#but i cant say that
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"I realize how hard on you this must seem but trust me when I say
it's far far worse for me"
~ "Trying" by cavetown
#not to vent on main#but this line has always hit me so so hard#in two aspects really#im schizospec and i know i can lash out and hurt people and be really really hard to take care of#but then imagine what i experience#im disabled#i know how hard it is to keep me calm when im crying from pain and overwhelmed how hard it is to do absolutely anything#and it can be really stressful to them#but then imagine the pain that im in#but i cant say that#because their suffering is just as valid as mine#this line hits so painfully#mental health#schizospec#disability#music#cavetown#lyrics#physical disability#mentally ill#chronic illness
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my therapist told me I might have adhd (very strong might) and idk how to tell her it's because I have autism. I've already checked for adhd symptoms myself twice, lady, and have been researching autism for years, I have autism-
#sam.txt#but i cant SAY that#sam.neuro#sam.disabled#asd#adhd#attention deficit hyperactivity#autism spectrum disorder#autism
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shoutout to everyone who wants to infodump but cant string together coherent thoughts to form sentences and instead just look at you like this
#and by 'everyone' i mean me. im just hoping other people relate lmao#someone asks me about a thing i like and im just like h..................#been thinking about The Character for a solid 6 months+ and let me tell you. expldoeing soon#this is about ffxv btw . how am i supposed to say how much it lives in my brain . i cant think#text#1k#5k#10k#15k#20k#great googly moogly#30k#40k#50k#60k#boooy what da heeel#70k#80k#90k#will this be my first ever post to hit 100k... it remains to be seen#good lord. we did it#100k
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if i was a popular minecraft youtuber id just tweet "hey guys stop drawing shipping fanart of me and my friends/coworkers, i only fucked one of them and seeing me paired with anyone else is kinda weird and crosses my boundaries" and then i'd turn my phone off
#hermitcraft#qsmp#and a third server that i wont say the name of but you know#the bee speaks#if u cant stop weirdos from doing IRL shipping id just make it as horrible a process for them as possible
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I am genuinely so worried for all the young horny dykes going into adulthood thinking there's something "problematic" / "wrong" with them for being horny because fucking tiktok lesbians think any horny dyke content is "male gaze fetishistic"
#have seen screenshot after screenshot of that video saying love lies bleeding is fetishizing lesbians and?? muscles??#i cant take this shit anymore#text#anyway stay horny!#concerning tags y'all!! bobbi is joking! sarcasm! joking!#(for the later reblogs with the added screenshots)#y'all are killing me with these notes though this was formatted to be like. a 30 note max rant post.
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hate when you find a character whose so infuriatingly Your Type that its embarrassing like yeahg no one is gonna be surprised when i announce this is my new Guy Of The Month
#shush jesse#EDIT from future me: this post was about astarion but im fully a galegirl (gendy neutch) now so idk what that says#he's also my type for what its worth#this post abt astarion#hes just so painfully on brand for me#i know so little about him though is the thing but i still feel insane#but i cant play the game and i dont want to watch anyone play it and i dont want spoilers#so like.....secondhand blorbo right now
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table for one
#dungeon meshi#dunmeshi#laios touden#dungeon meshi spoilers#a little bit#i finally got a chance to finish this#i cant believe ive never drawn dunmeshi fanart considering ryoko kui is like#my favorite artist ever#I forgot to say also the throne is laios’s monster form hehe#scopophobia
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Can the guy at the bottom kill himself or something
#mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#love when people give curly eyelashes#die jimmy#god i hate him#anya pov#edti: cant believe i have to say this but im not saying curly is a good person in this post WHAT!
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why do i do that? im basically opening myself up for disappointment. no one cares!!! no one wants to read all that, just like they didnt before, no one does. i dont know why i keep trying, like this incessant need to torture myself. spill yr heart, yr pride and joy! and watch it dip down into that pretty void that follows me everywhere i go, watch it just. disappear
i mean it doesnt REALLY matter though, does it? its just a story, same with all the others. just a story, its not like it means anything to me
#its my fault though#i dont like to open up#so i can never tell them how bad it makes me feel#can you imagine? something i loved so much#i put everything into it#plotted every detail meticulously#and now i cant stand the sight of it#but i cant say that#i just have to try and make peace with it#such an embarrassment
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my (very white, very middle european, very protestant christian, very sixty-year old) father just dropped an inshallah in casual conversation. without precedent or without any acknowledgement. "inshallah they will send us a new internet router" he said. didn't even stutter. what did he mean by this.
#to be very clear i am not mad at it we stan a multicultural king but its just so baffling.#i cant stop thinking about it#WHO TAUGHT MY DAD HOW TO SAY INSHALLAH
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the tradwife movement is the same as it has always been - back in the kitchen, back to breeding - it just has better branding.
when i was younger, i hated pink. i was not like other girls. this is now something i'm embarrassed of - this was not me being a "girl's girl."
but it was expressing something many of us felt at the time: i literally wasn't what girlhood was supposed to be. this is a hard thing to explain, but you know when you're not performing girlhood correctly. it isn't as easy as "i liked x when girls liked y" - because there were other girls that liked x, too - but i never figured out exactly the correct way to like x, or to be interested in y.
now there is the divine feminine. this is the same rhetoric it has always been: women are biologically driven to like pink and ribbons and submitting to our husbands.
the problem is that the patriarchy found a better PR team. because yes, actually, i want every woman to have the choice to be a homemaker. i also want her taken seriously for her legitimate home-making labor. i want her to be recognized as also having a job, just unpaid. i want men to have this opportunity, too.
but it is no longer "i made this choice and I love it." instead it is a sixteen-paragraph rant about how selfish it is that my generation isn't having kids. instead it's long videos about how if you feed your children processed foods, you're going to kill them. instead it is "this is what womanhood is supposed to be. i feel bad for any other choices you're making."
the shame spiral is just prettier. it is large houses devoid of personality. it is the implication: if you don't have this, you aren't happy. the solid, everlasting assurance: women are actually supposed to be submitting. this is the default. this is the natural state of things. all other attempts inflict suffering.
but you can no longer say i'm not like other girls. you can no longer reject this image completely. you cannot find it revolting, even if you know that the underbelly is toxic and festering. sure, it is the same repackaged patriarchy. but the internet does not have shades of grey. you should support and reward other women! your disgust is actually internalized misogyny. not because you are seeing a vision of yourself the way they're trying to train you to be. not because you feel her ghost pass within an inch of your earlobe. not because your father will eventually ask you - why can't you be like her?
because they figured out how to make it beautiful: women will sell other women on this idea, and we will find the singular loophole in feminism. sure, she's shaming you in most of her videos. sure, she implies that a different life is obscene. but she just wants you to be happy! you'd be happier if you were listening!
and the whole time you're sitting there thinking: i'd actually just be happier if i had that kind of money.
#spilled ink#writeblr#warm up#this is an incredibly difficult idea to express#but i basically keep watching the same timelooped interaction:#someone makes tradwife content where she's like ''i think it's SO sad when ppl don't have kids EW''#and then the response is ''... go fuck yourself? i think ur life is miserable and bad ?"#and instead of being like ''oh we are all under capitalism huh''#the response is like ''you CANT say that. she made a CHOICE. she is ALLOWED to have KIDS and be HAPPY#unlike YOU who is UNHAPPY bc you don't have KIDS.''#like .... these are people who will throw the first stone. and then when you lob one back#they ask why you're so violent. they tell you that you're a bad activist.#and you're like. PARDON????? you implied being a woman meant i need to submit to my husband???#and they're like - well it's just my belief. so what if i'm invalidating your entire identity.
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meditations on first philosophy (1641) - rene descartes
"who give a shit"
#rene descartes#ok#so this is a reference to that post#bc i cant stop saying it#sorry i havent been active#ive been working on an opera#and have been having like p bad health issues#but its ok#learning to crochet a minecraft frog#idk if itll be like any good#whatever life is love anyway#blackout poem#blackout poetry#author#book#poetry
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you have GOT to remember when watching the new doctor who that the question is not is this good. doctor who is only ever actually 'good' once a season at most. THE ONLY QUESTION IS is it fun, camp, and has aliens. also remember the worst doctor who showrunner is always the current doctor who showrunner. now go watch the new episodes as god intended like you're ten years old and still remember how to experience joy and whimsy.
#i am saying this to myself because i havent been able to watch them yet#and i need to remember the core values of dr who before i watch it#i REFUSE to be one of those people that cant enjoy it because its changed#or because its too rubbish#as if thats stopped me loving 90% of the rest of dw#doctor who#fifteenth doctor#ncuti gatwa#space babies#dr who#dw#🌌#squids bullshit
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im playing disco elysium for the first time and it might be too early to call it but i think ive come across the funniest goddamn exchange in the game
#disco elysium#harry du bois#kim kitsuragi#me and my bf have been laughing at this all day#i keep saying/thinking ''so youre the most mentally ill officer in the precinct''#its a shame you cant just say yes#for the record i picked the second option
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Oh to be a woman in America
#tweets to say what i cant bc i have no words#election 2024#election night#politics#us politics#women#oh how i love to be a woman#election#kamala harris#go rt their tweets
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reflection
#anyways so i think samus has major survivors guilt and is a super perfectionist. The type of girl who reimagines scenarios in her mind#And thinks about how she could have done better. like ‘if i had woken up sooner maybe i could have saved everyone in prime 3’#so i think she says she doesnt know anything about herself because shes so hypercritical of her actions she doesnt see herself as a person#while also her hyper critical-ness shows how she says she wants to ignore herself but she literally cant because she has so many criticisms#oh i wanted to include the ppl from the prime 2 manga in that one shot but was like ‘i dont think ppl will recognize them’.#also lol the existence of dark samus would fuck her up SOOOO bad like it only exists bc she exists & its responsible for the gang’s deaths#okay im done rambling tldr MENTAL ILLNESS.#metroid#samus aran#loneart#metroid dread#metroid prime#super metroid#metroid series#i dont wanna tag all the games. There just those games is enough#hall of fame
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