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everyonesadoptivedad · 6 months ago

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sketch dump from one of my favorite moments :> ✨

((done listening to this ))

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orcelito · 2 months ago

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Considering the. Ahem. Ways this year has gone, I've not been thinking about it all that much, but. I did start this year with the motto of Year Of Unfucking My Life. With a few goals involved in that.

I got an official adhd diagnosis, as well as a diagnosis for PCOS. Other diagnoses in progress. Gotten adhd meds and birth control to regulate periods. I've gone back to school and I'm keeping up with it better than ever before. I've even been working on practicing driving, something I've been largely neglecting since I first got my driving permit, um... 11 years ago...

I just need to actually Get my license. And I need to get it before the end of the year. If I can accomplish that, then I'll say the Year Of Unfucking My Life was successful.

#speculation nation #i had some pretty major negative And positive influences for this goal of mine.#primary negative influence of course being my dad abruptly dying.#but that also led to the primary positive influence of the life insurance payout that's letting me just focus on school for my final year.#it's like a monkey's paw curl kind of moment. i got a genuinely astounding amount of money #more than enough to live off for a year+ and pay off the rest of my schooling.#with this i have finally exited the purgatory of part time school full time work to pay my way through school #a setup that led to endless stress (both physically and mentally) and suffering grades.#failing some classes and taking longer bc part time Anyways. locking me into years and years of this perpetual fucking Hell.#ive escaped it. school is so so so much more manageable when i dont have to work a job. im actually keeping up with my assignments.#for once theres no uncertainty about passing any of my classes. i Will pass them all. and i expect As in most if not all of them.#it's been fucking Amazing. everything i couldve wanted. and it came with the low low cost of losing my father when i was only 26.#... 'low' being sarcastic here of course. he was the 2nd worst person i couldve lost in my life. second only to my sister.#the 2nd worst grief i will Ever experience. bc he was my Good parent. hes the very reason i have a future at All.#and losing him fucked me up Severely. im still working on recovering. i kind of figure i always Will be.#thank god id already been taking spring semester off bc that would've been Horrible to go thru while in school.#i honestly probably would've just withdrawn from the semester. theres no Way id have kept up with it #given how damned BUSY those first few weeks after were. between funeral prep and inventorying and packing up his house.#so fucking much involved in settling an estate. and im the lucky one in that my sister's been handling all the legal shit.#so i simultaneously was dealt one of the most severe blows i ever Will be dealt #while also being given probably the biggest boost i'll ever get in my life.#if everything goes well with graduating and getting an IT job then i'll never want for money again.#considering there was a time early last year when i got as low as literally $7 in my bank account. this is a pretty big deal.#it's just... strange. the ways things go in life. this has been a very strange year for me.#just doing my best to use this boost to the best of my ability. even if it feels like im taking advantage of his death.#it's what he wouldve wanted me to do.

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get-more-bald · 2 days ago

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frank is so so so so so so so fucking stupid

#literally no brain in that thick skull of his #hes not smart. hes not witty. hes neither nice nor ethical. hes not brave. hes skilled at like... almost nothing.#hes mildly insane and almost certainly had a traumatic childhood. he takes it out on other people #hes selfish and a wad of dicks and also kind of bigoted. he cheats on his wife constantly but isnt brave enough to face it #hes suckssss in general. also hes really stupid #the way he constantly keeps his finger on the trigger of any gun. in any situation. hes so fucking stupid.#i constantly feel like hes about to shoot himself or anyone around him #major frank burns #<- im mildly fixated and i hate ittttt #i wish i could hate him in a normal way like other mash fans #but instead i hate him like......idk. i need to see him #and i want him to get.... something. idk. something happy out of life at all #i liked the episode when they pulled that rope (back in season... 3 maybe?) bc everyone put aside their differences #and played toys as a team. and this was one of the few times ive seen frank look almost genuinely happy #unfortunately because hes a character i 'like' i cant believe hes always all bad. which is. hm.#do i think he takes pleasure in hurting other people? yes. do i also think it stems from a need to have control over something in his life?#also yes but that doesnt make him suck any less lol #but also like😬i dont think im gonna find any fan things of him because the majority of mash fans VERY RIGHTFULLY hate him #he has mommy issues. and daddy issues. he also SUCKS!!!!!!!#HE SUCKS ASS!!!!!! HE SHOULD BE HATED!!!#but then again..hm #m*a*s*h #mash 4077

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funkle420 · 2 months ago

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*takes my last adderall so i can finish all my work in one day*

*finishes one (1) assignment*

*gets distracted and spends the rest of the day hyperfocusing on delicious in dungeon again*

#i rewatched half the anime last night cause i was too tired to do anything else #i even almost got sucked into reading the manga again the other day but forced myself to stop after 1 chapter #def gotta buy hard copies #this is one of if not the only thing i can enjoy multiple times IN SUCCESSION!#actually i was like this with turning red and spiderverse too but #dunmeshi is different.... dunmeshi is special..... my enjoyment of it is more than just the animation or the art.....#ive never felt this particular way about anything but i've always wanted to #in the past my fanart often felt a little forced even tho i liked those things it was hard to get excited about anything #i think dunmeshi is partially responsible for my depression being in remission #literally #the only depression i feel since spring is about financial problems or being lonely #tangible stuff #but it's not the deep internal depression ive felt for most of my life #idk how to explain but like there's layers to depression #the easier kind to heal from is based in identifiable current issues like loneliness or financial troubles or grief or burnout #then theres the kind that comes from complex trauma or i think sometimes its genetic too #i thought that part would only go away once i solved the surface level stuff and could heal thorugh positive experiences to contradict #the pathways my brains formed overtime via trauma #but although ive had a few moments that have helped #i think dunmeshi. moving out of my old apt where i lived with 3 cishet men into an apt with 1 chill roomie. having time over summer to #get used to a self made routine (despite having MANY financial issues and still not being able to spend it how i planned)#all that is mainly what helped!#like for the first time i was getting excited abt stuff!#i still kinda struggle tho with maintaining that excietment #except with dunmeshi!#it's like no matter what my excitement hasn't diminished #thats very comforting #i gotta force myself to engage in more media so i can find more things to love #i have a habit of putting off things i know ill love bc i wanna be ready for it #so that if i do love it ill have the time and energy to get inspired and make fanart

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lemongogo · 1 year ago

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ahyways hi . liteally hey .whats up

#ive liteally been doing nothing . except for a jigsaw puzzle n then my brain like exploded thtree times over until i finished it #watche a few mahito clips perchance ..#i acrually watched fhe first four eps of kny swordsmith season can u believe it #i ACTUALLY . sory .my very first kny hater moment . SHOCKKQ. JAWDROPP #i dont think it needs to be as long as it is . 4 eps in n i was like yawn.. THEY R DRAGGING ITT ONWNNNNN #probably my least favorite season or like .. installment .movie included #not the actual storyline i LLAUUVRRREE the kotetsu muichirou tanjirou genya mitsuri development #ESPP HANTENGU AND GYOKKOOOOO #but idk . so mny points in the episodes where u can tell they r kinda stalling for time to meet the requirement #like i wouldve been fine w a smaller season two had uzui cour taken the majority and then swordsmith take like . 6 or smth and then go into #the sun conquering finale from swordsmith #anwyays . ANWYAYAYSSSTTT #ive also been kind telling myself tht i want to #maybe potentially possibly apply for a con in a couple of months from now #but ONLY IFFF I CAN MAKE ENOUGG STUFF BY THEN . as a test . bc if i dont have like .. artworks 2 be converted in2 posters then nvm all of t #that #AWUUGG AUUGGG .but i rly want this so T__T mayve i can plan things out and it will feel easier #i guess ill just have to see if i have the time 2 even do it T__T #sry i just saw so many cool any/c posts i ws like I WANT TO DO THT SOOO BADD

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songofsaraneth · 2 years ago

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i am FUCKING pissed about the feral cat situation yet again

#killed the fledgling bird ive been happily watching be nurtured by its parents over the last few weeks #and which had just started out trying small flights on its own #i guess technically i managed to chase the cat off before it finished the job but the baby is almost certainly going to die #almost all the feathers on the back half of its body were ripped out and it had a large bleeding gash down its back #if the wound isnt fatal the bacteria from the cat teeth and claws will be and it got out of sight so i cant even find/help it #i hate it!!!!! i hate it that a group of 'animal lovers' can just decide the rest of the cities wildlife doesnt matter and deserve to die #just because they get sad 100 cats a year or whatever were humanely put down in shelters #first nubfoot my beloved one footed dove and now the baby :(((((#ive tried trapping ive tried deterrant sprays ive tried plants they dont like the smell of ive tried chasing it off every time i see it #nothing works!!!!! it does not care. and no it cannot be taken to a shelter. they just dump them back where they were collected #thats how TNR works. makes it everyones problem and lets the cats die miserably of heat exhaustion at 115º in june instead #bc apparently thats the nicer thing to do i guess #anyway keep your FUCKING cats inside #not sure if it also got one of the parents :(((((( have only seen one dove kind of looking around trying to find its family #:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

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phagodyke · 6 months ago

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ykw actually I am angry + disappointed w them. I've been pushing how I feel aside and trying to make it my own fault so it's all contained but I think theyve just been mean. and they really should know me better ik I try to pretend I don't expect more from them so I feel less hurt when they do things that upset me but we've been friends for years by this point. like come on.

#just got home and went to put my shit away but my flatmate was in the kitchen and i got suddenly so mad i had to walk back out #not going to do or say anything while im this upset. i need to be a lot calmer before i can even be in the same room as her #like okay. so originally it was just the two of them getting drinks and theyd rather it was just them bc i dont drink. thats cool #it wouldve been difficult for me to join them after work bc travel. and ik theyd done this before just the 2 of them and had fun #i can fully respect that its why i said no and stuck by that decision when she asked again #but to not mention she was taking the day off work and btw i just found out that BOTH of our other old flatmates joined in too #to not mention that they were travelling that entire distance and that it wasnt just drinks it was a whole day out together #thats just mean. why wouldnt you tell me that why did none of them say anything.#and the fact they did the exact same fucking thing last weekend too i didnt know about that at all #like i need to stop trying to justify it. im allowed to feel unwanted and excluded bc thats exactly what theyre doing.#im tired of feeling like other people dont want me around. i know i can be difficult and annoying sometimes. but im really not that bad #and we're meant to be friends!!!!!! like youre supposed to like your friends. and want to spend time with them. or at least i do #and yeah everyones annoying sometimes thats just part of being alive ur supposed to tolerate it if ur friends #im allowed to want to feel like im wanted. im allowed to want ppl to care abt me. that shouldnt be too much to ask for #but the overwhelming message im getting at the moment is they dont want me around. and when i am around them i feel like they dont listen #to me and that they dont really care how i feel unless it directly involves them or theyre responsible for it #i feel like they dont see me as a real person that exists. only a version they have in their heads and they base all their assumptions and #decisions off that version instead of directly communicating with me. and constantly avoid me under the guise of 'giving me space'#when im upset or having a difficult time and most need support from other people. i just feel really unseen #and ik that part of how i feel IS exacerbated by insecurity and depression. like they do care to some degree #but also a lot of it is evidenced in the way they act towards me. mainly my roommate bc shes the person i interact with most #and personally i find the most direct ways of showing u care abt someone are showing up for them. and making them feel seen #and maybe not everyone feels the same way. but thats how it works for me anyway #so to repeatedly exclude me and avoid acknowledging that ive been having a difficult time is the opposite of that to me #which is the point im trying to arrive at... sorry ik ive probably said similar things repeatedly the last few weeks but i feel like its #crystallising a bit like this is the core reason why im so sensitive and reactive atm and why i got so upset by it #idk. not tonight bc im still very emotionally raw but maybe tomorrow if im calmer i should explain that i was upset + why to her #i avoid doing that so often when im upset bc i dont think theres much point in having a conversation abt it unless u expect some kind of #resolution from it. or if you want an apology but idrc abt being apologised to the crucial thing is what theyre going to do different #and i love her but shes very resistant to changing her behaviour bc of other ppl being upset by it. and like i said before she has

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broke-on-books · 8 months ago

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😍😍😍

#accidentally slept through my only class today #which whoops sorry. (my 9am english)#which kind of killed step 1 of a plan of mine but thats okay #anyways THEN i had to go downtown to pick up this award bc i forgot to show up to the ceremony like a dumb dumb #but the building was like a 25 minute walk and it was COLD (punishment for my dumb dumbness tbh) but anyways i got there early so i walked #around the block and then went inside and picked up my medal #and i was already far downtown so then i popped my head in a couple of stores as i slowly walked back #got a few things from target. new hair clip nail polish m&ms pens and then a mango. very excited to eat that either later today or tomorrow #then i popped in the calligraphy store and then the comic shop and looked around. saw some white ribbon in the calligraphy store which ive #been looking for but didnt get it because it was a bit wide and kind of expensive and i want a lot for my project idea #(want to write out some of my favorite poems on them in sharpie and then use it to accessorize)#and then i went to the comic shop and peeked around. saw a nubia issue and a few gl 2021s in the discount bin but i didnt get them bc #they were all middle issues and i havent read those books yet although i do want to someday bc my guys were in them. one of the gl 21s even #had simon on the cover so i was very !!!!!!!! thats my guy!!!!!#didnt buy anything there but i did ask the guy to make sure to order a copy of the spirit world tpb so ill stop by to get that in a few wks #and then i went to the bookstore cafe and got a cold brew and did a but of English there. they have tables in the stacks its nice. the one i #grabbed was just surrounded by old paperbacks of sci fi and thrillers lol. didnt see anything id read but recognized a few author names like #card (no enders game though) and the pern lady (idk her name i havent read it). anyways did half a blog post thats technically late (ill #backdate though dw) and then packed up and i grabbed a gyro from the halal cart on that block which i just finished back at my dorm <3333 #anyways good times. now im gonna try and spam some work and go to freaking trivia team for the first time in a month later. oops #blah #oh and i think the halal cart guy may have given me a free soda. unsure abt that though bc its possible it came with and i was just being #silly again. so anyways i had a ginger ale too

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caramelmochacrow · 10 months ago

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IM CRYING IM BAWLING IM SOBBING (episode 12 of love live school idol punched me in the gut)

#crow talks #love live #HONOKA. KOTORI. WAHHHHHHHHHHH #they said “let's make this young boy realize that in this one part of his life he was just like honoka/kotori except he had only himself!”#AND IT WORKED.#i didn't think i would cry over love live but here i am crying. (i ramble abt how these girls hit me right in the feels)#it wasnt madoka levels (snot dripping and nonstop tears) just. tears bc of how much i understand both kotori and honoka's struggles.#i was literally kotori last year without an umi. i had to do it myself but it was too late and i never got a proper goodbye.#i was also honoka a few times. kind of. that feeling of a friend leaving you and how you feel it couldve been stopped if you simply paid--#more attention to your choices and the people around you. i understand that part too well. ive now learned to do better and pay attention--#to others and think over how my choices effect things in those around me but im still struggling. im still learning.#i dont knoww..... bushiroad just knows how to make me go 'wow i understand your struggles to a degree so concerning it makes me worried'#anyway time for me to watch ep 13 im probably not gonna cry

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orcelito · 4 months ago

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Also sorry I'm inevitably gonna b talking a lot about the breakup bc I got a lot of feelings to process. I sure didn't see it coming, so I didn't get any time to prepare for it.

#speculation nation #sometimes ur in a perfectly happy relationship and then outta nowhere she just drops u...#maybe this is karma for my last relationship. i did a kind of similar thing #though we Had had some problems. so there was some leadup to it. she just didnt realize it.#i at least had the grace to break up with her in person. it sucked but it was the respectful thing to do.#6 months in a relationship only to break up over text... im forever gonna be pissed at this.#i'll have my satisfaction when i next see her. which is supposed to be tomorrow but who fucking knows now.#after she stood me up yesterday and then chickened out of seeing me today. bc shes such a coward lol.#ive had my nice face on around her all the times we were together bc i like her #but she's gonna see my bitch side tomorrow. or whenever she comes by to drop off the shit.#ill try not to be Too nasty... but i will definitely be plenty cold lol.#might have a few words for her too. bc she really does deserve to see who exactly she's hurting.#she cant hide behind a screen and her infinite apologies forever. fucking coward.

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caninecowboy · 2 years ago

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24 days!

#em #milo.txt #im thinking about em again. i mean when am i not they're always on my mind #god they make me so fucking happy #ive been having such a shitty past few weeks but talking to them has helped #it feels. incredibly magical to have a love as strong as ours #they called me a good boyfriend today and they just. get me yknow?#in ways no one has ever. in ways i didnt even expect! in ways that feel full of love #i love how we've become entangled in one another. it really feels like there's no true me without them and vice versa yknow?#like yeah yeah yeah im my own person. kickass grad student whos queer as fuck and hot and theyre their own person.#fucking amazing scientist beautifully radiant individual whos so kind and gentle and fuckn CUTE ((they sent me a selfie this morning #and i was like HEY GIVE A GUY A WARNING OKAY!!! I NEED MY BRAIN FOR SCHOOL! CANT BE TAKING MY BREATH AWAY LIKE THAT #AND RENDERING ME SPEECHLESS!! theyre sooooo cute. i see them and im like ohmygod youre so fucking... youre so pretty youre so cute youre so #hot youre literally every word that is escaping my mind right now and i have never seen something as breathtaking as them))#ANYWAY!!! it still feels like half of me is missing when they're not with me yknow? and its true #half of me IS missing... they are !! they're my other half they're my beloved they're my lavender they're my fucking bestie #it really sucks being this far from them and not having them in my life in person but soon! soon.#theyll be in the same city as me again and we'll go for drives and we'll go grocery shopping together #and get weird looks because we just. get so GOOFY together #godddd i love when we would try to forage for fucking food in [redacted] at like 10 pm but eVERYTHING CLOSES SO EARLY #like that time we went to taco bell and they only took cash so we had to pivot #god i just miss that shit!!!! i miss that with them !!! i miss laughing and being happy and having no worries and feeling. GOOD #i love that i can just look at them and they KNOW what i'm thinking like i dont even have to SAY anything and they KNOW #and how genuine they know me? god. they send me reeses and hi-chews in care packages and its the ONLY time i have them bc i dont usually #buy shit for myself like that PLUS it feels like an extra special treat when i get them from them.#also the way they have helped me love myself? like fuck.#if they're capable of loving me so deeply and truly. maybe i can too yknow?#ill do things that i wouldnt have done before knowing them (like admitting i DO know things and celebrating my 48% on an exam and eating #ice cream because its going to make me happy even though theres still remnants telling me to not)#like.... they really have changed my life for the better

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alphalesbian · 1 year ago

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#its like every now and again i am brought down by a terrible loneliness and am forced to remind myself i have in fact more or less #been alone in some sense of the word for more than a few years now theres been such incredible lengths of my lived adulthood where ive #been to deal with everything on my plate entirely by myself for the most part. not to say that i have been like Alone ive kept busy and all #but sometimes i have to remind myself its been years and years since ive had what i would call even some kind of community. and its a #necessary pain to reflect that That is probably why routinely i am completely leveled by some loneliness. this goes of course without sayin #a lot of this is circumstance why i would maybe end up so alone but the reality is im often the only one who gets me im often the only ear #can open up to im often the only one there to catch myself slipping the only one there to take care of myself when im hurting or sick or #tired. and its not that i dont ask for help. something something circumstance where i dont get it from other people #hardly a thing worth stopping myself over but the moments where i have to pick myself up by my own bootstraps for the nth time completely i #the dark by myself its hard not to feel small. looked past. even though im really doing quite okay all things considered. still quite #unfortunately alone and equally isolated and drained of any energy to change this or get out and find community (if i had the space and #the time and the money of course dont forget about the money)#and at the deepest reaches of this feeling i can only see cosmically that this is what im supposed to be doing. to some strange effect that #I Am at least on the right path as tucked away small and hidden and invisible as this may make me feel. bc its never a hard contrast to mak #that if i did have the ability to truly embrace and make a change in that regard would i? would i do it right? could i keep it? where would #that take me? and of course the answer is in this state id just fumble it. and be right back here #when do i get to have that fire in my hands unequivocally where i may finally furiously rid myself of this isolation this loneliness either #forever or long enough to make the change from this lack of connection and community i truly have?

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dawntheduckrb · 8 months ago

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Low resolution borb chilling on the curb

#tag wall #i sat and watched this little fella #it found a bug! so awesome #broski was nibbling away #my dad made biscuits and gravy this morning and omg they were heavenly #im convinced the closer the gravy looks to actual prison slop the better it is #bc omg #i was nibbling away too #food ramble sorry; its just been a while since i had them and i cant seem to make a rue w/o messing it up so im super grateful #anyway ive been drawing tiny things here and there #i've decided i wont post them still #half of the problem was i just too busy trying to draw 'for fun' so i could post something on my main #so when i sat down to draw for myself i just couldn't do it #the hiatus seems to have helped with that because im actually making small stuff again #*but*#the other half of the issue i was having was checking my activity page too much #it was a bit obsessive if im being honest and it still kind of is #so while that issue needs to be corrected still #for now it's going under the rug; if i post doodles on my alt like i said i might #I'll still be checking for notes and i simply dont have the time or headspace for that #<<<none of that is in a negative tone btw! im doing much better than i was a few weeks ago! not 100% still but baby steps :3 #I'm putting the drawings i make in my drafts and marking the date on each post #whenever finals are over I'll load them up in a queue and start posting them!#that way i can still get my thoughts out of my system without defeating the purpise of the hiatus #**purpose i am not fixing that #ok that's all bye bye 🦆🦆#not rb

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phagodyke · 2 months ago

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venting sorry... don't want to just delete it bc it helps to get it out just ignore this post pls 👍

haven't slept much at all and feeling so sick andstressed and in pain bc my period is due and so tired its making me dizzy but i cant sleep more or ill just feel more sick and I want a hug and to cry so hard into someones shoulder but no one cares or will even come near me it makes me feel diseased they think things about me that aren't true bc I struggle so much to communicate and thry all make assumptions insteqd and no one wants to give me space to talk to them about it so I cant undo that now and its all my fault and I'm so. exhausted :-(

#going to try and stay awake until lunch at least and yhen maybe ill take a nap. but i need to be able to sleep rpoperly tonight #at least i know im only feeling depressed bc my period is due which means my meds dont work how they should #like its kind of weird n psychologically interesting to feel so depressed again suddenly bc i havent been at all lately #well theres not much i can do abt feeling sick and in pain but ill take it easy. wasnt planning on leaving the house today anyway #and i do need to find a way to talk to ppl abt shit im struggling to communicate bc it really does bother me. and i dont want to do this #im tired of keeping everything in and wound so tightly i just want to feel seen and safe around someone please. please 🥹#its all well n good getting along with people better than i rver havebut if they still wont support me when im going through it #then it fades into shallowness like our friendship still has value. but im unable to feel close to them or safe around them #and right now im glad im doing so well im glad of so manynthings but its so scary to know that if i start doing bad again there is #noone and nothing there to catch me i dont have anything in the way of a safety net just myself. so better not fall 👍#and irs been makinf me feel so horrible lately bc my mum has been trying to emotionally drpend on me again and its making me feel like #when i was a teenager again and i was fighting for my fucking life against what i didnt know was mental illness and i had no outlet and #nowhere to go and i wanted to die so badly and meanwhile everyone around me was completely unaware and making me handle all of their #emotional issues and i was trapped there absorbing everyone elses damage and not being able to express mine and thankfully i didnt kill #myself and i got out and ive gotten so much bettee and worse and better sinxe and how i feel now is nothing like that really but im just #being reminded of it a lot and how hard expressing myself is and sometimes it feels like ive made so little progress #in thetorture labyrinth out here. but i dont want to do this forever i need to get better at expressing i just need people to support me #but i feel unsupported its like thin ice. but its alsonmy fault for not trusting. i dontnknowwwww.#maybe when i dont have to pay for private meds anymore and when i get this raise at the end of the year ill try therapy again #i dont think itll solve the issue bc its the ppl i care abt in my life that i need to be able to talk to. but maybe i can get some #better tools to help me be able to do that. i dontnknow i dont want to think about it anymore actually im going to go do smth else #sorry for venting its been a really nice weekend genuinely feeljng so good in general atm. and yeah i still struggle with the same things #but generally ive been handling their effect on my mental health so much better!!!! like im still feeling okay regardless of them #but they are still there and i will need to go from tolerating them to dissolvjng them at some point if i want to feel okay long term #it doesnt have to be like this. and i do actually truly believe that for once which rly is a sign of how much prpgress ive made!!!!#working on my shit is a fucking lifelong project....as im sure it is for everyone else too. all of our first time on planet earth #we will get through yhis. and anyway how i feel now is super temporary jsut triggered by a few thingsand ill keep reacting to them this #way until i managr to properly resolve them properly instead of folding them nicely and tucking them out of view #bleugh. okay yeah thats enough for now. meds softening the edges too ive stopped crying which is smth #chilling for a bit n then im going to watch some tv or a movie and iron and polish my boots and after lunch i might draw. or not we'll see

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29121996 · 11 months ago

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#have been trying tocdoc.y hair since . 9pm . im not do e #i gotta put another coat of dye over it #bc it is so patchy n i forgot how colour works so i need a darker tone for the top of my head #bc i decide to fuck around and find out w lightening cream .#anyway loved the green hated everything else #so will b colour stripping Again in a few weeks so i can . go green :3 #it was a pretty shade but . idk what the fuck to do abt the mess that is . my hair bc i rlly #cant do shit for s wgile #or ay all #its stuck being patchy n shitty for a while but i can make it less Awful n more . put tgth #bc like i may fuck shit up to begin with but im quite good at fixing things #worse case #i send my sister into woolies or smth to get me . like black box dye n i hust do That tmr after work #whuch will 100% turn iut splendid #or i do have dark blue here whicb . i can also do and will cover uo Everything ive fucked up #anyway thatll b a problem for me tmr #i have to wake up at like 10am to fo this n id rather die actyally #i nean i start work at 10 but . this shit takes an gour everytume so if the purple doesnt take the blue will #anyway bleach is a bitch . i shouldve taken my time n had a plan of some kind other than #slapping lightener and calling it a day !#good thing is im not sensitive to this kinda sgit bc it is fixable 😭 like i can jus . go to a salon #n it is Just Hair . ive had worse dye jobs n hair cuts . its just .#idk hos to epxlain ti bc my sister said it looked fine . n while i dont trhst her #sje also does tell nd to my face if i look lile sgit so

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thecherrygod · 1 year ago

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man if youve never made a pdf on your phone and have no idea how it works you cant get mad if you ask others if they know how to and they say "it depends".

#my posts #... this is just a ramble thats also a circle and if you give me room to do it i will say the same 5 things for an hour #so these are the last tags on this post that im moving as the firsts as a warning. actual rant:#im a computer person i can make you a pdf on a computer in a few moments most likely out of anything #but already the idea of copy pastin an image on a word document from my phone and making it the size i want and everything #its just. bad #its. making a pdf out of a text youve written? also in a few moments. i assume making it out of what. excel and powerpoint and whatever #is easy too but #do you want to put an image from your phone on any of these? youve already lost me there #so really. it depends #and then he has the nerve to complain people dont give him a straight answer!!!!!!!!!!!!#sir you know how to cook rice and risotto but not a paella its as easy as that knowing how to work a computer doesnt mean shit #'look just. show me what you need to make as a pdf' 'i dont have it it yet >:/' why are you doing this to me.#sir you are IN BED. AT 10 PM. ITS NOT TIME FOR THIS.#its also the kind of thing that there is a chance he can already download as a pdf to begin with i hate it here #'but i dont have a pdf app ive never made a pdf idk how this works!' i. am gonna go lay face down on a river #sir its also friday night i want to relax i only went there bc the dog wanted to leave my room and go to your bed. why are you like this #.... its not that im mad he doesnt know how to do it himself. thats not the issue #but... its both a 'thats no way to say anything to someone you are asking for help' and 'the world isnt black or white' thing.#man. at first he wasnt even saying what he needed as a pdf and i just assumed he had the thing.#mainly bc he was talking about a screenshot so truly making an image a pdf from your phone...... is bad #i mean its gonna be easier than what im saying but ive also never really tried dealing with imaged on word on google docs on my phone #i just know that sometimes it doesnt even go from your phone to the file like its already bad to put it there lmao #he just makes me very tired. why is it so hard to just be like. accept people around you can maybe not know things #man. i can work a computer mostly no issues #a phone? give me a few tries #is it bc my mom had to do something with scanning and making something a pdf a few days ago that we managed to do relatively quick #bc. sir. we did that with computers. not phones.#i will continue to say it. its not the same. its probably easy too but. havent tried and id rather never have to do it #i prefer computers over phones for most things

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