#bio nerd traumas

[lilacerull0]

See, the problem with you cheering on your chosen animal in the tags on the animal race polls is that I immediately feel the impulse to vote for one of the OTHER animals.

BUT 🥺 MY ANIMAL IS THE OUTCAST!!!! SHE IS LOSING!!!!!!! SHE'S THE WEIRD GIRL!!!!!! she's clumsy and she's smart................. SHE CAN RELEASE TOXINS!!!! DEADLY FISH!!!!! SMART FISH!!!!!!! FUN FISH!!!!!!!!!! 🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡 🐡🐡🐡LOOK AT MY ANIMAL 🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡 and she has EVIL TEETH (affectionate) she uses to CRUSH shells (her science name origin 🐡🧡tetraodontidae is MY FAMILY)

ALSO HER SENSE OF HUMOR ⤴️

AND THIS FACE SHE MAKES

her emoji power:

MY FAVOURITE PART!!!! (totally didn't edit these myself shhhhhh)

FASHION ICON?????

but it's okay, you don't have to vote for her... just please don't let her be in the middle... i need for her to be THE FIRST or THE FIRST (from the back)

[puzzled-pegasus]

Percy and Paul headcanons because I need something sweet rn

The first time Percy called Paul dad was accidentally and they both looked at each other like 😧 and then paul gave percy a big hug and probably told sally really excitedly later

Paul texts very professionally and in complete sentences like a nerd. "Hello, Percy, I hope you are having a good day. Have you gotten your mom a Christmas gift yet? Also, do you have any ideas for what she might like me to get her? Thanks. 😊"

He goes to all of Percy's basketball games that he can and probably tries to play with him sometiemes idk I think that would be cute if they shot hoops together

This is more canon than headcanon but I feel like we all just collectively forgor that Paul has taken Percy crabbing before 🦀

Also imagine being a step parent and the bio parent is a literal god like how do you deal with that you'd feel so incomparable (although Posiedon is of course kinda deadbeat so oh well Paul wins that one)

Paul helping teach Percy how to drive

Sometimes when Percy asks his mom for help with something she's like "oh honey can you help him I'm busy" but she's actually just sneakily getting them to bond >:)

Omg imagine there being an argument and then Paul comes and apologizes to Percy and Percy with the Gabe trauma is like :000 wtf a grown man apologizing to Me⁉️

I think Percy would talk to Paul abt cars and paul tries to engage but he doesn't actually know that much abt cars lol

[hiskillingjar]

your honor.... i need fem ren headcanons.... i need tiny evil feral foxgirl to save me.....

rounding out the trifecta (quad-fecta?) of girlfailures with the BIGGEST girlfailure

hcs for law, strade and fox. let's gooooo (this got long)

full tumblrina

you know her ass is on every side of tumblr too. she has a fujoshi/himejoshi weeb blog. she's got a fashion blog. she's on ED tumblr and posts traumacore edits. she's got a troubling porn blog. she's the moment!

pansexual she/her, and she does put it in every bio, thank you

lana del rey listener. she's the only one who understands her

a little "not like other girls" misogyny-core but that's only because she's intimidated by other women.

it's a trauma response. cut her some slack (she says whenever she's rightfully called out)

high aesthetic, like ren always is

might have had a bit of an e-girl phase and posted thotty cosplay pictures but got weirded out by gross men making passes at her

she dresses really well and she's small and cute which make people underestimate her a lot

be warned, she has a strap on collection that would make even the most seasoned pervert blush and she WILL use them.

oscillates wildly between total pillow princess or scary intense domtop (it's a trauma thing)

little boobs but full hips. shorter than canon ren but carrying a little more weight (she's a nerd who never leaves her room, her ass is not at the gym)

she doesn't shave (on account of the beastkin thing) but keeps stuff (bush…) trimmed. very neat and tidy and takes foreverrrrr in the bathroom cus of it

has a feminine preference as always, mostly because she'd be too intimidated to top a masc mc (unless they were really meek and mild. she'd go after them like catnip…foxnip)

you know she's got the problematic fauxcest kinks. would be full on "let's play sisters" with a fem mc. absolute girlfreak that she is (derogatory)

watches soooooooo so much porn and has burned out like two cheap hitachi wand dupes from masturbating so much when she's in heat

that's when she'll go pillow princess and just beg someone to fuck her (not like she has many choices though :/)

[wolvies-claws]

hi tumblr!!! i present to you: my Chasity family headcanons!

Plus a little storyline

Feat. Holy Bastard, HaloGear, and my own personal rairpair Holy Detective (Karen/Shapiro)

Mark and Karen are both queer! They both grew up in very homophobic households, and have been best friends since they were little. They started publicly dating in highschool to get people to piss off about them, and when they turned 20 and Mark proposed. They were both out to each other, and out to Ted and Paul, but Ted and Paul had promised not to say anything.

Well, they hit 22-25ish and their parents started pressuring for a kid, and they had both always wanted kids but they knew that they weren't gonna have a kid together sexually, so they adopted Grace when she was around 5-8. She had a LOT of religious trauma through her bio parents, and Mark and Karen did their best to help that, but they were still also religious and Mark was the youth pastor of Hatchetfield First Baptist, so her religious trauma never really went away.

In senior year Grace started to develop a crush on Ruth when she started hanging out with the nerds + Steph more, and she was very, very upset about it. Internal homophobia, yk?

She comes home frustrated and upset about her new crush on Ruth, and bee-lines for her mom's room for some support.. And she finds her mom laying in bed cuddling Shapiro. She gets very upset, both about her mom cheating on her dad, AND the fact that her mom is with a WOMAN. So then she storms to Mark's room and finds Mark with Ted... Totally fuckin' making out.

And to be fair I'd be pretty furious too if I found out about all this in the span of like half an hour.

Well over the next few months, after having quite a few long talks with her parents about what a lavender marriage is, the fact that they're queer, the fact that they support her over liking Ruth, the fact that she even has a crush on Ruth.. She still has some issues with internal homophobia but, she also sort of starts to accept herself and starts dating Ruth :3

My own little note for Shapiro btw is that she was born and raised in Hatchetfield but as soon as she turned 18, she got the fuck out of there and moved to Chicago. She became a detective during that time, like she had wanted to throughout highschool, but she moved back to Hatchetfield after not being able to handle all the cases being thrown at her. Her and Karen met again at Beanie's and started talking, catching up, and Karen invited her on a date. <3

[outcastpack]

TW:potentually abusive parent, medication

I'm spiralling again because I was thinking about Liam and his IED storyline and remembered Liam said he takes Risperidone which in reality is the wrong meds for him to even be taking since that is used for schizophrenia and other things where those with IED are usually prescribed with meds that are used for those with Bipolar disorder like Fluoxetine, Phenytoin, Lithium, Oxcarbazepine, and Carbamazepine.

We should hqve seen Liam in therapy which is something they have those with IED do to realistically do it right and explore it more instead of having us constantly watch him be forced to fight his IED like Scott and Stiles forcing him under the shower to "cool off" during the scene we discovered his IED and from things I've read up on that is not advised for trying to calm down a person with IED when they are having an episode(yeah ok they didn't know about the IED at the time). Also seeing Stiles judging Liam for not taking his meds since it makes him feel drained and tired for Lacrosse when he shouldn't even be on the stuff, they introduced us to his step dad as a doctor so as a doctor why wouldn't he know his step sons being prescribed with meds that will not realistically HELP him.

ALSO looking at some of the potential causes for IED being these

Like we know Liam has a step father in David Geyer, but is the reason Bio dad's not in picture is due to these. Was he abusive to Liam and his mother and lash out causing Liam to develop IED as he grew up due to the trauma of it all. Did bio dad have IED himself and pass it on to Liam as its said it can be hereditary. It would be a cop out in the writers and jeffs part to decide to make the reason for it being Liams male(Also wouldn't surprise me though)

Liams a complex character in the long run and I wish we learned more about him and his family life, even though he really is more than the IED like he's my lil history nerd jock and as much as I love Theo it feels like they should have chose more than JUST him to help him with it in S6 and so on, since going back to S5 Theo is the one to manipulate liams anger and potentially cause one of his biggest episodes when he tried to kill scott(his other id say being the result of Brett and Co's locking him and beating him at the zoo and trashing the coachs car) so at the same time Theo may of been the perfect character to spend a half a season being the one trying to stop Liam giving into the anger and an episode with Nolan etc after manipulating it the season before, it feels like we should of seen Mason, Scott etc trying too in it.

[poly-mc]

Lore dump

CW: Blurred line between IC and OOC under the cut; trauma

My OC, Poly MC, is basically just me. I came up with that, after figuring out that I have feelings for all the brothers in the game Obey Me. This lead me to believe that I'm ambiamorous🦋

For more info on me, you can see my intro🪷

Full name: Fairwish Chanzé Breytenbach

Birthday: 25 February 2002

Age: 22

Gender: A fairy sitting on a leaf, looking over a beach and the ocean, under a starlit nightsky. I am that fairy🧚🏽✨️

My own flavour of non-binary 💛🤍💜🖤

Pronouns: Sea/star

*Please see my intro for a more in-depth explanation on that

How to use: Sea is cooking for starself. Basically, you replace "she" with "sea" and "her" with "star"

Sexuality: Pansexual

Nationality: South African

Race: Mixed (50% Black, 50% White)

Culture: Afrikaans and Zulu

Height: 5'1 (157cm)

Things I like doing: Colouring🧑🏽‍🎨, painting 🎨 video games 🎮(I played A LOT of Nintendo 3Ds as a kid, but now I mostly play Genshin and Sky)🎮, mobile games; 420 (eating and smoking)🍃, jigsaw puzzles🧩, cooking 🧑🏽‍🍳(my parents never tought me how to cook, so now I'm experimenting and teaching myself)🍲, singing🎤 (I guess I'm okay🤷🏽), dancing🕺🏽 (at least I have fun😂), writing poetry✒️

Likes: My boys❤️, my rp kids💖, my Bubba🐱❤️my bio mom🫂❤️, food, music, anime, animals, making people happy, rain, the ocean

Dislikes: My adoptive mom (she's narcissistic), hurting people, pedophiles, bigots, Trump

What I look like/Selfie dump:

I don't take a lot of pictures of myself, because I don't really like the way that I look most of the time😅 Recently, that's been getting a lot better though, since I got top surgery, started showering regularly again and taking better care of my hair. This allowed me to find a look that I really like on myself🤩 These are the only pictures of me that I feel comfortable posting right now, though ☺️😅

I'm an AuDHD-er (autism is self-diagnosed) and am currently recovering from what I suspect is burnout. I'm pretty sure I burnt out during high school. When I was in school, I always had to work harder than everyone else in class, on account of being the slowest. I write slower, make more mistakes and sometimes it takes me longer to process information. A lot of times, this caused me to hold everyonein class back with lessons and made me feel very ashamed. Every year, with a new class, I knew that I was the slowest out of everyone there. I also have a really hard time studying, without writing everything down or highlighting everything.

Everything started going downhill in 10th grade (16 yrs). It was really scary, having to watch as my grades/marks went down more and more with every passing term. Mostly in Science and Maths and sometimes EGD (Engineering Graphics and Design). No matter how much or how hard or how smart I worked, they just kept going down. If they weren't going down, they were stagnant. And I was the nerd. I was constantly spending my time with my nose in a book, or doing some type of homework or studying. Every afternoon, immediately after school (and all evening), even during breaktime/lunch - I would sit and do homework. I never went out with friends, went to parties or sleepovers (in high school. I did have and go to sleepoves in primary school, though. Those were fun). My whole life revolved around school. In high school, I didn't really have close friends. You know when you're friends with someone, but you only ever see them in school? It was like that. Those were the only friends I had in high school. So, essentially, I didn't really feel like I belonged anywhere.

Electrical Technology was fun, though🙃 I was the only "girl" in class, so being the top student and getting better grades than the boys that bullied me, felt that much better 😆😂

Having my final year in 2020, really did it for me. 2019 is the last time I remember everything being "normal". I still have a semblance of regret for not being able to have that high school anime (love) story that everyone talks about. *Sigh🌸* It was also really tough, knowing that that was our year of lasts and we didn't get to do all the things that students usually do in that year. I still remember the feeling of not being able to hug my teachers or my friends, how empty, quiet and orderly the hallways felt. Lifeless...It was horrible.

I could go on, but I think I'm going to end it here🌿 I feel that's enough trauma for today😂 Remember, if you have any questions my asks are always open🌼 I'm pretty much an open book with people I feel safe around and I feel really safe and loved in this community🫶🏽 So, I don't really mind talking about my trauma and past experiences with you guys 🤷🏽 Don't expect that from other people, though 🙅🏽 They might not be as comfortable about it. Just because I am, doesn't mean that they will be too.

Okay, bye🌻

[cat-eclipse-m]

intro/masterpost

BIO>>>

NAMEZ?: michael/mike/mikey, karim stone (not my real name lols), myekari, gweb (nickname only the specials can call me >:3)

NATIONALITY+RACE?: british, eurasian (europian+asian)

SEXUALITY/GENDER?: ace+demi, transmasc/demiboy

PRONOUNZ?: meow/star/xe/it or they/he/she (for simplicity's sake, star/they)

LIKEZ?: the arts, generally (includes music, drama, art, etc), soft plushies, fidget items, baggy clothing

AESTHETIC?: my fav aesthetic gotta b scene/grunge with a mix of neon but i normally wear casual/streetwear

STAR SIGN?: pisces... yeah man im vry sensitive

TUMBLR @???: cat-eclipse-m, previously gweb-is-dead. i wanted my new handle to be a play on words, and i chose "cataclysm", so... cat... eclipse... m!!!! also cz i like kitties and the moon (nighttime is the BEST time)

PET PEEVEZ?: when ppl talk over you/interupt u in the MIDDLE of a convo, ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU'RE HYPERFIXATING!!! LIKE BRO??

MELTZ ME: things that make me go gooey inside include things like when ppl tell me they got something for me and its something they KNOW i'd like when i've never told them. reading the lil signs makes me so happy :3

~ i use :3 XD X3 XP :P etc a lot and unironically heeheef // helpful when using tonetags like /j /srs /sarc so yk thx ^3^

~ i have adhd (mixed) and i used to be medicated (not anymore!!! i've escaped the shackles >:3)

WOAOAHIA - me when my friends/mutuals reblog my posts;

~ personas importantés ~ (MOOTz)>>>

~ @27-cats-in-a-trenchcoat

~ @moku-and-his-madness

~ @radioactive-mammothade

~ @buffporcupine

~ @howlctts

~ @just-type-it

~ @555cat

~ @tinybitofhope

~ @agentldiddy

~ @fartcowboy

~ @aspenii

are my posts viewer friendly? well... they can include;

~ suicide/suicidal ideation

~ self-harm/scars/bruises/cuts/physical trauma

~ gore/blood/gutz

~ murder/violence/weaponry

~ harsh language/profanity

~ suggestive??? <(by this i mean i culd post abt shirtless gay men wait wh-)(i nver post straight up NSFW/nudity btw,)

OBSESSIONS; (COLOURCODE: WEBTOONS // VIDEO FORM MEDIA // HOBBIES)

kill the dragon (ktd), one coin clear (occ), my s class hunters (msch), school bus graveyard (sbg), clinic of horrors (coh), hand jumper (hj), interpretation of the shadows (iots), bugtopia/monsters n girls (idolomantises), not so slient (nss), jackson's diary (j'sd/jd), batman: wayne family adventures (b:wfa), nerd and jock (with olga + tiger) (naj+ot), marionetta, potion witch (pw), silent screams (ss), winter before spring (wbs), between the branches (btb)

helluva boss/hazbin hotel (hellaverse), arcane

drawing, listening 2/creating/writing music (lyrics), making comics (sometimes), animating every so often

MASTERPOSTS BELOW!!!;

SONGSCRIPTS MASTERPOST

RANDOMS/SONA STUFF

MY OWN WIP WEBTOON

FANDOMS MASTERPOST

HOLIDAEZ XD

thkxs guys, love you <3

[mr-orion]

i have a love-hate relationship with shading vitiligo

normally in order to bring life to black/brown skin you use purple shades, but purple looks deathly on pale skins. so its like balancing a tightrope of red and purples. monochrome shading is the real mvp here for creating a bit of depth with kisses of purple and red. also look at all those layers lol.

time to add highlights and maybe a bit of bronzing...

im actually going to expand on why Ray has Vitiligo. A lil bit of worldbuilding will you. I've copied most of this directly from his oc Bio wip... it's rather vague but hints at how vitiligo is symptom of his failed nervous and immune systems and explains some medical history. It doesn't really go in depth with what the main disease is, so perhaps I'll nerd out another time lol

Most Desmondian species have a bundle of nerves that connect from their wings and tails into their nervous systems along the neck. These are often referred to as love glands, because when you hug your partner they tend to touch. It's a very vital part that can influence romantic attraction as it attaches directly to the love center of the brain.

Ray suffers from bond sickness. A rare condition. It weakens and causes rapid muscle loss. Once muscle is lost after the age of 25 it cannot be regained. It can cause fatigue. Additionally causes rapid pigmentation loss and sometimes hairloss.

This condition is tied directly to his species bondmarks. Bondmarks are the bundles of nerves that connect the wings nervous system to their main nervous system. These bundles of nerves travel directly up to hypothalamus. The part of the brain considered to be the control center of love. These bundles of nerves are highly sensitive.

The condition typically will only trigger itself with the loss of a friend, partner, or family member. Some individuals will go their whole lives without knowing and may pass a recessive gene to their children.

Ray's condition presented itself at age 20 upon the death of his lover Rajah. Initially he had red eyes, orange feathers, dark skin, and black hair. Upon Rajah's death Ray began to rapidly lose coloration and muscle mass while slinking into a deep depression for 6 months.

At age 23 he married his second spouse Daniel which momentarily stopped the loss of body mass and pigmentation for two years. When their marriage began to crumble the symptoms slowly returned. When Dani refused to move to Earth with Ray like initially planned so Ray may have a more hospitable lifestyle, and access to more diverse healthcare Ray completely severed their connection. Approaching 27 Ray lost pigmentation again, thus his blonde hair and pink eyes, but worked hard to maintain his muscle mass out of pure spite. This wave of pigmentation loss only lasted 3 months.

Scarlett, a later girlfriend, also causes Ray a third go around of pigmentation loss after assaulting him with a bite to his bond gland. Due to the emotional shock and trauma Ray experiences extreme loss of pigment in a matter of two weeks. A silver lining is that this incident helps advance research into the condition, but whats that really worth as you lose your personhood?

[wormy-armageddon]

I’ve been rewatching supernatural, so here,

Similarities between Dean Winchester and Jason Todd:

- Jensen Ackles

- Dug themselves out of their own graves

- Came back Wrong and tried to murder their little brothers

- Able to be terrifying and also adorable

- Just a Silly Little Guy

- Scars from their resurrections

- Guns

- Both daddy and mommy issues

- Dying

- Leather jacket

- Uses humor to try and cover up their massive amounts of trauma and various other issues

- Every single thing they say is quotable

- Same sense of humor

- Fiercely protective of loved ones

- Huge nerd

- Doesn't seem like the type to love reading

- Not afraid to Do Crime

- Killed a man

- Good cook

- Fun socks under combat boots

- Red and black

- Has almost no value for their own life

- Pretty

- Kind and caring after no longer contemplating your murder

- In love with their best friends (Cas/Roy)

- Abusive bio fathers

- (Pretty much) adopted by gruff but kind and compassionate father figure when they were troubled youths

- That whole thing with Dean being happy that he’s positively recognized as a warrior at the Ren faire thing also applies to Jason

Thank you for listening

[coffeefrenchandhistory]

About Me

I figured I should do this. No idea why. Anyway, it'll get updated... whenever I feel like it should get updated.

Tumblr bio (because it's somehow getting cut off and I don't like that): I'm Josh. 32. Unapologetically Jewish & Zionist. History geek, nerd, and Francophone. I write fanfics on AO3. Slytherin ambition with Gryffindor nerve. Blank/empty/anti-Zionist and antisemitic blogs will be blocked. This blog stands with Ukraine and Israel.

What's your name?

Sir Lancelot of Camelot (and my quest is to seek the Holy Grail) It's Josh [surname redacted]. Pronouns are he/him.

You're on AO3?

I am! I'm currently writing a Wrong-Boy-Who-Lived fanfic (yes, yes, I know, WBWL stories have a... reputation...).

What fandoms do/will you write?

Predominantly Harry Potter if only because that series was my first love and still has a place in my heart. I'm also planning a few fanfics in the Mass Effect, DC, Star Trek, Game of Thrones, original fiction, and Fallout fandoms.

Why?

Well it all started when I was born...

Who are your fanfic idols/inspirations?

@artemisia-black, hands down. She is one of the finest writers I've ever seen, ever had the privilege of interacting with, and I genuinely adore her as a person.

But I'm also a big fan of Frickles, TheSinister_Man, Dorothea Greengrass, and TheEndless7.

What kind of fanfics do you write?

If it's Harry Potter, it's either a Wrong Boy-Who-Lived (WBWL) fic — either with Harry's brother as the believed to be Boy-Who-Lived or Neville as the believed to be Boy-Who-Lived. Or it'll be "action-adventure" where canon diverts this way instead of that way.

Ships?

I mean the USS Massachusetts is pretty neat, but that's also because I was able to visit it when I was a kid.

No, I mean, who do you ship?

Ohhhh!

I'm not a fan of Harry/Ginny, nor Ron/Hermione. Actually, the only canon pairings I like are James/Lily and Ted/Andromeda... that's pretty much it.

For Harry: Lavender (she'd be great for him ngl), Hermione (eh, sometimes), Pansy (enemies to lovers is top tier), Daphne (Haphne is a top tier ship and everyone should know it), Susan, Fleur (I just think she's neat), Tonks (post-war), Andromeda (post-war), Parvati, Padma, and Bellatrix (when it involves time travel).

Most out-there ship you've got?

Ron/Pansy, Hermione/Cormac or Anthony Goldstein/Hermione, Draco/Ginny. Also Kingsley/Bellatrix, Sirius/Aurora Sinistra, and Snape/getting his ass handed to him.

Most cursed ship you've seen?

[trauma intensifies] We don't go there. But I've seen some shit.

What character(s) do you hate the most?

Snape. I despise Severus Snape with every fiber of my being. The fact that Harry names his son after that child-abusing terror supporting racist wank-stain who simped hard for his mother after calling her a bigoted slur is a stain (and wanted her as a prize after he sold Lily, James, and baby Harry out to Voldemort) is the reason I throw the epilogue into the trash where it belongs.

Also Dumbledore, while I do think he's (for the most part) well-meaning, is very much the chess master who got far too up his own ass with how important he is. Also he facilitated child abuse, so I don't like him.

And Molly Weasley, who is an overbearing harpy of a mother who gleefully and maliciously went out of her way to bully a 15 year old girl because she read some bullshit in the Daily Prophet — when a few chapters before she had dismissed the author (Rita Skeeter) as a hack.

What do you do?

I work for a medical provider's office. Specifically, an ophthalmologist's office. Oh, go get your eyes checked!

Do you like it?

So then what do you want to do?

I'm actually getting myself out there to be an actor! And a writer of works that aren't fanfics.

Are you Zionist?

Yes.

What does that — ?

It means I believe Jews have the right to national self-determination in our ancestral homeland.

But what about — ?

That's literally the definition of Zionism. And yes, I do believe that anti-Zionism is antisemitism.

What if I'm an anti-Zionist?

Get off my blog then. I don’t want you here.

[zoguy1]

Here's Flame and Mulberry!!

Flame was an OC my high school sweetheart came up with. He's a Sans x Grillby child.

Mulberry is a Swap!Sans x Fell!Sans ship child I made back in middle school. For whatever reason, I was obsessed with the Sanscest ship children. I think it was because I loved the idea of combining two character designs and fusing design motifs and whatnot.

Also, this Mulberry has no connection to Star-Beau's Mulberry. UT OC | MULBERRY + BIO by Star-Babu on DeviantArt. Complete coincidence that we both have CerryBerry children named Mulberry. Lol.

I've explained half of Mulberry's story in Calli's Pride Art.

Mulberry's story starts before he meets Calli. He canonically was just a child that spawned into existence, and Swap Sans was like "omg so cute! Fell Sans, can we keep him?" And Fell Sans was like "Bitch, why? We can barely afford food on the table." And Swap Sans was like "I'm gonna keep him anyway."

The reason why I chose the CherryBerry ship wasn't because I actually shipped these two. It was because I didn't see any popular CherryBerry children. Like, Ink x Error had Paperjam and Gradient. Ink x Dream had Palette. Geno x Reaper had Goth, and so on and so forth. So I believed that having a Swap Sans x Fell Sans would be well received. My actual opinion on the ship at the time was very meh. I liked Swap!Sans, I didn't like Fell!Sans very much. And that favoritism was obvious in this story. Lol.

Mulberry grew up with a normal-ish childhood. It was obvious that things weren't going great at home. But Mulberry didn't let it sway him at the time. He was a very sweet child. Very friendly and nice to his fellow peer group.

But things at home got progressively worse. Fell!Sans was pretty much the breadmaker of the house. He had to work double time to keep food on the table, and that piled onto an alcohol addiction he apparently had. Swap!Sans had a problem with this because Fell!Sans was pretty neglectful of Mulberry.

Arguments would pile up and one day, in a drunken rage, Fell!Sans severely injured Swap!Sans, ending up with him in the hospital, Fell!Sans loses custody of Mulberry, and Mul ending up in the care of Swap!Papyrus while Swap!Sans was recovering. Once Swap!Sans recovered, he moved in with his brother and that's where Mulberry lived by the time he meets Calli.

The only reason why this story had this child of divorce plot was literally that Mulberry was a Mary Sue, and I, like every young teenager, thought that giving him a tragic backstory would fix that. Now having gone to therapy for several years, I can see where little kid me came up with this story.

Tips for being a story writer: don't give your OCs trauma. Give yourself trauma and then project it onto your OCs. /j

Post Calli's adoption, Mulberry made some friends. One of them being Flamelight. Mulberry and Flame kind of became self-inserts for me and my at the time bf. So they were just pretty much a fluffy romance. I don't remember Flame having much of a story. He's a chill nerd who loves science and has anxiety.

When Mulberry and Flame grew up, Flame got his dad's restaurant, and Mulberry became a baker. having that passion since he was a kid. They have a child named Cambri Pepper who was close to his cousin Juniper.

I have a fondness for Mulberry because he was the first time I started posting my art and my OCs. I opened up an ask blog on Amino, and I had frequent engagement with it. It made me feel like I had something to give to the world, and that the world appreciated what I did.

I want to start up another ask blog at some point. Not now. But at some point.

Here's some Mulberry pictures I didn't share on Calli's Pride post. This is him with Parasplat.

Him with Nova.

A playlist I made, because I noticed that a lot of songs that reminded me of Mulberry were all candy, food, and comforty themed songs.

[saltyyetbland]

I have just posted my fic that I wrote for the Petals of a Rose fanzine on AO3. You can find it here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/57670000

I have a lot of thoughts about this fic, the zine and the qsmp in general so I'm just going to write it all under the Keep Reading line cause this ramble might be as long as my fic lmao.

When I saw that applications were open for this zine, I initially didn't even consider joining. I liked hideduo but I was definitely out of the fandom by then. I haven't even written anything hideduo specific (I only had like 2 QSMP related fics on AO3 and they were more trauma than romance lmao) so in my head I thought that even if I applied, I wouldn't get selected.

And I guess that mentality ironically is what made me decide to impulse apply during my Marketing class at like 8pm.

And somehow I got accepted.

You can imagine my surprise when I get an email with a discord link saying that I got accepted to be apart of this zine. I joined and then I see a bunch of cool artists and writers that I recognize and my brain immediately goes "oh shit, i should not be here wtf" but thankfully I decided to not be impulsive this time and actually stick with this zine.

And then prompt creation starts and then artists and writer match-ups and then it fully dawned on me that art is going to be created out of my fic. And that was such a complex thought to swallow as I struggled with imposter syndrome yet again (it is what it is lol) and just me trying to grapple with the concept of fan creation as a product of inspiration while being a source of inspiration as well (the fan studies/media nerd in me is jumping out).

And then the sketches and conversations from Kye and Bio started and I was just in awe by their skill and effort that it motivated me to try and write better too.

And then after months of me struggling to write the fic, it was done. I had multiple people look over it including my irl writing group as well as a beta reader (shoutout to skelepen) and I then submitted it to the final submission google form.

There is a clear memory I have in which I am simply working and I just check over at the discord and I see a photo in general chat. It is a snippet of my fic and it is Aynee saying that "damn... this fic got hands" and like 4 other comments from other members of the discord basically saying the same thing. When I tell you that this has almost made me cry at work, I'm not joking cause this was the moment when I truly felt like I contributed enough to the zine.

And now the zine is published and it is 500 pages of pure effort and I feel satisfied with myself but I also feel the looming sense of closure that I know stems from the knowledge that this is the end of my qsmp era.

I've been aware of the qsmp since its inception but I only really got into it during the ice prison event where creators like tubbo, mouse and tina joined. And though i only really lurked in this fandom and occasionally posted, i can still see its effects on me today. I have discovered my ever-growing interest of community building in media and cross-cultural communications and translations. I am currently on a 300+ day streak on Duolingo for Portuguese. I was able to revitalize some of my previous knowledge of French and Korean and actually find joy in learning languages, something that I seriously struggled with when I was younger.

And for that, even though my relationship with the QSMP is now a bit more complicated, I am grateful for it opening my eyes and for allowing me to be a part of it, even in my small amount.

All in all, I am proud that this fic has been created. I am proud of this community that I have been apart of. And even though I am closing this era, it won't be on a bittersweet note like my previous fandoms.

So, thank you.

Thanks to Kye and Bio for creating amazing pieces for my fic, skelepen for beta reading my work, Aynee for creating the zine itself, the POAR discord for being such a cool and fun place and to the larger QSMP community as a whole for being a part of my life.

[basicallyjaywalker]

For the ask game >:3 ✂️❤️

🎨 I know you have OC’s but I know embarrassingly little for being a mutual this long. Hand them over rook :)

Edit: I forgot to say hi 😭 sorry I saw you mentioned OCs and literally just. mind blank got the zoomies started stimming forgot my manners. Anyways

Hello Oli :DDD

One thing I would change: I mean. I would rewrite a lot of the series but mainly I would wanna give Nya a more prominent and starring role early on. Let her have more Samurai X moments and quit putting her on the sidelines while the boys do things!!

Favorite ship? Canonically Pixane ngl. I love Jaya but Pixane is soulmate coded for me I break Jaya up at the drop of a hat for funsies I feel bad breaking up Pixane.

Do I have OCs? You're goddamn right I do I have wayyyyyy too many. I'm working on character sheets for the main ones now but until those are uploaded have a taste!

Nataly Chumsworth: Master of Love, half Serpentine, menace to society. If the name did not clue you in she's Pythor's daughter and they have. A relationship.

Roxie Andrews: Master of Peace, local stressed out mom friend, former student at Marty Oppenheimer's! Old friend of Cole's and someone i imagine Nya being besties with.

Jasmine Bucket/Julien: Master of Nature (secondary: Ice), engineer at Borg Industries, made before Bolobo I swear. Zane's half sister but neither has any clue about that yet

Jackie Fei: Master of Magic (I have a whole system set up for this), chronically tired and depressed but gets to have a glow-up, chaotic good incarnate. My favoritest little blorbo ngl

Hannah Stone: Master of Music (different from sound and again swear she was pre-S4), punk rock girl, Chen's former... student is not the right term. Embodiment of that one audio: "they got their weapon, I got cheated out of my childhood)

Kyle Stone: not an elemental master but a former member of Chen's cult kinda (born into it), instead of masking his trauma with anger like Hannah he masks it with bubbliness, chronic overprotective disease. He and Hannah aren't blood related but they're also the closest thing to family each other has

Master Twyla: Master of Light, the teacher of these fucking kids, trying her best to keep the memory of the former EMs alive. Bops her on the head this bad girl can fit soooooo much trauma she's trying to overcome in her, goddamn

Ivy Crest: Master of Wind except not fully until S5 (thanks Morro), Morro's bio daughter and Ronin's adopted daughter (bet you can't guess who she prefers), expert in forgery and shit at mechanics. She and Nya form a close bond in S5 and Nya continues to try and teach her mechanical stuff (it does not work)

Luna McCallister/Garmadon: Master of Dreams, long lost Garmadon daughter who?, big fucking nerd. I have no idea when she and Lloyd realize their related but it makes their interactions at the comic store beforehand a lot funnier (for reference: she is about 2 years older than him)

Jonathan Borg: heir to Borg Industries, curious about the supernatural elements of Ninjago, knows about something he probably shouldn't. His place is not fully figured out yet but I feel like he's gonna start wanting to prove more useful after S7 to mixed results, esp bc his sister is way cooler than him

Willow Whispernight: yeah check back later chief I am reworking her ENTIRE lore lmao. Currently also connected with nature in some way and Jasmine's step-sister

Ahahaha that isn't even all of them. it's been over a decade I am soooo normal. I do not have *checks notes* approximately 20 OCs, named and unnamed, with various places in stories and development

[gean-grey-blog]

When Star Trek speaks incredibly specifically to you personally... (under a cut for the tagged content warnings)

It's been a really rough...well, life, if I'm being honest. I've seen a lot of violence, death, and pain. My bio says I left tumblr in 2014, but doesn't specify it was the day after I was online the night Leelah Alcorn died. I've had to cut off most contact with my mom, and been subject to discrimination and violence bc of my gender. I'm sick and in pain and broke and I was just kind of shutting down and drinking a LOT.

My co-captain/bestie/brother called me out on it in a truly loving and worried way a week or two ago. I was still struggling with the weight of everything. This morning we sat down and watched the latest Lower Decks. It was great. We geeked out. It's truly a fantastic episode regardless of any of my personal shit.

In it, the main character gets called out for self destructive behavior, admits her death/war/survivor trauma, and then gets reminded that the dead would want her to succeed and fight for a brighter future. She gets reminded that the dead wanted to LIVE. She steps up and leads through the power of empathy and anthropology aka my actual skillset.

And I'm just sitting there after like...fuck.

Touché, writers who probably understand exactly who their audience is and what might hit a bunch of gay neurospicy nerds in the soft places. Touché.

[ocprompts]

UHHHH HI. EXPLOSION EMOJI. love your blog btw :3 found it via sneep snorping through a follower of one of my sideblogs's tumblr (b!david is very cool)

SO BASICALLY i have these four little guys who are in a BAND together !! their names are BENNETT, PIPER, NATHOS, AND ASH !! i plan to make a videogame about them and one of my closest friends helped design two of them (more like redesign really, i made the four guys before i decided on them being in a band together and so their designs were all over the place and so i made their designs more coordinated with eachother, and my friend redesigned piper and ash with me mentioning the basic things i had in mind) (i also very slightly changed the redesigns (as in i literally just made ash's eyes purple to match with xer jacket color and some other tiny things HGJFIKM))

gonna just copy and paste their artfight bios here, wouldve done the links but you need an account to actually view the links HGANKFJN

Name: Bennett Hubbard Nickname/s: Benny Boy (jokingly) Age: 21 Birthday: November 3rd Species: Human Height: 6'2 Gender: Male Pronouns: he/him Sexuality: No one knows Relationship status: Single Occupation: Bassist for the band The Drawing Board, burger flipper on the side Personality: A bit blunt, but means well. Will stand up for what is right. Likes: Music, his friends, sweet and spicy food (not at the same time), bugs Dislikes: Ignorant people, pickles (will only eat them when he absolutely has to)

Name: Piper Cline Nickname/s: N/A Age: 21 Birthday: May 24th Species: Human Height: 5'5 Gender: Female Pronouns: she/her Sexuality: Pansexual Relationship status: Single Occupation: Keyboardist for the band The Drawing Board, repairwoman on the side Personality: A bit shy at first, but once she knows you well enough, she'll trust you with her life! She's a bit of a nerd. Likes: Music, her friends, science Dislikes: Pretty much anything wet and squishy. Sensory issues </3

Name: Nathos McBride Nickname/s: Nate, Natorade Age: 21 Birthday: July 14th Species: Human Height: 6'4 Gender: Male (transmasc) Pronouns: he/it Sexuality: Pansexual Relationship status: Single Occupation: Drummer for the band The Drawing Board, side job TBD Personality: Super sweet! He's calm and collected, and ready to take on anything, as long as it isn't too caught off guard by anything that comes across. Likes: Music, its friends, stuffed animals Dislikes: Rude and arrogant people

Name: Ash Lopez Nickname/s: N/A Age: 21 Birthday: February 16th Species: Human Height: 6'4 Gender: Non-binary Pronouns: xe/xem Sexuality: Greysexual Relationship status: Single Occupation: Guitarist for the band The Drawing Board, side job TBD Personality: Literally the silliest guy ever. Chronic practical joker. Likes: Music, xer friends, bright colors Dislikes: Being taken advantage of

i also put the 4 of them into separate rps !! the one bennett is in is the only one thats started. also that where i got the nickname benny boy from (but the things that happen in their respective rps arent considered canon, more like an au, also that would be wayyy too much trauma to stuff into them when im already gonna give them trauma in the videogame story itself HGAKFJNDCJKM)

ANYWAY !! here they are, bennett piper nathos and ash respectively :] formatting is bad so have One Giant Ash

and heres piper and ash, drawn by @pastel-bleu-art !!!

a bit hard to tell from the pics (ILL MAKE A BETTER REF SOMEDAY ...) but piper is a bit chubby :] ANYWAY thats about all i have to say about em because i dont wanna say too much because of GAME SPOILERS ... but just. quick synopsis: they are chosen by the great goddess oda to save the universe by defeating the cacophonous six !! but shit goes down. oh and btw i feel that it's important to mention that they are essentially weezer but gay /silly

i LOVE gay and silly people <2

[sunnymegatron]

Fluid Relationships vs. Polyamory with Kate Loree - 212

Ever felt confined by the choice of monogamy or polyamory? What options lie between those two ends of the spectrum? And what happens if what’s right for you changes over time? Sex-

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The significance of intention in customizable relationships

Anxiety & Jealousy in non-monogamy

Parenthood & fluid relationships

Honesty in relationship dynamics

Mindfulness & communication

Couple’s privilege 

Fluid relationships vs relationship anarchy & more

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In addition to her master’s in marriage and family therapy, she also has an MBA and is a registered art therapist (ATR). She is an EDSE-certified sex educator and an EMDR-certified therapist with additional training in the Trauma Resiliency Model (TRM) for the treatment of trauma. She has been practicing psychotherapy since 2003.

Kate is the author of Open Deeply: A Guide to Building Conscious, Compassionate Open Relationships and cohosts the sex-positive podcast of the same name, Open Deeply, with Sunny Megatron. She’s been featured in Buzzfeed videos and has guested on Playboy Radio and many podcasts, including American Sex, Sluts and Scholars, and Sex Nerd Sandra. She’s written for Good Vibrations, Hollywood Magazine, and is a frequent public speaker.

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