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#me: okay i had to do a Terrible Official Thing this morning but it didn't go as badly as it could have and now i can rest-#The County: hey jsyk you're over the asset limit. yeah the one we never told you about?#you have too many dollars so you don't get benefits anymore :)#yeah like 80 too many dollars specifically. significantly less than 10% of a single month of rent.#clearly this means you're rolling in the dough and you don't need any help :)#anyway i am going to bite someone#curseblogging
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The tragedy of ur boyfriends not letting u bite them just a little. As a Treat.
A Tup from @trudemaethien’s excellent fic Edeemi, Baby, One More Time that I drew back in May! I didn’t have a Star Wars tumblr at the time and wasnt planning on posting it anywhere so I forgot about it until now, but I had such a fun time playing around with lighting effects and his expression!
I really love their mer universe and I’m especially fond of Tup’s POV in this fic. It’s such a good job of expressing the confusion and frustration of communication barriers and reasonable, best-intent misunderstandings between all of them, while still leaning into the positive aspects of discovering the world and representing it from slightly different perspective than people normally take 10/10 highly recommended
Closeup of the sketch for his expression under the cut because I was super happy with it
#clone trooper tup#mermay#my art#sw tcw#mermay bc technically i drew it may 23rd or smth#the background is very boring but im ok w that honestly bc i made this for myself to live on my tablet forever#actually i also sent it to my mom and she said it made her happy :)#anyway i vibed so hard w this tup and his confusion/frustration/rejection sensitivity at wooley going hoshit dont bite me#as someone whos Strong Feelings often get redirected into Bite Impulse the twin frustration and disappointment that someone takes it bad?#so real#me and tup shaking hands over partners who let us bite. as a treat.#the sketch i channeled the feeling of going to bite To Be Sweet and ur partner going ‘no!!! mean!’ real hard#like please i am overwhelmed with affection i need to feel it in my teeth#anyway @trudemaethian (sp?) u got me out of a literal years long art slump to start making meaningful amnts of content bc i was so Overcome#so thank u very much and very deeply for that!#in exchange the fruits of me relearning how to use my drawing program
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*grips Shen Qingqiu by the shoulders*
aren't you tired of being nice? Don't you want to crack under the pressure of the system and the robbed autonomy of being forced into a role you had no choice in but have to play anyways? don't you want to buckle under the realization that, to you, no matter what you do your life is going to end in a horrific death? Whether that be under Luo Binghe's hands or the System's?
Don't you want to realize that no matter all the good you have done and the lives you have changed and saved, you're still standing at the ledge of a cliff with a sword to your disciple's chest?
Shouldn't it be you at the edge instead? Balancing on the crumbling dirt's end of death on either side, and you can either walk into it or be forced?
don't you want to go apeshit?
#I AM SO NORMAL YOU GUYS I PROMISE *visibly foaming at the mouth and gritting my teeth so hard you can hear them crack*#svsss#scum villain#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#scum villain self saving system#HI YES I MAY NOT HAVE READ THE NOVEL AND ONLY BEEN HERE FOR A WEEK BUT I AM. OBSESSED. FIXATED IF YOU WILL#luo binghe standing at the edge of the endless abyss and he sees something snap in his shizun's eyes like metal creaking under#the pressure of the deep sea. or like heat rising too quickly. the steady slow snap of someone hanging on by a thread.#i dont think i've fully understood sqq's characterization howEVER. i think i've got enough of his character down to try and twist it the wa#i think could happen. forgive me if this isnt in character or anything ajhf#anyways i love isekai anything and i think the system could slowly drive someone who didnt ask to be here insane#SY adjusts rather quickly from what i've heard but what if he DIDN'T. what if it wasnt fine what if he was trying his best and it was#taking its toll because apparently trying his best just wasnt enough. his stubborn refusal to view the people around him as people#but as characters following a script is very frustrating to me but also it works in my favor for this. look at the best way to break him is#*stares at SQQ* i think he should go apeshit. as a treat. skin a man alive SQQ. bite someone. rip out their throat.#i know thats prolly not his character but what if it COULD be. what if it IS. people are so nuanced and niche and can change at the turn#of a dime and SQQ has been forced into an unfavorable position and frankly traumatic experience. he could change or he could not and#isnt that FASCINATING? to erode or to stand tall. are you copper or are you a canyon. will you change colors and stay the same or will you#crumble and shear and become something new? when facing the elements when facing the inevitable what will you become?
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lord its so dark in here the sahara desert of tsaritsa content you are like a shining oasis. your characterisation of her compels me & mihoyo would be hard pressed to top it imo.!! caaaaan i humbly request yr thoughts on her first meeting w a reader of any kind, or maybe even multiple kinds (sagau, sagau god au, isekai, etc) if you so desire...
it really is like a desert here. being the fan of a character we aren't getting until the last damn nation is driving me up a wall but i will persevere bc if nothing else i support morally bankrupt women in media. we r in a severe drought over here but i do my best. unfortunately nothing i say is ever coherent so pull out your translation notes its abt 2 be messy
also this got out of hand but thats bc first meetings w the tsaritsa are tricky to write + a LOT of her characterization lies in deeper exploration then just surface level yknow...NOT A DIG AT YOU this is just my excuse for rambling. gently pats the tsaritsa she can hold so much complexity i do not have the word count to delve into it completely :]
gonna talk cult au for a bit here though because that's 99% of my content. and honestly? she thrives in sub au's of the cult au like villain au + imposter au. it's basically made for her. i mean, early days, the imposter au had been going around for a little while but one of the first few ideas was the Fatui taking reader in so like. it kinda technically actually was. pretty sure cult au Tsaritsa popped up because of the imposter au. a lot of it's writers kinda left though which. man am i getting old or.
anyway.
there isn't much of a chance her first impression is all that positive. at best it's usually neutral, imo, but rarely if ever positive. specifically because i view the Tsaritsa as someone who isn't as fanatical as most of the acolytes typically are towards the creator. she's not exactly going to worship the ground you walk on unlike a certain geo lizard. which is partially why i think she thrives in the sub au's i mentioned.
imposter au, for example. she meets you at your lowest. there's no gaudy extravagance or pampering from the acolytes waiting for you because your own acolytes have turned on you. for all intents and purposes you aren't a "god" at all. which is why i don't think she meshes well with normal cult au reader. the Fatui are made up of outcasts, basically, and imposter au slots right in just perfectly. you're weak, at your lowest, when you meet the Fatui in the imposter au. and the Fatui can help you, too.
a mutual exchange, really. the Tsaritsa sees a tool she can use to one up the rest of the nations and especially Archons, and she has no qualms about you using her and the Fatui in turn. you both want something out of it, after all. whether you just want to be safe from the rest of the acolytes, or you want revenge, or whatever else..she'll give you the power to fulfill it, and she gains the strongest piece on the chessboard when all is said and done.
the best way i can describe the first meeting is "practical", i suppose. she sees an opportunity in you. the ultimate gamble. because if she "saves" you, and you dont trust anyone else because they tried to kill you, well..she holds all the cards, doesn't she?
but the Tsaritsa, imo, is just as capable of being just as fanatical towards you as anyone else. she just won't worship you as the creator. but as yourself? clawing your way back to your divine power and taking back what belongs to you? the Tsaritsa is, to me, a character who's character flourishes in long-term fics more because she changes a LOT between "just met reader" and after having been with reader for some time. she's practically apathetic at the beginning but a lot of her character, in my characterization, shines through LONG after the first meeting.
#asks#Anonymous#sagau#tsaritsa#like. am i explaining this coherently?? first meetings r GOOD and i could go on a tangent of like. first meetings w zl and make it work#but first meetings w the tsaritsa is like. you just cooked a 5 course meal. took one bite. called it a day.#so much of my characterization lies in the “after” of the first meeting#because her first meetings are generally the same. she's apathetic at best!! she does not gaf abt the creator in the SLIGHTEST#but show that you are more then the creator? that you do not cling to the title like a shield? that you do not rely on it?#youve got the worst person youve ever known ready to kill a man for you.#tsaritsa is very like. EXTREMELY hard to earn the trust of but when you do she will kill someone for you no hesitation no question#which is why she works SO WELL in villain au and imposter au!!!!!!!!!#esp if theres a fake “creator” calling you the imposter. she hates their ass and was .5 seconds from dethroning them anyway#you just made it 10x easier#also cant do just first meetings bc i am incapable of not shoving themes of love into every fic w her SORRY#tsaritsa going on a full multiple month long mental breakdown bc she is not in love with you but she would destroy everything for u..#(shes in denial)#tsaritsa and complex themes of love and what it means for the god of love to be incapable of feeling it + what it means when reader shows u#LIKE UGHHHHHH okay. i guess ill write another tsaritsa fic and put it in my vault#aka my drafts#i hold so many fics hostage there its crazy#this answered like 0 of ur questions sorry i see tsaritsa and black out and this happens#i just think first meetings dont let her character really come thru but my response got out of hand so uhhhhh everyone look away. please#putting tape over my mouth now so i shut up before this gets worse#basically tsaritsa gravitates more towards outcast reader rather then one who has already become accustomed to the adoration of the acolyte#does that make sense........#i havent slept in forever and im running on nothing but spite and dreams atp dont expect coherency when it comes 2 the tsaritsa from me#head in hands someone please stop me i keep rambling abt the tsaritsa it makes me go NUTS#lays down. explodes
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i’ve had this long list of td surname headcanons (and i guess some of them are nationality headcanons) for a while and haven’t done much about them, so…
here are each generation’s surnames! (except for rr since i’m not too confident about them)
gen 1:
harold norbert cheever doris mcgrady V
cody emmett jameson anderson
lindsay tyson
noah könig (german)
eva barta (czech)
izzy clark
owen fraser
trent evans-grant
gwen kennedy
heather ryeo
bridgette summers
leshawna simelane (south african iirc)
beth spring
devon ‘dj’ joseph
alejandro burromuerto (spanish)
sierra kauffman (german)
tyler wilson
ezekiel miller
courtney cortez (spanish, or from somewhere where they speak spanish primarily)
duncan butcher
katie wan (malaysian)
sadie peterson (originally was gonna give her a romanian surname but here is peterson)
justin kāne (hawaiian)
geoff jasper
gen 2:
josef ‘jo’ kaczmarek (Polish)
brick macarthur
anne-maria chahuán (chilean)
michele ‘mike’ russo
cameron corduroy wilkins
rudolph ‘lightning’ jackson
staci sterling
zoey gates
dawn oakwood
scott brackin (irish)
dakota milton
sam stevens
beverly ‘b’ jones
gen 3:
ella ito-courtemanche (japanese and french)
scarlett montgomery
max mayhem (yes. i’m actually giving him that as his surname. get sillyed)
jasmine reynolds
shawn tremblay
dave korrapati (indian, more commonly in telugu-speaking areas)
sky sanderson (i was a bit uhm. stuck with this one. i looked up ‘cree surnames’ but found only three. i went for this one but i’m still uncertain.)
amy martin
samantha ‘samey’ martin
topher mccann
rodney rogers
sugar silo
beardo mbomio (equatoguinean)
leonard howe
gen 4:
nichelle ladonna (italian)
bowie davis
emma fletcher
julia hartwell-hughes
priya khan (indian)
millie carter
chase boonmee (thai. it means ‘reliable, generous, loyal’. ironic)
raj ghosh (indian)
wayne watterson
mary-kate ‘mk’ yí (chinese. in honour of fai yí, my beloved)
damien reid
hezekias ‘zee’ guzman (argentinian (it means ‘good man’ which is what he is!!!))
rhinffrew ‘ripper’ bowen (welsh (WELSH RIPPER REAL))
caleb garcia (hispanic)
axel sanchez-guðmundsdóttir (hispanic(?) and icelandic. yes, apparently ‘axel’ is an icelandic name!)
#ok i kept two of the comeback surnames. i actually really like them. bite me.#(i hope i used that phrase correctly)#btw geoff’s surname is based off this really nice person from my school i met during our oliver! production!#he doesn’t go to my school anymore because he graduated. i hope he’s doing well#i’m realising now that priya and raj’s surnames are both surnames of my classmates.#like i genuinely didn’t name them after these people. this is a total coincidence#IF there is any mistakes in this please correct me. a lot of these are taken from websites#(i made up the first gen surnames first…. i actually looked up ‘canadian surnames’ LMAO)#oh yeah i named noah after someone i know too (my german exchange partner). also he’s like. a king#I LOVE NAMING THINGS#IT’S SO FUN#naming characters is one of my favourite parts of creating characters#(although i accidentally named two octuplets characters after like. people idk.)#((and one character was nearly named after a WWI war general!))#ANYWAYS#total drama#td#I AM NOT TAGGING ALL THOSE CHARACTERS
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i just think you deserve eternal happiness actually. funny and actually nice. u are jesus. anyway No pls i AM AFRAID u are simply too cool and i cant deal
#“cant deal” im a millennial at heart x#ok no i love u though#asks#mewtuals#blah blah!#ok im talking here u asked for this basically im going insane theyre so fucking stupid like i know im the one who made them but they keep#NOT SPEAKING anf its so annoying like can you stop being teenage boys and start knowing how to fucking SPEAK#also i am NOT being a creep i dont focus on it its literally not mentioned but theyre in college okay.#well one of them is#no wait both of them are Sorry i tell a lie#anyway its pissing me off like dude can u grow UP and be COOl omg its makign me mad like i could literally just make them know but also im#obsessed with making it “realistic” (its literally rpf girl) and like i dont wanna go to the opposite end of the spectrunm and make them ha#all that therapy speak like omgmfgnfkjnhkj its making me mad.#and like ?? i wasnt coming out in 2007 omh wait no wrong time i cant do times I WASNT COMING OUT IN THE 2000S IS THE POINT#SO HOW AM I MEANT TO KNOW JOW THST WOULD GO OMFG#imgonna bite someone im so mad#like i just checked it's 25593 words.#TWENTY FIVE THOUSAND FIVE HUNDRED AND NINETY THREE WORDS. THAT IS RIDICULOUS#FUCKING NOTHING HAPPENS IM HONNA THROW UP#but also im obsessed w word count so im hesitant to dlete ...#no ok all scenes are important i think but uuugggggghhhh LIKE OMDGFNJGNFJNH#anyway im so mad like can u just stop being stupid dude im gonna beat myself up#no because like why did i start this. what relevance does this have to anything.#it is. to be fair to myself. i think the best thing ive ever written though#so#everything is FINE and i am a okay
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AU where foxybro puts the collective group braincell together in his brain for a second there and realizes fredbear doesn't actually have any safety mechanism whatsoever and maybe they shouldnt put the kids head in the chomp chomp crusher 3000
#SOMEONE has surely thought of this before#with all the custom ''fixit but only to my liking'' AUs folks made in gacha fnaf content;;#im one of them#and i am unapologetically gathering my headcanons + fav theories to do that exact thing#listen nobody actually knows whats really going on in those fucking games#let me flesh out my preffered version of the story and then we'll talk fan content#also hi fnaf fandom#im back#and STRUGGLING i tell you#i have way to many thoughts on this stuff and it drives me INSANE#anyways#heres some more tags#fnaf#bite of 83#foxy bully#foxybro#crying child#cc afton#evan afton#michael afton#fnaf mike#fnaf 4
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#chattin#nothing bad or spicy i just feel like peep peeping rn#📢🐀!#but there is talk of panic attacks and Bad Stims up ahead (not related to me dw) ->#i was thinking of autistic peppino bc i am planning out the vigilante comic in my head#and like the quick premise is that vigilante comes into the pizzeria and shoots a blank into the ceiling to get everyone to shut up#and quiet down so he can go ask for (demand really) to see peppino bc this fuckerhas a bounty FOR A REASON and hes here to find out why#bc u know; cowboy yeehaw shenanigans#only its like 5am and no one is there jdkdndjdndk he just saw the lights one and went BANGBANG#anyway peppino is in the back cowering bc someone came into his fucking shop and started shooting UNPROMPTED#and hes so fucking scared and unwilling to move and when he sees someone actually come through the back door he starts having a legitimate-#-panic attack and he starts doing the stimmy hands thing over his ducked head#and vigilante is like whoa whoa WHOA WHOA HOL UP WHATS HAPPENIN#like i dont think peppino has ‘happy stims’ he has ‘extremely self soothing’ stims#that include flapping but only if hes so unbelievably stressed that he cant think#or he has more violent ones like pulling at his hair and biting his hands#that on top of like a genuine panic attack where he cant breathe and he thinks his heart is stopping is 😵💫#vigilante is like christ almighty what the fucks got you so damned spooked?? like he doesnt even think of the blank he shot#he assumed someone came in before him or something#and hes like oh shit wait thats mE I DID THAT I SCARED HIM#i am still planning it out but yes. autistic peppino is on my mind 😊#in a more positive light hes very earnest; and good at his job bc cooking in an interest of his#and his responses in social situations are bizarre enough sometimes to wrap back around to endearing#also its an excuse to draw peppino looking very confused but happy and gustavo somewhere in the shot going-#‘the bad bitch i pulled in by being autistic’#swag#ALSO THE TAG IS BACK so i guess i can doodle again heehee
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thought about love too hard and now i’m crying real tears because i have no one here to bite
#what the fuck#i’m actually a little bit upset right now. i am a creature of such love and there is no one here to inflict it on except for my tiny dog#(i love her very much)#i need to kiss someone and hold them. so desperately#ANYWAY time to go read destiel#just thought it was funny that i teared up about biting thought the biterguys might like that one
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Management making a point to hire ~diverse~ hourly-wage employees to bolster their image as a welcoming, inclusive workplace then proceeding to be almost comically racist and transphobic without seeming to realize what they're doing. Little nonprofit things
#I am going to Bite someone in the Throat#They're doing my comrades so dirty!!!!!!!#Shit like 'scheduling almost exclusively Black employees to do cleaning and manual labor tasks'...what is WRONG with you#No implicit bias training on earth works and bosses just keep DOING this#They also Retaliate against disabled employees a LOT#anyway we're Organizing but Jesus fucking Christ
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I've been thinking of that one piece you did with Faux putting on the Cyberhead esp what u put in the tags abt the idea that Faux comes back as Red postgame. I usually go with the theory/HC that an ai was made for red but your idea is super interesting.
like it would make sense for Faux to go by Red now bc outside of the law/police force the BRC, DJ Cyber/Futurism and the other rival crews most likely hate his guts now ( along with like the civilians that had to witness the events of the storymode ) i'd love to learn more abt this au/headcanon btw!
eyyy! i also share the hc that red comes back with an ai, its pretty neat! i kinda swap between the red ai hc and the red!faux one to be honest
i started thinking more about faux and just his overall situation and read waaay too deep into his character/actions so i became this while thinking about the hc/au
ill slap it under a readmore, unsure if its considered spoilers but it is post-game
so the idea is that after the game escher finds faux's head/body and put him back together. the two talk it out, and he gives faux the option to start new, much like how he did with red earlier in the game. knowing this is his last chance to finally get rid of his roots; to finally get away from the police, he takes it.
knowing that everyone hates him or is after him he dons a fake cyberhead from escher and starts a new identity. he hides away from everyone and never talks, not wanting to get close to anyone and be betrayed again (or to get involved with others, he doesnt need another target on his back). he slowly changes into a person who enjoys being a writer for the sake of it again like he used to, the chains of his past slowly coming off of him.
does he end up running into BRC or the other gangs later on? possibly, im unsure on how that would play out, although he might be given a chance if he seemed genuine in wanting to/has changed. (thats assuming they figure out its faux in the first place)
#ask#bomb rush cyberfunk#spoilers#brc spoilers#im glad this interested you! thank you for the ask :]#i saw someone draw escher with faux's head and it actually helped me with this#cause originally i had it as basic police or something that puts him back together but#then i remembered that escher was going to retrieve faux's body earlier in the game#so fuck it why not#hes a cool character that also deserved more#this did inspire me to also write out some general faux headcanons i have#its going in another post though#ngl i was tempted to write a fic about this but i am a LOT less confident in my writing compared to my art LMAO#who knows maybe ill bite the bullet and write anyways. cant improve if you never write
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#the thing about wedding planning#is that it is known to be one of the most stressful things humans do#and i am finding that to be true!!#and i am also feeling like. i will remember how every single person in my life treated me surrounding this event.#like this is something that will inform every single one of my relationships moving forward#anyway every day i feel like i am going to bite someone#personal
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As much as I'm sworn to my oath, i am still human. You've been teasing me all morning, my sweet prince. Bending over with more flair than usual, stretching in front of me, sitting with your legs spread just a little too intentionally towards me, whispering sweet nothings to me as we pass in the halls. I grow restless. You followed me to this secluded part of the castle and began trying to get a hand under my armor as well hear the guards rounding the corner. We dodge behind an old tapesty.I clasp my hand over your mouth and press you into an alcove in the wall with my body. After they pass, I notice you rubbing yourself against my thigh. Without removing my hand from your mouth, i start nuzzling your neck, taking little nibbles and licks. You start squirming and grabbing onto me as i use my other hand to wander across your chest and down to cup you between your legs and squeeze.
Ah well what's the point of having such a lovely devoted knight if I can't tease them a little. Truly it should be considered an honor to be the object of my attention! I am nothing if not a creature of indulgence, so when my little invitations are not acted upon I decide to take the initiative.
My familiarity with the castle and your patrol route make it easy to corner you somewhere more private. Doffing your armor is time consuming, and a half-naked knight is not exactly inconspicuous, so I settle for snaking a hand between the plates to reach whatever cloth and skin I can. In my haste I barely notice the approaching round of guards until there's a hand on my mouth and I'm pressed between the cobblestone walls and your metal frame. Vigilance and quick reflexes are attributes any competent knight should have after all.
The initial suprise, and then the humor surrounding our cliche position, quickly make way for a reinvigorated flare of desire. Even through the hard planes of your armor, how can one not appreciate your imposing physique? To have the length of your body wholly cover my own and to be protectively bracketed by your strong arms. I can barely wait for the footsteps to pass before I start to move against your thigh. Small shifts at first, but the friction feels too good not to move with more purpose.
When you first started to shift to the crook of my neck I felt a little indignation that you kept your hand in place. But with each nibble and lick I shudder, and the only thing keeping every pleased noise I make from echoing in the chamber is that damned hand. With words and lips no longer at my disposal I try to make my appreciation for your attention known in other ways. I shift my head to the side as much as possible to give you better access, while one of my own hands finds it's way up the nape of your neck and into your hair, alternating between pressing you closer and gently grasping at the strands in encouragement. I'm still unsure of just how much you're able to feel underneath the armor and the padding, but I still seek to caress the planes of your body, settling finally on your hip to give my grinding movements a little more leverage.
Your own hand wandered down my chest, rising and falling with each shuddering breath. Your other hand is not enough to muffle the gasping moan I let out in response to the warmth suddenly covering my cunt and the upward press of fingers. If your gauntlet was removed you'd be able to feel the wet spot that has managed to seep past my fine cloths. After that it takes little time for each thrust of my hips against you hand to become more and more frantic until I'm collapsed against you trembling.
It's takes a couple beats to recuperate, but I remove your hand from my mouth and take it gently in one of my own, delicately kissing your wrist in gratitude. Shifting then to cup your face, placing sporadic pecks before finally kissing your lips. While I am quite satisfied, there is something else I desire from you. Such an adoring knight should have their efforts rewarded, and I am generous when I wish to be. I shift a hand to settle to the straps securing your codpiece, looking for affirmation to continue.
#'being pulled into an enclosed space to avoid detection and things get heated' trope my beloved#also i am so weak for neck shit#maybe its some vampire infatuation residuals but MAN neck kisses- licks- and bites go SO HARD#anyway i am once again reaffirmed of my major royalty kink - it is ever so nice to be someones sweet prince#thank you dearly my knight :]#asks#🪓 anon#< yippe interaction 🎉🎉#royal garden#knight#royalty#public
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taylor idk who chappell roan is i think that makes me disqualified from being queer forever (←sapphic girl)
She's a musical artist! She's pretty up-and-coming right now and is seen as a wlw queer icon in the music industry, but I've never been able to get into her music even though tons of other sapphics love it. I probably just haven't given it enough of a chance. Casual is a good song though!
#big ol' personal opinions disclaimer down here in the tags. also lisia this is soooo unrelated to your question sorry lol#i also kind of hate a very specific subset of chapelle fans and i can't listen to her without thinking of them dkjfsdkjfnkdsf#which is a really stupid reason to not listen to her music and i know it but alas brains work in weird ways#i don't judge her by her fans! but i just have that tainted association. like how sometimes you feel ill after eating something#and even if that didn't cause you to be sick- you still refuse to eat it afterwards? it's like that#it's not her. she did literally nothing wrong. it's just an unfortunate little brain link that i can't get rid of#saw a couple of fans talking about toxic bisexuals and their 'inferiority complex' and that put me off of her music as a whole tbh#in regards to debates about her sexuality#one was talking about how bisexuals 'marry the patriarchy'.#quote-'bisexuals have freddy mercury. that alone is all you need' :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) i'm going to bite someone.#it's like these few specific fans were tailor made to put me off of her#unfortunately i have not gotten past that yet but if i ever can undo that brain association and enjoy her music i will let yall know ksdjks#unfortunately as of right now i am programmed to see her name and think of the (probably very few) jackasses in her fandom#just kinda made me feel unwelcome when i was trying out her music a bit more sadly#it was never her as an artist or a person. just a few idiots but it was enough#idk. i should try again though. chapelle fans. which songs should i try to start again with?#anyways i should probably stop swinging the bat at the biphobia nest lest it come back to bite me but dkjfdksjf yeah tldr she's a musician#a very talented one! just one that i cannot enjoy quite yet. i hope i can kinda defrost about it though
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neurotypical people don’t understand the importance of floor time, like sure i could lay in the empty bed but the floor beckons me and who am i to ignore it’s call?
#whimsy whispers#the floor is comfy okay#I use to sleep in the floor because I wanted to as a child#I had a bed#but sometimes you see a spot on the floor and go ‘is anybody gonna lay there?’ and not wait for an answer#anyways I laid on my roommates mawmaw’s floor today and people very kindly told me I could lay in bed to which I was like ‘nah I’m good down#here’#I like the floor#I was also very tired and had a headache and wanted to pester try Alexia which I could not do in another room#I fought her over a bottle of sprite#I only ‘won’ because she eventually gave up#I didn’t even wanna drink her sprite I just wanted to pry it from her grip and we were just tangled both trying to yank it out of one#another’s hands#full disclosure: this would’ve gone on forever if she didn’t just give in because like I am not very strong#twas fun#at least once a week I need to physically mutually attack someone or else#the other week kane and I attacked each other in the kitchen I can’t even remember why#oh yeah I put my soapy hand on their arm and then did something back to me and it resulted in me being bear hug attacked from behind while I#tried so very hard to bite them
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well i'm so overwhelmed i just burst into tears ✌️
guess i'm not getting anything else done today. i have Reached My Limit.
#the bookkeeping has been untouched for a full month and i'm in the middle of untangling it#i'm also answering all the phones and draling with anyone who walks in#i'm also driving someone to various places periodically so i have to straight-up leave the office every 2 hours#and the stoplight between here and there is apparently being worked on so every trip involves a massive detour#and i was just told that ppl are going to be by at various times to pick up some things and sign a piece of paperwork i know nothing about#and last i heard at least one of them was an antivaxxer#and then i have to go check someone's pool after work#and i'm also monitoring the bakery for a cake i promised to try and pick up for this weekend#anyway i feel like i can't adequately hold onto a single fucking thought and i'm 2 seconds away from dropping all these balls#if the phone rings again i'm gonna start biting people#i am. Stressed.#i've been trying very very hard all day and i think that's it for me. i think i'm done.#can't even have a good nervous breakdown because people keep calling and coming in and i have to switch to Cheerful Customer Service Malay#i'm gonna mcfreakin lose it
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