#as someone who struggles with anger

[get-along-little-khornedoggie]

happy birthday to the man, the pig, the legend, whose character said NO USERS with his whole chest so loudly it reduced the city that tried to use him to a smoking bedrock crater and altered my brain chemistry and concept of self-worth forever

[your-turn-to-role]

moment of appreciation again for what is possibly my favourite later game percy quote that everyone always forgets about

(said to vex, of course)

[mueritos]

i hope we continue to see more protests within the US military. i see a lot of leftists and folks who are anti-military who have such an open disdain for the people who are in the military, yet neglect to considering the conditions this country makes to produce ideology, poverty, and the illusion of choice to make all kinds of people choose to enlist in the military. You ever see those videos of ROTC kids recording each other asking why they joined the military and everyone's like, "healthcare", "it helped me go to college", "I was bored" or "free ptsd lol". I hate to remind everyone but folks who are in the military are people, too, and they are the same victims and perpetrators of violence as the rest of you, we have all been shallowly conditioned to view each other as enemies just because one person is wearing army greens and the other is not.

some of the biggest anti-war advocates are those who engaged in war. Veterans who genuinely believed they were protecting the US against "terrorism" come back with blood on their hands, and they choose to realize that it was US imperialism that forced them to carry out violence, instead of doubling down and shielding themselves from the fact that they too are capable of atrocities... This is a class of people who are intentionally conditioned to be as poor and as ideologically aligned to US imperialism so that the military has a never-ending pool to send their youth to destroy other country's youth. The only people I have ever heard say "do not join the military" are those who ARE military.

This is in no way to ever excuse or explain away any of the atrocious war crimes and violence this industry and its people have committed against others. What I am saying is that we absolutely cannot cast aside the individuals who have been victimized within US imperialism, even if they are wearing army greens. I was speaking with my Palestinian classmate last week and another classmate--a member of the US air force-- walked up to me and struck up a conversation. My military classmate showed me her new bird, bid both of us goodbye, and left. My Palestinian classmate asked me if I was close with her, and I said we talked quite often, and she said, "I never met a person who's in the military. I still hate the military, but I never knew that they did, too. I didn't realize that they were also victims."

If my Palestinian classmate--one who is actively watching her own community die--can understand that it is not individuals who are the problem but it is in fact systems, US imperialism, white supremacy, capitalism...why can't we all? And she has EVERY reason to hate any individual military member. A lot of online activism just creates more barriers. if your optics look bad, complicated, or contradictory, you are cast aside. Everyone has got the be the perfect activist, you can never make a mistake or share a half-baked thought, you should always believe every word from a marginalized persons mouth (because being marginalized doesn't mean you're not entrenched in white supremacy too!) and you should never question what you see...Do you know what you sound like? The very imperialists who are convincing poor whites to vote against themselves. Perfectionism is white supremacy. Black & white thinking is white supremacy.

I'd rather have a military member who genuinely believed in the US imperialism machine but was disillusioned after being deployed as my comrade than some leftist who cherishes the performance of "being a good person". I don't want "good people" in our movements. I want humans who care. I want humans who make mistakes and who learn from them. I want humans who accept the messiness of a person. I want humans who hold others accountable and allow themselves to take responsibility for their actions. I want people who change for themselves and others.

fight systems, not individual people. we can change each other, but if we're too preoccupied looking like the World's Perfect Activists, we will only consume each other alive. Connect to your fellow humans, forever and always.

[mother-of-houseplants-2]

fiona gallagher // the angry man in the house

[myfairkatiecat]

hey as someone who struggles with lashing out at people when I'm upset, I'd like to remind everyone that saying that it's out of character for someone to lash out/get really upset/struggle with anger sometimes when the rest of the time they're a super kind and thoughtful person is just as bad as only remembering that one specific characteristic about them and completely forgetting that they're super kind and thoughtful person!

[becasbelt]

caitlyn going from one of the first characters in arcane to talk about needing to stop the cycle of violence to becoming perhaps THE leading perpetuator of that very cycle because of her pain actually hurts so bad

[winters-rose-daughterofcain]

Me? Writing a fic about Marya Van Eck? More likely than you'd think.

{Peep into the google docs there whoops}

Inspired by @aphroditestummyrolls moodboard for her because it was ~perfection~

[snowbellecity]

I think whatever mental health issues AZ and Xan have run in the family in such a bad way that their descendants always end up at least a Little crazy 🥺 .... They inherited them from their mom btw. 💔

[laniidae-passerine]

decided that in my own personal canon, Santiago’s maker looked similar to Louis, simply because Ben Daniels stated that Santiago was very likely in love with his maker. and wouldn’t it be some kind of torture to fall in love with the man who murdered your first vampiric love? to then watch him fall in love with another, who bears an eerie resemblance to that first love? to be witness to something tender and affectionate blooming, every moment a memory of how none of those you’ve adored have ever wanted you back? it would be agony. it would be torture. god, you would just hate them to pieces, loathing even as you loved them. and you wouldn’t know peace - not until the whole pack of them learnt the horror of love, just as you have.

[deoidesign]

I have a question, but it may be already have been answered in the story (my brain is just not the best with memory).

Since vampirism symbolises for you chronical illness (which, omg, that is a hot take I've never thought off before and love from now on), does Steve count as chronical ill, too, with the whole halfvampire thing going on? So, would his uncontrollable time jumping each month be a symptom of that chronical illness?

not in the story, no worries! Just a possible interpretation and my personal intent when writing.

As a small aside I personally don't like to think of chronic illness as something that people "count" as, so to speak, it's an extremely personal label and incredibly varied between individuals and as with all disability there is never such thing as hard lines or black and white... but I understand why you worded it that way and I understand what you're asking.

So, yes, Steve is also chronically ill within this framework. The entire comic is sort of shaped around this, to be honest! I mean he canonically has some pretty extreme memory issues... He's also canonically homeless (not that this is an illness but I just mean it's something I think most people forget about him when discussing him). And, yes, his condition is uncontrollable and is severely impacting his ability to live the life he wants to live.

He has just been barely coping up to the point we meet him, and has been very desperate which is what led him to creating that list of deviations. He has periods where his body is out of his control, he is unable to form relationships, he hurts others without meaning or wanting to... Yeah. He's metaphorically relating to a lot of things, really.

So, yknow, you're welcome to interpret him as you'd like! for me I relate a lot with my various issues and conditions and thus that's why I've projected on him the way I have, but of course I would understand entirely different interpretations of what is inherently metaphorical.

[thatsparrow]

they did norrington so right with the quiet, emotional but still restrained, "do not make the mistake of believing you are the only man here who cares for elizabeth"

[daybreakrising]

HEADCANONS - VAUTRIN & LIVING WITH HIS CRIME

one thing i want to touch on since vautrin is on the brain (again) is the fact that he has taken lives deliberately and this is not something that can, or should be, forgotten - by him, or by those around him.

whilst there are undoubtedly many within teyvat who have taken another person's life (or many lives), there is something very different between taking a life accidentally, or out of necessity or self-preservation (self-defense, war, etc), and actively plotting to kill. however much someone might agree with the motive behind his actions, however much someone might believe those he killed were awful people, he still took justice into his own hands and murdered them. even when we have the full context of the situation, even though we know there were layers to his actions, this is still an extreme response, and i've already spoken about how there was a part of him that did it for himself, even if it was a fairly small part in comparison to those that did it for carole, for neuvillette, and in the broader picture, fontaine itself. he wanted those people to suffer. he wanted to hurt them. and he cannot ever escape the truth of that.

he is always going to live under that shadow - under the knowledge that he is capable of horrific things if pushed to the right limits. knowing the facts of his crime (particularly the deaths of thibert and suavegothe, which were the most savage and brutal) is one thing, but to have that memory inside his head, to remember the cold rage that fuelled him, to know that he felt satisfaction for doing it... this is something he will struggle with for the rest of his life. he had always believed he was a good man, and his life up to that point supported this, but now he knows he is not a good man. in his eyes, he has been tainted.

and the reason i wanted to touch on this now is that he will be unable to conceal this from the people he gets involved with - platonically, romantically, whoever gets close to him in whatever way they choose. for those that already know his story and his past, especially anyone who knew him before his crime, he will struggle with the perception that he has shamed them, that he has forever stained their opinions of him, that he has failed to live up to the man they thought he was. it's not a subject he finds easy to broach but there is always a compulsion there to apologise, to relieve them of any obligation to forgive him, because he does not feel deserving of that forgiveness - even if he absolutely paid for his crimes in the end.

and for anyone who does not know his story, who come to him knowing nothing about the man he used to be, this is a subject he is going to eventually bring up. because he has to - his conscience cannot allow him to develop meaningful bonds with someone without them knowing the full story. particularly with any bond that develops into romance, he simply will not pursue things further until he has laid out his sins to them (if he hasn't already), so they know exactly who they're getting involved with - and so they have the option of walking away before it's too late, if that is something they can't accept.

this is something very important to him, because even if he did a terrible thing for the right reasons, the fact remains that he would do it again if it became necessary. and that is the weight that sits so heavily upon his shoulders - knowing he can, and would.

[savage-rhi]

Late night magenta.

[ronkeyroo]

I’ve been so badly traumatized by people online constantly demanding my attention and snuffing me out in the worst possible ways in the past that to this day I dont know how to properly emotionally navigate this kind of behavior when i am faced with it again, even when its mild.

I’ve went through experiencing unrelenting and overbearing messaging to weird guilt trips and even (I hope to dear god my assumptions to be wrong here) people vagueing at me in such an oddly specific, hurtful manner when i dont appear to be available for their needs and it just...Fuck, it eats away at me. It doesnt happen too often nowdays but, I recognize those behaviors returning and it bothers me alot...

Its easy when its strangers unlike my fucked up now ex friends, I can just put the boundary without all of the previous mess...But I cant shake how incredibly mad it still makes me TT This inappropriate reaction to want to bite and lash out and burn that bridge immediatly to spare myself a FRACTION of the trouble, and for fucks sake i know its still the remnants of the damage inflicted upon me echoing out as self defense but its so uncalled for and im tired of feeling like a mad dog when this trigger is being activated. I really want to unlearn this behavior...

[tenaciousmoneymuffinzine]

I went through my old photo album and found a bunch of pictures from over a year and a half ago when I was dating my ex (the one who cheated on me). I pulled them all out of the album and.......yeah

Anyway, this is a part of what healing can look like:

[magiefish]

Y'know considering that I actually like Marina & Florence + The Machine & quite a few Billie Eillish songs, I might actually like Lana Del Ray's music if I listened to it, but I also just categorically refuse to do so because by this point she's become so intertwined with some of the most insufferable views of "feminity" I've ever seen that I literally just cannot do it.