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gayve-strider-man-rider · 4 months ago

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love paying thousands of dollars so I can sit in a lecture hall and over think my identity instead of maths

#its like. god idk. the more i think about it the more i feel like i have to accept that i am just aroace?#and the more i realise i really dont want that to be true?#it just. feels so fucking lonely #like. god.#all my friends are in relationships and im not. everyone was talking about childhood crushes yesterday and i just couldn't join in. we were #fillimg out these identity chart things and there just. wasnt an option for what i was #relationships are always going to be more important than friendships and that makes sense. i get that. but that also means im always going #to be lesser to someone else #like yes amato/allonormativity is bullshit and i shouldnt listen to it but. fuck its depressing feeling like im just missing a core part of #what makes someone a real person yk. it fucking sucks #like i think im already sensitive to that bc growing up trans and neurodivergent means i already feel like ive missed out on so many #milestones #and now i have this. and im always going to have this. and it fucking sucks #like idk!! i wanna date!! i want someone to care about me in that way!! but ill never be able to do that without feeling like im decieving #them so whats the fucking point yk!!#like im just overexaggerating the few hints of sexuality i have now to at least try to pretend i have one #because at least then i can be included in those conversations and not feel like a lesser person for those few seconds #but then it changes. and im back to feeling like a freak and half of a person !! and i feel like a freak and gross whenever i di exaggerate #my sexualoty at all so yk. no winning there ig #god idk #this got uh. more depressing than i thought #i think i just already feel lowkey like shit constantly so this just makes it worse?#idk. im too tired for this shit #thumbsup #i swear im normal

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vriskan8or · 9 months ago

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let her go

#homestuck #vriska serket #terezi pyrope #vriska #terezi #vrisrezi #mic_art #screencap redraw of that one utena scene woohoo #vrisrezi and utenanthy dont share many similarities but there are some interesting parallels that can be drawn #like theyre all characters who are devoted to the respective roles they think they have #utena needs to be a prince and vriska needs to be a hero #terezi needs to cast vriska as the villain so that she can be the one to bring her to justice while anthy #is resigned to her role as the rose bride and is cast as a witch by others (and herself in a way...) to justify her suffering #im too tired to put into words all the other shit rattlign around in my brain but something something vriska society violence princes utena #something interesting to note is that in the rgu stabbing scene utena is walking to the left while is hs vriskas walking to the right #which i think is mostly a cultural difference due to english being read left to right while japanese is read right to left #changing which direction is percieved as forward #which could be read further into but could also just be the natural flow of the scene or whateevr #idk i need to peruse ohtori.nu again i looooove reading utena essays

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sundial-bee-scribbles · 6 days ago

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#my audio lol #talkloid #shitpost #kasane teto #utau #utauloid #teto utau #idk tags. my brother's friend sent him this apparently and my brother sent it to me and i was like 1) mood #2) WAIT I HAVE TETO I CAN MAKE THIS REAL LMAO. i was gonna delete her bc i wasnt using her but i fished her out of recycling just for this #the 'goddd. fuckkkk' at the end sounds way better than everythign else imo 😭 im too good at making vsynths swear i s2g #i tried so hard to get the beginning to sound better but i couldnt ughgh. and im tired lol ive been doing too many things today #so yeah take this even tho it sucks lol. im getting too silly and i just wanna make synths say dumb shit for funsies

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theplatypusblue · 5 months ago

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if i dont draw him committing murder every once and a while then wahts even the point......

#i have work so early tmrw... somebody save me i have too many drawing ideas for this shit #i feel like this is missing smthn but idk what and im too tired to keep working on it. lol. lmao.#tw blood #cw blood #ninjago #lego ninjago #ninjago fanart #lloyd garmadon

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eggwishing · 2 months ago

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PAGE VOMIT

#homestuck #god i wanna pass out but i need to. FUCKKKKKK #so much shit to do #clutches my head #who cares though. i am healing #clearly needed to get this out after whatever last week was #deep breath guys here we go #rose lalonde #dirk strider #rosebot #ultimate dirk #(‘s ass)#well. he’s there as a dragon too #i rescind tnat last that #Tag #i meant tag #not that #im so tired #also that wasnt that many to list. idk why i thought it was abotu to be a whole wall of names

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lemongogo · 2 months ago

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they should get to kill each other at least twice .i think

#gravity falls #stanford pines #stanley pines #lg doodles #i drew this a few days ago but im so tired after work ngl . sittingnin bed like =__= ..#and im visiting family this weekend so idek if ill get to it until next weekend #but ya i love them i loge them so much #i love the tension in atots right after stanford comes back #and hes like writing sll this shit ab stan in the journal #while learning that he stole his identity and so on and stans like hey so i did this rly selfless thing for u can you at least #acknowledge it and they r just stewing in their own anger 😭#actually i love their dynamic so much . the arguing as they mimic each other 1:1 and rhe animosity and #ykw im gna make another post but the grammar stanley scene is my favorite #magbe its not post worthy nvm idc but thats probably one of my fav interactions in the whole series #its so stupid that u know its real HELPPlike yeah that rly isnjust how it is . in fact ive done more over less 🫶#HAHAHAHAH #ugh.love . lovee i wish #i dont think gf needs a continuation im totally in the 2 season boat here #but if they ever did a post series stan and ford exploration ohhh believe . trust tht i would not shut up ab it ever #i want to see them talk so bad . im so greedy bc i feel like they didnt talk enough in the series bc im partial 2 them i just want them in #everything .#i think their personalities are so fun esp bc ford isnt the annoying nerd archetype i like that hes a cocky bitch #and i like that stan is an equally cocky bitch and they both have too much pride that they butt heads over literally everythjng #but they also recognize how ridiculous it all is like 😭. even when theyre fighting over the journal they both r like ok pause r u ok #hmm.. so many ppl here capture their dynamic well too.😭at least the people who dont generalize either into a single personality trait yk #imso tired im tired #but guys i love talking ab ford and stan theybr so everything to me in ways i dnt think incould ever articulate like u see them and u just g #get it . ugh. turning my head and passing out . ford is so funny hes so stupid i love him i cant bekieve i was a ford hater im sorry ive #atoned im changed im a changed oerson i didnt realize the magnitude of his serve .but stanley as my day 1 will never change . just know .(k #idk if anyonf ever reads this fsr down but if u r here say cheesee📸📸

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szczurherbacany · 2 years ago

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im working on bigger illustrations atm, but heres a little doodle in the mean time

#assume hes kissing his chin or some shit idk #im too tired to fix this #steddie #doodle #att #digital art #steve harrington #eddie munson

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ghostespresso · 1 year ago

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staff logging on to tumblr dot com today

#staff sweetie i Promise you an algorithm would kill this webbed site #changing the way reblogs look/work would Absolutely kill this webbed site too #this is a Blogging Platform i dont want it to be like tiktok or twitter jesus #if you NEED to change something literally listen to the the Tumblr Users you pretend you cant hear #if money is what you need make your userbase Happy and you should be fine #the shop is fine blaze posts are fine ad free subscriptions are fine but dont get rid of shit that Works For You in favor of making money #someone really laced up their clown boots today im. so tired staff please dont #tumblr staff #EDIT: staff updated their original post to say we were all misunderstanding but #that doesnt stop the post from being stupid #the whole post was worded for Investors and then presented to the userbase #if you say 'we have big changes planned!' and dont put in the 'as options' its Your Fault that people read it as 'were changing everything'#staff isnt stupid. they know how they Should have worded it better than what they did #so yeah. someone Did lace up their clown boots before they hit post #edit pt 2 lol for the record i dont think tumblr would actually go through with all their changes in that post #they know how the userbase is and there are A Lot of us #i just dont like how? idk. condescending? the post sounded #and out of every place on the internet being being burned alive in the name of money #tumblr is the one place i know enough about to be Actually mad at lol #ive really liked some stuff staff has done in recent years #but talking to your userbase that way wasnt one

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nerdstify · 8 months ago

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day in

day out

likes do nothing!

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instantpansies · 19 days ago

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life is hard for us oz fans who are only meh about wicked. have half a meme.

#it's not even that i dislike boq as a character - he's fine. i think galinda is the most intriguing of the musical esp in her relationship #with power and how that relates to her relationships with other people. but boq is fine #i am just SO fucking tired of conflating boq wicked with nick chopper baum books #that's not my tin woodman. and i don't want him to be. nick (unlike many oz characters) has a very specific and set backstory #he has a whole damn book about it ffs #and boq is such a different character in terms of role symbolism and personality that i just cannot see him as even an au version of nick #fiyero too to be completely honest. though his mischaracterization doesn't bother me quite as much bc i read the book and he is rather #intriguing as a separate character - i don't love him in the musical tho. anyways specifically calling boq the tin woodman and saying #all the baum book stuff happened to him is so irritating to me because they are not at all the same. and nick is one of my favorite charas #in any media ever. idk. no hate if you like boq ofc and i don't want to stop you from having fun with the characters #i just am getting tired of the greater oz fandom latching on to wicked as fleshing out the baum or mgm characters. it's an entirely #different world. (and yes we can discuss the fact that wicked is intended to be canon compliant with the 39 film - but once again it's #a stretch to say it fits the charas. and that isn't the issue i have here.)#anyways. sorry. i'm just tired of wicked = boq = nick stuff #esp im annoyed at the fiyero and boq blorbo-ifying i see when the women of this musical are far more interesting and proactive #boq and fiyero are just furniture/pawns in the great drama that is elphaba's life and the way she pulls glinda into it with her #but WHATEVER i DIGRESS and shit. ignore this. whatever #it's the way people attempt to reconcile a lot of non-compliant media into whichever one they like the best. which is all fun and games #i am just being a hater. ok? this is me being a hater.#analysis #wizard of oz #wicked #wicked musical #toast talks oz #toasty talks

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iwanttobepersephone · 1 month ago

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So, my mom was telling me how much free time I have, and I was like, "I have no freetime wth do you mean?????" And I just wanna see if this is like. A normal way to think of things?

Things I need to do:

Finish reading icebound land

Make a whole lotta art that I promised people

Research study abroad programs

At least one Dutch lesson a day

Keep my room clean

Talk to my friends so they know I love them (and so I don't go insane)

My math homework

Keep myself clean (showers, finally brushing my teeth after months, etc etc) so I don't go insane

Eat at 7pm

Various things I enjoy as to not go insane

All from 6pm to 9 pm, every day, after being at school from 8 am to 3:30 pm and then The Public (teen center) from 3:30 to 5:30, and I need to be in bed by 9:30 and asleep by 10:00

So, basically, I'm "on the clock" from 7 am (When I start getting ready for school) until 9 pm, with no breaks

But yeah no I totally have free time. Yeaup

#“but you never actually do that stuff! you just sit and scroll!”#yeah cause if I'm not doing what I need to I'm not Allowed to do anything else #but I'm just. too tired. to do what I need yo #I hate high school #rambles #adhd #executive dysfunction #<- I've heard that this kinda mental math can be a symptom of those things? idk #im so tired #burnout #adhd burnout #(????? I think????)#high school #I'm just so tired of all of this #the sun is going down way too early and I barely speak at all at school and I never finish work early anymore and the teen center is loud #and I still want to be active in the fandom but I don't have time to make posts anymore #and I don't have any in person friends anymore and I don't know when the last time I got a hug was #and I'm just. so. tired. my room is clean and I have good grades and I talk to my friends everyday and I shower routinely #why the hell am I so stressed #I do everything I'm supposed to do #I just want to go somewhere else man #The Netherlands hopefully #I wanna actually DO something #go on a trip for band #not just finish the work put in front of me day after day after day after day #I wasn't built for this shit #I'm so fucking tired

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theprodigypenguin · 1 year ago

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Little Sabo used to skitter around on all fours like some kind of cryptid creature, normally when sneaking around the Baltigo kitchens at night for a snack. Insert an image of Dragon going to the kitchen for a glass of water and turning the light on only to see Sabo with a leg of meat in his mouth frozen in the middle of the kitchen on all fours like some kind of feral beast and immediately turning the light back off and going back to bed.

#you can take the boy out of mount corvo but you cant take mount corvo out of the boy #dragons too tired for this shit #idk why but this is making me laugh so fucking hard #one piece #revolutionary sabo #revolutionary army #monkey d dragon #good dad dragon #he is a kreechur #really hope people understand the image in my head cuz im in tears from laughter

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j-esbian · 18 days ago

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