#at the same time im very very hungry...
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I know you shouldn't cry over spilt milk or make a big deal out of small things but... my siblings ate the last two slices of pizza while I was in the shower, and while I DID already have two pieces, I'm like. Genuinely very upset. Because I'm still hungry, and now the only thing that sounds genuinely appealing is gone... idk, maybe it's more of a "straw that broke the camel's back" thing, because I've had a really really long day. I worked a nearly double shift (only about two hours less than a double shift) today, and my feet and back hurt even after a long, hot shower, I'm feeling kind of overstimulated (I hear and feel EVERYTHING right now, please help), and now I can't really satisfy my continued hunger... Same vibes as a toddler crying over something that's very easily fixed. It's not JUST the One Thing, it's the accumulation of Things, and the One Thing was just the tipping point.
#delete later#'oh but lina you can eat something else its not a big deal' i will strangle you#i know it sounds completely ridiculous but if the food available isnt appealing i am very unlikely to eat#i hate it as much as any annoyed parent would but i cant turn it off#im way too close to getting chipotle delivered because i need meat. much protein#the only thing stopping me is the price...and the fact that it'd be so many calories when ive already had three meals#at the same time im very very hungry...
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smile, iruma! | hey ive been here before
#iruma suzuki#clara valac#azz alice asmodeus#love trio#m!ik#mairimashita! iruma kun#welcome to demon school iruma kun#irumas expression in the first one went through lotsa phases#lotsa extreme frusterated and sickly faces#which felt a little ooc to me cuz irumas someone who smiles in the face of despair#but also weāve seen iruma at his most frusterated and fed up in reaction to his parents#(at least until kalegos brother told him he was disgusting which btw we should jump him for that)#(and SORTA when gyari calls him ugly but that was less serious lol)#anyway i decided to try going for a very tired forced smile for this#abuse mention#<just in case#to me this is irumas parents presenting iruma to a camera for a family portrait so they can show off their darling little boy to friends#meanwhile darling little boy has been eating trash behind the mall they found him at#so hes tired and hungry cuz the last time he saw em was two months ago otherwise he would have faked it a little better#i think in this moment hes frustrated and a little disgusted by them#enough to almost deny the treats they dangle over him#but rule one (1) is iruma suzuki that cannot say no#im not sure i conveyed the little micro expression kinda frusteration that i wanted to but its close nough#style change for love trio suddenly iruma has lips my bad LOL#suits the theme tho! i think irumas genre; art style; life changes when he met those two#clarazz would hate being compared to irumas dusty ass parents in any way even as foils sorry to them for this post actually š#ANYWAYā¦#did u know love trio have the same smile?#fanart#my art
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tummy hurts š
#i drank coffee#ive also been eating very little sweets the past few weeks and i kind of went ham on them today#and let me tell you my stomach started hurting after i ate a single chocolate bar#also for some reason a lot of sweets stopped tasting as good...#not that ill stop eating them i have eating issues literally nothing can stop me when im in that space you knoww...#idk its probably that ive been eating very little instead of fucking. gorging on them so maybe im just experiencing the actual taste#instead of what my almost addicted ass tastes usually#who knowsss#but im feeling really uncomfortable and full rn and its just nott the vibe#at the same time you know what. I THINK IM HUNGRY#but i feel so bad ououughhh#also its 10pm i dont wanna eat at 10 ughh but i might just this once....
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HI HELLO!! I JUST FINISHED āInto the Fireā A COUPLE DAYS AGO!!
I would say my thoughts about it but I have too many thoughts but I also donāt wanna fill your asks with 20 million anons so,
after I finished it I decided to re-read from LIAB and broā¦
That shit broke me.
The way you perfectly constructed sokkaās arc, like I swear everything was intentional
He literally went from āit took years for him to get comfortable killingā to āhe was always so good with people, thatās was before he started killing themā and from āif he felt a way about something he would most definitely share itā to literally hiding everything that happened to him from people he trusts. Wow.
Once again, absolutely amazed by your incredible writing skills, like actually impeccable.
Enough of me being philosophical,
YOU GAVE BATO A BF!!! HE CAN FINALLY GET OVER HIS HIGH SCHOOL CRUSH!!! AND JEE GETS TO BE HAPPY!!! AAAAHHH!! Iām so happy for them (ik they arenāt even an item yet but still, super happy for them)
Hooray for Ara!! She got her closure, and now she can start a new, healthier, happier lifestyle. Congratulations to my favorite violent dog!! May she get what she deserves (ominous)
But the way she just.. told Katara about zukka being together?? Like, no hesitation.
āWhoops, thought you were banging my brother. Sorry lol.ā
āNo lmao itās okay. Zukoās deff banging him thoughā
āWHAT?!ā
āYeah lol. Toodles!!ā
And then she just- LEAVES?? honestly mood though.
i liked how sweet and genuine she sounded when explaining zukkaās love story though, that was so good of her, she didnāt even talk them down or anything. It was actually so nice.
Canāt wait to see what you do for Jet, really really hope my little street rat gets better. on agni we gonna get you some will to live!!
So many exciting things happening I canāt wait!!
-suki closure!!
-TOPH AND SOKKA BONDING!!!
-IROH AND SOKKAāS TEA TALK!!!!!
literally have said this a million times but actually super scared for sokka for the last bit (zhao tea talks usually didnāt go well)
But I also feel like ur gonna make that an iroh povā¦ (Iām an empath) so Iāll stay tuned!!
Yue and La bless my favorite water tribe man Hakoda! He loves his kids so much I hope nothing bad happens to them (this is gonna be foreshadowing isnāt it?)
But anyways!!
I wanted to finally tell you about music!!
Itās gonna be a lot of mitski cus sheās one of my main artists I listen to but still,
I thought about āonce more to see youā by mitski A LOT throughout RIA and a little bit now through ITF, it fits this part of the story perfectly (in my opinion). Itās literally just zukka through sokkaās pov.
Another one is āChristmas Kidsā by ROAR, this one is more for LIAB, and a little bit of RIA, (can you tell I make the edits in my head?) But this time the choruses/verses change pov or can just be seen as multiple characters.
āFirst Love/Late Springā by mitski fits zukka through zukoās pov
And āI bet on loosing dogsā by mitski is Ara with zhao/shen
Now this one is very specific:
āVampire Empireā by Big Thief
The first verse to the first chorus is LIAB-RIA kataang through aangās thoughts about katara,
the second verse to the second chorus is zukka LIAB-RIA (and now more recently the current ITF situation) told as per sokkaās pov
And the third verse to the final chorus is how Ara feels about zhao. Like their entire history.
Okay thatās it sorry for bombarding you with my random ass disorganized ask š Iāve been yapping too much, I know, I sound like Reho. Sorry if I said anything disrespectful!!
Anyway!! Canāt wait for the next update!! STAY SUPER DUPER AMAZING SSREEDER!!!
HI ANON WHO I ADORE & LOVE SO MUCH I AM SO SORRY FOR TAKING 10000 YEARS TO ANSWER THIS. (In my defense itās a perfect 10/10 ask and I couldnt let it go right away<3)
I AM SO SO SO SO SO SOOOOOO happy you enjoyed sokkas arc because damn, I really dismantled him throughout the series and the way you highlighted some of the details about sokka pre prison and how he did a drastic 180 is *CHEFS KISS* yeahhhhhh it was a long process but Iām glad you noticed the intentional dedication I had to ruining our boy sokka <3 (i know I know heās not ruined but heās not in a great spot mentally but heās getting better but hell regress and progress and regress and yeah sokkas just not the same I mean but we will love him and heās still our SOKKA)
JEE DID GET HIMSELF A BOY FRANDā¦ He is smitten with our boy Bato itās cute.
Ara is hilarious thatās all I gotta say about her haha.
JET!!!!! I love him!!! Heās not the besttttt influence on Suki but FUCK IT JET IS AWESOME (donāt expect any life changing shit from him but Iām excited that heāll stay a part of the story) sorry Jet haters heās staying in LIAB till death does us part of the story ends haha.
oh shit you sent this ask before the last chapter was dropped so now you know ITS AN IROH AND ZUKO TEA TALK (& let me tell you HAAAAAā¦ theyāre wonderful in a room together haha)
I was trying to listen to all your songs before I answered your ask but I couldnāt get through all of them, but I will!! I love that you are so passionate about music and the scenes and characters I feel the same way and thatās why I always try to give you songs Iām vibing with lol.
THANK YOU AGAIN ANON AND PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DONT BE SHY COME BACK ANY TIME I LOVE YOUR ASK!!!!
#I forgot this ask was before the last chapter#Haha Jee buying bato a fucking knife theyāre so married#Sokka crawling up zukos arms in the market and waving his meat stick in his face - theyāre also married#I wouldnāt count out an iroh Sokka tea talk I still see that coming#But ummmm I think zuko is taking the helm for this convo#which Iām proud of him taking accountability for his life#In a way this is how āozai im helping the avatarā canon talk but its āuncle Iām gay for sokkaā#Not that those vibes are the same at all but itās a BIG moment for liab zuko#Heās not a very open and emotionally aware person so this will be uhhhh interesting haha#I love you ask your amazing I wish I could ramble to you more#But Iām hungry so I just got scavenge for food#I love you anon seriously come back any time haha#liab#leaving it all behind#RIA#ITF#ask#into the fire
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This just in, local struggler severely overestimates how much they can eat yet again. Left with half a bowl of ramen and a sad, sad heart
#speculation nation#it's homemade at least so im not wasting money on fancy ramen#but i Hate this man it sucks šššš#i keep losing weight bc i can never eat enough#and i was like 'ok lets make a ramen thats a good sized meal' but then i cant FINISH it#forced myself to finish all the eggs at least and now im just picking at the peas. ugh.#at this rate im gonna have to start drinking ensures more regularly again#bc i havent gotten to the underweight phase yet but if it keeps going like this then i will#like it was. excuse me talking about my weight for a bit but im a tad bit concerned about it#but back before i started adderall back in uhh. september?? i think?? or october???#fuck if i remember. been a few months tho. but also not That long.#anyways i was at like. 140lbs at the doctor and like 137lbs at home (relevant bc clothes weight. rest of this will be at home weights)#and ive had such shit appetite that ive been watching it go down and down. like at least a pound a week. sometimes two pounds.#and now im at 123lbs. which is a solid almost 15 lbs lost in like 3 ish months. which is kind of a lot when ur small to begin with.#also a little alarming when u see this happen like a pound lower between every shower. bc i tend to check before i shower.#& i often shower every 4 days or so. when im in the Rotting Era and all. aka i dont rly go outside much.#and like 123lbs still isnt bad for 5'3ā but i think 107lbs is the cutoff for underweight. and im halfway there.#and now see i was about this weight a few years back so in one respect it's nice to fit into some of my older pants again#but at the same time..thats too quick!!! thats not healthy!!!! but when i try to eat more i Cant!!! it makes me nauseous!!!!!#so back in early 2020 when i was dipping under 110lbs bc of meds stuff i got onto ensure and it did help. so maybe i need to again.#just..blegh. i just kinda feel empty all the time. like stomach-wise. but not Hungry. it's a problem.#gotta come up with ways to eat that dont rely on my stomach to tell me when to eat. bc it's definitely not doing a good job at that.#weight mention/#and like see ive been eating 2 meals a day on average but i was doing that before too!!!!!!#but i think it's bc i cant Finish my meals half the time that's really causing problems.#staring at my half eaten bowl of ramen very grumpily. it has now been long enough that it's kind of gross.#and my arms hurt. just bc my bone aches have decided to flare up again. very grumpy.#negative/#i guess lol
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me being stressed overstimulated and paralysed: I want this to stop
my brain's autocorrect: did you say you want to kys?
me the alexithymic: am I having the bad thoughts?
#yk i really have a hard time differentiating#as far as my nrain is concerned they probably mean the same thing#consciously actually trying to deduct wjat im feeling orher than throwing it in a āi want to dieā umbrella is hard#because i DON'T. it's not what i feel but the sentence somehow keeps conveying the meaning of āI want this to stopā#i know im not suicidal.#but because i can't directly be aware of wjat om feeling this is the alarm that lets me know if something is wrong#like i can be hungry#ir i can be embarrassed tp the extent i want to unexist#i could be ashamed of myself or be hating myself#i could be feeling sad#i could be anxious#SOMETIMES EVEN HAPPY#or exhausted#all if these translate into: āi wanna dieā in a jumbled unclear foggy mess of emptions I can't differentiate#I dont want to die. i just wish i had an exit#that's probably why i disassociate so often anyways and freeze up staring at the wall#I'm not suicidal. i know that... the word i want to kms just is very... convenient fory brain to simplify abstract concepts of emotions in#vent#cw vent#alexithymia#mental health#I'm writing this for myself to know that this time im not running away from aknowledging my feelings
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oh god my guts are MURDERING me
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#SORRY im mad about my stupid college again#WHY do they require so many internhip hours??????#no wait i KNOW why. bc the chef who runs the program is EVIL AND STUPID#he literally thinks he as a chef is gods gift to this earth. he thinks CHEFS are gods gift to this earth but only if they agree with him.#however. gods gift to this earth do NOT deserve breaks. ('chefs dont get breaks' is a direct quote)#he thinks all chefs should work like dogs and SUFFER. and the industry should never change#and he loves the power of being the program head. (and most students' advisor)#and he can say im preparing you to be the best!!!!! and get away with it#and he doesnt respect pastry chefs. and guess what i am hahahah#like i know the culinary industry is toxic and most chefs are jerks. but bakeries are very different from restaurants#so i thought i could handle some jerky chefs during school and get my degree and go work in a bakery#(i can handle some jerky chefs)#the problem was that a jerky chef ran the program as if you were already working in the worst restaurant environment imaginable#and he only taught like everyone wanted to be world renown chefs of 5 star parisian restaurants that take 4 years to get a reservation#(which is crazy that he thinks hes qualified to get other people to that level but ok.)#and thats great for people who want that! but some people (me) just want a cute little bakery!#also ! its advertised as a 2 year associates program#which. is true that you'll only get an associates degree out of it#but 2 years is including summer semesters. sorry i don't think thats how that works. i think thats 3 years#2 years for people who decide to do extra and take summer semesters.#and i think the only realistic way to complete the internship hours is to take an off semester and only do the internship#so you're not doing it at the same time as classes#but that adds a minimum of 1 semester and maximum 2#or if you cram the spring and fall semesters to have summer off and do the internship during summer#summer semesters are shorter. so youd have less weeks to complete the same amount of hours#it is simply not a 2 year program for the average person!!!!!!#i was IN COLLEGE FOR 2 YEARS!!!!!! AND I ONLY TOOK 1 (ONE) PASTRY CLASS!!!!!! I SHOULD'VE BEEN ABLE TO GRADUATE!!!!!!!!!!!#and what do you MEAN you expect me to be in college for 3 years and only get an associates degree out of it. no thank you#its almost like...... an associates degree requires 2 years of schooling........ and theres too much happening in this program.......#bc the man in charge of it is power hungry and wants to control people and thinks chefs need to be beat into shape.......
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very excited for the wild dogs are hungry...something about nat and richie has always made me slightly crazy
LITERALLY ME TOO. their dynamic obsesses me and that fic is like. the brainchild of that. (as is, in part, 'where do the lonely hearts go' which is about how the berzatto kids stole hosted christmas. and has a Thread about natalie and richie that im already losing my mind about.)
#gav gab#it's like. there's something about richie's function in that family as a like#legitimate part of that family#he grew up as a component of that sibling set#and at the same time obviously set apart from it#and this has affected his relationships with them a lot and i very much see like#the way their relationship is a Bad one particularly in season 1 as a like#not as a denial of that dynamic between them as well - not just between richie and michael or richie and carmy - but like#as a confirmation of it?#it felt like a very familiar sort of Difficulty i guess#im talking just to hear my own voice at this point but idk. i think about them a lot.#i think about them planning mikey's funeral together a lot.#fic: the wild dogs are hungry#writing liveblog#gav answers
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okay today was like the first time since surgery that i've been able to exist as a human outside my house!! and i had a great time even though i am PAYING FOR IT. HEAVILY š
#god my ribs are KILLING ME SLOWLY#anyway i had a good day š„ŗš„ŗš„ŗ last night my partner and i woke up at the same time#bc we both had to pee. and i totally forgot but when we laid back down i told her ''i'm hungy..''#bc it was like 3 am and i didnt wanna get up. so i just wanted to complain lol#but she woke me up to a big breakfast she ordered in like ''hey it made me sad that you were hungry jn the night-#so i got you and i a big breakfast š„ŗššš'' and UGH it made my heart so happy#and then we chilled out before i decided i could handle leaving home and wanted to go to the mall#and i had a really good time existing in public!!! im getting a little depressed from being bed bound#i FINALLY got after laughter on vinyl after wanting it for like almost 5 years ššš#and some cute stickers!!! anyway yeah i had a nice day w my baby and it made me happy š„¹š#as much as im hurting badly rn it was worth it for the lil date ššš pain meds should help soon anyway#im just glad to have finally gotten out of the house#chatter#round 2#also let me just say my previous thoracotomy did NOT prepare me for this one.#turns out the open version is VERY DIFFERENT. which i knew but god its so stark when youre living it#p sure by 2 weeks post op last time i was relatively fine!!!! almost back to normal#oh and uh#autumn
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Someone told me that he 'like hanging around with me' and he 'love my smile' today
#years after my birth im finally finding out the genuine joy of making friends#also relief. ive got so used for my mere existence to be an annoyance to other people as a child so its so important to me when people say#they like to have me around#had to turn down a very big socialization opportunity bc i was hungry and i couldnt come with him - will try to make up for it next time#what he said was totally platonic btw hes gay and im not a man#he also told me 'when i first met you i thought you were trans' and the urge i felt to come out to him and say 'YES ACTUALLY (but also here#the nuances:') but it came out of nowhere and there were bystanders so i didnt want to risk it and just. 'honestly im not sure' was the bes#half-truth half-lie i could muster#but hey he made me comfortable with coming out to him so one day perhaps#gosh i wish im not going to mess up this newly forming friendship (?) with my little to non-existent social skills#man also has the same dumb humor as me. i have to find a way to keep him around#my mom would burst into tears if she knew how much i smile talk and am open around him. not my fault he is a person whom you naturally feel#safe around#normally people ask me if im 'angry/pissed/annoyed/sad' because i have a resting bitch face and dont talk much to anyone#the surprise people must feel once they get to know me better.. granted i cant name any but whatever lol
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oh ok. i just figured out what my fucking problem is. its the endometriosis -_-
#every time ive gotten sick lately its been the exact same#like. first almost fever but fever symptoms and sore throat like a cold#and then stomach pain and nausea and all that#i told mama im feeling a bit better and she was like ābut what IS it???ā#i was like huh. what do you mean isnt it just a somach bug#and she was like no this is totally not just a regular stomach flu#so anyway im sure its the endometriosis i was diagnosed with recently. bleeeghhhh :(#also btw i was looking up what foods are safe to eat shortly after stomach illnessess#and it was all mega lame stuff like fucking. boiled fish and soft white rice#(umm. note both of those are very good. just not what i was hungry for)#and i asked mama anyway and she was like oh they did a study on that turns out the best thing you can eat after stomach flu is just whatever#you wanna like literally anything#which makes sense that your body would make you hungry for what you need#kinda like how when i havent eaten in awhile the number one thing my stomach decides it wants is bread and apples#which is like. yeah that adds up lol#ANYWAY. i guess i just wanted to say im feeling a little better despite my recent swarm of tummy issues#including internal bleeding i guess. but thats apparently been the case for the past 7 years LOL#NOTHING DANGEROUS BTW!!!!!!! it just hurts like a bitch And im gonna get treatment for it soon teehee ^__^
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i like parallels and implying characters that oppose each other are the same but slightly to the left, when u start to notice superficial similarities which kind of break open that, at their core, these guys are actually incredibly alike and any of them could have been the other guy if circumstances were different
#Zilly rambles#my obsession with names and era markers and the identity attached to what different ppl call u will be the death of meeeee#we've been wearing the same mask the whole time ass parallels. bites my hands off#sunseeker miles and zippie all have at LEAST 3 names ppl know them by#and they r so entwined w each other personally and just u kno. on my funny little meta level. it makes me insane.#i love u character foils i love u paths that cross and do not stay the same but do not stray too far either#AND neither zippie nor miles want to be sunseeker but one of them is a power hungry control freak#and the other one is a deeply religious death dealer#idk where im going w this anymore im very tired but hrrrrrrgh hrhghghrhghghgh
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When I'm stressed out I either binge eat to calm myself down, or I just can't eat. I could have my favorite meal in front of me, but if I'm stressed for any reason it feels like my throat is closed. Or even I completely stop feeling hungry. Fuck
#one time i was at my cousin's and nothing bad happened i just feel awkward around her boyfriend#and for the entire weekend when i was at her place i ate only like a cookie and a cupcake#and only started eating again on my way back home#now im at my dad's and his gf made a banger salad#but i camt force myself to eat#i ate a lil bit. but i cant make myself eat any more and im still very much hungry#but just the thought of putting more of it on my plate makes me feel nauseous#and again literally nothing happened#but my dad told me earlier while we were alone that their relationship is getting worse recently and it stresses him out#and idk its just tense when theyre in the same room together#i kinda feel like an animal in a cage#and also i am. very hungry#i guess ill have to wait until evening for the next meal and hope ill be able to eat again#bee buzz
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rivvys season 4 musical episode comes at such odd timing. i get why it couldn't come while jug was uh. taking a hiatus. but this feels like the week between christmas and new years day
#'oh yeah damn remember those tapes?'#i think ep 16 was just tied up too well so it reset the momentum entirely#idk if it was the same thing for the other seasons... i remember carrie advancing the murders and dealing with b and her mom's tension#heathers was also a lot more plot heavy with the farm and shit#this just felt very nothingburger. it's reminding us of the tapes a little bit but mostly setting up needless relationship drama#how many times can you rehash the archie bettie veronica love triangle honestly#i heard from my friend they end up in a polycule. he didn't watch it but eh. it's only natural#society if this drama develops through the (frequently mentioned!!) betty-veronica pair#more importantly the archie-jug pair that's mentioned i think at most once or twice. but it is mentioned.#not that i care what they are up to romantically i just hate unused potential#like im not sure if its even queerbaiting in a show with multiple queer major supporting characters#cheryl's sexuality arc was handled surprisingly well too#it's more like shipbaiting in general which is par for the course for these things#anyway im hungry i was gonna get dinner an hour ago but i was webfishing and riverdaling
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Dinner so far has been 7 olives but everything I can think of making (that i actualy have ingredients for) either takes forever + makes a million dishes or I'm sick of the ingredients bc I've eaten them too often in the past few weeks :(
#also this is a semi ingredients household so we never have like#frozen pizza#or premade pasta sauce#or frozen burger patties or any soup except the 3 kinds my stepdad eats (i have become sick of those hktjg) etc#+ rheyre very habit oriented so we get like the same ingredients wvery week and im blech about them bc i Cannot Eat That Way#i repeat foods for a certain number of times and then i cannot eat them again for a few months#but I stg mum has had the same breakfast food for the past 7 years at least#anyway im hungry#corvus caws
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