#but im a cancer and i have a lot of feelings

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else

[rilinda]

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[orcelito]

Actually we r at 6 months now without any major deaths in my life, which is great! That's the longest I've gone without any major deaths since last May! The second longest was 4 months between July and November last year. Wow !

[senseiwu]

maybe a bit tmi but. I need to Scream.

[jentlemahae]

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[hearteyesdiaz]

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[just-rogi]

im so fucking tired of going to the doctors. i cant keep up. every week its a new test or a new lab or a new specialist. i'm just exhausted. i have to go in for blood work AGAIN- this is the fourth time since april. its expensive, and time consuming, and honestly? im tired. im just tired. all the fucking time im tired of the lack of answers, and the phone calls in the middle of the day, and crying at work in front of my students, and opening my email to new lab results every other day. IM TIRED OF IT!!! im not even afraid of hospitals or needles i never have been, even as a kid, but i couldnt stop crying last time i got bloodwork. ive never been upset by bloodwork before what the fuck. last week i had an ultrasound of my liver and i got a call in the middle of the work day today that i need to get a BONE SCAN?? are you kidding me?? im scared. and im tired. and im angry. and i dont want to do any of this. i just want to cry and isolate myself and go to bed and not see anyone ever but i cant fucking do that because i have to go get injected with radioactive contrast material and wait four hours so they can see what is wrong with my bone enzymes.

[marsixm]

me and my manager: *randomly just start trauma dumping about our parents dying horribly from cancer*

the new manager: 😳

[commanderfreddy]

i never remember to explain shit anymore i just vaguepost and expect people to catch up but i finally have good news, we've made a lot of progress with my parents' estate (they both ran their own businesses and you know those images of nightmare cable management? well imagine that with bank accounts) and i actually have money now - im taking a trip to Aotearoa NZ with my mate Jules next week (dark sky reserve! lotr filming locations! snow! FOOD!) and then in august i will be moving to nyc to pursue a 2 year masters degree in library science with a focus on rare materials archival studies!! shits happening in my life!! im not just sitting in my house doing nothing all day!! and like i said i have money!! if you're taking commissions lmk bc while im focused on my getaway for the next few weeks i wanna support my friends and their art and when i get back i wanna throw u cash to draw my ocs!!

[widevibratobitch]

visiting my mother. idk what i expected lol

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

i was talking to my mum and i was like “yea i’m really struggling to connect to my peers and even some of my friends” and she was like “well you have kinda been through the wringer and had to mature super fast in a way that you can’t relate to them about” and. yeah.

[jelliegirl]

i feel sad today -_-

[orcelito]

the weird thing about when someone dies is that they're never truly dead in my head. when i think about my grandpa, my grandma, my uncle, i dont think of them as dead. i think of them as just... gone for a while. some longer than others. i think about my cat sammy and my cat cassy and i feel like i could still look over and see them there beside me. i can see the way sammy would always cuddle right up to me and lay his head on my shoulder. i can see the way cassy would swivel his head at me when he wanted pets.

they're all dead. they're all gone. but i feel like i could see them again, just like old times. all i need to do is give them a call.

[rosebramblewolf]

im going to make art about this

[madelineserenity]

Reaper Nurse Christmas Prompt Countdown | Day 4: Movies

This one is unclear on the reader's relationship to the nurses and can be interpreted however you'd like. As Christmas is a time for family, I'll be writing some with a child, girlfriend/wife/fiancée, etc. reader. It's also in dot points because this one is headcanons, not an entire fic. Also because this is a headcanon one, it's exempt from having to use periods at the ends of the headcanons because fuck social and fanfic norms

• home alone home alone home alone home alone home alone home alone home alone home alone home alone home alone home alone home alone home alone home alone home alone home alone home-

• It's just a tradition at this point

• You always cover your eyes and ask one of the nurses to cover your ears when Marv steps on the nail

• There is no Christmas at the hospital without Home Alone

• The second one is optional but recommended, the first one is a necessity

• You watch them in the Therapy Centre, projecting it on one of the walls and using speakers so Matron can watch too

• The nurses always bring 4 or 5 different flavours of popcorn (this year, plain salted, sweet and salty, buttery, caramel and cheddar)

• They just can't keep up with which flavour is your favourite

• They always have a mix of plain salted and caramel popcorn in the red-striped cardboard containers, every now and then you'll find a wrapped hard butterscotch candy in there, and there's always a candy cane at the top

• Hot chocolate hot chocolate hot chocolate-

• Caroline has 100% tried to snort the hot chocolate powder in the past to be funny, and had to leave, coughing, sputtering, and with her bleeding nose staining her bag

• It dampened your mood for a little while, but the Matron and the remaining nurses were able to cheer you up

• You'd forgotten about it the second they unpaused the movie

• It's a funny story now and sometimes you tell it to the guests (who think it's hilarious) if Caroline pranks you or if you're just feeling like being an asshole

• Warm fuzzy blankets. They smell fresh and clean, slightly floral, even, as if just out of the wash. It's a very comforting smell. They also feel like they've just been taken out of the dryer, warm and fuzzy as a Pomeranian and as soft as butterfly silk

• The whole place smells like salted butter and hot chocolate

• Matron has a bowl on her desk, every now and then you stand up, pick things from the designated "snack table", gesture for her to hold the bowl down to your level and put them in the bowl. You have to make 2-3 more trips back and forth from the table to give her a decent amount of snacks because of the size difference

• She got the bowl because you kept doing this every time you guys watched movies. She used to have her own bag of snacks but you kept forgetting about it, also you wanted to involve her in the food and fun bc she loves you too, not just the nurses

• Want to make her really happy? Bring her chocolate-covered pretzels

• If you do she'll pick you up (carefully) and hug you to her chest for a few moments, before popping you back down so you can go back to your bean bag

• I didn't already mention the bean bags? Fuck you yes I di-

• Some of you sit on bean bags. Yours is white faux fur and very cosy. It's also very big so you can have a proper nap in it, not just sit on it

• Caroline (excepting the time of The Hot Chocolate Incident™️, in which she just wasn't present) sits on a rocking stool because she's too hyper to sit still.

• Most of the nurses sit on two couches, however. One is a navy-but-not-too-navy blue that's starting to fade after all the years of the Home Alone tradition. The other is a college plastic beer pong cup red.

Imagine it like this:

stfu drawing on microsoft word with a trackpad is hard

• You'll watch movies from 7pm until 5am, when everyone is too tired to get up to change the disc or pick up the remote

• The only non-Christmas Matron will allow on Christmas Movie Night are the Austin Powers movies. They're too funny to not watch

• You and Caroline quote them all the time, even in front of Malak

• i can see this going two ways:

1, Malak doesn't understand them and just ignores the references, or gets pissed off that you're interrupting him if you're in a meeting.

2, Someone's showed it to him

and it can only be you, Caroline, Lucky or Mama Bear (everyone else is too pussy) (also Mama Bear definitely watches Austin Powers after her babies go to sleep)

in which, he'll either finish the quote, chuckle at it, or get pissed off, if you're in a meeting or if Agatha is nearby. (Obviously, if the quote is inappropriate regardless of whether or not you get it, he'll get angry if you say it near Agatha, but if it's not, he'll just brush it off as a reference he doesn't get)

• Everyone sleeps in the next day

• It fucks up your sleep schedule so badly it's only back to normal by the next movie night.

[florida3exclamationpoints]

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