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The only reality where I'm happy is a reality where I'm dead, gone from this earth.
A reality where I'm never born.
Everything would be so much better.
#personal vent#anxiety depression#depressing life#depressing shit#kinda depressing#dead inside#sorry for being depressing#tw depressing stuff#tw depression#tw depressing thoughts#bpd vent#bpd fp#actually bpd#bpd thoughts#bpd
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đđ¨đŹđ đđ˘đđĄđ¨đŽđ đđ¨đŽ - đ.đŚ.
eddie munson x fem!reader
summary you're falling apart and no one can see it. apart from eddie, and he wants to do whatever he can to help you. but you're used to doing everything by yourself. (3.9k)
warnings mental health, anxiety, talks of depression, mentions of suicidal thoughts, brief talk of body image issues, crying, lots of emotions, fluff, brief kissing, this is kind of a heavy one so please bear that in mind <3
It was never pretty when you finally let all of your emotions out. Itâs why you rarely let yourself feel them.Â
But if you didnât let yourself feel them you worried you would drown in them. They would take over your whole being and there wouldnât be enough of you left for you to recognise when you looked in the mirror.Â
Everyone always told you there was nothing wrong with you. That you werenât broken like you insisted each time their monotone voices tried to snap you out of a bad episode. You almost wanted to be broken, you wanted there to be a reason you felt like this. Because if there wasnât, and this was just how you were. Then you werenât sure you could live like that. At least if there was something wrong with you, you could blame everything on that. You could blame the way you push people away on that. You could blame the way you self-sabotage on that.Â
You could blame the way you find so much comfort in sadness on that.Â
You had felt yourself slipping into that mirror-image version of yourself this whole week. The version of yourself that was there, but wasnât really there. Your voice wasnât your own. Every word you said felt like you were reading it off a teleprompter, saying precisely what everyone around you wanted to hear so they could convince themselves that you were alright.Â
So you did just that. You smiled when you had to. Spoke only when you couldnât avoid it. And no one noticed.Â
Apart from one.Â
Because Eddie always noticed.Â
You hadnât been together for very long. You certainly hadnât been together long enough for Eddie to see you like this. But he knew nonetheless that something was wrong.Â
It was why he had asked you to come round tonight. Wayne would be at work, as usual, and he wanted to spend the night with you.Â
When Eddie had told you that, he quickly clarified through blushing cheeks and a peal of nervous laughter that he didnât mean âspend the night with youâ in that way. He just wanted you there.Â
So you said okay. Told him you would be there at seven. He smiled an almost sickly-sweet smile and pulled you in for a hug, too tight to be casual, and told you heâd see you then; his hand resting on your arm even after you had pulled away from the hug.Â
You knew he knew. You knew heâd ask you about it. About why you were so⌠you didnât know what you were. But it wasnât you. Â
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It was a cold night. The bitter air bit at your face and tried to fight its way through the layers you were wearing. The sharp pain that shot through your hands at the coldness was almost therapeutic. It distracted you for just a second and was enough to make your mind go quiet. Which was something you had never been able to do.Â
You knocked on the trailer door and took a step back, waiting for Eddie to open it. But instead, you heard his voice ring out from inside, telling you to come in. You were sure the whole trailer park must have heard him. The boy did not have a quiet bone in his body.Â
Pushing the door open you were met with a comforting warmth and the yellow light from the lamps dotted around the trailer lit up your face. You dropped your bag to the floor and pulled your sleeves down, tucking your hands away in them, letting the heat sink deep into your bones.Â
Eddie appeared a few seconds later, popping his head up from where he was knelt down behind a kitchen counter.Â
âAngel!âÂ
He always called you that. And even so, it still made your heart swell whenever he called out to you.Â
âHey Eddie,â your voice came out much quieter than you intended it to. You were trying to put on a brave face, or whatever the fuck your counsellor had called it. Apparently, you had a bad habit of pretending you were okay when you werenât. You didnât need a professional to tell you that, but sure. Thanks.Â
Eddieâs face dropped slightly, his smile fading for a second before he composed himself. His face lit back up if only slightly more forced than before, and stood up.Â
âI uh- I was trying to find your popcorn. You know the one with the chocolate and stuff mixed in?â
You nodded, taking a seat on one of the chairs that hadnât been pushed back under the table, pulling a leg up to rest your chin on your knee.Â
âYeah but I canât- I canât find it,â Eddieâs brows scrunched up in confusion and he spun round a couple of times, his eyes darting across the kitchen.Â
You couldnât help the smile that tried to tug at your lips. He looked like a lost child. But you loved him anyway.Â
Not that you had told him you loved him yet. It seemed too soon and, if you were being honest, the idea of telling anyone, even Eddie, that you loved them scared the shit out of you.Â
So instead of saying âyouâre an idiot you know that? I love you though.âÂ
You said, âI think I finished it last time I was here.â
Eddie stopped abruptly, his hair flying around him as he halted his movements and flicked his eyes over to meet yours.Â
âYou did?â He sounded genuinely upset, you werenât sure why, it was just popcorn.Â
âI think so,â You watched as Eddie leaned against the counter, and you switched your legs around, dropping the right one to the floor and resting your chin on your left knee instead.
âRemember last Tuesday? It was storming outside so we stayed in and watched all those films. I ate it then.â
âOh- I donât remember you eating it?â
âYeah, thatâs because you fell asleep ten minutes after you lay down next to meâÂ
âYou were playing with my hair! It is completely on you that I fell asleepâ Eddie laughed between words, and you wished you could laugh too. But you couldnât.Â
Eddie picked up on whatever it was you were feeling and his laughter died down as he cleared his throat, a not-so-subtle tell that he felt unsure of what he was meant to say or do.Â
You hated that it was you who made him feel like that. You hated that you were such a burden to everyone around you; you hated the way you could make even the happiest people feel sad, just by being in the same room as you. It was like you were draining to be around.Â
âIâm gonna go and uh- go and get changed if thatâs okay?â You stood up and waited for Eddie to respond, he seemed to be distracted now, his eyes almost looking through you rather than at you.Â
âOh yeah- yeah, of course, sweetheart. Iâll order a pizza for us, yeah?âÂ
âThat sounds good, EdsâÂ
Eddie smiled at you. It was a painful smile, one that didnât quite reach his eyes. As you walked past him he reached a hand out and let it rest on your back until you were too far away.Â
You made your way to his room and heard him shuffle around behind you. You should say something, right? Tell him you were okay. Reassure him?Â
You wanted to. You were going to. But then your hand was on the door handle and you had walked into Eddieâs room without saying anything to him. It was like you were fighting a constant battle with your own mind. You knew what you wanted to say and do, but you still couldnât manage it.  Â
Eddie made sure you knew very quickly into the relationship that you were welcome to wear any of his clothes. In fact, he encouraged it. So, instead of bringing pyjamas with you, you had made the executive decision to wear Eddieâs clothes tonight.Â
You flicked on the lamp in his room and knelt down by the dresser, pulling out some of his clothes.
You settled on an old-band tee (if you were being honest, you didnât recognise the band. You were getting better at knowing Eddieâs music, but you were still learning. And Eddie was more than happy to tell you everything about them).Â
You threw on the already oversized tee and pulled on a pair of his clean boxers over your underwear to wear as shorts.Â
You already felt safer. His clothes smelt like him. They wrapped you up in a warm hug and told you everything would be fine. You just wished you could believe it.
You turned on your heel and noticed something you had somehow not seen when you walked into his room. His bed. It was made up with fresh sheets on it and smelt like⌠flowers? Almost as if someone had sprayed perfume on the bed.Â
And there was a toothbrush and toothpaste lying on the pillow, as well as an eye mask. You walked over to it and ran your fingers over the pillow. Fuck.Â
You didnât realise you were crying until your vision went blurry. Your head started spinning and in a moment of upset, you sank to the floor, sitting with your back resting against the wall and you let the tears fall.
Before you could wipe them away you heard the bedroom door open, you spun round and saw Eddie standing there, his eyes flicking between you and the bed. His face filled with dread and you could physically see the internal battle he was having with himself over what he should say or do first.Â
âBaby- baby, hey donât cry. Itâs okayâ
You hid behind your hands. It was a childish move, but it made you feel safe. You didnât want him to see you like this. You heard him moving around, his footsteps carried across the room as he made his way over to the bed, sitting down on it, giving you as much space as you needed.Â
âSweet- hey, I didnât do it for that.âÂ
Huh?Â
âI- I told Wayne you were coming to stay for the night and he told me I should make sure you were comfortable here. He took me out to buy you some toiletries and fresh sheets for the bed because apparently mine are too old and even he doesnât trust them, which I think is rude to be honest- but anyway, thatâs- thatâs what all this is.âÂ
Eddie took a much-needed breath before he picked up the eye mask and twirled it around in his hands.Â
âItâs all for you so itâs like being at home. You have one of these, right?â You didnât answer, still crying and not even looking at him.Â
âI can sleep on the couch, I was going to! There are blankets and pillows out there for me. I donât want you to feel like you staying the night meant- fuck. I just wanted it to be nice, Iâm so sorryâÂ
Oh.
Oh, you loved him more than you could ever tell him.Â
âItâs okayâ Your voice was small but you needed him to know that was not why you were crying. At all. In fact, that idea hadnât even crossed your mind. Eddie had made sure you knew there was absolutely no rush, no pressure, to do anything that you didnât feel comfortable with.Â
âI wasnât- Iâm sorry I wasnât crying because of that,â You still werenât looking at him, but you had dropped your hand from your face. You now stared at the floor, anywhere but looking at him.Â
âWell- oh. But, baby? Why were you crying then? Are you⌠does something hurt? Do you need me to get you something?â Eddieâs soft voice hit every nerve in you and brought the tears back to your eyes. You let them fall down your cheeks freely; there was no point in hiding them anymore. He had already seen what a mess you were.Â
âItâs nothing. Iâm fineâÂ
Fine.Â
You didnât believe it, and evidently, neither did Eddie because he said your full name and that grabbed your attention. Because he never did that.Â
âYou need to talk to me.â His voice had changed. It was still soft but there was something lining it that made you feel like you had disappointed him.Â
Of course, you could never disappoint him. But he was worried as hell about you. He had barely slept last night because of you. He had picked up on your change in demeanour for a few days now, but he wanted to give you space. But he couldnât do that anymore.Â
âYou need to talk to me because youâre scaring me.âÂ
You were scaring him?Â
âEddie I-âÂ
âI have tried. I have tried to give you space but- baby, I donât know what to do anymore. I thought you would come to me, talk to me. But you havenât and I canât just sit back and pretend I donât see you slowly killing yourself.âÂ
You had one hand picking at a loose carpet thread and the other one resting on your knee, digging your nails in until you knew you had have crescent-shaped scars there tomorrow.Â
âIâm sorry.â It was all you could say. All you could force yourself to say.Â
For a beat, Eddie didnât say anything, and you worried you had annoyed him. You were ready for him to get up and walk out.Â
But he didnât-Â
âCome here,â He moved back on the bed, leaning against the wall to give you space to sit however you wanted.Â
You thought about staying where you were. But something inside you had you moving to sit next to him before you could think about it for very long. You climbed onto the bed and sat next to him, shoulder to shoulder. You didnât look at him, and you didnât move when he tried to pull you against him.Â
You didnât know why you wouldnât let him love you.Â
âTalk to me, baby.â His voice was as quiet as yours had once been.Â
âI donât know what to say.âÂ
âSay whatever you need to say.âÂ
âI-âÂ
Fuck why was this so hard. You should be able to talk to him, if there was anyone in the world you could talk to, it was him. And yet, here you were.Â
âI just want to feel okay again.âÂ
âOh, sweetheart.â You had just pulled his heart out and broken it in two. He had never heard you speak like this. He had never heard you speak and have your voice break from the raw pain you were feeling. He wanted, no needed, to make you feel safe.Â
âIâm so sorry. What can I- what can I do? Tell me, please.â He was all but down on his knees begging you to tell him how he could help you.Â
âI donât know. I donât know Eddie because if I knew I wouldnât feel like this, would I?â
Shit. You didnât mean to say that. You donât even know where that came from.Â
âIâm sor-â
âDonât apologize. Itâs good, this is good,â Eddie placed a hesitant hand on your leg, and when you didnât flinch away he let it rest there. An anchor to keep you here with him. A gentle reminder that you werenât alone. No matter how alone you felt. âShowing emotion is good, sweetheart. No matter what it is.âÂ
âI shouldnât have yelled at you. I donât know why I did that.âÂ
âMaybe because you feel scared. Maybe you donât know how you feel right now and thatâs really scary, to not understand our own emotions.âÂ
God, if anyone ever called him dumb again you were going to dropkick them because he may just be the smartest person you have ever met.Â
You leant into him a bit more, your head resting above his shoulder. It felt good to be close to him. He made you feel okay again.Â
âI just feel- I just feel so⌠numb. I know Iâm not okay. But I donât know why, I donât know why I feel this way but I do. I feel this weight in my chest and it-â your voice broke as you started to cry again, but you pushed through, because it was Eddie.Â
âIt feels like I canât breathe. Because I wake up and I donât even get one second of calm before the anxiety hits and my heart is racing and I have these horrible thoughts. And I feel like that all the time. I overthink everything and I convince myself that everyone hates me and- itâs so tiring. I hate myself. I hate what I look like like, I hate my own brain, I just hate myself. I feel so uncomftorable in my own body. And Iâm not important, Iâm not interesting, Iâm notâŚanything. I feel like everyone else is okay and I am just drowning every second of every day and I have to pretend Iâm okay because there are people who have it way, way worse. And every day I wake up and I wish-â You cut yourself off abruptly.Â
âYou wish what, sweets?â Eddie asked you, his hand on your leg now rubbing soothing circles into it.Â
âI wish I didnât have to wake up.âÂ
In a split second Eddie had pulled you into him and had his arms wrapped so tightly around you that you werenât sure where he ended and you began. You buried your head inbetween his neck and his shoulder and let yourself need him.Â
You let yourself need someone else for the first time. You clinged to him like a lifeline and let him breathe life back into you. Your hands went under his t-shirt and you let them run up and down his back. Eddie was holding onto you too tightly to even move a limb. You heard his little shh shh shhâs and Iâve got youâs before you noticed you were crying.Â
And the you let yourself feel everything you had pushed so far down you almost forgot how much it hurt.Â
âItâs so hard. Everything is so hard and I donât think I can do it. I donât think Iâm strong enough.â Eddie had to fight to hear your words through the gut-wrenching sobs you were finally letting out. But he did listen. He would listen for the rest of his life if you needed him to.Â
So thatâs what he did. He listened to you. You told him everything, you told him everything you were feeling and he sat and he took in every word. It was hard, for both of you, but it was desperately needed. Because it wasnât until you truly spoke the words out loud for the first time that you realised how close to the edge you had been.Â
Eventually you ended up curled into Eddieâs side. Your legs were tangled together and you had your arms wrapped around him. One hand slid under his t-shirt to rest on his chest, it grounded you somehow, to feel him. He kept a tight hold on you the entire time, his calming hands rubbing up and down your arms and his lips pressing delicate kisses on the top of your head every few minutes.Â
Whenever he could hear you getting emotional again he would cut in with some comforting words, âYouâre okay, Iâve got youâ and âIâm so proud of you, babyâ.Â
Eventually your words died out and you lay in slience for a few minutes until Eddie said âCan I say something?âÂ
You nodded against his chest and he gently tapped on your arms before pulling you up to look at him.Â
âYou are the most incredible person I have ever met. Every day you just amaze me. The way you talk- shit, the way you talk about the things you love? Oh my god, I could listen to you talk about your interests for hours. Because you get this little gleam in your eye and you do thing where you donât even finish your first thought before youâre moving onto the next thing.â You watched him talk, you let him talk instead of cutting him off and insisting he was wrong.Â
âBaby you are so fucking strong. You just keep fighting and I donât know how you do it. Because you do it on your own, and it kills me to watch. It kills me to watch you close yourslef off from everyone else and fight on your own. I just- I just want to be there for you. I want you to come to me when you need help, and I know you wonât do that just yet- maybe not ever. Because youâre not used to having that, but thatâs okay because I will wait for you, i will always be here ready to catch you or fall with you or sit and cry with you, if thatâs what you need.âÂ
You were crying again and Eddie lifted a hand to wipe away the tears that were staining your flushed cheeks.Â
âAnd youâre so beautiful it kills me that you donât see that. There is not one goddamn thing I would change about you. Nothing. I swear on my life, fuck I swear on Wayneâs life, I think you are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. Everything about you makes me feel week in the knees baby I swear.â Eddieâs saccharine sweet voice found itâs home in you and calmed something inside you that you thought could never be calmed.Â
âI love you.â It was all you could say. Those were the only three words you could muster that encapsulated how you felt right now. And it scared you to death to say them, but you figured that if loving someone scared you that meant it was the real thing.Â
Without missing a beat Eddie said, âI love you too.âÂ
He pulled you to him and kissed you. It was gentle, sweet. You breathed him in and let his lips say everything else you werenât ready to hear yet. You kissed until you had to pull away reluctantly to breathe.Â
Eddie rest his forehead against yours and you both closed your eyes for a second, simply being with each other was enough.Â
Until- âWait, didnât you order a pizza?âÂ
âNo. I knew something was going on with you and I couldnât do anything until I knew you were okay.âÂ
âOh.âÂ
âOh Iâm sorry did you want a pizza?â Eddieâs voice was laced with sarcasm as he pulled away from you to stare at you. It made you laugh.Â
âNo, I just want you.â You told him, pushing him down flat agains the bed and moving to rest your head on his chest. Eddie let you move him, he let you lie curled into the side of him, half on top of him, before he pulled a blanket over both of you.Â
âCan you stay in here tonight. I donât want you to sleep on the couch.â Your voice was muffled by the way you buried your head against his chest, but he still heard you.Â
âYeah angel, Iâm not going anywhere.âÂ
Thatâs how you fell asleep that night, with Eddieâs arms wrapped around you and so close to him that there wasnât even room left for air to get between the two of you. You slept so deeply that night that you knew you didnât ever want to sleep without Eddie again.Â
Which was good. Because Eddie wasnât planning on letting you go anytime soon.
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authors note i wrote this last week during a very difficult time. this is very self-indulgent. the writing is not good, i wrote this with no outline, no plot, nothing. i know this is not my best work at all but i still wanted to post it. you've been warned <3
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(tumblr please don't delete the last line of this babe i love you)
#eddie munson fluff#eddie munson angst#eddie munson x reader#eddie munson#eddie munson comfort#eddie munson smut#eddie munson x you#eddie munson x female character#eddie munson x fem!reader#eddie munson x fem!reader fluff#eddie munson stranger things#eddie munson st4#eddie munson oneshot#eddie munson fic#eddie munson x fem!reader smut#mental health#anxiety depression#eddie stranger things#eddie munson x y/n
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So asinine to me that neighborhood noise ordinances only apply to night time
There are endless reasons a person might need to sleep during the day, on any given day or regularly. Sleep disorders and chronic fatigue are not uncommon and are a byproduct of countless other conditions, also people work nights.
There are endless reasons other than sleep that a person might need a reasonably quiet environment. People work from home. People have different neurotypes. People have sensory and auditory issues. People have migraines and endless other noise-sensitive conditions. People have children and pets with these issues.
People deserve to not hear ridiculous volumes from inside their homes against their will, regardless of their schedule, health conditions, or anything else.
Emergency responders definitely work nights and definitely definitely should be so so well rested please if I need emergency surgery or a house fire put out at 2am in the future I would love if the people I call about that were on top of their game idk
I donât think a manâs right to vroom-vroom his old car in his yard for hours at a time and blast bass-heavy music from his driveway and light off firecrackers all day is more important that any of that but okay
#audhd problems#adhd autistic#sensory issues#disability advocacy#auditory processing disorder#sleep disorder#cptsd#actually autistic#neurodiversity#first responders#emergency response#delayed sleep phase disorder#insomia#migraine#cluster headaches#neurotypicals be like#anxiety depression#autistic stuff#audhd things#nap time#accessibility#chronic illness#chronic fatigue#chronic fatigue syndrome#spoonie#allistics#trauma recovery#did osdd#sleep disorders
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My personal space is around 5 kilometers in every direction. Just don't come close to me, please leave me alone.
#actually bpd#actually anxious#actually mentally ill#actually autistic#actual depression#tw depressing thoughts#tw depressing stuff#sorry for being depressing#dark humor#relatable#random thoughts#autistic things#autism#autistic adult#bpd#bpd thoughts#borderline personality disorder#anxi4ty#anxitey#introvert#i hate people#leave me alone#autistic thoughts#social anxiety#anxiety disorder#anxiety depression#depression stuff#depression struggles#anxiety stuff#im just a girl
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I hate that I have to deal with things that arenât my fault, and heal from the traumas that Iâm not the cause.
#anxiety depression#overthinking#late night thoughts#mentally drained#tired#emptycore#empty inside#depressing quotes#insecurities#self confidence#self esteem#relatable#not worthy#lost#im tired#i'm so fucking tired#alone with my thoughts#tired of this shit#thoughts#mental health#sad poetry
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Seeing an image from Dreamscapers, where you see Stan's mind scape is both enlightening and heartbreaking at the same time.
Overall, the landscape is grey, while various memories behind the doors are all in color. I can promise you, as someone diagnosed with severe depression, this is probably the first to second most accurate description of depression I've ever seen portrayed in animated form.
At least my experience with it is an overall grey mind scape, with both dark corners I try to keep myself from going into, and bright moments I keep "behind closed doors" to retain as best I can. Giving it a little bit of a blurry resolution also is very accurate, as in my case, my memory is really bad.
Another little piece of this show, and Stan I hold close to me now đĽşđĽšđĽş
#stan pines#stanley pines#post about stan#grunkle stan#i love him#depression sucks#anxiety depression#dreamscapers#gravity falls
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theres a whole world out there---are you really going to let fear take that away from you? if it were me, id squeeze every ounce of joy that i could
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i want to hug the shadow people in my room
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and reblog if you can -- i'm curious!
#spoonie#actually mentally ill#mental illness#actually disabled#chronically ill#chronically disabled#depression#fibromyalgia#adhd#ableism#bipolar disorder#chronic pain#anxiety depression#mental health#polls
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I want to fucking break everything in my house.
I want to fucking burn my fucking piece of shit house.
But I don't want to break them cause it's going to take so much money to repair them all.
#personal vent#anxiety depression#depressing life#depressing shit#kinda depressing#dead inside#sorry for being depressing#tw depressing stuff#tw depressing thoughts#tw depression#bpd thoughts#bpd fp#bpd vent#actually bpd#bpd
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Today my ex texted me that he wanted to talk to me about us on Friday. Itâs going to be another tough conversation.
So I decided to take anti anxiety pills because of this situation. I donât want to feel bad because of him. I just want to put an end to this suffering. Iâm still not 100% stable. Yesterday I was crying because of our conversation and I was so down after that.
#anxiety depression#anxitey#depressing shit#breakup#mental health#tw depressing thoughts#mental illness
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Does anybody else feel like therapy sometimes is like reliving your trauma or is it just me? Today was rough.
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OK, gonna vent, cause fuck that. I'm gonna be vague here, cause this applies to a lot of things for me
I'm really scared to talk about a lot of my trauma, cause I feel like it's not as bad as it could be, and that people with worse trauma will feel like no one talks about things as bad as what they went through (which ik is irrational to think, cause trauma isn't a competition, and when I see people talking about "less traumatic" events as really traumatic, I'm like, damn, that seems really traumatic. But anxiety isn't rational), and that people will think I'm making a fuss over nothing. Like my experiences aren't always as bad as other people's, and I think people will invalidate or minimise my trauma, which has happened before (mostly within my family though, so um yeah). So I just don't talk about it often. And I'm really open about probably too much at that, it's just. Idk.
Also, on another note, all the stuff I've only just realised recently is insane. Like it's never occurred to me that what I've experienced has "fit the categories" or words I've been hearing my whole life. It's just like those terms felt so far removed from my experiences, and then I realise that the reason other people's experiences that they describe with those words felt so personal to me in a way, like they struck a chord, for lack of a better saying, was because I've had experiences those words can describe. This whole sentence sounds so confusing, but oh well.
Like everything makes no sense, I'm confused all the time, and it just keeps getting worse. Or smth. Idk it's like 1am.
#vent tw#vent post#personal vent#venting#cptsd vent#bpd vent#vent#bpd traits#bpd#bpd thoughts#complex ptsd#c ptsd#tw depression#tw depressing stuff#sorry for being depressing#depressing shit#depressiv#tw depressing thoughts#depressing life#anxeity#anxienty#anxious thoughts#anxiety depression#anxiety disorder#mental illness#mental health#actually mentally ill#trauma tw#trauma
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Itâs becoming so hard for me to open up to anyone again.
#anxiety depression#overthinking#late night thoughts#mentally drained#tired#emptycore#empty inside#depressing quotes#insecurities#self confidence#self esteem#relatable#not worthy#lost#im tired#i'm so fucking tired#alone with my thoughts#tired of this shit#thoughts#mental health#sad poetry
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me when
yk when your life lowkey feels like itâs falling apart. Thatâs whatâs happening to me even though most big picture things are going great. Summer depression hit. Idk wtf to do. Kind of a vibe? (Not rlly) but hey⌠I HAVE MUSICALS :â)
#broadway#musicals#musical theatre#theatre kid#theatre life#mental health#mental illness#mentally exhausted#anxiety depression
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-10000 aura for being on antidepressants and still being depressed
#mental illness#depressing shit#mental problems#mentally tired#anxiety depression#self h@rm#self h@te#triggerwarning#self h#s3lfharmm
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