#bipolar life

[mariposas8494]

Things folks need to know…🫶🏻

[always-me-meha]

I just donno how to escape....

This hell inside my head.

This emptiness.

This desire.

These cravings.

[ovrmymind]

[dokurtybitz2]

23.03.24_12:38

Tweaking out,

My thoughts race about,

Not wanting to settle,

Manic time with all that it brings,

Clamp down tight

As it wiggles out the cracks,

Bury it beneath

THC haze,

Riding out the tide

Through my exhaustion

[subtle-carrot]

Me: My current medication is giving me a sexual dysfunction.

Doctor: Oh, try this one then.

Me, after a week: Well this one makes me miserable.

Doctor: Oh, try this one [that's even more likely to give you a different sexual dysfunction] then.

Me:

Doctor:

[primobamagirl]

Hello, my name is Primobamagirl Dark'ness Dementia Raven Way and I am goffik (prepz FUKK OFF OK?!)

I've been on Tumblr since the ye old days, when people were here as users and not emotional and cultural hostages. Now, I am but one of many with Stockholm Syndrome who return back to the sweet and familiar darkness of The Hellsite (™). I've had about four hundred thousand accounts. I guess this is my four hundred thousand and first.

It started innocently enough, with fandom memes and early-aughts Goth nostalgia, maybe the occasional politico rally cry. But it is a slippery slope and now, deep into my 30's, I have morphed into a chronically ill, semi-misanthropic, mushroom growing, polyandrist psychonaut. I am literally with two men so archetypal of the early Tumblr Sexy Man trope that is it slightly humiliating. I have green hair and patience like rice paper.

Don't say I didn't warn you.

P.S. Always looking for my Behcet's Babies, Arthritic Angels, Bipolar Brethren and Diabitches...I am so Type 1 that I did it twice. Just five more years, right my pancreatically challenged friends?

P.S. Remember, kids, Tumblr is for reblogging and following...use that 'like' button sparingly, or the Tumblr Staff wins! 😘

[gamineimp]

bipolar solidarity 🤍

[six-demon-bag]

[tilila333]

2023 bucket list

I feel really good, for the first time I feel like m powerful, I have so much potential, and I feel really inspired this new year, and not because I'm just manic lmao, life with lithium sure is amazing lmao.

So here's a list of things I wanna try for next year and I wanna share it w who ever may be interested.

learn to knit

read literature by women

get proper knowledge about spirituality so I can use it in a way that makes sense to me ( meditation, affirmations, manifestation, shadow book...etc.)

get a pair of chunky loafers

more pottery

make more paintings and sketches

get a plant and try to keep it alive

get a cute lingerie set

get more in tune w my dark femininity

perfect my Spanish

learn to code

get back to the guitar

give blood

invest in skin care

get stronger and stronger in the gym and gain muscles

go overseas for holiday w besties

not fail any of my classes

redecorate my room

declutter and sell the old stuff

save up for a car

Attend an art gallery opening

be more open to people and life and try small talk

get a press coffee machine

learn music

I'll add something later if I forgot anything or I thought of something new, I'll be also crossing things off as I go. xoxo.

[admiralatthebowofnails]

Sleep: 3/46 hours

Food: Just consumed a slice of pizza. Maybe hungry? Maybe dehydrated? Maybe tired

Physical: Stuffy nose. Awake. Horizontal. Dry, itchy, and greasy. Missing doggy snuggles

Meds: Took first dose of last 3 about an hour ago

Mood: Flat but open

Neurochemical: Starved for serotonin and melatonin. Can no longer remember the taste is dopamine

State: Crashing from maniac episode

Directive: Sleep

Possibility: 96% sleep, 4% fucking around on phone for a few more hours

[always-me-meha]

I'm like commenting away on peoples posts 🫣

I just want people that I relate to is all.

[ovrmymind]

I didn't realize bipolar rage was a thing.

I mean, I did, hahahah

But I thought I made it up.

Don't catch me when I'm raging, it's not pretty.

[dokurtybitz2]

03.11.23_19:19

The quick way

To escape the black pit

Trying to draw me within

Smothering me with ennui,

The lies i tell myself

Knowing they are false,

Still they whisper

The hot, sharp bite offering

Pretend release,

Not today.

[bethbh25]

#Living with mental illness #Bipolar Life #Mental Illness Surviving