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iolite-flames · 3 months

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RAGHH THE MASS ATTACK IS FINALLY COMPLETE ‼️

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#digital aritst #artfight attack #artfight #team stardust #artists on tumblr #digital drawing #THANK GOD IM FINALLY DONE #Dont get me wrong this was so fun to draw #the experimentation and colors are SO YUM #BUT FUCK MAN THIS TOOK SO LONG #I think it said like… over 8 hours tracked on procreate #which is over double what most of my previous attacks were time-wise #but at least its cool to look at 😭

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lemongogo · 10 months

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#wolfwood #trigun #lg doodles #hiding a special sm1 behind him❤️#i bought crayons 2day .. the 64 pack w the sharpener like i always wanted when i was younger😭😭#IT WAS KNLY THREE DOLLARS TOO??sry prices rn had me thinking it would be at least 10 EASSYYYYYY #anyways im stuck on this drawing . its like more or less done . but its like .. incomplete still.smhow..#i was gna write text but im so bad at drawing cool funky fun font #its also not a bg piece idt .. sillay doodle .. maybe ill jst keep the white background.WHO CARWSSSS #want 2 do ww zeet so bad .some day maybe (looks out the window like . wistfully)

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spaghett-onaplate · 4 months

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depression is really weird actually wdym i spent 2.5 years of my life in bed

#and wdym that lifestyle changed so quickly into being out and about and an active member of the world??#very proud of myself #and i mean it wasn't that quick of a change #it was like 1.5 years primarily depression bedrotting with occasional school -> primarily depression bedrotting ->#primarily depression bedrotting with 3-9 hours of work weekly -> straight into 31+ hours school+9-12 hours work weekly #so there was somewhat of a gradual progression #but still #also wowza i wake up 7-7:30am every morning now. 1pm was an early wake up for a not so insignificant amount of time #i mean of all fundamental growth years to miss out on the ages like what 12/13-15 aren't too bad? they would suck in a different way if i #had been socially involved #anyway it's just. yea i'm proud of myself but it is a crazy lifestyle change #and even when i was deeply depressed in a horrible routine i feel like i learned a lot. how to regulate my emotions and cope well and find #the joy in everything. bc if i stayed in bed all day then i would at least be happy about the sun or whatever #and for the while of being not at school at all i WANTED to be at school i just could not find one bc our school system is so cute like tha #(basically every school is at capacity and the local school that has a guaranteed place for me would have been an all boys or girls 😭)#but i miraculously found and got into this school and miraculously made it work so well for me socially and now academically #it's also a good time to get back into school for my education bc any later and it woulda been pretty bad for all my certifications and uni #ive missed out on so much maths that its not worth it to me to try and catch up but my teacher knows that #but ive always hated maths regardless i only ever understood it for the first half of yr 7 then my attendance dropped #and after my recent exam i decided to try harder at school. but i still got an A on the exam i didn't study for!! academic weapon fr #i'm just idk thinking back to myself in the past few years #and how hopeless it all felt. but i got out of it!! i beat the depression and social anxiety and found a good place and made the most of it #and during the peak of my depression i remember i went out someplace near my old school and panicked so so badly about seeing #kids from my old school. and the friends at the time didnt really check on me when i went to shake and cry in a side street lmao #i kept the best of that friendgroup and have better friends now. but anyway now i take a bus each morning with some kids from my old school #and you see these hands? they look like they're shaking to you?#anyway yeah it's just cool i got to this point :) i really had no hope for so long but now i have a life i'm living and a future i'm build #--ing towards #which is funny i just decided some random day last november after watching some better call saul 'huh actually lawyer would b pretty cool'#and will i get there? we'll see but i do have hope now

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orcelito · 2 months

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Guys I've been watching Buzzfeed Unsolved (as you do) and then I saw the thing on Pythian Castle in the recommendations. And I was like "Huh. That's got the same word as the sword I got yesterday."

WELL GUESS WHAT,

It's got the peace lily symbol and everything 😭😭😭😭😭

This is insane. Like I must've watched this episode before, but I have no real memory of it. Yet here I am, finding it again the direct day after I bought a sword from someone in their group hdkshfjd

Crazy coincidence

#speculation nation #they also mentioned the fact that it was formerly all white & that makes it sound like a white suppremacist group #which has me almost doubting my research i did yesterday hfkshfjd #which dont get me wrong the racial segregation was Bad. definitively speaking. but also not uncommon for the time.#and from what i could find (and i looked up very specifically whether it was a hate group) they didnt have a racist purpose at least #aka it's not like. say. the kkk. whose whole purpose is the pursuit of racist ideology.#so. Not a white suppremacist group. just a group with some racists. which was eventually changed #hfkshfkshd the distinction matters to me bc i do not want to own a sword from a white suppremacist group 😭😭😭#the actual purpose of the group was apparently the pursuit of peace.#the FCB on the sword and in their logo stands for 'Friendship Charity Benevolence'#and their primary function was to alleviate suffering in their community. SO. not a hate group. yay!#anyways the sword does come with the inscription of a name. Charles W Stephens.#which a brief google search didnt bring anything up. but there must be record of him Somewhere...#im curious!!! i own a piece of history!!!! i wanna find out more about its original owner.#sometime maybe i'll perform some deeper dives to try to find it out. it'd be so cool...

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ableedingpromise · 2 months

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Finally bought the eyeshadow pallette I wanted I'm so happy!!!!!

#its the romand rosebud garden :>>#it hasthe perfect balance of cool pinks that are actually wearable 😭😭 for me at least #most cool tones look ashy on me but i hate warm tone stuff even more... balance love #IM SO EXCITED ITS SO PINK AND SPAKRLYHSJAHSJS

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toastsnaffler · 4 months

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dating an art student was so crazy I'm just thinking abt that one birthday I had where my ex got me stickers from the etsy of the person they were cheating on me with....

#they made them address the thank you note to me and everything ajskfjfkfb. i didnt know they were cheating at the time but wow...#every time i break out my sticker collection and see them im reminded of it. but i cant throw out the stickers theyre deltarune ones 😭#like they were a rly cool artist.... just unfortunate that happened 💀#the drama was insane. my ex only wanted to sleep with them but they (other person) wanted them to break up with me so they could date #but my ex dumped them rly harshly for suggesting that i guess 'romantic' cheating was a step too far even for them lmaooo #i heard abt their breakup secondhand and god could they be cruel sometimes. they made fun of the sex theyd had w them #to all their mutual friends n everything i actually felt so bad for the other person when i found out. at least our breakup wasnt that bad #i only finally got that cruel side of them directed towards me like a year after when they wanted us to stop being friends #but yeah. its also funny in a way bc my ex only suggested i had adhd bc the other person did too + struggled a lot with rsd #which i guess they found out when they broke up with them. and then looked at that and thought huh my gf is kind of similar...#and this was like. 2 years before i even considered i had adhd myself and sought diagnosis ahdkfidjcjdjfjfjfkdbfnf #this made me go look the other persons art page up on instagram + then i recognised some of their friends/flatmates art pages and i found #their (my exs that is) grad year film which is still being shown at animation festivals... good for them good for them #i dont think they have an art page themselves tho cuz they were always v shy and weird abt sharing art on social media #like everyone else except them is tagged on things... shame i wouldve liked to see what they were making now. even if we're not friends #also one of their old roommates made some REALLY similar squid game fanart to mine like a month after i posted it huh..#not mad abt it or anything i think its cool i just didnt realise they showed my art to their friends. thats cute #ah this was years ago anyway. getting my head out of the rabbit hole #im gonna go play some elden ring and then maybe do smth fun in my sketchbook we shall seeee #.diaries

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francy-sketches · 4 months

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I'm gonna have to work on my final project non stop for like a month straight bc I procrastinated on it too much fuck my stupid baka life

#.txt #also I have to do a movie pitch for it bitch it's an amv with intentionally one dimensional characters 😭 tf do I even say about it #at least the characters are like. knockoff jaime and tommen so its almost like im drawing asoiaf fanart #unfortunately I've come to hate them. the knockoffs I mean #I wanna change the designs a bit so they dont resemble my blorbos as much. i think im gonna give the kid darker hair #ok well discount jaime just looks like him with 2 hands and a blue cape 💀and I cant change him atp #my worst mistake was giving him like. a solid metal skirt armor thing bc its a pain in the ass to animate #at the start of the year I had the most work done out of everyone how did this happen #its bc they started nitpicking the story and I kinda lost motivation to work on it lke this shit is stupid. and cringe #by they I mean the extra screenwriting teachers we had a couple lessons with which like. this is an animation course not a writing course #I'd get it if it was like. a full time school but we have 2 3 hour classes a week we dont have time for this shit man #ig my mistake was that my idea didn't start from the story it started from the song I wanted to make a cool music video for it #its not that the story is nonsensical or anything its just a very basic fairytale esque thing nothing groundbreaking #'but you're not SAYING anything with this' I'm not trying to omg just let me make my little amv :(#does everything need a plot twist or to subvert expectations is it not enough that it looks cool #there's a couple people who are worse off than me in terms of how much they've done but also theres a couple that are nearly done #looking at them like god I wish that were me.....#and also I think I accidentally overwrote a shot I worked on for 3 hours. killing myself #maybe I can restore a previous version but its on the school computer and the school is closed for a week so im not gonna know until then

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skyburger · 6 months

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"fnaf is the scariest game ever" "no its silent hill" "well i think its resident evil" everyone shut up!!!!!! youre all wrong. its actually zack & wiki quest for barbaros' treasure (on the nintendo wii) but only the level "keeper of the ice". that level scared me so bad as a kid and you can tell because its the only individual level i remember the name of off the top of my head. like there is nothing scarier than a) being chased and b) being on a time limit. and you know what this level has? BOTH OF THOSE. this level is still scary to me im like AHHHHH!!!! and then i die

#i had to google horror games after i thought really hard for silent hill and fnaf #because like. resident evil is just not a horror game in my mind... its just cool zombie game...#to be fair though. the only one i actually played a portion of was re6 which is probably the least scary one in the whole series #anyway do the kids still find silent hill and fnaf scary. i dont know.#well the former id say yes given how prevalent ps1 horror has been in recent years #fnaf i have no idea. im a massive wuss so its scary when i play it for myself #but watching someone else play them especially when i know them well isnt scary #and ive watched fnaf videos for YEARS #so i dont know. (old man voice) these damn kids... back in my day we watched markiplier scream at freddy fazbear and we LIKED it!#anyway its objectively a horror game and thata literally fine thats all i needed for this post #MY POINT HERE. my point here #IS THAT HIT ZACK AND WIKI LEVEL KEEPER OF THE ICE. IS SOOOOO SCARY #its not that scary but i see tjat level and im like 3 years old making my mom play this level for me again #and for the record yes me and my sister really did make our mom help us with z&w #she remembers helping us with frost breath the most because we like did notttttt get that one at all #and she could never remember how to do the mirrors based on what combination of stands is there (because tjeres like a few variations)#so she always had to look up a guide 😭😭#my poor mother on fucking gamefaqs or something in like 2010... legends only #anyway if you have no idea what level im talking about (any of my oomfs reading this that isnt end) (hi end) PLEASE look up this level #and i need you to think of like a 5(?) year old making her mom play this game.#this aforementioned child is still a massive wuss as an adult btw. some things never change #anyway watch that level and think about how someone like me. whos already a scaredy cat!#imagine how someone like me felt at age 5 possibly younger playing this level #I WISH I COULD LIKE CONVEY EMOTIONS OVER TUMBLR. why cant i attach a .emotion file to this post #anyway ramble over <- hes said that like a million times today #scariest level in a game ever...!!!!! FUCK that keeper of the ice bitch im GLAD he died #muffin mumbles

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jisuyayaya · 2 months

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I survived the exam!!!

#im so relieved #we still have revisions ofc but at least its all done after that and then i can focus on my thesis #the examiners were... chill #one was a professor thats known to be nice while the other one we weren't too familiar with #but they were both chill alhamdulillah😭#so glad that its over #and im also happy to wear this formal outfit lol #the shoes are kinda uncomfy but it looks so cool

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valentinesparda · 3 months

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I'm really hoping I can train everyone to use my preferred name at my new job. if I have to hear my dead name more often than just reading it occasionally and having the hiring process be full of them trying to pronounce it I might end up spiralling into a big depression again. lol

#val.txt #like i could probably get away with saying “its easier to pronounce this nickname lol” rather than coming out and saying “oh btw im trans”#and i know id probably HAVE to use the word trans depending on how cool the new coworkers are #if they can at least use my preferred name then i dont really care about pronouns but if i can manage BOTH.... OOOOH #im still in the middle of texas so its a big ask but like. idk. i saw the library insta and everyone looks pretty progressive and cool #idk idk. we'll see 😭😭 my dead name is on all the offical schedules and stuff though and i dont want to be told “its confusing”

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lemongogo · 2 years

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so if timeskip stampede s2 is fr are u telling me we can possibly get millie and eriks + og vash designs . ..

#YEAAAAHOOOOOOO #i hope so at least😭 man the timeskip thing is such a trip fr because like #did the fifth moon incident happen ?? in stampede . bc if not then theyd be looking at another 2 yr timeskip After the lost july that theyre #(i assume) setting up for in the finale #but then again ig that also assumes tht any semblance of the og plot remains #i literally have so many questions. ik theyd be answered if i just watched the show but i want to finish the manga first #ANNOYING I KNOWW😭💔😋 sorry HAHAGA #but it just confuses me soo much bc i dont know how u can get any forward progression #when theyre taking elements from way late in the series and introducing them in this prequel-esque s1 setup #ok anyaays . ANYWAYS im interested 2 know if we will see these changes #bc j want to see vash actually be and look like vash so bad its driving me crazy #and i want millie in the series soo fucking bad . loled at roberto dying ❤️ MAKE WAY OLD MAN #fr hated that guy.. i think he was intended to be used as this narrator for the audience to guide us into the series #but the whole reporter-know-all thing was annoying 😭😭😭#anyways . millie be mine❤️ eriks!vash be mine ❤️#hopefully manga/98-esque looking wolfwood be mine ❤️#also idk wt the hell they did to livio (did they kill him or is it a fakeout for tripunisher return HELP)#or to legato . but they shld make themm all beefy again❤️ and cool❤️ for ME!!!!❤️❤️❤️#trigun spoilers #trigun stampede #trigun #also yah someone else wondering if his bounty jumps from $$6 billion to $$60 billion #its such a small detail but i was so sad when stamp only put the $$6 on his head HAHACAHAHAHAGAGA #that one 98 clip thats like ‘the man who will slaughter the innocent.does the most evil of evil deeds-#-with the bounty of 60 mil double dollars on his head? YES I AM THAT MAN👹👍’

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gu6chan · 4 months

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99% just my autism speaking here but something ive been noticing lately that im sorta kinda 😶 about is when ppl are like "I think you'll like this" but not bc they ACTUALLY think you'll like it, rather they just got into it and want you to also get into it so "I think you'll like this" is a nice personal hook. i love chill stuff as much as any other person ofc but given i don't divulge that EVER, what makes you think my berserk reading, made in abyss watching, drakengard playing ass would like YURU CAMP????

#gu6chan's musings #am i just taking the phrase too literally???? like i appreciate the thought but also.... what agitates me is the fact theres not any #when i say something among the lines of 'i think YOU'LL like this' or 'This made me think of you' like #its bc i think of THAT PERSON IN PARTICULAR or think THAT PERSON IN PARTICULAR would like it #again it's probably just autism brain taking figures of speech too literally but i HATE it bc it just makes me feel like #all the times i shared my interests meant nothinggggg typically i just ask 'neat; what makes you think ill like it?' and ppl start stumbling #and im like :(#whats rlly funny in this case is not only the fact i had only ever established my love of dark fantasy and mystery to this person #but they also flatout asked 'youre not really into modern media much are you' to which the answer was 'not much lol'#and i said the reasons i dont care for 'cute girls doing cute things' anime (re: k-on) is bc if i have the time to watch it then i at LEAST #wanna spend it watching a series that's???? not 'the point of it is to relax :)'??? i can sleep for that #anyways like 2 days later they said they said they think id REALLY like this new anime they've been watching lately and I was like 'oh?'#and it was yuru camp.... and internally i was like 'are you fucking kidding me' but on the outside i was like 'oh sweet what makes you think #id like it? id love some new media recommendations especially if they're newer shows bc ive been having SO MUCH TROUBLE trying to find #something interesting that isn't from 2008'#and they sent me a picture of the most generic anime girl ever and they're like 'it has really cute girls' and then i just wanted to kms #like.... this isn't bc you thought id like it; is it.....#wanted to die internally but i played it cool and was like 'oh no; i appreciate it thoughtfulness and all but i don't think this is for me'#also the time where someone recommended signalis to me and i was like 'oh?' and they were like 'YEAH its SO good the people who made it #were even INSPIRED off of Nier' KNOWING FULL WELL I DIDN'T LIKE IT AND THE AMOUNT MY ENTHUSIASM JUST DIED... i was like #'oh. well that will be a pass then' and they tried backpedaling like 'well it's not SUPER inspired; i didn't know you HATED nier :(' like #my past 15 posts on my twitter werent me realising that the game was absolute garbage and calling it the most regretful thing ive ever spent #money on during my attempted playthrough 😭 i was like 'thanks; but I'll pass' to which they then responded by promptly sending me #signalis memes i had absolutely no idea how to respond to WITHOUT making it seem like i was super annoyed so i was just kinda 😶 and didn't #reply and they were like 'sorry :(' and i was like 'haha it's okay! i just have absolutely no idea how to respond to this joke i dont #understand at ALL'#was probably one of the more awkward interactions ive ever had but genuinely speaking i was so INTERESTED until they brought up that it was #inspired by nier i literally psychically felt all the enthusiasm leaving my body from 'damn; i might actually have to look into this' to #'oh well that's a bullet dodged' did not trust the backtracking either....

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rotisseries · 1 year

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just realized 3 people I was mutuals with have unfollowed me and I'm trying not to overthink it lol

#WHAT DID I DO WHAT DID I DO WHAT DID I DOOOOOOOO😭#tbh I know at least one of my other mutuals lately has had issues with tumblr like. force unfollowing them from me lol #so I'd kind of. assume maybe it's that maybe it's accidental? but. 3 of them?#and the selection in question hardly makes it look coincidental....#is there a screenshot of me in the gc? be honest #and like it's fine its not even that bad I didn't even really talk to 2 of them maybe they just got bored of me we hardly interacted #but I'd talked to the 3rd one frequently through asks at least #they answered one of mine just earlier this last week in a really friendly manner LIKE. I THOUGHT WE WERE COOL #HOW LONG HAS THIS EVEN BE GOING ON #I suspect one of them probably unfollowed me in july... I sent them a 💌 for that mutual ask game and they never answered #which would make sense if we weren't mutuals anymore #oh wait oh my god was that about the goddamn “henry creel stans are crazy” post drama. that would be weird. there's no way #but it happened around the same time...#I literally can't live like this would it be insane to send asks to these people and figure out what I did

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feeferden · 10 months

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i know my previous post was sayin that im tryin to work on not sadposting but this one deserves to be mentioned; i randomly came across a shiny minior in ultra sun two days ago and it self destructed UGHGHHFHFHFHFHFH

#txt #i was just looking for a cleffaaaaaa 😭😭😭 and a shiny minior looks so cool toooooo UGHHHHH #i was kinda zonin out while looking for a decent nature cleffa and heard a sudden shiny sparkle sound effect and was like NOOO WAY?#then it EXPLODED... so sad. its obv fine but like. cmonnnnn...my shiny luck is so bad...and it does this to me #i think the only legit shinies ive ever encountered are a random nidoran in soulsilver #a shiny golbat in soulsilver again when i replayed it #and...now this shiny which just EXPLODED....i dont count the shiny lechonk or altaria i found in scarlet tho. too easy to shiny hunt -#- there. at least its too easy that it doesnt feel rewarding if u find a shiny randomly. like u WILL get one bc of how many pkmn show up #...i would totally hunt for a shiny ribombee. the colors are to die for #last thing related to the minior..its fine ig. minior doesnt seem to be the best pokemon anyway and i tend to box ones like that so.. i -#- wouldnt have used it i suppose?#oh id like to specify that the nidoran and golbat were like max 10 years apart. bad shiny luck

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alchemiclee · 3 months

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ah. I haven't listened to this song in years. I stopped listening to it because I wanted to make a music video for it. but I needed my friends to help me. I asked them multiple times and they would never help. I was very upset about it so I had to stop listening to the song. I even have an entire script written out for almost every part of the song. I was so proud of my ideas and excited to make the video. but I couldn't get what I needed because no one I was friends with are creative minds who understand or share my passion for creating. we aren't friends anymore, but I never found any better replacements.

I have to throw away so many ideas because people won't help me and i cant physically do them alone. making short films/mvs especially. it's been a lifelong passion I never got to do (unless you count my gta rp videos. but I can't do those anymore because gta rp is kinda toxic and the people are hard to work with. but that's the closest i've gotten) it's extremely upsetting. I don't know how people get whole teams for stuff. and I don't mean rich people that can hire anyone. I mean those people that can get a group of friends who share the same creativity and passion and do cool stuff together. they are so lucky.

I don't remember any of the ideas I had now even reading what I noted down. so I don't think I could make this video now. all my ideas fade away and never get made. that's so sad. now i'm having the same issue with making a firefly video with if I can stop one heart from breaking. I write a script (and even drew panel sketches) but I can't get even one person to help me shoot it. I can't move the camera and be in the shot at the same time. so I haven't listened to the song in a while since it makes me sad to think about the dying ideas. ugh. why is this how my life always goes?

sorry for the rant. lee is very sad and frustrated 😞

#like youtube channels that put out short films and its a whole team of people that work on them and theyre all friends not hired actors #or any group that does creative stuff together as friends and coworkers. a perfect example is drawfee on youtube. i want what they have #but im not someone people see and are excited to befriend or create with. AND IT MAKES ME SO SAD I CANT EVEN EXPLAIN IT 😭#i had ONE friend that wanted to get into short film making and stuff and i got super excited and said we should do it togther because #its a thing ive wanted to do forever and she accused me of trying to steal her spotlight and stuff and refused to work with me #thats not how friendships should work 😭 i hope she never got anyone else to ever work with her and has to suffer alone like me #lee text #if i cant do irl videos then id at least like to do things like tell stories through gta/red dead servers and record and make videos #but i cant even get people to do THAT. why do i suck at meeting creative people and suck at getting people to do things with me 😭#lee rants #HOW DO I MAKE PEOPLE LIKE ME AND WANT TO DO COOL STUFF WITH ME?! other people make it look so easy #while ive been begging and trying to bribe people for years. even offering money for simple things but im so unlikable nothing works

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toastsnaffler · 3 months

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4 hours of gay climbing club crops watered mana restored I fucking love. boulder 🪨

#GOT MY FIRST EVER V4 BABY!!!!!#and came v v close to 2 other v4s ima get them next week >:^)#also did some very spicy v3s n my technique on one of them was so 👌 that someone asked to watch me do it again to help him get it #which he did!!!! v proud of him i love how collaborative it is as a sport n how supportive n lovely the whole group are #also someone approached me to invite me to another climbing club which is like an equal opportunities based one #so a lot of overlap w the gay one but im guessing they noticed im deaf too.. they sound really cool they do a lot of outdoor climbing #which i would looooove to get into.. they were v enthusiastic abt it im def gonna register w them n go along to at least one thing #man im so happy ive started going to these im hoping to make thursdays one too. doing this 2x weekly would fix everything wrong w me #i did have a little bike mishap tho the handlebars slipped out of place and im not sure i trust my front brakes anymore #so need to look that over when i have the time 🤨 its all good made it home safe tho lucky i brought my kit w me #AH okay i need to take a rly quick shower n eat a rly quick dinner n go to bed cuz i have to be up at 6:30 tmr and its past 11 😭#MUAH SEE YA XOXOXOXO #.diaries

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