#obey me chanzé

[fairwish]

I'm on my period. Someone please hold me 😭😖

[poly-mc]

Nope! *quietly* Surprising, Dissecting Yuri hasent been an issue so far..

Ehe~ keep trying ♡ 🍓🌸

- @aki-babes

You made up with your dad🤩🥺

Wait, please tell me Yuri's alive😨

[fairwish]

A pillow fort with you and Belle sounds really nice right now *The thought brings a look of pure bliss to star face*

My precious baby *Sea pinches your cheek*

Bubba (˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ ) I'm on my period and everything hurts and overwhelms me😢 will you make me feel better?

Oh no, that’s not good. Should I bring you blankets? Or maybe set up a pillow fort for us and Belphie? Anything you want, I can do it

[fairwish]

Guys I think my life might be falling apart.

I didn't want to say anything at first, because I didn't want to burden you all with trauma that I am currently experiencing. But I needed someone to talk to and this community is the only safe place I could think to go.

I was supposed to visit my late bio mom's side of the family (my aunt and little brother) for a week during the Christmas holidays. They live in Cape Town, a province in South Africa. But I haven't heard anything from my aunt in like a month. I tried texting once and calling like 3-5 times (she says that she doesn't do well with texting and calling works better for her). She's not answering any of my calls and she hasn't called back.

And I feel like my adoptive mom might have something to do with this. For much needed context on recent events, please see this Reddit thread. In the post, I forgot to mention that my mom had her phone whipped out for most of the conversation. I didn't think it was relevant at the time.

You see, the thing about my mom, is that she has a tendency to gossip to other people (family members and friends) about things that happen this house, and likes to come up with twisted versions of those events to suit her narrative. She loves making me look bad to other people when we've been arguing. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to feel. I feel numb and alone. Tomorrow, I'm going to ask my mom if she's spoken to my aunt lately. Hopefully, I can come back with some answers.

[fairwish]

I want someone to hold me but, the same time, everything's too fucking hot🥵🤧 And if I eat or drink something cold, it's gonna hurt my tummy🤕😖😢

[fairwish]

Tw: Depressing thoughts

These songs are how I've been feeling lately☹️

I want post how I feel, but there's also this part of me that's like "you're just doing this for attention 😡". That's why I tried not to use too many tags.

I don't know. Sometimes I just feel so insignificant and like nobody would care if I just disappeared one day. Nobody would miss me.

I wish I was important to somebody. That someone cared about my thoughts and feelings. I know it sounds self-centered and super dismissive of those who have shown that they care about me. I'm sorry. I don't mean to hurt your feelings.

I also didn't want to post something like this, because I don't want other people to feel responsible for my feelings or what's going on in my head. I don't want anyone to act differently around me, or feel any obligation to role-play with me or answer my asks.

If you read this, thank you for caring❤️

[fairwish]

Will you hold me and whisper sweet nothings in my ear, while rubbing my back?🥺

Azzy ಢ‸ಢ I'm on my period and everything hurts overwhelms me🤧😖

Don't worry, honey! I'll get you everything you need to be comfortable. 🥰

[fairwish]

On my moon cycle again and everything fucking hurts😖😣

*Sigh* Maybe a joint will help🥹

[poly-mc]

IMPORTANT UPDATE

Any NSFW rp or asks I have with my boys from now on, will be tagged under #ascension. So, if you're a minor or you don't want to see any of that, please block that tag💗

[poly-mc]

Lore dump

CW: Blurred line between IC and OOC under the cut; trauma

My OC, Poly MC, is basically just me. I came up with that, after figuring out that I have feelings for all the brothers in the game Obey Me. This lead me to believe that I'm ambiamorous🦋

For more info on me, you can see my intro🪷

Full name: Fairwish Chanzé Breytenbach

Birthday: 25 February 2002

Age: 22

Gender: A fairy sitting on a leaf, looking over a beach and the ocean, under a starlit nightsky. I am that fairy🧚🏽✨️

My own flavour of non-binary 💛🤍💜🖤

Pronouns: Sea/star

*Please see my intro for a more in-depth explanation on that

How to use: Sea is cooking for starself. Basically, you replace "she" with "sea" and "her" with "star"

Sexuality: Pansexual

Nationality: South African

Race: Mixed (50% Black, 50% White)

Culture: Afrikaans and Zulu

Height: 5'1 (157cm)

Things I like doing: Colouring🧑🏽‍🎨, painting 🎨 video games 🎮(I played A LOT of Nintendo 3Ds as a kid, but now I mostly play Genshin and Sky)🎮, mobile games; 420 (eating and smoking)🍃, jigsaw puzzles🧩, cooking 🧑🏽‍🍳(my parents never tought me how to cook, so now I'm experimenting and teaching myself)🍲, singing🎤 (I guess I'm okay🤷🏽), dancing🕺🏽 (at least I have fun😂), writing poetry✒️

Likes: My boys❤️, my rp kids💖, my Bubba🐱❤️my bio mom🫂❤️, food, music, anime, animals, making people happy, rain, the ocean

Dislikes: My adoptive mom (she's narcissistic), hurting people, pedophiles, bigots, Trump

What I look like/Selfie dump:

I don't take a lot of pictures of myself, because I don't really like the way that I look most of the time😅 Recently, that's been getting a lot better though, since I got top surgery, started showering regularly again and taking better care of my hair. This allowed me to find a look that I really like on myself🤩 These are the only pictures of me that I feel comfortable posting right now, though ☺️😅

I'm an AuDHD-er (autism is self-diagnosed) and am currently recovering from what I suspect is burnout. I'm pretty sure I burnt out during high school. When I was in school, I always had to work harder than everyone else in class, on account of being the slowest. I write slower, make more mistakes and sometimes it takes me longer to process information. A lot of times, this caused me to hold everyonein class back with lessons and made me feel very ashamed. Every year, with a new class, I knew that I was the slowest out of everyone there. I also have a really hard time studying, without writing everything down or highlighting everything.

Everything started going downhill in 10th grade (16 yrs). It was really scary, having to watch as my grades/marks went down more and more with every passing term. Mostly in Science and Maths and sometimes EGD (Engineering Graphics and Design). No matter how much or how hard or how smart I worked, they just kept going down. If they weren't going down, they were stagnant. And I was the nerd. I was constantly spending my time with my nose in a book, or doing some type of homework or studying. Every afternoon, immediately after school (and all evening), even during breaktime/lunch - I would sit and do homework. I never went out with friends, went to parties or sleepovers (in high school. I did have and go to sleepoves in primary school, though. Those were fun). My whole life revolved around school. In high school, I didn't really have close friends. You know when you're friends with someone, but you only ever see them in school? It was like that. Those were the only friends I had in high school. So, essentially, I didn't really feel like I belonged anywhere.

Electrical Technology was fun, though🙃 I was the only "girl" in class, so being the top student and getting better grades than the boys that bullied me, felt that much better 😆😂

Having my final year in 2020, really did it for me. 2019 is the last time I remember everything being "normal". I still have a semblance of regret for not being able to have that high school anime (love) story that everyone talks about. *Sigh🌸* It was also really tough, knowing that that was our year of lasts and we didn't get to do all the things that students usually do in that year. I still remember the feeling of not being able to hug my teachers or my friends, how empty, quiet and orderly the hallways felt. Lifeless...It was horrible.

I could go on, but I think I'm going to end it here🌿 I feel that's enough trauma for today😂 Remember, if you have any questions my asks are always open🌼 I'm pretty much an open book with people I feel safe around and I feel really safe and loved in this community🫶🏽 So, I don't really mind talking about my trauma and past experiences with you guys 🤷🏽 Don't expect that from other people, though 🙅🏽 They might not be as comfortable about it. Just because I am, doesn't mean that they will be too.

Okay, bye🌻

[poly-mc]

I tried using my afro comb, instead of my brush, for my hair today and this is how it dried🌸

What do you guys think?

[poly-mc]

Both!! 🌸💋

- @aki-babes

Just like your father *Sea grins endearingly*

Alright, I'll put the order in now🌼

*Sea comes back from the baker's counter*

They said that it might take a while, I hope that's okay 💛

[poly-mc]

*Aki smiles widely*

Yayyy! ♡

Hm.. I want the prettiest cake! Just as pretty as myself, of course <3 🌸🌸

- @aki-babes

You want us to have the baker put your face on it? Or an edible mirror? 💜 With little flowers 💐

[poly-mc]

WHAT'S THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN

*steals akis cake*

MWAHAHAHAHHAHA 😡😡😎😎

It means that you're a cretin😒

It's fine, I'll just buy them a new one💁🏽 I didn't feel very good about them having to eat my scraps anyway.

@aki-babes Hey Aki! Let's go buy you some new cake🌻 This time you'll get to choose whatever flavour you want, instead of settling for whatever's in the fridge 🎂

[poly-mc]

I know mine had a yt channel too (English related)

She also knew how to speak mandarin (not read and write tho)

Wait I just remembered her name it was Liza Koshy(?)(may have misspelled the last name 😅)

But yeah she was great! Taught us about notetaking, highlighting, types of learners - audio, visual, kinesthetic(?) - basically trying to make our learning journey easier

We were like 12 then, so maybe it wasn't that important back then, but like in hs yeah I appreciated those 🙂‍↕️

🍥

Wait a minute...you were in General Alberts, weren't you? Because I used to know someone who was in General Alberts and they had a teacher that was like that. They said that she made note-taking much easier, by using tactics like reading the important stuff louder.

[poly-mc]

I should probably introduce myself.

Hi🪷 I'm Poly MC, otherwise known as Fairwish and Chanzé, and I'm in polyamorous relationships with all 7 of the demon brothers in Obey Me!. This is my new Role Play account where I will be able to live out that dream🌼 Yay🎉

For more info on me: Lore dump

I would like to say hello to my role-play husbands @ask-belphegor, @stn-tmblr, @lucifer-morningst4r , @lord-of-burgers, @the-great-mammon-01, @asm0b4by, @l3v1uhthan (sorry for spamming and if I didn't add all of your different accounts). Hi🪻 I look forward to role-playing as your partner☺️ And hello to my sister-in-law, @8th-sisterlilith 🌻 I hope we can become good friends ☺️

Oh and my father-in-law, @celestial-realm-leader. Hi 🙂

And I would like to say hello to my role-play children, if you would do me the honour of having me as a parental figure (sorry, I couldn't quite figure out the colours thing and sorry for spamming you too) @cynthiathebettertwin, @aspenthetwin , @pridesson , @luv4j3llyfish , @thestarandtheghost , @shu1chi , @joy-yeah, @tomiokagiyuufirststan and @jewelofhell. I look forward to role-playing as your Umi🌺 "Umi" is short for "umzali", which means "parent" in Zulu, which is one of my 2 cultures. My bio dad is Zulu and my other culture is Afrikaans.

IMPORTANT: This is not to be confused with the meaning of "umi" from any other languages (aside from the Japanese "umi", which means "sea". "Sea" is one of my pronouns. More on that in the next paragraph). I decided to use "umi" as a term for my children to refer to me, because it's derived from a gender neutral term for a parental figure (umzali = parent), in my culture. I also decided on this term, because it would be so much easier for a child to learn how to say when learning how to speak. So, it also makes sense for my children's developmental needs.

Speaking of which, I'm non-binary 💜🤍💛🖤 and my pronouns are sea/star. So in a sentence, it would look like: Sea is very happy to be here. Sea hopes you enjoy star poetry. Basically, you replace "she" with "sea" and "her" with "star". So, me deciding to use "umi", along with my pronouns, works on multiple levels. Especially considering that I've always had a deep connection with the ocean, that I could never quite explain. But I think it's because my Zulu heritage originates from KwaZulu-Natal, a coastal province in South Africa.

Also whenever people refer to me, using these pronouns, it makes me feel like a fairy, sitting on a leaf and watching the ocean under a night sky😌 Like, I feel like a better version of myself. Like the me that I've always wanted to be🌌 That's right, bitch we're getting existential now! And I'm completely sober. It makes me feel like someone I can actually look up to, which I think is just absolutely insane🤯 I mean, I NEVER thought that I could feel that way. I've never seen myself as someone worthy of being looked up to, praised or admired by anyone, much less myself. But here I am! Making my inner child proud, just by using those pronouns, so ja☺️

Also, as I've mentioned, I'm Afrikaans and I LOVE Afrikaans music, so look forward to me posting English translations/interpretations for Afrikaans songs.

I also dabble in poetry, so look forward to that too. Though, some of my best poems I've written are in my old phone, which I spilled hot chocolate on. And now the motherboard is fucked😭

Here are the rules:

1. Asks are open.

2. No NSFW asks. I'm happily married to my boys, thank you. Weed is fine, though.

3. Romantic asks are reserved for the brothers ONLY.

4. Please be respectful. No hate/bigotry will be tolerated here.

5. While I am NOT a mental health professional, despite what some of you may think, I am willing to listen to any struggles that you may have. So I can't give you any advice (because I don't know the full context of your situation and, once again I'm not a specialist) but if you need a friend who will listen, I'm here for you. However if you're looking for advice, then I suggest you go to a licensed professional.

And uh...what else?... Let's just have fun🤷🏽🎉

Oh! And if you have any asks about South Africa or the Afrikaans language, please don't hesitate! I'd be happy to share🇿🇦 Who knows, I might actually learn something about my own country in the process ☺️