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the carbuncle ate itself......
#exoticbutterstxt#look. the gg are terrible people and i havent watched them for years because of it#but i did when i was a teenager#and good lord so many of those bits will stick with me forever. dark souls font BRAIN CHEMISTRY ALTERED#THE BANANAS HAS GONE BAD!
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Is she Lucy Westenra, or is she just a vessel for the writer's barely disguised fantasy of a women being punished for her promiscuity? Is she really"Bram Stoker's" Lucy Westenra: a naive, innocent 19 year old, with a cheery personality and a bright future ahead of her? Or has the writer instead just slapped her name on an OC that behaves nothing like her, and- with none of the grace or decorum that Lucy's tragically short story deserves- sexualized her slow and agonising death as much as possible, whilst very unsubtly doing their best to blame her for being murdered, so that we won't object to her being killed again later in an even more gruesome and sexual manner?
#every dracula adaptation gets every character wrong- but the way Lucy is treated in particular makes my blood boil#she's not stupid for being naive. she's not stupid for fixating on marriage. she's 19. A TEENAGER. she's allowed to be young#of course she doesn't have much life experience! that's why it's so tragic! when she dies we mourn the person she was meant to become#and regardless of however adaptations try to spin it; she did not want to be killed. she wasn't aware of dracula like the other characters#she didn't deliberately let dracula kill her. she didn't ask to be a vampire. she wasn't in love with dracula or anything like that#she died not understanding what was happening to her. she never lost her naivety. and that makes it even more tragic in my opinion#anyway thanks for coming to my ted talk#i think my old dracula hyperfixation is reigniting and i don't have the strength to stop it lmao#lucy westenra#dracula#bram stokers dracula#dracula daily#lit student screams into the void
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Countdown to Seungmin's Birthday ↘ D-6: Fanboy.
#all these clips were terribly cute but the one where he says he watched the video message from wonpil 'well'#and made that face killed me its so funny 😭 like yeah I believe you did watch it well.... 😗#kim seungmin#seungmin#bystay#stray kids#skz#skz edit#skz gifs#seungminsource#gagwanzsource#day6#skzedit#stray kids gifs#sometimes i remember that he supposedly had a wonder girls ? i think wonder girls stan account when he was a teenager and i just laugh#10/10 this is the one time i can assuredly say: wow the stars are just like us (seungmin drop your day6 acc)
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Only villains like punch chowder.
Reference photos ofc
If you’re curious and haven’t seen it, its Red flags by Tom Cardy, and the Artist is Gabriella Antali! Check out their work :3
The other is Invincible lol
#tmnt#teenage mutant ninja turtles#art#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#crossover#tmnt crossover#red flags meme#tmnt meme#meme redraw#leochi#i just didnt see anyone draw it with punch chowder so i did it#meme#crackpost#crack post#drawing meme#rottmnt leo#rottmnt raph#rottmnt usagi#yuichi usagi#rottmnt leochi#eyestrain#cant believe it when your bb brother dates a rabbit that likes punch chowder smh
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Hi! So, while scroling through Pinterest, i came across this art:
which was credited to you. i cannot find the complet artwork in your profile, so i wanted to ask if youre the artist responsible for this piece.
(btw, your renditions of medieval clothing are beautiful!)
Hello ! I did make this a long time ago and the reason you didn't find it is probably because it's almost a decade old (and also very badly tagged). You can find the original post here. I think back then I had no idea what actual medieval clothing might look like, lol. How far we've come.
#replies#liliyannah#I have a complex relationship about such old posts resurfacing because of pinterest and other places where people repost a lot#because i'm so critical of the stuff I did as a teenager and very young adult#I cringe a little bit when I see it but then#I see that people are still interested enough in it to curate it and gather it and maybe be inspired by it#so in the end maybe my little feelings of embarassment are not that important#It belongs to The People now#anywayyy cheers everyone have a good week
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DTIYS for @tizeline
Congrats on 10k!!! (love your artstyle btw sooo soft and beautiful i wanna look at your art all day!)
The original outfit was perfect but I still felt like something was missing...
#my art#art#dtiys#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise leo#rise donnie#rottmnt donnie#rottmnt leo#april o'neil#rottmnt april#wow first time drawing her#she's beautiful#i don't really like how i drew donnie here((#i think i could've done better(#i'm too tired to do anything else with this art so#tiz sep au#oh god i haven't read it yet#at least not all of it#you see#there's this thing#when i find something exciting that i wanna read/watch i instead just run around it for months thinking about it preparing to dive into it#before i actually do it#i don't know why#i did this with cass au for nearly a YEAR because i was SO excited i couldn't sit still to read#anyway#did i tell you how much i like your art?
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Escaped clone au
You know all those fics where Danny and Damian are twins but everyone first assumes Danny must be a clone? How about an au where Danny is Damian's clone who escaped the League after he was assumed dead. Damian could even have been the one to have "killed" him, back when Danny was a newly created, fully brainwashed clone minion and trying to kill Damian himself.
Danny gets adopted by the Fentons and canon goes on as normal, until Dan. Witnessing what would happen to the world should he turn evil really drove home to Danny how dangerous he is.
Even if he was confident he could be trusted with his absurd amount of power (which he isn't), what if the League of Assassins found out about him? Does he still have programming triggers from his evil assassin clone conditioning?
So, Danny does the responsible thing: he goes to Batman to turn himself in.
Cue Danny showing up on Bruce's doorstep with ghost hunting equipment, intel on the afterlife, and an almost unbelievable backstory. Somehow he still managed to be more well-adjusted than Damian.
More thoughts under the read more
Here's how I'm thinking Danny leaving the League went down:
After surviving his wounds but failing his mission, Danny (then an unnamed potential Damian replacement) knew there was no point in returning to the League. As a failure, he was meant to be disposed of. He even thought of simply allowing himself to perish, since that was what the League would do.
But he couldn't help but feel as though that would be a waste of a resource. Surely he could be of more use to the League alive than dead?
That tiny bit of rebellious logic is what caused Danny to go into hiding, only living on based on the off chance he would find opportunities to further the League's goals. Obviously, that mentality didn't last long after being exposed to the real world and meeting one Jazz Fenton.
Being adopted by the Fentons was the best cover Danny could have asked for, since any odd behavior he couldn't hide while he was learning how to be "normal" was totally overshadowed by the sheer bizarre eccentricity of his new parents. He was still the neighborhood weird kid, but even that was a major upgrade from disposable tool, so Danny considered it a win.
Anyway, if anyone likes this idea, please feel free to have at it! Interpret it as you please :)
#dpxdc#dpxdc prompts#dawningwrites#Danny: I'm too powerful help please accept this 10 step guide that MIGHT give you a prayer of defeating me#Bruce: and you're saying that on top of all your potentially apocalyptic abilities you're also the ruler of another dimension??#Danny: I know right?? they wouldn't listen to me when I said a teenager wasn't qualified. and technically I'm only 5 years old!#Danny's better adjusted than Damian bc he had Jazz to help him#and he didn't have to be anything other than a “normal” teen until his accident#whereas Damian had a bunch of traumatized and emotionally stunted vigilantes with a complicated family dynamic he walked into#Alfred did his best but there was only so much he could do without undermining Bruce or interfering with their vigilantism#Dan happened before Dani so she might not be in this (yet)#but if Danny's clones are still a thing I think he'd be even more traumatized by most of them melting#Dani: you don't know what it's like to be made by a rich supervillain to replace your original and then be discarded as a failure#Danny: ha ha so funny story#damian wayne#damian al ghul
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I think what really drew me in to twilight when I was a teenager is that, despite the epic vampire whirlwind romance, the teenagers actually do feel like they have REAL lives, and it’s a real shame that that doesn’t translate to the movies (bc a movie with pointless scenes of the main character making enchiladas & doing homework would be crazy boring). I like that Edward enjoys skipping class to sit in his car & listen to Linkin Park CDs, I like that Bella spends her weekends doing laundry and drafting her Macbeth essay, and on sunny days she lays out a blanket to read in her backyard. I like that she drives to her best friend’s house after school to watch him fix cars and do homework together, I like that they have joint family dinners that are just eating spaghetti on fold-out chairs on the deck. I like that her friend group piles in mike’s mom’s van to go hang out at the beach, and when she brings a camera to school they all start a “picture war.” I like that she has a part-time retail job and sits at the kitchen table filling out uni applications with her boyfriend. It definitely loses that quality around eclipse when the focus has to stay on the actual plot, but I like that twilight & new moon feel pretty grounded in what introverted lower-middle class small-town teenagers are actually doing.
#ykwim??? i know a lot of people think this quality makes them really boring sometimes & i DO get why#but i earnestly really enjoy that part of it & i ESPECIALLY did when i was reading them as a teenager. felt relatable & cozy#the twilight saga#bella swan#edward cullen#twilight#jacob black#new moon#eclipse#breaking dawn#tts#twilight blog#the twilight renaissance#mike newton#jessica stanley#angela weber#mine
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ok i swear i'm not going to talk about my breakup forever but the thing that just keeps bothering me:
i know that not getting what you need in a relationship is a COMPLETELY valid reason to end it but also. i feel like having a very vulnerable moment where i opened up about my struggles with intimacy and being relieved that i didn't have to keep doing things i wasn't comfortable with, then being dumped a YEAR later because of my lack of intimacy. is something i should be allowed to be very hurt by???
#ramble#sorry i'm currently in a phase of 'of course this happened' and 'oh i deserve this because i didn't give him what he wanted'#like he knew i was grey ace since the start. and he let it go on for SO long after i said i might be vaguely aro as well#if that's a dealbreaker for you bc of your love language then FINE but NIP IT IN THE BUD#he said he put it off because he didn't want to hurt my feelings but it only hurt me MORE#like you're an adult. grow the fuck up and communicate like one#holding your negative feelings in hoping somebody notices you're hiding them is what TEENAGERS do#and also i told him VERBATIM: i didn't think anyone would ever love me because i'm not comfortable with xyz. and he just confirmed that#idk i still feel like i'm being selfish because how could i expect someone to be in a relationship with me when i can't give them anything#also tmi but it's not like we did NOTHING. we still held hands/cuddled/were close. he just didn't have his tongue down my throat anymore#so obviously i'm assuming by 'missing affection' he just meant sex and as an ace person that just fucking sucks#also oh my god i HATED how much he would imply we were going to have sex. i would have to keep SAYING 'i don't like doing this'#he always spoke like it was inevitably going to happen and it didn't click how GROSS i felt about it until recently#also ALSO not to go there but i never told him WHY i struggle with it (it's sensory issues)#and like. what if something had happened to me that made it hard for me and i just wasn't ready to tell him. and then he did this#again sorry to overshare this is still just a lot for me and i have no idea if i'm being unreasonable#if you're ace and in a relationship please let me know bc i'm starting to think it'll end this way every single time
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really quick messy doodle bc im on a bus rn and this has been in my head all day lol
based on my own suffering and smthn i said today bc i was in pain </3
might post some more silly stuff bc im stuck here for the next?? 5 ish hours
#alex arts#tmnt#teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#tmnt donnie#tmnt leo#rottmnt donnie#rottmnt leo#yes we love trans leo in this household <3#did you know turtles cycle is only once a year#god i wish#anyway i am losing my mind a little bc this bus was supposed to arrive at 215pm#then was delayed to 412pm#and only arrived at almost 9 pm#im so tired guys#but we ball#my travels#i think that was the tag i used like?? 8 years ago lmao???? when i was also travelling by bus and was drawing on it too#do kids still say yeet
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"Rise leo is not canon queer/MLM-"
Be serious.
#It's does not mean he's canonically gay but he is canon queer#It's not even subtle#So it's make me laugh when ppl insist that leo is not queer#His favourite type of music is glamrock in “Alberto's return” he's literally dress as David Bowie#And the overall way he act is basic queer coding#I'm not saying straight ppl can't be flamboyant but he's not real#And when you write a character like that you are clearly meant for him to be a little fruity#Plus the Rise writers clearly know how coding works They did the same for Donnie and Mikey's neurodivergence#Maybe I should make an longer post for analysing the queerness in Rise#tmnt#teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise leo#rottmnt leo#tmnt 2018#queer#queer coding
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Imo the most impressive thing Leo’s done is hold this pose for as long as he did while covered head to toe in gold paint:
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rise leo#if you’ve ever had to wear body paint that stuff can be UNCOMFORTABLE#AND to hold that pose for so long - not moving a muscle even when they first started falling?#as humorous as this is it is no joke highly impressive#I also love the implication that they disguised Leo SO FAST that Big Mama JUST finished with item 1#this is why Leo grows to become the worlds greatest ninja#bro’s dedication to subterfuge is godly#also#Leo 🤝 Mario: being painted gold and tricking the villainess into thinking you’re a statue#side note but in this same episode leo makes a comment about being betrayed by his brothers all the time in a happy tone#and I wonder if that’s part of where his love for epic betrayals comes from#or if his bros partially did those betrayals because they know he likes them#also also#nearly all of Leo’s absolute best moments are contained within episodes that feature either Hueso or especially Big Mama#and I find that interesting#ALSO also also#Karai and Big Mama both embody different aspects of Leo’s key character traits and in this essay I will-#side note but as I mentioned in the notes LEO WOULD BE SUCH A GOOD CHEERLEADER AND SPECIFICALLY A FLYER#bc here’s the thing he has literally all the marks of a good one - the main one being what he shows HERE#the ability to LOCK HIS POSITION#plus his affinity for showmanship like#AND his literal JOB AS A MASCOT???#let my guy be a cheerleader plz#he and Mikey both would be so good at it
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The parallels that hurt so much
They both jinxed the most important event in their lives trying to help...
They both lost their closest friends to this....
And both were abandoned and hurt in the worst way possible by the sibling they've looked up to....
They had good intentions, they were so young......
And they're the monsters others have created.
#arcane#arcane spoilers#arcane s2 spoilers#arcane s2#arcane meta#arcane analysis#as abba sang: the history book on the shelf. it's always repeating itself#these scenes made me think so much about silco and vander. and the parallels between them and jinx and vi#young silco looked so sweet and healthy. he looked so innocent... where did the years go#him and jinx are just people stuck in a cycle of poorly made decisions. internalizing the trauma. doing the worst crimes imaginable.& repea#and I'm not trying to absolve them of guilt. they're pretty terrible people and are responsible for their own actions.. but I can't stop-#-feeling bad for them#also. just how old were they when revolution started? silco said to dekart that he learned a lesson about power when he was his age-#-and tapped his bad eye while talking. how old was dekart? was silco a teenager/barely an adult (18-21 or 21-25) when his life fell apart?#it's sad as hell... arcane stop breaking my heart....#silco#arcane silco#jinx#arcane jinx#jinx arcane#silco arcane#young silco#arcane vander#arcane vi#<- no negativity to these two btw
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POV: You’re an adult mutant ninja turtle whose about to be sucked into some multiverse bullshit
I love this dumb fic trope where everyone thinks the younger versions of tmnt are just…. the kids of the older versions. Bonus points if both sides just roll with it to troll the villains.
#I have no idea what to call this trope but I love it#villains: ‘When did these fuckers have kids????’#yeah I know I’ve already used this meme template to talk about tmnt crossovers#but it’s to perfect not to use again#I think I’m gonna call this trope the ‘multiverse oops baby acquisition’#or something the name still needs work#tmnt#tmnt 2012#teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt#tmnt 2003#tmnt crossover#2012 raph#2012 mikey#2012 leo#2012 donnie#rise raph#rise leo#rise donnie#rise mikey#mutant mayhem#tmnt mutant mayhem#2003 donnie#2003 leo#2003 raph#2003 mikey#mm leo#mm raph#mm donnie#mm mikey
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im having a particularly terrible night with urges and imagery that i dont know how to handle. i gave in to some things. held back on some others. but im barely holding on, dear internet stranger.
you do not owe me your time or your words.. but if you could write some hope into existence for me.. i would be unendingly grateful to you.
please. tell me how you do it. tell me how you survive. because im not so sure i can get through the fifteen days it'll take to get to my seventeenth birthday.
could you please give me something to place my faith in? i dont think the universe is watching out for me anymore.
i don't usually answer these, because i am not a professional, and you deserve professional help. when i was 17 i was terrified of the idea of professional help, because my household was extremely unsafe, and made it clear that if i ever chose to get help, i would be punished for it.
i hope this is not your case. i hope that you can call someone, and they can take you where you should go.
but i will give you the advice that i wish i got, when i couldn't get help at 17, when i was so bad that years later, i literally don't-know-how-i-survived it: what you want is peace, not death. your brain is sick. it has romanticized an ending where there are no consequences. where effort isn't necessary. where you can just... forget.
you want peace. that is a normal, human thing to want. maybe it feels more like you want quiet. or just... to take a break for a second.
here is what i will say: to end yourself means you never get to experience what it's like to actually be happy. i thought i knew what it was like, and i was bitter about it. i'd say - i've been happy, it's not worth it, because i didn't know what i was missing. i thought that happiness meant having a partner or having a job or money or a college degree. it sounded like effort. it sounded like something that had to happen to me.
for the first time in my life, just this week, i was able to go to a concert and just-enjoy-it. no liquor, no drugs. just stomping my feet and getting caught up in it. i didn't feel nervous or self-conscious or overwhelmed. i just had a good time. these days have a lot of these firsts for me - it is the first time i can eat cake without crying. it is the first time i can be around an exacto blade without supervision. it is the first time i have too many people to call when i am crying.
i can't tell you where you'll run into happiness, only that, for me, it started once i was out of that fucking house. it started once i figured out where the pain was coming from. once i figured out that i was not possessed, something medical was wrong with me. that i am not stupid or lazy, i have depression and adhd. the first few years were difficult. at 19, during my efforts to recover, i actually got worse by a considerable margin. and then, with time and patience - i got better.
happiness doesn't feel like what you think it will. in movies it's so golden and all-encompassing. but it doesn't fly into your hands when you buy your first car nor does it arrive in the arms of a partner nor does it require passing your classes. happiness came to me on a tuesday in the form of a red-winged blackbird, and i looked at her, and she looked at me, and i said - oh. the whole world suddenly filled itself in with color. like i had been forever-asleep. like every corner of every room was suddenly glistening.
it ended quickly, back then. it just stopped in to check in on me. but it was enough - this thing i had never experienced, but that i knew (logically) could happen. before that, i was only staying because it would make my mom sad if i died. that was my only reason. and then the happiness came, so strange and brilliant and lovely that for years i couldn't even look at it directly.
these days, things are so different. life is so much easier. i don't wish for death because so much of what i have is already at peace. my boss understands when i need a mental health day. people in general are less prone to high school drama. entire communities hold my hand and have my number. i have a car and a dog and a little apartment garden and candles on all available surfaces and today i bought myself a little cake just-to-celebrate-nothing. my body is my own and we are both dancing.
there are so many things i've gotten to taste in the last 10 years. i know, for you, that is an eon, because it's more than half of your life. but if it helps? in the 5 years between 17-21: i filled myself with laughter and love. i got to be a lead in a ballet and got my first tattoo and then my second and pierced my ears the way i'd wanted to (one of them professionally the other over a hot stove with a potato) and i discovered hozier is my favorite singer (i know. he was new back then) and i got my first real job and my first real paycheck and i hadn't ever been seen as smart but then i started to actually treat my adhd as a condition rather than a burden and people started saying you're like the smartest person in the room and my best friend met her husband who i will one day stand next to as maid of honor when he is her groom and i got to help people and make a stupid blog called "inkskinned" and find out that writing is actually my passion and that maybe i'm actually kind of good at it if i just practice and i got to meet my parents' dog (his name is kaiju) and i slept on couches and kissed people and tried new things and learned how to breathe without feeling my chest tighten and that peace is here, on this planet, that peace echoes everywhere, it is in my hair and my homework and my houseplants, it is quiet and divine and mine because i fought for it and i built it and yes i lost hair over it but holy shit the whole world feels like it is shifted through a sunbeam
recently someone asked me if i could go back in time to 6th grade, with all the knowledge i have now, would i? and without thinking, i barked absolutely not. i know i should say it's because i wouldn't want to risk losing any of this stuff - but really it's because i would never survive being a teenager again. it sounds incredibly lame and impossible, fake - but being a teenager was the hardest thing i ever did. i had no voice, no control, only fear and hatred.
but i did survive it. nothing about me is special. nothing about me is stronger than you or better prepared or more efficient. i didn't survive it perfectly. i made a lot of mistakes and lost a lot of friends and harmed myself in ways that i'm still recovering from. but i did survive it. and there is a part of me looking at you in the past and saying - i'm you in the future.
and holy shit. every day. every goddamn day i'm glad we survived to see the rest of it. because you hit 18 and everything changes. like, everything. and holy shit, it is infinitely worth it.
#i hope you are okay#i wish i could help more#i hope the pain eases soon#and i hope that you stay#ps . to those of you reading this thinking i should help you too: please just dm me#it makes me really#really really scared when it's anonymous#bc i cant check in with u#i am not a professional and i am not actually good at helping ppl through their troubles#this is an exception bc they are 16#not the rule#ps if u misunderstand ''being a teenager is the hardest thing i ever did'' when i mention briefly that i was in unsafe housing...#trust me. it was worse there. by like A HUGE margin#every person raised in unsafe housing nodding their head like . oh yeah worse stuff TECHNICALLY happened after but leaving that home was#legit the hardest thing i ever did
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So... @thegunnsara AGNST BE UPON YEE!!! Dumbass me forgot that the secure sharing box don't save on the browser page, BUT DAMN MY COMPULSIVE SAVIGN WORKED OUT
Have this totally fun and light hearted drawing xoxo me
#my art#did I spend waaay to long on this when I have actual art deadlines to hit????#yes....#ANYWAYS#Zephart#rottmnt#rottmnt casey jones#rottmnt casey jr#rottmnt casey junior#rise casey#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise mikey#unpause rottmnt#rottmnt movie
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