#anyway how rad was this bit tho

[toytulini]

thinking about my oc Bytte. and. her gender is Aro. her Aromanticism is inextricable from her gender experience.

[wabblebees]

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[floral-hex]

First appointment today with the audiologist and it went.. baaaaad. Not a good start. Basically said my ears look fine inside, made me feel stupid, told me I was rambling, just… blegh. I’m sure My memories about it are more negative than the actual event, but it really felt bad. So my hearing is just fucked. And I made ANOTHER appointment with my hearing aid doc, for May, but I’m not hopeful. Just going to hear more nothing advice. Depressing. So it’s almost 1am now. I’m incredibly depressed still. Still feeling hopeless and anxious and hard to focus. I didn’t want to be awake at night again, but I had to sleep today (benadryls and no sleep the night before will do that to you). I’m gonna do dishes and then probably go out for another drive later. Last nights drive was nice, and while I really don’t have the funds to keep buying myself little treats and wasting gas, I think needing to get through this period right now is more important. I have an appointment for my mental health in the afternoon where I’ll beg for some Xanax or something fast working to help while whatever new antidepressant I get on works its way into me. It’ll be okay. I mean, I want to disappear. I feel like a ghost living on a dead planet, but it’ll be okay. The sun doesn’t stop existing just because you can’t see it at night, so I just have to believe and hold on until it comes out again… or whatever. Something profound like that. Pretend I’m hopeful.

Anyway, here’s Oreo, who always wants attention. He’s napping next to me now, but was nice enough to raise his head for this pic when I poked him.

[mingis-orangejuice]

Using Reverse Psychology On The Demon Bros

Warnings/Genres: manipulation(in a cute way, kinda?), mentions of diets (only in Beel’s part) fluff, crack

I feel like all the Brothers would fall for reverse psychology so easily. I don’t think MC would purposely try to manipulate them (at least not all the time), they would just say things that happen to make the brothers suddenly want to help them lol

Lucifer

-He’s literally the avatar of pride, if you wound his pride he’d be quick to try and prove you wrong

-MC: Lucifer can you help me with my potions homework?

-Lucifer: MC, can’t you see I'm extremely busy with paperwork for Lord Diavolo so that will have to wait for now

-MC: Fine, I guess I'll just go ask Satan, he’s the smart one anyway… *turns to leave *

-Lucifer: *is instantly standing in front of you within half a second looking all flustered and grabs your notebook from you* Let me take a look at that for you 

Mammon:

-Even tho he’s a Simp for you he’s also a bit lazy so you’ll need to ask him multiple times for help when it comes to any type of hard work.

-MC: Mammon, can you help me carry some boxes from the attic Lucifer says we need to start getting rid of some of the useless junk up there.

-Mammon: Nah I got better things to do than menial labour for Lucifer

-MC: ok I guess I‘ll ask Beel to help, He can probably carry all the boxes in one trip, we’d get it done so quickly ☺️ 

-cue Mammon zooming up to the attic trying to stack all the boxes to prove that he can lift way more than his little brother.

Levi:

-Levi would definitely be the easiest to trick with this since he’s already constantly jealous of his brothers anytime they spend time with you.

-MC: Levi it’s my day to cook dinner do you want to come shopping for the ingredients with me?

-Levi: Sorry MC I’m on hour 9 of rewatching TSL, plus it's too bright outside. Why don’t you pull up a cushion and we can watch it together?

-MC: Oh that's ok I guess I'll go ask as Asmo, he’s been wanting to take me out on a date anyway *You close his door and start walking down the hall to Asmo’s room

-Levi: D..D..D.. Date! Wait MC no I’ll take you, I didn’t realize you were asking me out on a date, wait please come back!

Satan:

-I feel like he would also get jealous really quickly. Especially if you bring up Lucifer he would go full-on rage mode. Basically, anything that works on Lucifer will work on him too.

-MC: *pointing to one of the many books in his room* can I read that one? it looks cool.

-Satan: No MC it's cursed you could get hurt

-MC: ok *walks away*

-later MC is on the couch reading a book they borrowed from Lucifer

-Satan: *sees you reading the book Lucifer recommended, runs to his room to get the cursed book you wanted to read earlier* wait MC read this instead !!!!

-MC: but you said it was cursed

-Satan: it's fine I’ll figure out how to cure you just drop that other book NOW!

Asmo:

-Asmo would definitely get upset if you complimented someone else

-he wants to be the only one MC goes to for beauty advice 

-MC: Asmo can you share your skincare routine with me?

-Asmo: My dear MC I can't just give away my secrets to looking this gorgeous *walks away*

-later at RAD

-MC talking to Simeon: Wow Simeon your skin is positively glowing what products do you use, you’re so beautiful!

-Simeon: *blushing* oh, let me show you, I use…

-Asmo who had been eavesdropping: *Grabs MC’s arm* MC why don’t we head home I have to show you how gorgeous I look when I’m doing my skincare routine! 

Beel:

-I don’t wanna be cliche but reverse psychology would only work on Beel if it was about food

-Beel is always ready to help so there wouldn’t be too many situations where you’d get to use reverse psychology on him. Like if you asked him to help carry something he would do it, no questions asked. 

- but if you wanted some of his food, especially if it was something special that he’s been looking forward to it might be a bit difficult.

-MC forgot their lunch and saw Beel eating in the cafeteria: Beel can I have some of your food it looks really good!

-Beel: *looks at MC and then looks at his food* uh this is the limited edition Goliath Hellfire pizza from Hell’s Kitchen each customer is only allowed to purchase 1 in their entire lifetime. 

-MC: oh it's okay I just hadn’t had lunch today, I guess I can just go ask Asmo for some of his lunch

-Beel: *Grabs MC’s wrist to stop them from leaving* Asmo is on a diet again so there’s no way he has enough for both of you to get enough, here MC have some of mine *sits MC down and  hands them a slice of pizza that's almost double the size of their body

(this one was a stretch cuz I feel like Beel would have given MC some food anyway but I couldn’t think of anything for him, but I also didn't want to leave him out)

Belphie:

-He is the definition of unbothered he doesn’t care if you go out with the others cuz he’s too lazy to go out but also he knows the moment you sit down he can just fall asleep on you and now you’re stuck with him 

-but other than that I think he’d be just a little possessive of his nap stuff tho like blankets pillows etc… 

-you know he has the best stuff so if you want to have a great sleep you’ll need to ask to borrow them.

-MC: Belphie can I use your fancy sleep pillow I can’t sleep

-Belpihe: *pretends to sleep on the couch so he doesn't have to give MC his favourite pillow*

-Mammon: Don’t worry MC come sleep on my bed it's crazy comfy you'll definitely fall asleep right away.

-Belphie: *Throws the pillow at MC and pulls them onto the couch to take a nap with him-Mammon: Hey they were gonna sleep in my room tonight!

[l3viat8an]

HI RO!!!! it’s been forever since I’ve been here oh my 😭 how are youuuu???

I’m just having. many a thot thought. abt poly MC getting praised and pampered and overstimmed just getting all the sweet, gentle (soft dom??? I guess??) vibes from the bros after doing really well during the semester/term at RAD.

maybe they tease or double down on praising bc they know it makes MC shy but also that they actually enjoy it 👀 maybe getting tied up is involved 👀

but overall they’re not mean, they just want MC to know they’re proud of them, so what better way to do that than going to the extremes to show them?

anyway that’s my little rant, I just thought it was cute and wanted to share 😋🫶🏻

have a good day, and happy holidayssss!!! make sure you take care of yourself <3

- ♈️ anon

Hiiii ♈️!!! I’m good! Tired from holiday prep but good lolol how have youu been??? + it’s late for me so ignore if this has any typos as usual jsjsj

Just imagine Asmo getting all excited when he sees how well you did! His sweetheart is soooo smart and that deserves some kisses right~ he he’s going to cover your face in quick little kisses, giggling the whole time! It doesn’t matter who else is around, you deserve the praise and the blush on your cheeks is so cute!

Then Satan walks over and basically pushes Asmo out of the way- completely ignoring Asmo’s pouting and saying that if anyone praises you it should be him. after all he’s the one that tutored you all semester and helped when you didn’t know something about Devildom law- his kiss is deep and would’ve been a lot longer if Mammon and Levi weren’t yelling whining about how they helped you too!!! This is all just Asmo and Satan looking for an excuse to act all lovely dovey!! they’re both jealous and would prefer to have you alone- whispering sweet praise in your ear and placing soft kisses all over your body <3

Belphie just laughs, obviously you’re enjoying the attention so what’s the big deal? Beel’s nodding along- tho he really wants a kiss too, he’ll wait his turn.

and while he’ll let them indulge you for a few minutes Lucifer is quick to end it all, saying that you did wonderful as expected because; they all helped you. He walks over and kisses the top of your head, whispering just loud enough that you can hear him “I’m proud of you, darling.” and chuckles when he pulls away and sees your face is bright red.

Nsfw bit below here <3

Oooor Lucifer joins in on praising you!! You really did so well and Asmo’s right, that deserves a reward~ but what should it be?

Mammon shouts something about how you should just spend the day with him! He’ll spoil ya as much as you want!

Levi cuts Mammon off, stumbling over his words but promising that he’ll do whatever you want….uhhh if you want to spend time with him….to celebrate- and Satan cuts right back in saying that he’s the one that’s going to spoil you! It’s only fair!

‘n so on- obviously they’re not gonna agree right away, but it’s cute to watch you get excited over the way they fight for your attention!

Eventually it’s Belphie that has the best (?) (depends on who you ask tbh) idea. They could just share you-

Asmo whines that it’s not fair!! He didn’t get to say that first but Belphie just rolls his eyes and continues; after all, you worked so hard to get good grades~ it’ll be his…..their reward to you, kissing, praising and touching you until you can’t think anymore.

Just let them worry about you, yea? You know it’ll feel good too….all they want to do is make you feel good, spoil you, fill you up with cocks and cum until the only thoughts left in your cute little head are about them and how good it feels to be spoiled-

and for once the others all agree- if it’s what you want ofc <3

[inuiiwonderland]

I just had this thought while I was listening to music and I just HAVE to tell you guys!

Ok

So

Imagine you and the brothers get invited to one of diavolo lavishing parties and all of you guys are having a good time. As you all drink, eat, and dance the night away, you and dia had a bit to much to drink. (They brought human world alcohol so you and Solomon could have some fun too)

Anyways

Long story short you and dia yk

Next day, you wake up with a horrible headache and when you look to the side, there you see a peaceful dia sleeping. Memories of the previous night flash and you quickly get up in a hurry to put on your clothes and leave.

You felt sick. Extremely sick. Did you really just sleep with the future king of hell? Guilt started to wash over you and you quickly ran out the demon lord’s castle. Finally making it to the house of lamentation, you hurriedly make your way to your room.

Finally in the safety of your own room, you think back to what happened last night. It’s not like you disliked it or hated dia or anything but you felt extremely guilty for doing something so sinful with him.

Your a human and he’s literally the prince of hell. So of course you felt guilty even though it’s not both of your guys fault.

After that, you started ignoring dia. At rad, you did your very best to ignore him and to also not bump into him in the halls. You made sure to stay away, feeling very ashamed. It didn’t matter where you were because if he was there you ignored him.

This of course hurt dia. Did you hate him? He obviously remembers everything that happened that night and he thought you enjoyed it but seeing how your ignoring him really did hurt him and made him feel a bit insecure.

Anyways, fast forward 3 weeks later and your still ignoring him. The brothers have noticed the changes in you and diavolo relationship. They also have noticed a slight change in you.

You started getting morning sickness. You also started craving weird food combination and sometimes feeling very nauseous.

It isn’t until you notice that your period was late that you started panicking. You were scared and worried. You stayed in your room the whole day which worried the brothers. You would’ve stayed there longer if it wasn’t for Lucifer to come and knock on your door to ask if you were alright. Since you were already in a state where you didn’t know what to do, you let him in and told him about the possibility of you being pregnant.

He just looks at you for a second before sighing and saying “mc…you are pregnant”

So, what do you think will happen after finding out your pregnant with the demon prince’s baby?

Will you keep this a secret from diavolo? Or will you tell him?

UGHH I NEED TO STOP COMING UP WITH GOOD STORY IDEAS KNOWING DAMN WELL I HAVE OTHER FICS I NEED TO FINISH AND WORK ON😭

but anyways, I’m already writing everything down as we speak and as always, there’s going to be lots and lots of angst😋

What do we think about this tho? Yes or no?👀

[vdragon-creations]

TMayNT Day 18: Human Version of The Turtles

Day 18 of @tmaynt Prompt: Human version of the turtles!

So these took a bit longer then i expected to, but most of that was due to trying to get the skin colors right! A lot of folks head canon the turtles as POC's, mostly in reference to RISE and MM. But I could really see that in about all of them honestly. So I hope this looks good!

(Side Note: Am whiter then sour cream guys, with the most color I have in my fam is Cherokee native on my sperm donor side. I'm using this as practice for more skin colors. Any tips and critique you might have would be nice.)

But, with that out of the way, I wanna talk a little about my thought process with these designs! I wanted to go with them being mixed race, mostly Asian with either a dash of African American or even Latino in there. And I was trying to lean more on the 2003 TMNT as my main inspiration for these guys! As well as a few headcanons younger me had when I was younger about what they would look like! So let's get into each one!

Leo: I knew that with him, I still wanted to give him a more obvious "Ninja" look to him! Especially since, they're humans in this AU and not Turtles, I don't think Splinter would be HAVING to teach his sons martial arts as they wouldn't really NEED to defend themselves. Still tho, seeing how much of a father's boy Leo is, I could see him wanting to learn from him anyway. Just out of principle. He's got dark bluish gray eyes, and keeps his long hair in a ponytail! I complete his look with a scar along his shoulder and cheek. (Perhaps a childhood accident. Rough housing too much with Raph.) I also sprinkle a few freckles on his shoulders too, cause...they cute! QvQ

Raph: Now, you know this kid is a little punk. He's defiantly the rebel of the family! I knew I wanted to give him a ripped vest from the beginning, and I added a scar on his face as well. (Probably from the same rough housing with Leo, idk.) Also, you will never convince me that this boy doesn't have a piercing, or maybe a tattoo somewhere hidden. (Splinter would kill him if he ever saw it, after all he nearly did after the piecing and died hair.) But, despite all the roughness, he's topped off with pretty green eyes, freckles, and a tiny little beauty mark right on his jaw.

Donnie: Oh my baby boy! He's defiantly the most plain looking out of his brothers. Plain purple sweater and glasses, he doesn't scream outrageous like Mikey! And why should he? He's too busy with building things in his spare time to give a shit about looks! Shown by the oil stains on his shirt, really messy hair he keeps in a low ponytail, and eyebags so big that if it weren't for his (Admittedly) pretty golden eyes, you'd think he only had dark sockets on his face. And of course, cute nerdy freckles pepper his face! (Cause I'm predictable!)

Mikey: By far the most colorful (and obvious) out of his brothers! Splinter wasn't too happy when he and Raph both decided to dye their hair and get piercings, but it sure didn't stop them! Mikey really wanted to embody the "Surfer Dude" look, and he sure pulled it off! Long Blonde hair? Check! Shark Tooth Neckless? Check! Rad Shades? Double Check! (Rarely actually worn tho, gotta make sure the Dudes & Dudettes see those beautiful bright blue eyes!) He also started carrying around a set of headphones that Donnie made personally for him!

Maybe I'll revisit these guys at a later date, cause I do really dig the designs! And I think they would make they're own neat little AU! (I may even toss my OC Sasha in there some day! Been wanting to make a few human versions of her anyway. Hell, in some versions she was a human starting out anyway. So tis very needed!)

[melverie]

⸺ LESSON 4 ⸺

Solomon

MC's magic

demons & angels (& humans)

strange feelings & soup

misc

- lesson 3 || lesson 5 || all posts so far -

I've decided to also collect the quotes from the website here because I don't actaully remember ever reading Lucifer's in the story? Anyway, I've also added Mammon's to the lesson 3 post! General spoiler warning for all of Obey Me Nightbringer, as well as for the original Obey Me

⸺ SOLOMON ⸺

once again, he's suddenly wearing his human world look [4-9 + 4-11]

This [4-9; pic below]. Why is he excluding himself here

also Solomon was just never all that careful about keeping it a secret that MC is from the future?? He just casually brings it up again in front of (Chihuahua) Mammon and Leviathan [4-9]. Kinda surprised that it took until Leviathan's arc for anyone to learn about this

⸺ MC'S MAGIC ⸺

the others point out that Lucifer's magic is super strong, yet MC is able to make Lucifer stumble with a curse he normally would have been able to brush off easily [lesson 4 hard mode] -> also this post :)

⸺ DEMONS & ANGELS (& HUMANS) ⸺

the brothers were denied service at Ristorante Six [4-2] and at the library [4-4] before they gained the titles of seven Rulers of the Underworld

despite now holding the title of seven Rulers of the Underworld, a lot of demons are still opposed to the brothers' presence in the Devildom, so Diavolo wants them to be a part of RAD's founding to show they should be treated with respect [4-11]

Leviathan gives us a little insight on how things were for the brothers before the Great Celestial War [4-13; pic below]

⸺ STRANGE FEELINGS & SOUP ⸺

Lucifer tells MC that they should just spend the night at HoL since "it's already late", and Belphegor's bullshit detector immediately goes off. He tells MC that Lucifer seems to have become fond of them [4-2], and Satan also points out that Lucifer's behavior is unusual [4-4] -> if MC tells Belphegor that Lucifer isn't all that fond of them, Belphegor's intimacy will go up & he'll tell them that he would have been irritated had MC said they're happy about it [4-2]. Cute lol

Leviathan is VERY open with MC with how he feels about his current situation [4-13; pic below]. He also later says that he finds it very easy to talk to MC [4-18]

⸺ MISC ⸺

Lucifer becomes a bit more hopeful that things will change for the better for them now that they are the seven Rulers of the Underworld, when previously he just wanted to keep to themselves [4-2; pic below]. Genuinely happy to see this change tbh <3

Satan rushing in to save the Chihuahua (aka Asmo) Beelzebub & Belphegor are trying to bathe [4-A]. This has nothing to do with anything, I just love one bundle of wrath who carries nothing but love in his core <3

Diavolo talks about offically unveiling his plans of building RAD as the first royal academy [4-11]. Again, RIP 'The Glory Days' devilgram

Leviathan kind of blaming one of the twins for everything that transpired [4-13; pic below]...? Fairly certain he doesn't actually mean it and only said it because he was so emotionally charged in that moment tho

Lucifer wanting to check on Leviathan, telling him honestly how he feels & the doubts he has/had and apologizing to his little brother like the big bro he is [4-16] <3

second quote from the website [4-11; pic below]!!

[nbmudkip]

perhaps rekka mas for the ask game.......... or realize mas if you dont want to do anything not on en rn 🤔

ok dont laugh at me but i erm. id never played either of these songs before at all….bc i dont keep up with new comms’ charts on jp and realize only just got added to en recently and i was putting off playing it…….anyway heres my first tries at them both (plus ex results for funsies)

1. realize

a little bit strange but im kinda into it? usually im not a huge fan of repeated double taps but i kinda liked it in this chart for some reason, could not for the life of me explain why tho. however the run at the end scared the shit out of me and i came very close to breaking combo. 6/10 minus points for jumpscare at the end but overall solid

2. rekka

ok i found this chart REALLY fun. a great example of how charts dont necessarily have to be fast paced and heart racey to fuck hard. i adore the bit in the middle where four holds merge into one alongside all four members of vbs joining in harmony one by one. rad fucking chart, lots of fun to play, 9.5/10 yuri won

[three-eyed-skullbunny]

Hello. I just want to say that I think you're very cool and dope. I want to be your friend but unfortunately my shy ass is too scared to dm you lol. You aren't scary tho dw. I think you're very cool. You're pretty funny too. Maybe one day we'll be online friends, who knows? Rn I'm a ghost that likes your post and thinks you're very rad. Also btw I was the same anon that asked you about your labels cuz I genuinely did wanna know how cool you were. I'm still learning about everyone's labels (half-way out the closet bisexual here👋🏻). Also I want to get into Gorillaz because I like a bit of their songs, maybe if you wanted you could help me maybe but no pressure at all. I think you're a very rad person and you bring a cool, chill vibe to my fyp. Also your other friends are pretty cool too. You remind me of one of my old friends low-key. He was a chill and rad guy. Unfortunately I had to stop talking to him for stupid reasons. But whenever I see your posts, it reminds me of my friend. Anyway, I think you're cool, rad, funny, and dope 😎👍🏼

From, your local crazy freak.

Get off of anon this instant please

[bartholomew-junior]

2, 3, 4 gothi also are you taking sands characters

omg hi circular o/ sorry for the wait i did enjoy my trip :DD god help me with my sunburn tho. anyway omg gothi!!

2 . if there was one thing i had to pick, i’d say her stoicism/monotony. despite the fact she’s living in a very unstructured environment, the opposite of the foreclaimer society she came from, and to be on the brink of being kicked out of and disgraced by and harmed by that foreclaimer society, she still is one, and that cannot change. does she miss her home? her family? did she have friends other than xanu? does she miss them? does she think that despite it all, her “defective” empathy being demonized, she still would like to remember? when she saw rachaka, did she have a glimmer of hope that maybe, just maybe, it would be a little bit like the old home that she missed that was decimated by her oldest friend? or does she think that place kind of sucked but miss her parents and the food? we don’t know ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ basically, her whole backstory as well as foreclaimer race

3 . the most inconvenient aspect of her character is her friendship with xanu. xanu himself is a whole tangle that im not confident will be untangled considering the fact he has a status as a joke character in the interval between regicide and their emotional moment, which, for what he is, isn’t great. i feel like there’s an incongruence that should be addressed with xanu wanting to commit genocide and kill thousands of people, and him also just being gothi’s comic relief friend. but that’s a gripe with xanu’s character, not gothi. i hope they address this sooner than later. sorry for the negative nander moment lol

4 . honestly, i feel like she belongs in a very, very old epic akin to gilgamesh where she goes on a solo journey to reveal different aspects of her character (definitely with a different motive tho lol). i’m imagining illustrations like the ones we saw on the foreclaimer tapestries and her meeting another defective foreclaimer with parallels to old gothi handing her their power crystal they took out as their own choice, so they could enjoy life to the fullest and try to escape the clutches of foreclaimer society. basically, emotional solo adventure with jawbone moments.

to ur last question, im sorry,, i haven’t even looked in the direction of fools gold sands. i’m considering listening to it in the future, but eh. don’t count on it. apologies for the inconvenience. it looks really good from what i’ve seen of it actually, i might try to draw rooster.

in conclusion: RAD!! there’s so many things you can do with her character design too, like with her mask (something like the one she had at the celebration maybe, idk i just thought it was pretty) there’s also a lot you can do with the components of her design. her swamp aesthetic is so cool and i love how even when she’s fancy she still goes barefoot. thank you for letting me ramble, and sorry again for the wait

[theadwyn-of-rohan]

I always wondered what age all the rangers, especially the grey company ones would be, and also more in general how dúnedain aging even works, and how the maturity compares to "normal humans"/middle men

I mean we do know that all the grey company rangers are dúnedain, even if they aren't of royal blood/direct descent of isildur, and therefore still have a longer life expectancy than normal humans. I don't know/am not sure, if we actually have information on that, but I would say, that means that the usual one is about 140-150 years, maybe?

Now the question is, where do the gc rangers fit in, and how old are they compared to aragorn?

In my mind, idk if I read that somewhere, i believe that Dúnedain mature at 25, and that's probably when they get sworn to aragorn, so Helchon is somewhere around 25 or 26 years.

Thanks to an ao3 fic I read some time ago, I hc Candaith to be rather young for a ranger, somewhere in his early thirties, also because (courtesy of that fic aswell) the lone ranger thing wasn't actually planned, but the other rangers just- died (blame garth agarwen. that always works) another contributing factor to young(ish)!candaith might be bc of the oc that i ship him with- but that's beside the point

Calenglad, as we know, is older than Aragorn, by at least about 20 years, and with him, in my mind-, looking like he's in his forties somewhere (leaning towards late forties), something inbetween 107-120 seems fitting

Golodir, I'd believe, is somewhere similar to Calenglad, possibly a bit older, but due to all the Angmar shit- being mordirith's favourite punching bag for a few years straight does that to you- has aged faster, which puts him somewhere in the range of 120/120+ give or take

Corunir and Lorniel were besties and a similar age, change my mind. With that, and my headcanon for Angmar being give or take 10 years long, they were definitely older than 25 to actually go on that journey, and at the very least two-to-three years older, for the experience, which would put them somewhere in their early 40s/40s. That would mean that Golodir had Lorniel at about 80- which is fine, ig? Aragorn had Eldarion at 91, tho he also lived to 210, so I dunno if he is a valid comparison.

Anyway, this were the first rangers that came to mind- [actually, now that I think about it loth and rads too- and amdir, dagoras, daervunn, saeradan, halbarad- but i can't be bothered to write smth about them]

here you go *cutely hands you my first post*

[depraved-gf]

Can I vent? Imma vent. I think you might appreciate the change of all sex stuff. Maybe.

So this is a very old wound, but it still bleeds every now and then. Back ground, I was the weird kid at school. I've always been kind of a loner. And I've always wanted my own "Tumblr girl" story. I met a girl on here and we just clicked. We became best friends, wed talk on a daily basis and spent around 6 hours on the phone once. I fell deeply in love got her, and I will admit; what happened next was completely my fault. I was selfish and dumb, I wanted my romantic version of her to be real and fall for me. I told her I liked her and she didn't like it, she Also had a boyfriend back then. Said we had never met. Oh, yes. That's right. Forgot to mention that. I lived in Mexico, and she was from the UK. Anyway, back then I would use Tumblr a lot more. And had my private blog where I would vent. I had a shit load of posts about her, might have been a tad bit obsessed. But being a Scorpio thats kinda like it is. Well, she somehow found it and freaked out. She asked me to never talk to her again and we'll; we talked about it and tried to fix things but the damage was done and she didn't want anything else to do with me. One year later she blocked me on every social media and her phone. My world came crashing in, and even tho I could have made other accounts and stalk her, I knew she didn't want that. So I didn't. I dealt with my anxiety on my own. How could someone who had seen how much they meant to me, do that? A few years passed and she sent me a message through xbox (we used to play for hours together). She asked me why I had done all of those things. When she sent me that message I had my head in a whole different space, and I missed the message. Could I have fixed things? (Should I also mention she used to read my erotic stories? The last story I gave her to read was one that was CNC, kinda hardcore.) She ended up blocking me because I insisted on being friends. There was a lot I could have done differently. But yeah. That. low key, Still wish she sends me another message one day.

I wanna let you have this space to vent. I hear you and I see you <3 If you need advice or an unbiased perspective, I'm gonna give it below, but feel free to ignore if you just needed that space. :)

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The answer to your question? Maybe. Maybe you could've fixed things, and maybe she'll reach out again. There's really no telling since we can't read her mind.

If she sent you a message years later even asking for clarification, she might pop up again one day. But it's most important that you let her have that space to come back if/when she wants. If you were a little pushy or insistent, along with having a private blog about her and she found it... It can cause some really scary and uneasy feelings, even if you meant well.

But I really wanna address the question: "how could someone who had seen how much they meant to me do that?"

The thing is, she doesn't owe you anything regardless of your feelings to her. I know it feels unfair, especially when feelings are unrequited. I empathize greatly with this and I know how downright painful it can be. I've been there. I'm still blocked by someone I once adored but fucked up with. Ultimately, we both made someone feel uncomfortable and they had the right to block us. And unfortunately, we have to be okay with that.

But again, and I can't stress this enough - let her come to you, baby. By doing this, you her know that her boundaries are respected by you.

Still, overall, I hope you're taking care of yourself. Never forget that you deserve to be taken care of. Go out, get into some really rad new hobbies, sniff some flowers, enjoy time with any friends of family you may have. Take it one day at a time.

Whether you reconcile with this girl or not, there will be other loves that light your soul on fire, maybe even moreso than you've ever before experienced. You're gonna be alright ♡

[the-insomniac-emporium]

Remembering my grandpa: the coolest guy I've ever met

so, like, still haven't processed what happened. that's honestly pretty typical for me, it's something I used to feel really guilty about (everybody around me would be crying, and I wouldn't actually feel those emotions for upwards of a year), and I've gotten better at addressing what's under the surface before it gets to the point of a breakdown. there are several reasons for why my biggest personal metaphor for grief is as follows

our love is a garden; this grief is a seed

mostly been keeping myself busy, just cleaned most of the kitchen in one go, probably going to clean my room later today. also been thinking a lot about how incredibly cool my grandpa was. he's genuinely one of the most rad people I've ever had the chance to meet, and I don't even know all of his stories!!! just gonna ramble about him for a bit

dropped out of high school (and later got his GED) because WW2 was happening and he enlisted (either lied about his age or was just barely old enough). got recognition for his marksmanship skills, and (forgive me for not knowing his official rank/title) even ended up being a sort of guard for a high ranking officer. I remember being told that when they had to drive somewhere, Gramps was the guy with a scoped rifle keeping an eye out for trouble, ready to counter ambushes or something like that.

(the point is that I haven't heard the details since I was a kid, but his rifle skills were incredible, especially considering his age at the time)

known for drinking Respect Women Juice and being a stand-up guy. I've read some of his memoirs (not published, but they might be at some point, I'll let y'all know), and he talks about how mad he was at my grandma's dad (his eventual father-in-law) because the FIL was soooo excited to have "man time" with Gramps, after already having treated Grandma like the son he would have preferred, and Gramps couldn't understand why FIL wasn't appreciating the incredible woman that Grandma was. seriously, Grandma was also a badass, an equally incredible sharpshooter who only quit competing (having reached the highest level for women in the US) because she realized in order to keep winning she'd have to actually put time and effort into getting better. also she was a great cook, apparently. had a real temper tho

Anyway, there's also some other stuff about his respect for women, but that involves a bit of family drama with other relatives that I don't want to get into online. The gist is that he went out of his way to make sure that several women in the family got treated fairly, especially when some people weren't properly appreciating the work of a stay-at-home mom.

He was an active scuba diver for many, many years, and several of his longest friends were met via the hobby. at one point, he even worked with several of them to buy a large amount of land on San Juan Island (of the San Juan Islands), where they divided it up and all built houses together. I have many memories of going to visit during the summer, and honestly it was really impressive what they built together. Grandpa also loved kayaking, and even dabbled in making kayaks!

Putting more under the break because I recognize this is lot

In order to get to San Juan Island, most people take a big ol ferry. during an incident that got a fair bit of coverage in the local newspapers, my Grandpa was taking the ferry when he realized someone in the distance was in trouble (small boat, might have gotten flipped or something, again don't remember all the details). Grandpa was quick to take action, got the attention of the ferry's crew, and was able to arrange a rescue. If he hadn't noticed the boat, chances are the person/people would have died.

Gramps was very active even up into his mid-to-late eighties (genuinely very fit and healthy until his kidneys started failing), and had some fun ventures as part of a historical group that went around the San Juan Islands finding old map markers/territory markers (god, I wish I remember the right word) and using modern tech to record their exact locations. It was like a scavenger hunt, almost, using old/outdated maps to find these things.

He was also an official boat inspector for Friday Harbor (the main part of San Juan Island) for several years, and was recognized for his hard work/the sheer number of inspections he did.

On top of all of this, my Grandpa was genuinely one of the warmest, funniest guys around. If someone asked me to think of an example of healthy romantic love, I would think about my Grandpa and my step-grandma. Then I'd think about my brother and his gf but that's a whole other thing. Grandpa was full of love, and had no qualms with showing it, using his musical talent for serenading her (he also joined in during the family gathering jam sessions). The way he looked at her will be forever engraved in my memory, full of love and full of life.

There are plenty more stories about Grandpa, some of which I just never heard, and some of which I have simply forgotten. I'm gonna miss him.

[ask-the-kh-crew]

Don't know if anyone asks this yet or not, but uh, Roxas, do you ever think you'll forgive Riku for what he did in the past to both you and Xion? Like maybe not even fully forgive him, just enough to tolerate being around him if that makes any sense. If not, do you think the two of you will just fight it out here and there out of spite?

Again sorry if I made no sense ^^'

Makes a lot of sense, actually. It's something I used to think about a lot.

It's difficult for me to imagine fully getting over what happened, having everything taken away from us. Even now that we're together again, it hurts to think about the time we spent apart. And when I think about that hurt, I think about Riku.

But I also think about Xehanort, and the way he ruined the lives of so many people aside from us. The more I learn about him from the others, the more I realise how we were all just puppets or pawns to him. It was all so much bigger than me, Xion and Riku. Both of them did what they did because of DiZ and Saïx, and they only did what they did because of Xemnas and the fake Ansem. And in the end, they're the fault of Xehanort, so it always comes back to him...

Plus, if I'm gonna stay mad at Riku for trying to sacrifice me and Xion for some guy I didn't even know, I'd have to blame Xion, too. And there's no way I'd ever do that, so whenever I blame Riku I feel kinda bad. He'd do anything for Sora, in the same way I'd do anything for Xion. Speaking of Sora: when I first disappeared inside Sora's heart, I could still feel and think a little bit, and all I felt was anger. Anger at Riku and this guy he sacrificed everything in my life for. But then, I got to know him a little more, and I saw just how much light was inside him. I accepted that it really had to be him, because he was the one that could bring everyone back. And after seeing him reunite all of us, I can't help but feel like Riku knew he was gonna do that all along. He trusted him, and now I do too. He makes a good other, after all.

Anyway, Xion told me her and Riku already talked about it some time ago: the conversation lasted about an hour, and apparently most of it was just Riku apologising to her over and over. But I didn't feel like talking about it (especially not for that long) and I think he knew that, because he didn't try to talk to me one-on-one for a while. Whenever it was just the two of us, there was just a long and awkward silence until one of our friends showed up again.

But then, a couple of weeks ago, he came to my room after visiting Naminé and asked if he could ask me something. He looked kinda nervous and so I assumed he was here to apologise, but then he... asked me if I could teach him how to skateboard.

Yeah, turns out he thinks it looks pretty rad when Sora does it and he wants to impress him, so he came to me for help. For the past couple of months we've been meeting up every Thurday to practice around Market Street, and I'd be lying if I said it wasn't fun (although it'll take a while before he can do mid-air 360s: he's not exactly a natural).

I still don't know if I can ever truly forgive him, but I don't think Riku could ever truly forgive himself either. The least we can do is to try to make the best out of the awful situation we both found ourselves in. And if we still feel some resentment for each other after that, we'll just have to do what Hayner and I always do when we're mad at each other: have a Struggle match to swing the anger out of us and then have ice cream afterwards. Works every time.

(Xion keeps trying to take pictures of me and Riku together, sometimes without us knowing. I'm not sure why and it's kinda annoying but I just let it happen atp. No photos of us skateboarding tho because "Riku always looks a little like a dork when he does it" and I don't disagree lmao)

[corzacorpse]

Giving my opinions on the Disventure Camp Cast cause why tf not, going from least fav to fav

Spoilers for Eliminations!

Yul: he pisses me off,,, he’s rude, nasty, racist,, and overall just shitty. Never understood the appeal for his character. Although I do like his VA (dub and sub) and design.

Karol: she was cut too early to properly form an opinion, I do like her though. I thought her soft spot for animals was sweet.

Oliver: he’s boring. I genuinely don’t understand the hype around this guy

Maggy: I like maggy! And I love how she stood up for herself in her elimination. That was rad,, however her timid personality does get on your nerves a bit. Anyway Kaggy for life

Connor: his arc was good, I like him! Nothing else more to say.

Riya: YESSSSS GIRLBOSS I LOVE HER! I cant wait for them to develop her character more!

Lake: I love her character arc! However sometimes it can be a bit in your face at times. Other than that I love her!

James: slimy bitch,, I love him and I hope he gets development. I can tell his character is going in a good direction.

Hunter: ok this man gets WAYYYYY to much hate. A lot of people said he was starting to get full of himself in episode 6, but honestly I never saw it like that. The way I view it is Hunter is awkward as fuck and already stressed out that 2 chicks like him, of course he’d be nervous about a third. He’s a GOOD CHARACTER. He’s quite smart, and super supportive and kind to Ally and Tess. Also he has one of the best voices in the show.

Rosa Maria: I LOVE THIS WOMEN SO MUCH Y’ALK DON’T UNDERSTANDDDD. The teen mother representation is actually really awesome, and it’s portrayed quite realistically with the way it’s been told so far. She’s super sweet, kind, and loyal to her friends. This women needs more love.

Ally: She’s so sweet and kind- I love her friendship with Tess and her crush on Hunter. Tbh I really hope we get some poly representation and it better be done well or istg,, anyways. She’s a super fun character.

Tess: Yup, Tess is my favourite out of the love triangle. She’s actually a super good representation of someone who suffers from depression, like her interaction with Hunter in episode 3 and her breakdown with Ally in episode 6. Her design is also super pretty, we love that for her.

Kai:

Number 15, Burger King foot lettuce-

Fr tho Kai is just so funny and a really neat support character. Also I absolutely love how he stuck up to Yul in episode 3, we fucking love that for our king. I’ll say it once and I’ll say it again, Kaggy 👏 for👏EVER👏

Aiden: yes, aiden is my favourite character, cry about it. He’s popular for good reason.

1. His design and voice are easily the best in the show

2. He’s a nice person

3. He don’t take shit from nobody and we love that

I wish I had the confidence aiden has,, like deadass is not afraid to say it like it is and we love that for him.