#anyway peace out imma go sleep
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
lincolnlogsnfrogs · 1 year ago
Text
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
i was really tired and stressed today and this bullshit is the result lmao
70 notes · View notes
restinslices · 8 months ago
Note
Can you write the Lin Kuei boy’s reaction to a surprise spa day by their spouse? Like it’s a rare day off and their partner’s surprised them with a nice day of rest and relaxation?
I’m on meds again and it has me exhausted so this might be short and some may have longer parts than others. I didn’t check. I’m finna go to sleep again
Bi-Han
I wouldn't be surprised if he initially turned it down 
He expects things to pop off and for him to be needed so a spa day seems like it'll prevent him from being ready if he's called upon 
You don't take no for an answer tho
Grumpy the entire time but doesn't hate it 
He just doesn't wanna admit he was wrong and a spa day wasn't torture 
I think he'd enjoy things that don't take awhile or something that allows him to still move around 
Like, you know when someone is being waxed and they gotta lay there? I don't think that’d he something he'd enjoy 
Something like a facemask tho (put it on quickly then he can do whatever else while it dries) he'd enjoy more 
Some people get their nails done, and I don't think he's like “absolutely not!” but I don't see him wanting a color. He's a clear gel type of guy 
Now I will go back and contradict what I said earlier and say he'd enjoy a jet bath 
Has a shorter spa day than the others. At some point he's just like “yeah I'm over it”
“That wasn't so bad, now was it?” “It wasn't terrible”
Just say you appreciate it 
Kuai Liang
A spa day? Sure!
I feel like saying he'd enjoy the hot things (sauna, hot bath, them hot ass rocks) is stereotypical because the whole fire thing but imma say it anyway 
Probably enjoys activities that you can do as a team 
Like sitting in a sauna. You're together and you can chat 
Or bathing together 
Appreciates a bit of relaxation because his life? Stressful as fuck 
Especially if this is after Bi-Han's betrayal 
Definitely open to having another spa day. Whether it's a surprise or not 
I see all of them as clear gel guys tbh 
Also enjoys a jet bath, but honestly who dislikes a good bath?
Dislikes the whole face rubbing shit 
Why do I think this? I'm just tryna make them different. I think it's essential to be truthful in our relationship-
Yeah the spa day is for him but he checks in to make sure you're having a good time too
Makes sure to repay the favor. This could mean taking you out to eat after, taking you out another day soon, paying for the next spa day, getting you a gift, ect. Whatever you want. 
“How was it?” “It was great! Thank you”
Tomas
Him turning down a spa day? Absolutely not. Do you remember when his last day of peace was? He doesn't 
Ignore that this is literally the era of peace-
Enjoys the little vacation and makes sure you know he's appreciative of you thinking of him 
You both wanna cater to the other and do what they wanna do first so you have to compromise and take turns 
You do what Tomas is interested in, then what you're interested in and then it keeps going like that 
Enjoys the steam room because smoke pun obviously 
I don't think he necessarily needs to chat the whole time, but he likes you still being near 
You MIGHT get him to agreeing to a little waxing 
Y'all know how men are. They're all big and strong but squeal when waxing is involved 
Milks the entire day for what it's worth. A jacuzzi? He's in there. Steam room? Yes. Massages? Absolutely. 
There's nothing he misses. You paid for it so he might as well do everything while he can 
Definitely wants to do it again 
“So I'm assuming you enjoyed it?” “You really need me to answer?”
165 notes · View notes
cultofdixon · 1 year ago
Text
Pumpkin
Daryl Dixon [PLATONIC] • She/Her Pronouns • Never did Daryl expect to also be adopting a kid during the Savior’s War like Aaron. But here you are • ANGST/SFW • TW: Canon Violence / Separation Anxiety / Scars / Injuries / PTSD / Nightmares
Requested by: Anon
Tumblr media
“You hear that?” Daryl asks Rick if he was hearing the sound he was hearing but the retired sheriff shook his head giving him a confused look while he held this baby they found. “Imma find it”
“Daryl we can’t stay long”
“Whatever! Won’t take me long” Never doubt the hunter with the best tracking skills out of their entire group.
The archer did one last sweep of the area they were in where they found the baby. Daryl checked the nursery once more before it clicked. The closed door which he only assumed was a closet, had the sounds of something sobbing. He opened the door to reveal the little girl crying while covering her head as he was fixated on the fact that she looked hurt. She looked as bad as he did when he escaped the Sanctuary. When she heard the door open she looked up at him with tears as she retracted into the small space when Daryl knelt to her level.
“…Uh…I’m Daryl, it’s not safe to stay here anymore” He didn’t really know what to say to her. “I can take yea somewhere safe”
The small child looked at him once more with that questioning look filled with doubt as Daryl extended a hand toward her.
“I just want you safe, pumpkin” and those words led to her hesitation but eventual acceptance of the extended hand.
A few months passed and Alexandria was thriving once again after its hyper focus on the rebuild. The communities were now working together to help each other thrive and still have a few things floating around regarding the Sanctuary in terms of someone should watch it now. But in the moment, that didn’t matter.
The archer was enjoying the peaceful morning of sleeping in…nothing was asked of him, yet, and he was just enjoying a good sleep without any interruption.
Until an interruption managed to get the door to his room open with the help of a milk crate to get the handle. Daryl heard the creak of the door opening and opened one eye to see what it was, only to hide his face in his pillow as the small child he saved approached the side of the bed tossing her stuffed animal onto the bed.
As she struggled to get onto the bed by herself, she noticed him hiding his face knowing at this point he would’ve helped her.
“Daddyyyy…” She whined, knowing he’s listening to her as she stopped trying to climb into the bed and went to grab her stuffed animal but it was quickly swiped by the archer. “Daddy!”
“Ok ok, Y/N, I’ve gotcha” Daryl lifts his head and upper half a bit, enough to lean over the side of the bed helping her up. “Sorry pumpkin” he gave her space to lay in the bed with him while returning her plush.
“Why are you still sleepy?” Y/N asks as she hugged her stuffed animal, a dog, before laying down.
“Cuz I have a ball of energy for a daughter to deal with at night” Daryl smiles as she gasps with a smile of her own even if she was blamed jokingly. “Why are you up? You usually sleep in longer than me, bug”
“The possum is back” Y/N refers to the pesky creature that rummages through the bushes outside of her window at the most random times of the day or night. Today just having to be in the morning. Her only knowing it was a possum because of it catching Daryl off guard one night when he didn’t have his crossbow.
“I’ll take care of it, sweetheart” He reassures her that he’ll take care of it so she’d be able to continue sleeping next time. “Still sleepy or should we start our day already?”
“Can we visit Aunt Carol?”
“For breakfast? Won’t be breakfast time no more when we get to her” Daryl sat up in the bed watching his kid roll off it with a harsh thud making him quickly look over to check but she was already getting up like nothing happened.
“Can we go anyway?”
“Is there a reason to want to see Aunt Carol?”
“Can’t Aunt Carol be a reason?” Y/N smiles warmly up at Daryl as he couldn’t say no to her.
“I’ll make yea breakfast, and we’ll have lunch with her. Okay?” Daryl smiles watching her excitement write itself on her face as she quickly ran out to go get dressed for the day while he picked up his radio to get on the channel with Carol’s.
________
“Daryl what?”
“Has a kid” Rick tells Carol after they were leaving the field where the Saviors met their end as she was shocked to hear this news. “Like. He found a kid when we also found Gracie. The one Aaron’s taking into his care. The little one wouldn’t leave him alone once she was brought to the Hilltop”
“So he unintentionally adopted a kid?”
“I mean yea. What other way is there to put it?”
“Is he okay? Is the kid okay?”
“The kid was pretty banged up when he found her. He didn’t say much to me when I first saw him with her but the way the two kinda…held onto the other…they were attached”
“Well I’m heading to the hilltop and should see for myself. As for you, you should clean up your mess” Carol refers to the Negan mess of keeping him alive while separating from him to head toward the Hilltop.
Once it became night and those who were opposed to Rick’s decision on Negan’s meeting adjourned…Carol followed Daryl after such to find him picking up a sleeping child from the couch about to head to an unoccupied trailer when his friend stopped him.
“Who is that” She whispered and Daryl glared at her only for stopping him causing him to jerk and the little one almost waking to such. “Sorry”
“Just. Come on” He whispers back heading toward a trailer for them to talk but also for him to get the kid comfortable.
As Daryl got situated on the bed with the kid fast asleep, head in his lap and he was readjusting the blanket on her sleeping form. He gave Carol a look to ask what she wants to ask but also keep quiet.
“Are you adopting her?”
“Yeah”
“Just like that? Are you ready for that after all that—-“
“You should’ve seen her before I patched her up. Poor thing must’ve been going through somethin’ at the Savior’s outpost that obviously got overlooked”
“Daryl don’t dodge—-“
“I’m gonna care for her regardless of your worry about me. Kids change people. It happens. Not that I was looking for that exactly but it just. Fell into my hands…” Daryl frowns looking at the child thinking to way before the outbreak. YEARS before. “When I saw her. It just. Clicked somehow. That I needed to do this.”
“Well—-“
“Carol if yer gonna—-“
“Shush!” She silently exclaims when she noticed the child stir in her sleep making them both go quiet until they relaxed. “If you’re going to do this. Be her dad and all. I’m going to help you whether you like it or not. Just until you can handle it yourself”
“Fair…that’s fair” He whispers softly rubbing circles on her small back. “Her name’s Y/N. She had told me when I took her here…she cried when I told her I had to go a moment. But I promised her I’d come back and when I did…she just cried again and held onto me for a while. But it wasn’t out of fear or anything”
“You promised her, and kept it D.” Carol smiles at the two for a moment. “You’re already making her feel safe”
________
Y/N sat at the bottom of the stairs slipping her boots on with the goofiest smile on her face. Excited to see her aunt and a few others that make her day.
“Need help tying them, pumpkin?” Daryl asks coming down the stairs behind her as she looks up at him followed with a nod. “Alright. I’ll help with one and yea do the other”
The archer brought himself to kneel before his kid taking one foot to rest on his knee. He started to tie it seeing her attention fixated on the laces for a moment before drawing it to the knock on the door.
“Any guesses on who that might be?”
“Pick”
“Rick. With an R”
“Rick” Y/N smiles struggling to tie her own shoe as her relaxed expression went to hyper focus with a little tongue poke. Daryl laughs a bit to himself as she finally got it when he went to open the door. “Uncle Pick!”
“Rick—-“ Daryl corrects. “Whatcha need?”
“Heard through the grapevine yall are headed to the Kingdom. I gotta talk to the King was wondering if I can tag along” Rick asks with a bit of a smirk knowing Daryl can’t tell him ‘no’ out of annoyance because of his kid. His overwhelmingly nice kid. Who would argue in her own way with his decisions.
“Fine. But yea talk anythin’ I ain’t comfortable with, I’m kicking you out” Daryl made clear before remembering to get his kid’s coat knowing she would forget it.
The second he left, Y/N locked eyes with Rick gripping her shirt nervously as she took a few steps back debating on following her dad or trying to keep her ground.
“How are you, sweet pea?”
“good…” She mumbles as Rick kneels in front of her with a worried expression on his face.
“Your daddy knows I didn’t mean to scare yea the other night. I just…hope yea understand” He frowns watching her step back once more, standing up when he heard Daryl clear his throat only to be met with a glare. “Y’know I’m sorry”
“Yeah but don’t try and force one out of my daughter” Daryl frowns for only a second as it fades when he looks at Y/N seeing her smile return. “Arms up, pumpkin” he states watching her do so as he helps her get her coat on. “Alright. Come on”
The small child went sprinting out the door once Daryl opened it as he chuckles slightly before stepping out with Rick behind. Y/N knew to go to the cars by the gate as she was greeted by Eugene who she gave a more positive greeting back.
“Hello little miss Dixon. Where is your daddy?”
“Coming…” Y/N smiles looking up at the man with a head tilt as Eugene opens his mouth to say something but then had an epiphany before revealing the book from behind his back. “Doggos!”
“Yeah thought yea get a kick out of the different pups” Eugene smiles watching her flip through the pages knowing she’s going to read it in more ‘depth’ on the ride over to the kingdom.
“What do yea say, pumpkin?” Daryl gave her a look while approaching the car with Rick and as he opened the trunk for them to load up goods for the kingdom, Y/N hugged Eugene tightly when he knelt down in response to her grabby hands.
“Thank u uncle gene”
“Anythin’ for you kid”
________
“Stay here, Imma get some stuff from some friends to make yea more comfortable” Daryl frowns telling Y/N who still hasn’t spoken a word since the war ended about a week ago. But she nodded, thankfully she still communicated some way. “Okay. I’ll be right back, okay? Okay pumpkin?” he had such a gloom to him that matched his kid and his worry was overwhelming for himself. He didn’t want this kid to implode or for him to wreak havoc on the remaining saviors in hopes it makes up for all the pain she endured before he saved her.
The moment Daryl steps away to get what they’ll need, Y/N watched him leave and felt the tears come on.
“You Y/N?”
The voice startled the poor kid as Eugene took a step back holding his hands up defensively.
“Sorry sorry. I mean no harm.” He states watching her semi relax but the tears kept going. “Just thought I’d come make sure you were okay.”
“H-He…he’s not coming back?” Y/N frowns feeling the tears come on even faster. “He just left me…l-like them”
“Oh hun, no. The man that saved yea is never gonna leave.”
“But he…”
“He’ll come back. He always does” Eugene reassures and the moment he said that, Daryl made his way back and Y/N instantly lifted herself from her seated position crying even harder when she hugged his leg.
The archer was about to glare at the man but immediately dropped his pack and kneeling down to lift Y/N up and in his arms. She held onto him tightly continuing to sob.
“You came back”
Daryl squeezed her in his embrace when she said such.
________
“Aunt Carol!” Y/N screams out of excitement the second she stepped out of the car with her new book in hand.
Carol quickly matched her pace bringing her into her arms hugging her tight. “I’m so happy you came over” she smiles happily, setting her down and bringing herself to her level when Y/N started to go on about the dogs she’s been reading about.
Daryl could never hold up his front that he has with most when watching his kid be happy and all. He tuned out Rick when he took out his things from the trunk and told one of the guards about the supplies they brought, and brushed passed him knowing he came more to talk with him than anything Kingdom related. Rick watches his brother approach the two and Carol straightens up noticing his gaze causing him to turn away and help unload the rest.
“You know he’s still beating himself up right?”
“Right.” Daryl didn’t say anything more on the matter even if Carol’s worry radiated a bit from her. “Cmon. We didn’t drive here to stand around”
“Yes I know! You brought my best friend over for lunch and we are going to talk about the dogs in her new book that Uncle Gene gave her” Carol smiles watching Y/N look up at her with a beaming smile. “Come on. I made stew”
“But—-“
“And a PB&J with what’s left of our supply for Y/N” She’s a mother, she’s dealt with a picky eater before.
A couple of hours have passed and many of it was spent listening to Y/N talk about a Belgian Malwah. It’s Belgian Malinois, but she couldn’t pronounce the second word. She ate lunch with Carol and Daryl who cut apple slices for her with his knife, he got scowled by Carol once when he offered a slice on the end of it. Y/N got to help Ezekiel collect the chickens into the coop and Daryl was gifted a Polaroid by Jerry so he got a photo of his kid carrying a chicken…and another of her getting smacked by a chicken. But she’s tough, she’s tough now. Y/N got tuckered out after helping around the Kingdom, mainly carrying a third of what Daryl carried for people around the place. But Daryl didn’t want to drive her back home if she was exhausted so Carol happily had them stay in her little place at the kingdom.
The retired sheriff also had to spend the night, but he didn’t mind it. He knocked on the door leading to the room the Dixons were staying in and Daryl quietly opened it as Rick noticed him holding a sleeping Y/N.
“Sorry I thought—-“
“You didn’t wake her. Just come in, man” Daryl moved out of his way carrying the kid in his arms sitting on one side of the window bench as Rick took the other once he closed the door. “If you’re gonna apologize again I—-“
“I’m not. I’ve said it enough, you get the idea…I just. I feel bad. I shouldn’t have yelled at yea the day you moved her into Alexandria. Should’ve been supportive like how everybody else has been.”
“We were all stressed, Rick” Daryl frowns feeling her shift in his arms as he adjusted to make her comfortable. “But I stepped up. I stepped up for her. She deserves a parent and I’m happy to be that…give her what I’ve always wanted.”
“Can I just say, Y/N won the lottery. Not just with a dad. But also a family” Rick smiles receiving one back from the archer.
Once Rick left, Daryl carefully laid Y/N in the only bed in the room covering her up with the blanket. He picked up the plush dog that Maggie gifted her a week back, thank god he packed it knowing his kid forgot it. In her tired state she hugged the plush close while Daryl tucked her in.
“I love you, daddy” She gave a tired smile, followed with a yawn and her eyes fluttering shut.
The archer enjoyed the warmth he felt in his chest hearing such as he gives her a goodnight kiss on her forehead.
“I love you too, pumpkin…” He whispers getting up from her bed and before he left the room, he checked on her once more. “Thank you for coming into my life”
And as the door shuts on his way out. Y/N smiles in her sleep curling up comfortably.
Finally safe.
292 notes · View notes
heavyhitterheaux · 1 year ago
Text
One Last Sleep
First Lady of Private Garden Instagram AU
Tumblr media
Liked by danivalentine, urbanwyatt, quiiso, claybornharlow, druski2funny, champagnepapi, dualipa, saweetie, and 5,294,846 others
y/ninsta and jackharlow: last sleep until we meet our babies earth side 💕
danivalentine: AHHHH I AM SO EXCITED!!!! urbanwyatt: my best friends in the entire world are about to become parents 😭(I mean they're already the parents of privategarden, but yall get it) saweetie: my bestie makes pregnancy look good! y/ninsta: saweetie I am literally a whale and I have to waddle everywhere, but go off sis lol saweetie: y/ninsta shut up and take the damn compliment smh danivalentine: three more people to love! 2forwoyne: I swear I'm not going to cry when we get to see them quiiso: 2forwoyne but how much you wanna bet urbanwyatt will? softtcurse: quiiso he may have already started lol druski2funny: how much do yall wanna bet that them triplets about to be bad as shit? lmaoooo jackharlow: druski2funny imma kick your ass for that smh y/ninsta: druski2funny they're going to be the perfect little angels! cut it out! lilnasx: can't wait to see yall in yall parent era claybornharlow: you look amazing y/ninsta! I'm glad that since you didn't choose me to be your husband, you're still in the family! jackharlow: claybornharlow what kind of back handed compliment was that? CAN I AT LEAST HAVE ONE DAY OF PEACE BEFORE I'M NOT ABOUT TO GET ANY SLEEP? claybornharlow: jackharlow no. dualipa: step mommy is here and ready for them to make their debut! jackharlow: dualipa I literally cannot with you anymore smh maggieharlow: these last few weeks have flown by! you two are going to be amazing parents! so so proud of the both of you! jackandy/naremyparents: well this is it! OMG three at one time?! lemme go pray for yall because..... WHEW normani: they are going to be absolutely beautiful and have the greatest set of parents! sza: when can I babysit?! jackharlowsource: BRB CRYING allthingsy/n: can't wait until they tell us their names! urbanwyatt: allthingsy/n urban henry wyatt there you go y/ninsta: URBY! CUT IT OUT! urbanwyatt: y/ninsta what I do?!!? theestallion: okay who do we think they're going to look like? yungskylark: theestallion they're definitely going to have curly hair since both of them have it anyway saweetie: hmm I'm thinking baby number 1 looks like y/ninsta dualipa: baby number 2 looks like me jackharlow: DUA! claybornharlow: dualipa you meant me jackharlow: what is WITH you two? quiiso: number 2 is jackharlow up and down and number 3 looks like both y/ninsta: I can tell you from the sonogram, number three doesn't look like me at all lol that's daddy's baby all the way but we'll see
Tumblr media
Liked by jackharlow, urbanwyatt, privategarden, claybornharlow, saweetie, dualipa, shloob_, blancahood, and 4,281,093 others
y/ninsta: the cutest date that I ever did see, look at my baby daddy 😍
jackharlow: had to do it one last time as a family of two 😭 urbanwyatt: jackharlow you mean three even though I wasn't invited smh jackharlow: urbanwyatt you went out with Yasmin! cut it out! softtcurse: jackharlow I would have left him at home and went out with yall instead, not going to lie urbanwyatt: and you think you know somebody smh 2forwoyne: hold on, you need to include PG too! we're yall kids! y/ninsta: oh goodness. here we go. shloob_: now we have to fight for their attention once the triplets get here tomorrow quiiso: yes! I second this! jackharlow: we've raised yall for how many years? yall can branch out a little lol danivalentine: yall are so incredibly cute y/ninsta: danivalentine that's my man and imma stick beside him claybornharlow: I mean he's okay, if you're into that I mean y/ninsta: little baby! jackharlow: claybornharlow we literally look alike but go off, I guess jessicakelce: me and blancahood are getting on a plane as we speak! can't wait to see the both of you and meet them! jackharlow: HOLD ON, PAUSE! y/ninsta BABY! y/ninsta: jackharlow RESUME! what's wrong? jackharlow: y/ninsta not the hot chips and bad decisions crew helping out with the newborns. THERE'S ABOUT TO BE HOT CHEETOS STAINS ALL OVER MY HOUSE! jessicakelce: jackharlow THAT WAS ONE TIME AND I WAS DRUNK. LET IT GO! jackharlow: jessicakelce HELL NO, I'M NOT LETTING THAT SHIT GO! blancahood: jessicakelce but there was an entire trail that led us to the bathroom where you were fighting for your life from being hungover y/ninsta: I remember that. good times. jessicakelce: y/ninsta MAYBE FOR YOU, BUT NOT ME! traviskelce: jessicakelce no one told you to down that last drink like it was water, you brought it on yourself lmao jessicakelce: traviskelce that's it. DIVORCE! y/ninsta: LMAOOOO AYE YO 😭😭😭 blancahood: not jess saying she wants a divorce lmao y/ninsta: but yes jackharlow they'll be with us for two weeks jackharlow: y/ninsta TWO WEEKS? BRB, babe. y/ninsta: jackharlow where are you going? jackharlow: y/ninsta to hide all the hot chips and bring them back out when they leave blancahood: jackharlow hmm funny. I'm bringing some in my suitcase and buying a stash when I get there jackharlow: blancahood then your ass needs to eat them outside and wash your hands with the hose before coming back in. if I see one crumb, I'm kicking yall out
Taglist:
@harlowsbby
@babyharleezy
@hoodharlow
@stefansalvatoresgf
@jackiehollanderr
@primadxna-girl
@dessmxsworld
@cockslutslurper3000
@raelorns21
@variety-fangirl
@gbaabyyyy
@kamorsstuff
@harlowthot
@sinsandsuccubus
@curlyhairclub
@bootlegroach
@haylexo10
@thinkingaboutjharlow
@fluidsentiment
@charli123456789
@moody4world
@yourstrulymayah
@yana4life
@beanbagbitch
@alinaharlow
@carma-fanficaddict
@minaxcarter
@arination99
@xjup1t3r
@venusvinc
@jacksmoviestar
@jackharloww
@midnight-star47
@minkookie95
@inluvwithladybug
@exoticr0ses
@jharlowsangels
@jackierose902109
@jackmansbabymama
@cmalass
@megawhoree
@softtcurse
@sia2raw
@miniaturehideoutmentality
@hoya122
@nattinatalia
@jackslover12
@skyesthebomb
@jackharlows-world
@louisianalady
@fdl305
@automaticpeachsong
@harlowcomehome
@gassyandsassy1
@babygirlwilly
@amethyst09
@harrycanyonmoonn
@toocriticalharlow
@tattered-tales
@sisiking99
@dessxoxsworld
@gillybear17
@jacksdaycare
@iheartharlow
@disaster-rose
@babyvinnie
@evansxchalamet
@chtkmyharlow​
@itsyagirljaz
@neon-lights-and-glitter
@awhore4moree
@a-moment-captured
@jackmans-poison
@valentinqee
@lightsoutstyles
@j-worlds-blog
148 notes · View notes
im-am-not-a-weenie · 5 months ago
Note
Loved the period comfort hcs!!!!! How do you think our forge husband Dammon would be in this situation?
🍓omg it's been like forever, being an adult is hard. but im finally getting to my inbox🍓
I'm going to include Zevlore and Rolan bc like I love all three of them dearly. shorter than normal but I'm working on a longer fic with these 3
no beta and lots of grammar and spelling errors <3
🍓Dammon
this man is the sweetest, he's so gentle and caring
Doesn't really know what he's doing but is trying his best. he listens to your wants and what you need. hungry? he's ready to make you something or go get whatever you're craving. he makes sure you stay hydrated and offers you water like every hour.
cuddles galore, he'll rub your lower tummy and give you forehead kisses
while spooning, his tail will wrap around you too
"why are you giggling love?" "Dammon you know why" You couldn't help but giggle as his tail lazily swiped along your side. "it's not my fault you're so sensitive
expect soft touches like that the whole night, he'd sit there and play with your hair, maybe even put in a few braids if you let him
would definitely take the day off if you asked him too
🍓Rolan
Rolan would be the type of guy to act like he didn't want to take care of you the phrase "I suppose if I have to" is said so many times
"Rolan I'm fine really" "No no if you're going to keep complaining I might as well do something, it's the only way I'll get some peace and quiet around here"
he kinda knows what he's doing. he has a sister. him and cal took care of Lia when she was cramping so he knows a few things
wouldn't let you out of bed. but would never admit to fussing over you. or loving the cuddles
"I'm just holding you until you go to sleep. I have work to do" Spoiler alert he spends about 30 minutes just watching you sleep. he smiles to himself and brushes hair out of your face. stroking your face lovingly letting out a small chuckle because you subconsciously lent into his hand. he pulls you closer and falls asleep himself
🍓Zevlore
this man definitely knows what he's doing. he's been around for a bit and knows how to treat a person right.
the moment you mention cramps he's drawing you a nice hot bath and making chamomile tea.
so many kisses. on your face, arms, and hands. nowhere goes untouched by his lips. I mean nowhere. this man earned his red stripes (or is it red wings?)
"ew, Zev that's gross" "You could never be gross to me my dear"
gives the best massages. will rub your back or your feet. he just wants to make you feel better. especially during the most uncomfortable time in your life
he holds you tightly against him. whispering sweet things in your ear. "I love you, I love you more than any god. more than the sun and moons and stars. you are mine and I'm never letting go"
you fall asleep on him with a smile. knowing he means every word
HEY! im back! At least I'm trying to be lol. imma try and post a long fic every other week and will do short post like this randomly. or I might not stick to a schedule and disappear for a few months again who knows. anyway
see you later alligators - Rhys 🍓
38 notes · View notes
wandafiction · 8 months ago
Text
Mockingbird - Just Us Chapter 43
Warnings: Description of Blood, Death, Accident, Gore
Word Count: 3929
Series List | Chapter 42 | Chapter 44
================================
November 8th 2019
I was woken by the high pitch wails of Evie, let me tell you she is the sweetest most innocent thing to ever exist but my God does she have a pair of lungs on her. I look to my right, the big red digits of the clock flashing 2.34am in my face, well at least she stayed quiet for an extra few minutes tonight. I feel Sarah stir next to me, a small disapproving grunt leaving her lips.
"It's okay baby, I've got her." Sarah lazily gives me a thumbs up and a small thank you as I climb out of the bed. "Love you."
"Love you too." Her voice riddled with sleep and muffled by the pillow, I give her a quick peck on the forehead before making my way to her side of the bed, where the bedside crib is. 
"Hello my little angel." I pick up her small body, holding her securely in one arm as my other searches for her toy elephant that Tony was adamant would be her favourite toy once she grew up. I mean she loves it now, but that's probably because the nose has a rattle in it and the ears make a funny crunching noise when you scrunch them in your hands. I hold it up in the air where she can see it and her eyes go wide, her crying turns to sniffles. I bring it down to boop her on the nose with it and she gives me a gummy smile as she coos up to it. She smacks her lips together, which is a tell tale sign she is hungry. 
"Mama's boobs are a little sensitive right now baby, but let's go and make you a bottle." I wrap her tiny body back up in a blanket so she doesn't get cold, the small elephant toy under my armpit so I don't have to struggle with the doors on the way around the house. I put a little hat on her and make sure her hands are also wrapped up in the blanket, it gets cold this time of year in Sokovia. Well I mean it's pretty much cold all year around, but November and December are definitely the worst times for it. 
I open the bedroom door, giving one last look to my sleeping wife before leaving her in peace as I coo down at Evie to try and keep her calm as we move through the cold hallways. I brought my phone with me, so tap a few buttons and hear the heating click on. The lights in the kitchen flicker on when I enter and my body shivers at the temperature in the room. Why is the kitchen always the coldest place in the house? I pull Evie more towards me to try and allow my body heat to radiate through the blanket a little while the heating does it's job. I fill up the kettle, turning it on so the water can boil while I grab some of the good ole breast milk out of the fridge. I pumped it today so it should still be nice and fresh, hopefully satisfying Evie's huge appetite. 
I pour the milk into one of her bottles and put it in the small bottle heater, because we all know that babies like their milk warm. It's weird to think about but it's not actually half bad, before you lot go crazy with your smirking faces imma stop you. No. We have to taste test the milk to make sure it's not too hot or too cold, get your heads out of the gutter your dirty minded people.
Anyway...where was I? Oh right, heating the baby milk. 
As the milk is heating up the kettle comes to a boil, with Evie still in my hand I grab a mug from the cupboard putting it down on the counter. I put in a tea bag and fill up the mug with hot water, the aroma of the green tea fills my nose and it makes me sigh in bliss. I would have a normal cup of tea, but it's now 2.46am if the clock in the kitchen is right, and the green tea normally helps me get back to sleep easier. I see Evie's bottom lip quiver, and know that she is getting more and more hungry. Come on stupid heater, heat it quicker my baby is about to wake up the whole street.
As if the heater heard me, it pings to let me know it's done. I carefully take the hot bottle out of its place, making sure it's not too hot for me to hold with my bare hand. Because my other arm is wrapped around Evie's body I bring the bottle up to my mouth letting a few drops of milk escape and land on my tongue. It doesn't taste the best, but it's not horrible and it's the perfect temperature for my little baby. I bounce her in my arms as I walk from the kitchen to the living room wanting to sit on the couch to feed her. Once I have settled on the edge of the couch, I bring the bottle up to Evie's mouth and her lips attach around the nipple of the bottle like we haven't fed her for days, when in reality it was a few hours ago. After a couple seconds I remove the bottle from her lips, so I can pace her and make sure she is just gulping down air. 
She smacks her lips together again, so I replace the nipple of the bottle back between her lips and she gently gulps down some more milk. After a few more gulps her eyes start to close, so I remove it and her lips stay parted. I get up from my seat, taking the bottle with me, heading into what will be her room in a few months, grab one of her baby towels and wipe at her face where she was dribbling. Her eyes flutter open for a second so I test out if she wants any more by placing the nipple back near her lips, but she simply turns her head closing her eyes again. I put the bottle on the nightstand, I will sort it out later, throw the towel over my shoulder and bring Evie's body up so I can burp her. Once I hear a not so graceful burp leave her lips, I check her face for any sick which thank god there isn't and start to make my way back to the kitchen, grabbing my tea before heading up to our room. 
As I slowly lower her into the crib she starts to fuss and wiggle around. I unwrap her arms from the blanket so she can move more freely, the heating is finally doing its job as the room starts to warm up. I place the mug on the bedside table, before looking down at my beautiful baby girl. Her curious eyes look up at me in the dark, as she continues to fuss. I let out a small sigh bending down, placing my hand in the crib and she grabs onto my index finger. I swing her arm about a little, her grip remains strong on my finger, her eyes still open searching the darkness. I start to rock the small crib trying to lull her to sleep, but when she continues to fuss I move to the last resort. I sing her what my mom used to sing to me.
"Hush, little baby, don't say a word
Mama's gonna buy you a mockingbird
And if that mockingbird won't sing
Mama's gonna buy you a diamond ring
And if that diamond ring turns brass
Mama's gonna buy you a looking glass
And if that looking glass gets broke
Mama's gonna buy you a billy goat
And if that billy goat won't pull
Mama's gonna buy you a cart and bull
And if that cart and bull turn over
Mama's gonna buy you a dog named Rover
And if that dog named Rover won't bark
Mama's gonna buy you a horse and cart
And if that horse and cart fall down
You'll still be the sweetest little baby in town
So hush little baby, don't you cry
Momma loves you and so do I!"
She finally let's sleep consume her, her grip on my finger relaxes so I slip it out of her hand and stand up making sure to still the crib so it isn't rocking her in her sleep because it usually wakes her up. I trudge back to my side of the bed, pulling the covers back so I can slip under. Sarah's body gravitated towards mine as she pushes her back against my front and I wrap my arm around her waist to bring her closer leaving a small kiss on the back of her neck. I hear her let out a content sigh so I know she is awake still.
"Honey, go back to sleep. It's nearly 3.30 and you need your rest." She turns her whole body so she is now facing me, stuffing her face against my neck. 
"Sing to me." I smile against her hairline, pecking her forehead a few times feeling her relax against me.
Hush, little baby, don't say a word
Mama's gonna buy you a mockingbird
And if that mockingbird won't sing
Mama's gonna buy you a diamond ring
I hear light snores leave my wife's lips and it makes me smile. I pull our bodies impossibly closer, taking in her vanilla scent before I continue singing, until I once again finish the song and let sleep take over me.
I wake to a cold bed, my arms no longer wrapped around my wife's body but instead the pillow that smells just like her. I lift my head up when I hear a small cry, searching for Evie's body in her crib but she is not there. The cry must have come from somewhere else inside the house. I turn to look at the bedside clock, the red digits flashing 7.58am at me. Why do I always have to wake up before the hour? I could use the extra 2 minutes to, well, sleep. I groan, wiping my hands over my face trying to rid it of sleep, sitting myself up and swinging my legs out from the covers digging my toes into the carpet. I stretch my hands above my head as I stand up, a loud yawn escaping me. I trudge downstairs where I can hear the soft cooing of my wife's voice as she talks to our daughter.
"Momma loves you so much. Are you excited for your first Christmas, because I am and mama has brought us to her Sokovia. Yes she did, she brought us here to see all the wonders as a family. Do you know I love you mama? I do, with every fibre of my being and I love you to the moon and back. I can't wait to grow as a family, maybe add another brother or sister." 
"Already thinking of more?" I enter the room pressing my front to her back as I wrap my arms around her waist, my chin resting atop her head as I look down to our daughter. I kiss the top of her head and she leans against me more.
"Mmm, I made coffee and breakfast." I kiss her head once more and unwrap myself from her so I can grab the waffles and coffee.
"How did you manage this with her in your hand?" 
"I have my ways" She just smirks at me and it makes me laugh.
"Thank you for letting me sleep in baby." I sat my bowl and mug at the table , taking a seat as she sits in the one next to me.
"No problem, you were up with her for a while so I thought it best to let you rest. What's the plan for today?" I look at her and our baby girl  as she bounces Evie in her arms to keep her quiet.
"Well the Christmas markets open today, so I thought we could go and have a look around, maybe get some decorations ready for the 1st of December then we can prepay for a tree from the local farmer who grows them. Then we can go out to that little café we have been to, then we can visit Carl and spend the day with him and the witches." 
"I love that, I will go get me and Evie ready for the day. I bring some extra blankets and the hand warmers just in case. Also why do they call themselves witches?"
"Because they own the coven café. Just makes sense."
"Sure. Anyway, eat up and we will go when you're ready." Sarah stands from her chair, placing a chaste kiss on my lips before disappearing upstairs.
I turn back to my waffles and smile at the whipped cream and cherry smiley face. My wife is such a child sometimes but I eat it and for some reason it tastes better than normal. Must have been the artwork that added to it. I finish off my coffee and waffles moving back to the kitchen to wash up. I hear my wife's footsteps coming down the stairs and smile at her as she is wrapped up like a burrito in her coat, hat, scarf and gloves. Evie is wrapped up warm too, and her extra blanket hangs over Sarah's shoulder. I give them both a kiss as I pass them on the stairs to go get myself ready.
When I come back downstairs I look out the window to see the two loves of my life waiting out in the car, the engine running and I can only assume the heating is being blasted. I grab my wallet, making sure I have my phone and lock up the house as I leave. When I get in the car, it felt like I was getting in a sauna, my face being blasted by hot air as Sarah holds her hands out in front of the vent. I laugh at the sight but put my seat belt on and pull out of the driveway. 
"Did you buy the car just so there was something on the drive?" Sarah looks at me amused.
"What if I did? I have the house here and might as well have a vehicle so I don't have to rent one each time." I shrug as I look both ways before pulling out onto the main road that leads straight to the center of the city. 
"Your own money or the joint account?" I furrow my brows slightly at the question but shake it off, Sarah has always been funny when it comes to me spending money on me. She prefers it to come out of my earnings from working then what we make through the company as CEOs.
"My account. The joint account we agreed was for a new house for the three of us and our future." She gives me a look. "It was one time and I didn't realise I had used the wrong card, it was an honest mistake." I defend lightly.
"Well when $182'000 leaves the joint account I thought it was fraud." 
"Was it or was it not worth the $182'000? And I put the money straight back."
"Well it was definitely worth it. I mean you did propose with the $182'000. Got a nice ring out of it too." She jokes as she shows off her engagement ring and wedding band.
"Exactly so, stop complaining."
"Mhmm, I love you."
"I love you too." 
I come to a set of traffic lights going right through them, as ours are green. Before I can even comprehend what is happening, the car is struck on the passenger side sending us flying to the left as the car flips too many times to count through the air. The car hits the road and skids along hard ground, but not before the bottom of the car is hit again sending us rolling once more. We come to a sudden stop and everything goes black. 
I come to when I hear people shouting and lots of blue flashing lights. I open my eyes, all I can see is red so I bring a shaky and sore hand to wipe my eyes. When I bring my hand away, opening my eyes slowly, I see my hand covered in blood yet I am not sure if it is mine or not. I look out to what used to be the windscreen but is now a mess of smashed glass and warped metal. The world is upside down, so that means I am upside down. I look to where my wife should be and see a mess of red and metal, her body no longer recognisable as her own. Her body lays still, her blood seeping out of a large gash on her neck...it's not stopping. I can see her chest rising up and down slowly, but it's not strong. She is so weak. She licks her lips slightly, her eyes fluttering as she tries to open them, but gives up when she can't. I hear a small breath escape her mouth.
"I….love….you….3000." I scream out in agony as her body gives up to her major injuries, I know the moment her heart stops beating and pushing blood around her body, because her neck is no longer bleeding the blood is just pooling around her now. 
I hear a cry from behind me and turn my head as much as I can to see my baby girl screaming her lungs out, but she has a nasty gash on her head. I bite my lip to stop me from screaming out again, the voices of all those around me not being heard as my ears start to ring. 
"Hey, hey hey. Evie baby everything is going to be fine. Everything is going to be just fine." I know she can't understand me and I know everything is not fine but the moment she hears my voice she goes quiet, a small whimper leaving her mouth. 
Her big glossy eyes look up at me, I haven't seen her move at all but the gash on her head won't stop bleeding. I know she won't be rescued in time, she probably has internal hemorrhaging and a brain contusion. She isn't going to make it, but she doesn't need to know that. I just need to keep her calm while the rescuers do their work. So I do the only thing I can do at that moment.
"Hush, little baby, don't say a word
Mama's gonna buy you a mockingbird
And if that mockingbird won't sing
Mama's gonna buy you a diamond ring
And if that diamond ring turns brass
Mama's gonna buy you a looking glass
And if that looking glass gets broke
Mama's gonna buy you a billy goat
And if that billy goat won't pull
Mama's gonna buy you a cart and bull
And if that cart and bull turn over
Mama's gonna buy you a dog named Rover
And if that dog named Rover won't bark
Mama's gonna buy you a horse and cart
And if that horse and cart fall down
You'll still be the sweetest little baby in town
So hush little baby, don't you cry
Momma loves you and so do I!"
By the time I'm finished Evie has gone quiet, her eyes no longer holding their color. I scream as I turn to the front of the car, slamming my hands against what's left of the steering wheel. That's when I finally look over my body to assess my injuries and my eyes grow wide at the site of the piece of rebar sticking out just below my right ribcage. That's when I realise I can't feel my legs, and the angle at which the rebar has entered let's me know it has torn through my spine. I cough up blood, well shit. I feel someone tap my face so I turn to look up through the broken windscreen, and I'm met by the sight of a firefighter.
"Hey, we are doing our best to get you out of here. You just have to stay with me." He gives a few commands to his colleague but stays with me as they start taking the car apart.
"What's the point? They're dead. Why couldn't it be that easy for me?" I see him visibly gulp at the sight.
"I'm sorry for your loss, but you have to stay with me. You have to fight. For them.' His words make me angry, but I don't say anything, I just nod. I feel my eyes closed and don't fight the darkness as it consumes me. "We're losing her!" 
Present day 
I look around the hospital room, momentarily forgetting where I am because I got so lost in the story. I feel a body press against mine and freeze for a moment until the smell of strawberries wafts through my nose and it instantly calms me down and brings me back. I see that there is not a dry eye in the room and Christina hands around tissues. No one says anything. There is nothing to be said, but Christina is the first to break the silence. 
"So I heard some news Y/n. A little bird called Tony told me. Why didn't you tell me this at our last session?" Tony and his big mouth.
"Because there's some things that I need to process by myself." 
"But it caused a panic attack, and we made a deal to talk about them everytime."
"So what are we going to talk about it now?" I scoff but bow my head in apology.
"We are because then we can use it to help prove to yourself that you are not to blame." Wanda and Natasha sit up more ready to listen. "So tell me Y/n what's the news?"
"He is going down."
"Who's he?"
"The man that hit us with his truck." 
"What's he going down for?"
"Reckless driving, driving with intent to hurt, plotting murder. Murder in the 1st degree."
"And that's good."
"Yup"
"What about the other man?"
"What's with all the questions?"
"Because I am trying to prove to you that it's not your fault."
"But it is! If I hadn't saved that kid then we wouldn't be here would we? No!" I slam my hand against the railing of the bed and I see Natasha and Wanda jump at my aggression and I just want to wither away and disappear at that point. "Sorry."
"So you blame saving Carl for the death of your wife and child?" 
"Yes because if I didn't save him, there would be no reason to come after me!"
"And who was it Y/n. Who plotted your murder. What other person is going down now that they have the evidence?" 
"I…." I take a breath. "I don't blame the kid."
"I didn't say you did. I asked the name of the person who plotted your murder."
"I…"
"Y/n we can't move on from this point unless you say it out loud. These two people here want to help you, but they don't know everything. So tell them. Tell them the name of the man who plotted your murder."
"Ultron."
================================
20 notes · View notes
onedirection072310 · 2 months ago
Text
Ok. Imma go on a rant.
To Simon Cowell you’re a piece of shit and ALWAYS have been. You overworked Louis, Zayn, Liam, Niall and Harry to their brim. Way more than what they, much less any normal fucking person could handle. All they wanted was to live out their dreams. Instead they went on 4 tours in 5 years. They released 5 albums in 5 years. When they were on tour for their previous album they were already recording their next album. Because of them constantly recording their next album they had to record all over the world, therefore they barely hit any sleep. They were away from their families for 9-10 months out of each year at least. When they weren’t on tour, writing/recording they were promoting an album, movie, etc. Simon, you didn’t allow Niall to get surgery. You portrayed Harry, a 16 year old CHILD to be a womanizer. You forced Louis to SIGN a contract to adhere to what you wanted him to be. You forced Zayn to have an Ed due to how much you overworked him therefore he had little time to even eat. Liam suffered from addiction issues because of the ptsd, trauma he endured and how often he was locked away in his hotel room all because you wanted MONEY from these CHILDREN. And worse of all your hateful ass closest Zayn/Liam and Louis/Harry for YEARS. You didn’t allow them to be who they wanted to be. You gave them fake gfs and kids that were not theirs. How dare you do any of this that I have just mentioned? How did you think any of that was humane? I hope you NEVER have any peace ever again in your life. And I hope you have the most painful death imaginable. I hate you, you piece of shit.
Maya Henry. Where do I even begin with you? You adhered to managements fucking wishes. You lied and spewed all of the bullshit you could have ever wanted. You did that to further closet him. How dare you? You forced a certain image on him being an a*user when he wasn’t just so it could benefit YOU. You’re a piece of shit. You’re a piece of shit for agreeing to do that just for the MONEY you would earn. I hope you also have a very painful death and NEVER have any peace in your life.
Kate (Liam’s last beard). Even though you were a beard.. why? Why, when Liam was in the hospital last August did you make it all about YOU? When he was dealing with a LIFE THREATENING kidney infection? You made TikToks and profited off of your “boyfriends” pain he was in. Why not support him? Oh yeah, because all YOU wanted was the MONEY. Also why did you not stay in Argentina when you KNEW (actually you probably didn’t even know because you were a beard). But when he was showing very obvious signs he was nowhere near in the right headspace to be left ALONE. In a fucking FOREIGN country. You’re a piece of shit for EVER thinking that was ok and I hope you think about that for the rest of your life. Thinking about how you should have gotten help for him. Call Zayn, call Niall, call Harry, call Louis, call his family. Call someone who ACTUALLY fucking loved him.
Liam haters. Idc if you NEVER believed in Ziam and you believed in the a*use allegations you were hearing. Your hate for Liam started LONG before the allegations. You hated him for NO REASON. You knew he was showing obvious signs of addiction and alcoholism. Yet you hated on him constantly. You hated on him daily for YEARS. You used him as your punching bag for YEARS. Liam read all of your comments when he was struggling like hell. Yet, you didn’t CARE. You kept hating your asses off. You don’t get to hate on Liam one day, and then mourn him the next day. You never know what someone is going through, so maybe if you hateful mfkers were a bit kinder this would have been less likely to happen. Go get fucked, all of you.
To the hotel. If you knew that Liam was struggling… why didn’t you restrain Liam until someone got there? Why did you keep walking him back up to his room KNOWING he was a threat to himself and to others? Y’all should have known better.
Anyways rant over. Liam my precious angel, I’m sorry that EVERYONE besides the boys and your true fans FAILED you for YEARS. You didn’t ever deserve this. I’m sorry that you never knew your worth and never knew how loved, special, kind and beautiful you were. I’m sorry that this ever happened to you my love. You’re missed so much and you’re loved so much. I hope heaven is kinder to you than most of earth has been to you for the last 14 years. I’ll love and miss you forever, my love❤️
18 notes · View notes
cl4ss1ba33 · 1 year ago
Text
CAN ANYONE GIVE ME SOME GUIDANCE ON THE VOID? I think I entered it but I didn't receive my manifestations
so i found out about the void 10 days ago, and much like your journey I found that meditating was harder for me. It didn't matter to me, because I was going to keep persisting anyways since we are the gods of our realities. Around four days ago though, I discovered that we could go into the void through lucid dreaming. I was delighted, because I used to lucid dream everyday(not anymore, but i pretended i still did so i could get back back into it faster). Today I finally entered the void!!! but... I didn't wake up with my desires manifested (I wanted to wake up in my desired room and a lot of other things). I wholeheartedly believe in the void and when I woke up I was shocked ngl cuz I truly believed it would work, and I still do. I am still going to persist because I truly believe it would work, so I wanted your opinion on why you think it didn't work and what I should do next time. Here's what I did: I simply affirmed for four days that I always lucid dream and get into the void easily. I had already created my void list and I also created a void board on pinterest. For the first two days of trying lucid dreaming, I didn't lucid dream but I kept persisting because I knew I would make it. On the third day, I lucid dreamt but I didn't go into the void because I was busy trying not to get killed 💀(ik i should've just made them vanish or sum). Today was the fourth day, and I made it. So I was doing something in a pink room, and suddenly I remembered I was dreaming. It just hit me and I was like LETS GOOO. So then I made a door appear. It was the same door I've been visualizing except there was no knob. I opened the door anyway and I could see the other side of the room. So i thought, maybe I have to affirm this door will be the portal to the void but before I could do that my brother appeared out of nowhere and put a purple knob on the door (I visualized a pink knob, but I was happy so i didn't care). When I opened the door I could see the void, it was black (I visualized a pink void but again I was oki with it just happy I made it, although I always knew I would make it). I didn't affirm it would lead me to the void so not sure if that's the reason the things didn't manifest, but it felt like the void. I felt like I didn't have a body and there was nothing. It was so peaceful. After that I didn't affirm "i am pure consciousness" or "i am in the void" because I thought I was already in the void.
I started affirming right away, "I have everything on void list, void board, and more" "I woke up with everything on my void list, void board, and more" "I shifted to a reality where I have everything on my void list, void board, and more" "I have everything I want and more" (do you think these affirmations were confusing or were they good?) Once I felt like it was enough, I stopped and I was like alright I'll go to sleep now LMAOO. Then I exited the void and I had a wierd dream where people came out of my current room and were like "yeah we lied to you the void isn't real." and I was like wtf who are these negative people trynna put their negative beliefs on me. so I woke myself up cuz I wasn't abt to put up with them 🙄. When I woke up I was shocked, because I really believed that I would wake up in my desired reality with all of the thing on my list and board. After that I started analyzing things and tbh I don't know why it didn't work because I believe with my whole heart and soul. Maybe my subconscious or sum didn't? Please guide me and give me your advice, I would really appreciate 🫶. either way, Imma keep going for right now and try tweaking things a bit and see if that works. I won't give up !!! (btw sorry for this super long post 😭)
35 notes · View notes
yan-lorkai · 9 months ago
Note
Ok so I know you're going Through It™️ with the vampire pomtrio fic. But I am curious on how exactly Epel came to be..."adopted" by Vil and Rook. Idk if it'll ever be brought up in the fic so imma ask now if that's cool. If it is then I'll just wait! If not then I would love to hear an infodump about their backstories in this au I love monster aus so much man 🙏🙏
Well, I did leave some crumbs in the fic but now that I'm thinking about it, everything was very subtle. So I'm just going to info dumping about Epel and his dads to u :D
Ok so for Epel I was imagining him being a sick child, always bedridden (inspired by me btw, I used to be the sick child), looking at the world through his little window and wishing he was different. He wished he was strong like the others so he could jump and run and play with the other children, he wished he could feel the sun on his skin as he worked in the fields with his grandmother and cousin. He wished people wouldn't look at him with those eyes full of pity, as if he were already dead. He knew that rumors about his condition were circulating among his neighbors, he just didn't know that anyone else was hearing them.
From his perspective, wishing did nothing. He was still so weak that his body couldn't stand upright a long time, he was still coughing and vomiting, and no doctor knew what he had. His medicines no longer working, his hopes fading, he became more withdrawn after a while, almost monosyllable. He wasn't living, he was just existing and Epel judged his existence as something insignificant in that dark moment. One day he fell asleep after another appointment with the doctor - this time a blond foreigner with beautiful lilac eyes, and he had a heavy but peaceful sleep, unlike many others in which he woke up with difficulty breathing. This time he felt no pain. He didn't even had any nightmare.
Although he felt better, a little stronger, after drinking the cocktail made by the Doctor with a funny name, Epel was still on the threshold between being sick and getting better. When he thinks about that moment now, he should have realized that Vil's words were filled with immortal secrets and that he knew more than everyone else. Vil was different from anyone he had ever seen or spoken to, and Epel had spoken to many doctors and nurses, yet Epel wished for Vil to cure him. Wishing was useless but he continued anyway. He preyed for it very quietly when he thought he was alone.
If you ask him, he still remembers how his transformation occurred. It was raining and windy that day, the raindrops hitting the roof were so loud that he couldn't hear anything that was happening outside his room. Honestly, he was glad he couldn't hear it. But he remembers feeling fear come over him when Dr. Schoenheit entered his room, his lab coat stained with blood while tiny drops still fell from his lips. He looked like a beast about to devour everything his fangs could reach. And yet, Epel supposed there was something poetic about dying at the hands of the one who had saved him. Instead, Vil asked him to join his little family, which at that time It consisted of just him and his father, Eric, that loved to travel around and see how the world had changed.
Epel agreed, as long as Vil spared his family. For which he approved, he had enchanted Epel's family and neighbors for them to forget him. He could have easily killed them but he was not bloodthirsty back then, every killing had to have a good reason. And then it happened. Epel was adopted and left together with Vil- no, his dad, as he liked to call him. Ofc everything was new to him and he often got scolded when he was out exploring humans villages alone and attacked someone when he got hungry. But nobody could judge him, Epel was living life (or death? 🤔) to its fullest!
(not sure if I'm gonna include this but initially I thought that over the years, Vil's father's passion took a stake to his heart. After all, humans are fearful people who fear the unknown. This would be the main reason for Vil to become even more responsible and mature, and cruel. He was never too compassionate or empathetic towards human being a natural born vampire, but after losing his father he had became more closed off to the everyone but his.)
Anyway a few centuries later, Rook Hunt appears in their lives. An eccentric vampire hunter known to trap vampires to study them, to know how to better hunt and kill them, mind you he only does this for fun. The first time met Vil he was so mesmerized by Vil's beauty that he started courting him, sending him little gifts (which consisted of the heads of his enemies, blood sags to feed him or his son, the most beautiful clothes and tiaras he could find). Meanwhile Vil is right here, confused bcs "wth is this strange human and why he likes to follow me around? Why isn't he afraid of me?" But like, eventually those two get together as a couple and Vil turns him too.
Though Vil did talked with his son first before turning Rook. He has a rule: for anyone to join the family, every member should want this. Otherwise, a transformation is not viable.
(But y'know initially Deuce would also be Epel's older brother - mostly bcs I love their friendship, Deuce would be Yuu's friend who guided them to this vacant mansion and also the one to vote for Yuu to become their younger sibling. Can't remember why I didn't follow this idea tho, but now I'm going to be think about this for a while)
This turned longer than I intended hehe. But if you still have any questions to make, I'm more than happy to answer it :)
18 notes · View notes
imakeublush · 1 year ago
Note
so i found out about the void 10 days ago, and I found that meditating was harder for me. It didn't matter to me, because I was going to keep persisting anyways since we are the gods of our realities. Around four days ago though, I discovered that we could go into the void through lucid dreaming. I was delighted, because I used to lucid dream everyday(not anymore, but i pretended i still did so i could get back back into it faster). Today I finally entered the void!!! but... I didn't wake up with my desires manifested (I wanted to wake up in my desired room and a lot of other things). I wholeheartedly believe in the void and when I woke up I was shocked ngl cuz I truly believed it would work, and I still do. I am still going to persist because I truly believe it would work, so I wanted your opinion on why you think it didn't work and what I should do next time. Here's what I did: I simply affirmed for four days that I always lucid dream and get into the void easily. I had already created my void list and I also created a void board on pinterest. For the first two days of trying lucid dreaming, I didn't lucid dream but I kept persisting because I knew I would make it. On the third day, I lucid dreamt but I didn't go into the void because I was busy trying not to get killed 💀(ik i should've just made them vanish or sum). Today was the fourth day, and I made it. So I was doing something in a pink room, and suddenly I remembered I was dreaming. It just hit me and I was like LETS GOOO. So then I made a door appear. It was the same door I've been visualizing except there was no knob. I opened the door anyway and I could see the other side of the room. So i thought, maybe I have to affirm this door will be the portal to the void but before I could do that my brother appeared out of nowhere and put a purple knob on the door (I visualized a pink knob, but I was happy so i didn't care). When I opened the door I could see the void, it was black (I visualized a pink void but again I was oki with it just happy I made it, although I always knew I would make it). I didn't affirm it would lead me to the void so not sure if that's the reason the things didn't manifest, but it felt like the void. I felt like I didn't have a body and there was nothing. It was so peaceful. After that I didn't affirm "i am pure consciousness" or "i am in the void" because I thought I was already in the void.
I started affirming right away, "I have everything on void list, void board, and more" "I woke up with everything on my void list, void board, and more" "I shifted to a reality where I have everything on my void list, void board, and more" "I have everything I want and more" (do you think these affirmations were confusing or were they good?)
Once I felt like it was enough, I stopped and I was like alright I'll go to sleep now LMAOO. Then I exited the void and I had a wierd dream where people came out of my current room and were like "yeah we lied to you the void isn't real."
and I was like wtf who are these negative people trynna put their negative beliefs on me. so I woke myself up cuz I wasn't abt to put up with them 🙄. When I woke up I was shocked, because I really believed that I would wake up in my desired reality with all of the thing on my list and board.
After that I started analyzing things and tbh I don't know why it didn't work because I believe with my whole heart and soul. Maybe my subconscious or sum didn't?
Please guide me and give me your advice, I would really appreciate 🫶. either way, Imma keep going for right now and try tweaking things a bit and see if that works. I won't give up !!! (btw sorry for this super long post 😭)
so first of all congrats on getting into the void so quickly! however, i personally do not recommend lucid dreaming to enter the void because based of many success stories i’ve read when you do it that way, it gets kind of confusing. there’s nothing wrong with those affirmations, but i’m pretty sure if you didn’t wake up with everything you wanted, it wasn’t the void. like you said, you didn’t affirm that the door led to the void, so maybe it just felt like the void but it wasn’t? i’m sorry if this doesn’t help, but next time make sure you affirm it leads to the void. 🎀💗
18 notes · View notes
beaconfeels · 1 year ago
Note
Trick or Treat! 🎃
Shhhhh imma share a secret with you that I haven’t told anyone yet: I have a Deter WIP in my files. Who better to share some of it with than you? Derek runs away to his favorite mountain meadow to try to escape his feelings for Peter. It doesn’t work.
Enough of that. He’s here for some peace this weekend. Here to clear his thoughts, get his head on straight again, no pun intended. The meadow is just around the bend and- Derek stops suddenly, breathing in. It can’t be. His steps speed up, propelling him toward the meadow as if by force. The sight that greets him makes him stop and blink: Peter, sitting by a fire, a large tent set up behind him, the evening wind ruffling his hair.
“Good evening,” Peter says pleasantly.
“How?” Derek stammers, “I didn’t even tell anyone where I was going.”
“Oh but I know you,” Peter says, and his eyes pierce Derek like an arrow, leave him breathless.
“I hope you don’t mind,” Peter says after a pause, and it sounds uncharacteristically uncertain.
It pulls Derek out of his daze with a sigh. Fuck it. This was never going to work anyway, was it?
“It’s fine,” he says, walking over and sliding the backpack off his shoulders.
Peter pats the space beside him on the log he’s sitting on, “come and sit, I’m almost done roasting these hotdogs.”
It’s not a very big log. If he sits there, he’ll be pressed right up against Peter. Which is exactly what you want anyway, a little voice in his head says, and Derek is so very tired of fighting. Let Peter figure it out. Let him be angry and disgusted, at least he won’t have to fight these feelings anymore. Peter will be out of his life for good, and maybe Derek can get some goddamn sleep. He sits.
Peter looks over and smiles at him, and his face is so close. Close enough Derek could lean forward and kiss him, if he was feeling suicidal. His hand bushes again Peter’s jeans, and he traces his finger back and forth. “All your clothing is always so soft,” he murmurs.
“That’s because I pay a small fortune for them,” Peter laughs, then adds, “I like soft things.” His finger rubs against the back of Derek’s hand for just a second before he turns back to the hotdogs.
9 notes · View notes
star-vibing-prompts · 1 year ago
Text
Random shit I had or others had said as prompts.
Warnings: Swearing, Mentions of sus, dark humor(probably), dark themes(also probably), Sensitive topics
----------------------------
"Motherfucker is high on cat nip at the top."
"Imma just kick this fish then-"
"Let me sleep with you!"
"STOP CREAMING YOURSELF"
"Let me throw your child!"
"I smacked a bad guy's booty."
"That was a good ass slap!"
"Give me all these delicious batteries!"
"Everybody died in this family!"
"I JUST SHOT HER BODY WITH MY GUN-"
"I DIDNT EVEN KNOW I HAD BALLS STILL!"
"I got stuff on my neck!"
"Be honest, am I hot?" "I'M GAY-"
"IMMA WHIP OUT MY BEANS ESSAY"
"Not the duckussy"
"Already sus gonna hide in the ooc"
"Okay I got my happiness, bye"
"I like me some Among Us"
"Can someone hold me please"
"[Name] stop searching. I wanna search something up to on him!"
"IS HE WRITING A FANFIC OML"
"I KNOW BUT WHEN I LAUGH I SOMEHOW CHOKE ACK-"
"You're more grosser than I am."
"Ohh~ Hee got the rizz~"
"OKAY BACK TO CRYING"
"I love dying screaming"
"IM CRYING WHAT DID WE JUST WALK IN ON???"
"I will slap myself if I say something sus"
"Let her scream lmao."
"Being force to talk by a 14 year old"
"Such a beautiful break up"
"STOP RIZZING ME"
"Anyway does anyone want to get slap by me?"
"Damn she hot"
"THE FUCK WOMAN???"
"DAMN I AM A LONELY BITCH"
"Actually *SHITTING* himself would be pooping. *PISSING* himself would be peeing."
"Why did you eat mah stick?"
"STOP EATING POOP???? WHOS POOP EVEN IS THAT???"
"I- Wha- ho- ...MY BRAIN CANT HANDLE THISI-"
"I think u just pissed him up even more"
"And why are you creaming [Name]?" "Damn tell me how you really feel about the cream jesus"
"One of them is: What the fuck is going on at this point and why am I still here for it?"
"I just love killing people!"
"I want to fuck Optimus Prime."
"Allergies are kicking me ass"
"I would've given you some but you didn't talk fast enough /j"
"[NAME] PLEASE I BE SILLY"
"I SWEAR ON [NAME] IT AINT ME"
"Why is [Name] robbing [Name2]"
"Enjoy your last peaceful moments"
"You were the chosen one"
"Then speak it"
"And [Name] just set himself on fire"
"I feel like I am being judged now,,,,,bye." *disappears*
"The shame has already been done there is no going back"
"My mom used to buy me robux before she mcfucking died"
"I BROKE MY STICK"
"THEY DONT KNOW WHAT GOES ON BEHIND CLOSED DOORS"
"My gaydar told me"
"What the fuck are smiley fries."
"Rice with beef broth because we have no chicken"
"Anime cat girls are canon within Spongebob now."
"The Cat Has Ingested The Wall"
"Split dat chicken wingg"
"Oeuur... digs chicken wing out of the carpet"
SHRIEKS AND BREAKS IN THROUGH A WINDOW
"They have been bestowed the name [New name]"
"I love the fumbling with the remote"
"Literally vibrating in my chair, I’m really excited for the game"
"That's so sad imagine someone hated you so much they wouldn't even spend more than 5 bucks to hire a hitman"
"Bro's gonna be willing to die after that"
"FLOOFY AND GOOBER"
"I wanna invite them for tea and crumpets
The best type of relationship"
"ILL FORFEIT ALL MY LEGAL POSSESSIONS TO HIM"
"Like damn dude you don't need THAT much eye liner"
"This is so emo"
"My dude needs to look fabulous"
"WHAT A GOOBER ! FOOLISH LITTLE FELLOW"
"OMG ITS MY KID"
"LIL GUY IS SPEEDY ASF"
"They got a little too silly"
"ITTY BITTY"
"They just need to put some ice on it"
"Aww noo they spilled the cranberry juice" :(
16 notes · View notes
pasteloctoz · 2 years ago
Text
Day 3 of Redacted “What Ifs”- Mafia au (part two)
(LONG POST- the first two paragraphs were copy and pasted from part one)
So this was very widely requested, which I was NOT opposed to. Except for the fact that the only couple I had in mind was Gavin and FL. SO- Imma try to explain how I have the main groups set up first, then I’ll explain the individual character’s roles, and after that, I'll Explain how each of the couples met.
The Damn Crew is their own group of freelance mercenaries (Ik I’m so funny). They don’t belong to any clans or packs, they just get hired for different jobs and collect their money. The Shaw Pack is one of the bigger mafia groups as well as The Solaire Clan. Usually, packs and clans don’t get along with each other that well (woah werewolf and vampire drama) but, when David was a kid, Gabe established a peaceful friendship with The Solaire Clan (Gabe and William were buddies).
Also- I’m very sorry for procrastinating. It was the first week of summer for me and I was either very busy or sleeping off the burnout. Enjoy part two!
The Damn Crew was last time, today is The Shaw Pack.
Milo- Whether He’s in his wolf form or not, this man is RUTHLESS to whoever he comes across. He’s protective of his pack and doesn’t trust anyone (a lot less than he does in the og storyline). He prefers his wolf form, though he only gets to use it on certain occasions for jobs. Apart from being emotionless on the job, he’s his usual self in any other situation. After warming up to SH, he would be the biggest softie around them. Personally, I’d think that he would shift a lot more at home since he likes it better. So I can just imagine Milo and SH cuddling with Milo in wolf form and SH buried in his fur.
Sweetheart- Okay so I genuinely can’t see them being anything BUT a badass. Even more, than they are in the og storyline. I’d see them as a spy or hitman instead of a detective. Unlike other hitmen, they’d want to find out more about their target before they pursue anything. They're the kind of people to be in it to make the world better. The money is an added bonus to them. Usually, if they find nothing about the person, they'll let the person know anonymously that someone has it out for them. Otherwise, they'll quickly and quietly make work of their target. Ofc, they're the silent killer type- c'mon they're a stealth!
Asher- He works more on selling the goods. Ofc he'll help organize hitmen and send people off to be taken care of, but for the most part, he makes sure that the things he's selling go to where they need to go. Otherwise, he leads a fairly normal life. For the most part, he prefers to keep Baabe and his job separate. The first person in the pack to know abt him and Baabe was David because- hello? Davids the alpha!??!? Ofc he'd be the only one to know for a while. Only once Milo shared he had a partner in the business, Asher shared he also had a partner with the rest of the pack.
Baaabe- They lead a pretty normal life, they work an office job and have a few jobs on the side. Because of how many jobs they have and the fact they're still in college working towards a doctor's degree in teaching, they're always high on caffeine. It took meeting Asher for them to quit one of their jobs and actually get some sleep. Though, they still try to sneak in a few extra hours of work time. Asher usually finds out and then they both fall asleep on the couch together.
David- The man is pretty much his original character, except a lot colder. That’s honestly all the character’s personalities for this one but, it's fine I'm not being redundant (I hope). Anyways, he's the same guy around his pack with the tsundere asshole vibes. To business partners, he tries not to show any weakness. Best way to say this is that this man has got walls put all the way up to anyone except his pack. Though, around William it’s different. The Solaire clan has been like a second family to him and the pack, especially since Gabe passed. David might be a little more distant to William than he was to his dad, but both he and William tell each other almost everything. To say the least, William is like a second dad without even trying. He’d never replace Gabe, nor would he want to, but when the other needs them, they’ll be there.
Angel- This mf is like the oblivious kinda guy that walks into traffic but instead of cars, it's the mafia. Their friends are somewhat in the business, and therefore Angel is always getting themselves into the stupidest shit. The funny thing is- they’re always very oddly calm about it. 
“Yo, wake up, we kidnapped you”
“Huh? Oh. cool.”
“Aren’t you gonna scream or something?”
“Nah, this happens pretty regularly. I have a presentation tomorrow so I can’t go damaging my pretty lungs.”
Once they meet David, though the conversation goes more like this:
“Hey kid, wake up, we’re gonna kill you”
“Hahaha very funny.”
“Wha- You’re not scared?”
“I’m sorry man, but you fucked up.”
“What do you mean?”
“You mess with me, you mess with the alpha of the Shaw pack.”
“You’re kidding.”
“Not unless you call the man standing behind you an omega.”
Milo and SH are gonna be the narratives for today! I thought for these posts I’d write little narratives for you guys just like I did on the last one so here you go!
Milo and Sweetheart(you)-
It’s been a few weeks since you were offered a recent job. It paid a lot, so you found yourself interested. Why would someone pay such a bounty for a singular guy? You had spent countless hours researching, stalking, and watching him. He was a werewolf. You know that much, but whether he was an innocent caught up in some shit or belonged to the Shaw pack you didn’t know.
The Shaw pack was one of the most famous packs in Dahlia. Not only were they famous in Dahlia, but also among the mafia. They were pretty good at keeping their members, except the main family, secret from the public’s eye. Only second best to the Solaire clan. Though, considering William Solaire only had two progeny and a few hundred more years of experience than David Shaw, it made sense.
You thought to yourself while waiting in his apartment. You knew how to get into places without needing a key, so it wasn’t much of a hassle to get in. Ready for him to come home you held your gun at your waist, “Maybe I got here too early…” you thought as you floated slightly over the floor. If you weren’t able to float around, you’d fall right through the floor. Surprisingly, the werewolf didn’t live with his pack, which made it easier to catch him alone. Though, it also made it harder to get into his apartment since he was on the 5th floor. It was challenging- to say the least- to sit in an elevator while incorporeal.
Finally, you heard the jingling of keys and the lock rattle a few times before the door opened. On instinct, you went Intangible, you were used to not being seen. That was your first mistake, you had given yourself away. He looked around and you got a glimpse of his expression. Poker face. You thought, “It’s now or never,” and pressed your gun against his forehead as you became tangible again. “Milo Greer, are you a part of the Shaw Pack?”
“Who the fuck are you?” Shit. He had the same adorably pissed face he usually wore when out and about.
“Answer the question,” you stared at him with the straightest face you could, “and I’ll decide whether or not to kill you.”
“Why should I?” Of course, he’s the type to push his luck with you.
“Because I have a gun pressed against your forehead, I’m skilled at stealth magic, and I might be armed with even more than just a gun.”
“You’re a stealth?” He smirked at you, you couldn’t tell how he felt about the situation.
You pressed the gun against his forehead, and he finally put his hands up, “Answer the. Fucking. Question.”
“Who's. Asking.”
You sighed, he wouldn’t give up. “If you NEED to know, I’m a hitman. But luckily for an asshole like you, I prefer to do a little research on my targets before I go ahead and kill them,” you watched the rest of him if he tried anything, “Right now, I’m deciding whether or not you’re guilty of the little crimes against a pack that my client accuses you of.”
“I’ve done a lot of things, what pack specifically?” He spoke so calmly… damn his accent was soothing.
“Can’t say. They applied anonymously. Now you need to answer my question.”
He sighed, “Yes. I am a member of the Shaw Pack.”
You could tell he was bracing himself for it, but you pulled away, getting an alcohol wipe from your pocket and hastily wiping the gun off. There was a moment of silence before you looked at him and turned around toward the door.
“Hold up,” you paused mid-step, “You’re not gonna say anything? No explanation?”
“I think it’s pretty clear,” you spoke to him, eager to leave.
“Really? Well then, why don’t you explain to me why the hell you broke into my apartment?”
You sighed again, “Like I said, Someone asked me to kill you, but I respect your pack. So, I gave you a second chance.”
He smirked, “For me? You shouldn’t have!” The sarcastic remark made you want to tell him to fuck off, but something about his expression stopped you.
“You’re not special, I do this for every target. Now can I go?”
“Fine,” you turned around and made your way to the door, “But, if you find out who’s targeting my pack, update me, sweetheart.”
You felt your face flush, but like the entire time you had been talking to him, you stayed calm, “Can’t promise anything, asshole. Though… you’re not too bad yourself,” you turned around and phased through the door. What had you just started? You didn’t know, nor did you really care. This was new and exciting. You couldn’t wait to see what this would turn into.
Asher and Baaabe-
They’d have a pretty normal meeting. Maaaybe it’s exactly the same way they met in the og story, but I’d like to think they met at a coffee shop. Typical, ik, but just hear me out- So, Baabe works at the coffee shop part-time, and Asher likes making coffee runs for the pack every once in a while. By the fifth time, Baabe had memorized the orders everyone usually got and as soon as Asher walked in, Baabe had already rung his order up. After a while, they began to mutually flirt with each other and Asher got Baabe’s number. It took a while for them to find a good day for a date because both of their schedules are insane, but when they finally did, they got to know each other better. Specifically, Asher decided to tell them all about the Shaw pack and that he was a werewolf. This man did not hesitate one bit once they were alone either. (It’s why we love him though)
David and Angel-
Angel being the dumbass they are is always getting into shit because of a past with a few hitmen or whatever. So, when David and Angel meet, it’s a little chaotic. Angel seems way too calm and that freaks David out. This time Angel actually gets hurt and is scared stiff since, miraculously, that's never happened before. David finds them hiding, with a shot leg after everything is over with, and reluctantly takes them to his house. Angel had been in and out of conscience for a while after that. The week or so following that, David and Angel got to know each other and Angel got to see David’s soft side. Eventually, they had to part ways, but Angel eventually found ways to see David more and scored a date with him. From there it’s pretty much the same, with Angel being a dumbass every once in a while and getting caught by a hitman or two again.
THAT'S ALL JESUS THAT TOOK A WHILE
Again, really sorry for this coming so late, things got really crazy there for a second and if I wanted to post part two I really shoulda started with the Solaire clan but whatever- HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOYED THIS HAVE A GREAT DAY :DDDDD
16 notes · View notes
trying-to-get-thinner · 1 month ago
Text
alright imma try keeping a food diary again... i usually stay up late and sleep in till the afternoon, so i don't really do "breakfast" and "lunch". i'm autistic too so i kinda have weird foods sometimes... ANYWAY without further ado:
✨TTGT'S FOOD DIARY NOV 22✨
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
woke up 2pm-ish
between 2pm and 3:30pm i ate some frosting, yknow the betty white vanilla frosting?? yeah sometimes i just eat that from the tub... but i don't exactly know how much i ate
around 6:30pm i ate a little more frosting. i'm now out of frosting. so at least i can't eat more (it's kinda my go to when i want something sweet, glad im out though)
around 10pm i had 12 dino nuggies for dinner. the bag says one serve is 100g, i don't have any kitchen scales to figure out how many nuggets that is (i moved out from my parents place a few months ago, i can't afford to buy any for myself)
other than that i've drank some diet coke. just one 600ml bottle over the course of the night
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
✨about my day✨
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
imma just treat this like a journal too
ANYWAY today i had a psychologist appointment, i go weekly on friday afternoons. we mainly talked about liam payne's funeral yesterday and how disgusting it is the the press are trying to exploit a devastated, grieving family by filming their most intense feelings. they should leave his family alone. they're just trying to get views and money by exploiting his fucking FUNERAL. it's disgusting i feel terrible for his family i wish them the most privacy and peace possible
after, my support worker took me to kmart, i ordered some things for printing. it's my best friend's birthday in a couple weeks and i want to get them a bunch of random bullshit with really bad photos of me on it hahahah. i also got 2 photo frames for prints i bought from depop (shoutout twigletart on depop), i got a hello kitty lunch box that i'll probably use as a cosmetics bag, and a couple crafty things (along with the diet coke i drank today). oh and 2 pool noodles!! to go in my yru draculaura and ghoulia boots.
when i got home i cut up the pool noodle for my shoes, only needed one but i now have a pool noodle for any future crafts if anyone has any suggestions as to what i can make. i also started putting some stickers on the frames!! hey look so groovy now, one of them is done and the second one is about half done.
i watched some greys anatomy, played a little on hypixel skyblock, and downloaded a bunch of steam games on my pc (i'm going through the process of moving from my laptop to a pc, i hate it lmao my laptop has so much on it to transfer over)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
anyway it's now 2:55am, just took my meds, time to head to sleep
sleep is my favourite way to not eat lmao
GOODNIGHT ALL!!
0 notes
nathank77 · 2 months ago
Text
11/6/24
1:50 p.m
My mother is being a royal bitch again. Her aid came. The dog barked and whines the whole time like crazy pushing her cage all over the kitchen. She drives me fucking crazy. And then my mother is stressed dealing with her stoma and displaces all her anger at me the scape goat. Things would be a lot more peaceful if we didn't have a dog barking and whining nonstop don't you think?
I just thought Katie was unlucky. She said when her mother and father quit drinking, not a lot about them changed. I believed her but as my mother quit drinking, I thought she was completely different. And for Katie it must just have been her parents and who they are as people.
Well over a month of her being sober and her being home for at least 2 weeks and yea Katie is right. She didn't change much. She doesn't repeat herself as much. She isn't as happy as she once was when she was chemically altered... but she's the same.
She made a comment about no one taking out the trash. When she made the decision to keep Riley i dropped all responsibilities. And I mean all of them. All of them.
So I said to her, "you want to know what id do if Riley left, I'd take out the trash so long as you held the top open. And I'd do"
Then she started screaming, shut up, shut up, stop talking and she was slamming her hands on the table over and over again. I mean a fucking melt down and I was talking, not yelling....
She's basically the same. Just doesn't have much of an excuse for being a cunt this time.
I'm aggravated cause she just blames me for everything but yea your stoma must be awful. I can only imagine especially with a yapping dog panicking the entire time you have to deal with it, huh? How is that my fault.
I don't need to go to the e.r. I wish I went to the gym but I had to wait for a call and I didn't want to be running and have to stop.... they don't think it's serious... I might try the injectable chlorestoral medication but im scared. I might try the statin sometime soon again..
I'm going to go to the gym tomorrow. And escape this awful hell. I'm so sick of being Alive. I hate where I live. I should have recorded her. She talks a shit storm to skye and Liv about me but christ. She comes at me with aggression. I respond most of the time with a, a matter of fact calmly. And then she just starts screaming.
Like I just can't cope. I guess I'm going to go to the gym tomorrow... and Saturday imma have a red bull day cause i have to go to my dad's on Sunday and I got to take more xanax anyways bc I know i won't sleep if I don't.... technically if I go to the gym Thursday I still hit 3 days this week, Saturday, Monday and Thursday... next week I'll go Monday, Wednesday and Friday....
Idk when or if i should retry the statin bc this was before the gym and it hurt my wrist and my muscles were achy and when I touched my leg it was tender.... idk what to do but I'm sick of being here...
What i read about my injectable medication and side effects specifically thyroid is it can cause thyriod storm. It happened to one person. That worries me and it can cause gastroenteritis.... makes me worry about it causing chorns or something in the long run. Also it can cause diabetes... but I'm a little less worried about that one...
Something I've been thinking is my chlorestoral went up from March to September... right after starting Methimazole and white mulberries... I mean idk. Meds can cause all sorts of side effects. White mulberries are known to lower chlorestoral but in this case it had no effect. What if Methimazole can raise it. Or even Xanax. I mean it's been almost a year of xanax. I have no idea.
I'm worried about sleep tonight bc i took 1mg last night bc my anxiety was so bad. And I can't do it tonight. I need to reserve it for Saturday so I can make sure I see my dad for his birthday.
0 notes
nardonotes · 2 months ago
Text
28 oct '24
8:25pm
i was so grumpy when i woke up today cause my sister barged into my room and started looking for my camera cause she's going to amsterdam with her bf for a week and wanted to borrow my camcorder (╥﹏╥) i want to go too... they're also going with her bf's sister and her husband and child lol but their plans are soooo fun !! i wish i had the damn money!!!!! (ᗒᗣᗕ)՞ i hate it here..
i had chicken rice with some salad,, it was soooo fucking good... OH ! and i watched this gl korean animated movie called 'The Summer' ,, tragic wlw story (as usual) i didn't even mean to watch another sad thing last night but it was in my list,, i guess most of my lists are sad though cause i love a good tragic ass story -.-" i love a good drama/coming of age/tragic ass/sad ass/slow ass/boring ass movie!!! idgaf!!!!! it is comforting as shit!!!!!! (∩˃o˂∩)
anyways,, i'm going to look for another movie to watch tonight- tomorrow im going to do some chores and actually get out of the house tmr ᕙ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )ᕗ then on WEDNESDAY,, i plan to actually do some college work fr fr this time... like FR FR....... or not who knows it's my fucking life!!
oh and last night i was on facetime with my bestianas for till 6-7am!! i think we're going to facetime again tonight while changing our phone layouts :33 im only going to change mine A LITTLE bit... not so much.....
after i ate chicken rice today- i got sushi from the local grocery store LOL it was good as fuck.. gonna get it again tomorrow idgaf... and then i went to hang out with my sister and her friend with the baby and it was so funny cause that baby actually knows how to say a lot of words now!! he's so fucking cute man... he said my name today and he kept calling me bold ... made me laugh so bad ( ˶ˆᗜˆ˵ ) i love that kid fr..... i was teasing him and trolling tf out of him (literally bullying a baby) and i held him up and he was like struggling and said "HALP ME" IT WAS SO FUNNYKLSJDG,,S;D AND HE SAID FUCK TODAY cause ever since he was born we've been saying "say fuck!" to him and now he's actually saying it... oh we're bad influence. but he doesn't know the meaning so it don't matter! ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
when i got home i took a shower and now im in bed all comfy and smell good and fresh and sexy and handsome and peace is portected as fuck and fuck bitches and imma focus on myself (unless a fine ahh lady come into my life im sorry peace,, im weak to a pretty face) oopsies... ( ≖‿ ≖ )
123 ive s5 ep 1 came out today !! apparently there's no subs yet soo i'll wait!! im not in a rush but i am really happy that it's back. i need them so keep me going for the rest of the year... ( •̯́ ₃ •̯̀)....
i'll watch some futurama now,, then play apex,,, maybe eat some chicken rice,,,, and then watch my stupid lil movie (probably one in the vault) and then uh.... yeah. stay up until the next day cause i need to fix my sleep type shit? xDD
goodnight chicas!!! <33
song of the day: Honestly by RIIZE ᯓ★ (RIIZE IS 7!!!!)
0 notes