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she wasn't telling me directly but she says she's just planning ahead to like. essentially check herself in on match day before the match is even announced? which it's good that she's planning ahead and taking her mental health seriously but also. boy it's gonna be another rough one for me huh.
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y'all ever think abt how it was julie having the affair and it is even said multiple times that she was the one who left him, yet wilson was still the one who left their home and moved in with house. like. he couldn't bear to stay in their home alone. he immediately ran to house and stayed on his couch for weeks. suffered through his pranks and his laziness and his manipulation. telling him he wants him gone while sabotaging his attempts to leave. and he only left once he got a girlfriend again.
#chyanne speaks#house md#hilson#hate crimes md#gregory house#james wilson#i think his inability to be alone is such an interesting quality of his that isnt touched on enough#like yes we all haha at his long string of unsuccessful relationships but we dont talk abt it all stemming from his inability to be alone#his first wife leaves him and then he remarried quickly#he cheats on the second wife and remarries quickly#the third wife cheats on him and leaves him and he immediately moves in with house#and then starts dating a patient and immediately moves in with her#but!!! then he moves into the hotel and is alone for like almost a year! and honestly he NEEDED IT#bc GROWTH happened in that year and he meets someone who doesn't fit his M.O. who breaks away from the mold#although he does immediately move in with her too but still. amber was different. she was the step in the right direction#and then she dies.#and then wilson throws himself into the left field. everything needs to change. he's spent so long fearing being alone.#so he tries to leave so he is completely and totally alone without house to fall back on#but house needs him. he needs him too much. they need each other too much.#and he falls back to house again. and he's content that way. he's always the most content when he's with house. always feels the least alone#and then sam comes back into his life and ruins e v e r y t h i n g#he falls right back onto those old patterns. kicks house out and moves her in. and then what happens??? of course??? she leaves him. again.#and then he's alone again and it hurts. he gets a cat that we only hear about twice and then never gets brought up again#but wilson has his kitty. he has house. he's not alone. he can be content.#and then house fucks everything up. he goes to prison. wilson is alone again.#im honestly SHOCKED that wilson didnt remarry in that year they were apart but he was rly trying to change!#he was working on himself and trying to make changed he thought would be good for him#and then house comes back. and house won't LET wilson be alone. he wont leave him alone.#and it's exactly what wilson has been yearning for since the day he drove that car into cuddys house#and in the end. as long as he had house that was all that mattered. as long as he had house he wasn't alone.
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I have a question for marbles, If they were to meet all of the slugcats from downpour and vanilla (minus Artificer & Inv), what would their interactions be, and who would they like most and least (maybe like a teir list?).
// I will answer this in text, I hope that's okay!
Gourmand, Survivor, and Monk - Marbles will meet all three of them in Act 2, when a colony of slugcats is temporarily staying over around NSH's can. They can't progress further into the area of the big slugcat trees (known in-game as Outer Expanse) as the way is blocked by the heightened presence of vultures. Gourm is the colony leader who bravely ventured out to the 5P can to scout the area and find a different, suitable spot for the colony to spend the dryer season. On his way back he found Surv and Monk (who are also from his colony), and brought them back safely to their parents.
Gourm - fella is a gentle giant with a big heart and a passion for cooking, he and Marbs would get along well! In my story he teaches her new delicious recipes as a thanks for housing the colony members.
Surv - they are about 20 in human years by the time Marbles meets them, so only slightly younger than our protagonist. Being peers, I think they also would get along well. Surv would tell her all about their adventures in the 5P area.
Monk - Surv's younger sibling in my AU, they are about 12-13 at the time of meeting. Monk miraculously survived their journey to save their older sibling despite being very very young themself, I headcanon them to be maybe 8 or so when their in-game campaign begins. They would be shy, but Marbles had a lot of adoptive younger siblings so she would know how to win Monk over quickly.
Hunter is Marbles' adoptive parent, he found her when she was about 7-8 years old, and raised her as his own (along with over a dozen other slugpups that he found orphaned during his expeditions). They have a very strong familial bond.
Arti - Marbles' long-lost mom. They meet again in Metropolis after almost 15 years, but it's not a happy reunion. After Marbs makes her leave the scav colony, the two of them move on to live with other scugs around NSH's can. Arti is very socially maladjusted and avoids contact with anything that is not her only surviving child - the only person in the entire world she has love for.
Saint - they will make a brief appearance during the story (visiting Hunter after he's brought back to the NSH's can and given rot treatment), but they probably won't meet Marbles in person. If they did, I see both Marbs and Saint having lengthy philosophical conversations about the nature of life, karma, ascension, and so on.
Spearmaster - won't be appearing in my AU in-person as I assume them to be very old and retired at the time of my story taking place, or even deceased... perhaps already reincarnated? Or ascended? I haven't decided yet. However, they will show up in Hunter's flashbacks. If Marbles and SM were to meet, she would probably be scared of them, lol. I imagine Spears to look very tall and freaky for a slugcat, but also very collected and duty-driven like Hunter.
Rivulet - Riv won't show up in my AU, their campaign takes place far ahead in the future and it wouldn't make sense to include them (sorry!). I headcanon Riv as very energetic, and so if Marbles met them she'd find the aquatic scug rather... overwhelming.
#rain world#rain world au#ooc#ask blog#as funny as it sounds Marbles would probably like her own mother THE LEAST#(at least in the first few months of them reconnecting)#traumatizing your child leaves lasting damage#and Arti won't realize how much it all affected Marbs until later in the story#let alone apologize for it and make amends#hmmm i should tag this as lore post don't i#au lore#rw gourmand#rw survivor#rw monk#rw hunter#rw artificer#rw saint#rw spearmaster#rw rivulet
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After an indeterminate* number of years, I've finally started reading Don Quixote & I'm already in love after finishing the introduction, wherein Cervantes sets up the book to be a deconstruction of chivalric tales, has a panic attack that people will think him & his book stupid, & the very first thing he does in his chivalry deconstruction story is not only write a bunch of sonnets allegedly composed by chivalric heroes of old in honour of his new blorbo, Don Quixote (power move to open yr novel with fanfic poetry ngl), but also write a dialogue in sonnet form between Le Cid's steed & Don Quixote's. Just two horses having a chat. I love it here I'm never leaving
#*indeterminate = I keep the receipt of every book I purchase in the front cover as a date memento & emergency bookmark#this receipt was pure white. all evidence of it ever having had words burned into it was gone. that's how long I've been meaning to read it#Don Quixote#books#vignettes de ma vie#also he mentions so many other chivalric characters whose stories idk so early... I'm kinda intimidated...#should I read them? should I have read Roland first? gah this is the Thursday Next series all over again#too late! we press on! at least if Cervantes is afraid he won't seem erudite he is not alone in this :') <3
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You can tell who doesn't really read JJK and/or has a bias against Yuji over Yuta because if you think Yuta becoming a Gojo clan head is a flex, you obviously weren't paying attention to Satoru's story.
#being a gojo let alone the head of it with a powerful curse technique? THAT'S A CURSE IN ITSELF#I'll be yuji any day of the week because at least i won't be dealing with stress with a family that stressed out my teacher#like between the higher ups and the gojo clan satoru had it rough#now yuta had to go through that? AND FOR DECADES?! oh nah I'm good#i like to keep my sanity thank you#some yuta fans don't really be caring about him for real#honestly they just care about how powerful he is and just want to stay hating on yuji#ridiculous i say ridiculous#protect these boys#just kiya's thoughts#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jjk epilogue#itadori yuji#yuji itadori#yuta okkotsu#okkotsu yuta
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Art by tenrino_ on Twitter ^-^
...Three Semmelweis' in the suitcase???
We have normal Semmelweis, we have gothic Semmelweis and we have the second personality that's haunting them.
I love that they're all wearing the same bow but everything else is entirely different. The bow is unchangeable.
#reverse 1999#defining sanity#“Three Silliweis in a suitcase can you handle it?”#at least she won't be alone w Lorelei every time she does rogue like#Lovely art! I adore the small crunchable squishy style!#If I had and could use Twitter I'd love to check em out
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Sometimes all I need is dick. Or Gillian Anderson.
(How’s life going?🫶🏻)
-🦌🍷
or a lobotomy 🙂↕️
and life is going like this:
#*deep breath and this comes out in one incomprehensible gust*:#i think my [wheeze] might be [wheeze] but i cant confirm because i have no way of getting a hold of him and if he is#then i myself was probably [wheeze] in the [wheeze] and the guilt is boiling my stomach lining#and im developing another batch of ulcers and i cant eat and im an underfeuled neurotic little mess because of it#my boss is pidgeonholing me for a promotion i dont want and won't be good at#but i cant leave because we're house hunting AGAIN cause our landlord took back his word on not selling the house out from under us#and is showing the house this weekend#so we're scrambling to get the place into a presentable position#while also trying to find the time to view houses in a market that selling within 24 hours#and the more time passes the less likely it looks that we'll find something#which is a concern because there straight up are NO places we can rent and there haven't been any openings anywhere#for the last nine months that we've been looking#and my partner cant help with any of the chores or the packing because theyre healing post top surgery#and theyre back to work now but their schedule has been lining up with mine perfectly so i STILL haven't gotten a minute just to myself#which is a real WAHH i know but im someone who needs a LOT of alone time#and i feel like ive been running at a dead sprint since like. September. and im dog tired and if i let myself think about it all#for longer than two consecutive minutes i burst into spontaneous tears#but it shows no signs of stopping any time soon so i just gotta keep trucking I guess and at least the sun's out now so the depression is#abating a smidge but also my dog is going through some health issues too and my hair has started falling out again and anyway how are you?#gouge answers#🍷🦌 anon
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I do agree with the post going around about how you cannot, actually, run everything in 5e and hacking 5e is a recipe for GM burnout. What frustrates me is that it's true that there's a dropoff in viewer/listenership for Actual Play using non-D&D 5e systems...but in my admittedly limited experience it's often the most dedicated D&D players who are willing to check out an Actual Play in something different. When I look in the CR fandom at who watches Candela Obscura or the Daggerheart episodes or various one-shots? When I look at who praises TAZ Amnesty and Steeplechase? When I look at who recommends Mentopolis and Misfits & Magic? Mostly, they're people who also are huge 5e fans. I've said it before but, nine times out of ten, if you find someone who complains at how 5e-centric actual play is you will not find a single post about a popular actual play channel's non-5e work (while finding plenty about their 5e series) and usually you won't find many posts about actual plays that never do 5e either.
#i also think people blame a lot of things they don't like in actual plays incorrectly on 5e#and you also get people who are most interested in the long-form story and it's true 5e is the system of choice!#but there's no efforts to find something else. i think there's a weird problem#where a lot of 5e Is The Problem people don't have a good understanding of fandom dynamics nor the spine to champion something alone#they ultimately want the entire fandom landscape of AP to change but won't commit to working on doing that#and i'm not saying it's easy to change a fandom mentality but. at least try.
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it's ironic that accounts saying they "block klk shippers" and "don't want to interact with proshippers" can always find something to say in my posts/reblogs. while I, a kaeluc shipper, personally have the "ragbros" tag blocked because I do not want to accidentally share something with a romantic context in mind, in case op is uncomfortable with that.
because I know how to put my own, as well as respect other's, boundaries in online spaces.
because I know that every single thing isn't meant for me and everyone has their own preferences.
because I know it's not only weird but also rude to go out of my way to put someone down for their interests or hard work.
but sure, call me the immoral one here for liking a fictional relationship between two fictional characters—who, keep in mind, I first started liking on the grounds that they were previously sworn brothers.
#honestly. HONESTLY. COME AT ME#I won't be mad I'll even fight you if you want my attention that badly#but don't go scrolling through my account and bash on the creators of the beautiful fanart I've reblogged#your fight should be with ME#leave them alone#if you're gonna make a promise on your intro post at the very least have the integrity to pull through lmao#the block button is there and it's free fucking real estate why are you HERE#I'm not??? even??? a big blog???? are you just that fucking lifeless you've run out of big fish to fry that you settled for me????#honestly you are unwell i hope you feel better soon lol#kaeluc#luckae#kaeluckae#genshin impact#ship discourse#shipping discourse#genshin discourse#fandom discourse#kaeya alberich#diluc ragnivindr#ragbros#diluc#kaeya#kaeluc anti#bee.texts
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if you have a good vibe/kind thought to spare and could send it my way. i'd really appreciate it.
#saying goodbye to my friend murphy tomorrow#i'll be okay. it's the right decision and i'll get through.#life is just going to be really hard and sad for a while#i don't want to talk about it in any detail but i feel like i have to say it out loud#and i have this paranoid anxiety thought that's like if I don't tell people he's gone they will ask about him#snd I won't be able to handle that for a little while#I don't need acknowledgment or sympathy. I don't need to talk to anyone. I don't need cheer-up fodder#so no need to send me anything or talk to me about it really i promise#just if you can take a second to love and appreciate the animals in your life. that would be really nice.#you don't have to tell me about it it would just be nice to feel there's love out there#writing this all out is making me feel so stupid. i've deleted and rewritten several times#but i gotta because it would be a lot worse if i was worrying about not talking about it#so yeah. no need for likes or comments or dms or asks or anything. just give someone some love for me ok?#murphy is the senior yellow lab you may have seen me post pics of sometimes. he's my parents' dog but he's my buddy.#and he's gotten me through a lot. like a lot a lot#and i'm going to miss the hell out of him#and i'm so worried about my parents. they're going to have a much worse time than me.#and they don't need anything else on their plates right now#it's just everything you know?#and all at the same time too. 2024 has been just one gut punch after the other#so yeah. if you could give your pet a hug or a treat or a scratch or take them on their favorite walk. that would be awesome#this was good actually typing all this nonsense out helped a little. still don't want to talk about it but at least i have ideas for#the 'leave me the fuck alone' email i'm going to send everyone tomorrow at work
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I've always felt that it'd be Killua who initiates the first hug we see between him and Gon
#i have my reasons for this#i feel like i'm in the minority though... i know gon is honest and much more emotionally expressive#but he's not actually more tactile than killua#i... i actually do think that it's killua who initiates much of the contact between them (fistbumps and poking and hand on shoulder)#if i'm not mistaken anyways#and he's very tactile with alluka and nanika (carrying + hugs + handholding)#granted that's his sister(s) but still. killua is far from touch averse - his getting embarrassed is a cute trait to be sure#but i do think he'll get a bit better at accepting that kind of thing once he's had some time with alluka and nanika#a lot of that does come after all from his feelings of unworthiness - and now that his sisters need open affection after so long being alon#he's going to have to gain at least some comfort with giving and receiving love#gon and mito go for hugs either at the same time or mito initiates. gon hugs leorio in the scene right after he's revived#but idk idk i just feel like he won't be the first to initiate a hug with killua especially since i suspect he still feels quite guilty#i think it would show growth on both their parts. not to mention it'd be very sweet to have gon a bit blindsided + happily surprised#as he's the one typically honest and forthright with appreciation and compliments while killua is. not. lmao#i think he should receive a nice hug from his best friend. and then i think they would both know it's gonna be ok. :')#storyrambles#hunter x hunter#hxh#killua zoldyck#gon freecss#this is so sappy. what's wrong with me. this is what they do to me.#random thoughts
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Augh
#fancy is really struggling#and the babies are lovely and just FASCINATING in how they developed around but not shaped by humans and i so very deeply enjoy them#but they are also a little ungovernable due to their age and general lack of caring about rules and they are bothersome and rowdy#and it is obviously so so hard on her and my heart is breaking because im afraid we wont be able to get her through this#and i will have to give the babies up#and...not have another cat#just one#i would be crushed#and added to all of that is that the babies are taking their time learning to be pets and that is fine and wonderful actually#but...i need surgery on at least one ankle and i won't be able to keep up with them if things haven't sorted themselves out by then#and they haven't become more manageable and fancy hasn't adjusted#so we are asking about meds for poor fancy and hoping that works#but she's really having a hard time guys and i am fighting so hard to cope in a household where i spend most of my time alone#with two animals who don't love me yet or interact with me like pets (i'm a source of three things: food and snuggles on demand and NO STOP#and one who is sad and not herself#and frankly it's terrible that i can't fix this#and i am trying not to lose my shit but this wasn't supposed to be so hard#and im afraid i may lose five cats and not three#and im already barely holding on#i don't know what to do and neither does my boyfriend#i don't want to turn around and have to tell you guys we can't keep the babies#i feel like i am failing at something i am supposed to be GOOD AT#i don't want to be in a house so empty#i can't live like that#having the babies is lovely#they're so alive and the boys were so sick by the end and the stress of the constant anxiety and grief as they faded away was crushing#even before they died#it's been so good to have them running about#i don't want to LOSE that#im so tired of LOSING things
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rip gambit you will be missed 😔
Don't even know what to say tbh.
For those that don't know, the big State of the Game article came out detailing incoming changes and adjustments and all the big stuff. Gambit was mentioned! But at what cost. Basically, they are ceasing any kind of support for Gambit. What we have now is what it is. We will get the Dreaming City map back in TFS and they will add Shadow Legion and Lucent Hive as enemy factions in TFS. That's all.
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As many of you have noticed, we’ve been quiet on Gambit since last year’s overhaul that launched alongside The Witch Queen. In that revamp, the team made significant changes across five categories in Gambit: core activity fundamentals, Primeval tuning, invasions, ammo economy, and rewards. Unfortunately, these updates didn’t move the needle for player engagement. Although we know our Gambit fans mostly care about new or returning maps, this is an area of the game with lower engagement that would take resources away from more popular parts of the game to shore up. While we don’t have plans to dedicate more resources to significantly transform Gambit, we do have a few updates planned for the year of The Final Shape. These include porting the Cathedral of Scars map and its beautiful Dreaming City setting into the latest version of Destiny 2, as well as adding the Shadow Legion and Lucent Hive enemy types.
I don't know how to tell you this Bungie, but the reason "engagement is low" in Gambit is because Gambit sucks. Ever since half of it was removed with DCV, it just sucked. It has no variety, the gameplay is largely busted, it's not sufficiently updated, ammo changes suck, invasion cycle sucks (why is the enemy even getting a portal when their Primeval is at 5% health and the other team is still in mote collecting phase is beyond me), there are no cool armour sets to chase (just look at Iron Banner and Trials stuff, imagine dedicated cosmetics) and finally there are simply no weapons that are worth anything. Both Vanguard and Crucible have more weapons and also adept versions. There is zero reason to go into Gambit without major changes to Gambit. And now with the further changes to how playlists and challenges will work, there will be even less reason to go into Gambit. Observe:
Before then, we’re making Gambit entirely optional to maximize your rewards unless you’re looking for a piece of gear that’s specific to the mode. Gambit will continue to serve as a source of Exotic engrams via weekly challenges, though as we mentioned above, you’ll be able to complete all your weekly challenges in any ritual you’d like starting in Season 22. If you want to stick to Vanguard or Crucible challenges without touching Gambit, now you can. We’re also reducing the number of Gambit-specific Seasonal Challenges starting in Season 22, so players won’t need to bank motes to be able to earn that big purse of Bright Dust for completing nearly every challenge in the Season. Finally, we’re adding Fireteam Matchmaking to Gambit next Season, which will replace the Freelance node and should result in faster, better matchmaking by combining both Gambit playlists. We’ll keep an eye on reception and player engagement after these additions take place, and we hope you’ll visit ‘ol Drifter next Season to get your hands on his new Void Machine Gun.
Ngl, but I don't think anyone besides like a total of 6 people will play Gambit next season. The incentive to go in there is completely removed. You won't even have to go in there for pinnacles or for challenges. The Void Machine Gun will not be enough of an incentive because the chance of that gun being better than two recently available craftable Void Machine Guns (Commemoration and Retrofit Escapade) is very low. And besides, once you get it at the end of your first match, you can leave Gambit forever.
This is the feedback loop that just reinforces the idea that people don't like Gambit. And I mean. Who would at this point. I'm pretty sure that if Crucible had stayed the same as it was at the start of Beyond Light, engagement would be low there too. But you know. Crucible has received major updates pretty much every season since with multiple new modes, several Trials overhauls, Iron Banner overhaul, competitive overhaul, new armours and weapons added and YES, even new maps. God forbid even 5% of these resources went into Gambit.
Anyway, this is the whole section about Gambit in 6500 words. It's basically a "you guys aren't playing this so we're doing the bare minimum of keeping it in the game as is, no new work will be done on it ever." Thanks I guess.
And for the record, something I also added while having a rant in my discord, I want to make it clear that I don't want anyone to spiral into a Bungie hate train. Even for this. I understand perfectly well what's the community attitude towards Gambit and what it's been for years now. People just don't like it and they're not incentivised to like it and they're actively encouraged to hate it. Spending resources into a game mode on the hope that maybe you can change people's minds would be insanity. Like, the amount of change Gambit would need to MAYBE start appealing to gamers would be beyond any reasonable time and resources Bungie can put in. And if you could guarantee that people would love and play Gambit then, fine. But you can't. Most likely, even if major changes happened, people would still just do their weekly stuff and bail. It's simply not worth it. In order for people to like it, it needs to be completely and thoroughly overhauled in a way that would need more time and effort than the entire Light subclass overhaul and it's just not a reasonable expectation, nor is it guaranteed to work. So I get it.
I'm still disappointed and annoyed about it because I believe it wasn't given a fair chance at all. I also know how good it can be and how Gambit Prime could've been improved upon over the years if they tried. Instead, it got removed and that was honestly the death sentence for Gambit. It's unfortunate. It's my favourite game mode that could've been so much better was it given even a fraction of attention of Crucible.
I'll still be playing it. You will find me in the Gambit queue waiting for 2 hours to find 7 other lunatics to play with, don't worry about it. But I'm absolutely incredibly sad about them being basically forced to axe the potential of the whole game mode that is incredibly creative and fits with the type of game Destiny is perfectly.
There's other interesting stuff in the article and some upcoming really cool improvements and changes to the game. But if you're a fan of Gambit in any capacity, this is a death certificate for the mode. I suggest coming to terms with it quickly because Bungie changing their minds about this is highly unlikely.
#destiny 2#gambit#ask#long post#says 'don't know what to say' at the start. writes an essay. FHKSJHFKJS#i won't go too much into it outside of this. we all know what this means no need to beat the dead horse#i'll still play it and the mode is still there but i expect a drop in quality and population significantly#the issues we have will never be addressed nothing will ever be fixed. we'll get a 5th map (returning) in 6 months and that's it#yay. I guess.#don't think there will be anyone in the playlist anymore by that point so I'm not sure why even bother with that alone#but still. if that does happen at least new people will be able to see that map now. it was very pretty#unfortunately not good gameplay wise. but at least it will help to not get deep six 17 times in a row#anyway. sad situation for gambit enjoyers. please don't turn into crucible bros to harass devs though
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if you're going to ask wcif but not ask politely OR specify what you're even asking about i really don't want to answer (੭ ;´ - `;)੭
#not saying a whole convo has to happen before but at least don't yell it at me??#and how do i answer if i don't even know what you're looking for#'help me find something but i won't tell you what it is so just guess'#NO leave me alone 😭
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Hey everybody!
been a while!
the last time you heard from me, i was having some pretty intense financial struggles. truth is, i'm still dealing with it all, and not totally out of the red, but things are finally starting to look up for me! which means hopefully soon i can get back into working on new pages :)
i have all of the sketches done, and truthfully, they've been ready for a while now. since i last checked on here, in fact! it's been a long time coming!
the biggest reason i haven't gotten around to it is due to some issues with our computer lately, which has made drawing difficult. however, i am still determined to continue working on this as soon as i am able! i still have so many stories with these characters that i want to share with you all!
i'm deeply sorry for the sudden silence and hiatus! i've had to focus on other things in my life, but hopefully soon i can get back into the swing of things here!
#being an adult is difficult! you always have something to be done 😅#but i'm not alone in this all so i've at least got that#and i'm hopefully going to get financial assistance soon too which is a big help#we'll see how it all goes#for now just know that phoenixclan will continue! i won't give up on it yet!
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go birds go (yay) but my biggest and remaining concern is. what is everyones favorite superbowl snack
#i am. genuinely sort of considering my cooking for the week to be. at least some. superbowlpartyesque food#yes after the superbowl but i live alone and won't see anyone til tuesday sooooo#i saw a recipe for buffalo chickpea dip today and am feeling. tempted.
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