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[ssabones]

[cosplayingacorpse]

tis the season to go back to tblr

[trying-to-get-thinner]

alright imma try keeping a food diary again... i usually stay up late and sleep in till the afternoon, so i don't really do "breakfast" and "lunch". i'm autistic too so i kinda have weird foods sometimes... ANYWAY without further ado:

✨TTGT'S FOOD DIARY NOV 22✨

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woke up 2pm-ish

between 2pm and 3:30pm i ate some frosting, yknow the betty white vanilla frosting?? yeah sometimes i just eat that from the tub... but i don't exactly know how much i ate

around 6:30pm i ate a little more frosting. i'm now out of frosting. so at least i can't eat more (it's kinda my go to when i want something sweet, glad im out though)

around 10pm i had 12 dino nuggies for dinner. the bag says one serve is 100g, i don't have any kitchen scales to figure out how many nuggets that is (i moved out from my parents place a few months ago, i can't afford to buy any for myself)

other than that i've drank some diet coke. just one 600ml bottle over the course of the night

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✨about my day✨

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imma just treat this like a journal too

ANYWAY today i had a psychologist appointment, i go weekly on friday afternoons. we mainly talked about liam payne's funeral yesterday and how disgusting it is the the press are trying to exploit a devastated, grieving family by filming their most intense feelings. they should leave his family alone. they're just trying to get views and money by exploiting his fucking FUNERAL. it's disgusting i feel terrible for his family i wish them the most privacy and peace possible

after, my support worker took me to kmart, i ordered some things for printing. it's my best friend's birthday in a couple weeks and i want to get them a bunch of random bullshit with really bad photos of me on it hahahah. i also got 2 photo frames for prints i bought from depop (shoutout twigletart on depop), i got a hello kitty lunch box that i'll probably use as a cosmetics bag, and a couple crafty things (along with the diet coke i drank today). oh and 2 pool noodles!! to go in my yru draculaura and ghoulia boots.

when i got home i cut up the pool noodle for my shoes, only needed one but i now have a pool noodle for any future crafts if anyone has any suggestions as to what i can make. i also started putting some stickers on the frames!! hey look so groovy now, one of them is done and the second one is about half done.

i watched some greys anatomy, played a little on hypixel skyblock, and downloaded a bunch of steam games on my pc (i'm going through the process of moving from my laptop to a pc, i hate it lmao my laptop has so much on it to transfer over)

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anyway it's now 2:55am, just took my meds, time to head to sleep

sleep is my favourite way to not eat lmao

GOODNIGHT ALL!!

[keltoia]

I srsly deadass need to come to edblr before opening my fatass mouth bc my clown self will get surprised by the number on the scale and then immediately blow it all up stuffing my face and promising I’ll restrict extra hard tomorrow wtf

[superemeralds]

welcome to the promised land

[bietrofastimoff23]

criston with aegon:

unlike your father, i will always be on your side.

unlike your grandfather, i will always defend your honor.

unlike your mother, i will not spare your enemies.

unlike your brother, i really care about you.

the only person who sincerely supported aegon, treated him with respect, glorified his name with conquests of castles and was eager to avenge jaehaerys. and how determined he was to get to the fallen aegon at any cost, even though he could barely stand on his own feet ?? criston, you're not just the dad that stepped up, you're EVERYTHING.

[spaceistheplaceart]

can't feel it.

(during HL2VRAI, in which the AIs now know that Gordon is the player... but still dislike seeing him hurt)

BEGIN ID:

A grayscale HLVRAI comic. Gordon is crouched down next to Tommy at some point in time, Tommy is holding a medkit and is worried. Gordon has a cut on his knee. Gordon says: "I'm fine! I can't feel anything that happens in the game. Remember?" with a smile. Some time later, Gordon is firing at combine, stalkers, and manhacks in City 17. Bullets fly by him as he yells behind him: "Don't worry about me, I can't feel it! Just run!" Gordon is a little scuffed on his face. Some time later again, Gordon is bruised and bloodied with bullet marks on his HEV suit. He has a black eye and on the opposite cheek there is blood coming from a cut. His hair is messy. He waves his hand dismissively, smiling and saying: "D-don't worry, I can't feel it. Ah-haha!..." Bubby is behind him and looks slightly concerned. Suddenly Dr. Coomer hugs Gordon. Gordon frowns, lip trembling, as he sinks down to his knees while Dr. Coomer holds him. We then see the player in his real life gaming room, on his knees, holding nothing. He says: "I can't feel it..." he's shaking.

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[lilithofpenandbook]

That tracks

[arsonisticartichokes]

Hehe KiriDeku date AU :D

[romanticatheartt]

Rhys would sacrifice himself to save the world and let Feyre live

While Feyre would rather be no world than sacrifice him

And if there's no Feyre, there should be no world

[ssabones]

does anyone else love seeing their cvts the day after sh-ing? istg it makes me feel like my mental trauma is valid. like "look im actually hurt so ofc i feel pain"

[azurecanary]

Don't mind me, just thinking about that one Star Wars Legends book where Obi-Wan was in love with another Jedi, who was in love with him

And when that Jedi died, Obi-Wan showed her killer mercy

And Anakin sees this and his literal inner monologue is "Clearly Obi-Wan could never have loved her because I would physically torture Padme's killer to death"

And i just want everyone to think about that for a second

[milk-crater]

I went to a DDT show and Chris Brookes yeeted Yoshihiku right at me.

[keltoia]

Wish granted

I wish I had ana and I know how sick that is.

I am so eaten up and twisted by my own ED that I believe the lie and romanticisation surrounding ana. I am so sick I figure if I have to suffer why not suffer pretty? Why not suffer in a way that people get concerned about me? I'm so mad at my ED for being so invisible. No one cares about binge eating. I literally got upset when tumblr didn't ask me if everything was okay when I searched my tag for support as opposed to the other ones. It was like "validation" that mine isn't damaging. There's no one being concerned or caring.

I hate over eating. I wish I could be starving. If my stomach has to hurt I wish it was from being empty instead of over full. I wish I could watch my bones emerge instead of my skin swell.

[maxdibert]

If I have to read one more time some idiot Slytherin Skittles or Jegulus fan saying that Regulus “I have my walls covered in pro-Voldemort propaganda and was canonically the role model my mom always praised” Black was a poor abused child forced to follow the Death Eaters, I swear I’m going to explode.

No one forced Regulus to do anything. There’s no evidence of that in the books, no indication that he was abused — Sirius himself says his mother always reminded him how much better his brother was than him, lol — or that he was pressured. Regulus was a rich aristocrat perfectly aligned with his ultra-conservative family’s ideology, who chose to follow Voldemort because Voldemort represented everything he had always believed in, though he eventually got in over his head because he wasn’t cut out for war. He’s clearly a parallel to Draco Malfoy, who always believed what he was taught at home until it turned against him. Stop treating him like some poor soul who didn’t actually have such awful beliefs, because he absolutely did.

The same goes for Barty Crouch Jr., who was so much worse. At least Regulus regretted his choices, but Crouch was a fanatic willing to do anything because of his unresolved daddy issues that drove him to follow Voldemort in search of paternal validation. He tortured two people into permanent insanity, condemned his mother to die, killed his father, and kidnapped a disabled man, keeping him locked in a damn box for months. What tragic figure is Barty supposed to be? He’s not a tragic figure; he’s a freaking Jeffrey Dahmer, and you ruin his character by turning him into some “uwu poor baby who didn’t know what he was doing.” He did know what he was doing, perfectly well, and he loved it because he was a sadist.

The fact that you have the audacity to say Snape is the worst monster in the saga or claim that his actions are unforgivable while excusing these privileged brats is straight-up aporophobia and classism, and honestly, it’s starting to creep me out.