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s0m3b0dy2u · 3 days ago

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"but roman..."

"why didnt you script youre immune to hate" / "why did you literally script haters into your dr???"

three words: because it's funny.

I scripted that hate doesn't bother me, and that i think it's funny. also, im very petty and i cant do dumb shit just to spite the haters if there are no haters. i did script that my friends dont get any/get very little hate. for example, people only think good things about theo because he literally posts the most gorgeous photographs, shes amazing at their job, and hes just the kindest person to literally everyone they meet. nico has haters in the way any loud and obnoxious youtuber will but theyre very few and far between and he also finds them funny, but in a slightly different way then i do. felix's legitimate work is amazing, and theres so little room for criticism to begin with, and most of his shitty takes are on tumblr, so hes safe. venus gets the same kind of hate anyone that makes the kind of music she does will, also largely angry christians like i have in my hatebase. she, of course, is the best at handling hate out of any of us. shes absolutely brutal. shes also the first to clap back if any of her friends get any hate to begin with. of course, she has the largest fanbase out of all of us so... yk how that goes, im sure. she also like... thrives off of drama.

also, i've litterally written whole critical articles about myself, if anyone wants to read them

Blasphemy Disguised as Art: The Dangerous Message of Empire’s 666

Style Over Substance? The Fall of Rome’s Theatrics

etc.

the first one is my favorite (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) .ᐟ.ᐟ

lets talk about 666

the only reason the ep (or even me in general) blew up as hard as it did is because of christian supremacists.

!! i dont hate christians or christianity, and i do not intend to mock the religion itself !! 666 is about my own personal struggles with religion !! also, the christians im talking about here are the kind that hardly live like christians--the ones that dont live and lead with kindness, but instead anger, and the kind that would condemn you to hell if they saw you walking down the street holding hands with someone of the same sex because "its a sin." the bible says we, as humans, are in no right to judge one another, etc. etc. etc. the reason i didnt script people like this out in this dr is because theyve greatly helped shape the person i am today--for better or for worse. (i feel the need to mention, now, i did script out homophobia, transphobia, and other forms of discrimination) !!

these people, maybe they saw the album cover, read the lyrics, or even just read the album and song titles, whatever it was they got so pissed. most of them havent seen anything else about me, and just jumped to the "hes encouraging devil worship" "he thinks hes better than God" etc etc etc. this lead more and more people to seeing my stuff and so... yeah

also the people that are like "EMPIREs too theatric" "romes too dramatic" like... no shit?? thats my whole thing?? idk what to tell you. my fans eat it tf uppppp too.

the people that are like "mmm maybe try making happy music now?? :/" piss me off tho like no???? my whole thing is doom and gloom. i am death incarnate, im fuckin--IM A VAMPIRE OK IM SUPPOSED TO BE VAMPIRIC ૮₍ ˃ ⤙ ˂ ₎ა /silly

also theres nothing funnier than tiktok comments like "you need jesus" and "go read the bible" pllssss what????? (╥﹏╥) lmaoooo

and like keep hating, all youre doing is making me more famous??? idk like....

i also love ironic haters

like yes, lets pretend we hate each others guts while were sitting in a cozy lil cafe tg

lets say we hate each others music and then drop a collab not even a week later

૮꒰˶> ᴗ <˶꒱ა

uhhhh rant over

if youre still here, how was your day/morning? remember to take care of yourselves, drink some water, eat something--even if it's just a little bit--and take a break if you need to. i love you all <3 have a nice day/night

#desired reality #rant post #ranting #musician dr #reality shifting #shiftblr #anti shifters dni #shifting community #shifters #shiftingrealities #reality shifting community #reality shift #shifting antis dni #shift #shifting blog #shifting script #shifting reality #shifting realities #desired realities

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fridgrave2-0 · 5 months ago

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hehe ghost-turbo haunting felix au

turbo is connected to the last piece of his code in the whole arcade - a trophy he gifted to felix in mid 80s as a symbol of him genuinely caring about their relationships on par with being the best racer. felix also gave him one of his medals and both kept their gifts next to other rewards, but when roadblasters and turbotime were unplugged, the medal was gone with everything else

now, after burning in cola-lava turbo is basically dead, but scraps of his code still were intertwined with the trophy (after all, it was his first winner's cup, but felix never knew about it), giving turbo an opportunity to exist as a shadow incapable of interacting with anything and anyone besides felix, who kept the trophy even after the roadblasters incident

also I went crazy in tags, feel free to check them out

#turbo #turbotastic #fix it felix jr #80s boyfriends #hammertastic #headcanon about them exchanging their trophies isn't mine but i loved it A LOT #and “darling” is turbo making fun of how felix was calling him in 80s #this hc about “doll” and “darling” pet names also is not mine but i adore it #turbo here is a complete freak who just stays around felix most of the time even when felix has moments with calhoun #and felix is an ass who keeps secrets from everyone bc he doesn't want his dirt to come out #he's ashamed of his previous relationship with turbo and doesn't want anyone to know any details #and calhoun to just know about it #this just gets worse and worse #they also didn't actually break up and were still technically dating when turbo went gamejumping #and he's mad af at felix because he's the reason ppl in the acrade made a boogeyman out of turbo and he couldn't come back #like imagine your bf says to you what you are better than others think of you #and then behind your (presumably dead) back tells everyone that you're just an egocentric maniac #i believe turbo has other reasons why he gamejumped (besides jealousy which took place but wasn't the most important reason)#and felix is an unreliable narrator #so yeah turbo HATES his ass #(but still would-) no im not making it suggestive #anyway i hc that turbo had put A LOT of emotions in this relationship even tho he's bad at this #he tried his best with felix but they were just making each other worse #and turbo while feeling betrayed never really moved on (yes even after 25 years he's PATHETIC)#and felix is just full of regret about everything but he won't admit his mistakes in his relationship with turbo #bc “well he turned out to be a bad person so that automatically makes me in the right about everything”#but felix had made a lot of bad decisions while dating turbo and was just classically ignorant about a ton of things #sorry about this random ass essay in tags i'm done for now #wreck it ralph #wir

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bloodydeanwinchester · 2 years ago

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watching the beginning of season 1 spn is so weird like this is such a different show than what spn would eventually become. like it’s so dark and serious and every episode is a monster of the week and dean and sam barely know each other at all and they havent done awful things or died for each other yet and theyve got no one but each other and they barely know anything about the monsters they hunt let alone angels and the devil and god and they just have no idea that their lives are about to get so much worse and that they’ll want to give up but they wont, they’ll sacrifice everything for the world and each other and i just watch these episodes and think they’ve got no idea what’s coming

#man really getting in my s1 feels this morning #it’s just such a different show than what it would eventually become and i love it but also i wouldnt love it so much if it hadnt evolved #into what it became in the later seasons!#they’re just such babies and i wanna protect them from what’s to come #but also i want to tell them that even tho it get’s worse it gets better too like you’ll fall in love and have a family and one day you’ll #be happy i promise!!#spn #jenna.post

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100-gar · 4 months ago

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Controversial take but i watched all of jjk, in subbed, so it had my full attention 100% of the time, and i am of the opinion that it just fucking sucks.

So me and my wife were talking about it, and we were trying to figure out why people like it and we've come up short. I do not understand what's so appealing about this show for so many people. Can someone PLEASE tell me.

#yes the animation is phenominal and honestly i would have stopped watching after the first episode without it #MAPPA creates some beautiful art like just gorgeous #but the constant force-feeding of every minor character's backstory was hellish for me #had me rolling my eyes every time they did it (every three seconds)#the vast majority of characters are unlikable or bland or dead #often all of the above #choso is the only character i actively liked?? like i understand him i reallu do #i liked mahito? he's a freak so that's a given #i liked that one old guy with the weird still frames power #uhhh i like sukuna's weird obsession with ripoff sasuke #edit i member: i liked megumi he deserved better #oh i also REALLY liked nanamin or whatever his name was (it's been a while)#i think yuuji's suicide mission that he didn't think through is super interesting #alright heres my most controversial take of all #i don't care at ALL abt gojo. he's so mid there's like a million characters exactly like him #and he's UGLY why do people say he's attractive bro is UGLY A HELL #the intros are baller tho i sat through them every episode no skipping that shit #gorgeous animation as i'd expect from this studio #like! there's so many little drops of things that i liked about this show! which is why it pissed me off so much every time they did boring #ass exposition dumps on characters that are gonna die in five seconds. or worse-they are gonna live and continue to bore me to tears #and when i tell you i physically couldn't read the manga because of how fucking BORING it is #i got caught up and was like 'okay ill read the manga i kinda like what's currently happening n ive made it this far might as well keep goi #g' nah man i couldn't even read a whole chapter. jjk is king of exposition dumps #i do think the powers and how if you tell your opponent what it is it gets stronger is rad #and it drives me insane because i know they know how to drip-feed information about a character! and when they do that they do it SO WELL!!#but they just force feed you all this information the rest of the time like BRO ITS TOO MUCH SLOW DOWN AND JUST LET THE CHARACTERS DO THEIR #THING AND IT WILL BE MORE SATISFYING #anyways not tagging this because i don't wanna put hate in the main tags #just like. if you see this please explain to me what im missing PLEASE i want to like this show SO bad

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faaun · 1 year ago

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lmao looking at her insta highlights was a mistake

#i feel worse WHY DOES SHE HAVE TONED MUSCLES UGHHH #also my confidence has gone down a tiny bit bc why is she hanging out w all these cool ppl #how is this girl simultaneously a lawyer and also has her social life on max like give me a break #thered a photo of her walking around in heaven either before closing or after opening shes sooo #HOWEVER. i just had a call w her yesterday that made me realise my idea of romance is more romantic than her idea of romance #but also that she doesnt want to do smth super romancey on a 3rd date which according to my friends is fair but according to my heart #it is not. like why are u on a date if u dont wanna do anything romancey at that point just hang out w friends #odd of her to say that too considering our first two dated were quite romantic . anyway #yo this cafe is playing persian music nice. anyway yh #also she makes being middle eastern so gay yk the goodbye fake cheek kiss thing we do . where u like . kiss the air on the sides of the #persons face when ur saying goodbye. ygwim . yeah she doesnt do the fake air kisses she gives u two tender kisses like . anyway #i discussed the stuff she does w my friend and like why r her words so aloof and her actions so...not . and my friends reaction was #basically this is fuckboy behaviour. apparently he used to do that to girls ?? like tell them he rly liked them #and be all charming and romantic even tho he rly wasnt invested at all and he mostly wanted to hook up. like ok #im gonna kill myself then. why would u stroke my hair w my head on ur LAP THEN. WHAT IF SHE TURNS AROUND AND IS LIKE #oops it was nothing #....ill kms actually. no i womt. but anyway #also got added to the gc w the other lecturers givjng talks on the 6th so its getting more real #my friend was like did u do the script yet :))) . almost died shes so scary i love her . but . fuck two exams . crush. talk. ucl cambrdige #three conferences aaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAA im so anxious i dont even feel anything atp #......I HAVE NO MONEY!!! TO TOP IT OFF #my crush and i are both iranian (aka born w extremely expensive taste woven into our genes) but i wanna like #treat her w the entire 2 quid in my bank account ig ♡♡♡#crushposting

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durgewyll · 7 months ago

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thinking of. jae seeing her relationship with the rogue trader in terms of power. as a mutually beneficial business transaction. she spent all her life with people constantly holding power over her -- what makes this one, a veritable rogue trader, any different?

and even after the rogue trader finds out the truth, possibly encouraging her to be her "true self", jae pushes them and that idea away. because the idea that this world would accept her as she is, is more like a naive fairy tale to her. because that's not how the world works! if it was then she shouldn't have needed to do the things she did to get to where she is now.

and now she refuses to be naked and vulnerable with the rogue trader again because with this truth, they truly hold immense power over her like no one else had in probably a very long time.

#.txt #and the fact that she had no plans of ever telling them the truth. if it weren't for commorragh.#god. let's end it all right fucking now #is anyone surprised i latch on to the character with a charming facade? no?#i still havent finished the game shush but jae trying to break up with rt broke my heart 😭😭😭#it would've been so much worse btw if she also returned the dress rt gave her. which is my headcanon that she did #idk what ending she'll get with isolde tbh. i kinda cheated a bit with toybox bc i want them to be happy 😭#even tho realistically with both their track records it wouldn't last.

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sundayinthcpark · 3 days ago

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actually thought what do you do when you can’t tell if someone is flirting or not. especially when it’s your friend. and you don’t rlly know if you want them to be flirting or not because you’re not rlly sure what the fuck you want out of life forget out of them.

#i have this fucking crisis every other week as i sit here wondering if i have a crush on my best friend. problem is is i don’t fucking know #what a crush is. ‘you could spend the rest of your life with them’ yeah okay yeah. i love them of course i do that’s not even a question.#like yes i love my friend. i love all my friends though like i couldn’t imagine my life without them even the ones who aren’t here now like #that is not something i can replace !? and like i don’t particularly Want to like. make out with them like i’m not opposed to it !!! if they #asked i wouldn’t say no but there’s also a zero percent chance of me doing the asking. would i like to curl up on a couch with them and #watch a movie?? absolutely i would. but also i want to do that with my sister y’know. like huh. but then they say things that r kinda like #flirting. or almost like it like they fully said i should move in with them after they graduate and then like i was saying smthn abt how i #need to grow a spine sometimes (sorry my phone corrrecred spine to spones dear god help me anyway) and they were like ‘well i could just be #your spine’ HELLO BABES WHAT DOES THAT MEAN. and my other friend that i get confused with is always suggesting i visit him and it actually #destroys me to have to tell him i can’t because he lives on the other side of the planet but like i WANT TO i would give ANYTHING to be able #to do that ?? anyway anywayyyyyyyyy i need a rule book for this i need someone to explain what every single feeling is because exactly zero #of them make sense to me and at this point i am just terrified i will end up alone even tho i cannot imagine anything worse. y’know.#luke rambles

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lokh · 2 months ago

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I think it’s muscle tension, for me, my blood pressure and rate is fine. I had it for i dunno, 3 months? It also felt like I couldnt breathe deep enough. And again another time for a couple of months, which felt even more muscular than the time b4, stabbing pain when I laid on that side for a month, that one started at a social event completely out of nowhere so couldn't have been pulled by anything other than internal tension. I think spending so long researching what it could be, and trying to Make it go away made it much worse because ofc…it was giving me anxiety which made it hurt which made me anxious. I can’t tell you what made it go away, I think seeing a doctor to be like. You’re fine. Was good. But after that trying to accept it and idk, telling my body to do it worst instead of trying to fight it and being scared of it getting worse. I still get it now but usually only for a few days. I also try to get my heart rate up once a day by like. Jumping or running etc. which kinda helps get rid of the anxiety that I feel like…builds up without my awareness.

hmmm interesting... im glad that its lessened for you at least!

#breathing has somehow been no problem for me. no dizziness #though a lot of what ur saying is also familiar to me (the feeling that its become more muscular)...#tho im aware anxiety chest pain can present differently with people #idk like. what actually started this all off was that i was waking up with chest pain in the beginning #itd go away eventually but id wake up and there was chest pain. then it just started getting worse and happening god knows when #i worked out+exercised regularly but after it started getting bad i didnt touch a dumbbell for months =/ it didnt improve #i wasnt even doing like super heavy weights either. sigh #idk at this point. either its gonna go away or im gonna randomly drop dead #but i feel like those are the ideal endings at this point. because the worst is that this keeps going indefinitely and its preventing me #from like. doing things rip #anon #ask #going to the doctor and having them tell me 'well we cant find anything' is only pissing me off tbh so that doesnt help X_X #<- to be clear im seeing a cardiologist and hes REALLY dragging it the fuck out on doing any scans #wants to be sure its 'not a muscle problem' which i understand but i think hes putting off anything w radiation #becos of possible effects on fertility and unfortunately seems like the kind of doctor that wont take 'i dont want kids' as an answer #<- to be fair this is an assumption. he just keeps saying that im Young and he doesnt want to do a ct scan unless He Absolutely Has To #UNFORTUNATELY. hes also the only cardiologist we know that doesnt charge gap which can get pretty expensive #genuinely if i dont make progress the next appt will have to try someone else tbh

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itsalwaysdark · 6 months ago

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and also it doesnt even matter if i miraculously get a job tmrw bc we don't have a car . and im too out of shape to walk anywhere bc everything is far away . so i genuinely dont jnow what to do

#im not smart or talented or hot enough to have a source of income working from home.#i dont have a ged or a kicense or a way to get to work or much experience + ive got a steadily fucking growing gap in my employment history.#And i have essentially 0 social skills i barely Function half the time im dissociated or just crying. im weak and out of shape and #not pretty im like. unhireable i think . and again even if a place did hire me I dont have a way to fucking get 2 work #i might be able to walk 2 a place if i had been at work for a while bc if be more used to being on my feet and active again. its take a #while and id be in a Lot of pain but like. itd be doable. and once i worked for s bit i could get lyfts even tho Expensive also idk that #there as many drivers here. and wtvr. but if i did that itd be Less money to help my family and less money to save up toget my own place and #atp maybe its selfish of me to want my own place and i need to judt be more grateful im allowed 2 stay here . yk #idk. im so tired i just need like. idk. ik the only way is to just get through it and get a job and make it work but it feels so pointless #everything always does. i cant keep getting over hurdles man im so fucking tired of getting through hurdles #every single day is Difficult and every single day is the Same and any time j manage to have a good day ill just go right back to feeling #exactly the same. and even if it looks like everythings better for a bit it all goes back down eventually and ik im supposed to be like But #itll get better again after that <3 ups and downs are a part of life <3 we have to have the bad to appreciate the good <3 im just fucking #sick of the goddamn bad im fucking sick of it ive had enough bad i want good. ik other ppl deserve it more i want everybody to have good #days and be safe and happy i don't want things to keep getting worse but everything just gets worse and all the good parts r tempirary and #im so tired. I am not your strongest soldier bro !!!#idk. i just want to be atable i dont need anything crazy i just want my family to live comfortably and to have enough money that i can #donate i rly donot need much i dont need that much food 2 survive i dont need a ton of space i dont need a nide house i like. i just want to #be Stable and know that everything will be ok. yk. at least 4 my family i want them all to be able to eat and the bills 2 be paid and #hopefully for lamp and the kids 2 go to college. bc lamp and tag both want to go to college and itsy is 6 so he soesnt care #but i want them to be able to so bad bc i can't and i ws never gonna be able to and i dont get to be whiny abt that but like. they want to #and theyre smart and passionate and like. i want them to be able to achieve their dreams and get to have normal lives and be fulfilled and #happy. yk. idk. annie showed me her schoolwork the other day and since it wa first week at like. an alt school it ws a lot of personality #type stuff and mental health stuff and im not gonna get into it bc its not mine to tell but. their answers for one of the things made me so #upset bc it sounded so much like me when i was their age and even now and it makes me feel so guilty that like. i didnt make it better for #them. im the one whos supposed to endure it and then theyre supposed to get to be happy but im too fuckinf weak nowadays and i can't keep #any of them safe or happy and i feel so insanely useless. i hate it i just want to be useful idc anymore like. i want to be good i want to #be helpful i want to be cared abt and its so selfish bc a part of me is like. Ohh wahhh we shouldnr have to do all that to be cared abt wahh #and its dumb bc Yes i do its my job. it just fucking sucks rn bc like i have all the like. sorrow over this being what i have to do and this #is my lot in life but i also have all the guilt over how im not doing it bc km lazy and selfish and i cant just work bc im . Ugh

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neonvqmpire · 6 months ago

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vent in the tags

#truly astounding how my grandma was like: walking so much in your first job toughened you up like no it did not u idiot #i was so overworked and depressed and miserable. i had frequent panic attacks about going out.#im also not like her or my parents or anyone in the sense that everything is much harder for me because im audhd #even if i wasnt its just the pain i was and am feeling is very real #u can cure fatigue by walking and going outside like are u fucking serious 😭 the point is that my body is so tired it cant move #*cant #moving makes it worse #how often do i have to tell them (my family) that #i thought my grandma would understand bc of her illnesses but she has srthritis and stuff ehich does get better from moving #fatigue is very different tho (!!)#and i now realised after all this that ive struggled with fatigue my whole life. more or less. and when i worked at my first job i was #burning myself out after already having had a burnout at school before.#like im literally disabled idk why im even having a discussion about this. its not the same thing.#do they think i dont want to go outside in the summer????#im not fuvking lazy !! they need to stop thinking they know what its like for me. its not. like i have to rest after half a day of uni bc #its legit SOOO exhausting to socialise for me. the only reason i can do most things in a day and have the enrrgy for them is because i take #amphetamines for my adhd. like stop thinking that we are the same and that i can just do shit without it having a consequence for my energy #levels. im a spoonie #if theres no spoons i have to lie in bed for 2 hours until i can get up again to do sth to keep myself fed and needs met #like audhd disables me so much ON TOP OF the fatigue i accumulatef from burnout over the years AND this most recent post viral fatigue #god i was yapping so much here im sorry 😭🫶#personal #sage posting

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arolesbianism · 8 months ago

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Thinking abt my dupe ocs again, and I'm returning to my cringe fail silly ones who exist solely for me to have fun. Basically one of the colonies is sort of a lil experimental ground dupe wise where most of the dupes get to have some fun critter biology meshed in there, with most of them being fairly stable, but a few of them having a bit of a harder time for some reason or another. Such as having no bones and the most fragile skin known to dupe kind.

#rat rambles #oni posting #this colonies ada is the no bones guy shes mixed with a void bug #she actually is able to function mostly just fine its just that she has to be like super careful all the time #it doesn't help that her insides are mostly just foamy goo so the colony doctor doesn't rly know how to treat her wounds #on the bright side shes extremely light and can jump onto other dupes shoulders for fun #she cant fly tho very sad #even if she was the lightest thing in the world her wings are on the back of her head and arent as flexible as an actual shine bugs wings #she mostly uses them to gesture with like an extra pair of arms #and to paint with since shes also an artist #she's passionate abt her art but shes also super passionate abt being an engineer and a lot of her art ties back to that #mostly because she was printed only abt a month before the pod went offline so after that her fellow dupes became a lot more protective of #her since they felt that if smth went wrong now they wouldnt know how to help her #this frustrates her a Lot especially since prior to this she was mostly left to figure out how to manage this stuff by herself #she ends up tinkering in private when no one is around since she has a lot of ideas and wants to try making them #one of her biggest goals is to find a way to fly or glide without jetpacks since she's convinced she could find a way to #if she can be knocked off her feet by a light breeze then she can totally find a way to stay in the air longer shes sure of it #in the meantime the rest of the critter squad are trying to convince liam to not eat sand because itll just make his sensitive tummy worse #he knows this conceptually but his heart tells him that he ate a meal and started to feel sick so its clearly poisoned and the cook is #sick or trying to poison him and hes going to die if he keeps eating food from the fridge and so he must eat sand #unfortunately this is a fairly common anxiety of his since his stomach rly can only half handle anything ever #I imagine he and ada have a complicated relationship as while they do get along one of them has violent anxiety and the other is fragile as #hell but hates being babied so ada often avoids liam to his dismay

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celestialmancer · 9 months ago

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#having to put up an argument w parents just to be allowed more freedom bc of them being overly sheltering & restrictive of where i go is.#its so exhausting that i literally am not allowed to go anywhere w/o them hovering over me or so on #not even allowed to go for walks solo in my own apartment complex at any time of day because they’re THAT overly sheltering #legit if i wanna go for a walk i HAVE to go w one of my own parents yet sometimes i LITERALLY WANNA GET A W A Y FROM THEM #WHICH IS THE POINT OF THE WALK. GET AWAY FROM THEM & THE HOUSE & YET. THEY FORCE ME TO HAVE TO WALK W ONE OF EM. or worse both.#im glad that the circumstances left it to where they HAVE no choice & HAVE to let me go w whatever is ‘more favorable’ for them except it #isnt favorable at all for em its just ‘which freedom would we rather allow you to have’#but neither option is one they wanna give me i can tell. just a matter of which they let me have.#imagine constantly anytime you wanna go out w/o em somewhere your parents whip out a whole ass talk abt how there’s robberies/crime/danger #& how its too dangerous to go out & do x or y thing #i literally cant even go walk in my own neighborhood w/o that kinda immediate commentary or them bringing up just #the most recent crimes that happened to enforce this whole reasoning why i shouldnt be allowed out #even tho im. what. fucking 27??? sucks that i have chronic illness bc ik thats what gives em so much leverage over me #not even gonna comment abt them using my disabilities against me as a way to keep me hostage #i will call it keeping me hostage bc they’ve never let me have freedom at all #even when i was in uni on campus i was expected to contact em constantly & them expecting i go home v often & shit & since im kinda.#@ their mercy a lot it was not much of a say i had in the matter esp bc i came down w health issues around then so? yeah #i wont get too much further into this bc i can say. a lot abt how obsessively overprotective they are but.#regardless.#ishtar rambles ;#ngl its this reason along w other shit thats why im afraid of what’ll happen once i FINALLY have the funds & resources to move out #which i can! also get into that!#but. another topic another time.#not even also gonna get into their backhanded ‘yknow what let them do what they want #’let them go & learn their lesson’ like excuse me???#they want me to have a bad exp so they can say ‘i told you so’ ik it. i know this bc theyve done it before #& then used it as justification to tighten the leash on me

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apocalypticseagull · 1 year ago

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As she should Billy is a lucky guy (and maybe he can find another guy to admire besides jay)

ransom (pt 2) ☆ jay halstead

summary: in which y/n is rescued and jay has something to say.

warnings: language, guns, mentions of injury

a/n: I’m actually incredibly proud of this lmaooo. I love writing more light hearted pieces and am so happy so many of you loved the first part. many people requested a part two and hope you enjoy this also! - love emie <3

PART ONE

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#of course we are the ones who call when its a life and death situation #like hi taco bell? im hungry can i get some food before i get shot #thanks deliver it closeby at some non deceript building with a very non shady car parked infront of it with very non suspicious stains #on the pavement #my guy youve been without her for what? a day or smth? dont be dramatic 😭 go save her ass #the kidnappers are either on the verge of just returning her out of annoyance or are growing fond of her and are like lets keep her #JAY SHES BEEN MISSING FOR FIVE HOURS STOP YOUR DRAMATIC ASS ACTIONS #no everyone wants to shoot her but then again thats sadly a felony #the leader is frantically going like SIR?? Why didnt you say shes horrible can we pLEASE GET RID OF HER #FIVE DAYS #Oh- i take back what i said jay #not really #theyre all like why do i have to do this #how do you remember all the ppl tho i barely remember what i had for dinner last night #kardashians shouldnt be missed thats illegal (i havent watched a single episode)#imo one of the worse things is the birth control issue like my guys unless you want me to die or kill one of you for distraction #give me the birth control #HEY if you get complimented on your ass thats a great compliment how dare he #even if humming would still be hearable just make them go insane by humming all day #mh at least they have eyes #throw in some queer guards tho spice shit up #i mean i dont blame mister 'who is he?' for listening #if you have nothing better to do at least listen (i thjnk im running out of tags)#baby face is an awesome guy tbh he probably just got dragged in #also considerate mans even offered her a cig #💀 mans only now thought up knocking her out lmao. feel sorry for babyface tho hes good and terry is a dumbass #poor billy tbh he needs some better friends and some money but hes a good guy.. i need to see them become besties ngl #TELL THEM ABOUT BILLY #BILLY BEING BESTIES YES #billy is like girl if he wasnt yours id date him

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schrodingers-hoarding-problem · 1 year ago

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someone i follow liking a post that has them/their corner of my following list in mind and realizing that i am perceived is truly a wonder

#also help how do i tell a mutual i want to be friends with them without being weird #i need to save the weird for after at least the first hello #and even worse?! how tf do i get people i follow but not mutuals with (tho they've reblogged some of my posts) to be my friend??#jae’s thoughts

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sketchtastrophee · 8 days ago

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more old art!! featuring theo and my human harley fan design!! RUN THEODORE RUN (he's cooked)

im gonna talk about chapter 4 under here so only click if ur ok with spoilers! also its a huge yapfest. like HUUGE. i just want to voice my opinions about prototype because i've seen ppl sort of miss the point of what happened at the end of the chapter

I LOVED CHAPTER 4! IT WAS SO COOL!! i was sooo worried but im glad it turned out good. rip pianosaurus tho..

tldr (for the bunch of paragraphs where I talk abt prototype)

prototype being ollie is deranged because it means he was terrorizing the toys of safe haven on purpose for the fun of it when he could have killed them at any time. he also created an extremely close emotional bond with poppy for OVER A DECADE just to tear it all away from her at the end and tell her it was meaningless (he then proceeds to taunt her over the phone abt it). bro is LITERALLY TROLLING

you cant tell me that final scene w the "ive got something special in mind. i prepared it just for you, and this time you'll never want to leave." isnt some tom and jerry shit

ABT PROTOTYPE REVEALING HIMSELF AS OLLIE... (the long explanation)

we ALL knew he was ollie, but i don't think people are seeing the point of this reveal. it wasn't about revealing himself to us the player, it's about the implications that arise from it. he had been playing both sides for 10+ YEARS. that's deranged enough but not even CLOSE to the end of it

as ollie he had emotionally supported poppy in her lowest moments (as heard in the ollie and poppy tape). this tape also insinuates that (at least around the time it was recorded) the two of them called frequently, possibly every night. he wasn't just pretending to be everyone's ally, he was PRETENDING TO BE THEIR CLOSEST FRIEND THAT THEY COULD VENT TO 😭 he heard this poor girl sob into the phone and tell him about how she felt her humanity being taken from her, AND HE KEPT UP THE CHARADE AND COMFORTED HER, KNOWING THIS PATH HAD BAD INTENTIONS

what's worse than all of that, though, is that him being ollie means that at any time in the last 10 years he could have used the persona to force his way into safe haven. AT ANY TIME HE COULD HAVE KILLED THEM ALL. HE COULD SIMPLY USE THE OLLIE VOICE AND ASK THEM TO OPEN THE DOOR. why is this worse, you ask? because HE WAS LITERALLY TERRORIZING THEM ON PURPOSE.

think about the note in the cart/cave area. a toy from safe haven writes that prototype was right outside the door the night before, he'd gotten past the traps and was just tapping on the wall and staring. they said after he was gone they still felt they could hear it. HE IS LITERALLY BEING SCARY ON PURPOSE???? LEGIT TRAUMATIZING THEM AND FOR NO REASON. HE COULD GET IN THERE, HE'S SIMPLY CHOOSING TO MAKE THEIR LIVES HELL

so thats crazy.. BUT ALSO THE ENDING? in the poppy and ollie tape he says "im right here, poppy. for you. i'll always be here." AND AT THE END OF THE GAME, WHEN POPPY ASKS WHAT HE DID WITH OLLIE, HE SAYS THAT. you know what that means? that means he said that shit to her ALL THE TIME. clearly only the two of them would be familiar with the phrase which is why after he said it, she immediately knew he was ollie the whole time

i feel bad for poppy. she ran off but she was valid for that. all her friends from safe haven are dead, the only ones left are the player, kissy and ollie, but she soon realizes that ollie is WORSE than dead. he is LITERALLY HER ENEMY. the thousands of conversations they had, probably hundreds of times she vented and told him her plans and discussed her life with him? ALL FOR NOTHING. any time she thought she was winning the past 10 years was a lie, she was ALWAYS LOSING because he was GETTING ALL THE INFO FROM THEM. she genuinely never had a chance and i think she realized that

in her dialogue you can tell she's grieving ollie (obviously he IS prototype, but i think she's grieving the thought of him). saying "you lied to me" to the prototype of all people is absurd (considering he's done far worse than lie) but when you think about how she feels, it makes sense.

also the part where she said "this isn't right". again, a weird thing to say to him of all people, but if you put yourself in her shoes she's grieving the friend she thought she had, and she's struggling to grapple with the fact that it all meant nothing. somewhere in her mind she believes "ollie" as a personality is there somewhere, because how could someone be that close with you and mean none of it? she thinks that voicing this pain he's inflicted will change his mind, but it won't. and that's why it's genuinely really sad. that's why she asks if there was ever an ollie. i don't think she meant it literally, and i don't think his answer was literal either. she didn't mean "were you a mf named ollie once" she meant it like "was our friendship ever genuine?" which makes his response both heartbreaking and interesting.

so not only is her world shattered now, most of her friends are dead and the one who wasn't turned out to be her opp, but now he's TAUNTING HER OVER THE PHONE AND THREATENING HER. nice one... (loved the quip after she ran off btw. that shit was hilarious. like bro u made her crash out and went "some friend, huh?" YOU CANT SAY THAT BRO)

anyway think of it from her perspective: everyone you knew is gone, and soon the only 2 people that remain will be too. you can't run, or hide, or do anything. he WILL find you, and when he does he'll lock you away FOREVER where NOBODY WILL BE LEFT TO SAVE YOU. I WOULD RUN TOO.............. plus her running off probably led him away so.. she saved us sorta.

ALL THAT TO SAY THAT I REALLY LIKE THE OLLIE REVEAL FOR REASONS FAR BEYOND A SIMPLE TWIST. him being ollie for over a decade raises many many questions, and suggests very dark things.

hes crazy and the fact he did a monologue means he knows he won. he wouldn't have spilled the beans otherwise...

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kindestofkings · 10 months ago

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espresso

lando norris x reader

dets: an international pop star and a f1 driver could never be secretly dating right? right?

authors note: this is kinda chaotic but its been still in my drafts since that damn espresso song came out, how is it so good?

faceclaim: sabrina carpenter

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