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jsmainblog · 2 days ago
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taking it slow - spencer reid ᡣ𐭩 •。ꪆৎ ˚⋅
spencer reid x inexperienced!reader (established relationship)
requests are always open <3
❤️‍🔥smut
a/n: this is the first time i've ever written a smut like full oneshot which i wrote awhile ago so if this sucks im really sorry squad
warnings: 18+, fingering, mentions of sex
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In the midst of your lovers absence (surprise! surprise! he has another case across the other side of the country!!!) you decided that you were going to have sex with him. The thought of it initially was shocking to you even. This abrupt decision was spurred on after chatting to your friend who was throughly shocked that Spencer hasn't gone past heavy makeout sessions with you and a little over the clothes groping (is this because he's a man or is this because you guys have been dating to the point where you guys having sex is assumed? you couldn't determine). So you decided you were going to get it over and done with. After all you were a virgin in every sense of the word even if you despise the concept of it. So flash forward a couple of days you lay in bed on your nightly phone call with Spencer.
"So is there anything else you wanna tell me about?" he inquires
"Yes" you declared
"Really now?"
"Yes really Spencer. I've decided that when you get back I'm going to have sex with you."
"Woah there sweetheart. Lets slow down a little okay? So over my 2 week absence you have came to this little revelation of yours?" he says sounding shocked and amused.
"Yes."
"Why? I mean like yeah I kinda understand that people do feel a need to have sex to be closer with one another even if its just us wanting to go through the actions of reproducing without consequences. But are you sure you want to do that its a little sudden don't you think?" he explains gently
"I do want to do it" you say insistently. His constant questioning is making you feel a little annoyed because you do want to do it with him. Why wouldn't you? But it also tugged at the strings in your brain that maybe Spencer wasn't attracted to you in that way and maybe thats why he's never brought it up before.
"We can do it if you really want. But why don't we work are way up to it, huh angel? I just want you to get comfortable before tossing you into the deep end. I don't want you to back out during the middle of it."
"Okay" you murmur. "What time do you land tomorrow?"
"Uhhhh..Should be around 10:30am. Anyways I imagine its getting pretty late for you so you should sleep. I love you y/n, I'll see you tomorrow, sweet dreams my love."
"I love you too Spence goodnight." You say into the phone before hanging up. So now you have a plan. A daunting one, but yet a plan none the less.
The next day transpired pretty normally. Spencer getting home from his case, having a power nap whilst you went about your life leading to a makeout session.
Spencer kissed you like a man starved, tongue tracing your mouth like he was committing it to memory which he most indefinitely was. If one day he showed up with a 3D model of the inside of your mouth you wouldn't be surprised in the slightest. You could feel your body temperature rising and a familiar throb from between your thighs. Spencer's hands rested on your hips rubbing them gently. When he pulled away a confused look crossed your face.
"Is there something wrong?" you stutter earning you a breathless laugh from him.
"No nothings wrong your just really pretty thats all, and I also wanted to ask if your okay with me touching you?" he confesses
"Um..Yeah more than okay..Uh" you breathe
"Don't be nervous baby just lift your hips for me yeah?" he says a bit amused starting to unbutton your jeans. It hits you suddenly. You're actually doing this ur breathing picks up but ur not scared actually ur excited very excited. Spencer practically mashes his mouth to yours as the jeans came off and were thrown somewhere across the room. He uses his thigh to nudge your legs apart.
"Mmmm i think pretty is an understatement when it comes to you angel" he jokes which illicts a shy laugh from you. He uses his thumb brushing over your clit. Your heavy breathing turns into whines and eventually little moans as you feel a warm slippery sensation forming.
"There we go, good girl" he mumbles "Well I think theres no use of these panties anymore they are throughly soaked. Lets get these off you yeah?" he questions before tugging at your panties. Your doing this with Spencer Reid. The Spencer Reid you thought as shy and timid when you first met him and now well he's doing this. You can't help but to look up at him adoringly. Before you know it the rubbing sensation continues only you can feel it a little more this time and now a new feeling of a weird stretch? You sit up a bit where you find Spencer's hand joining the junction of your thighs looking up at you with a sweet grin. From what you have heard from your girlfriends guy's liked to take pleasure from you to give to themselves not giving it to you, and you certainly haven't known someone who described someone looking at them so lovingly the first time they did it together. This reiterates the fact that 'woah Spencer really loves you.' which is confirmed by the building pleasure as another finger slips inside.
"You're doing so well baby, you're being so good." he breathes as his eyes flick from his hand to your face. "You doing okay there?"
"Uh huh very well" you moan
"Yeah I can see that"
After a while of his fingers pumping rhythmically the spring in your stomach snaps and you go weirdly squirmy as you feel a warm feeling trickle through your veins. Best feeling ever. Spencers fingers slip out as he wipes it on his leg and lays next to you softly kissing all over your face.
"You okay?" he questions his fingers tracing your arms gently.
"I love you" you say hoarsely which illicit a soft laugh from him.
"Yeah baby I can tell"
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a/n: again guys im sorry if this was bad i myself was cringing a little writing this 😭
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missdynamighttt · 2 days ago
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This is not a request or anything like that, I just wanted to know which MHA guys would be willing to have a threesome, as canon and as less OOC as possible in your opinion!
⋆˚࿔ kia's note ˚⋆ FINALLY FINALLY OH MY GOD IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS, THANK YOU SO MUCH NONNIE. THE REQUESTS I GET ARE NICE BUT THEY ARE KINDA OOC AND PURE ON HARDCORE PORN IM NOT SURE IM USED TO YET.
NO TO THREESOME:
katsuki bakugo, shoto todoroki, tenya iida
honestly? i get these requests but i dont believe they'd be into that or want to do it. its a nice thought but its more that they just want you all to themselves.
they dont believe in sharing. plus, with the lack of intimacy they grew up with, it took AWHILE before yall have mindblowing sex. they won't let another person see how beautiful you look, when its supposed to be all for him.
its more of an ego thing for katsuki. even if you wanted to, his pride couldn't take it. besides, he can take care of you all by himself. he doesn't need another dick, or even a dildo to have you screaming and crying out in pleasure. and if it was a girl, he'd probably just ignore her anyway.
"sure as hell ain't sharin' you, sugar, thats for sure. tch, c'mere, gimme a kiss. i'll show you why my dick's all you need. gonna fuck these stupid ideas outta that pretty little head of yours."
meanwhile, shoto and iida is just reluctant. like i mentioned, it took you awhile in the relationship before hes fucking you so good. it also just feels weird when another person sees him like that, when its only all for you to see.
"my love... as... exciting, as the idea is, i don't think i like it. is that okay? i'm sorry. i'll make it up to you. now spread these legs for me, c'mon. i'll eat you out real good, i promise."
WILLING TO TRY:
sero hanta, kirishima eijirou, midoriya izuku
they wouldn't say outright no but not outright yes either. they're reluctant because another person would see you all vulnerable like that but the idea of bringing you more pleasure gets his dick really hard.
"it.. depends who its with, mi amor. i dont like it but i don't hate it. let's make a list, yeah? narrow it down and shit and we'll see." (y'all end up picking denki.)
"that's.. not what i was expecting. don't get me wrong, i don't hate it. its hot but its a little weird, y'know what i mean? okay, good. who to ask? bakugo would kill me... mina? she would too. but i'll ask." (she said hell yeah)
"oh! um... sure, why not? i'm not sure who we could ask, though.. maybe kacchan? oh! or, uraraka-san maybe. i'll call him and you call her." (both of them said yes but y'all decided on katsuki. you got drunk on both of their dicks real good.)
YES TO THREESOME:
denki kaminari
i think y'all know why he says yes. this man is kinky as shit, no denying that. he's a pervert but he's not a maniac like mineta. the image of you all fucked out taking on 2 cocks or kissing another woman while you're bouncing on his cock and he's eating her out.. its hot.
the challenging thing here was finding someone who was willing to have a threesome with him though. the person who ended up saying yes was sero. i imagine using both of their quirks to real good use, like bondage or shocking your needy clit.
"fuck, fuck, fuck. yeah? you like getting fucked by that, don't cha? c'mon baby, fuck his cock like you mean it, c'mon."
‎‧₊˚✧[ it's me, kia ! ]✧˚₊‧ 。゚•┈꒰ა ♡ ໒꒱┈• 。゚ ‎‧₊˚✧[ more of katsuki ! ]✧˚₊‧
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a-whispering-echo · 2 days ago
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anyway, blah blah uni au les gooo
Dust is psych major and chemistry minor - never fucking shows up apart from exams, always aces them somehow??? hes missing his lower leg below his left knee cus i said so - always shows up in pjs
Cross is older, and gets free uni cus of military past - spoke about this with some folks in the comments, pretty sure im putting him in art for now - i think its funny to have 'big gruff military man' in the fun drawing class thats seen as 'lesser' by people - (obviously not my own opinion, as i AM an asrtist, but yk, people see it as less that ) hes had bad encounters before when he tells people and it makes hm sad :(
Horror in culinary arts! he got in on a free scholarship, full ride!, for his talent! he got into baking because he wants to own his own bakery, so he can bring some money back to his large and suffering family!
Nightmares whos in his 40s and has just been getting qualification after qualification - rumour has it hes a vampire lol - hes in Law rn. he becomes the groups unofficial leader after Killer keeps clinging to him after seeing him in a seminar before
Killers in criminology and has a extra mandatory glass in Law too! hes definitely not in criminology for any NEFARIOUS reasons; he just has dreams of being a... detective, of course... (no one fucking believes that but shh, hes a good person to know for.. information ehehehehe) - spotted Noot in the class and went 'hm yes, he looks fun to mess with' and then didnt leave him alone.
Killer knows Dust cus hes the guy who hooks him up with some, yk, good stuff... - Horror is the guy Dust has seen in the libary a few times and MAYBE has a BIT of a crush on him, shhh - while Cross and Dut are both in the same dorm, and THATS how they all know each other <3
(Cross and Dust are both trans masc btw cus i said so. are they t3t?... mayhaps?)
(feel free to give me more ideas, on these guys or possibly the stars if you like - or others! - i just dont care for the stars much, these boys are MY THING, but if anyone has ideas....)
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monosanimegenericzone · 2 days ago
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Hunter x Hunter: Being bitched by a dude half your age
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okay so can we talk about these two
and i cannot stop laughing how silva fucking zoldyck. in his prime at something like 42. getting his shit absolutely rocked by a "tee hee im not a teenager anymore" chrollo.
anyway. this is a breakapart analysis of how chrollo bitched him for a second time in the fight in yorknew.
side note: omg look its shalnark hiii
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anyway
yap ahead. it got really long so proceed at your own risk
so the yorknew fight starts with the two zoldycks walking in on chrollo after tracking him down as fast as possible. and i mean as fast as possible. yes zeno probably could have used his 100m En to flash scan the whole building, but to parse out information from that- considering zeno has never met chrollo- would be pretty much impossible.
plus they had to deal with mafia grunts being idiots.
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this is also a viable strategy. if chrollo was a pussy, he could have easily jumped out of a higher story window.
at this point neither the reader nor the zoldycks know what chrollo is doing in the building. they know the merchandise is intact and that they lost contact with 8 assassins so far, that's it.
we find out later that chrollo was playing for time, so if illumi was taking his sweet ass time taking out the 10 dons chrollo could have easily led the two zoldycks on a wild goose chase, but no, he's waiting for them.
getting into speculation territory. we don't know how long the fight actually lasted. the animated fight lasted like an episode and a half, but in hxh, time is irrelevant. the fight could have been 20 seconds tops.
minor point but- slightly relevant.
chrollo probably wanted to wipe out the assassins before making his next move and i cannot tell if he knew it was the zoldycks or not. again, him and zeno have never met, so even if zeno used En, chrollo would have no idea it's him.
point is. chrollo was waiting for the assassins to come to him. he wouldn't waste the time looking for them, so he wasn't even trying to hide as he just. casually meandered up the cemetery building.
but as soon as chrollo sees who it is his face does the iconic dark shadow. that- imma be honest- 2011 did him so dirty with.
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for reference. he greets the other assassin like this
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dawg is not playing
im giggling bcs its one of those "you can see the exact moment when he locked in" type things. its so funny
now this next part i will just present as a silly moment
but chrollo literally pulled a knife just to shank silva specifically. the grudge here is so real
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how petty are you that you're trying to shank the guy and not his dad. this is so disrespectful
(satire)
anyway.
zeno earns chrollo's respect by being an actually seasoned fighter and able to break chrollo down for all he's worth.
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those are eyes alright.
chrollo knows that silva is not going to attack him directly anymore, but he will have to keep silva in sight so that he never gets an opening.
chrollo is playing for time.
and- i did not notice this before-
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ZENO FIGURED THAT OUT TOO.
THIS OLD MAN IS TOO OP. EXCUSE ME.
i can skip the rest of this fight otherwise i'll be here for 5 years glazing zeno for being the goat he is.
but chrollo's plan was to capture zeno alive. he can't secure abilities otherwise, and we assume fun fun cloth is inescapable once closed.
now picture this for a second. chrollo knows what silva's hatsu is most likely. and if he wanted to, he could have captured silva and gotten a hatsu out of him easily. silva is poisoned, slower than zeno, and the less obvious threat.
but no.
chrollo is more interested in zeno because silva is not worthy of his respect. even if silva had a really useful hatsu, i doubt chrollo would want anything to do with him. he won't even look at silva if he can help it.
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also i realized that they were fighting in the basement. j'accuse.
but the really juicy part is what happens after the fight.
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so i have a theory.
what if silva didn't know who illumi got a contract from. that would be the best troll ive ever seen out of chrollo in the history of ever
consider: chrollo knows about silva's warning to his kids. he and illumi have known each other for a long time, and because silva fought chrollo at least 3 years ago, i think it's reasonable to assume that chrollo and illumi already knew each other by then.
obviously we don't know for sure, but for my delusion let's go with that.
illumi is suddenly harder to reach, so chrollo tracks him down and illumi being illumi was just like "yeah dad said not to hang out with you anymore" so, chrollo, who knows illumi is a good asset, is like "bitch you aint going anywhere. imma pay you just to hang out. stick it to your old man"
so with that in mind. illumi ringing in asking for his client- who isn't zeno nor silva- and silva realizing in 0.2 seconds that it's chrollo. the immense fatherly sigh that woulda left his old ass man would have been fucking hilarious.
(based on textual evidence i dont think this is canon but its still too funny)
regardless, it's proof that illumi has either gone behind silva's back or got his reluctant permission. assuming the 'no phantom troupe' rule still applies at this time
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"JUST BARELY"
SILVA BE FOR REAL I SWEAR TO GOD XDDDD
"JUST BARELY" ALIVE MY ASS.
anyway. real disrespect is chrollo only speaking to zeno. like zeno and chrollo are best buddies after going toe to toe for like 2 minutes and chrollo clearly respects zeno.
but here
right here
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THIS RIGHT HERE. THE DISRESPECT IS ABSURD.
chrollo asked this question on purpose.
notice how silva isn't even in that question. SILVA IS NOT A THREAT TO CHROLLO.
AND WHAT'S WORSE.
ZENO CONFIRMED. INDIRECTLY. THAT CHROLLO COULD WIN THAT 1V1. IN FRONT OF HIS POMPOUS ASS CAT EYED SON.
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LIKE LOOK AT HOW SILVA LOOKS AT CHROLLO.
HE'S SO MAD AND HE CAN DO FUCKING N O T H I N G
CHROLLO JUST BITCHED SILVA WITHOUT EVEN SAYING A WORD TO HIM, BY DEMONSTRATING THAT HE HAS CONNECTIONS TO AND CAN KILL EVERYONE SILVA RESPECTS IN THE FAMILY.
and chrollo is satisfied. he's done. he's out.
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bro hit the deck waiting for his pals to show up.
and we know how pissed he was at the beginning of the fight. to be able to let it go like this- because chrollo's ass petty as hell-- he would not let it go-- means he KNOWS he made silva look like a bitch.
AND GOD DAMN. HE'S RIGHT.
thats my rant for the day. tata
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prettyboykatsuki · 2 days ago
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begging you to talk about mr. fake vanilla’s kinks, then!! 🙏
this is the only one i feel possible of feeling confident in.
i really do think zayne is a very vanilla man. he is not especially ashamed about it either. he just wants you to experience pleasure and wants to not embarass himself in anyway. he's a fan of indulging you
so a lot of his actual kinks do not exist before he meets u. u kind of shape his tastes as you date. BUT .... i do think he probably has some random stuff that really gets him going whether or not he feels comfy admitting it sdkjhjfs
alas i do think he's into feet. specifically into like... heels and seeing you get pedicures and stuff. he knows you work hard but there's something about seeing them well taken care of like when you're on a break that does unfortunately get him rock hard especially when he's got them in your lap. i dont think they go in his mouth often but he does kiss them and rub them frequently
im going to say femdom but i promise this is NOT bias KJSDJF. i literally want to be that mans lapdog for once. i just think he has a pretty strong sense of restraint and he enjoys releasing it
aside from that................. i say i think he has a breeding kink and it is not Untrue . but i think it's more accurate he kind of in a very guilty subconscious lust towards barebacking and risk. its less about family making and more about you being so desperate to feel him cum in you when he absolutely should not. this is buried deep in his psyche and it takes you several years of dating to pierce it together.
likes some light bondage. like specifically using his ties to tie your hands. nothing too extreme or he'll worry abt hurting you </3 rip for m's everywhere
bit of a voyeur. likes just watching you get off or masturbate or when you use his thigh or smth to get yourself off. finds it arousing and also kind of cute when you act extremely desperate around him
he really is simple and pretty vanilla tho in my mind. and extremely weak to being seduced in any form.
i think you SPECIFICALLY mold a lot of his tastes. he likes you and by extension likes what you like and sometimes does his own research if he can manage to not be completely embarrassed by it. he is not happy perse if u have more experience than him but also its kind of nice to have your guidance if you're into anything hardcore.
i do think genuinely he probably refuses anything excessively degrading or degrading at all. hes pretty quiet in bed. he can do stuff that's light but he's very playful and indulgent with mc but he just will not engage in that even in a mild way he is too lovey dovey for degradation. u must understand i would easily let him call me a mutt btw so again. not bias just how it seems to me
he is . MILDLY an exhibitionist. not anywhere with real risk of getting caught but like. fucking in the office or in the car cause you cant quite keep your hands on him.
also. i think he's into petplay but he is never going to uncover this without dating someone whose into it first if that makes any sense at all.
but yeah he does almost anything you want him to within reason. and any position that requires some kind of indulging you are his favorites. big on body worship and eye contact
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suchusoid · 2 days ago
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exactly, and not to get off track here but this "shonen is just for spectacle" argument reminds me of people defending mha's sexualization of its UNDERAGE female charactsrs and overall misuse and poor handling of with characters with this pathetic and overused excuse:
"Duh, shonen is for teenage boys-"
SHUT THE FUCK UP!
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I have heard this dumbass argument so many times whenever someone calls out how misgynistic shounen animes like mha are towards there female characters. Oh sure, the only women who are physical powerhouses are still sexualized to the moon and back, momo and toru are given piss-poor costumes for the sake of fanservice, a woman who is all mights disciple with a ridiculously op quirk gets killed off in the very same arc she's introduced in in the most nonsensical and bullshit way possible, mina uncharacteristically freezes up when she's about to sedate gigantomachia just so a man can save her, ochaco devolves from having her own goals and a compelling backstory to just being pidgeonholed into veing all about romance and her feeling for izuku being pushed down(and I say this as an izuocha shipper) and nejire gets way less character focus than the two men of the big three, but its all okay because "shonen is for teenage boys, duhhhh!"
Because its not like teenage boys could possibly find interest in compelling female characters anyway according to those PEA-BRAINED WORMS!
I'm sorry that I lost my temper there, but I am so sick of seeing this stupid argument. If I have to hear it one more time I'm gonna start my villain arc.
Also thanks for responding to 9trixieturner6, vivika-ka.
having to rewatch MHA for a video I’m working on about anime and the famous “but it’s realistic” arguments nowadays is so painful lmaooo.
although, rage aside, it is interesting to realize how it can be a social experiment on propaganda (that many fans fell for, tbh). during my first watch I didn’t realize just how rampant literally every moment the villains present solid criticism about their society then getting interrupted by some power-up or some random hero appearing to help is.
the way the interruption helps the heroes to completely disregard what is being brought up, then the anime trying to convince the public the heroes listened to a single thing being said when they proceed to just continue the fight without any moment of substantial self-reflection.
the music is also a huge factor, insanely epic for moments that the heroes are acting in self-serving ways, or just straight up spewing empty platitudes.
nothing quite hits the rage episode 124 (chapter 293) makes me feel though. sheesh. the bs on that ep imparting from heroes is too much.
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mag200 · 1 year ago
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when i say i chose to be trans i dont mean that im following a fun trend for cool points or that i haven’t experienced genuine dysphoria. i didnt choose to feel a certain way but i chose to name the feeling, and to name it in this particular language. i chose to live this way, to be open about my feelings and unapologetically transgender, and i chose to share my feelings with you. i would probably be just as trans if i never said anything about it, because the feeling i had from the beginning would still be there, but i wouldnt be choosing it. this is valid as well, i just decided its not for me. in this life, i am living this way. “i chose to be trans” because we are our actions as much as we are our feelings.
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xxplastic-cubexx · 3 months ago
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How would you redesign Headmaster Magneto? Just out pf curiousity because while he served it didn’t feel like… Erik.
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i have to keep it 100 i have no idea without just. rerunning his original design but with a palette swap LOL but we try around here
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b4kuch1n · 1 year ago
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siren
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ty-bayonet-betteridge · 10 months ago
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3l!grian is frequently depicted as a tragic figure and sometimes i wonder if we even watched the same series
#like yes he is tragic. every character in the series is tragic but i think hes easily the least tragic of the winners#(except maybe cleo. i have my own thoughts about how cleos victory plays into her core themes and why its not as joyous or triumphant as#cleo the players and the fandom at large make it seem that i will have to make a real post about at some point)#grian dies Laughing. he smiles and calls it a dual victory before the final fight. his last words are “its been amazing.”#to me Grians arc is about how he came in with this sense of mirth. had it ripled away by the reality when his joke gets Scar killed.#and then rediscovers it as he learns that the horror of their circumstances doesn't need to keep him from delight#plus also ive never seen a man more delighted to explode three of his friends#ill also bring up that Martyns lore has Grian involved in the games explicitly to COMBAT the angst#that Grians inherent silliness and joy makes the players less hopeless as they meet their endings#and theres obviously parts of martyns lore i can take or leave but this is one area where Eyes and Ears lines up very well with what actions#the characters take and so im happy to bring it up#unlike other parts such as “limlife pearl and cleo retained more trauma between seasons than any player has before”#which i do directly refute as it doesn't seem to line up with the way the characters act and the story plays out#thats for another post though#my point here is 3l grian was having the time of his life and i think there are some fanon interpretationd that disregard that#which theyre free to do im definitely someone who has ignored canon plenty of times in the past (glances at worm)#but i think this is the sort of thing that makes the canon more interesting and compelling#anyway. um. rambled longer than i meant to there#grian#trafficblr#3rd life#3rd life smp#3lsmp
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dreamyintersexouppy · 2 months ago
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sending love to all head mates with complex relationships to the body, language isn’t build to adequately describe our senses of identity and that’s fucking rough sometimes! However y’all choose or opt out of labels, I respect your choices!
thank you! but i think that's the thing about it, tma/tme (from how i understand it novas a good explainer but idk if im a good rememberer) isn't opt in or out, it just describes something that exists already, and while my identity as a boy is real queer how i get treated while fronting is still more affected by how people see the body. it feels like a tma if you don't know me/don't know im fronting and tme if you do but even that seems strange (nova says: that sounds like just tme to me cuz of the opportunity to opt out but it could be more complicated). i think the language is good but i also think it matters more to me to be an ally to nova and all my transfem friends than to think forever about where i sit in a framework that wasn't made to benefit me. in the end that stuff is for trans women and as funny as the joke of boy headmate in tma body is i think my position as boy headmate makes me not the authority on actual meaningful discussion
#hihi nova tags i think it's rly good to question the language with this stuff tho#like it really is a framework based in describing experiences connected to medical gender assignment which is useful for us#but i think this question is more associated with a question about how systems work#like when a split happens do the new headmates share experiences imposed on them because of their gender assignment and tma/tme status#beforehand?#depending on how memories get divided up it can change the answer to that#like green said the language is good i think a lot of the confusion#especially from the people who used this silly point to argue against transfeminism for a bit a while back#is more an indicator that we don't know how systems really work on a wider scale#we can have idividual experiences described but i've yet to see studies that actually try to treat headmates like people and study their#social behaviors and situations#and if there are any then the knowledge isn't widespread enough for me to know about it#but i think its a really interesting question!!! less for 'whose side am i on' type stuff and more for personal understanding#greens my friend and i wanna understand him and i know he wants to understand himself so having a better theoretical framework for un system#s could help that and would probably answer a lot of these questions of intersectionality that seem like grey areas#also yea that post rules it's more of a really funny joke than a meaningful discussion so this is a lotta rambling over nothing#but that's my favorite thing ever sooo#anyway i'm gonna cry rereading what green said omg he's so lovely#getting to see him mature from when i met his has been fucking magical he's such a wonderful thoughtful person#i'm so happy to share a headspace and a life with him!!!!!#i know i don't talk abt my headmates a lot but#aaaaaaaa#love you man
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nereb-and-dungalef · 3 months ago
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I keep drinking coffee thinking it's gonna make me Productive and then instead of doing the work I actually have to do I just compulsively make spreadsheets :(
#my homework is. not done#but!!! i just realized if i take 2 spanish classes i can have a russian/spanish major instead of just russian#(it's complicated but this would leave me with: double major languages and history with a joint major in asian middle east studies)#(plus a minor in religious studies and concentration in islamicate studies)#first i gotta: relearn spanish for like the third time#but it's ok i'm hopping thru spain in less than a month so i should proooobably do that anyway#man when i was touring colleges my mom was like really dismissive about the idea of double majoring and now i'm here like#How Many Things Can I Stack Up To Get Big Number On Transcript#aaaaaaaand because of ames requirements i did the dumb thing and ended up learning persian while my spanish is still kinda iffy#итак совершилося то что я пытался предотвратить as they say#so i'm just gonna have to study two languages at once next semester... or just keep going thru the cycle of relearning them abt every year#my russian is a big girl it can survive on its own but i now gotta feed the babiessssss#tho ig what this kinda cyclically learning and forgetting spanish has taught me is like#languages are less like babies and more like those lil desert plants that wither up when they don't have any water#they might look dead but they're nearly impossible to kill completely#and will bounce right back after a lil care n patience. i just gotta like.... water em#the one thing standing in my way is ideological opposition to my spanish textbook#i have to pay $200 for access to a *website*#*i don't even get a book just a shitass ebook*#but it's ok one of the spanish profs likes me i think? i think she would let me skip the intro lit class#only problem is it was Genuinely Hard for me to follow along when i audited advanced lit... 90% of the class was heritage speakers#tho ig like. having taken a class meant for native russian speakers should help w learning to survive that kinda thing#genuinely i think i can do it#just gotta make that my goal. study. do it for zapata#and if i wanna go into translating... having good spanish should help right? like if i finally get b2 spanish?#yeah. if i could do kazakh history for native russian speakers i can do spanish lit for heritage spanish speakers. it's equivalent enough#but ok i'm gonna visit my buddy in spain who did nearly the exact same shitass majors combination as me#tho i think he did spanish/arabic for his language major and just Happens To Also Be Fluent In Russian cuz he's Like That#it's ok he's two years older than me i have two years to become that cool#he can tell me what to do
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crabussy · 1 year ago
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being a system can be really fucking hard and it comes with a lot of challenges and struggles but man?? I fucking love my headmates. I don't know what I'd do without them and my life is better because they are in it.
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aeolianblues · 5 months ago
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I'm not an extrovert. At all. In everyday life, I'm a yapper, sure, but I need someone to first assure me I am okay to yap, so I don't start conversations, even when I really want to join in sometimes! It's just the social anxiety acting up. God knows where from and why I lose a lot of my inhibitions when it comes to talking to people about music. I don't know where the confidence has suddenly sprung from. I've made a crazy amount of friends in musical circles, either just talking to people about common music or (since it is after all in music circles) talking to bands about their own music. I let out a sigh of relief any time an interaction goes well, because in truth it's going against my every instinct. I wish I could do that in everyday life
#like that's the point where we need to remind everyone around me that as much as I say#radio is 'a job'-- it's not 'my job' lol. I wish I was this interested in data science#but like. Honestly?? I'm not even a data scientist!? I answered a few questions about classical AI having come from a computer science back#background and now people are saying to me 'I know you're a data scientist and not a programmer' sir I am a computer scientist#what are you on about#and like I guess I get to google things and they're paying me so I'm not complaining but like I am not a data scientist#my biggest data scientist moment was when I asked 'do things in data science ever make sense???' and a bunch of data scientists went#'no :) Welcome to the club' ???????#why did I do a whole ass computer science degree then. Does anyone at all even want that anymore. Has everything in the realm of#computer science just been Solved. What of all the problems I learned and researched about. Which were cool. Are they just dead#Ugh the worst thing the AI hype has done rn is it has genuinely required everyone to pretend they're a data scientist#even MORE than before. I hate this#anyway; I wish I didn't hate it and I was curious and talked to many people in the field#like it's tragicomedy when every person I meet in music is like 'you've got to pursue this man you're a great interviewer blah blah blah'#and like I appreciate that this is coming from people who themselves have/are taking a chance on life#but. I kinda feel like my career does not exist anymore realistically so unless 1) commercial radio gets less shitty FAST#2) media companies that are laying off 50% of their staff miraculously stop or 3) Tom Power is suddenly feeling generous and wants#a completely unknown idiot to step into the biggest fucking culture show in the country (that I am in no way qualified for)#yeah there's very very little else. There's nothing else lol#Our country does not hype. They don't really care for who you are. f you make a decent connection with them musically they will come to you#Canada does not make heroes out of its talent. They will not be putting money into any of that. Greenlight in your dreams.#this is something I've been told (and seen) multiple times. We'll see it next week-- there are Olympic medallists returning to uni next wee#no one cares: the phrase is 'America makes celebrities out of their sportspeople'; we do not. Replace sportspeople with any public professi#Canada does not care for press about their musicians. The only reason NME sold here was because Anglophilia not because of music journalism#anyway; personal
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vampvelvet · 4 months ago
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i think the most important thing to realize as a trans man when it comes to misogyny is that instead of thinking/saying/acting like "misogyny directed towards me sucks because im not even a woman!" you should instead be looking at it like "misogyny directed at me sucks, nobody should have to endure that. the fact that im not a woman doesnt matter to these people. people of all genders can be impacted by misogyny, and its not right for any of them"
its a subtle change and although it is just a matter of words, i think its an important distinction so that your defense of your gender doesnt get in the way of recognizing the root of the problem. obviously transphobia is another issue in its own right but both things do exist and need to be confronted
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waywardsalt · 3 months ago
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back to thinking abt linebeck enjoying wearing dresses
#like. hang on#linebeck#salty talks#gonna specify rlly quick that this is very much not a post abt like transfem linebeck headcanon#its a headcanon that keeps in mind the headcanon that linebeck rlly rlly likes being a man and likes his masculinity while fucking with it#its like. the idea of like. a masculine character genuinely enjoying feminine clothes. so linebeck genuinely enjoying dresses#he doesnt rlly own any or wear them in public i typically imagine him having it as like a secret enjoyment (in like ph timeframe)#(or sinilar timeframes where hes more concerned abt upholding that reputation and not being comfortable being open abt like#having a less masculine side or feminine interests and w/e but like. just the idea of him trying on dresses and earnestly enjoying it yknow#i would probably have it be smth in post ph where he gets to be more open abt it. its almost a sort of gender euphoria thing#idk smth abt it makes me very happy to think abt it and its mostly due to the mixed hcs of linebeck genuinely enjoying it#and him also being very secure and happy in being masculine yknow. it makes me happy to think abt#like idk a setup in post ph where he and the crew check out a clothes store or smth and him being more open abt his interest in dresses#and getting a lot of support from them abt it- like he personally rlly likes it but still feels awkward abt it on a social level#not sure where im going with this. havent applied it too much in my aus or anything but its also a slightly newer hc#and also not something thats rlly come up anyways. but i rlly like it
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