#but at least this thing is devastating
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in case you are in the mood to feel devastated hereās an alternate way of viewing charlesā response to edwinās confession:
we know that charles kinda puts edwin on a pedestal- yes they are partners but there is a bit of a hierarchy between them. charles just looks up to and admires edwin in so many ways while constantly looking down on and being really hard on himself. he puts on his big happy persona because he thinks that people wouldnāt like him if they actually got to know him.
so when edwin confesses, itās like a blow to him. he took his charming persona too far and went and tricked the most important person in the world into thinking he was worthy of love. and itās worse because he does love edwin in that way, which is exactly why he canāt let him know that. charles still believes that he is like his dad, and he saw exactly what his parentsā relationship did to his mother.
he thinks that loving edwin in the way that he wants to would only cause more pain to this boy who has already been through far more than he deserves. so he blinks back his tears, attempts the same charming smile heās used all these years, and dishes out the gentlest non-rejection in the history of forever
#i donāt really think this is what happened but my brain just loves to add an extra sprinkle of angst to everything#but honestly the more that i study that scene the more i think this is a possibility#at least to some extent#like specifically his facial reactions after edwin says heās in love with him#he looks panicked and devastated#almost like it was something he thought about before and was afraid of it happening#and then he cracks his little joke to downplay it because he isnāt ready to accept that whatās really happening#because he already had to watch edwin get dragged away before he could step in to protect him and now this#his two worst nightmares became reality in hell#anyways i do think heās just oblivious and will figure it out in season 2#but i just wanted to ramble#i do think a lot of the reason why he has to figure things out is because heās afraid heās a bad person#so itās more him figuring out if heās good enough to love edwin rather than if he actually does#okay iām done yapping for now#dead boy detectives#payneland#charles rowland
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Saw a comic that I think mentioned Jason being trained for 6 months, so like about 1 1/2 years on field. Man.
Dick's thoughts at the batcave sometime after Jason died (#436), 2 years since he left means Jason was Robin for about 2 years. I know in pre-crisis he was 12 when adopted, not sure if it changed after the retcon though
Means he was 14 when he died (at the simplest, birthdays can mess with it but as there's no proper dates we go w this)
#things tend to fall apart when you focus on the timeline#but at least this thing is devastating#not sure whether or not i like the idea of jason having such a short time as robin yet though. pros n cons to it#i cant remember what comic said he had 6 months training if it even said that at all my apologies
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OWEN WILSON and TOM HIDDLESTON in LOKI S2
#mobius#loki#lokius#mcuedit#lokiedit#marveledit#loki spoilers#owen wilson#tom hiddleston#SOBBING#got a nonstop day ahead to hopefully make it back in time for the ep a few hours late tonight#so some quick coloring practice on this scene as the set today because i've hardly been able to think of anything else since the trailer š
#god it's gonna devastate us and in no way am i ready but at least when it happens it'll be the most stunning thing in existence šš#never been more excited about or terrified of what's to come in my life lmao see y'all on the other side!!#loki s2 spoilers#owenwilsonedit#marvel#dianagifs
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max is so much stronger than me bc if i found out i had rewind powers im gonna be honest i would maybe immediately rob a bank
#or at least like#steal from a rich person#i would maybe commit some type of crime is all i'm saying#good thing these powers aren't real#for everyone else not me#i'm devastated#life is strange#max caulfield#lis
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(...but what if I was?)
Li Lianhua / Li Xiangyi | Mysterious Lotus Casebook (2023)
#mysterious lotus casebook#li lianhua#li xiangyi#lhl#my mlc gifs#thanks to the folks who helped weigh in on that last gif!#specifically thank you to:#the-surreptitious-albatross#lianxiaojie#and an apology...#to our dear a-fei#for including him in this gifset#I still believe that the feihua relationship is one of the most devastating tragedies of this show#because of the way that di feisheng grows subtly but significantly over the course of the show#and he comes SO CLOSE to loving and accepting llh/lxy for who he is and who he always was#and maybe he in fact DOES get to this point internally#but his last words to llh are inviting him to fight him like times of old#showing (in llh's eyes at least) a regression to their previous selves#a āselfā that maybe llh feels he never actually was#which is why I specifically wanted a feihua scene in that last gif to juxtapose with the more obvious shan gudao scene#the subtext of that feihua scene is very sexy of them (I am looking disrespectfully)#but the text of the scene is brutal and tragic:#as di feisheng violently lashes out at li lianua for his perceived weaknesses#and while llh's initial reaction was at most faintly irritated up until that point#you can see that spark of genuine hurt and sadness in his gaze as dfs holds him at arms length#anyway this has been āthings about mlc that make me want to tear my hair out at 3AMā#thank you for coming to my ted talk
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science side of tumblr please explain why I am unable to consume and process media like a normal human being
#and instead why it always turns into an unhealthy obsession i hyperfixate on for at least a month#honestly feel like i need to consume more content to scratch that brain itch#BUT THERES NO MORE CONTENT#devastated#and just like every other piece of media i consume i become not normal about it#is science side of tumblr still a thing??#good omens#good omens 2#ofmd#our flag means death#the raven cycle#trc#the foxhole court#gilmore girls#six of crows#crooked kingdom#shadow and bone#arcane#the sandman#vld#voltron#the old guard#supernatural#pride and prejudice#the way i have never been normal about this book it shaped me at 11 years old lmao#the urge to just make every piece of media i consume into my entire personality ugh#any piece of historical fiction i have ever read or watched because i lived and breathed historical fiction from ages 8 to 19#science side of tumblr
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I feel the need to remind people,
There is nobody Jesus is unable toĀ save
I feel it comes up far too often that I am researching a mental illness or behavior or types of people that people will comment how such people will never be saved, never come to Christ
And I honestly think this is an evil thing to say, let alone publicly, let alone where a record of it is kept for all to see for however long the website is running
Do you have any idea where people who are struggling with all manner of things and looking for help are going to end up? On those exact pages. Do you know where they might look for more information when the article/video/etc waxes on about how rare it is for these people to change or find help? Right in the comments.
How dare the people who post this stuff. To take away the only real hope for the lost. To sayĀ āthis is where everyone can find peace for their soul except for you.āĀ āonly those good enough can be Savedā
I have seen people mention being in absolute despair because thereās no help for them even though they want to change. Thereās no need to make this even harder.Ā
No sin, no mental illness, no habit, no personality type, no mistake, no past is going to prevent people who put their faith in Jesusās death and resurrection from being Saved, so stop trying to turn them away and discourage them.
#Vio's Personal#Now obviously I donāt assume any of my followers have done this#I just find it infuriating#I should do more about it probab;y#I still remember Years ago when I was looking for help about why reading the bible was something I never wanted to do#(I honestly still struggle about it A Lot but at least I better understand why now)#and someone had mentioned that people who donāt want to read the bible probably arenāt saved#utterly soul crushing#It didnāt impact my decisions or any such but#some comment on there for years and years that they forgot about#And just devastating for no reason#And thatās nothing compared to what people say about some mental illnesses#What value was there in saying that? Would it be worth it if even one person was dissuaded from pursuing the Truth from it?#The things you say can impact people. Act like it
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First, a felon/rapist/racist/misogynist/homophobe/transphobe becomes president again. And now Bucktommy break up. IN THE SAME FUCKING WEEK. Ya Allah, give me strength. Or better yet, take my pain, double it, and give it to the orange asshole.
#iām actually devastated#yes i still ship buddie but there was no denying how cute buck and tommy were together#this is gonna be the only thing I think about until i see next weekās episode#at least eddieās starting to be happy again#and maddie and chim are growing their family#but i swear whoever wrote that break up scene ITāS ON SIGHT#911 abc#911 show#911 season 8#911 spoilers#bucktommy#us politics
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When the exploration auto-select puts both my yakumos and both my morvays on one team and i have to manually break them up to distribute amongst other teams like freeze-dried rations
#my guardians and healers are valuable keystones in my exploration crews#to put all 4 of them in one team is to devastate the economy (i am the economy)#auto-complete you Are NOT being very Auto right now#or at least. not very SMART auto#if i have to be the smarter one here?? i don't know where we went wrong...#*CHOPS the yakus and morvs apart* please DO separate#maybe i spend too much time in the firewaterwood explorations where they're always askin for a morv or a yaku#maybe if i spent more time doing dark explorations they'd be putting all my reis and kuyas on one team and i'd be complaining about THAT#please don't put every saboteur i own on that expedition to the dark territory#terrible things will happen to whichever poor soul has to tag along in the 5th slot
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in a world where the dungeon meshi cast are playing a ttrpg. did shuro just like inexplicably get roped in one day and he just. kept showing up
#hes like theres an expectation that i be there every week now i Have to go........#ohhhdbbxd wait wait wait i gotta draw this. shuro bursting out with I DONT EVEN LIKE TABLE TOP RPGS#laios. devastated.....#OH ok so. falin needs to take a break for smth so her character gets killed off for a bit#and at that point shuro is into falin and thinks ok thats the final straw im ditching for a while.#but then he finds himself??? missing it????#he probably experiences a lot of pressure from his parents to like. get into smth rly tough#law or medicine or some shit lmao. and his dad harangues him about socialising more#so playing ttrpgs was both a way of socialising but also an escape from that pressure#he eventually comes back even knowing falin wasnt back yet#and while he explodes with the not liking ttrpgs thing. he has to admit hes having fun and likes being there at least somewhat#and maybe.... has to admit he likes laios more than he lets on wndnxjxjdj???#BECAUSE HE DIDNT START OUT LIKING FALIN EVEN IN CANON REMEMBER!!!!!#so something Else had been keeping him there at first...
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idk if it was the venus retrograde or what, but july 2023 was quite literally the worst month i've ever experienced in my life like.....every single day? awful? worse than the last? it's more likely than u think
#u know sometimes you'll experience something bad in the moment and look back later like lol that was fine actually!#not july :) she was actually really bad :)#tmi but if u wanna know why i was gone lol#my partner of 6 years cheated on me in early may. on her birthday. at her party that i planned. with her coworker. and i saw it#on top of just being like. completely devastated? i was just so embarrassed? i hardly told anyone because it made me feel like#just SO worthless. and then i was embarrassed about feeling worthless and it was a whole thing#anyway they started dating in july and it was really tough for me#it was like every day i'd wake up and have to like grieve? and come to terms with reality? and accept that a lot of my future plans#were no longer going to happen - at least with her :/ it's a really tough thing to grapple with#esp since it felt like she wasn't nearly as sad as i was - which unfortunately makes sense but still sucks#ANYWAY im doing a lot better now lol i started telling people in my life and letting them be there for me and it's helped so much#it's still hard sometimes but i know now that i'm gonna be fine eventually#this is so dumb to post on my sims blog but it feels good to get it off my chest so SUE ME I GUESS
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Do you have any thoughts or opinions on Shatterspin?
What if it's just Spinjitzu but. like. Counterclockwise
#it's FINE#i don't have any big thoughts#ancient technique being used for evil that shatters goodness? ooh neat#main character(s) winds up using said technique which implies future consequences but will have some kind of cop out presumably? expected#heroes learn how to counter this devastating technique to the point of nearly rendering shatterspin useless in the first place?#welp. at least it looks really cool#im not chomping at the bit for more but it's not causing giant issues for me either *shrug*#is what it is#the real question is how long its going to be a 'thing'#probably for a WHILE to keep 'rising dragon' relevant hmmm
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I think I can with certainty say I'm past the halfway point with this. there's not that much random dialogue left to make up
I can only hope the switch works as intended on other computers, since a different timing left them mid-transition. it seems like it doesn't interrupt the bubbles switch but it's only if the menu switch/shell reset comes at a specific point before it š¤
sakurascript is really weird with calling functions, but I Think if you call it as a variable ( %(function) ) it doesn't interrupt the script?? maybe??
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#original#CaelOS#aster#aster ghost wip#I've ran so many times into wanting to do a Thing and it being outside the scope of what you can reliably do with YAYA/SakuraScript#or at least without involving external libs#you can do anything if you write external code and put it into a .dll it seems#but now that's outside the scope of my patience /wheeze#I'm hoping to test some of this with a couple people at least#I'm sure many things would've had answers if I was brave enough to step foot into an ghost dev discord server but. I am Shy#we figure this shit out on our own and die like men /j#and like I could've just stuck with the template and make it much simpler but NOU I need to make it NEEDLESSLY COMPLICATED without actually#providing much function of my own or that good of a story#if any ukagaka devs read this pls be nice to us we're doing our best 8v8#also I recently realized the terms 'ghost' and 'shell' are meant to be a reference to... Ghost in the Shell. I'm devastated /j#vega (aster)
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luo binghe better than me fr i think i would've gone fucking apeshit if the person i loved with my entire soul pretty much said "fuck you" because of my race and pushed me down into literal hell for me to suffer for years
i've said it before and i'll say it again, i really don't think we give binghe enough credit. that man was on concerning levels of forgiving all the way from the start
#this would all be without xin mo eating at my brain btw#were the things he did wrong? of course. can you blame him? absolutely not.#like lets not act like at least half of us wouldnt go insane#i would be devastated#just.. place urself in his shoes ok#like he was able to still change for the better despite all the shit he went through#able to realize his wrongdoings and make up for them#thats fucking amazing and we should not discredit him ok#my ass would probably do the same thing as him tbh. or have a whole mental breakdown. or both#also same goes for bingge i wouldve done the same shit too probably. id fuck shen jiu up#again#not excusing his actions but i feel like people seem to focus on that part of him way too much when we literally see his character growth#and yeah hes still just a little unhinged but arent we all#hell some people are WAY more fucked up than binghe and they didnt even go through#i love him so much can you tell#so anyways yes if he were real i would date him hes so relatable#because then id now that he would actually change for the better and make things up and learn from his mistakes#yeah haha yes hes a red flag whatever all jokes and fun but are we just gonna ignore his development???#im not a binghe apologist. maybe.#svsss#mxtx svsss#luo binghe#luo bingmei
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Can I be mega autistic here and vent for a second and ask if anyone else is lowkey scared for whatever the next RE game is HSBWHDNDJ
#having hyperfixations/special interests combined with a PARALYSING fear of change SUUUUUCKSSS MAAAAANN. IT SUCKS ASS#like realistically I KNOW itās silly and I KNOW Iāve got nothing to stress over BUT ITS STRESSING ME OUT BAD AND THERES NOTHING I CAN DO#RE4R/Luis has been SUCH a massive comfort of mine and turned into a full blown special interest and I guess the thing Iām most scared of is#the fandom moving on and forgetting abt re4r/luis as a whole which again I KNOW is silly but I canāt control my brain!!!!#and also combined with the fact that Luis probably isnāt coming back to the franchise at least anytime soon is HEARTBREAKING man. like thats#my special interest!! thatās the thing Iāve poured hours of my time into!!!!! Iām scared to see people move on#heās already a fairly unpopular character in the wider fandom too!! and the fact that the content we do have of him is ALL weāre gonna have?#I dunno that makes me so much more stressed out and anxious than I should be which. again. I KNOOOOOOWW IS SILLY BUT I CANT HELP IT MAN#THE AUTISM!! THE AUTISMMMMM#I dunno Iām expecting Capcom to announce their next game this summer fest and itās genuinely stressing me out sm which I hate#I hate being so afraid of change it sucks so much man#anyways sorry for the massive vent I just had to get this off my chest cuz itās been weighing me down massively and making me more anxious#than it has any right to BCNDNENDJXJ#and again the fact that thereās a solid chance we may never see him again at lest not anytime soon is so so so so so devastating to me it#again makes me so much more upset than it has any right to HDNSHENDJDJ#not to mention people who are already weirdly mean and nasty to people who DO like him. Iām Not having a Time rn
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presumed death literally the trope of all time. youāre telling me i can have the grief and horror of character death AND have the happy ending too??
not to mention the possibilities after ādeadā character turns up again.
maybe they have no idea their loved one thinks they died, and they show up all nonchalant only to realize things have gone horribly wrong. maybe their loved one thinks theyāre a ghost/hallucination/trick and wonāt accept them.
maybe they do know their loved one thinks theyāre dead and theyāre choosing to keep up the facade for their safety. watching from afar, unable to comfort them.
maybe they faked their death and believe their loved one is in on the scheme when actually that message was never received.
maybe, in the process of whatever almost killed them, they forgot about their loved one/old life/etc, and arenāt aware they have anything to return to.
maybe they ādiedā thinking no one would notice their absence, leaving their loved one full of regret for things unsaid. perhaps their loved one heals and moves on, only for ādeadā character to return.
and just, augh, the aftermath. waking up to find ādeadā character gone and assuming it was all a dream/they really did die. the codependency. the anger, even, that they didnāt come back/let themself get hurt/lied. maybe guilt if their body was abandoned by their comrades, only to learn that they were alive all along.
name me a trope that does more iāll WAIT.
#wren wrambles#presumed dead#fanfic tropes#fanfiction#iām working on a fic with this premise#iāve written it at least once before as well#AND itās in one of my books#i also play with the other trope of āpresumed dead by everyone but [character]ā which is also so so good#the DENIAL??#esp if that character gives up and it becomes normal presumed death#i actually had to stop adding to this bc i kept thinking of things and i was like shh wren youve made your point#anyway this is my favorite trope ever but i dont actually seek it out a lot but maybe i should#itās devastating done well tho so i feel like i would need some lighter fics on the side to take breaks lmaoo#devastating but also happy
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