#totheoneswhostayupallnight

[totheoneswhostayupallnight]

I feel so out of place

and I don’t really know who I am

and half the time I don’t know how I feel until I feel like I might burst because of what I’m feeling

and I’m so tired

and I wish I never existed

and I wish I could start my life all over again

and I wish I could do everything I want to in this lifetime

and I wish I knew what I want for my future

but I also kinda wish I never existed to begin with.

[totheoneswhostayupallnight]

Funfunfun times..

[totheoneswhostayupallnight]

Whatever, man. What fvcking ever.

[totheoneswhostayupallnight]

I feel empty, but not in the I’m so depressed empty type of way but rather the I feel emptily melancholic. No emotion, just emptiness that can’t be filled with anything.

[totheoneswhostayupallnight]

You hate me? You hate me. I hate me too.

[totheoneswhostayupallnight]

I wish I was normal; I wish I felt like everyone else; I wish I felt my emotions to a normal amount and not like this, like they squash me beneath them

[totheoneswhostayupallnight]

Sometimes I forget what it was like when I was ‘normal’, but then I also remember I never really was ‘normal’. I’ve never fit in and maybe now I never will.

[totheoneswhostayupallnight]

[totheoneswhostayupallnight]

I’m genuinely convinced that I wasn’t made for this world, wasn’t supposed to life in this world

[totheoneswhostayupallnight]

“It gets better, just wait and see” is the biggest lie on this fucking planet

[totheoneswhostayupallnight]

Knock knock

Who’s there?

We’re getting worse again.

[totheoneswhostayupallnight]

How to get rid of the depressive mental slump within a minute to actually get something done no borax no glue

[totheoneswhostayupallnight]

I just wanna crawl into a hole and die.

[totheoneswhostayupallnight]

Honestly I don’t even care anymore if you leave me. Go on and do whatever.

[totheoneswhostayupallnight]

Sorry to everyone I ever snapped at without a reason; I don’t understand myself either 😞

[totheoneswhostayupallnight]

Honestly, what’s so damn incredibly wrong with me to be treated this way?