#there are so many books i want to read
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i never remember to explain shit anymore i just vaguepost and expect people to catch up but i finally have good news, we've made a lot of progress with my parents' estate (they both ran their own businesses and you know those images of nightmare cable management? well imagine that with bank accounts) and i actually have money now - im taking a trip to Aotearoa NZ with my mate Jules next week (dark sky reserve! lotr filming locations! snow! FOOD!) and then in august i will be moving to nyc to pursue a 2 year masters degree in library science with a focus on rare materials archival studies!! shits happening in my life!! im not just sitting in my house doing nothing all day!! and like i said i have money!! if you're taking commissions lmk bc while im focused on my getaway for the next few weeks i wanna support my friends and their art and when i get back i wanna throw u cash to draw my ocs!!
#fred says a thing#personal#i havent slept (its 8am) but not for sad reasons! i was reading a good book and then i just had a lot of thoughts!#invariably i will be sad again - probably soon! i will definitely see stuff on my trip that i will want to show my parents and have to#experience the strange nature of grief-for-what-never-was several times over during otherwise great moments#- but i will also be happy in the future too!#my therapist says i definitely have ptsd! im learning more about emotional flashbacks and how to manage them!#im a human being and i will continue to be one for the rest of my life!#i hope thats a long time!#but even if that isnt something my genetics allows i was happy now! and people were happy to have me in the world!#im realising that sounds rather alarming but i just have a lot of fears about my genetics considering. you know. the cancer orphaning.#im trying to manage both my health fears and my health itself in a reasonable way! i made a chicken tomato pasta sauce last night#just from ingredients i had lying around and it was pretty good!#i have a ripe tomato i picked from the garden yesterday that today i will fry up with bacon and put on some toast i think#there are so many books i want to read#there are so many books i want to write#in a few days i will be experiencing snow (a rarity for me) and i will probably be handling the cold very poorly and i will feel excited#and uncomfortable at the same time#and for much of my life i will experience a lot of contradictory things at the same tiem#and i will experience times of great boredom and inaction! we all have to stand in queues and wait for buses and go to the dentist#and wonder what might have been#but i will experience them. i will.
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*pretending like i haven't been biting at the bars of my enclosure all week* so neat show, huh? [id in alt]
#hualian#hualian fanart#heaven official's blessing#tgcf#tgcf fanart#myart#hua cheng#hua cheng fanart#xie lian#heaven official's blessing fanart#literally going crazy about them yall. so many Thoughts!!#currently reading the book after i binged the show#i want to draw them More and fengqing but i feel like i need to read more for them#if anyone has any prompts to do with them that don't include spoilers pls send my way!!#my favorite things to draw are xie lian's little white strands of hair the anime does#hua cheng x xie lian
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i dont know how else to put this but to approach books (or any media, really) solely for the sake of relatability is genuinely incredibly heartbreaking......to have such little (or such unwilling) imaginative scope that you cannot stretch yourself, even marginally, in a different direction to what you’ve known or are used to knowing when the very POINT of stories is to transport you somewhere else, into someone else, so you can do just that........when fran lebowiz said a book “is supposed to be a door!” and george saunders said good prose “is like empathy training wheels” they were right!!! they were so so so SO absolutely entirely right!!!!!
#thinking about that last post still and i'm having so many thoughts#that people have relatability as the sole criterion is astonishing to me#like how else are you going to develop variegated textures in your relationships w others?#not to be dramatic but it seems like a little death to me. truly.#everything i read as a child and teenager was expressly something as different from my world as possible. bc i wanted to relate as something#other than me#once again it is. heartbreaking#truly it is#p#book talks#idir lúibíní
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I love libraries.
I'm browsing the WWI shelves (as you do) and notice a very old book about the war. I glance at the first pages that talk about how one day the war will be over and we'll look at this place and not see any signs of the battlefield.
Then it hits me. And I check the publishing date.
This book was printed before the war's end. Not written. Printed. The physical object was created in 1918, while the war in question was raging and the end was as yet uncertain.
Now I'm standing on the other side of the apocalypse, with this physical link to that era in my hands. I'm living proof that the war did end and life did go on and we can all look at the end of the world as a long-ago memory.
Reading old books is cool enough, connecting our minds and hearts through the ideas of people who lived long ago, but there's something extra profound about holding a copy of the book that comes from the time that it was written. It's a physical link between the past and the present connecting me to those long-ago people. A piece of the past come into the future that gives me the chance to almost take the hand of some long-ago reader, to hold something they could have held, connecting not just mentally but physically to their era, a moment of connection across more than a century.
Excuse me while I go weep.
#books#history is awesome#of course i checked it out#i had no real intent to read wwi non-fic but i couldn't just leave my new friend there it'd be lonely#i want to break out in tears every time i look at it#it's so stupid but sometimes something stupid just kicks you straight in the heart and you just gotta deal#it's old front line by john masefield#i know nothing about it except thinking the author's name sounded vaguely familiar#also the interior design is fantastic#these old books know how to use white space and make something super readable#if you must know i was in the wwi section because i was at the history museum the other day#and saw a local author had a book of wwi letters#thought i'd see if the library had it#looked at the selection of non-fic surrounding it and thought of the wwi persuasion#saw many books that could be useful#and thought 'oh no this looks like fun'#it won't go anywhere i know i won't be able to focus long enough to do real research#but darn if it wasn't an appealing little daydream
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Odile doesn't get Loop's fascination with star gazing, but she can at least appreciate the chance to sit down and do nothing for a bit.
#isat#in stars and time#isat loop#isat odile#odile looping au#my art#assume this at the point in the au where the two of them start entering the house ahead of the rest of the group#since this way no one can complain about wasting hours reading#but there are only so many headachy books someone can read before wanting a break honestly#this is like refing my whole odile looping series 'like a wheel ever turning' but otherwise just a vibe pic i felt like drawing#i just think they're neat#anyway#even if odile can't really stargaze there's one star she CAN see#very mysterious star too even if its a star that rarely shuts up which should kill SOME of that mystery#Loop is a very talented star!
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do yall ever think about bruce/batman!clone danny standing in front of his bathroom mirror after finding out he was a clone and silently tracing his face. The slope of his jaw and point of his chin. The high angle of his cheekbones and the shape of his eyes, the curve of his brow bones and the shape of his nose. The volume of his hair and the way it curls and gets fluffy when it gets too long.
His hair is black the same way a crow's wing is black. His dad's hair is black the same way a black bear's fur is black. His dad's eyes are blue like the ocean is blue. Danny's eyes are blue the same way a glacier is blue.
His dad has a square jaw and straight flat hair, and he tans and gets a face full of freckles when he's out in the sun for too long. Danny burns like a lobster and his face remains untouched. Danny has a sharp jaw and tall cheekbones, and Sam says when he's not smiling there's almost something regal about him. You would never call Jack Fenton "regal" when he's not smiling.
Sam says when he's not smiling he looks scary the same way a stone statue is. Jack Fenton when he's not smiling looks scary the same way that german shepherd staring at you across the street is.
Do you ever think he grew up wondering if he was adopted. Because of course, he has black hair and blue eyes like his dad. But having the same color doesn't make you someone's child.
Or, worse, things he's heard from the other kids and the other parents and even some of his teachers growing up; that he was the product of an affair. And that his dad was just too stupid to notice. And Danny would defend his parents until the day he died, because Jack Fenton wasn't an idiot and Maddie Fenton wasn't a cheater.
But doubt comes in with fickle tongue. his parents swear up and down that he is their child when he asks about either. That Danny just had his grandparents' features, but he was their son and they loved him.
But Danny doesn't look like either of his parents. His mom's eyes are blue like an aquamarine and Jazz's too. And they burn like lobsters in the sun too, but Jazz gets freckles on her face and so does Maddie. And as Danny grows up he doesn't bulk up or get stocky like his dad did, and when he hits puberty he doesn't shoot up like a tree like Jack Fenton did.
He stays small, and they say he's a late bloomer (and he is), or that he just has his mom's height. But he's fast and has good stamina, and some days it feels like he's built entirely different from his family. That the things they went through growing up just didn't apply to him. Jack and Maddie Fenton both had acne and breakouts when they hit puberty, and Jazz inherits it and he's seen the amount of skincare products she keeps on her side of the bathroom.
And then he hits puberty and breaks out maybe once or twice, but his skin stays clear for the most part and the problems and changes his dad went through just don't happen to him.
And the truth is worse than all of the lies.
How horrifying.
#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc crossover#dpdc#danny fenton is a clone#clone danny fenton#clone danny#thinking about the inherent trauma that comes with growing up as a clone and not knowing and questioning everything about yourself#thinking about the amount of effort and lying that Jack and Maddie would've had to to do if they wanted to pass Danny off as their bio son#the MEDICAL RECORDS#danny's medical history is completely different from theirs. any generational health problems the waynes have would/could be passed down to#danny and he's completely oblivious to it up until the reveal. he'd have no idea about any medical risks until they hit him before that.#so many little things and inconsistencies that would just build and build and build until it finally came to a head and the truth came out#forever and ever and ever fascinated by the underlying horror of being a clone. there's a horror in being cloned but there's also a horror#in BEING a clone. like yes he could've always known from the start and that comes with its own set of issues BUT. just. him not knowing#for the longest time. the lies and deceit and betrayal. you know how adopted kids come out and talk about how they didn't know they were#adopted for the longest time and how traumatizing and betrayed they felt when they're finally told 15-20 years down the line? yeah that#i imagine finding out you're a clone is a lot like that.#i read a book in middle school once abt a girl moving to a new town with her family and getting these horrible nightmares and noticing how#everyone was acting strange around her. one of her nightmares was about the 30yo police officer being a shambling corpse talking to her#and at the end of the book she finds out she's actually the clone of a dead older sister and the police officer was her sister's boyfriend.#and she was in gymnastics but quit and her parents were so disappointed bc the og sister was a champion/award winning gymnastics player#and i never did finish the book but god am i reminded of that.#i love reading the dpxdc clone danny posts and they usually have him brush off being a clone which is literally totally fine but duUUDE#just imagine his own horror over it. its SOOO good
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i believe the first time you let (virgin) kakashi play with your pussy, it comes accompanied in an unusual way of talking on his part. it's almost like he takes notes to himself, almost like he doesn't talk to you. the tired gaze is set between your sticky thighs, watching carefully how your folds stretch as he puts his finger in and pulls it out, you exhale.
"oh, here?" he slowly bends it and pushes, you cry out. "too much?"
he doesn't even look at you as you gaze at him in raw adoration. you don't even know what expression he has because he refused to take off his mask.
"you're squeezing so tight." his eyebrows draw together for a second before returning to his usual expression. with the thumb of his free hand he squeezes and strokes the bundle of nerves. "so wet." kakashi pushes deep, faster this time and your legs tremble, you call out to him and he ignores you with a hoarse throaty purr. "here. i like that sound."
wet clicks fill the office. kakashi fucks your pussy with one finger and then adds another with perspicacity, careful of every step he makes next.
"I think it's gonna cum for me." your looks become one, unbreakable as he massages you like someone with experience and makes you wet his knuckles, juices dripping down his fingers and wetting his gloves. you scream his name clinging to that intangible, rushing to hold on to his thick white strands pulling him further into you.
kakashi do it, he's guided by your fingers leading him further in; to take a glimpse of how you open up for him, how you tremble, how you squeeze. "does it always get so swollen?" he asks, and you know once again he's not talking to you. he leans in and the tip of his nose brushes the lovely sore nub back and forth almost as if he's teasing, then he takes a deep, shameless inhale, and you forget to breathe. "cute. you can cum now, I have to try again to see your reaction one more time."
#I'm done for tonight ✋🏼#I need him carnally#I have so many ideas#it's just that kakashi. makes me a little crazy.#a little sick.#there are so many possible scenarios to write#the reader letting him play with her and explore the reactions she has when her pussy is touched just because#she has a huge crush on kakashi (me)#and kakashi wanting to explore and learn the techniques he has read in his book with someone real#all that time without even showing you his face#because he doesn't trust you enough to show you what he really looks like under the mask#kakashi x reader#kakashi smut#wr#wr.kakashi
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My favorite scenes from The Odyssey (books 18 to 21)
Odysseus fighting a random beggar being its own book was not something I expected to enjoy this much when reading The Odyssey, but here we are.
#the odyssey#odysseus#penelope#odypen#telemachus#athena#eurymachus#antinous#irus#aka the beggar#eurycleia#anyway I've read the odyssey three times now (Emily Wilson's translation twice) it's become a hyperfixation#there are so many scenes I like that I'd probably have to draw the entire story#like I have several in book 1 alone#examples being the olympain gods waiting for poseidon to go to some party in ethiopia just so they can make a decision without him#telemachus telling his mom not to stop their bard (aka personal dj) from singing a song about his father's death#keep in mind he says that the bard is free to sing about whatever he wants while in a previously it was mentioned that the bard was forced#in book two (in think) Telemachus calls the nobles for a meeting and then throws the “speaking staff” to the floor#and proceeds to trauma dump#back to book one: Athena making some long excuse of how she is totally a human man and immediately transforms into a bird#in front of Telemachus' face#all of this and its not even halfway through the Telemachy
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She chances a glance at Sebastian before getting out her copy of Divining the Undivinable from her bag and wishes she hadn’t. He looks uncomfortably big sitting on the tiny tea chair across from her, barely any hints of the boy who had completely swept her away two years ago visible on the sharper planes of his face. When had he - had they - grown up?
Sebastian Sallow was - is - charming, and that had been her downfall. She had successfully avoided his charms the year before, and she isn’t going to let that happen this year, no matter how much her body rebels against her mind and resolve. Because, as she reminds herself, Sebastian Sallow is also manipulative, and cold-hearted, and selfish.
“Well,” she says archly, opening her book. She will not look at him. “I suppose I am still quite ignorant of the practice of Divination, so do forgive me if I have to double-check my readings in the textbook.”
He says her name as she opens the book, and she ignores him. He says her name again. She continues to ignore him. He grabs the book from her hands and puts it the correct way for her. She was looking at it upside-down. Her cheeks heat up and she continues flipping through the pages, as if nothing has happened. She finds page two-hundred and thirty. She pretends to be interested in what she sees.
(Divination is unfortunately not interesting.)
Oh, fine.
“Do you want to start, or should I?”
These are the first words she has voluntarily spoken to him - not including the events of last week, which do not count as they were most decidedly not voluntary - since he called her ignorant a year and a half ago. He somehow looks surprised to see that she has addressed him, and for some reason this fills her with rage and a strange sort of confidence. Why shouldn’t she be able to talk to him?
“Here,” she says, putting her hand out towards him, palm up, ignoring the strange fluttering feeling in her chest when he gently grabs it with one of his. Sebastian looks up at her, waiting for her to continue speaking, and were she not looking at him so intently she would have easily missed the bob of his throat as he swallows nervously. “Show me how it’s done.”
from my oneshot, clumsy🫶🫶🫶
#it was SO HARD to think of how much of this scene to include as an excerpt#bc I want enough for no context really but I could have just included the whole pov and…maybe it would be too long idk#but enough to set the scen#of my brat angel reading her book upside down😆#Sebastián is trying not to smile bc she’s trying SO HARD TO BE UNAFFECTED😤😤😤😤😤😤#anyways I’m happy i had some time to paint today😭💓💓💓#I sketched this a few days ago but I didn’t know when I would find the time to paint and today the stars aligned🥹🙏#and honestly IT WAS SO HARD TO SKETCH THIS…#I was scared I would ruin the paper with how many times I erased😆😆😆#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow fanart#sebastian sallow x mc#hogwarts legacy fanfic#sebastian sallow fic#also I’m working on another dumb oneshot😆😆#I still have a few more scenes from this one I want to paint though��🫶🫶
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Said with love of course. Companion post to this.
#gravity falls#bill cipher#the book of bill#billford#look im also at the devils sacrement okay at least im not denying it#partially made because so many people insist on a Human Bill because they refuse/don't want to admit they want to fuck a triangle#like its okay!!! lean into it! get wierd with it! youre on the monsterfucker website!#also because i find it really funny. exact same post as the time i was reading a monsterfucking doujin online and at the end they had the#same meme but about monsterfucking. and yeah you got me right there u have#also like hes not just a triangle he can get funky with many many tongues and teeth and arms#whats not to love about that#hugin rambles#hugin rambles gf#memes
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sigh
#part idk of my i love him and i want him to read books to me series#i have like so many screencaps from this and im gonna post bc i love him and im gonna make this everyone's problem#dreamboy#joe keery#djo#steve harrington#gator tillman#sigh#i love him#joekeeryedit#:(((((( he is so pretty i want to cry#look at him
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giulia farnese, lucrezia borgia, caterina gonzaga
we are. figuring out looks. slowly but surely, we're figuring out looks.
⭐ places I’m at! bsky / pixiv / pillowfort /cohost / cara.app / insta / tip jar!
#italian reanissance tag#blghghghghhh there's just so many people all the time#anyway back to cycling between books on the later roman empire/akhenaten/sparta&lakonia#i should finish the sparta&lakonia book because i want to do a sword&sandals type of comic set during the peloponnesian war#however. you ever read three pages of something and realize you have no idea what someone is talking about#every day reading about lakonia is like that. oof. it's fun tho! but i am going to go back to working on illustration work with#kamen rider on or something.#drawing tag
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Why would you—That's not—I just wanted to ask for help, why did you have to go and make it awkward???
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#xue yang#Its such a relief to not have to draw so many characters once again.#Redrawing the specific font from the English translated mdzs books was surprisingly fun!#Maybe I'm alone in this...but I think characters switching to a different font of speech for *emphasis* is peak comedy#you can't communicate voice changes of sound very well in non audio forms so this is the best I can do.#Anyways...rip Xue Yang. You finally meet your idol and he brushes you off#Rather— he doesn't live up to the expectations you built in your head#Kind of an on going issue there Jester (I refuse to call him king or sir)#XY is constantly making people out to be the versions he needed them to be to feel justified in his actions#but struggles to pivot when confronted with the fact that these ppl are *more* than just one surface reading!#wwx doesn't actually think xy is flirting. He's just tired of all the fake fans + wants to get out of this convo.#button mashing the A button to skip the unskippable cutscene#Lan Wangji is in the next comic btw. I've missed him dearly. I'm sorry he's been gone so long </3#edit: poorly spelt MDZS strikes again. This is why I need more time to write my comics. So I can actually proofread B*(#edit2: I cast 'Power of Technology' and fixed my error. Everyone reblog this version instead please
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#captain swan#cs gifs#ouat#ouat s4#I call this set: there's no such thing as too many selective color layers#I am OBSESSED with this kiss honestly and had to gif it#like this is what I think of whenever I'm reading a book/fic now and see the phrase:#“he captured her lips in a kiss”#or “he claimed her lips as his own”#or anything along those lines because LOOK at him#just take her upper lip like#finally#and I might have slowed down that first gif just a TOUCH too much but I really wanted to see it okay#I really wanted to study this kiss under a jar in gif form#I am nothing if not a Captain Swan kiss scientist you guys#I'm certified in everything#(certifiably crazy is more like it!)#I'm so normal about them#can you tell I'm rewatching this show lololol#my gifs
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If Maysilee takes the mockingjay pin into the arena, it may parallel Katniss and Rue.
In the 74th games, Katniss offers to give Rue the pin for her to keep. Rue refuses and tells Katniss about her good luck charm necklace, a grass-woven necklace with a star charm.
What if that’s how Haymitch gets the pin? And how it returns to 12? Maybe Maysilee offers it as a gift, and initially he refuses. But as he holds her while she dies, he finally agrees to take the pin.
#yknow holds her as she dies#like katniss and rue#i dont like this train and i want to get off#i cant stop thinking abt parallels now#i shouldve never re-read the books in prep#be prepared for more tho#im on catching fire currently#theres already so many ideas in my head#the hunger games#thg#sunrise on the reaping#haymitch abernathy#catching fire#mockingjay#katniss everdeen#rue#sotr#maysilee donner
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...tea?
#thinking about my au?#i have draft for big (you know BIG) comics#about how in the hell bill is a human and lives with pines family#i know there's many AUs about it but i want to make mine#but my lack of confidence just says: nahh nobody will read this stuff#so let's say main reason why is he like that - bill saved ford's live#fanart#art#my art#sketch#comics#mini comic#gravity falls#the book of bill#gravity falls bill#bill cipher#bill ci the demon guy#stanley pines#gravity falls stanley#stanford pines#gravity falls stanford#billford#artists on tumblr
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