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honestly even being a little older and listening to teenage dream by olivia i feel less of the angst i would’ve even a year ago. i know she literally says that people say it gets better but like what if you don’t? and truly, truly, it does. i’m not even 21 yet. i don’t feel nearly as much angst ab getting older and all of that shit and i truly do want to be alive even tho it’s hard and the world sucks shit. seeing people even older than me saying things ab how 30’s are better and stuff is also encouraging lol. if ur a teenager i promise u won’t always feel like this and even if u aren’t a teen (but esp if u are)
#chatters#olivia rodrigo#i think like#that’s why sour didn’t hit me as hard#no offense to her truly#but i’ve matured#i used to like#eat that shit up#bc i needed it so badly#my emotions were high and i related to it a lot#now i don’t as much#and so it just feels like a lot#or it’s not always want i want#sometimes#i want happy music#and i don’t know where to go#i’m so used to my angsty bs music and sad ones lol#even if it’s like this album it’s still like#not a happy album yk lol#i need to find new music#bad idea right is sooo good tho#scratches the exact right brain itch
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Sorry, but I just had a thought and I’m exhausted and don’t know if I’m going to write anymore tonight.
Just Steve holding a slight grudge against Nancy after she pretty much calls his love bullshit in the bathroom. He feels lead on, he’s slightly bitter but he knows how to be discreetly passive if he needs to be. But thing is he doesn’t have the energy in him to be passive. If this had been before the monsters, and someone who he thought was the love of his life did what Nancy did and proceeded to end up dating the guy who she said not to worry about within days after getting into a fight, he would have probably done something stupid. Probably would have ruined her locker with mean words or something like that.
He wasn’t sure what he would do, he was exhausted and couldn’t think of what used to come easy to him. Or maybe he’s grown to realize how immature that was, how it didn’t even seem all that fun to do to someone. Just thinking back to spray painting slut on the theater makes his gut twist uncomfortably. Once, he used to be the one to climb up there and spray something even worst. Now the thought made him want to throw up.
And maybe the grudge he is holding against Nancy isn’t really a grudge. Maybe he has matured to realized that the grudge he held was within himself for how fast he had fallen. For how stupid he was for thinking the girl would ever end up with him. He should have seen the signs. How she defended Jonathan even after he took non consensual photos of him and her about to have sex. Which he still felt disgusted by, his skin still crawled uncomfortably around the little creep whenever he was close by.
Though when the time comes, he realizes he was holding a grudge against Nancy. When he falls harder for someone new he realizes within minutes that something was different about this one. Instead of smacking him in the shoulder and scolding him for staring to long, Eddie would pull his hair in front of his face with bright eyes. Would do something dramatic to snap Steve out of the trance he was in. Like lick his face instead of kissing him.
That was the other thing Steve discovered. In the moments where it was just the two of them, it seemed like every other minute time would stop and Eddie would be in the same bubble as him. Lost in the same spell that Steve had tumbled into, needing to kiss the other just as much as they needed oxygen to breathe.
Nancy rarely had those moments with Steve, and they had stopped right around the time she started hanging out with Jonathan.
And Steve does hold a grudge, for how she stayed with him longer than what she had to.
Eddie made him feel in love and loved. Whenever Steve watched the other man he could barely keep his hands to himself and the best part was Eddie didn’t care. Steve could bite off Eddie’s remaining nipple and the man would still let Steve do whatever he wanted to him. Nancy never trusted Steve and never earned Steve’s trust the way Eddie did within one week of knowing each other.
Eddie was the moon and Nancy had been the sun for Steve. The sun burnt his skin and left him blistered while the moon wrapped his arms around him and rocked him to sleep every night. While Steve worried about when the sun would explode, he never had to worry about the moon disappearing for to long. It always came back, no matter what happened. Even if Steve had been an asshole.
God was Steve in love. This was it for him. And maybe at one point he had loved Nancy just as much as he did Eddie.
But now, as each day passes he only finds himself falling more in love with Eddie Munson.
He slowly comes to the conclusion that his love was and will never be bullshit.
And when he finally sits down to talk to Nancy about it, he finally gets it off his chest. What had been bugging him for almost years before falling for Eddie.
“Nancy, we were bullshit. But my love, it was all real. Maybe not as strong as it is for Ed’s but I know that if … everything wasn’t such bullshit I could have gotten there.” Steve says softly to Nancy. Shortly after she confessed she still had feelings for him. He seen this conversation coming from a mile away, especially with how many one sided sparks happened between the two of them while running for their life’s on spring break.
And as he stands up, leaving her in her own shock. Letting her process that he was with Eddie, a man. He can’t help but feel proud of himself.
He didn’t intentionally hold this grudge, but he felt as if he got back at her the healthiest way he could. By maturing and moving on. And looking down at Nancy, he could tell that she needed time to do the same. Not to be with another man or date in general, but to just grow as a person. But that was no longer his problem. His problem was currently running up the steps of the trailer with what seemed to be a moving snake.
“Hey Stevie! Look what I found.”
Steve was in love, and it wasn’t bullshit.
#idk where this came from#also would like to clarify this is in Steve’s point of view#which means he is obviously going to be bitter with Nancy once he realizes some things#and he would totally be more disgusted with Jonathan for what he did#these are just two of the things that I’ve kind of never liked how season four treated Steve and Nancy’s relationship#because they both have matured so much only for them to both back pedal a bit#so im writing this as if Steve is aware how dumb getting back with Nancy would be#soft steddie#steddie#stranger things#eddie munson#steve harrington#steve x eddie#strangerthings#steve stranger things#eddie and steve#Nancy wheeler#and don’t get me wrong Nancy would still be friends with Steve after#she just needs time#small drabble#a drabble of sorts
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How do I tell Annabeth haters that they’re not being more feminist for hating Annabeth instead of Rachel? Why do we always gotta hate someone? Can these two girls just exist and not be blamed for shit.
Because first it was “Rachel is getting in the way of Percabeth so she’s a bitch”
But now it’s “Annabeth was so mean to Rachel she had so much internalized misogyny”
Like why did y’all switch up??
I mean good for Rachel but like bad for society this just set us back because wtf
If you can’t blame one you have to blame the other? Honestly they think they’re being such a girls girl for that but it’s just getting worse. God forbid a girl has a crush on an attractive guy and god forbid the other girl who has severe trauma revolving anandonment hates her for it.
#Annabeth chase#this isn’t Rachel slander obviously#anti annabeth antis#rachel elizabeth dare#percy jackson#Percabeth#I swear how is the logic logicing#they’ll say Rachel is allowed to be a teenage girl but crucify Annabeth for the same thing#hypocrite much#Rachel did nothing wrong and Annabeth was valid for disliking her#these two can co-exist#and yes I’m addressing more Annabeth hate rn because I’ve seen so much of it#they’ll say maturing is realizing Annabeth was in the wrong#why the rush to blame someone#this isn’t the feminist move they think it is#heros of olympus#pjo#hoo
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oh no! the fantasy character with dark hair and scarred facial features is actually about to be taken prisoner and tortured!! again!!
#whump#whump writing#whumpblr#whump prompt#whump ideas#whump prompts#troy talks#tehehe#i missed being able to spew my deranged thoughts#anyway i’m rereading eragon#damn i remember being 12 and so so jealous of christopher paolini#good to see i’ve matured (i can read the book without being consumed by my own inability to write like him)#whump community#suffering#angst#writing#characters
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realizing i’ve lost my mental reference library for iron man after drifting away from marvel is so devastating…you mean I have to look up REFERENCES? to draw an IRON MAN SUIT? unthinkable
#I DONT REMEMBER WHAT MY FAVE SUIT WAS….IM HAVING TO CONSULT THE WIKI#how could this happen to me……….#on a call at work squinting at a grid of 40+ suits like which one of u….which one was the fave…..#kayvswords#maybe my opinion is different now….maybe I’ve matured and now it’s like the mark 2 or something. standard. reliable#I CANT DRAW THE SUIT FROM MEMORY ANYMLRE…….#tbd
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Their relationship in a nutshell (in my eyes)
How I managed to capture Greg with the same vibes in all three, but Vanessa’s is completely different in each one is beyond me but it’s hilarious 😂
That’s what we call ✨versatile✨
Can you tell the hyperfixation is hyperfixating lol😀
this was three more doodles that I decided to turn into full drawings lol
Here’s the three separate drawings too lol
#I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again#she comes off as someone who can fit whatever role she needs to (or wants to) in each circumstance#someone is a best friend an annoying sibling and a maternal figure#and I know it confuses a lot of people but I really think it does boil down#to her having a big sister archetype#she’s protective fun-loving and sweet all in one#she also tends to be a troublemaker and bad influence#she herself is simply not that mature imo#petition to have these two drawn more as besties PLEASE#fnaf#fnaf fanart#fnaf vanessa#fnaf gregory#doublestar duo#security breach#they are so silly#and again if you don’t wanna label them that’s fine every interpretation is valid!#but please respect the fact that I DO#bc it makes sense to me#procreate art#my art
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Hey! You! 🫵
I like your art and I wanted to eventually see you do a NY/Alaska art at some point
Alaska makes good company for him I’m sure ☺️ can be quiet, listens to him complain about everyone bugging him, has cute dog pups, doesn’t bother him, very good for cooling off after all the chaos in his life indeed! New York even has statues of both Balto and Togo!! Togo is never recognized so that is very cool that they have that!!
#Also seems to be more mature than 🤔 a lot of states imo#I’ve read fics about these two��. They’re very scrumptious and good#wttt#welcome to the table#welcome to the statehouse#ben brainard#wttt fan art#wttt fanart#wttt headcanons#wttsh#wttsh fanart#wttt alaska#wttsh alaska#wttt new york#wttsh new york
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I am genuinely so glad that the iwtv writers decided to age up not just Claudia, but the entire main vamp cast. Aging up Lestat, Louis and Armand to their late twenties to early thirties gives them more depth and dimension, both generally (in my experience, you experience, grow and develop so much in your twenties, even if it’s not necessarily as visible as the growth in your teens) and specifically for the individual characters (I have so many bullet points of thoughts in my notes app, I’m not even kidding).
Also, can you imagine how fucking insufferable Lestat would be about it if he had been turned before his singing voice had reached vocal maturity? He’d need an entire 600 page book to bitch about that exclusively
#iwtv#interview with the vampire#iwtv amc#your voice changes throughout your life but you generally reach ‘vocal maturity’ somewhere between 20-30#there’s an interesting thing where singers see their vocal range broaden strengthen and settle#not just because of practice (tho that’s obv important) but it’s physical as well#I’ve read and heard some really interesting interviews with opera singers in particular talking about the necessity of vocal maturity in#certain roles and that it’s not just that they physically need to be able to look the part but also sound the part#anyway I’m a big ol nerd who took high level music & drama in school#(so yes some of those bullet point thoughts are about commedia dell’arte i can’t help it)
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My advice on the news, as someone who’s watched much worse and much more explosive YouTuber “fallouts” many times before:
One, don’t go hunting for answers. Either the people involved will supply them when they’re ready (or even if they’re not, depending on outside curiosity and demands) or you will have to get invasive and annoying to get those answers. Be completely honest with yourself: does not having that information affect you in a detrimental way? Remember, it is not your duty to know every bad thing someone you like has done. There’s no such thing as being a moral failure for having enjoyed content from someone when you didn’t know they were… whatever is up with Iskall. Be brutally honest: do you NEED to know what happened, or are you morbidly curious?
Two, depending on what answers do or don’t come to life, allow yourself to feel things accordingly. If it comes out he’s done some heinous shit, allow yourself to be angry and grieve. Don’t start an online mob or anything, but you’re allowed to feel sad about it. If it comes out he didn’t do anything but had, like, a significant difference of opinion or something that led to the hermits parting ways with him, let yourself feel relieved or annoyed or whatever and do what you feel best doing. If no answers come at all - learn to let mysteries sit unsolved. You do not need to know everything, least of all any potentially problematic things a youtuber you like has done.
#this is by far the most mature yt fanfom I’ve been in so far but PLEASE remember this is not about you#you do not have a need or right to know. if you feel uncomfortable not knowing#one - learn to deal (sorry but it’s true) and two - just stop watching him-adjacent stuff#iskall85#this is p much all I will say on the subject
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With the release of the new DnD movie soon and the increase in popularity in the game, how do you think Eddie in this AU feels about it? Does he have long ass rants on Tiktok/his livestreaming platforms?
I think Eddie would be ecstatic.
Not just that people are getting into the game more, but for the movie itself. He’s talked about it enough times on his channel that some people have been like, “…Is this a sponsor?”
Some of his fans think that he’s going to make a cameo in the movie, but he’s not. He just thinks that it looks like a fun movie, made by people who seem like they love the game. And also, Chris Pine.
He’d love to see the movie on opening night, “But SoMeBoDy has other obligations.”
Steve, who agreed to cover for the Girls’ Basketball coach while she’s on maternity leave months ago, just gives Eddie a look because this has been an ongoing conversation, “Go with Dustin.”
“I don’t want to go with Dustin. I want to go with you.”
“Go with Dustin,” Steve repeats, “And then we’ll go see it over the weekend. You can warn me if they use strobe lights.”
I think when Eddie does go on his long ass rant (Monologue. It’s a monologue, Steve), it’s about gatekeeping. People are getting more and more into D&D and there are always a few fans who try to gatekeep. When one of Eddie’s fans mentions that they were discouraged from playing because they don’t know everything about the game, he’s like, “You don’t gotta know everything! All you need is some dice, some friends, and basic math skills. Or a calculator. Anybody telling you that you need more than that is a fraud.”
Another fan says that they’re interested in playing, but their boyfriend says that girls can’t play D&D. Eddie’s just like, “Yeah, dump him. Anybody who says that girls can’t play D&D can talk to Maxine Mayfield-Sinclair. Some of the most insane things shit that has happened in my campaigns have been because of girls. They’ll come up with some of the wildest shit you can think of and save their party’s ass. Tell ‘em hon.”
“You ever see girls play barbies?” Steve asks. “It’s like that but with math. You’ll be alright at it.”
#me in a sing-song voice: I’ve never played D&D but I have played Barbie’s#Eddie as a teen probably would’ve gatekeeped but he’s older now and more mature#he wants the game to live on#eddie munson tiktok saga#steve harrington#eddie munson
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Taurice vs his past episode 1,926
#Taurice more like. more like whor-#I’ve been thinking a lot about the different stages of his life lately#I swear it has lore reasons#when she a freak but you lowkey asexual (Taurice is she)#ALSO STICKERED CLIPBOARD CANON#im so happy to make that real#maturity is when you gain stickers#artboreal#Taurice lemming#oc art#Taurey!
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Okay, here’s the outcome of my blackout yesterday. Unfortunately, I couldn’t do the poll or ask for any input cause when I started designing I was already coming up with all sorts of ideas and scenarios that I was already attached with lol. So here’s the plot synopsis and character descriptions from what I have so far.
Alpha Delta Protocol, is about the Alpha Delta Psi fraternity, which has a strong emphasis on tradition and discipline. The frat is known for its strict hazing practices, which are led by President Damon “Diesel” Hale and House Manager Quin Lancaster. The story follows the dynamic between Damon and Quin as they manage the frat, by carrying out hazing, exerting dominance, and other punishments to the willing pledges. The story is has mature themes but it also has comedic tones.
Damon “Diesel” Hale, is Alpha Delta Psi’s President. He is known for his physical strength, charisma, and traditionalist views.He is nicknamed “Diesel” because of his relentless energy and strength to overcome any obstacle, just like a diesel engine. His favorite saying as he introduces himself is, “Like the fuel, I’m pumped up and ready to go, baby! Nowhere’s the limit!” While running the frat, he prefers to use his hands when carrying out the hazing rituals, as he believes the hand-to-skin keeps the bond between brothers more personal and connected. He also will take use of the House’s heirloom paddle. Overall, he has a friendly but assertive leadership style, with more of a focus on the brotherhood and camaraderie of the frat and making sure traditions are upheld. Though there are moments where he can get more intense and can really show who’s in charge, even being more scary than Quin. Speaking of Quin, he harbors an unrequited crush on the House Manager, being physically attracted to the shorter male and in awe of his disciplinary skills. He sometimes feels a pang of jealousy, sometimes of the way Quin commands control, and sometimes of the pledges on the receiving end of Quin’s discipline.
Quin Lancaster, is the House Manager of ADP. Though Damon might be President, it is Quin who is running the show, having the House running smoothly and in tip-top shape. Affectionately nicknamed “Manager” by the brothers as a sign of endearment and a show of respect. But if you value your life, don’t you dare call him a secretary, as that level of disrespect won’t be tolerated by him or Damon. He is known for his efficiency, organizational skills, and commanding demeanor despite his more feminine and smaller stature. He has a natural cold and dominant aura about him, and pledges immediately fall in line when he enters a room. He is not the one to play with, as his main focus is discipline and making sure the pledges stay in line. You can mostly see him walking around the House, taking notes with his tablet and stylus, recording frat activities, schedules and punishments of the pledges. While Damon was stuck with tradition, it was his idea to start the use of other implements such as crops, belts, and canes. He has a box of other freaky “tools” that he keeps stowed away for any special circumstances. This kinda freaks Damon out but also entices him, as he figures that the Manager has some kind of secretive life outside the frat. Quin is somewhat aware of Damon’s pinning as he does try to flirt with him but he turns down his advances every time. Though he does respect him and thinks highly of the President overall, even though he doesn’t explicitly show it.
The duo works surprisingly well together. With Damon’s more laid back friendly approach and the upholding of brotherhood and tradition, and Quin’s more strict and cold sense of discipline and bringing in new ideas, sometimes their ideas might cause some conflict. But they always manage to work through things to make sure the pledges are always on their toes and everything is running smoothly.
#I am so happy that I decided on creating new characters cause I’m obsessed with them#though I’ve been saying about all the recent characters I think it cause they are so My Type™️#Quin… my dangerous twink king I would do anything for you…#Damon you’re smoking hot so I’ll do anything for you as well#would like to do a fic to test them out but writing… so that might take awhile lol#we’ll see what happens#damon hale#quin lancaster#original characters#mature#m/m
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Okay listen,,, I’m just saying if Vox had a full demon form Val would ABSOLUTELY be all over that shit- 😏😏😏🩵
🔞🔞🔞 Below links are N S F W, absolutely no minors 🔞🔞🔞
Full artwork is available Here on Twitter and Here on Stash ôwô
#censored for tumblr#voxval#staticmoth#massive content warning#it’s been so long since I’ve been on tungle I have no idea what tags get sniped on sight |D#fuck it putting a mature rating on this whole post xgjdjgxk#val would be a monsterfucker but especially for Vox you cannot change my mind :3#i just need to see full demon vox even if he doesn't look like this qwq#volt’s art#also i needed to make the censors like that gdkjtdxgjxky xDD#the two wieners meme was in my head the whole time i was drawing I'm so glad i got to use it xD
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#I am so curious about this one#A lot of people I know think of college or even grad school as this Edenic paradise from which they were cast out into the work force#Not one job I’ve had has been as stressful for me as taking classes was#I don’t know if I’ve been lucky or if I’ve matured or if college is just nuts#Then again if they’d paid me to be a student who knows how I’d feel
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Abt ur nonbinary ppl post; I personally think that pyro fhcks and people need to stop being cowards
i’m glad we’ve socially accepted that pyro tf2 is non-binary like. universally. pyro being non-binary is truly one of those things where i think even the most centrist tf2 gamer boys would take that on the chin and hardly blink. but i’m NOT happy that people then went on to say that pyro cannot fuck. you people will adapt scout teamfortress into an uwu scared of other men’s dicks “be careful it’s my first time” boy or sniper teamfortress into an around the clock sadist who does kink negotiation on the first date but won’t let pyro teamfortress have normal ass sex as a non-binary person? i know why. and it’s frustrating.
#shut up me#everybody talks#‘oh you’re one to talk you never write them fucking’ check the records i have and will#i primarily write family friendly stuff because i feel i’ve already said my piece on the mature topics i care most about most#before you start telling me your personal headcanons i BEG of you. consider. why the non-binary character? why pyro?#why not put those headcanons on soldier? because he’s too masc for you? or demo? same reason?#or medic? oh he’s mean that’s why huh. so it has to be the one who killed a bear with an axe.
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Seeing people complain about the Speak Now vault tracks being too teenagery …. gee, you’d almost think a teenager wrote them /s
#i feel like it’s a lose lose situation#because if they’re ‘too mature’ like on the red vault people accuse her of writing them recently#but if they’re ‘too immature’ people complain about them being not as good#i for one really like the speak now vault#it may not be as deep as red but i think it’s still really eye-opening#like the kinds of things she was thinking about but felt she couldn’t share#idk maybe it’s because i was a Small Child when speak now came out#and it was really the first album i ever became obsessed with#and as a result i idolized taylor as this beacon of perfection and grown-up-ness#like obviously I’ve long since recognized that she was still a child in a lot of ways in that era#but hearing the vault tracks really made her feel like a Real Teenager to me in a way i never had before?#like the anxiety on electric touch#the insecurity on when emma falls in love#the hopefulness tinged with self-loathing/self-criticalness on foolish one#the wattpad-tinged fantasy of i can see you#idk i feel like teenage me would have related to all that a lot in a way that i never did with her other music#idk i’m rambling#i need to go to bed#taylor swift#speak now taylor’s version
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