#bulimia cw

[ed-recovery-affirmations]

i threw away half of my laxatives today. they were expired anyways. but it wasnt as hard as i thought it would be.

i hadnt touched em for years anyways.

I'm so so proud of you, anon! I know it can be hard to get rid of something connected to your eating disorder even if you have been pursuing healing. And I'd like to congratulate you on how long you've gone without abusing laxatives. Great job, keep it up!

[oh-yes-i-did-not]

To be honest, one of the most harmful messages out there is that eating disorders only happen because of weight. Like, I know bulimia is more about control and I guess I’m lucky I got diagnosed in early 2000′s, but if I google it now, I get results that say “control about weight, control over being thin, control about body”

How about control about something, anything in your life?

I was thin when I got bulimia. I wanted control over my LIFE in general and I had not yet had even generalized anxiety disorder diagnosis, let alone Avoidant Personality Disorder, or Autism. I had none of that.

I am now FAT and it has gotten so much easier. Both because I’m fat and have more energy stored in my blubber but mostly because I’ve gotten therapy that ignores my weight and asks questions about my life. Because I’ve never been anxious about my weight and I didn’t get bulimia because of it.

[occult-roommates]

Content warning for discussion of ED and gun violence below the cut. Viewer’s discretion is advised.

The following day, Akva asked Dawud if his “pilot friend” was available soon, you know, the one who was adopted and got attachment issues. She had to wait the next morning for that, but yeah, he had a bit of free time to see her. Just had to meet him at the airport.

Dawud: Ok, so my shift ends in eight hours, but I can try squeezing some time during my lunch break to help you go back home. Akva: Please Dav, I’ve lived in this city my entire life and I’m a grown ass woman, I don’t need help going back home thank you...Like we literally took the subway to make it here it’s not like you were giving me a lift...

Dawud texted Ralf to tell him Akva is here and waiting for him at the main gate, while he left to do his shift. Eventually, she found Ralf and they sat down together.

Ralf: So what did you wanted to see me for? Akva: I am so worried for the baby. I think the dad doesn’t want to put her for adoption, but I also know neither of us can afford a baby. And like, if I just give her to her adoptive family and act as if she never existed it’s of course awful, but if I stay in her life to some degree, she can actually put a face on the person who abandoned her and what if she grows to hate me cause she thinks I hate her too. Ralf: Well, to me the fact you’re still willing to stay in your baby’s life even if you can’t raise her is a big sign you do indeed love her. Akva: Easy for you to think that and be mature about, you’re a middle aged guy, I’m thinking about when she’ll be a teenager who hates everything, and what if she never outgrows that? Ralf: And you think I never was a teenager who hates everything? I really don’t know what to tell you. My situation and the one of your daughter are very different. Akva: My life already got ruined when this fucking asshole shot me in the legs and now it’s even worse. I’ll never recover from that. Ralf: I’m sorry but what???

Since that is...not something you casually drop in a conversation, Akva had some explanation to do. In short, a guy back in high school had a crush on her, and she said yes to date him. When she realized she’s not in love with him, she broke up. He stole his dad’s gun and tried to kill her in a wood. Thankfully he failed, but he did shoot the lower half of her left leg, destroying her running career.

Akva: In the years that followed I was a mess. I would only eat garbage cause it made me feel happy, and never see anyone except my parents and I’d constantly yell at them. The only good side of that is that when I finally got the motivation to start working out again I developped abs and...well let’s say I don’t even have those anymore. Ralf: Oh, I feel you. As a teenager, I would constantly overeat whenever I felt depressed which was...pretty often, but I was also terrified of putting on weight so I would exercize until I felt sick to compensate. Then as soon as I finally moved out of my parents house I no longer felt like I wanted to die all the time so I just...snapped out of it I think?  Akva: ...Sir, that is the textbook definition of bulimia.  Ralf: Oh...Ok...I never really realized that...Well, it’s been almost 30 years, don’t worry about me. It must not have been that bad of a case if I just snapped out of it without any help anyway. I am perfectly fine on all account now. Trust me, if I was still even half as bad than when I was a teenager, I would not be allowed to be a pilot.

Feeling like he had said way too much about his past, Ralf tried to leave, but as soon as he stood up, after he took just one step, Akva stopped him. Cause like, not only she does still work out, but she does so for healthy reasons, not sad disordered ones, so she’s pretty damn strong. Basically it took her no effort to drag his ass back on the bench. However, once he was back, she started crying, feeling overwhelmed by everything and you know, the hormones, which caused Ralf’s Dad Instinct™ to kick in.

Akva: I don’t want my baby to be messed up and and and I’m sorry this all happened to you. Everything about your youth seemed to have been awful. Ralf: Hey, it’s fine. Don’t worry about me ok. If anything, worry about yourself, you seem to have gone through a lot and to still be deeply traumatized. But it’s ok, if I managed to go through absolute hell and still make it to the other side not only alive but also happy and fullfiled, then so can you. And I understand right now it sounds awful and your life doesn’t feel worth living, but you know, one day you’re gonna wake up and you’ll be in your mid-forties and you’ll realize that yes, the worst is really behind you and you’ve managed to survive. That’s the good thing about hitting rock bottom at a young age, you still have your whole life to climb back up. Akva: Th-Thank you sir. Ralf: By the way, you can call me by my first name.

In the end, Akva hugged him, though he couldn’t really tell if that hug was to make him feel better, of if she deeply needed one.

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[maipareshaan]

I have a mildly weird relationship with vomitting, i wouldn't say its on like diagnosis level and also i think the reason it never developed much is bcz i am dehydrated always and so its very hard to do and i live at home so if i do it they are all what happened and they want to watch

[aeipathcy]

11. what’s something that you don’t get to express with your oc often? [ for reanne! ]

MEME┊accepting.

What’s something that you don’t get to express with your oc often?

OOC. tldr, ended up being an unorganized ramble that probably isn't very well organized or cohesive. I lost sight of some ideas as I was typing (big sad).

call out/acknowledge Reanne's bulimic eating habits if muses end up going out to eat somewhere

sibling dynamic conversations/conversations about siblings

idk how to express this but maybe someone noticing something behind the confidence she always has? I don't think muses really see her glaring issues despite how open she is with a lot of troubling things.

I believe I've mentioned this one in the past on random blog posts but I haven't gotten many opportunities for other muses to actually call out how abnormal Reanne's food-related (bulimic) tendencies are or even just acknowledge said abnormality (she still has them, and yes she is very stagnant with her therapy—honestly at this point I believe she stopped going since it wasn't helping, just haven't made it official until this post ig). Like, I can allude to them but they're never the focus of threads outside internal thoughts. I recall there was one muse I was able to kind of touch on that with but that mun decided to cut ties with me out of the blue. I was saddened by it since we had a good, but not so perfect/smooth dynamic building which is prime for exploring not so nice aspects of muses.

Lately, I haven't done anything related to it, but it is still a huge aspect of how Reanne copes with and processes her emotions (eating to chase away anxiety or sorrowful moods, depriving as form of punishment/dealing with guilt, purging out of guilt when she eats too much, freaking out when she weighs herself despite knowing she's supposed to weigh a little more to be healthy, constantly hating her body despite progress, etc.). Despite being better about anger, lashing out, and trauma dumping, Reanne cannot seem to cut the unhealthy eating patterns out of her life. She still carries trauma related to her body and appearance no matter how confident she acts—her outward confidence and almost ideal skinny body shape make it hard to actually see this, especially since Reanne would never step out of her house if she felt less than presentable. And considering she still obsesses over making sure her freckles are never visible, there's obviously still an issue that's unresolved there. I mean, Reanne is a walking contradiction that's hard to explain.

Even though Keith outwardly shows his issues more, Reanne is probably in a much deeper trench than he ever would be as the difference in their support systems is massive—she doesn't have anyone to help her through any of her impulsive binges or get through emotional spikes, and she is much more likely to relapse because of how quickly she turns to binge-purging as a coping mechanism. She cannot forgive her family for everything they've done to her, and she cannot confide in them, making it more than difficult to combat a habit that's been ingrained into her since well before her teenage years. Fashion industry, going out to eat, and clothes shopping are all very large potential triggers depending on her mood. Kinda forgot about this modern verse addition (alcohol cw, binge drinking cw, alcohol poisoning cw) but she also has an alcohol issue (underage drinking + binge drinker). Thankfully, she doesn't drink, and the most she does is threaten people with the cost of a hospital bill if they try to entice her that way.

This also brings me to a second point I don't get to explore. Sibling dynamics. I don't know what it is, but I want more of these conversations. Reanne's story is definitely triggering for people so I understand if others don't want to write anything that steps on the field of landmines that will come up, but this helps explore underlying drives behind how she acts (as all her responses and beliefs all lead back to her sister and upbringing). I've mentioned it before but Reanne does everything in her power to be someone different from her younger sister, Elanor. She is the older one, but at the same time, she feels completely inferior to Elanor. I have a number of posts talking about the contradiction surrounding this entire sibling relationship so I won't go into it here. Err, maybe I don't but I'm not making a new one or anything anytime soon.

Now that I think about it, nobody has seen behind her outward confidence and demeanor or thought to look beyond it (because of how straightforward she is) except for Keith (mainly because of the lore behind modern verse and he's technically known her for two lifetimes already). I find it funny how Keith is the person who tries to pass lies to hide problems and issues but everyone can see through him and acknowledges his issues, but Reanne is the person who openly shares almost everything so clearly yet nobody really bothers to acknowledge the issues and problems she's been blurting out to the world.

[dennisboobs]

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[orangeteawithstevia]

I found it through edtumblr, but I just got to also share this workout. My legs were never thin before, but after using this workout (not super consistently though), I’ve gone down at least 1 size (it might be 2, but there was a period where I refused to size up even though I needed to lmao)

Also want to mention, I’ve got a thigh gap now, after using this workout

[sockmeat]

Hey, Can You do a Alastor x reader who has bulimia? Where Alastor and thé reader are in a relationship, and hé liké, finds out? Only If You feel comfortable tho ♥️

𝐆𝐍 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑 --  𝑨𝒏 𝑺/𝑶 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒃𝒖𝒍𝒊𝒎𝒊𝒂… (𝑯𝒂𝒛𝒃𝒊𝒏 𝑯𝒐𝒕𝒆𝒍)

(𝐰𝐜): 391

𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲: Alastor finds out you have bulimia and helps you cope with it.

(𝐀/𝐍): First time writing something like this, I tried reading up on how to treat it but idk IM NERVOUS

𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠(𝐬): Bulimia, eating disorders, OOC Alastor, DO NOT read if you are not in the right headspace

                                                        𓆩♡𓆪

♡ Alastor suspected it, he had been watching your behavior after noticing how strange it was, but that didn’t make the confession any easier.

♡ Alastor’s love language is food–he absolutely loved making things you would enjoy, making things you haven’t tried yet, making you things when he felt like it, etc.

♡ However, he began to notice how you would eat everything he offered, then suddenly you would get very ill to the point of rarely being able to leave the bathroom, and wouldn’t eat anything he gave you.

♡ Safe to say, he was worried.

♡ He went through trial and error trying to figure out what was happening; he would pay extra attention to your plates and food, making sure there wasn’t any poison, anything raw, or anything you were allergic too, he would watch you and make sure you weren’t eating too much food at once and unintentionally making yourself sick, but nothing he tried worked.

♡ Eventually, he just settled on asking you directly. He could tell immediately it wasn’t something you wanted to talk about–you looked nervous and tried to use every excuse in the book, but Alastor wasn’t letting up.

♡ Finally, you just sighed and told him. You cried your heart out when you told him about your insecurities and why exactly you were getting so sick.

♡ For once, Alastor felt his chest squeeze.

♡ There weren’t any reliable therapists in Hell, so he went out and got as much information as he could on Bulimia. He hadn’t been in a situation like this before, so he had to build his knowledge from the ground up.

♡ He sat you down once again, where he explained that he would support and love you unconditionally no matter what and would do his best to help you in this rough time.

♡ He became a safe space for you to go to when you didn’t feel safe with yourself, he helped you build a better self esteem through encouraging words, helped you see through a different perspective, and would eat with you/share meals with you so you wouldn’t feel as guilty.

♡ Eventually, when you’re more stable and comfortable in your skin but still wanting to lose weight, Alastor will encourage you to use more healthy methods, such as exercise.

♡ Of course, you’ll have slip-ups occasionally, but Alastor will be there for you every time.

                                                        𓆩♡𓆪

[cigarettes-and-black-eyeliner]

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s1 e14 "Control" / s1 e11 "Detox" / s3 e10 "Merry Little Christmas"

[demetriandelibinaryboyfriends]

Chapters: 1/6 Fandom: Cobra Kai (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Underage Relationships: Moon/Yasmine (Cobra Kai), Piper Elswith/Moon, Moon & Yasmine (Cobra Kai), Minor or Background Relationship(s), implied Demetri Alexopoulos/Eli "Hawk" Moskowitz, Samantha Larusso & Moon, Kyler Park & Yasmine, Eli "Hawk" Moskowitz & Moon Characters: Moon (Cobra Kai), Yasmine (Cobra Kai), Piper Elswith, Kyler Park, Brucks (Cobra Kai), Samantha LaRusso, Eli "Hawk" Moskowitz, Demetri Alexopoulos, Original Female Character(s) Additional Tags: Femslash, wlw, Sapphic, Sapphic September, (which I'm just now finding out is a thing so! I guess this counts!), Canon Bisexual Character, POV Female Character, POV Bisexual Character, Closeted Character, Adolescent Sexuality, Song: All Too Well (Taylor Swift), Inspired by All Too Well: The Short Film, Homophobic Language, Ableist Language, Implied/Referenced Homophobia, Internalized Homophobia, Homophobia, Swearing, Lesbophobia, Eating Disorders, Bulimia, (featured more heavily in some chapters than others), (I will go into more detail in chapter notes in case you want to skip those sections!), Underage Drug Use, Recreational Drug Use, References to Drugs, Moon's POV, Bisexual Female Character, Female Protagonist, LGBTQ Female Character, Canon Compliant, It technically is!!! Ain't nothing here you can prove DIDN'T happen!!!, Takes place before S1 and during S1 and S2, Technically some minor Hawk x Moon in later chapters, but tbh I don't think this relationship was emotionally significant enough to Moon, to warrant a ship tag lol, Song: California Gurls (Katy Perry ft. Snoop Dogg), S1 Yasmine in all of her horrible unfiltered glory, S1 Yasmine was NOT a good person and I do my damndest not to pussyfoot around this fact, Moon was not a particularly good person either tbh, BUT can you blame her for falling hard for an evil woman??? Series: Part 1 of Anyone Can Play, But I Will Be The One To Change The Game: A YasMoon Songfic Collection Summary:

And yet, in spite of it all, Moon gave in every time Yasmine wanted an escape. Grabbed the red keychain, looked to the Range Rover in the driveway. Started for the door.

They were out of LA proper in 30 minutes, weaving through vineyards and fields and scrubby woodland. Yasmine talked nonstop—laughing at hideous fashion trends, wondering which celebrity couples broke up, fawning over some new brand of eyeshadow. She said everything except what Moon wanted to hear.

Yasmine was stolen kisses at midnight and interlaced fingers under cafeteria tables and delicate hands tracing Moon’s chest as weed smoke filled the car, but not a single “I love you.”

Nevertheless, Moon always forced a smile and drove on.

There's more to Yasmine and Moon's story than anyone knows.

***

FOLLOWERS, IT IS HERE

AFTER 3+ YEARS OF IMAGINING AND PLANNING AND WRITING, THE FIRST CHAPTER OF MY YASMOON SITUATIONSHIP BACKSTORY FIC IS POSTED AT LAST

I’m so insanely excited to share this with you guys you have no idea. I’m not even exaggerating when I say this feels like (after Nocturnal, anyways) by Cobra Kai fanfiction magnum opus. I’m so proud of this story and what’s coming up. It also informs basically every YasMoon story I’ve written and am going to write, so there’s also that alsduhuhf This is canon across basically all of my YasMoon timelines!

So please, please, please--anyone who likes my writing or is open to these two as a ship at all, check this out!!! I put a lot of work and love into it and I think it paid off 🙏 (I know it’s not Elimetri but I promise I can write the other gays pretty good too aisjldsibhj)

But warnings where they’re needed, of course--this fic WILL go into Yasmine and Moon’s implied eating disorders/bulimia and explore that aspect of their characters in more depth. It really, really pissed me off how S1 used EDs as a one-off joke, so I’m hoping that I can portray them in a more sensitive and respectful light. I wouldn’t recommend this fic to anyone who’s triggered by EDs, but I will specify where exactly they feature in the chapter notes so anyone who wants to check out the fic but skip over those sections can do so.

@blusandbirds @zannolin this is dedicated to you two 🧡🤍🩷 Y’all said you wanted a season’s worth of Yasmine and Moon character studies, AND BY GOD, A SEASON’S WORTH OF YASMINE AND MOON CHARACTER STUDIES I WILL GIVE!!! They are also more significantly and more explicitly gay in this one. I used up every bit of ambiguity I’m willing to give their relationship in FoLaFoS, and now I just have to write them being lesbian all over the place aksjulhdbfhku But in all seriousness, thank you for motivating me to enthusiastically continue with my Yasmine and Moon content!!! Lots and lots more coming because I love these gays so dearly 🏳️‍🌈

@multifandom-lesbian09 @tasteless-lemonade @karatecaulfield @gemini-sensei @elisiassideb1tch I ain’t forget you YasMoon tag list, don’t worry :P

@binaryboyfriendsblog2 I hope you don’t mind me adding you!!! Anyone else who wants to be on the tag list hmu 💛🩷

[watsonjackpot]

+ ( I really think most people don't think about how absolutely fierce Mary Jane can be when it comes to defending those she loves. And I've been hit with two different reminders of it in the past twenty-four hours, so I definitely figured it was time for a bit of showing.

This is Kristy Watson, MJ's cousin . She came to live with Mary Jane and Peter for a while after their wedding . As it turns out, Kristy has bulimia , and had been binging and purging the entire time that she had been living with Peter and Mary Jane, and had managed to keep it a secret, until she outright passed out and Aunt May took her to the hospital, where she was diagnosed. Her parents' reaction wasn't sympathetic by any means . Her mother was outright oblivious, and her father was verbally abusive, much like how Philip Watson had been to Mary Jane herself.

The results above speak for themselves, with MJ eventually becoming Kristy's guardian , for all intents and purposes .

Sensational Spider-Man Annual #1 is one of my favorite books for a lot of reasons . But this is absolutely a tour de force for Mary Jane . With her and Peter on the run from S.H.I.E.L.D., she runs into someone who acted as her bodyguard once upon a time, and is now working for the organization . The entire issue is framed as him trying to talk her into running away with him, as he can 'save' her from Peter and being arrested . And the entire time, Mary Jane absolutely refuses to back down from defending Peter, and refusing to give him up . Even if it means being arrested herself .

The quote below? Absolutely chilling as much as it is outright inspiring. This is a person who knows exactly what can happen, and she would rather face every one of the consequences of such rather than betray someone in her life that she loves deeply.

There's countless other examples I could throw onto here as well, but we have only so much time, and I don't want this going too long.

[remithegayshoebill]

MASSIVE TW EMETO

I just threw up everywhere

i huave bulimaia and a side affect of said buimia is acid refluzx

this time i didnt purge... i swear

itjust kept coming out

over and over

and over again

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i need comfort...

[maipareshaan]

Omg Nick said Orlin had bulimia in his video 6 years ago which he made to address accusations that he has bulimia

[questforgalas]

Constantly reminding myself that healing and recovery are not linear, that they’re filled with rolling highs and steep tumbling downs, and sometimes the downs feel like falling into a cavern that I’m cursed to lay on the floor of for eternity, but even the small act of simply sitting up from the floor is a step up. Standing from the floor is a step up. Stepping towards the wall is a step up. And soon I’ll find the hand holds and the foot holds and will start climbing again. And sometimes during that climb, I might slip. I might fall. But I’ll grab on again and climb again. Little by little. And eventually, in hours, days, weeks, months, or maybe even a year, I’ll reach the flat surface on the other side of that cavern, and pull myself up. And I’ll walk straight for a bit, maybe walk up a hill, maybe stumble here and there. And maybe I’ll meet another cavern in the future, but it’ll be ok. Because just sitting up from the cavern floor is a step up.

[orangeteawithstevia]

I’m done with excuses, this month I am actually going to reach my goals

[gangles-toybox]

CW/TW for mention of eating disorder, specifically bulimia & brief mention of binge eating and starving yourself in realtion to fictional characters!!

In Narcissism we see that Florence had gotten thinner because she didn't binge eat like she normally did when she got depressed. It's likely that she went to the opposite extreme and starved herself.

But I do wonder if that's not necessairly the truth. Maybe Dottie taught her how to purge, since it's implied that Dottie herself has bulimia [the scene where she asks where the bathroom is after saying she's stuffed and pointing a finger to her mouth]. I doubt Dottie would show her this out of genuine malice though, just attempting to genuinely help her because that's what she sees it as, even if it's not right.