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hey hey! i adore your work and i know you get a lot of stanxeno/reader requests butâŠ.if youâre willing to and comfortable with the topic, could you write a stanxeno/fem reader fic about the reader being someone who struggles really hard with depression? maybe struggling with getting out of bed frequently as a focal point? lack of pleasure in doing things, self care, and motivation in general could be some other topics. if youâre not comfortable with this, i completely understand! thank you â€ïž
Bold of you to assume I don't want to continue doing StanXeno x Reader stuff okay I'm in love with them
Based entirely on what I need when I get like this
xFem!Reader
"Ow-"
"Sorry, sorry. You have a knot back here."
Stanley runs the brush through your hair again, more careful this time. Once the knots are cleared and the brush slides through your hair with ease, he drops it onto the table and grabs a hair-tie.
"I'm braiding it today," He says with full confidence, though you're not sure he actually knows how to braid hair.
"Okay," You mumble. Stanley goes slowly, muttering curses whenever your hair slips from his fingers. He had the general movements down, but even without a mirror you could tell it was going to be a mess.
But Stanley liked doing it, so who were you to stop him? It made your life a little easier on days like this.
"You should spray water on it," Xeno's voice comes from somewhere nearby.
"Shut it, I've got this," Stanley says, not even looking over his shoulder at the other man. "I can do it."
The hair tie snaps when Stanley tries to wrap it around his poorly-done braid, pulling more curses from him when it makes you flinch.
"Sorry, baby," He says, grabbing another hair tie and quickly finishing your hair. He leans down to press a kiss the back of your neck before moving around the chair and pulling you to your feet.
You're marched into the living room, where Xeno was placing a plate filled with an assortment of little food items on the small coffee table.
"I made a few protein options," He says. "As well as some fruits and vegetables. It isn't much, but you need to eat something."
"I'm not hungry," You say, plopping onto the couch.
"I know you aren't, my love," Xeno says. "But you must eat anyway. You haven't had anything since last night, and it is passing noon now."
You stare, dead eyed, at the food in front of you. It looks good, and you knew Xeno was a good cook, but you didn't have the desire to eat. Just the idea of picking up the fork felt like a Sisyphean task.
As if reading your mind, Xeno kneels next to you, and picks up the fork himself.
"You don't have to feed me," You say, guilt creeping in.
"I know," He repeats, stabbing the fork into a piece of egg and passing it to your lips. "But you are struggling, and I want to help."
It's hard to swallow, your throat closing up as tears threaten your eyes.
You hated this. Hated being like this.
It had taken both of them just to get you out of bed an hour ago, and now Xeno was insisting to feed you out of concern that you wouldn't do it yourself.
Loving you could be such a burden. You wonder why they stay.
As Xeno presses bits of food into your mouth, Stanley moves furniture around. He steals pillows from your shared bed, pulls blankets from where they're stored, and carefully crafts a little fort for you in the small living area. Xeno fusses at him at least once, lecturing him on the stability, but Stanley waves him off.
"We do this all the time," He says. "I know how to make it."
All the time. It really was all the time, especially now that the world was turned to stone and you no longer had access to medication or real therapy. You really were burdensome, weren't you?
Xeno doesn't force you to clear the plate. Once he's satisfied enough with what you've managed to stomach, he cleans everything and sends you into the fort where Stanley was already waiting to wrap you in blankets to make a little you-shaped burrito.
"Too tight?" He asks after tucking you under the soft material. You shake your head, earning a pleased hum and short nod.
You're left to take a nap, while they busy themselves around your little home, staying with you instead of going out and doing their usual work within the colony.
Stanley nudges you awake after about an hour, pulling you from the fort to have some water and lay on the couch instead, your head in Xeno's lap and feet in Stanley's.
Xeno talks at you about whatever he's been working on recently, letting you look at the papers with all his notes and thoughts on them as he does. Stanley rubs his hands over your legs, massaging your muscles with careful fingers and occasionally chimes in as well.
They move you again after another while, this time sitting you at the table with a tiny plate of more food while they work together to clean up the fort from this morning.
It felt like such a waste, but if you dared to look at the clock Xeno had made, you'd see it was already getting to be evening. Time moved so weirdly when you were deep in the storm of your depression. Hours had felt like minutes, and minutes had felt like years.
At some point, you're stripped of the blanket you'd been wrapped in all day, and marched to the bathroom where Xeno carefully undoes your braid and brushes your hair back out while Stanley prepares a bath. It takes some doing, as the piping in the colony was still technically under development, but eventually your clothes are pulled off and you're dragged under a stream of warm water, though you really just stand there and let your mind swim in guilt at having to be so thoroughly mothered like this by your lovers.
You lose track of whose hands are whose when they run soap across your body and in your hair, their voices melding together in streams of idle chatter and whispered worries.
By the time you're cleaned, dried, and in fresh clothes, it's somehow time for dinner. Xeno makes more finger foods for you, and smaller meals for himself and Stanley so you don't feel left out.
"I'm sorry," You mumble, staring blankly at the plate in front of you.
"Whatever for, love?" Xeno asks.
"Being so hard to take care of."
"You're not hard," Stanley says without an ounce of hesitation. "And even if you were, it wouldn't matter."
"You shouldn't have to give up your whole day just because I can't get my shit together," You say, the built up guilt finally spilling out of you. "I feel like I'm nothing but an awful burden to you, anymore."
"Stanley and I have been at your side for long enough to understand that your brain's chemical imbalance hinders your ability to function normally without proper treatment, which we currently do not have access to," Xeno says.
"But-"
"No buts, little lady," Stanley says, raising a hand to silence you. If you were feeling more...yourself, you'd giggle at how his accent slips out on the word lady. "It's our job to take care of you when you don't feel good. Like you would if it was one of us."
You sigh, somehow deflating even more. Once the heavy fog lifted, you'd realize that they were right. That if it was one of them with your disorder, you'd give everything you had to keep them afloat.
You weren't a burden to them because they loved you, and that would never change.
#dr stone#doctor stone#xeno wingfield#dr stone xeno#dr xeno#xeno x reader#xeno x stanley#stanley snyder#stan snyder#stanley snyder x reader#stanxeno#fanfiction#fanfic#x reader
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She has nothing to worry about. Despite appearances, he was careful with his aim so he didn't actually hit Milo. And as for smacking her, a snowball had a better chance of staying frozen in the core of the Sun than Rourke had of smacking a woman (self defense was an exception, and yes that had happened, though she was an alien and trying to rip his head off)
"Not to worry, I can always make enough for all three of us. You two won't go hungry or have to eat shitty food with me around." Rourke said.
Milo winced when she brought up the time of the Narrative and her trip to the black hole. He had not been in a good place mentally during all that. Not that he was upset with her for mentioning it, he couldn't remember if she'd been around for that. He accepts the offering of her leftovers as a distraction.
"He doesn't actually," Rourke says, "He does eat a lot though. More than me, and I dunno where the hell he puts it."
"The Narrative wasn't stupid for me." Milo says softly, "It got me out of a hole I didn't even realize I was digging. Showed me things I didn't know, about myself and my past. Things I needed to know, even if I didn't want to...." He thought of the dark blue book he carried in his everpresent sidebag, with all the words and lessons he'd collected from the museum of his life, and the feeling of Ascending to his true form; the Milo he was now. Still sweet and kind (and cute and nerdy) as ever, but no longer so dismissive of himself and his value in the world, "......I'm glad it took me."
"And I'm glad it gave you back." Rourke says, remembering finishing work one night, being about to go inside the shack and sleep since it was late, when he'd seen what looked like a falling star blaze across the sky. He remembered going to it and finding the impact crater, but instead of a space rock he'd found only Milo, back to his old self, peacefully asleep, with a strange book held against his chest. He'd carried Milo back to the shack for the night and put him to bed (removing his glasses, since he had them again) and they had made up the next morning.
"Alright, NOW you can have seconds, since everyone's gotten a first round." Rourke says, eyeing Milo.
"Shit! I just realized....." Milo shoots both an apologetic look.
".....I forgot to get us a dessert recipe."
"Oh, he can do more than cook," Milo says, "I swear he's a damn wizard with food. I, on the other hand, have a knack for lighting things on fire-not on purpose-and maybe blowing up a microwave."
"It was a toaster oven, Milo," Rourke corrects, "and it didn't explode. Though, spontaneously combusting isn't great either." He turns back to Doom, an honestly pleased and fond smile on his face.
"Thank you. Mama taught me, 'cause I liked being around and helping when she cooked, and I didn't get to if my.....sperm donor-" Milo snorts at Jackson having been demoted from 'father' to 'sperm donor', "-was home. I made her her last Christmas dinner all by myself when I was ten. I memorized all her favorite recipes, and I kept learning new ones even after she died. I guess....it's kind of keeping a bit of her with me. And when I cook for others? It's like I get to share a little of that with them." The somewhat somber tone is lightened back up when a loud thwack! sounds as Rourke swats at Milo's hand with a spatula.
"No seconds yet, Mr. Black-hole-for-a-stomach."
"Curse your hawk eyes." Milo mutters, then looks at Doom, his attempt to sneak some more food foiled, "And we aren't too picky about dates either. A night on the couch watching movies can count if we want it to. Hell, the only occasions we even plan dates for are anniversaries or birthdays, if we even acknowledge those in a given year-kinda stop doing birthdays when you've had 9000 of them, 9022 for Lyle-and maybe holidays if we feel like it. Of course, we can always amend that. And if we do something, we'd love to have you along, but we won't force it.......I will probably bring you something back though. I'm just like that." He flashes that adorable crooked smile of his that just fits him so well. If a facial expression could sum him up, it would be his smile. Imperfect, not conventionally attractive, but bright and warm and lovely in all the ways that count.
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OK, so today I have a terribly silly and ridiculous fun-fact for you, and I swear it's real!!
Did you know there is an actual typical Austrian dish called 'Kafka'?
And it's fast food? xD
I knew this. But completely forgot about its existance.
It's a special type of 'Bosna', which is basically a hot-dog, but not really a hot-dog 'cause it's different (lmao, best description ever). It's an extra roasted sausage with a lot added spices in a long burger bun. If made with an extra cheese-stuffed sausage it's called a 'Kafka' on the menu.
And.. it's the type of snack labor workers got after work on their way home. Typically, if not only, served at.. well I'd describe it as mini-diners? Snack bars? Like you cannot even sit down, you get your food outside and eat it while standing there. And it's basically quite cheap and you drink a cold one with it.
Thise snack bars are not that popular anymore but go back like 20 years and they all got food there.
And guess what .. now I looked it up, and find out IT WAS INVENTED IN MY HOMETOWN. I honestly don't know what to do with this information, I just had to get it out of my system.
@mechazushi there I promised to give you weird context and then I forgot and then I remembered. đ€Ł
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EDIT: PICTURES BELOW (behold it gets even weirder from here onđ€Ł)
it's only half the fun without the correct image in your head đ

Most times Bosna are a double, and their always too long.đ But those are regular sausages. THIS:

Is a Kafka, friends. đđ€Łđ€Ł
#I am still amazed I forgot about it#Now I feel like I brought knowledge to this world#also I swear this is true and I am not making this up#i found a wiki site for it so it's real#but i dunno if google will give you english results honestly#so how do we feel about kafka being a cheesy sausage being stuffed into the mouths of hungry laboures men#cause men made the bigger group of labour workers#kn8 cringe side facts#it's the time where I realize how deep I feel into the Kaiju rabbit hole.#not much filters between this world and myself are left so consider this a warning#oh yes#despite Austria being a tiny country at least here it's a national known thing#how filthy can you get at a food related post? - yes.
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okay so I saw someone say celiac disease isnât a disability because âall you have to do is avoid glutenâ and I. Iâm about to lose my shit.
are you not fucking aware of how much gluten is present in everyday life? Are you not aware how mild cross-contamination can KILL people with celiac? Are you not aware how some kids are raised EATING GLUTEN, IRREVERSIBLY destroying their immune system and the lining of their stomach because their parents didnât know or didnât bother to find out what was wrong?
You can help mitigate the effects of some disabilities by doing certain things, but that doesnât make them NOT disabilities.
Celiac disease is an autoimmune disorder. It is not the same as a mild intolerance. It can and will destroy your stomach and intestines.
Jesus fucking Christ.
#it was a comment under a post where someone was like âhey having a gluten intolerance doesnât make you c-punkâ#which. first of all celiac is not just an intolerance. second of all being disabled does not equal cpunk#that is a HUGE extrapolation#and third of all the commenter said they had celiac which I donât doubt. but celiac involves a range of symptoms and sensitivities to gluten#worrying about cross-contamination for those of us who are really sensitive#is a VERY involved process#and gluten-free things are often so much more expensive#and EXTREMELY inaccessible#speak for your fucking self#celiac disease#disability#I would not mind so much if anyone actually took celiac seriously#but NOBODY in my actual in person life has#I had a girl at school SCREAM at me and call me stuff because I asked if we couldnât do a pizza party and instead plan something accessible#i cannot attend any type of event based around meals because I need that time to eat what I make#I cannot attend anything where âfood will be providedâ and if I do I have to plan my meals so I can make my own and bring it#I am often left hungry to the point of lightheadedness and nearly passing out because people plan involved things over a meal assuming we#all can get fast food after#ableism
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I'll have to try that out with the eyes, soon.
Thank you very much for the compliment about the eyes! However, what I pretty much do for them is plop down the symmetry tool after I make the head and other features, and just move the symmetry around and draw circles/ovals again and again and again and again and again and again until I finally have something I think may be decent. This can take days.
And then after that I have to see if I might want to edit the eyes to produce that little arch at the bottom or something.
I'm still trying to figure out making these eyelids in a way that looks nice.
Also just realized that their eyes are different colors.
I want to experiment with different eye shapes at some point.
I might wind up making a bunch of eyes and saving them as a reference. I already have a single layer in sketchbook specifically labeled 'mustache' after all.
Theoretically I should know how to create the head with the early helmet. I have so many layers of this, after all.

Unfortunately, since I was so focused on the WW2 helmet going with an oval face shape, I simply cannot fathom it on a round shape. It just does not look good to me, lol.
On the other hand, I may have accidentally solved the issue another way while making half a joke. I read that hedgehogs have fur around the face, so I added some fur. Interestingly enough, the fur does seem to make the face seem rounder.
So this (mind you, these look so much better with the quills):

Compared to this;

So that may have solved my problem, but I'll see how I feel about it once I manage to get to moving the quill layers into the other helmet layers.
Does not really match the feel of the helmet though, so I need to figure out how to change that next. Then again it is not like they will always be up so close to the front.
What I really want to know is how Dalnim fared/fares during the hedgehog quilling period, where a young hedgehog loses their weaker baby spines and grows in the adult spines (although it might also happen periodically like molting). Although, I can figure that this is what his what his father meant when he said Dalnim's quills would get stronger, if he just assumed that his adult quills would be more like a regular hedgehog's quills. The weak quills might make the adults question his age, though.
I have seen pictures of hedgehogs with genetic conditions that cause them not to grow new quills, or shed them faster than a normal hedgehog usually sheds adult quills, resulting in bald spots. Definitely recessive, though.
I might actually drop the Fibromyalgia idea for the one hedgehog, though. I found a genetic condition called Wobbly Hedgehog Syndrome that causes a lot of weakness and pain in the limbs of a hedgehog. This would be a lot better to use and kind of feels like it would way less disrespectful than the original idea. Plus I can play around with it how I like, so that maybe it shortens the lifespan but doesn't kill them in two years.
WHS is also found in European and pygmy African hedgehogs, but I can pretend Amur hedgehogs in Korea can get it as well. Or they are a cross somewhere down the line.
I have a link to the PDF of Journey to the West if you would like? https://chine.in/fichiers/jourwest.pdf
You don't need to worry about the poetry looking sections, they just summarize the text before it since this was originally supposed to be performed in the marketplace to the public, I think.
I'm also reading Prey by Michael Crichton, which is alright. My SO and his siblings had to read it for an English class years ago, so sometimes they make comments about it.
Warhammer 40K books are good at keeping my interest so far if I don't mind paying out the nose to buy them from some guy in Europe half the time. Although I hear some books can vary on being interesting.
Yeah, sometimes eating when you are hungry is a bad idea. If I get nauseated while also extremely hungry I have to drink non diet coke to get that blood sugar up a bit before switching to food.
Hello :))
Here's a small sketch of Siwoo (Haven't drawn this man in ages)

A quick explanation of the sketch:
The Raliaen Mountain Crescent Base doesn't have a formal financial department or anything related to it. Aera has tried to ask for a financial department to be established, but the Central government told her that they can't spare any for her as her base doesn't need one. Aera knows that's a lie since she and Hyeonsik are stuck maintaining the budgets and resource allocation of the base. Eventually, Aera is unable to keep up due to higher number of suspected enemy spies being reported. Hyeonsik hates to do anything related to finance beause he hates money (long story). So, he just gives them to Siwoo who had studied a bit of accounting before. Siwoo is genuinely still confused on why he is given the documents. Hyeonsik does actually give Siwoo a bonus for doing them, so Siwoo can't complain.
One of many reasons Siwoo needs coffee.
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Place of lack (Patreon)
Bonus, after she feels better:
#Doodles#Villainsona#Just Desserts#I will go ahead and mark these down as#Vent#But I'm feeling better so it's fine! Poor Charm tho lol#Not that it's funny but like - it's a Little funny pft - only because she gets very dramatic!#Understandably so - it hurts! Pain is very dramatic that's it's purpose it says Ow please pay attention to me so this can stop#But like - it has been proven on Multiple Occasions - other Charm sets included! - that there absolutely is a level of Enough#It's not a static level but it does exist she's not a black hole#I always make the same comparison but like we're not getting mad at our stomachs for being hungry right? That's not a thing we're doing??#Her being food does put a particular lense on it hehe#There's like a level of forgetfulness on top of the panic of pain - that the pain has gone away before and likely will again#Get a pain big enough and it smothers out the certainty that there will be reprieve again!#If only it didn't happen so often for her#S1 truly was an inevitability - little hungers that snowballed up into one big terrible awful very bad no good day#And then day had a very bad Charm haha#Evil Time is always such fun because it's always a crapshoot between the extremes - Very High or Very Low#I mean either's bad lol but they're different flavours of bad!#One is like - toxic self-reliance ''I don't need anyone!'' and the other is toxic dependence ''No actually I need everyone to like me rn''#Nothing like oscillating between the two to make for a healthy stable individual âȘ#She's working on it lol#She's self-aware! Once she's out of it and reflects on it lol#That's a step in the right direction#You'll get there someday Charm someday I'll take her out of S1 and S2 and actually make a S3 where she's a bit better#Never all the way tho haha â„
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#okay. so. the problem. with independent contract work?#is that. if everything is overwhelming. I canât just. show up. do a job. and leave knowing I'll still be paid.#Nope. with this work? If I canât make any money because Iâm paralysed by being overwhelmed? Welp thatâs All My Fault^TM#if I canât make myself go find the clients and ask them very nicely for money?? then I get nothing!!#and that ~*must*~ mean that I ~*~*do not want it badly enough*~*~ /s#look. with independent contractor work it takes a lot of extra work just for the *opportunity* to make money#whereas with my normal regular job (THAT MY BOSS STILL WANTS ME TO HAVE BY THE WAY) I can just. show up.#make sure I do enough. and go home knowing that Iâll still make enough money to at least afford my rent. even if I canât give it 110%#But now I can't. & so. you know what I was doing this month?#I started it by *barely* being able to afford rent (which I would not have been able to do without the help of some very kind people)#(so HUGE shoutout to the people who helped me out! in these quiet tags)#& then I nearly ran out of groceries. Iâve been rationing everything I have in the house & going to the food bank#I even went on the local buy nothing group and basically begged for peopleâs expired food#and Iâve also had to try to figure out how to pass an insurance exam on 14 days worth of honestly *terrible* information#(and I SOMEHOW passed despite the course NOT EVEN COVERING certain information that was on the exam!!)#and when I passed the exam they sent me a contract that basically says âyay congrats now you have the right to work (by yourself) for us!#âno guarantee youâll be paid tho! if you want money youâre gonna have to fucking EARN it yourself bitch! good luck!â#and I got a tutoring job thatâs basically the same idea. the contract is like âcongratulations you can now use our resources!#But if you donât put in extra work (that you wonât be compensated for) looking for people to ask for money then you canât have any!â#Like. I'm sorry. I used up all my âbegging people for resourcesâ energy asking for peopleâs expired groceries#and I feel like maybe half of people only gave me groceries because they think Iâm from Ukraine#which makes me feel a SPECIAL KIND OF WRETCHED (like Iâm stealing groceries from people who need them more!!)#Iâve spent this whole month hungry lonely overwhelmed and just generally terrified#I have to constantly fight SO hard not to lay down on the floor and just give up#the only thing I feel motivated to do is draw art because at least thatâs making me feel connected to others & like what I do matters#I did finish my goals for the day and thatâs good. so I donât want to say I feel guilty for making art. because I donât!!#But there's a pretty loud voice in my head that's saying 'well if you have energy to make art. you should have energy to go get clients!'#You know what little voice in my head? you can FUCK RIGHT OFF because making art is very low effort comparatively#you know what's *not* low-effort? working really hard for the *potential* to earn & then not being guaranteed it'll even get you anywhere#& moving into the last two weeks of a month. where you have loan payments & rent due soon & no money. & no energy to go earn it.
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Tw: animal harm
I used to live in a costal city with a lot of seagulls and pigeons, and the âcoolâ thing to do was hate both of those birds like it was an entire personality type. To the point where one day I was at the grocery store and I saw a seagull in the middle of the road that had obviously been hurt. It was an extremely busy road and nothing I could do would get people to stop. Not a single person even tried to avoid hitting this very still alive bird. It only avoided getting hurt further by sheer luck. I immediately looked up local bird rescues and called them. The complete shock I was met with for calling them for help with a seagull made me want to cry. They thanked me profusely for calling them. Because âNo one ever calls for seagulls.â They let me know that one of their team was on their way immediately. I wish I knew what happened to that gull, but unfortunately I wasnât able to follow up because lifeâs a nightmare.
Anyway. I wish every person who are more than fine to leave seagulls to die a very bad time.
The way people demonize seagulls is actually unreal. Almost all of their natural habitat has been destroyed (almost all coastal areas have been developed, destroying natural sand dune ecosystems) and they're doing their best to adapt. They're literally just trying to survive. You're in their home. The vitriol some people have for these gorgeous sea birds just because they're not shy about snatching food if you're not cautious is insane


#seagulls#tw: animal injury#people are fucking horrible#and I wish yâall would stop#with the hatred and violence towards animals#in general#but also especially for shit like#being hungry and getting food where they can get it#like all animals do#seagulls have no malace#grown ass adults should do better#I will also side eye how you treat children when you act like this about animals#anyway#fuck all of those people who wouldnât fucking stop#so I could get the bird out of the road at LEAST
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genuinely nothing like being just a Little Bit Hungry
#just me hi#it has been less than 10 minutes what's up đ„âŒïž#/but the thing about being a Little Bit Hungry is i don't know if i'm like Devastatingly Hungry and Just Numb or if i'm just a little bit#hungry. and being a tad dramatic kfhsvhg#//still love the word tad. tad. tad. tad#//but yea i can't focus with this Little Bit Hungry. gotta do something about this i'm afraid#like.......................................................... fruit#or something................... i do not want saladdd <///3#/OR i could just be Spooked for no reason. another thing to consider!#OR i got minor food poisoning! something i would not like to consider!#OR it's cuz i have once again slept weird let's gooo đ#i cannot sleep right or normal ever. and i may just have to accept that lmaooo#/but being Spooked for no reason would make sense like i did just do an interview#body's been doing this thing where it just holds onto that kinda stuff like No it's okay i've got it we may need this later :)#no we don't <3 we really don't lol <3 no <3#//but yea maybe fruitttt ? if i can find some :)#and then maybe water too. waterrr đ«đđŹâš#or maybe water first. waterrr đ«đđŹâš#okay alright i'm gonna get on that pfshvhf :3 and then. The World#ciao for neowww ~+
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eating only 3 chocolate chip cookies a day for a week is good and healthy actually ^-^ <- coping with not being able to afford food
#ive eaten a little more a few daya#days#but im so. so. tired. of being hungry to the point of tears CONSTANTLY#and no matter how many times i explain what foods i can and cant eat my mom ONLY buys stuff i cant eat#so i either eat. and get sick. or dont eat. and stay hungry.#but i only make $400 a month and once my bills and stuff are payed...im left with~50 a month. for the whole month. to buy food.#and i dont like. have my own fridge in my room so i cant buy anything refrigerated/frozen#so i have started a stash of rice and canned fish in my room#but im down to only one can of fish left...#wait no i guess i have like. $100 a month. but thats not just for food like i also have to buy like...toothbrush and deoderabt and shit#and i also am still trying to get to where i can buy some clothes so i have more than 3 pairs of underwear#and one pair of jeans#and i still havent been able to save up enough to replace my headset in like. a year and a half.
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FucksSAKE we're desperate and I'm fucking sick of begging for money so does anyone want some emergency art commissions. Like. Say a fiver for a quick sketch, maybe 10 to 15 for something with flat colour?
#spent several hours this morning doing those paid online surrveys and it fried my brain so much i had to take a nap#and didnt even earn enough to actually withdraw any money from it#like... f u c k theres gotta be something i can do?? we need electricity and bills and. i mean technically we need food but#i basically havent eaten in 3 days anyway and dont feel hungry so thats honestly the lowest priority atm#its. supposed to be getting easier. why is it getting *harder*#alao please please dont take this as me sounding ungrateful to people who help. you all mean the world to me and i would give yall anything#we're just. we're both really struggling. Alfie's in constant pain bc we're out of 'painkillers' till payday next week#mental healths in the toilet lol#but hey at least in 2 days my holidays are up and i get to go back to being beaten up by a child#exhausting myself with masking and hypervigilance to the point where i cant feel as much
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When I first joined Tumblr, I had no idea what I was walking into. Thereâs no manual for navigating this wild, untamed corner of the internet. My first moment here? I was greeted by an image completely naked, no warning, no explanation. It was just there, bold and unapologetic. Thatâs when I realized: Tumblr is a place where anything can happen.
But for all its chaos, Tumblr has become something far greater than I ever expected. For us Palestinians, this platform isnât just a space to scroll through memes or vent about life. Itâs a lifeline, a place where weâve taken the raw, messy energy of this site and turned it into a battleground for survival. Here, we tell our stories, raise funds, and fight for our lives.
Iâve seen campaigns soar past their goals, bringing hope to families barely holding on. But Iâve also seen campaigns like mine, ones that fight tooth and nail for every single dollar, every reblog, every addition, and every ounce of hope. My familyâs lives depend on this.
It hasnât been easy. Zionists flood all Palestinian words with hate, twisting truths and spreading lies. They aim to discredit us, to make people doubt us. Itâs exhausting. Some nights, I sit with my phone in my hands, wondering if this fight is too big for me. But then something beautiful happens: a donation comes through, a kind message appears, or someone Iâve never met reblogs my story with words that feel like a warm embrace.
And through it all, people are starting to see the truth. The hate doesnât drown us; it sharpens our voices. Every day, more people step forward to stand with us, to say, âI see you, I hear you, and Iâm with you.â Itâs those moments that keep me going.
To everyone who has already helped, whether through verification, donating, wrting post , reblogging, or simply sharing a kind word: thank you. Youâve done more for my family than I could ever put into words. But the reality is, weâre not there yet. My family is still waiting for a chance to breathe, to live without fear, to fill their empty stomachs with warm food, and to wrap themselves in clothes thick enough to keep out the bitter cold. Theyâre hungry, theyâre freezing, and I canât do this alone.
This fight is hard, but itâs not hopeless. Strangers have become friends, and friends have become family. Some of you have shown up in ways I never imagined, treating my familyâs survival as if it were your own. That kind of solidarity? Itâs powerful.
Tumblr might be chaotic, unpredictable, and sometimes downright bizarre, but itâs also the place where weâve built something extraordinary: a community that refuses to look away from injustice. With your help, we can take this fight all the way. My familyâs lives are within reach, and together, I know weâll get there.
This campaign isnât just about me. It supports 26 people, including two orphaned children and an injured family member suffering from hemiplegia after being hit by shrapnel during a bombing. Surgery is desperately needed to replace the infected and failing plates. The needs are urgent, and the future of 26 lives depends on your support.
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⥠TW: implied noncon, break-up, toxic relationship, crazy ex-boyfriend, intrusive thoughts, anger issues
⥠FEM reader
Thinking about gamer boyfriend who doesnât know what he has before itâs goneâŠ
You told him you were leaving, but it didnât dawn on him thatâs what youâd meant. He was deep in-gameâhe couldn't pay attention to your whining. He figured you went out to the store or something, but later, after midnight, he realized he was hungry, and you were nowhere. Not in the kitchen making dinner, not in his bed sleeping, and not in the bathroom either.Â
Did you go home? He wonders, standing alone in the dark, empty silenceâfeeling a little put off at the sight of his roomâhow even in the dim light, itâs a clear fucking mess. You usually tidy up a bit for him, but you hadnât this timeâno, thereâs old underwear and socks everywhere, shirts and hoodies too, empty cans and pizza boxes. Itâs a bit gross, actually, he admits while scratching his neck.Â
The drawer heâd dedicated to you in his dresser is open and empty. Did you take everything to get it cleaned? You are a bit of a neat freakâunlike him. Suppose that would be something youâd do. Weird of you not to take any of his laundry as well, though.
Oh, well. He shoots you a âgn bbyâ on his phone, then collapses on his bed and falls asleepâsmiles a bit as he does soâitâs nice not having you here to tell him to undress and go shower first. Yeah, you can be such a nag sometimes.
He wakes up late in the day. Youâre not there. Usually, you come over to wake him with some breakfast. He checks his phoneâyou didnât reply last night. It isn't that weirdâyou were probably already asleep at that point. But why didnât you answer when you woke up? Thereâs no way youâre still asleep, right?Â
Fuck, heâs hungry.
âgm,â he sendsâcontemplates asking you whatâs up but doesnât. You must be busy with something not to have checked your phone yet.
The entire day goes by, and you still donât answer. He doesnât take it too hard. But he wonât deny being a bit miffed.
Itâs when three days go by that heâs well and truly confused. Heâs sent you several texts at this point, even called you a few times, getting a little worried something had happened to you before he got the message that heâd been blocked.Â
What the fuckâs going on with you?
He thinks back to the last time he saw you. What did you even say? He canât remember. Something about being tiredâsomething, somethingâIâm leaving.
He swallows thickly. No⊠No way, thatâs what you meant, right? No, canât be. You love him. Youâre his pretty girlfriend. The one that comes with his food and later comes back for his bowl. The one that sucks his dick under his desk as he goes on a kill streak. The warm pillow he uses when he finally drags his bad posture to the bed and falls asleep.
No. Where the fuck are you? Are you sick or something? Yeah, must be, right? So delirious youâve managed to block him somehow. You were probably only trying to call him back. You were never so tech-savvyâa fever must have worsened it. He should go to you. He can bring his pc. Or no, he can get you and bring you back here. Yeah, that would be easier.
He calls your roommate, tells her heâs coming, and asks her to let you know to get ready.
âWhat are you talking about?â she says through a piece of gumâher voice all dull as if bothered to have picked up the phone. Or, rather, she sounds a bit drunk. Thereâs music in the background. âGirl broke up with you, didnât she?â
His blood runs cold at that. A lump forms in his throatâa thick, unmovable lump that makes him think heâs about to throw up. âN-no, she didnât.â
âHey!â she calls out, not to him, thoughâsheâs covered the mic with her hand. He only hears the muted distortion of voices and bass through it before your roommate comes back to him.Â
âSorryâsheâs telling me a different story,â she relays, popping her gum in his ear before sneeringâor, at least, thatâs what he pictures. âHonestly, how long did you think she was gonna put up with cleaning up after you anyway? I know I wouldnât last half as long as she has.â The lump in his throat grows thicker, swelling up until it's choking him. âAnyway, good luck.â
She hangs up, and he drops his phone. Thereâs a crack as it hits the floor. And then something wet on his face. Something hot. Something searing as it tracks down his cheeks and drops off like acid onto the floor.Â
What should he do? What do you want him to do? To tidy up? He can do that! Heâs not some imbecile like your friend makes him out to be who canât even do the basics of chores. Of course, he can! And so thatâs what he doesâhands shaking as he tidies.Â
It feels foreign, and heâs not even sure where to start. And it quickly proves to be a lot worse than what heâd thought. Beyond stinky clothes and dirty dishes, thereâs trash, rotten food, sticky surfaces, and other things he canât even put a name to. Itâs gross, actually. Downright disgusting. How longâs it been like this?
Even after everythingâs put in order, thereâs a smell that lingers and no end to the dust he has to cleanâcringing at the little insects that come crawling out of their hiding spots. Geezâhas it really been this bad?
He falls asleep on the floor at some pointâhaving completely forgotten to eatâthen wakes up feeling awful the next day. The kitchen is barren, and so he orders take-out. Eats and then goes back to cleaning. Thereâs still a lot left.
Itâs barely recognizable once heâs done. Nice and bright and tidy and clean. Thereâs a sum of a dozen large black trash bags in the hallway he needs to take out, but other than that, everythingâs perfectâperfectly presentable to have you come over again.
Still, he gives it a couple of days. He knows you. Youâre going to change your mind. Youâre too sweet to be breaking up with him. Too nice. You wouldnât just leave him, not like this. Yeah, youâre only trying to teach him a lessonâafter a while, youâll come back on your own. Youâll be ecstatic over what heâs done with the placeâapologetic even as you tell him you were wrong about himâand then everything will go back to normal. Make-up sex and everything.Â
But you donât. No. Youâre nowhere to be seen or foundâeven after a weekâs passed. Youâre still gone. And heâs starting to believe you might just be gone for real.
No. He sees what this is. Youâre waiting for the grand gesture, arenât you? He never knew you could be so pettyâbut itâs actually kind of cute. Fine then. Heâll play alongâcome crawling to you on his hands and knees with the best apology youâve ever heard. And then you can end this whole thing.
And so he finds himself at your place, pressing the buzzer, not knowing if heâs catching you at homeâif not, heâll just try again tomorrow, and so on until he does. He hears someone at the other side of the doorâthey must be looking at him through the peephole. It takes a while before the locks click and open.
âHeyâŠâ
Itâs you.Â
âHi,â he smiles in return, happy to see you. Heâs been so nervous, but somehow, your face and voice are enough to calm him down.
âWhat are you doing here?â you ask.
Oh, of course. You werenât expecting him. Still, it feels weird of you not to gush happily over the surprise and rush him inside. Itâs not every day he goes outsideâyou should be a little impressed.
But no, of course, youâre playing the part of fed-up girlfriendâacting hard-to-get. Heâs got youâheâll play his part, so donât worry.
âI wanted to apologize,â he announces. âI havenât been a good boyfriendâI see that now. But Iâll be better from now on, I promiseâcome over, and Iâll prove it to you.â
As far as apologies and promises go, he thinks that sounded pretty smoothânot too desperate, not too demanding. Pretty slick, if he can say so himself.
And so, why arenât you smiling? He can understand being nervousâso is heâbut why do you look guilty?
âThatâs really nice. And⊠Iâm really happy youâre looking better. ButâŠâ you start, and his gutâs already wrenching. âI think you need more time for yourself to just⊠enjoy what itâs like to be independent, you know?âÂ
No, he doesnât know. What are you saying? And why are you holding onto the doorknob like that? Holding it steady as if youâre planning to shut it as soon as you canâwhy?
âThanks for stopping by. It was nice seeing youâit really was. Take care of yourself, okay?â
Itâs shuttingâhis plansâdisappearing right before his face. He knows he isnât owed a second shot, but this isnât fair. You canât be seriousâare you?
âWhat? No, waitââ He stops you, weighing his own hand on the door, keeping it open. âListen, Iâm good now. Iâve pulled it together, youâll seeâIâll come in, and weâll talk about it.â
You resist, using both hands to almost push the door back on him. âI have company, soââ
âWhatâs up?â another voice announces himselfâdeep and presentful. He comes into view behind youâtaller than you, taller than himâlooking down his nose at him with a raised brow. âWhoâs this?â
You look a bit panickedâno, embarrassed. âOh, uhmââ
Why are you embarrassed? âWhoâs that?â The bitterness in his voice surprises even himselfâloaded with the same type of spite he seethes with when players use cheats to win.
âHeâs an old friend, but he was just leaving,â you say, but youâre not speaking to him. No, you stroke a hand over the guyâs broad chest, looking up at him apologetically before turning back to him again, voice strict in a way heâs never heard, âBye.â
âButââ
You shut the door. On him. In his face.Â
His skin crawlsâgoosefleshed and chilled. Was that a date? No, right? You have a brother, donât you? Yes, must be. No way youâre dating. Thereâs no way, right? Itâs only been a week⊠no way youâve moved on in only a week, right?
You looked really niceâwearing that sweet blouse with all the little bows and that cute little skirt youâd always wear out on dates. Damn, when was the last time the two of you went on a date? Must be months ago, if he canât even remember.Â
Come to think of it, the two of you would always have sex when you wore that skirt. Yeah, itâs your fuck-me-skirt. Are you going to fuck this guy too now? On the first date? Is it your first date? No, probably notâwho has their first date at home? Thatâs more like a third or even fourth or fifth date, right? Were you dating him while the two of you were still together? Have you been cheating on him all this time? Laughing at him behind his backâtalking shit with your bitch-roommate? About what a pathetic loser he is? About how heâs a slob who canât take care of himself? How he needs you? Have you!?
He shouldn't be texting you all this from a random number. He knows that, but the full realization doesnât dawn on him before itâs too late, and heâs sent you over a hundred messages, some small and others at such a length they take up more than what the screen allows. What the fuckâs he doing? Heâd bought the new sim so that he could contact you in an emergency, not to spam you with accusations like some crazy ex.Â
He starts deleting themâin some desperate wishful thinking, with the hope you wouldnât see them, but then the dotted line starts beating, jumping in taunt. His eyes are wide as he stares at it, holding his breath. Ten seconds pass before it disappearsâno message sent.
You blocked him again. And he canât blame you.
And yet, he canât let you go, either.Â
He spends the first few weeks hauled up at homeâhis flat becoming as trashed as ever as he doomscrolls all your socials through a fake account. Youâve deleted all the pictures of himâeven the ones of yourself when youâve been with him. Thereâs no evidence the two of you were even dating.
How could you do this? How could you erase him like this?
He has questions, and he needs answers. You canât just do thisâthe two of you havenât even had the talkâhe hasnât even got to say his side yet!
He just wants to talk to youâwhy wonât you let him? He just wants you to hear him out. He deserves that much. But since youâre not giving him any option of contacting you, heâs had to resort to medieval methodsâlurking outside your apartment like some creep, eyes peeled on your buildingâs entrance, waiting for you to show.
Heâs there for hours, patientlyârefusing to go homeâthinking heâll be there all night if he has to.
But then there you areâcoming out of the complex, stepping down the alley, dressed all nice for the night. You seem to be in a hurryâare you on your way to another date? Well, wherever youâre going and whoever youâre meeting, they can wait.
âI need to talkââ he doesnât get the words out.
Youâd noticed him following you and tried to out-pace himâmake him lose interest. But the area your flatâs situated in is a sketchy oneâat least for girls, and youâd made the decision long ago that youâd never walk outside unprepared. And so, as soon as feeling the stranger's hand on your arm, you whip around to maze him right in the face.
âArgh!â he screeches and stumbles back, hands covering his eyes. âFuckâow-fuckinâdammit, shitâwhat the fuck did you do that for? Fuckââ
You were going to make a run for it, but the familiar voice has you haltâwait a minuteâŠ
You call his name, and sure enough, itâs him who looks up at you through the teary redness of your pepper spray assault.Â
âOh my god, shitâIâm so sorryâI thought you were aââ you stop yourself. âFuckânever mind. Comeââ You link his arm with yours and lead him back inside the apartment you just left. âIâll help you rinseâIâm so sorry.â
You rush him to the bathroom, seating him atop the toilet lid as you wet a cloth and start soaking his face.
âIâm so sorry, I didnât see it was youââ you apologize again. âAre your eyes okay?â
âNot really,â he hisses through clenched teeth, though steals himself soon after. âBut they're getting betterâŠâ
His face unswells after a good thirty minutes, after which heâs able to keep his eyes open againâsore and no doubt bloodshot, yet fine, if not for that. Youâve moved him into the living room instead, having done what you could to rinse off your attackâhaving provided him with an apologetic glass of water. Now sitting with him, waiting for the effects to wear off.
It feels nice to be with you again despite the circumstancesâbut itâs awkward how you donât speak.
âYou look nice,â he saysâtrying to break the tension. Itâs not as if the two of you are strangers, and so you shouldnât act like it.
âOh, Iâm going to a partyâroomieâs already there, soâŠâ you say, sitting at the edge of your seat. âIf youâre okay, I should probably head out⊠soon.â
A silence fills his head, as well as the roomâa heavy stillness before a single word leaves him. âWhat?â His face sinksâpart confusion, part offense, and something elseâsomething that makes his voice come out accusatory and outraged, âYou maze me in the face, and youâre just gonna fuck off to a party?â
Your eyes widen.âWell⊠itâsââ
âNoâwhat the fuck?â He stands abruptly. His headâs so empty except for the blinding darkness slowly overtaking itâleaving him feeling boiling and all but nuclear. âThatâs all I get? Are you fucking serious?â Heâs shouting nowâand then heâs on you, with one hand fisting your pretty dress and another around your throat. âFirst, you dump me without warning, assault me like some maniac, give me a lousy apology, and then tell me to fuck off? What the fuckâs wrong with you?â
You splutter his name and push, but itâs like fighting a wall.
âWhere are you actually going dressed like that, huh? Whatâs so fucking important? Is it another date? What, with that same oaf I saw here last time? Or is it someone new already? I know how flighty you can be. I mean, fuck, I knew you were a little freaky, but I didnât know I was dating a fucking slut!â
His strength comes as a complete and utter devastating shock. Youâd think sitting in a chair all day would make any muscle obsoleteâbut the hands holding you donât right now is more than anything you could hope to fight against.
âStop! Get off meââ you cry, thrashing hopelessly as he lifts your dress and rips your lace panty down your thighs.Â
A growl in his voice and nothing but rage on his face.
âIf anyone can get itâI might as well help myself.â
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â IF I WAS A RICH GIRL . . ! â

᥎êȘ« sum. not only do you get your panties back but you get a handsome, suave sugar daddy as a gift. gojo takes you out on a date but the lavish, exquisite food isnât what heâs exactly hungry for. hint: itâs between your legs. oh, and you.
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warnings. fem! reader, sugar daddy!gojo au, age gap (early twenties/early thirties), semi public themes, toy usage, gojo is a nasty menace, cunnilïżœïżœngus, implied multiple Ćrgasms, praise kink, mentions of brÄeding, impact play, size kink, degradation, edging, manhandling.
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âs- ssssatoru,â you hiss. clenching onto your fork, you squeeze your thighs together underneath a velvet red table. it was as if every area of your nerves could barely hold themselves together as theyâre continuously being interrupted. interrupted by the sheer vibrations juddering your legs apart. heâs sitting beside you, humming to himself as his eyes skim through the pricey menu. acting as if he doesnât hear your sweet faint whines, he heard them alright. loud and clear. itâs been a whileâever since that day, youâd have been a fool to not call him from the business card he gave you. accepting his precious offer to be a sugar baby. his sugar baby. and now, you were on a date with him. not just any date though, a date where he brings along a cute new bluetooth vibrator he bought for you. itâs happy new home was located right between your pretty thighs. the setting was powered on level four and you were so so close.
this was bad . . this was really really bad, the immense pressure steadily continues to arise. the bzzzing of the toy rings through your ears to where it gets stuck in your head. everything felt slow, real real slow. the entire five-star restaurant alone was quite loud. blaring with a multitude of conversations from talkative fellow guests. the vibrator makes you whine out a tiny, shrilling squeak, and you squeeze onto his pants leg. âyouâre smiling. i know you can hear m- me.â
âhuhhh, oh no sweet thing. âs just my natural face,â and heâs got a coy grin. he was definitely smiling. âletâs try one more level,â and your legs were just about to give out the moment the buzzing intensifies. so embarrassing, you keep trying to look around, in utter hopes that no one was looking your way. it felt so good, orgasmic even. youâre on your last final hinges of pleasure before he tugs against your ripped fishnets. âhold it, girl,â he directs, planting a kiss against your neck. âdonât finish, at least wait until our food comes. letâs try usin' those manners tonight, yeahh?â
âsatoru jusâ let me cum,â you whine, grabbing his wrist. you feel against his g-shock. the cold, metal material making your cute fingertips shiver a bit.
out of amusementâ he hums, watching as you try to drag his hand down between your heated thighs.
seeing how desperate you were for more of his beloved touch was adorable. your expanding heat only grows and thatâs when you then slouch back against the fat padded restaurant booth. the fabric of your panties felt stickyâalmost adhesive like with how it sticks against your mess between your lacey undergarments. just voluntarily glued against your plushed thighs. the toyâs been wavering against your pretty clit for about a good ten minutes. the waiter took you and gojoâs order quite a while ago since thenâand those long ten minutes since then felt like long ten hours. âfuck, âtoru. canât hold it, pleasepleaseplease.â
âhmmmm,â gojo kneads a thumb against your wrist. his touch alone made you throb more. his touch, you just wanted more of it each time. it was addictive, like a drug, like candy even.
youâre so close to your release that itâs right there. at the very tip of your tongue, you could almost taste it. saliva pours into your mouth as the the inevitable pressure gradually emerges.
as people in the restaurant continue to walk by, you have to try to not be so obvious. you were failing miserably thoughâanyone could peer a look at you and spot the lewd expressions stretched across your face.
by now, you werenât really trying to hide it. you were about to make a mess at a public restaurant, and maybe the simple thought of that alone made you pulse with no shame. âaw, yâr squeezinâ my wrist so tight, baby. really wanna make a mess, do ya?â and he leans right up against your neck, giving you a soft kiss. hot breath collides against your collarbone as he gives you a kiss, one simple kiss and youâre just so feral. not a single thought embedded into your mind except you were about to make the biggest nest imaginable. right underneath this tableâ all thanks to the stupid toy, and stupid satoru gojo, your beloved new sugar daddy. youâre nodding, tiny babbles of whimpers spewing out from your lips before he strums his fingertips against the rotating vibrator. gojo feels against the outer part of it sticking out of you, and he just wants to pull it out, making you cum himself with his tongue. heâs dirty but at least he has some kind of decorum. kind of. âso fuckinâ hot. gettinâ off at a five star restaurant like this, was supposed to be a special night but you just had to be a messy girl today, huh.â
ây- yes, âtoru, please,â and your breathing hitches the second his frigid cold lips make contact against your skin yet again. if it was anything that could make you so weak, it was gojoâs obscene, sloppy kisses. you craved them like you craved air. âhafta cum, let me finish please. wanâ it so bad.â
with a little teasing sigh he murmurs, âokay fine,â and once he gives you the go ahead, you finally let go. the deafening music reverberating throughout the diner harmonizes over your orgasmâ it was a tiny squeal but still. it silenced your own release, but you were still quite loud. youâre slump backward, feeling him turn off the toy from his phone with a simple button and he chuckles. âbaby youâre so fuckinâ dramatic,â and he drags a thumb against your now soaked entrance. youâre panting, tummy heaving and heaving as your quaking legs were all sprawled open underneath the table. pried open just for him. âsuch a wet girl. kinda just wanna get a little taste. my own appetizer before the meaââ
âchilled alaskan king crab legs, two complementary cups of ice and herb roasted chickenâ?â a waiter cuts off gojo as heâs flirting with you. with a whip of a head turn, he glances up, a bit annoyed at being interrupted. the waiter with the ordered food in hand stares at the two of you, a short petite male with a eye twitching expression. he gulped, seeing the gojo satoru and decided not to question just why his hand was literally between your thighs. âum, sorry for the delay. here you go.â
âthank you,â gojo cheeses a fake smileâyet as he watches intently as the waiter hands you both the steaming hot plates of lavish cuisine. he pops the same finger that was toying with you right into his mouth. you gaze at gojo, so filthy..
again, no shame at allâa shameless man at best. briefly, he sucks against his finger, savoring the after honeyed taste before smirking. it was as if he preferred your taste rather than the food sitting right in front of him. curling his tongue against his finger, he gives the server a coy nod. âkeep the change, man.â
the waiter was stunned to see gojo reaching in his suit, grabbing out a whopping tip amount of four hundred dollars in cashâhe stammers, accepting it with a grateful sheepish smile. âah, t- thank you. please do come again.â
as the server leaves, youâre left with your own body still panting from your most recent teeth shattering release. the food was sizzling, piping hot. with hooded, partly open eyes, you dig your nails into his slacks. âyouâre s- so nasty, âtoru,â and picturing the image of him licking his finger like that . . just a few seconds ago as if it was nothing, youâd lie a bit if you said it didnât turn you on. at least a little bit anyway. he snickers, planting a kiss against your jawline as you struggle to catch your incoming irregular breaths. âmy panties are all soaked now.â
âand. letâs be realâwhen are you not wet, princess,â he teases, grabbing a napkin to wipe the remnants of drool seeping from the outer corners of your mouth.
gojoâs eyes were so pretty, the more you stare into his elegant, ethereal pupilsâ the more you wanted him. wanted more of him. swallowing, he grabs the front of your hand before kissing it. the moment his lips press against your hand, you feel your tummy swarm up with butterflies. âand donât pout. âm gonna take them right off ya anyways, câmon. letâs finish eating. got a surprise for ya back at home.â
at gojoâs mansion, secluded from other buildings to disturb his peaceâhis surprise for you was nothing more than his tongue.
âi need you so bad, you donât fuckinâ understand,â he groans, and heâs making sure to take his time with you. his sweet precious time,
youâre in the master bedroomâ his bedroom where it was known for having your sweet moans reverberating and bouncing off the walls. as youâre laid on your back, you let off a soft whine once heâs trailing his tongue everywhere down your body. he starts slow, making his way back up to kiss you. strands of delicate snowy strands tickle against your forehead as his lips harshly crash onto yours. you moan, sliding your tongue against his and tasting the leftover taste of what tasted like sweet, sweet tequila. he was still in his suit and tie and you wanted nothing more than to have it off. your hands roam to yank on his tie and he gradually grinds his body against you. âyeah, thatâs right. ouch my body, girl. all yours.â
heâs speaking between lewd wet kisses. his voice was deepâhis rhythm against your body was so passionate that it was almost carnal. you taste a bit of mint on his tongue also, separate tongues continue to dance and fight against each other all the while heâs left you speechless.
breathless even,
every few seconds heâd have to come up for air, nibbling against your bottom lip coltishly. âdonât be shy,â he whispers, watching as you hesitate to feel against his body. he finds that characteristic about you cute, how you were still shy yet slowly warming up to him. âtouch me,â he repeats, his voice a bit more raspyâ a bit more needy. so you do, raising your hand and you slip it underneath his dress shirt. as the cottony piece of clothing glides against your skin, heâs still compressing his lips against yours before your fingers start to roam further . . .
as they wander down the older manâs body, you feel his exact build. he was absolutely ripped, even in his early thirtiesâhe could have easily been mistaken as a frat boy. it was no surprise, gojo practically spent his life in the gym. his personal gym anyway. you couldnât help but take a peak at his buff bicepsâonly imagining whatâd it be like for him to put you in a teasing chokehold.
those arms, that jacked build . .
the more you ponder about him manhandling you, the more youâre so close to making yourself more drenched. as everything progresses, you moan again. his sensual grinding against you gets more quicker and quicker over time. his hardened bulging boner rubs off on you and an arm of yours slings around his broad neck. âmhm,â he groans, feeling the soft centers of your fingertips stroke its way down toward his forbidden happy trail.
it trails and trails,
so pretty, just a beloved white trail of curled hair running down just above the horizontal border of the rest of his pubic hair. it starts near his navel and slides its way further down. a vertical strip of hair that you could never get your hands off of. as youâre still kissing him deeply, teeth gnashing amongst each other before gojo ultimately ulls away.
âfuck, âm gonna cum jusâ from kissing you,â he lets off a throaty laugh, trying to hide his flustered state. you had him so weak. so weak but heâd never admit that. gojo brings his swollen, dripping lips towards your neck, then your collarbone, all until he goes just a bit lower. âlook at this body,â he coos, pausing to take in your beauty right underneath him. âyeah, âm gonna take such good care of you, sweets. jusâ lie back ân let me love you.â
his words were as smooth as silkâ the deep, resonating pitch in it bellows all around the thin walls of his bedroom. the seductively sly baritone of his voice alone makes you pulse. if it was anything gojo had, he had a way with his fucking words. gojo purses his lips, coating your tummy with a plethora of kisses. you struggle to stay still, your expensive dress he bought you a few days ago for this exact occasion now all wrinkled and creases.
but truthfully,
he didnât careâbesides, heâd always buy you another one. his favorite motto.Â
as youâre lounged back, he makes you spread your legs. âmwah,â he purrs against your skin, lolling out his tongue just a bit to create a slime wet trail. it goes all the way down until he reaches near your cute navel . . then up to your half ripped panties. they werenât ripped before the date, but they certainly were now. âyouâre so sensitive today. barely did anythin' ân youâre squirminâ from my touch.â
âs- satoru, please,â you whine out a pathetic breath. a hand then grips onto his tangled strands like velcro. tightly, you didnât let goâ at least not yet anyway. his hair was were messy, and that simple detail alone made him ten times more attractive. gojoâs hair as usual was a bit slicked back but still unkempt, especially now due to your gluing grip. fingers of yours massage its way through his scalp and he almost moans. with a pouty expression, you continue to speak. âyouâve been edging me all day. âs no fair.â
âthaaaatâs kind of rude,â he chaffs with his white brows contorting into a furrow. âwas the toy not enough?â and with a shushed tone, he whistles against your clitâ giving it a soft kiss, a thumb peeling down the center. âoh, right.. probably wasnât, forgot how greedy this pussy is. âs my bad.â
your back arches, and you moan once he prods two long fingers inside of youâyour warmth envelops around his digits easily before he pulls it out to give it a good three second whiff. âsweet,â gojo slyly says, licking against his fingers. âwould have rather ate this instead,â and you moan, watching how his mouth was practically watering from your alluring taste. such a nasty man, the nastiest. gojo leans up to you, tapping against your chin. âah ah, open that mouth baby, before i eat. donât wanna hog, wanna make sure ya get a taste too.â
whimpering, you part your lipsâ sticking out your tongue before his lengthy slender fingers tug its way into your mouth.
immediately, you suck around them, lashes of yours fluttering from your blissful arousal. âm-mhm,â you slip out an inaudible gasp, feeling his free hand grab against your twitching cunt. gojoâs staring at you with the most smug expression before he pulls his digits out, sneaking a wet kiss right on your mouth. as you taste yourself, a messy cobweb string of spit departs from each mouth before he lies you back down. âfuck, hurry âtoru.â
ânow . . baby, donât rush me,â he teases, and with your back laid against the squishy cushioned mattress, he finally digs in. your knees poke and extend outward and a sweet whine rips out rawly out of your throat. itâs almost guttural, heâs yanking out noises from you that you didnât even know you could even produce.
once gojo startsâ itâs never ending.Â
he could eat you out for hours, despite how his jaw would tense and tighten. youâre moaning at the way he starts off with sloppy kisses before just straight up digging in. nose deep within seconds. it swipes against your folds in various circular motions. the rotation of his tongue was brutalâ youâre whimpering, maintaining a rough grip against his hair and he chuckles. sucking deeply against your puffy slit. you throb in his mouth, and youâre already squelching. gojo groans, reaching a hand inside of his executive pants to stroke himself off.
your pleasure was his pleasure after all. he wanted to always make that clear.
gojo wasnât lying about pointing out how hard you made him. a thumb of his runs down the vein that remains on his dick. with his eyes closed, he allows his tongue to wander through every part of your pussy. he knew just where to go. he knew the exact spots to make you scream and whine out for more.
with ease, he locates every orificeâ he doesnât miss anywhere, more so because he canât afford to.Â
gojo loves more than anything to make out with your cunt. his most favorite thing to do was to french kiss against it.
after each obscene mwah after mwah, he even allows his own saliva to help him outâ despite how you were already a practical dripping faucet. careless, saturated kisses of his had you throbbing time and time again in his mouth. his head vigorously shakes back and forth, side to side as youâre practically shoving him forward. âehâeasy on the hair, pretty,â he jibes, concisely parting his lips away. gojo stares at his thumb thatâs trying to insert its way in. he grows quiet, watching the scene in front of him. within long extended seconds, your pussyâs swallowing the single digit whole and you swear under your breath at how lengthy his fingers were . . even a simple thumb. gojoâs thumb stretched you out so good that you couldnât even comprehend the feeling in words. not like you could comprehend anything anyway, you were already stupid. all from his tongue, his touch, everything. âgod, such a wet girl. the nerve to be walkinâ around this soaked, ân sheâs quite the talker today too..â
as heâs rambling with a thumb entering in and out of your cunt, he takes a moment to spit on it. itâs shimmery, he blows against it before letting off a flirty whistle. âyeah she fuckinâ is,â he praises your folds. âoooh, bet sheâs gonna give me a nice squirt or two later,â and you moan once he brings his chatty lips back towards it. your pool of heat continues to grow before he lays his tongue flat. he was always a man to make a bit of a mess. your heartbeat starts to get so rapid that you heard itâs pulse right through your ears. the firm grip you have on his hair was tight. tangled crumped up fingers combing right through his hairâ it makes him a bit hard. the feeling of you dragging him back and forth against his face. you could barely keep your legs open but you didnât want him to stop. heâs practically slobbering over your pussy before he breaks away, giving you a smug grin. âlike when i make out with her more than you?â
âf-fuck, âtoru,â was all you could mutter out in shaky lips. as heâs relishing his meal between your thighs, gojo spanks your cunt twice. youâre so soaked that a few sloshing droplets hit against his skin. ângh, youâre teasinâ me. âm gonna cum if you k-keep doinâ that.â
sucking passionately against your clit, his tongue flicks against the sensitive nub. that spots has you short circuiting. ânuh uh, good girls cum when they deserve it,â and the tempo of his suckling gets quicker by the mile. youâre about to break, unceremoniously grinding your hips against his mouth so much to where he chortles. as he laughs, hot breath of his fans against your pussy and it only makes you throb ten times more.Â
straight convulsions,Â
youâre feeling so many sensations languidly twitch against your body all at once that you could barely keep up. everythingâs fuzzy so you felt like you were on cloud eight. cloud nine or whatever people call itâ honestly, your mind was far too fried to even figure it out. gojo grunts, snapping you back to reality with a soft swat against your folds. âbe honest with me, sweets,â gojo slicks his tongue out of your clingy walls, peppering a playful kiss against your soddened, moist folds. âdo ya deserve to cum? do ya deserve to be my messy baby? tell me the truth.â
with a cute, exasperated sigh, you sob out a needy cry. ây- yesss, iâve been good, âtoru. been good all day,â and his sucking against your clit grows within speed. the very cartilage of his nose against his nose prods against your entrance and you feel like youâre floating. the tip of his nose was all soaked, all because of your cunt continuously scooting up against it. as heâs propped right up between your legs, a hand of his squeezes down on your right thigh before giving it a little bite. your legs, one of his favorite things to gently press his teeth into. as well as your neck, but your legsâthey were just a force to be reckoned with. you were a force to be reckoned with. âsatoruuuu.â
âsweetheaaaaart,â he mocks your cute dragging of your words, slurping every lewd amount of your primal arousal. youâre so cute, barely bring able to stay still so much to where heâs got to hold you in place. âbut you were beinâ a bit of a brat earlier,â he hoarsely utters, rubbing his hard on against the edge of the bed. âteasinâ me, even tried âta stroke me off while we were in the diner,â and with coy eyes, he gives you a cunning smirk. as you pout, he simpers. âaww yeahhh, remember that dontcha?â
continuing to rut your sloppy cunt against his face, he playfully nibbles against your clit â you whine, biting down on your lip before spreading a plump thumb against your folds like jelly.
âdunno if she should be messy just yet,â and heâs such a tease. as he speaks, his eyes avert towards your pussy, clearly wanting you to understand he was talking to her and not you. at least not right now. you could hear the playfulness underneath his tone. your heartâs racingâ itâs so intense, your legs were quavering within his hold. struggling to maintain decent breaths, you end up finishing anyway. it hits you so abruptly that itâs rude, all kinds of nerves surge through you and your mouth pries itself open. the only thing escaping out of your sweet dry throat was a desperate, wailing whimper. gojo pauses, bringing a final kiss against your pussy before smearing a thumb against his lips. âthe fuck.â
âs- sorry,â you pant, but truth be toldâyou werenât. in fact, if he squinted just enough, he could see the little smile trying to stretch itself against your guilty, sheeny lips. youâd only last a few minutes with his tongue, featuring his long fingers, but still.Â
first and foremost, your powerful orgasm had you feral, a cooling air suddenly sets down against your skin as your legs tremble before your pussy gets slapped with a mean smack. one turns into two, then three, then four . .Â
âf- fuuuck, âtoru,â you gasp, hearing the wet swats against your cunt. youâre still sensitive, your swollen folds all dampened with nothing but your slick, soaking arousal. so wet, so sloppily wet and only wet just for him.
âwe talked âbout this, sweets,â gojo grumbles, giving your folds an almost disappointed kiss. âbut âs like ya never listen, guess yâr pussy needs more training,â and as youâre trying to collect as much gasps of air as you can through your full lungs, he squeezes your cunt with his entire wrist. unzipping his slacks, he leans into you before pulling you into a kiss. the entire spacey room was dim lit, velvety shaded rose petals scattered everywhere onto the crinkled sheets. gojo knew how to set the mood. as he shoves a tongue down your throat, still getting a good grip of your cunt with his palm, he then makes you flop right onto your back. âmch,â he hastily pulls away, a tongue savoring your sweetened lip gloss that smothers itself against your twitching mouth. âcanât look at ya right now. face that way, yeah. face down ân ass up. jusâ like i taught ya, pretty.â
with unsteady hands sinking into the bed, you do as he says. a soft whine ferociously snatches out of you once a big hand of his caresses your left ass cheek. his touch, you were always so weak for it. ever since you first met the man, your first encounter which was about approximately almost two weeks ago. you started to get deeply attached, well, at least your body was . .Â
as you arch forward, you feel a soft scratchy material plop against your back. gojo doesnât waste time, tugging down his own brand of boxers with his last name stripped in bold letters near the stretchy hem. grunting, he springs his aroused dick out, aligning himself against your achy, drooling entrance. the feeling of material was just gojo throwing a few wads of cash near your back. âbratty but gorgeous,â he scoffs, feeling you wriggle your ass against him. oh, you were gonna be the death of him. the fifty dollar bills trail and slide down your spineâ the view of it was so sexy, he wanted to savor this moment. youâre his favorite girl, he already knew it. a hand of his grips near your hip. âneedy âlil thing. just gotta move that ass against me,â and as heâs speaking, he gifts your ass with another impolite spank. âugh, pussyâs to die for.â
âs- satoru, fuck me,â your plea came out of your mouth in such a small tone. it was cute, your knees that dug into the mattress remain to grow shaky and wobbly before nearly giving out. the size difference amused him.
the delicious size of his fat cock was pure bliss. you donât think you could ever get used to it. every time with him always felt like the first. with two clingy big hands glued to your waist, heâs easing his way in slowly. his fat tip ploddingly opens up the outer sloppy walls of your entrance and youâre so slick for him that youâre already coating gojo from the very base down. growing a bit frustrated that it seems like heâs taking forever, you creep a hand down between your thighs to touch yourself but he only spanks your wrist away.
âgirlâplease, letâs not touch my pussy today,â he warns slyly, catching your hand with quick reflexes.
you moan, feeling his girth expand throughout your walls. heâs just so fucking big, your mouth stretches itself open and a tiny squeak escapes. âso wet, mhm, listen to how sloppy you get for me,â and you end up falling face forward into the bed. with your ass still up in the air, heâs easily emitting such filthy moans from your throat. your pussy doesnât take long to constrict around his hefty length. gojo always fits nice and snug inside, you wholeheartedly take him inside, drooling from how your cunt grips around him in such a secure way. just one thrust, a single thrust from gojo and you were already limp. âthereee we go, take it, pretty.â
âi-iâm gonna cum,â you whine, speaking in an almost breathy way. fat callused fingertips of his run down your spine, sending you various shivers before he spanks your bass again. the dollar bills that lay against your back start to fall right off of you from the quick paced movements. âs- sirrrr,â and with another smack, he corrects your sweet tone so you can rephrase and address him the right way. âiâ i mean satoru, fuck youâre sâbig. âm gonna cum again.â
âoh, donât be dramatic sweetheart,â he purrs in a rich tone, feeling you already start to gape around him. your pussy flutters from his thick entrance, and once he starts up a pace youâre frantic for more. a hand of his wraps around the back of your throat like a necklace before the ruthless drilling eventually starts. the sticking cacophonous pap pap paps against each jerking limb paps was so loud. skin against skin, body against body, you felt your jaw tighten. heâs so precise and rigorous with his sharp hips that it gives you whiplash. youâre never preparedâeven if you try to be. gojo knows how to hit every part of your cunt in such a way to make you squeal out in pleasure, in ecstasy. heâs got an upward curve that wanders all inside of your caved love areas. just a few thrusts and you were already salivating. âmhm,â he huffs, hearing the stickiness your cunt sings against his base. already, itâs a wet trail coating around his dick with each time he pulls out before back in. âdonât get lazy on me, pretty. i need to see a better arch. even i can do better than that.â
with a pout at his maddening cockiness, he spanks you again. you arch your back forward a bit more and he coos, âgood fuckinâ girl,â and he grabs a nice chunk of your ass. burying your head into the crook of your elbow, it takes him barely any time at all to locate your forbidden g-spot.
once he hits it exactly, the sound that escapes from your lips was adorableâit was a little shriek, it sounded so beatific and harmonious it was as if he was listening to a song. a song he never wanted to end, your sweet voice. âgoddamn,â he groans, feeling your ass thwack its way back against him in salacious rapture. oh, but despite that all, he knows youâre nothing but a tease. especially with your movements against him, happily moving your hips in sync with his. youâre fucking back against him and it makes him kiss his teeth. âmaybe this âs what ya needed all along, wanted âta spoil you today but all you wanted was dick, âs that right, sweet thing?â
ân- no,â you lie through your teeth, your own voice muffled with how youâre speaking inside of your elbow. your voice was shaky, trembling on every dragging syllable before the bed starts to get rickety. it creates sound with you bothâ making its own types of lewd harmonies. gojoâs weight pressing against you makes you throb, you were feeling all kinds of pleasure at once. whimpering once more at how heâs stuffing you full of thickset inches, you try to reach down to touch yourself.Â
âdonât play with me,â he catches your wrist again, an almost snicker departing from his lips.
damn, so close.
holding onto your wrist, he notices you squeeze his hand, rubbing a thumb against his fingers. âaw, does the baby wanna hold my hand?â and as you struggle to nod, he gently pins your arm back.âyouâre somethinâ e-else.â
his words start to cut off a bit as heâs keeping up a decent tempoâthe frame of the king sized bed starts to get jittery. all from the weight and his sloppy hips rigorously pounding into you. the bedâs creaking, itâs almost deafening with how it screeches aloud from the massing pounds of hefty pressure crushing against it. âd-donât stop, please,â and heâs just fucking you into his pillow. even the satiny rich sheets of his pillows smell like him. his signature musky scent of his gojo satoru cologne.
. . speaking of,
his pillows even have his last name bedazzled on them. literal cursive letters of âgojoâ written in blue. if you werenât so fucked out, youâd roll your eyes. heâs so deep, a hand of his explores the entire curvature of your hips. your curves were one of his favorite parts of your body, he could touch you all day long if he really wanted. the loving warmth that body provided him had him wanting moreâyearning for more, more of you. gojo always relishes in how you respond to just a few of his fingers of his dancing against your skin. you were so sensitive and it was a real sight to witness. one of his favorite sights. âfuck, âtoru. right there, riiight there, fuck.â
as his hips become more sharper, he hits against that same spot that causes a short circuit in your brain. youâre gaspingâholding your breath before whining, heâs so thorough. hands of yours slide underneath your barely unclamped bra, fondling against your jerking tits. âgood girl, play with yâr nipples for me like that,â and he swats another discourteous spank against your ass. this time itâs harder, it stings for a second and you whimper out from the sudden contact. after he spanks it, he always caresses it, rubbing the soft palm of his hand to make the sudden sting subside. âyâr so fuckinâ hot, pussyâs gonna make me fall for yââ
and he stops his words right at that last bit. your heart fluttersâ or maybe that was just your pussy, but you were no idiot. you knew what he was gonna say. or maybe you were delusional and misheard what he was saying.Â
gojo satoru was a filthy man, he steals out orgasm after orgasm out of you like itâs nothing. he was a little older, which meant that he was a bit more experienced.
quite a lot more than you by a long shot, he made you feel ways in where other men never could. couldnât even come close. maybe thatâs why you were so attracted, why you wanted more . .Â
a well known businessman, but downright nasty in the sheets. he couldnât help it, nor did he even really care. gojo had you wrapped around his rich finger, just like how you had him wrapped around yours.Â
with him,
the passionate intimacy lasts for many many hours. timeless, numerous until your legs were sore, until youâre just being a cum dump for him. youâre pumped full until itâs leaking out of your cunt. so stuffed, with your panties still lazily pulled to the size, some remnants of his cum coats against it. heâs lost count of how many rounds it wasâ maybe four, five, or was it eight.Â
all you knew was that your legs had been gave out. you were now flat on your back and heâs fucking you in missionary.
beloved, iconic missionary,
the perfect position to stare you right into your eyes. he grows a liking to grab your chin right when youâre about to cum, peeling your bottom lip down, only to then shove a tongue down your throat. speaking between breathy sentences, he groansârocking his fit body against yours. âkiss me, baby, suck my tongue,â and as heâs swaying back and forth, washboard abs poking through his shirt, your legs lock around his slim waist. a hand of yours slides its way through his dress shirt and tux, feeling against his faint chest hair and washboard abs before you part your lips. you only then start to gradually suck against the tip of his tongue. his heart beats speedily, synchronizing with yours entirely. heâs dizzy, the static that your body produces against him makes his head throw back as he pulls away. glancing up at the ceiling, still presenting your cunt deep solid strokesâhe knew you were gonna be a problem.Â
his prettiest problem,
perhaps he wasnât starting to think of you as just his sugar baby, maybe even something more . . but he buried that thought into the very back of his mind. all he really cared about was your pleasure.Â
pulling away for a moment, still buried into your sopping wet cunt, he grips your chin. whispering in a weary tone, smiling at you, he sighs. â. . tell me,â and he gifts your wet lips a chaste kiss. âyou wanna finish with me, pretty?â
âp- please,â you moan, your legs tightly locking around his waist, never letting go. everything was a messâ the entire room had a balmy aroma of love and passion. the both of you were sweating, beads of sweat coating each body. more so gojo, this was a mere work out for him. although, he was actually used to using his body on a daily, so physical activity never bothered him in the slightest. your stomach continues to seize from his fat length and he inches his mouth toward your neck again. his lips were so soft, gently sucking against your tender skin throughout each intimate moment.
viscous amounts of cum race down your thighs as if itâs some kind of lewd competition. as itâs slowly trickling down between your legs slowly, a hand of his slithers down your shaky limbs to feel it. to make sure it doesnât go to waste, to make sure it doesnât spill.
gojo satoruâs cum was pricelessâquite literally probably. plugging it back in before you whine. âwanna cum with you, âtoru.â
âcan never say no to you, baby,â he hums, bringing another kiss to your lips. despite his raspy worn out toneâheâs still so gentle with your body in his hands. gojoâs zealous hips slow down a bit before his lips capture against yours again. a hand swiftly wraps around your throat, briskly oscillating back against your body before another hand grabs the headboard. you glance up, spitting the veins poke out through his sleeves that were peeling down. heâs giving you slow, sensual thrusts. âfuuuck . . me,â and his words were delayed by a few seconds. heâs mercilessly grinding against your heat so good to where it becomes sloppy. heâs so close againâhe knows that feeling all too well. you didnât know what to focus on. gojoâs length, the girth that keeps your walls sweetly captive, or his voice but it was all so appetizing. so . . flavorsome.
he couldnât help but slow down his hips a bit. with a single hand, he reaches down to pull his leaky dick out right before he came. he shot into you alreadyâdozens of times actually, but he felt like being a tease again.
âugh,â he groans, feeling his base swollen itself up. as you finish on your own, your body transmitting into a shockwave of a wave of rapturing rhapsody he mimics you before a stringy amount of ropes splat right onto your folds. itâs so much, so viscous and goopy that paints the entrance of your cunt to where itâs as if your pussy was a mere canvas for him. âlook at thaaaat,â and as he licks his lips, youâre shaking right underneath him. gojo leans in to kiss you and thatâs when the bed suddenly jitters. itâs rumbling but he ignores itâ bringing you into the nth kiss for the night. âatta girl.â he whispers between kisses.
as youâre leaning into his touch, your anklet erotically rubs down the muscles of his back in such a sensual way. with tongues tangling together in corresponding harmony, the expensive wood on the headboard suddenly breaks. itâs a ear-splitting noise, an almost creak. noticing the noise, you break away from his lips before sheepishly muttering.Â
âdid the bed just . . break?â
âperhaps,â gojo whispers, but he was totally unfazed. you had him pussy whipped, he didnât even look tired.
pretty cerulean irises gaze into your allâso pretty that it almost could be mistaken for a solid pigment of green. a jade loving kind of green that you only see in jewels. his intense, needy stare longs into you for a few more seconds before he makes you flip over. you gasp, still feeling his cum ooze out of you from the inside. it was so feverishly warm, sweltering hot with bulks of his sticky seed. all that and you just wanted more, you didnât care how greedy or needy you came across.
snickering, gojo picks up the money thatâs scattered everywhere on the bed only to put them right back on your back where it belongsâ
he then sticks a single fifty dollar bill between your lazily stuck-to-the-side panties before letting off a dry laugh.
âletâs not worry about that though. letâs worry âbout how âm gonna try âta get you pregnant, tonight sweetheart. nowww, letâs practice that arch again one more time, my love. bend over just for me, yeah. atta fuckinâ girl.â
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was i stupid to love you?



in which a lingering glance at Rossiâs wedding threatens your engagement.
content: angst, 4.8k, takes place right after truth or dare (14x15), a lot of dialogue, mention of prison arc, emotional distress, relationship conflict, not proofread a/n: when was the last time you saw me write angst? exactly. this is inspired by malcolm & marie bc i really like the idea of having an argument while moving around the house (also disclaimer i have nothing against JJ i just like being dramatic)
The lock clicks open. The door swings with a creak. Your heels tap against the hardwood in a hollow rhythm that feels almost too loud. Thereâs a tightness in your chest, that prickling behind your eyes, and a familiar ache pressing up from the pit of your stomach, churning into a faint nausea that you try to ignore. Youâre trying to hold it back.
Not here.
Not now.
Spencer doesnât even look up. The keys slip from his hand with a soft clink as they hit the side table, and he turns away with a quiet sigh that reverberates deep in your bones.
âAre you hungry?â he asks, tossing a glance toward the kitchen. âThink we could order something?â
You trail after him, the sharp click of your heels echoing as you step onto the kitchen tile. âWe just came back from a wedding.â
Heâs rifling through the cupboard, his fingers brushing over the mismatched mugs and neatly stacked plates before he pulls down two glasses. âI barely ate anything at the reception.â
You watch him, biting back a response as memories flicker to mind. The slice of cake heâd poked at absentmindedly, washing it down with sips of water instead of real food.
It wasnât hunger he seemed focused on tonight. No, it was his quiet glances across the room you keep on catching from the corner of your eye, and that conversation heâd had at the bar. The one where his posture softened, his gaze so intent youâd found yourself staring at the back of his head, trying not to read too much into itâand obviously failing.
âWhy didnât you eat?â
He shrugs, his back still to you as he fills the glasses with water. âI donât know,â he says, sounding almost absent, like itâs something he hasnât really thought about. âI didnât get around to it, I guess.â
The muscles in your jaw ticks as you bite the inside of your cheeks.
Spencer turns, offering you a glass. âI was thinking of Chinese, or maybe we can check if that Thai place you like is still open.â
You take the glass from him, barely sparing it a glance before setting it back down on the counter. âWhatever you want is fine.â
A subtle crease appears between his brows. âYou sure? You usually have some opinion when it comes to food.â
âIâm not hungry.â
âYou donât want to eat anything?â
You suppress a sigh. "No. I'm tired."
The soft amber of his eyes dims slightly as he studies you. There's a flicker of uncertainty passing through them before he nods. âAlright,â he concedes. âWe donât have to order anything.â
A faint, humorless laugh escapes you before you can stop it. It tastes bitter, a little unfair, but it slips out before you can pull it back, âYou donât have to change your plans on my account, Spencer.â
âIâm not changing any plans,â he responds. âIâm just making sure you have something to eat in case youâre hungry.â
Your shoes dig uncomfortably into your feet. You shift your weight, starting to pace a few steps back and forth. "It's dinner, you don't have to check on me for every little thing. Do whatever you like."
He blinks, looking genuinely perplexed. "What are you saying? I was trying to be considerate."
"Right. Considerate.â
Thereâs an unmistakable bite in your tone.
âYes, because we like doing these things together," he observes, watching your uneasy pacing. "Am I missing something here?â
You shake your head. âNope.â
"Honey."
The term of endearment lands softly, slipping from his lips like he believes it has the power to melt whatever tension has suddenly crept between you. But it only tightens the knot building in your stomach. Itâs stirring the words youâre trying to hold back, tangling them somewhere between your chest and throat.
He calls your name this time, his eyes narrowing into sharp lines. âYouâve been awfully quiet on our way home, and now youâre⊠honestly, I donât know why you're acting this way.â His voice dips with a tinge of exasperation. "Whatâs this really about?"
The words youâve been biting back feel like a stack of stones in your throat, rising up, up, up, each one pressed tighter by the gnawing nausea in your stomach. You can feel them gathering, and before you know it, they tumble out messily.
âIâm just saying, donât let me hold you back from getting what you want. I wouldnât want to stop you from anythingâor, god forbid," you add, letting your gaze drift away as if a little distance might soften the blow, âanyone.â
The soft, almost stifled inhale he takes is audible. You donât even have to look up to see his expression shifting. Youâve known him long enough to recognize the way his shoulders tense, the way his breathing slows as he processes your words. You know his reaction by heart, yet right now, you wonder if saying this was a mistake, if this is the start of something neither of you can take back.
His fingers twitching at his side slip into your line of sight. He's angry.
Maybe this isnât the time to start a fight.
âWhat is that supposed to mean?â
Your heels click softly as you turn.
âForget it. I shouldn't have said anything,â you mutter, already moving toward the bedroom thatâs been yours, too, for the past year. Although it feels strange tonight, like a space that belongs to someone else. A life youâre not entirely sure you belong in.
âNo." His voice is somewhere behind you. âI think you should explain to me what you mean by that.â
You donât respond, choosing instead to sink onto the edge of the bed, hands fumbling as you try to undo the straps of your heels. You twist the stubborn leather with more force. His shadow fills the doorway.
âHoney.â
Not again.
You decide to ignore him.
âIs there something youâd like to say to me?â
You tug harder at the strap. âNo.â
He doesnât buy it. âYouâre clearly bothered by something.â
You shake your head, fingers still fumbling, the leather cutting against your ankle with each pull. âIâm just tired. Can we leave it at that?â
Thereâs a flicker of frustration in his gaze now, a crease forming between his brows as he studies you. He moves into the room. You barely have the chance to react before he lowers himself, bending one knee to the floor as he reaches toward the strap youâve been fighting with. âHere, let meââ
âDonât,â you interrupt, pulling your foot away. âI can do it myself.â
âI know you can. But let meââ
âI can do it myself!â
Your heartbeat thuds loud in your ears, each pulse feeding the frustration thatâs wound its way up from your chest. He rises slowly, not a word passing his lips, but the tension radiates off him like heat. Heâs close enough that his warmth presses against your skin, although itâs not the kind you usually find comforting. Itâs almost suffocating.
You turn your focus back to the stubborn strap, your fingers trembling slightly as you struggle to grip it. Out of the corner of your eye, you catch him slipping off his shoes, one after the other, the soft thuds barely audible over the rush of your own heartbeat. He pulls off his suit jacket, carefully smoothing the crumpled fabric before hanging it in the closet. For a moment, it seems like heâs going to let it go⊠until his gaze drifts back to you.
You can tell his patience is fraying, and youâre proven right when he asks again, âWhat did you mean by that? When you said you wouldnât want to stop me from anyone⊠what was that supposed to mean?â
You finally manage to tug the strap loose. The heel drops to the floor with a muted thump. âIt was nothing.â
âI donât think youâd say something like that if it was nothing.â
Your focus shifts to the other shoe. âJust drop it, Spencer.â
"How am I supposed to drop it when you're implying... whatever it is you're implying?"
You keep your eyes down, wrestling with the strap in silence. He cuts through the quiet before it has a chance to grow.
âDonât do that,â he says. âDonât brush it off like itâs nothing when it clearly means something. I need to know why you said that.â
You kick off the other heel and meet his gaze for the first time since you walked into the room. âYou really want to know?â
He reaches for his bow tie, yanking it loose it with one hard pull. âDo I want to know why youâre giving me this attitude right now? Yes. Yes, I do.â
Oh. So this is going to be that kind of fight.
You hadnât expected it to go here. Fights with Spencer are very rare, usually more a clash of misunderstandings that you both laugh about with limbs tangled between sheets by the time youâve made peace. But seeing him standing there with the tie hanging loosely around his neck and his five oâclock shadow casting an even darker line along his jaw, it hits you differently.
This is real. And this time, you donât know if brushing it off will fix anything.
âFine, letâs talk about it then.â You rise from the bed, tension carrying you to your feet. âEmilyâs speech tonight.â
His brow furrows, not quite a scowl, more a cautious crease as he processes your tone. âEmilyâs speech? What about it?â
âWhat do you remember of it?â
Thereâs a slight pause, and you can tell he's clearly caught off guard by the question. âShe mentioned how Rossi and Krystal are twin flames."
âRight. Two souls that are always meant to be together.â
His face is still marked by confusion, but thereâs something else creeping in. A subtle tightening around his eyes tells you heâs starting to piece it together. âI donât understand what that has to do withââ
âYou looked at JJ the second Emily made that speech,â you cut him off. âSpencer, you didnât even spare a glance at your future wife because you were too busy making eyes at the woman whoâs apparently been in love with you all these years.â
There. You said it. The words that have twisted around your insides all evening are finally out. And maybe they taste a little bitter, but at least they're not choking you anymore.
A second passes, then another, and by the time the fifth heartbeat ticks by, heâs standing there with his hand on his hip.
âThatâs not what happened."
âThen what was it?â you demand. "I sat beside you the whole day, you didn't even try to hide it."
âThatâs notâyouâre twisting things.â His hand moves through his hair, fingers digging in as his curls tumble forward onto his forehead. âAnd you know what happened that night wasnât real. It was a forced confession. She was under duress, we both were. JJ and I are just friends.â
You arch an eyebrow. âYou look at all your friends like that?â
His hand drops to his side. "I don't know what else you want me to say. JJ said what she did because she thought we might die. She has a family, and a husband who she loves. We already went through this, I don't understand why this is suddenly an issue again."
âMaybe I wouldnât be bringing this up if you didnât look at her tonight like you were ready to break up that marriage yourself.â
A flash of shock and anger crosses his features.
âThatâs not fair,â he snaps, his voice sharper than youâve heard in a while. âDo you really think Iâd disregard everything I have with you because of a look? Because of a history that has never gone anywhere?â
âI donât know what to think. It's not like it happened just once, I saw you looking at her the same way at the bar." You step forward, accidentally kicking your discarded heel as you move. "What were you two talking about, anyway?â
He lets out a tight breath. âShe was checking in on me. She⊠we havenât talked much since then.â
The corners of your mouth pull down. âMhm. Another round of truth or dare?â
âI canât believe youâre using that against me." His hair flops forward as he shakes his head, falling messily over his brow. "If there were anything unresolved with JJ, I wouldâve said something. But I didnât, because thereâs nothing there."
âAnd yet, sheâs always been an important part of your life, hasn't she?"
He tilts his head. "What are trying to say now?"
Your tongue darts out, briefly brushing your lips. You're not sure you should say it, but it feels like a door has swung openâa door to words that have been waiting for their moment.
You take a slow, deep breath, filling your lungs with as much air as you can.
âWhen you were in prison, you put her on your visiting list ahead of almost everyone else. Doesnât that say something about where she stands with you?â
He exhales sharply, dragging a hand over the back of his neck.
âSheâs part of the team,â he says, as if heâs trying to spell out something heâs already explained a dozen times. "There were strict rules, I already told you that only a handful of people were allowed to visit. It wasnât like I could just put anyone on the list.â
âBut you couldâve put me on there!â
The familiar burn of tears prickles at the edges of your eyes, but you blink them back, refusing to let them fall. An explanation or protest is poised on his lips, but youâre already moving, closing the distance with a single, decisive step. A finger lands on his chest.
âI was your girlfriend, Spencer. Were you that determined to keep me out? Was the thought of seeing me really so unbearable? Do you even understand how hard it was to sit at home, knowing you were locked up, feeling completely helpless? Do you have any idea how much I hated myself day after day because I couldnât do anything to help you?â
Your lips quiver. You feel like your heart is about to leap out of your throat.
âI was out here, just⊠waiting. Wondering if you were okay, if they were treating you alright, if you even had someone to talk to. And meanwhile, sheâs there, with you. Every single time, sheâs the one who gets to be by your side.â
Your nail digs into the fabric of his shirt.
âSo forgive me if I canât just let that go. Because when it mattered, it felt like you didnât want me to be there for you. And now⊠now I donât even know if you need me the way you seem to need her.â
Your breathing turns shallow, each inhale catching in your chest. The tears youâve been holding back are dangerously blurring your vision. You swallow the knot lodged in your throat.
âI need a minute.â
Without another word, you turn and walk out of the room, leaving him standing there in stunned silence. You slip back into the kitchen, leaning against the counter as you finally reach for the glass of water thatâs been sitting there untouched. You take a sip, barely feeling the cool water on your lips, when you hear his footsteps behind you.
âYou think I donât want you in my life?â he demands. âYou think I somehow need her more than I need you?â
You set the glass down. âWhat part of âI need a minuteâ do you not understand?â
âYou really expect me to wait quietly after you unloaded every doubt youâve ever had about us?â
You life your chin up. âYes, I do. I need space to think right now.â
âWhat more do you want to think about when youâve already convinced yourself that Iâm always going to fall short? Is it so hard to believe that youâre the one I want?â
âYou want to know why itâs so damn hard to believe?â You turn towards him. âBecause every time I try to let this go, thereâs always something. A confession. Thatâthat not-so-subtle look. And when those things happen, it reminds me that Iâm not as close to you as she is. Iâm fucking tired of feeling like Iâm fighting for space in your life.â
âDo you think I want you to feel like that? Do you think Iâd go through everything weâve been through if you didnât matter to me?â
âThen explain to me why I wasnât on that list!â you cry out. âExplain to me why, in one of the hardest times of your life, you couldnât make space for me?â
âBecause I was trying to protect you!â
A heavy, dreadful silence falls between you. He takes a step back, his eyelids fluttering shut briefly, and when he opens them again, thereâs a softness in his gaze that mirrors the gentleness now threading through his voice.
âI know it probably doesnât make sense to you, and maybe it never will, but I couldnât stand the idea of you seeing me like that. Living through it was hard enough, but having you there, seeing me so helpless⊠It would have crushed me. I didnât want that to be your memory of me.â
His Adamâs apple dips as he swallows, a quick, almost anxious movement youâve witnessed countless times.
âAnd when JJ came to see me,â he continues, âthe way the inmates looked at her, the things they said after she left⊠it was disgusting. I couldnâtâwouldnâtâlet that happen to you. I couldnât live with thought of you being subjected to that because of me.â
You lower your head with a sigh. âI donât care if they looked. I donât care what they wouldâve thought.â
âBut I care,â he fires back, taking a step forward. âBecause you mean more to me than anyone. All I wanted was to keep you safe, and maybe I didn't handle it right, maybe I made the wrong call... but it was only because Iâ" His voice drops into an even more gentle note. "Because I love you."
Your heart stumbles, an uneven beat that feels almost bruised, pounding hard against your ribs.
"I-I love you so much. More than I know how to put into words." The ache in your chest sharpens as his hands come up to cup your cheeks. "I don't like fighting with you. I hate it, actually. I hate seeing you look at me like this."
You also hate the way heâs looking at you. Thereâs a depth to his annoyingly pretty eyes that makes it impossible to hold up your defenses without feeling them crumble. You let your eyes flutter closed.
âWhy donât we⊠call it a night?â He suggests. âLetâs lie down. We donât have to talk about this now.â
The blackness behind your eyelids does little to quiet your mind. Nor does his voice. Or his touch. Instead of offering peace, his presence throws every glance, every moment of tension from tonight into sharper relief.
You draw in a breath, trying to find some comfort in his palms against your cheeks. Yet, even this canât smooth away the doubt thatâs settled in. With a resigned sigh, you release the breath youâve been holding along with the words that have been pressing at the back of your throat.
âYou havenât explained it to me.â
The shadows in his gaze seem to deepen when you open your eyes.
âWhat do you mean?â
âWeâve been going in circles, but you havenât explained to me what happened tonight,â you say quietly. âWhy did you look at her, Spencer?â
His thumb absently strokes your cheek in a way that feels more hesitant than reassuring.
âBe honest with me,â you press. âWas there a part of you, even the tiniest part, that still wanted something with her? Some small part of you that⊠wondered what it might be like?â
The silence between you presses in from all sides, broken only by the faint hum of the refrigerator and the distant, muffled ticking of a clock on the wall. Itâs the kind of quiet that sharpens even the smallest sounds, yet his lack of response feels like the loudest thing of all.
You pull back from him with an incredulous laugh.
âUnbelievable.â The word barely makes it past your lips, then louder as you start to move, pacing the length of the apartment. âUnbelievable.â
âWait,â he says, trailing after you, âI didnât even say anything.â
You stop short by the couch and whip around to face him.
âYou didnât need to! Youâyou hesitated," you stammer, searching his face for any flicker of denial, but itâs there, plain as day, that split-second of doubt you caught. âThat was already an answer.â
He inches closer. A hand closes in on you. âPleaseââ
You flinch, pulling back, and every muscle in your body tightens. âDonât. Donât touch me right now.â
His hand falls to his side. âPlease⊠let me explain."
You watch his hand drop, fingers twitching like theyâre not sure if they should retreat or reach out again, but he keeps them there, hovering in some invisible line youâve drawn. He looks at you with those big, pleading eyes, and for a split second, you almost feel bad for him.
Almost.
A bitter sort of smile tugs at the corner of your mouth. "So now you want to explain?"
He takes that as permission, and his voice comes in low, almost cautious. "When I first started at the BAU, I had⊠maybe a crush. A passing thing, barely anything, really. But that was fourteen years ago.â His hand scrubs through his hair in a frustrated sweep. âFourteen years."
Your brows pull into a frown. âWhy am I only hearing about this now?â
âBecause it was nothing,â he says, almost too quickly. âI was young, it didnât matter. I didnât think it was worth bringing up.â
âOh, I get it now. All those old feelings came rushing back the night she confessed, didnât they?â
He mirrors your frown, a visible line of tension etching itself between his brows as he protests, âItâs nothing like that.â
âThen what is it?â you press. âBecause from where Iâm standing, it looks a whole lot like youâre caught between us because some part of you is still hung up on what mightâve been with her."
He shifts uncomfortably, and you notice the muscles in his jaw clenching the moment his gaze falters, dipping away for just a heartbeat before he looks back at you.
âItâs not that I donât know what I want,â he starts to explain. âI didnât expect her to say those things, and, yes, it threw me off for a moment. But that doesnât mean Iâm looking back, or that I want her. I want you.â
You shake your head, feeling a tired sort of frustration settle over you, and walk over to the couch. The soft cushions give slightly beneath you as you sink down.
âIf you really wanted me, this wouldnât be happening. You wouldnât have let her get into your head like that. And now, you expect to believe that none of it meant anything?â
Heâs quick to follow, closing the distance in a few tense steps. âItâs notââ His hands flex open and close at his sides. âYouâre acting like one single look tonight is enough to decide Iâm not committed to you. Do you really think Iâd let some confession I didnât even ask for get in the way of what we have?â
âItâs not just about that single look. Itâs the way she could say something and suddenly, youâre pulled back to something you swore youâd put behind you. How am I supposed to feel secure when she still has that power over you?â
âAnd what am I supposed to do, then? Apologize for things I donât even feel anymore?â
You flinch at the sharpness in his voice. A low, frustrated noise rumbles in his chest when you donât respond.
âYouâre always going to question me no matter what I say, arenât you?"
You glance over at him, catching the disheveled strands of hair falling over his forehead, and it pulls you back to that night he came home after that dreadful night. Heâd walked in looking worn in a way youâd never seen before, his whole posture weighted down as if he was carrying more than just the fear of being held hostage.
You remember sitting with him on this same couch, fingers brushing his, and asking what was bothering him.
JJ said she loved me.
Your heart lurched, a quick, quiet ache that you tried to swallow down. Really?
Donât worry. Itâs not true.
But with that same haunted look in his eyes right now, you canât help but wonder if it really was just a well-intentioned lie.
âOne glance and youâre accusing me of things that are never going to happen,â he starts again. âDo you really think so little of me? After everything weâve shared, you really think Iâd betray you like that?â
In true honesty, you donât believe he would ever cross that line. But the doubts still linger, fed by those small hesitations, the moments when his eyes seem somewhere else. Itâs not that you think heâd betray you. Itâs that a part of him might still be holding onto something he wonât let you see.
âItâs like you donât know me at all.â
Now those words you might actually believe.
âMaybe I donât,â you say quietly, eyes drifting to the ring on your finger. You twist it absently, remembering the night he proposed. How heâd stumbled over his words, his cheeks flushing as he tried to make the moment perfect but ended up rambling in that endearing, nervous way of his. Youâd laughed, reassured him that it was exactly right, that you didnât need grand gestures. All you needed was him.
And yet, you donât think he needs you as much you need him.
A hollow ache settles around your hand as you slip the ring off.
âWhat are you doing?â
You stare down at the gold band in your palm, blinking back the sting of tears.
âTell me what youâre doing.â
Panic. Desperation. Thereâs a sudden rush of melancholy in his voice, a heaviness that wasnât there a moment ago.
You swallow the lump in your throat. âI donât know,â you whisper. âIâI donât know anything right now.â
His face crumples, and in a sudden, almost instinctive movement, he drops down to his knees.
âNo, no, you do know me. Iâm sorry⊠Iâm so sorry. Isnât thisââ he stops, then dips his head, trying to catch your gaze. âIsnât that what couples do? They argue, they mess things up⊠but they work through it, right? Right?â
You look down, feeling the cool weight of the ring pressing into your skin.
âSpencerâŠâ you begin. âI trust you. I do, and Iâm sorry if I made it seem like I didnât. But⊠I need to feel secure. I⊠I need to know that I donât have to wonder or worry about where I stand. I never thought youâd be the one to make me doubt that.â
Thereâs a sharp ache in your chest.
âI didnât think it could hurt this much. Not from you.â
Your pulse ring in your ear.
âI canâtââ The words catch in your throat, a stinging burn rising as you force them out. âI canât be your wife when Iâm constantly questioning if I have all of you. When I feel like⊠thereâs always a part of you that isnât mine.â
âIâm yours, honey. Iâm always yours.â
âI wish I could believe that.â
Thereâs a slight falter in his voice. âDonâtâplease donât do thisââ
âI canât keep pretending it doesnât hurt.â
He falls silent, and for a moment, the only sound is the rough, uneven rhythm of both your breaths filling the space between you. Then, like something inside him finally cracks open, he sinks down, pressing his forehead against your lap. The sudden weight of him forces a broken sob from your throat.
âPlease,â he begs, fingers clutching at your sides. His chin presses deep into your thigh. âTell me how to fix this. I canâtâ I canât lose you.â
âSpenceâŠâ
âI love you,â he blurts out, the words tumbling from him in a rush. âI love you.â
But what is love, really? Is it just a word people reach for when theyâve run out of things to say, a way to patch over bruised hearts and broken promises? Or should it feel like something more solid, something that doesnât leave you questioning or aching? You canât even tell anymore.
You wonder, too, if maybe youâve been wrong all along. If this feeling in your chest isnât love but something dressed up as it, something that fills the gaps while slowly hollowing you out. Because here you are, clinging to a love that somehow makes you feel like youâre both needed and unseen. Everything and nothing all at once.
You feel like a fool.
âI want to go to bed.â
His head lifts from your lap, a flash of surprise darting across his face, as though he hadnât expected you to say anything at all, let alone that. âYeah, okay, letâs go to bed. Weâll⊠weâll figure this out in the morning.â
âIâd rather be alone.â
The words hit him visibly. His mouth opens, an argument forming there, but he catches himself, letting the silence stretch before he nods slowly.
âThen⊠Iâll stay out here. On the couch,â he offers softly. âJust⊠in case you need anything.â
A pang cuts through you at the thought of him stretched out on the couch, his legs too long, his shoulders folded in to fit the cramped space. But the idea of sharing a bed right now feels impossible.
You reach down, holding out the ring towards him.
âNo,â he says firmly, gently pushing your hand away. âDonât do that. This⊠it doesnât mean weâre giving up. It just means we need time. Thatâs all.â
Youâre not sure if your mind will change in the morning. The ring presses into your skin, but finally, you close your hand around it, nodding faintly before you peel away from him.
The tears start the moment the bedroom door clicks shut behind you. It spills over in a jagged, helpless cry that sounds nothing like you imagined heartbreak might sound. Itâs messy, a kind of aching grief that feels too big for your chest, clawing its way out with no grace at all. You can practically hear how pathetic you sound, and yet you canât seem to stop.
Even when the hem of your dress trails across the floor. Even when you finally collapse onto his side of the bed. Thereâs no stopping you. With the ring sitting cold in your hand, your tears keep coming, soaking into the pillow as you cling to the last trace of him woven into the sheets.
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Grim's rankings
Summary: How Grim feels about your boyfriend
Characters: Grim!! NRC boys (- Ortho) mentioned
A/N: I've seen a couple post like this for the staff but nobody's talked about Grim, so I'm going to
Riddle Rosehearts:
No, no, no. Why Riddle? Itâs like you forgot what heâs like. What are you, a nerd? Heâs going to make Grim study and follow the rules. Thatâs boring! He does not approve of Riddle. All heâs going to do is nag you. Is that what youâre into Prefect? Nagging?
Not Grim approved!
Trey Clover:
Heâs fine. Grim doesnât really have anything against Trey, and he can also bake. As long as he doesnât start forcing him to brush his teeth, heâs fine with him. Heâll bother Trey to bake him sweets when heâs hungry.
Grim approved!
Cater Diamond:
He doesnât like Cater. Heâs always trying to take pictures of him. If he wants pictures of the Great Grim he needs to pay up. He also canât stand the way he talks. Heâs not âadorbsâ or whatever Cater calls him. Heâs cool and strong!
Not Grim approved!
Deuce Spade:
Grim thinks Deuce is simple-minded and gets into trouble a lot. Have you seen his delinquent side? He may seem nice, but heâs dangerous. Have you forgotten what heâs like? Seriously, heâs as bad as Ace! He canât even cook!
Not Grim approved!
Ace Trappola:
Where does he even start? Prefect, are you serious?? Ace is nothing but trouble. Not to mention how much he picks on him. Did you hit your head or are you just dumb? He might be fine being his friend, but romance is where he draws the line. Ace isnât boyfriend material.
Not Grim approved!
Leona Kingscholar:
Leona!? Really? How did you even get him to go out with you? How is that possible? Grim doesnât like that. Leona isnât even friend material, much less boyfriend material. Thatâs what he thinks at first, but then he remembers that Leonaâs rich. So Leona can buy him fancy tuna. Okay, heâs fine with this.
Grim approved!
Ruggie Bucchi:
He respects Ruggieâs greediness, but doesnât like when it affects him. Ruggieâs stolen food from him. Donât you remember that, prefect? What if he does it again? Do you care nothing of Grimâs appetite? Grim is also just scared of him. He doesnât like this.
Not Grim approved!
Jack Howl:
Heâs⊠fine. He doesnât necessarily dislike Jack, except for the fact that he canât see over him. He also works a bit too hard for his liking and heâs always so serious. But it doesnât really affect him. Jack wonât bother him⊠but he will take your attention.. And time. Heâs against it!
Not Grim Approved!
Azul Ashengrotto:
NO! Heâs so sleazy and dastardly. He scammed Grim! What deal do you have with Azul? He thought you were smarter than this prefect. Heâs SOOO against this. Heâll have a long talk with Azul about this, but wonât believe anything Azul says.
Not Grim approved!
Jade Leech:
No.
Not Grim approved!
Floyd Leech:
Double no.
Not Grim approved!
Kalim Al-Asim:
Grim finds Kalim annoying. Heâs so happy all the time and he has no regard for personal space. Not to mention when he first shoved crackers into his mouth. But, heâs not a bad guy. Heâs also rich and can give him all the fancy tuna. Grimâs fine with this.
Grim approved!
Jamil Viper:
Jamilâs also fine. Despite his overblot. He gets teased by Jamil sometimes, but heâll do some nice things. And he can also cook. Heâs not that mean and heâs also a source of food so Grim is fine with this. Just donât spend all your time with him, âkay prefect?
Grim approved!
Vil Schoenheit:
Heâs a little too obsessed with beauty for Grimâs taste. Grimâs actually scared that Vil will force him to bathe or something. Heâs also a little salty about not being allowed to participate in the VDC. But heâs rich and can give Grim tuna.
Grim approved!
Rook Hunt:
Nope! Nuh-uh! No way! Rook stalks him! Itâll only get worse if you date him! Dump him! He doesnât care that Rookâs rich, heâs weird and that matters a lot more to Grim. Heâs terrified of Rook and will never accept you dating him.
Not Grim approved!
Epel Felmier:
Grim surprisingly likes Epel. Heâs not annoying like the other first years and his apple carving skills are impressive. Not to mention, he doesnât pick on Grim or make fun of him for anything. Heâs fine with Epel.
Grim approved!
Idia Shroud:
NOOOO! He hates Idia, especially with how much Idia wants to pet him. Heâs not a cat and he doesnât want to be treated as such. He doesnât want Idia to try and pet him or talk about his âwittle toe beansâ. Heâs not a cat!
Not Grim approved!
Malleus Draconia:
Malleus is fine in Grimâs eyes. Heâs also a prince (AKA rich) which means tuna. He also knows that Malleus is capable of keeping you safe when he isnât around. Though he can be a little oblivious at times.
Grim approved!
Lilia Vanrouge:
Grim hates Lilia! Heâs always popping out of nowhere and scaring him. He also teases him a lot. He canât even cook. Grim will eat anything except for Liliaâs cooking.
Not Grim approved!
Silver Vanrouge:
Grim thinks heâs alright. Heâs pretty quiet and difficult to read, but Grim isnât bothered by it that much. He hasnât ever gotten into a fight with him either. He can also cook! Silver isnât that bad. Though Grim canât tell if Silver actually likes you or not.
Grim approved!
Sebek Zigvolt:
No. Sebekâs so loud. He can barely hear himself think when Sebekâs around. And heâs always insulting him for what he does. Grim thinks Sebek should mind his business. Heâs against it. Sebek is just bad.
Not Grim approved!
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