeling once in a while. Ugh, what a joke... you though.... do my feelings mean nothing to him?
You were getting ready for your bed, but you realized you couldn't sleep. How annoying. You turned on the lights and decided to read a book. You were enjoying it until someone started knocking on your door. And then you heard his voice. No way.
"Y/N, hello? Are you okay? Where were you? I know you are in here, mon chérie." It was Lyney, of course
You weren't planning on opening the door. Oh he was inside now.
"Lyney? what the hell? What are you doing inside my house?" You can't say you didn't appreciate his..determination to see you.
"Hello, dear love! I couldn't help but notice you weren't there after my show. Where were you?"
"It doesn't matter, leave me alone"
"You know you can't hide from me, might as well tell me what's wrong, hm?" He tried to touch your face, but he knew something is wrong when you moved away.
"Fine, you know what is wrong? The fact you flirt with your audience every day in front of me, you even hang out with them even though you know what their intentions are!"
"Dear, that is a part of being a magician. I need to keep my audience entertained."
"You don't need to do all that! What if we were on a date and some guy approached me, asking me to 'hang out' and I accepted?!" You were getting mad now, he really didn't get it did he?
"Maybe you aren't the one for me." He froze, realisation of what he said hit him. "W-wait, no I-"
"Okay." You said. You started to walk around the house, collecting gifts he gave you throughout your relationship. He was following you like a lost puppy apologizing and asking what were you doing.
"Here you go, I'm giving these bac-" As you were turning around to give him these back, you were met with his arms instead.
"Please, don't do this. I-I know I was in the wrong...I promise I will change. I love only you, I just wanted to keep them entertained, I understand now how horrible it was of me. I can't lose you...please...don't leave me.." You knew how hard it was for Lyney to trust people and open up, and you knew even more how much he really loved you. You felt his hands shaking, and you heard the way his voice was shaking slightly. It was rare for Lyney to express his feelings like this.
"I forgive you, but dont break your promise" You said as you hugged him back, and you felt him hug you just a little tighter.
"Oh, what did I do to deserve you?" He said as he put cheem at the top of your head.
The next morning, you woke up to an empty bed. You knew he had to go practice for his next show esrly in the morning so you didn't mind. You walked to the kitchen and found a bag of doughnuts with a note attached next to them.
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Now you definitely forgive him.
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escapist-of-fiction · 4 months ago
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One shot - Troy Otto x Fem Reader
Description - just a bit of fluff really. Something that has been floating in my head for a while and needed to write it down. Troy is a bit of a tease in this but I like him like that.
Warnings - none really. Mild swearing.
If you do read, a like, reblog and/or a comment would make me smile :) enjoy!
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It had become abundantly apparent to everyone that something was developing between you and Troy.
There was something about the way he looked at you from across the room, never intrusive but always keeping one eye closely on you, watching your every move. You didn't mind though. It made you feel safe. You didn't feel so alone in the crowd.
Every chance Troy had; loading supplies from the trucks, collecting empty dishes at meal times, showing you how to hold a gun in the right way to defend yourself, any excuse to have just a little bit of contact with you. You didn't mind. You wanted him to do it. Your skin tingled at his touch. If he stood close to you, you would hold your breath without even realising. It was just the effect he had on you. In a group situation, he would always somehow find his way next to you, by now it was almost an expectation.
You wondered how long it would take for him to make a move. It had taken so long that you were unsure whether it was all in your mind and he had no interest in you at all.
"You can see it, can't you?" Alicia said one day as you sat together at lunch.
"See what?" You responded innocently.
You needed someone else to spell it out to you. To make it seem real. It seemed too good to be true in your own mind. After all, why would someone as complex as Troy be interested in someone as basic as you?
"Troy. There's something about you two. The way he is around you, it's like you're precious cargo or something. He speaks to you so differently to everyone else, with a whole new level of respect. He doesn't even speak like that to Jake, his own brother."
You didn't know how to respond to this, so you decided not to say anything at all.
On the day the Militia headed out on their short mission, you stood with everyone else at the gates. Going on missions was a weekly occurrence in the post-apocalyptic world but today everyone seemed a little on edge. Everyone except Troy.
You stood a little away from the small gathering, leaning against a table where supplies were piled up high. You watched as Troy fooled around with some of the Militia members, his trusted and closest comrades obviously. He wasn't normally this way before a mission, which made you think it was a little more serious than the average. He was trying to put everyone at ease. Rumours had been going around the Ranch that you were heading out to confront another group, who were threatening to steal water supplies. It wouldn't be an easy mission and lives were potentially at risk.
You were so lost in your thoughts that you didn't notice someone pick up a box beside you, until their voice brought you back to reality.
"You aren't normally here to see us off," Troy noted.
"I'm surprised you would even notice," you answered with the tiniest of smiles, watching for his reaction.
"Dont worry, I notice."
You watched as he walked towards the truck and placed the final box in the back, hitting the side panel to signal to the group that they were ready to go.
You expected Troy to climb into the driver's seat as normal, rev the engine, turn up his heavy metal music and speed out of the Ranch, leaving a cloud of dust in his wake. But not this time.
This time, he turned and walked back in the direction of you. You lifted your head to look up at him as he got closer and closer, until he was stood toe to toe with you. He had a look on his face, a mixture of uncertainty and, was that yearning?
You were perplexed by Troy's actions and you were just about question his odd behaviour when he suddenly grabbed you by the waist and....kissed you.
The briefest of kisses that lasted long enough to make your head spin, your toes curl and heart race all at once. It stunned you but made sense to you all at once. You felt Troy's hand press firmly into the small of your back to pull you against him as his other hand gently caressed your cheek.
Then no sooner had it started, it stopped and Troy pulled away. No explanation. No second glance as he turned and walked back towards the truck and the waiting Militia.
You stood there in shock, your fingers reaching to your lips to trace the echo of his touch.
What the hell was that?
Five days passed until Troy and the Militia returned.
Five days for you to mull over your encounter and ask yourself a million questions. You flitted from the feeling of lusting after Troy and more from that kiss, to being filled with a mild rage at how the bastard had acted in such an impulsive way and walked right out of the Ranch with no explanation.
By the time they returned, you had made up your mind on what to do next.
You never normally gathered with the others at the gate but this time was different. This time you had a reason to stand amongst the friends and family. You wanted Troy to know he had left someone behind. Someone who cared about him, his reckless behaviour and the consequences that came with it.
You watched him exit the truck last of all. He looked tired and weary, having been on the road with little to no sleep and carrying the responsibility of everyone's safety on his shoulders. There was a part of you that wanted to rush to him, embrace him but something made you hold back and wait.
Eventually, Troy looked up and spotted you, his eyes lighting up as they met with yours. You gave nothing away. He approached you, watching your expression tentatively, wondering how you were going to react since your last encounter. He took the fact you were here at all as a good sign.
Coming to stand in front of you, he rested his hands on his hips and tilted his head with a cocky smile.
Words were lost on you. You tried to think of something smart to say, to chastise him for what he did the last time you saw each other but you just kept losing your train of thought in those azure, blue eyes.
Instead, you communicated in the only way you both knew how.
Stepping forward and rising to the balls of your feet, you placed a hand on the back of Troy's neck and pulled him down to meet you.
Your lips pressed firmly against his. A kiss almost sweeter than the first, full of promise and something that you couldn't quite describe but you knew you needed more of it.
Reluctantly, you pulled away to look up at Troy, your hands pressed against his chest. Judging by the hazy look in his eye and the delectable way he licked his lips, it told you everything you needed to know. He felt exactly the same way.
And then, just like that, you found your voice again,
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"Hi."
Troy laughed softly,
"Well it took you long enough, darling"
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writersblockedx · 6 months ago
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Something Inappropriate: Chapter Three
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Pairing - Professor!Spencer Reid x Fem!Reader Summary - Spencer takes Y/n in, doing anything in his power to offer her comfort while she seeks safety in his apartment. Warnings - Mentions of toxic relationship, i think that's it x Words - 2.1K
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Spencer Reid's apartment was exactly what Y/n expected but also not at the same time. Of course, his living room/kitchen area was lined with bookshelves, literature ranging from philosophy to quantum physics. All of the spines broken in. He had a leather couch, exactly like the one in his office only bigger and filled with a couple of plush cushions. He had spots filled with plants which were dying for some water but no other sign of life.
Y/n didn't know much about her professor's personal life. Only the information he spoke about in lectures - which barely ever exceeded his past workings alongside the BAU. However, she expected something more to him than well, himself. She first imagined him with at least a girlfriend, wife maybe. But, whenever she had been in his office, all that sat at his desk was a frame pictured of his team and another of him and, who she assumed was, his mother.
He wasn't a recluse, but he certainly seemed introverted. At the very least, Y/n had almost expected a dog or some small pet coming up and greeting her. But, within one glance, she came to realise the only other living thing in this apartment was the withering plants.
"I hope you don't mind the mess," Y/n gazed back around the room; on her terms, this was tidy. "I didn't realise I'd have company."
Y/n shrugged, still shaken from the events of the day, "Dont worry about it." Maybe she needed to clean her own flat if this was what the man considered a mess.
Suddenly, Spencer became very aware of himself. His hands fidgeted at the top of his trousers as he spoke, "Do you want anything? Food? Drink? I have erm-" He was already moving towards the wooden cupboard above the stove, "I have this tea," He graspped a small, unopened box of British tea that the girl didn't recognise. "One of my co-worker likes to try all of them, they're not really my thing." He rambled.
Y/n only shrugged once more, "Sure, I'll try it."
Spencer grabbed two cups, brewing himself a pot of coffee and attempting to make the tea which Penelope had given him. Within five minutes, he wandered over to the sofa and passed the girl her drink. "One of my team members worked in London for a little while, so," He offered an awkward smile.
"Is she the one for gave you the tea?" Y/n questioned as her knees found her chest and she blew against the boiling drink.
The boy laughed in a whisper, "No, no. Our technical analyst visited her once and demanded we all try the different types of teas from over there." He explained.
"I'm guessing you didn't like it then?" She asked.
He shook his head, "Not my thing." And Y/n looked back to the tea, letting it's scent fill her nose; surely it wasn't so bad. She sipped at it, the warmth of the tea filling through her lungs. It wasn't as bad as Spencer made it out to be. A similar taste as coffee: acquired. And, in her current state, she didn't care what she was drinking. All Y/n cared for was whether she was safe or not. When she glanced over at Spencer she felt safe, she felt comforted. Two things which had been rare for her in the past year.
"Could I ask you something?" Y/n speaks up after a moment of quiet, the only sound being the news channel which was lulling in the background of both of their thoughts. Spencer had looked over and nodded instantly, feeling a pull towards her, towards whatever it was which was swirling around in that marvellous mind of hers. "Do you think I could make it? In the BAU I mean. I like to think I'd be able to, but sometimes you talk about cases and all I can compare it to is horror stories."
It was a worry of which lots of students possessed. And it was true for some students, the very smell of a corpse had made several students whom believed they were ready, hurled over and vomiting. There was lots to it. And even now, after all the cases Spencer and his team had gone through, some hit hard. That was always going to be the case - it was just whether you could compartmentalise it or not.
"You're an excellent student, Y/n." Spencer commented, "Being in the field is different but you get used to it and you'll soon learn to draw a line between what happens in the field and what happens at home." The boy continued to explain.
She nodded along and glanced back at her tea, "Is that why you went back to teaching instead?" The girl wasn't certain as to whether she was overstepping. There was line. They had to maintain the relationship of student and teacher. Yet, she was here in his apartment, drinking his tea, sat on his couch. Maybe that line had already been crossed.
Spencer had shrugged, "Partly, I suppose." He answered, giving the girl a small smile.
After that, the girl became quiet. She sipped on her tea and mindlessly watched the brain-numbing tv show that had been playing in the background. Here felt safe. It felt better than had she dared go home, awaiting the sound of the buzzer, of the man she dreaded at her accommodation door. Or even in a motel, staring up at the ceiling, wishing she was somewhere she could call home - of even safe.
But here, here, was safe. He was safe - dare she come to admit such.
And when her eyes became heavy, she didn't stop herself. Not like she normally would. Sleep was scary when that certain ex-boyfriend was on her mind. Y/n's mind never felt safe enough to let her sleep. Not until she was sat across from her professor. In his locked apartment where no one could ever find her.
When Spencer glanced back at her, the girl lulled into her dreams, he slowly stood. He crouched before her, a gentle hand pressing at her shoulder, "Y/n-" He whispered.
The man was met with her jumping awake, a breath sucked right into her lungs like she had been drowning in her sleep. "Hey, hey," He rushed out, "You're okay, you fell asleep, it's okay." He soothed.
Spencer's hand had never left her shoulder and she was grateful for such. His touch was real. This was real - unlike what she thought. Without even thinking, her own hand moved up, grazing against his own, her eyes shutting as to give herself a moment. "Sorry, I didn't mean to jump." She muttered back before her eye fluttered back open.
His eyes explored her own. His hazel hues stared into her like he was reading her very thoughts. The girl wondered if he knew that she wanted him, that she was imagining his arms around her like a protective shield. When Y/n came to realise how inappropriate her own thoughts were, her hand fell. "How about you go to sleep?" Spencer suggested as he too pulled his touch away. "I'll get you some clothes, is that alright?"
Y/n nodded but the very thought of his material on her skin made her shiver. Still she waited in his spare room until he returned. It was like any guest room; bare of much personality. A bed that seemed to not have been slept in since it had been made. A dresser which was home to Spencer's Summer clothes he never wore and some books which weren't impressive enough to lay in his living area.
"Are these alright for you?" He questioned, passing over some joggers and a plain white t-shirt. "I don't know if they'll fit but you know-"
The girl glanced down at the clothes and simply shrugged, "They're perfect, thank you." She offered him a grin as a wave of awkward silence passed over the room; maybe she shouldn't have called his clothes perfect. They were just joggers and a top. Nothing special.
Spencer fidgeted and rolled on the balls of his feet, "Well then I'll erm- I'll let you get some rest." He spoke, already heading to escape what had become an awkward situation.
Once his back was turned, Y/n spoke up; a pathetic attempt to voice the true appreciation she felt for her professor, "Doctor Reid?" She called before the man slowly glanced back at her.
His face softened, his stiff shoulders relaxed, "Please, just call me Spencer."
Y/n's face bobbed down as her smile fought to the surface, "I erm- thank you, again, I mean it. I don't know what I would have done without you." The girl truly meant her words. It was rare she had anyone step in the way Spencer had done, offering her anything and everything. All to ensure her very safety.
"I'm here for you, Y/n." The man assured, "I'm not just your professor, I want to make sure you're okay." He said such so easily. Like he hadn't just maybe said something he shouldn't have done.
Spencer was just her professor. The professor who was looking out for his student's wellbeing. Nothing more - nothing less. Or at least that's what he would be telling himself.
For that night, the two slept in different beds, in different rooms. Yet they were barely meters apart. The comfort of safety made the bed feel like clouds as Y/n finally had the rest she was in such desperate need of. But when morning came, the daunting idea of going into the police station suddenly suffocated her.
She wandered out of the guest bedroom, dressed in nothing but Spencer's t-shirt and her own pants. The man was already there, dressed in bed-head and lazy pyjamas as he leaned over the kitchen stove. It was the scent which met Y/n's senses first; the crisp, burning smell of what she assumed was bacon. "Jesus, what are you cooking?" She winced at the smell, daring to move further into the kitchen.
Spencer glanced back, spatula in hand, "Bacon and eggs." He was gazing back with a harsh shrug, "I don't normally have guests so I'm erm- I'm-"
"Struggling?" Y/n finished his sentence for him. When he nodded, the girl slipped into view of the food. She chucked away the charred bacon pieces, slipped some more oil over the pan and placed fresh rations into the pan. "You had it on too high," She informed as she turned the fire on the stove down, "Hopefully it's better now."
When Y/n looked back to Spencer, she found his eyes already on her, like he was staring into her soul, seeing something in her that he hadn't before. Maybe it was this feeling of a domestic atmosphere. Making breakfast in their pjs, not caring for the fact they weren't ready, the care, the urge to have her here every morning. That was something of which Spencer couldn't shake.
"Right, of course." He mumbled before returning to stare at the meat.
An hour of so later and the two had something which wasn't burnt for breakfast. They were dressed and ready. Or as ready as Y/n could be for something like this. Talking about her ex-boyfriend, even thinking about her, caused her a wave of nerves she couldn't quite escape. And when Spencer's hand reached the door nob of his apartment, he came to realise the girl wasn't following after him.
With it open a jar, he glanced back, "Everything okay?" She simply swallowed the lump which had grown in her throat and Spencer knew. He took a few steps closer to her, "I know this is scary, but it will be worth it. An hour of anxiety, is worth being free of it forever."
The man then extended his hand for her to take, an offer of support. And when Y/n interlocked her fingers with his, she felt more ready than ever. "Yeah, yeah." She nodded before the two exited his home.
She preyed this was the start of the end. No more fighting in the beer gardening, no more panic attacks, no more sleepovers at her professor's apartment....no more security. Maybe it was wrong for her to yearn for this to continue. Not the stalker ex, but these nights, these mornings. Maybe it was wrong for her to long for something so inappropriate. Yet she couldn't seem to help herself and neither could he.
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borzoilover69 · 10 months ago
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I have a headcanon on how these guys style themselves postgame and you WILL hear me out.
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Kanaya, Roxy, and Jade are self explanatory. They know how they want to present themselves. They know how to go forward with that. They’ve got colour combos and layering and fashion choices suited to their particular style IN THE BAG. Loud, prominent, they know whats up.
Jake, Calliope, and Jane get nudged into giving a fuck about fashion by anyone named above, or rather their own desire to dress up…Jake moreso because as a celebrity he gives too much of a fuck about his image to be anything less. Callie of course is affectionate enough with jade and roxy that they teach her how to style and i think she would like lolita and more daintier feminine stuff than roxy, but she does tend to sometimes switch over to suits. Jane is pure butch energy she dresses like a guy but as a girl with fashion sense. Like strict lesbian style. I dont know how else to fucking put it she would dress like how a butch lesbian would.
Jane and Jake stylewise would be similiar to some retro callback summer movie where everyones on a roadtrip in a yellow van or something except jake is more prone to extravagancy because he gives more of a fuck. Also one of them is wearing dresses and its NOT Jane.
Dirk and Rose.. fashion disasters. Dirk doesnt know fashion weight for a while and tries too hard id even suspect that he would try and mimic daves fashion style for a while until john or someone else blatantly calls him out in an offhand comment and jake and the rest of his friends start getting on his fucking case about being so bland with his fashion takes (all primaries, little to no patterns, basic, no layering.) that he caves and starts taking it like a personal challenge to style well.
At some point he has a revelation and realises he can get piercings and starts leaning into that and punk / gothish fashion. Black with complimentary colours recommended by friends.
Rose is sort of a fashion trainwreck like for all of kanayas nudging she doesnt really give a fuck and kanaya starts dictating her outfits and then of course she also gets the "someone makes an offhand comment that makes them mald really hard about it and go into a snooty onesided competition to prove they GET IT actually and that you were TOTALLY wrong about them not GETTING IT." Its the only way Dirk and Rose start caring.
Terezi and John get nudged around by their respective compadres about fashion sense and style, but they generally dont give a damn and have their own thing going for them. Theyve got their own vibe and style that feels well on them and especially terezi wise i think she would lean into the fashion disaster for fun. As long as the colours taste well together, who gives a damn about layering etc etc. throw in some crocs with a suit. An oversized shirt with a tapered skirt. Who cares. John is more tried and true but he styles out ENOUGH so he doesnt end up in the last (deorgatory) category.
Dave and Karkat are the real stubborn contendors of the friendgroup fashionwise. Baggy on baggy outfitwear. WILL get on your case if you point out had it not been for their respective colour choices they basically dress the exact same. Same mix of cargo pants, sweatpants, tracksuit pants, hoodies, and tshirts to keep them going for the lifetime. There js nothing else. Whats layering. Accessories? Well except for a watch hard pass. Patterned clothing? No way. Basic colours ONLY. Maybe Dave would dig long shorts ive always seen him as a longshorts kind of guy but its never anything noteworthy. Type of guys to choose what theyre wearing with their eyes closed thats how basic their closet is.
Anyways thats my style and fashion thoughts. Let me know what you think. Discuss and all that. Also tag yourself on which one youre closest to stylewise. Im jake. Obviously.
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cheeseandbretboy · 3 months ago
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JOKER (2019) AND JOKER: FOLIE A DEUX (2024) SPOILERS !!!
still trying to sift through my thoughts but i liked joker 2. i dont get how the ratings are so bad?? were people expecting a romance???? a fun movie? i mean even i was surprised by the depressing end but im really glad it happened because thats what joker 2019 was about too. arthur was never the actual 'joker' we see in dc films, and we knew that. his whole story is tragic but a lot of people missed that in the first movie. the second speaks on that to humanise arthur (even though thats what they literally tried to do in the first one?? didnt work i guess) and shame those who use him as a symbol for misogyny and incel stuff. i think what most people are mad about is how hes not as 'villainy' as the other jokers BUT AGAIN he was never the true joker and im confused as to how people missed that !! personally i loved how it shows that even after he's secured himself the identity of joker he's still repeatedly exploited as he was before that, and he has to come to terms with it. harleys character was really surprising for me because usually she's the one being manipulated by joker- in this case it was the other way around. especially interesting was how joker was the one who sung 'bewitched' about harley (the original song is sung about a man, so they had to change he/him to she/her) and the scene of joker and harley's show where she continues singing 'to love somebody' without looking at him, instead basking in the attention the audience gives her. people were expecting a twisted sexy romance between them but instead we were given something really uncomfortable and unnerving- like that sex scene. her character also gives insight into parasocial relationships and how weird and dangerous they can get. she never really knew arthur- she knew joker. the film starts with us finally happy that he 'for once in his life, has someone who needs him' and ends with us absolutely distraught. in the first movie, he says stuff like 'you dont listen' and 'i never knew i existed' and STILL after becoming an infamous killer, getting a show about him, EVERYONE talking about him, he's still not seen. there are just so many things the film points out about its fanbase (incels, parasocial relationships, identity, the glamourisation/sexualisation of violence, columbiners, exploitation etc etc) and i guess people don't like that. they want capitalism=bad, 'men have it so bad', and mm gore! which is fair- i loved it too- but it doesnt hurt to delve into the identity of 'joker' (whatever that is) and how that influences its viewers. its quite meta i like it a lot. they didnt care that the ratings would be awful because they had to speak on what the first movie did to people
oh also the intertextuality is just amazing. the songs are great, like i mentioned before with changing the female and male roles with 'bewitched', and even though i absolutely hate musicals this really worked fo rme. i think it's because musicals often have songs smack bam in the middle of realistic scenes and the singing just ruins it for me- but in joker 2 they're more often a part of arthur's fantasies so it was actually better. i wasnt sure about the musical element at first but after rewatching joker for like the 1000th time i realised how much its intertwined in the first movie- we just never really paid attention to it. the end of 'gonna build a mountain' was amazing (you have to pay attention to the lyrics), 'the joker' was great, and the few instances of violence we see from arthur while hes singing is really entertaining i love it sm. i keep mentioning 'betwitched' but i love it. 'she is cold, i agree, she can laugh, and i love it' ahh. i loved the intertextuality with nolan's the dark knight. a lot of people hate it, but i think people should be more flexible with inspiration and interweaving similar but different stories into films. just because it follows a similar story doesnt mean that it should either perfectly fit the mould of nolan's batman, but neither does it mean they should abandon it altogether either. harvey dent really surprised me, and even though he was a pretty minor character i loved the few references to nolan's batman they give (like his gory face after the explosion at court being a possible villain origin story). most obvious is the end though, where arthur is gutted by that inmate who admires him. the use of the joke was amazing and i was really surprised by how he got stabbed. you can see in this moment that arthur has been relieved of his identity of 'joker' and can finally rest as himself, just a mentally ill guy with a history of tragic abuse. when lee and his fans betray him (the real life ones too hilariously) we realise no one truly saw or loved him, and he couldn't deal with that. so, the identity of joker was passed on to that inmate- "ah, what a fine young son to take my place"- while he cuts a glasgow smile into his face. in felt this was sort of missing from joker 2019, so im really glad they used ledger's joker as inspiration for this inmate.
there's a lot more to talk about, ESPECIALLY gary's reappearance which im so so glad about, it really fleshed out his character. when he walked up to the stand, you can see people whispering and laughing at him- arthur never made fun of him. it really helps to make people question what constitutes a bad person. sure, these people didn't kill 6 people, but how easy would it be for them just not to laugh? it showed arthur's empathy, and how uncomfortable he was with admitting to it when trying to paint himself as the joker. "you were the only one who was nice to me" was said by arthur in the first movie when he kills randal and gary says something similar to him during court.
anyways wow that was great people are mad the 2nd movie is as depressing as the first (if not more). at the end ofthe first, arthur has a whole revolution loving him, and we did the same. at the end of the second we realise we never truly knew him, but exploited his character.
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gavisfanta · 9 months ago
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number 4 with fermin
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"YOU'RE COMFY" - FERMIN
Doing these prompts, you can write a request by saying which number and a player i should write it with.
day 4 - cuddles on the sofa under a blanket
After eating dinner together, you and Fermin decided to sit down on the couch and just talk. In the beginning of your relationship it was a traditiok to sit down every night after dinner and talk to eachother.
Sadly as time passed this little tradition got neglected even tho you both loved it.
So that day you turned off your phone and put it upstairs next to your bed to charge. Fermin did the same and also left his phone upstairs.
"We havent done this in ages." Fermin smiled which showed his little fangs. You crossed your legs as you sat down facing the young midfielder.
"True, I told you we should bring this back, I loved when we did this. Turn off the phone and just the two of us, no tv or anything, just us." You confessed.
The truth was you missed Fermin, ever since he started playing in the first team he was so busy and you barely even saw him.
Well you still did and he made sure that you still received all the love and affection you needed but it wasn't the same as before.
So what started off as talking while sitting in front of eachother, went on for whole two hours until you two got sleepy.
So you got on all fours and crawled over to him, he laid back and opened up his arms for you. You put your head on his chest and started tracing small circles into his skin with your finger.
"You're comfy" You hummed to which Fermin loghtly chuckled. He began tracing his fingers through your hair and started playing with it.
"Why did you only realise this now?" Fermin asked while he smiled. You hummed while inhaling the smell of him. You absolutely loved the way he smelled and you were so addicted to that perfume that you dont even want to know what you'd do if he changed it.
"I've always known this, this is just the first time I said it." You answered his question and Fermin couldn't stop smiling.
"Ah" His teeth still showing while he looked up to the ceiling. However, you lifted your head and then pushed yourself up to stand on all fours over him. He made eye contact with you, now you really saw that wide smile on his face.
"What are you so smiley about?" You squinted your eyes as you threw your hair back behind you.
"Nothing," He still continued smiling, he began laughing as you slapped his chest softly, careful not to hurt him. "Hey! I just love spending time with you." He chuckled and you shook your head and stood up, walking over to the other side of the couch and lying down.
"Okay, babe sorry." Fermin kept laughing while he stood up. You were lying facing the ceiling while your arms were crossed, it was hard not to look at Fermin. However you still didn't know what he was laughing about.
"Okay, fine." Fermin mumbled to himself and laid down on top of you, his head resting on your chest while his hands were laid out next to you.
You freed your arms from under him and started pulling up the blue shirt he was wearing. He at first looked up at you confused but you just smiled.
You began scratching his back with your nails and his eyes rolled back as he put his head down on your chest again.
"Ah this feels so good." he moaned and you kept smiling at him. You looked on your left and pulled the fluffy grey blanket over the two of yourself.
While you kept scratching Fermins back under the blanket he was falling asleep. His eyelids heavy and constant yawns coming up.
Eventually his breathing slowed down and you smiled to yourself at Fermin sleeping on top of you. He's really nothing more than a big baby.
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