#brain blogging

[nikiiwi]

i think asking for historical accuracy from the netflix bridgerton universe is a lot. it's been made clear from the beginning that this is a series inspired by fact, but never attempting to portray it. it's always been a fantasy story and that hasn't changed.

[shoutsindwarvish]

brain: feel shame and guilt!!!

me: but i didn’t do anything wrong???

brain: SHAME

brain: AND

brain: GUILT

[humandisastersquad]

Me: ok I am Gonna get a decent amount of sleep tonight I’m gonna go to bed on time and-

Brain: L + ratio + don’t care + didn’t ask + waking you up at 3am for no reason + night sweats + vivid nightmares + fuck you

[fluentisonus]

i met one of my aunt's archaeologist friends/colleagues earlier today & he was telling me about legends that not too far from here there's the ghosts of a roman legion that people see walking up the cliff towards the edge of the sea and then off the edge of the cliff and onwards, because the coastline has receded so much since roman times that the 'land' they're used to walking on goes on far past the point it falls into the sea today. and like. OUGH. I don't even strictly believe in that type of ghost but I'm Obsessed with this image of them still interacting with landscape that has crumbled into the sea & completely disappeared over the thousands of years since they were alive. ghost landscapes Real

[professionallyunstable]

kinda tired fighting for a life i don’t even want

[zeibee]

[mangosyringe]

so you know how Ford has a moth collection?

[dragonshapedskittles]

It’s been a bit since I’ve actually written something on here because life…but I hope all of you lovely folks have been doing ok and hanging in there the best you can. It’s definitely been a struggle from time to time but here we are…almost at the end of 2023. We made it. Most of us probably don’t know what day it is, but we made it!

As we rapidly approach the holiday season, here are a couple things to please keep in mind.

- not everyone celebrates the holidays, whether it be for personal reasons, religious ones, etc…so please be respectful if not everyone shares the same feelings about the holidays

- calling or showing up at someone’s job and causing a scene ain’t attractive…get yourself together for the sake of everyone’s dwindling sanity

- it is ok to say no! as a matter of fact, it is appreciated because being honest and straightforward is the best thing you can do

- just because folks are blood related does not make them family, and as a matter of fact some of the people I am closest to are not related to me at all

- holidays are not an excuse to get together and bring up unwanted topics such as: weight, sexuality, money/job situations, marriage/kids or lack thereof…ya know, the kind of topics that make people anxious because contrary to popular belief, there actually is a time and place for everything

- don’t go out and buy a bunch of crap you don’t need just because it’s on sale….because do you honestly need another set of dishes? we tend to buy things impulsively (I am an expert here) and regret it later & the older I get the more I am seeing these things

- be kind to any kind of service worker….it’s not their fault you’re having a bad day or waited until the last minute to buy something

STAY SAFE EVERYONE!!!

[urkitty-girl]

my ownership kink is making me go absolutely feral. like pls make sure everyone knows i’m yours. it could be with a bracelet, ring, collar, hickies, bruises, ANYTHING. id gladly show them off. i need need need it pretty please i need them to know i’m yours and yours only

[nikiiwi]

🫠

absolutely tragic that the telegraphed endgame ship for taeoh is not with

a) his enemies to toxic bestie he keeps proclaiming his unflinching devotion to (and has amazing chemistry with),

or even

b) his bestie's younger sister who has been unflinchingly devoted to him almost that entire time and who he is uniquely gentle (and has great chemistry) with,

but rather

c) the girl with a similar home life who is also using his bestie to get ahead and he doesn't seem to have much else in common (or really any chemistry) with.

absolutely torturous that i'm going to witness this to the end. something's got to give. i hope their dynamic becomes interesting at some point because 4 episodes in, i do not care. so far hyewon is most compelling as a tool to make taeoh and inha's relationship more complicated. she doesn't make for a good love interest for either male lead and she's not as interesting as I'd like her to be. I want to see her do something that grabs me. the other 3 steal the show whenever they're on screen.

[shoutsindwarvish]

i had an especially nasty 30+ hour migraine from friday through saturday and then spent yesterday without my adhd meds because i had to ration them since my psychiatrist didn’t submit a new script and then first thing this morning i had therapy that dug into some good stuff but has got me low-key sad

i think i deserve to be on my phone all day tbh, i’ve done enough already

[aitadjcrazytimes]

[professionallyunstable]

“whats wrong with you” - a lot actually

[jealousmartini]

I finally get it

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So I found some subs that have helped me change my beliefs about my imagination and the 3D a lot and come to terms with my many contradictions. Before I listened to them, I thought I was affirming to get my desires in the 3D. So after i had done doing my 1 or 2 hour long "I have my desires" affirmations, not a single day would pass when i would think to myself, "i can't wait for my desires to manifest." I also had the habit of imagining my desires to immediately check if the 3D had changed, so that would always leave me expecting something to happen. And i didn't truly recognise my imagination to be my real reality, like yes I got that "whatever I believe to be true in imagination will manifest physically", but I treated this as just think of something and expect it to appear in the 3D.

After listening to these subs and reading a bunch of blogs explaining manifesting in the 4D and stuff, I finally got it. The point of manifesting is changing myself in reality (imagination), believing I am my new self in reality (imagination), and continuing to live as my new self in reality (imagination) (in other words, persist). After this, there is nothing to expect. There is nothing to wait for because I already have my desires in my reality (imagination).

So why was I "expecting change" when I've already changed in imagination? Well, someone once said that "you must be fine with having the results in imagination. If you are not and you keep expecting something to happen to the physical reality, then you are not actually fulfilled." In my case, if I am affirming to get instead of affirming to remind, then I was not really fulfilled. And if I imagined just to see it in the 3D, then that meant I truly never recognised my imagination as my real reality.

I always understood the phrase "Walk by faith, not by sight." But I never really put it into practice and it showed. But it's okay, because I finally get it now.

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Anyway, here are the 4D / Imagination subs I was talking about

I'm definitely gonna make a follow up post to this cus I kinda cooked with that

[facts-i-just-made-up]

facts about you please

"You Please" is a 1978 novel by Frank Mutterbruder about a hypersexual woman's growing lust for an artist who is only interested in her as a model. The story concerns her attempts to seduce him as they grow more and more outlandish and dangerous. The book's graphic sexuality and implied cannibalism caused it to be banned in several states, though the publisher, Grovemeat Press, appealed and won at the federal level.

Mutterbruder was likely inspired by his older friend, Frankie Powers-Jovani, a famous gay artist known for his Tom-Of-Finland style works depicting men in leather with large, round muscles and other bulging parts. Powers-Jovani had worked with a model, assumed by some to be Bettie Page (though no evidence of this exists) on an unreleased series, said to have been destroyed by either Frankie or the model upon their feud.

The book departs from reality however when its protagonist, Jessica Jellie, creates a love potion to make her artist friend love her back. She mixes the potion wrong and accidentally creates a fluid capable of melting men into a delicious putty. After killing the artist, she begins melting other men and serving the putty as a sort of cake fondant that she sells under the name of "Manzipan."

Frank Mutterbruder died in 1982 when he was himself melted into putty during the Pittsburgh Play-Dough Calamity. His novel has gone largely ignored until recently, when Yorgos Lanthimos optioned it with Emma Stone to play Jessica Jellie and Colin Farrell as artist Yakov Geww.

The original printing of the novel "You Please" also won the Albert A. Gore Award for Most Recyclable Paper, but this is generally considered irrelevant to its literary significance.

[letsventstuff]

This feeling of nothingness is gnawing at my bones again.