#but also being autistic makes it SO FUCKING HARD
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agere bakugou katsuki headcanons !!
— requested by @v4mpiirew1tch —
— cw: trauma and swearing —
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💥 - usually regresses to be about four years old since that’s when his quirk came in, but katsuki has a massive range of ages that he fluctuates between with a lot of overlap in behaviors. like sometimes he’ll be in an older headspace but still need a pacifier to self-sooth or he’ll be in a younger headspace and still wanting to engage with his older interests (I also love the headcanon people have where he pretends to be older than he is!! Chefs kiss to whoever came up with that one). if we’re being honest, he’s likely on the scale of being a perma-regressor but he can barely handle the fact that he regresses at all so no one really brings that up.
💥 - very prone to tantrums and meltdowns. his nervous system is chronically dysregulated and he really struggles getting a handle on his emotions. he’s either feeling things too strongly or not strongly enough and the former usually occurs in tandem with his rocky headspace. he tries really hard to be good but he just struggles when he’s on his own and it’s really helpful to have a caregiver sitting with him and helping him regulate. more often than not, it helps for him to physically move (running, breaking things, ect) so sometimes his caregivers just send him off to break down boxes or run around a training field or whatever other busy work they can give him that gets out his energy. when he’s alone and upset, however, he just shuts himself away in his room and rocks back and forth in the dark until all the bad feelings go away (autistic bakugou my beloved <3).
💥 - he likes learning when he’s small!! his favorite activity is any kind of early language assignment meant for young kids because it helps him feel young while also being productive use of his time. he gets antsy if he’s too bored, though, so he has to constantly be switching what types of work sheets he’s doing or even what subject it is. he also likes those educational kids cartoons but he’s banned from watching any that ask the audience for answers (think like dora the explorer) because he’d get too rowdy with it. there is only so many times you can hear a toddler yelling “FUCK YEAH” from the living room because they knew the answer to a basic math question.
💥 - he hates wearing his hearing aids when he’s small because it can be overwhelming and overstimulating (whereas he refuses not to wear them when he’s feeling older because he hates feeling different or like he’s missing something). when he’s especially young, he’ll do baby babble in sign language which sometimes turns to babble signing basic words for what he wants and you just have to hope you understand him. if you don’t, he WILL cry about it.
💥 - aizawa has a sticker chart for his behavior, particularly in the classroom, where he gets to pick the stickers when he’s good and aizawa picks the stickers when he’s misbehaving. it sounds low stakes but aizawa has ZERO sympathy for little boys that break the rules and consistently uses terrible bootleg all might stickers that irritate katsuki in how ugly and inaccurate they are. katsuki is extremely competitive and there is nothing he won’t do to win against aizawa and have a chart full of REAL and AUTHENTIC all might stickers. he’d rather riot against the school than allow for such a travesty. in general, katsuki makes it his life’s mission to make aizawa’s life hell (but in the most baby-fied way possible) and aizawa matches that energy every single time. everyone finds aizawa’s beef with a baby very funny and aizawa mostly puts up with it because he likes knowing that katsuki trusts him enough to misbehave like an actual child after years of perfectionism and volatility.
💥 - he really likes bears and tigers. that’s it. that’s the tweet. he has teddy bears and tiger plushies and he loves when you point out that his black and orange color scheme is similar to a tiger’s. he WILL get pissed if someone says that lions are the king of the jungle because it’s actually the tiger. he isn’t big on pet names but he doesn’t mind being called cub or bear specifically because of how much he likes tigers and bears. except koala bears— he hates those.
💥 - a lot of his regression is trauma related and he usually slides down to his younger ages when he’s triggered. he has a lot of nightmares too so he often wakes up crying and feeling really small. there’s an open door policy for any of his caregivers (I usually imagine aizawa, midoriya, or kirishima) that lets him waddle into any of their rooms to snuggle up with them if he’s having a particularly bad night. in general, he has a couple code words that he can text people (assuming he isn’t actively melting down) for when he’s regressing and needs help.
#I have more angsty headcanons but they involve his mom so 🫡 perhaps I’ll do another post#my post#my headcanons#agere#mha#mha agere#age regression#agere headcanons#agere fandom#agere community#my hero academia#mha bakugou#bakugou katsuki#bnha bakugou
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🔒 i have recovered into this body by everythingispoetry
🔒 i have recovered into this body
by everythingispoetry
T, 5k, Wangxian
Summary: The last thing Wei Ying expects to see when she scrolls up on a reel is to see Lan Zhan. She clicks on the icon to lead her to Lan Zhan's instagram page: first thing she notices there is that there are a couple hundred posts, apparently, and a good few hundred thousand followers. She drags her eyes over the familiar-but-oh-so-new face and scans the bio, which has four lines: writer musician rabbit mama ED recovery Kay's comments: This story deals with ED and ED recovery, so be careful when reading if that's something that might affect you. I really enjoyed how Wei Ying (and we, through her) rediscovered and reuinited with Lan Zhan through social media in this story, how Wei Ying learned of sides from Lan Zhan she could have never even imagined and I'm also so glad for Lan Zhan, for making the recovery and for living her life happily now. Very soft story despite the heavy subject. Excerpt: this was when I made my first friend. I was 22. That's – that's frankly a little heartbreaking. It's clear Lan Zhan couldn't really confide in her family, but to think she did not even have a single person who would be there for her? Wei Ying has gone through some really rough patches, and if she hadn't had her sister and Mianmian and Wen Qing and the sweetest human Wen Ning around her, who knows how it would have ended. Also, she suddenly feels a stupid wave of angry jealousy which he deliberately pushes away because, what the fuck, brain. The thing is. She tried befriending Lan Zhan when she first started Academy. Everyone told her it's pointless and she's silly for trying, but Wei Ying was too stubborn to listen, until she was rejected so many times that she did give up. Of course she had no idea Lan Zhan was struggling: it really seemed perfect on the outside. Beautiful, painfully smart, musical genius. The perfect daughter, star of the Academy, who just didn't have time for regular humans. Wei Ying remembers being angr at her, but she was just a clueless teenager and Lan Zhan was just a clueless teenager, too, suffering terribly from something no-one ever should. Of course there was no way for any friendship to exist. That doesn't mean she can't regret it, right?
pov wei wuxian, modern setting, modern no powers, eating disorders, recovery, reunions, pre-relationship, social media, female wei wuxian, female lan wangji, autistic lan wangji, chance meetings, getting to know each other
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#February 2025#Wangxian Fic Recs#mdzs#MDZS#Mo Dao Zu Shi#CQL#Chenqingling#The Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation#The Untamed#i have recovered into this body#everythingispoetry#teen#short fic <15k#pov wei wuxian#modern setting#modern no powers#eating disorders#recovery#reunions#pre-relationship#social media#female wei wuxian#female lan wangji#autistic lan wangji#chance meetings#getting to know each other
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I fucking hate how food obsessed society is
Like can we not have a celebration of any sort without food being the most important part??
#alex.txt#I don’t think this is just a me problem either!#but also being autistic makes it SO FUCKING HARD#everyone’s like ‘oh we closed the last quarter? let’s celebrate by going to a restaurant and having a meal’#like ok but do I have to come too?#‘oh you don’t have to get anything but we want you there!’#great. super cool. there’s not a single thing on that fucking menu I would eat and I fucking HATE asking for modifications#and if I don’t order everyone’s like ‘really?? nothing?? but the food is so good! have you tried this? or this is simple#try this! or that!’ and I’d love to say please just leave me alone but fuck dude it’s so awful to be in this damned position#I don’t go and that’s rude#I go and don’t order anything and that’s rude and everyone thinks I’m fucking crazy#I go and order something as plain as possible and same damn thing#there’s no fucking winning#I hate all of this and there’s no way out and it feels fucking humiliating#it doesn’t even really matter what the others do or don’t think it still fucking feels bad#wish I could just fade from minds for a few hours#cast modify memory and just make them think I went and it was fine#SOMETHING#but no I’m just stuck in a terrible awful position with no way out or around it#it’s possible for it to be like tolerable ish but never actually ok let alone good#fuck
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My roommate did, in fact, quit her job
#I am living with a caricature of a person oh my fucking god#she has apparently now decided against driving across the country to live in la with no plan and no savings#but still has not found anywhere to live in town despite our lease being up in less than two months now….. I don’t think she’s even looking#SUPPOSEDLY she’s starting a new job but she has not been working for like a month 😭#girl I hope you know that I am NOT letting you skimp on bills you WILL be paying your fucking share#also apparently her new job is some job working with autistic kids which genuinely makes me cringe so hard#those poor fucking kids#given the way she has reacted to and treated any of MY autistic traits…..#this girl should NOT be allowed around autistic children esp not in whatever fucking program this is#(which from what it sounds like is already not a very good one)#it’s like every day she somehow finds new ways to make me dislike her more#she also keeps trying to give me ‘life advice’ which is already a laughable concept considering her….. everything#but most of it she should know is not even applicable to me if she had EVER listened to a single thing out of my mouth#regarding my life past interests goals current situation etc#I am literally living with a fucking clown#no that’s too generous clowns are ridiculous but fundamentally not very harmful#this bitch is basically just a slowly unraveling disaster for anyone who has to be involved with her in any kind of serious capacity 😭#oh she also tried telling me I should ‘give being manic a try’ because it’s ‘actually a really good thing’#do….. what. huh. EXCUSE ME??????#first of all I have watched mania and manic episodes literally ruin people’s lives#also YOU CANT JUST MAKE YOURSELF MANIC???????#WHAT ARE YOU FUCKING TALKING ABOUTTTTTTTT 😭😭😭😭😭😭#kaz rambles
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"just give them an aac device!"
"just teach them sign language"
"body language and facial expressions alone are good enough for communicating what you need"
Nonononono f*!k off. Stop acting like nonverbal people have easy solutions to their lack of verbality. Not everyone can use an aac device- some people struggle with spelling or can't spell at all, some people have motor skills issues that makes typing a nightmare that takes a long time, some can't articulate themselves without outside help. Learning sign is hard if you again have motor skills issues or struggle to make facial expressions that convey what your feeling (flat affect applies to more than just a person's voice- some people really struggle to make facial expressions and have stilted or strange body language- you people can understand why autistic people get burnt out from masking all day- you know often having to control their body language and make certain facial expressions etc yet you can't understand why nonverbal autistics can't just learn sign- a language very heavy on facial expressions and expressive body language?) also again spelling and motor skill issues are a pain and also a lot of families with deaf or nonverbal children refuse to learn sign for said children and I'm sorry in day to day life I haven't met many people who speak sign- yeah you can move to a community with a lot of deaf or nonverbal people that use sign but that's not always possible and its very limiting. And do I even have to explain the third one- autistic body language is confusing to neurotypicals and I hate the stereotype that its just so blunt and obvious/better than neurotypical communication- maybe that's what its like for you and your 'smart sheldon cooper/Wednesday Addams' style autism but not every autistic person 'says exactly what they mean' often times autistic people struggle with semantics and articulating sentences that make any sense! and all these misunderstandings surrounding stimming are annoying to!- spinning can be a 'happy' stim but it can also mean your overwhelmed or understimulated, a lot of people with autism have voices that lack inflections, mix that in with being unable to use words and no it does not help communicate their needs- f!*k off with acting like its easy not all autistic people who are nonverbal can spell, not all autistic people w are nonverbal have good motor skills and body language alone is never enough to convey a persons needs. Before anyone comes after me yes Sign is body language but its also actual symbols and can convey full thoughts and ideas and sentences and also body language is hard for a lot of autistic people to convey like stated above.
Not every form autistic communication is being 'logical' and unoffended because 'we're just more logical than those superfluous, shallow neurotypicals that let their feelings control them and are never direct about what they want-we value facts and logic unlike those butthurt neurotypicals' and being overly blunt- no a lot of autistic people find that communication is messy and the ways they can communicate are ineffective and your 'logical, facts dont care about your feelings' style of communication isn't as amazing as you think it is. Stop speaking over nonverbal autistics- their is no real perfect solution to them not being able to speak. And I'm gonna say it- while not all nonverbal people are low functioning or high support needs or whatever the new term is-being nonverbal is a massive disadvantage and having your disability be visible like that is scary in many situations and being unable to communicate your needs can make it impossible to meet your needs-
#ableism#nonverbal#autism spectrum disorder#autism#asd#actually autistic#actuallyautistic#autism is a disability#autism issues#I'm verbal but as a child I wasn't and I am so happy that I can speak now because damn the shit people who need to use alternative-#Communication go through is fucking ridiculous#accessibility#Isn't always as accessible as you think#Part of the reason I don't interact with other autistic people is because of shitty attitudes like this#We need to stop acting like autistic communication is logical and blunt all the time a lot of the time we don't make any sense#Out ways (and I mean ways cuz there are multiple types of autistic communication) aren't inherently superior your just assholes#Even as a verbal person unless I've really studied a person communicating with them in a way that makes any lick of sense to anyone is hard#It's not just brutal honesty! Stringing together sentences is hard. Also brutal honesty isn't the cool strength you think it is#language processing#Is hard for people#Autism communication isn't just brutal honesty and being 'rational' its dangerous stims and poorly strung sentences and so many other thing#Also when someone is hurt by your brutal honesty they aren't always being overly sensitive and 'illogical'#Sometimes your being a bitch and the person you where being 'blunt with' has every right to be mad at your tactless#And again there's more to autistic communication than being 'a pure logical being's#Idk where this idea we're all super logical and superior comes from#I might come off as emotionless and dry to a lot of people but like my emotional regulation is shit#I am not logical and a lot of other autistic people aren't logical
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alhaitham is such a lying liar who lies dude. acting like he and the sumeru boys gang have always been besties since forever. "that's how it's always been with the four of us" - man who has barely spoken to most of these people before he decided to team up with them to overthrow the government and regularly skips social gatherings with them. yeah right buddy ok
#explicitly said that he's barely spoken to cyno before when they clash in the archon quest#will literally just skip or show up late when they do meet up#very notably had a huge falling out with kaveh that ended with them not speaking for years#does he even talk to tighnari?? like one on one???? do they hang out????#i stg kaveh and tighnari are the glue holding the whole situation together#the other 2 are just off to the side being autistic#well cyno actually tries to be social alhaitham doesnt give a fuck lmao#alhaitham after speaking to people that do not annoy him about once a month: 'hmm. i love my best friends'#he adopted a status quo and now simply pretends there has never been a different one#hes so fucking funny#genshin fans who try to make him some kind of big dick sexyman you are so wrong hes a silly goofy clown to me#on a more serious note i do actually much prefer the interpretation of this being a friendship they formed as adults#and everyone involved has different levels of closeness with each other#rather than making them all mutual best friends with each other (even since school sometimes). i think thats a lot more interesting#and canon is weirdly ambiguous about it so shrug#like the current friend groups as it is seems to be a relatively recent formation based on canon bits but then the writers lean into it#so hard as their Thing its a bit odd. but also fun to play with. they dont need to have always been friends to be close
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im actually really worried that im not that interested in &j anymore like ivd been having a hard time writing about it and talking about it online and i mean i talk about it a lot irl but idk like people have been knowing more than me and im starting to feel so incredibly inferior that it's hard for me to enjoy it
#im in this group chaf and im the only one there that doesnt live in new york snf doesnt know any og them irl and theyall know more and see#it a lot and know about the swing order and i dont and ive been feeling so bad about it and it's been so hard for me and then i have friends#that are clearlv better at fandom in general than me so theyre better at characterisation so if i get criticisrd i just feel Terrible and i#havent properly wtitten in ages caude ive been so worried about my characterisation cause a friend very gently criticised me on my character#isation like 2 months ago and i really look up to this person so now i just cant Do anything#and also the thing that they eere pointing out wad more anothrr friend's thing that i didn't even Like much but if someone talks enough i#can be persuaded to anything and also because im just terrified do i#'ll go along with literally anything just because i dont want poeple to hate me#and it's ruining my enjoyment and i mean i made an au and i was hoping that that would make it so that i could maybe write again but nobody#carrd so now i judt cant#i feel so broken right now#also people that were meant to be &j friends are now friend friends and i mean thats Fine#but i cant! handle it!!!#i cant talk about other things unless it's My other things#and i especially cant talk about five nights at freddy's because i used to be hyperfixated on that so now that im.not i just cant! talk abou#t it! or hear about it!!!#not to mention that that game fucking destroyed my life when i was 9 because everyone liked it but i didn't know what it eas anf they wouldn#t explain so now i judt CANT hear about it!!!!!!#i cant do it i cant. do this#i miss when it brought me so much joy but now i hate talking about it online and i cant do it anymore#i can't pretend to care i can't keep being an &j blog even though i do love it!!!! but i feel so insecure and inferior that i just cant!!!!!#i hate this so mcuh im sorry i needrd to get this out#i dont have anything interesting to say anymore and i mean there's also just like. the whole being autistic thing and not wanting peopel to#judge me for my interests which they have my whole life and now it's too much and i cant care this much anymore. i just can't#i dont have anything to contribute either i cant draw and i can't write anymore and i just dont know what to do#sorry
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what drugs did they put in sonic that attracts autistic people cos oh my god this shit has taken over my life in the span of a week how did they DO THAT
#like i can feel it deeper in my core than regular hyperfixations#this has put its roots in my brain like its gonna be around for a fucking while i can tell#WHAT IS IT WITH TRAINS AND SONIC THAT HITS THE AUTISTIC POPULATION SO HARD. IS IT THE FAST? THE GOTTA GO FAST?#guys this is bad it took like actually 2 seconds of shadow being on the screen for me to be like yeah thats my baby forever#thats my little guy HES SUCH A LITTLE GUY HAVE YOU SEEEN HIMMMM#i dont usually get cuteness aggression for anything fictional but holy FUCK#you do NOT understand how fast i rinsed the ao3 'shadow the hedgehog & maddie' tag so i could vicariously hug him through maddie like#YOU DONT GET IT#anywhat thats where i've been guys. also jealousy fucks me up bad and seeing stays be able to touch hyunjins hair made me need a break. /hj#very literal half joking. like im exactly 50% joking i could teeter either way at a moments notice. anyway im fine#been busy consuming 24 years of shadow fan content#sapphicminho says things#not skz#IM NOT DONE. im just in awe at how they managed to make a character so badass and cool but so baby like#hes unironically cool as HELL#but then u look at him and its like holyshit. maria girl i get it i'd adopt him as a little bro on sight as well#anyway prior to last week all i knew abt sonic was the VAGUE memories from playing unleashed when i was like 10 and the snapcube fandubs#penny parker ily best streamer. one of the like 2 streamers i gaf about
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being just Slightly 'more' autistic than the average tumblr user is fucking hard actually
#i constantly feel like i'm sitting Just outside the circle of understanding in any situation i'm in#and on tumblr it's easier bc most of us are autistic#but everyone seems to be pretty 'high functioning' too#to the point everyone has an expectation of understanding amongst their followers and mutuals even when they maybe shouldn't#so the fact i don't understand things everyone else does#or don't understand certain etiquettes that everyone else does makes being on this website (or anywhere in the world) super fucking hard#this is also why i don't talk to people very often; i'm either rejected and not responded to outright or i will be eventually#bc i'll say something stupid that i don't realize is not polite to say bc in other places it's fine to say or something similar#i don't try to be this way (not understanding the boundaries of others)...it just happens and idk how to improve upon it#i feel like i'm already doing my very best in that regard#but it's obviously still not good enough bc i keep fucking up#(also i hate the terms 'high functioning' and 'more autistic' which is why they're in quotations#bc i just didn't have a better term to use that equally got my point across)#txt
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Haha Yaaay 🧍 <- Guy who just got a text from his mom and the interaction seems to be going well so far but he's worried he's coming off too distant or cordial or is overly correcting that with too many exclamation marks but also like. I'm just saying words. I'm just responding accordingly. I hope this does not become an issue especially given I just straight up haven't spoken to everyone I've not been required to in months. Well,
#man let me invent a persona about it. wrong answer that has been the wrong answer in the past#like she noticed and got upset about that. upset about me being distant in general. also upset#when i over correct to try not to upset at being distant. none of it is genuine it seems.#i'm trying So Hard. and she can tell and that's upsetting. like damn sorry. i guess that would be frustrating.#also like beyond any baggage or minefields. fuck i'm autistic man. if i don't have my personas about the interaction i will die.#like i have to figure out how to be your kid again. it's been a while give me a minute.#thankfully i have a lot of prep time before she makes the rounds to visit. planey off time...#<- friday.#still it is really nice to have that notice. i can actually work with this.#i just hate how i have to speedrun every stage of fear and catastrophizing like every single time LMFAOOOO#whatever... this shit ain't nothing to me..
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tbh i think one of the biggest things they could have done to make five and nine hate each other without bullying or bigotry involved would have been to lean into the thing where some adhdtistics naturally vibe, whereas others have an incompatible combination of nd traits that make them viscerally unable stand each other, and go from there
#lorien legacies#LL number five#LL number nine#like nine is very obviously coded adhd but he is also autistic as hell#and. gestures at five#this is also why canon!nine's brand of lying about things and getting his behavior excused as being 'bad at signals'#when that's Not What's Actually Happening irritates me#they could have even included elements of some of the others being a little too defensive of his behavior at five's expense#without it just being 'lol bully the fat autistic kid'#if they're used to accounting for the fact that nine is neurodivergent and having a Hard Time of It#in ways that make it easy to assume he's just a dickhead when he really genuinely does not realize or understand that's how he comes across#and/or is exhausted and defensive that he has to try constantly and /so hard/ NOT to come across that way#and feels like he's being fucked with when people correct him constantly#because 'that doesn't sound right but i don't know enough about social skills to dispute it'#and is also increasingly bitter at feeling like 'why the fuck should /i/ have to be the one to change everything about how i act'#'why can't people at least try to meet me in the middle for once. fuck this'#all compounded by brain damage from extended solitary confinement and physical TBIs#and it becomes more understandable for the others to kneejerk toward accommodating his access needs before five's when they conflict#while also y'know. being significantly less assholess toward five in general; and in fact treating him a lot less shittily BECAUSE they#have experience with not judging people for initially being awkward and kind of insensitive or seemingly abrasive#or just behaving in ways that seem Weird. it's still a blind spot that they favor nine here but they're not being ableist pieces of shit#nor are they trying to shut him up about abuse and force him to Get Used to It#anyway lots of thoughts about this need to write up posts etc#LL tag#ableism cw#dyn: lost boys
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Wait I think I missed something in this incredible saga. Are you going on a date with the coworker??? I swear the last thing I saw was “no I would never” lmaoooo. If so, I (like the rest of snzblr) are anxious for updates about your love life. You’re one of the top snzblr couples now, enjoy 🤙
I did say I would never and I was a fucking liar apparently 😔 it's not technically a date tho bc I never told him it was bc I need to be so casual and mysterious ahdkaksk but it's a date To Me lmao. It's tomorrow tho bc we're still at work rn and it doesn't look like we're leaving anytime soon so at least I have that to look forward to I guess lmao
#not snz#we're not a couple tho nooooo 😭😭 lmaooo#it's just me being delusional#like he's literally not into me i stg i think y'all are gonna be more disappointed about the outcome than me#OH but he did hug me tho so I'm riding that high rn actually ahskamsk#lowkey have just been leaning against him half the shift but we've been watching videos and stuff together bc it's been slow so#that means nothing probably#also he looks at me like 😒 every time i ask one if my stupid little debate questions ahsakslsl#today was if ceral is a soup and if ketchup is a smoothie#please know that i ask these randomly literally out of nowhere like it's a normal thing to bring up lmaoooo#i have negative flirting skills ahdkaksk#this is the opposite of pulling a bad bitch by being autistic this is making the coworker question why he puts up with me lmaoooo#but he's the one who said yes to dinner so 😌#you know what he's never seen me in a cute little outfit before actually 👀#it's always been either the work uniform or hiking clothes#which to be fair my hiking clothes are kinda cute but they're hiking clothes nonetheless#like he saw me in normal clothes a bit ago but i was actively dying so they were just the most comfortable clothes i could find#so like maybe i can wear a skirt i have cute skirts i like wearing out with my bestie#and they're like. very specific kinds of skirts so maybe that'll tell him something ahskasmks#help why am i thinking so hard about this ahdkalslal#like it's literally actually not even a date it's just me flipping out for no reason while this guy is clueless 😭#like I'm telling y'all he's not into me and i don't understand why I'm being like this about it lmaoo#I'm always like 'fuck i wish my coworkers wouldn't crush on me to the point of asking me out that's awkward i don't date coworkers'#AND THEN I TURNED AROUND AND DID IT MYSELF#why am i like this#why am i so 👀 when he's one of the few people i shouldn't be 👀 at#i swear i should give it a couple months bc maybe I'm just feeling some type of way about him bc i was sick#but noooo i just HAVE to be insane about it now 😭#i should really have a tag for me being a pathetic wreck but idk what it would even be lmao#partner posting
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my best advice to anyone who's still in middle/high school is to make your teachers think you are the nicest sweetest purest little goody two shoes on the planet so that you can get away with breaking rules fairly openly bc your teachers either won't believe it or will view it as a very minor issue since you're the perfect student
#this is how i broke a kids leg and physically injured a teacher twice with 0 repercussions#also make best friends with the snarky english teachers theyll protect you if you can match their repartee#literally just be like im such a perfect sweet little angel who is so so interested in history class#i would NEVER play cards in the empty orchestra room during class with some other kids. never would i break a rule its preposterous#if you have at least one teacher who views you like this theyll go to bat for you if you ever actually get caught :)#also just be autistic as fuck your classmates will hate you but ur teachers will infantilize you into non agency#i almost got suspended for wearing a hat all the time after being told not to then i told one of my favorite teachers#and she told the teacher who kept getting on to me to leave me alone#another year i feel asleep almost every day in biology and my astronomy teacher told him i was having a really hard time (i was)#so he ended up printing out the slides for me every day and asking my table mate to give me his notes when i fell asleep#which was so so sweet of both of them and i really needed that kindness and ill never forget it#but i think a more disruptive kid may not have received the same level of kindness
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cried at work today! i’m now 3/3 for crying at jobs :)
#i just dont fit in#and one guy in particular makes a real effort to exclude me#like straight up ignoring me#if he has a question about what im doing he asks somebody near me what im doing#instead of me#if i greet him he doesnt respond#but he’ll greet someone i’m standing next to#and others are politer but i can still tell they dont like me#i dont get the humour. i cant fit innnnn#im trying to be nice and work hard but i feel like such a burden and an outsider#also one is so touchy with me and kinda flirty and it makes me uncomfortable lol#so uhmm i just feel like everyone is talking about me behind my back and im the biggest fucking joke#and im probably right lol#ALSO excuse me if this is terminally online coded#but it makes me wonder if im autistic. bc i had the same problem at my last job#where i felt like i was being excluded and wondered if it was bc i wasnt picking up on social cues?#like i want people to just tell me to my face whats up#and i need things explained to me plainly#but idk i might also be like self absorbed and stupid. its very possible#sometimes ur just an idiot who didnt socialise enough as a child and now doesnt know how to be normal
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The Bear has one of the best unintentional depictions of autism imo
#hot take#the bear#he’s literally me#Even Carmy’s small manners are autistic coded istg#I related so hard with how he makes friends and especially how he handles romance#like he is super reliable in a professional setting but can’t really stand casual relationships#also it’s good rep bc he’s not seen as perfect#so much autistic rep has the autistic person be always in the right and just no one understands them. but no- he fucks up. he grows.#I also think it balances representing a hyper fixation vs being a genius savant lol
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its actually really refreshing that we have words for autistic behavior now. double edged sword but also i didnt have that growing up and it made life both significantly harder and significantly easier. its really interesting to see how neurodivergency is treated even 10 years ago compared to now and i hope it only gets easier with time to express ourselves with the right language
#actually autistic#its slightly bizzare to see it talked about in school settings now but it makes me feel better#knowing kids arent so alone and cut off these days and are able to use appropriate anguage to express needs and desires#granted i also live in a very rural community and things catch on slower here.#but its bizzare to see the jump from me being stuck into therapy where they didnt know what to do with me -#to nowadays my siblings having support and accommodations#because we just didnt have that when i was in school right? idk man i hope they're not fucking up another generation of kids#having autism only ruined my life because i didnt have adequate support tbh. im glad support is easier to get nowadays#well. sort of. you still have to jump through hoops and the psychiatric landscape is different nowadays too. but ive got hope#support is so hard to get as an autistic adult still and we gotta change that too#autism
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